#I feel like Jennifer Aniston in Bruce Almighty

[legendary-defender-of-fandoms]

Because I’m stuck in the Rot, More Thoughts about Wreck it Ralph

I know, I know. It’s just a stupid kids’ movie about a bunch of stupid video game characters going on stupid adventures and making stupid jokes. This REALLY isn’t something worth obsessing over, especially with the myriad of dumpster fires that is The Real World right now. Who gives a shit about cartoons when there’s at least one active genocide, the US is going back to the Bad Old Days, and trillionaires exist?

But the thing is . . . I DO care. I care so much. And I know I shouldn’t.

I was the ABSOLUTE last person who should’ve liked the first Wreck-it Ralph. I knew no one in the cast by name or reputation, I missed the majority of the video game references (like not realizing Tapper was a real-ass game from the real-ass world until much later), and I only went to the opening weekend showing because I was excited for Paperman (the short that played prior to the movie, not the video game character). I told myself I was going to walk out as soon as the movie bored me. I thought I’d be there ten minutes.

And then, the movie started.

By the time the camera pushed in on the Fix-it Felix Jr. screen & we entered the world of the video game characters, I was glued to my seat. But it wasn’t until we faded in on Ralph sitting in his first Bad Anon meeting, pouring his heart & soul out to his fellow Bad Guys (and the audience) that I realized he was me.

I mean, not literally. Obviously. But as the movie kept playing, I kept feeling like someone had ripped out my soul & put it on the big screen. There have been other Disney characters I’ve liked or related to for surface-level similarities (She likes books? I like books! That kind of stuff).

But Ralph hit SO MUCH deeper. He was this guy feeling stuck in a role he wasn’t sure he was meant to play, feeling literally AND metaphorically out of place even in a world where he SHOULD have felt at home, tired of ALWAYS being compared to someone else and found lacking because HIS talents didn’t match the OTHER’S talents, desperate for someone, ANYONE, to see what he had to offer and say “You have value. You matter.” And there were other similarities - the short temper, the clumsiness/tendency towards accidentally breaking stuff, the gap in the top front teeth, etc. But it was the core of his character - feeling lost, being secure in his identity but looking for someone to see him & accept him - that truly resonated with me.

And the rest of the movie. I could talk about what was IN the movie, but I want to talk about what WASN’T in the movie. Like the Bad Anon scenes. It was silly because of who was there, but they played it DEAD serious in the movie. This was not a “D’oh hoh hoh, silly support group for silly people because mental health is for losers” scene - they paid support groups & mental health the respect they deserve! And it was inspiring that Ralph STAYED IN Bad Anon even after getting his “Happily Ever After.” Sure, it was probably just meant to be a framing device, but I saw it as mental health positivity. And there were spin-off short stories that carried the idea of Ralph staying in Bad Anon, further reinforcing the idea that support groups are helpful & there’s nothing wrong with reaching out for help.

And for a plus-size character, Ralph has a surprising lack of fat jokes aimed at him in the first movie. I think Vanellope has one line about him having a go-kart “hidden in the fat folds of his neck,” but I think that’s because she wasn’t allowed to say “Well, unless you have a go-kart hidden in your ass crack.” And there are scenes in the first act when Ralph is clearly too big to comfortably walk through the Niceland Apartment or when his tummy bulges out when he straightens his stolen Hero’s Duty armor, but I saw those more as “Ohh, this is a visual representation of how Ralph feels out of place because this world wasn’t made to accommodate someone like him and/or he’s not prepared for what he’s about to get into” as opposed to “D’oh Ho Ho, he’s FAT.”

It was just so refreshing to see a movie that didn’t go for as many cheap shots as it probably could’ve. Ralph was treated with so much respect in the first movie, and it felt so nice to see someone who I resonated with so thoroughly not being treated like the butt of the joke. The movie became an instant favorite, and Wreck-it Ralph took over a special place in my heart & my brain. On bus rides home from college I’d be on my laptop making music videos about Ralph & Vanellope (NOT SHIPPING THEM AT ALL!!!!!!! I used songs clearly meant to convey familial love like “BBBFF” and “You’ll Be In My Heart”) I eagerly waited for Disney to give us console games based on Sugar Rush & Hero’s Duty (and yes, I DID buy the micro Fix-it Felix Jr. cabinet when it was offered at Walmart, and if there is ever a full cabinet game offered I WILL be the first to buy it, build it, and set every record possible for a cabinet game). When Motorchickensmile published their Love Bug fanfic on Fanfiction.net & posted their art on DeviantArt, I was HOOKED! If that was the ONLY sequel we ever got to Wreck-it Ralph, I would’ve died happy.

Then Disney announced the official sequel. And like the rest of the world, I was PUMPED! A little confused because Ralph didn’t have anything to do with the Internet and it seemed odd to get the arcade characters out of the arcade, but I was hopeful. After all, the first movie was beloved by old school gamers, new gamers, and folks who only knew Pokémon (I.e. me). SURELY they’d know what they were doing with online gaming!

And then I saw the sequel.

There are a lot of scenes from Wreck-it Ralph that live in my head. I saw the movie at least 4 times in theaters, and when the movie went on sale I was there the day it dropped to buy it & put the digital copy on my iPod. But you know that scene when Ralph destroys Vanellope’s go kart while she’s stuck in the tree, and she’s BEGGING him not to, SCREAMING in agony as he obliterates the first thing he ever made that someone saw value in, the promise of her future, a symbol of their shared outcast status but still being worthy? And you can SEE the misery in Ralph’s face, how he HATES doing this, but keeps going because he thinks he has to for the greater good?

Yeah, that’s what Ralph Breaks the Internet did to my perception of Wreck-it Ralph.

Gone were any traces of nuance, maturity, introspection, or even basic intelligence. NOW Ralph is a gross idiot who is SUPER clingy to Vanellope, regularly abandons his game during arcade hours (which, in case folks forgot from the first movie, was a SUPER BIG DEAL THAT COULD’VE ENDED HIS WORLD & KILLED THE NICELANDERS), throws temper tantrums & blubbers like a baby when things don’t go his way. Ralph goes OUT OF HIS WAY to endanger Vanellope just to keep her close, and he NEVER holds himself accountable! The first movie was all about Ralph learning that self worth can’t be measured in medals, but in the sequel he is CONSTANTLY flashing his cookie medal like it’s supposed to mean something. Don’t even get me STARTED on all the fat jokes. And even BEFORE Ralph ruins Sugar Rush, you get the sense that while HE’S obsessed with Vanellope & their friendship, Vanellope is feeling suffocated by this relationship & is desperate to get away from him.

The press releases said the movie was supposed to be about friends growing apart and going away but keeping the bonds of friendship. But to me? The whole thing felt like Disney was saying “Hey, YOU. Yeah, the IDIOT who thought they LIKED this giant man-baby moron? You’re super clingy and stupid. Don’t bother making friends - you’ll smother them with your attempts to bond. They can do so much better than you, and you’re only holding them back. Now, who wants to watch us add insult to injury by stuffing this gorilla in a dress designed for a 14-year-old princess?”

Again, I don’t think that was the INTENDED message of the movie. But it was just SO mean-spirited, especially when compared to the uplifting messages of the first movie. Which I guess was inevitable for a movie trying to be about the Internet, but still.

So, yeah. I had to step away from the franchise. And it HURT! This story - this character - was such a huge part of my life for years, and I had to cut it out. There were periods of time when I’d forget about the franchise for a bit, or have More Important Things to worry about (like that global pandemic, the nut job & his cult trying to overthrow the US government, normal life stuff). But then I’d be hit with a thought about the first movie out of nowhere, and I’d be happy until I remembered how the sequel killed all of its goodwill.

To this day I still have mixed feelings about Ralph. I get excited when he & Vanellope are included in multi-IP projects, then get sad when I remember the sequel, then get mad at myself for getting excited, then get disappointed when I see more Vanellope merch than Ralph merch, then get mad again when I remember how badly the sequel burned me. AND HE’S NOT REAL!!! I’m being driven insane by a guy WHO DOESN’T EVEN EXIST!!!

When Disney announced their version of Animal Crossing, Dreamlight Valley, Ralph & Vanellope were two of the characters featured in the trailer. Two years later we got Vanellope, but the closest we’ve gotten to Ralph is an in-game chess piece. Meanwhile Vanellope’s getting some great interactions with Mike & Sully of Monsters Inc, with Sully taking a paternal shine to Vanellope. And now I’m constantly begging the Dreamlight Valley social medias for updates about Ralph. I’m excited to see him, but also worried because I don’t know if we’ll get the nuanced Bad Guy from Wreck-it Ralph or the clingy buffoon from Ralph Breaks the Internet. I know John C. Reilly won’t be voicing him (because he NEVER voices Ralph outside of the movies & Once Upon a Studio), but I’m also kind of hoping he will? I don’t know if I want my avatar to hug him, or punch him, or leave him stranded in the Vitalys mines, or love-bomb him with cookie medals, or just leave him off mode. I have a space saved right in front of my in-game house for HIS in-game house, but I might just spend the rest of the game on Eternity Isle so I never have to see him.

And again, this is all for some WHO IS NOT REAL!!!!! I know I have problems, I KNOW there’s SO MUCH MORE to worry about than an imaginary guy with ginormous hands! I WISH I could just not care about him, or his movie, or any fictional stories! I WISH I could go on a Disney Cruise and NOT look for his face in the Art of Animation wall art or in the kids’ area wall art! I WISH I could stop looking for him in Disney Lorcana, or mystery mini lines, or multi-IP books! But I also know I can’t. If I let myself give up on him, if I let Disney WIN? He’ll be Forgotten. Locked in that vault with no chance for redemption. There have been too many other characters to suffer that fate. Like Oswald. And I can’t let characters like Oswald or Ralph be forgotten.

[shotbyshe]

mediocrity - 2/2 - 8.19.20

What does mediocrity mean?

bland. boring. common. uninteresting. the opposite of exotic. the opposite of greatness.

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Now define mediocrity in the context of these terms: 1) Stuck 2) Centered 3) Belonging of self

I hazily remember us having an in-depth conversation about this. 

Whenever I think about mediocrity I think about the first time I heard the word. Jim Carrey said it to Jennifer Aniston in Bruce Almighty::

"I'm not okay with a mediocre job. I'm not okay with a mediocre apartment. I'm not okay with a mediocre life!" 

Her response was even sadder: "Is that what you think we have? a mediocre life?" I at times feel like Bruce when I look at my life. It's a simple one. It's not a big deal or extravagant but I am comfortable in it. There are times when I feel that comfort to be boring and stagnant. I find myself in a mundane routine, but at the end of the day I am grateful for it. It could be better it could be worse, but it's mine. 

Do I find my life to be mediocre? Yes, I do. I don't ever feel as if I'm special. No one is really. “The world is your oyster”, as they say. My mom said "your life is what you make it" and that's very true. If I wanted to I could change my life at any moment. But I don't think, deep down, I want it to change. For fear that my aim for the better will miss, and inevitably and accidentally make my life worst.

In terms of being stuck, I don't believe you can feel stuck if you have the means to change things. I am not stuck or stagnant. I can do something different, I just chose not to for the aforementioned reasons. I belong to me and no one else. I am responsible for myself and that in itself is a blessing. I can pick up and leave as I please. I can change my career like that, or build my career very quickly and easily. The fear is that I will do that: work that hard, and nothing will really change. Meaning, having a better apartment or a house or a better paying job, career, profession won’t heal whatever it is that is boring me on the day-to-day. I don't think I will then be satisfied or fulfilled because, as I said in another post, satisfaction and fulfillment doesn't exist. So why work hard? I rather work smart. 

I've been working smart for 3+ years now. I switched at 28 when my brain was fully developed and I realized that I had pretty much achieved everything I had set out to do since college: get a well-paying job and my own place. I had no other goals but that. It wasn't until 30 that I realized "oh shit! I never really build any sustainable relationships outside of my family. I think I want one now". This is the problem. This is the first goal I've ever had that involves someone else. Something out of my control is a big part of why I have constant anxiety. I now rely on someone else to fulfill a goal of mine -- to respond to all that I do in my control to persuade them. In 2020, this action is the most difficult it's been in history. Today, no one wants to get to know anyone, no one even looks at you anymore. Everyone is meeting their spouses on-fricking-line. I don't want that. I reallllly don't want that.

I don't feel that because I am single that I am stuck or mediocre. It's just that I have everything else I want and it would be nice to have something that I’ve never had or experienced before, or even thought I might want. Life is about trying new things, so I want to try it.

(this is a brain dump about more than just the prompt because I awoke on a Thursday with dead morning time and a need to fill it up before work -- 10.22.20 -- wrote while listening to fleet foxes' shore)

[deeeelightfuldee]

Created by taco-tuesdays

Do you live in the same hometown as where you were born? I was born at a hospital a town over from my home

Did you dorm at college or commute from home? I always commuted. I ain’t about to shell out even more money to have a regular “college experience” gosh i have so much anxiety about my loans as is.

How long before you tell someone that enough is enough? it takes me fooooooorever. I’ve been praying lately that God will help me to move on from Kile if he isn’t the one. I was so sure he was the one for me. I feel like jennifer aniston praying in bruce almighty where she’s begging God to help her move on from who she is in love with. or like help me to forget all those memories of how in love i was and how loved I felt.

Do you want to get married one day? Why or why not? yeah I really do. I want to belong to someone again and I want to build a life with someone. I am totally capable of being on my own and i LOVE my personal life i have. but I’m ready to love on someone.

Do you file your own taxes or have an accountant do it? I do it myself. there’s no reason to use an accountant yet because i legitimately have nothing.

How often do you get your haircut? so I had my sister chop a LOT off this year but it had been years before that. I’m about to change the color.

Do you prefer the thin blue and white masks, or decorative ones? I feel better about using the washable kind because i feel like it’s much less wasteful. I don’t mind the other ones. 

Have you ever witnessed someone have a seizure before? many, many, many times. I also have seizures 

Are you someone who puts a decent amount of emojis in their texts? i’ve started doing that when I’m messaging new people on dating apps. it seems to go well. 

What was the last excuse you used when you didn’t want to hang out? i force myself to go, tbh. I know how fragile I feel rn and how important it is to spend time with people when youre struggling, even tho all you want to do is be closed off by yourself.

Do you own more solid colored socks or patterned socks? Most are solid or have like a different colored toe/heel

What is something that still excites you as though you were 5 years old? Christmas, birthdays, 4th of july, moms cooking, organization, kitty paws, dogs, nintendo 64

Tennis, Ping-Pong, or Badminton? probably ping pong

Do you buy seasonal / limited edition food items? sooooo hm. I loved getting yule logs during the season but can’t eat that anymore. pumpkin pie, cant have. umm. hm. i can’t do most of the ones i used to.

Have you ever rode on the back of a shopping cart, or a Home Depot dolly? as a kid yes

Does everything you buy have to be organic? nooooooope. we studied in school how majority of “organic” foods are not at all what we think it is, and now it means abbbbbsolutely nothing to me.

Do you support more small businesses or chain restaurants/stores? there really aren’t many small businesses around me that sell things that I need. but I’m all for that.

Starbucks, Tim Horton’s, or Dunkin’ Donuts? i don’t drink coffee... so dunkin for hot choco.

Have you ever been crowned king or queen at a school dance? was homeschooled. nothin to crown lol

Do you have conversations with your pets or do voices for them? oh heckn yes. benny gets so many convos. plus, i am notorious for being like “benny said ________” to my mom. she loves it lol. I’ll text her and be like “benny wants to know when you’ll be home” or “benny said the turkey needs a blessing” and she just rolls with it tho I am sure shes annoyed.

[c-k-mack]

Distracted - Conclusion

[lindyhunt]

Everything Coming to Netflix Canada in December

Dumplin’

A Southern feel good beauty pageant flick set is exactly what the winter season called for. Adapted from Julie Murphy’s best-selling book of the same title, Dumplin’ stars Jennifer Aniston as the pageant-obsessed mother of Dolly Parton–obsessed Willowdean, played by Patti Cake$’ breakout Danielle Macdonald. When Willodean stages a protest and enters her mother’s teen pageant, other plus-size contenders follow—to which Willodean respond,  “I’m not the Joan of Arc of fat girls.” Here’s hoping Dumplin’ sets Netflix on the road to redemption after the whole Insatiable disaster. 

Available December 7

Tidelands: Season 1

Think Twilight meets Revenge — but with mermaids. That’s not how Netflix is describing this Australian Original Series, but it seems to hit the mark. The description they’ve shared is fairly vague: “Tidelands follows Cal McTeer (Charlotte Best), a young woman who returns home to the small fishing village of Orphelin Bay after ten years in juvenile detention. But her hometown is shrouded in mysteries, the greatest of which is the commune of outcasts who live in a hidden pocket of the bay.” And obviously, the entire cast is gorgeous. It sounds like the perfect soapy supernatural drama to binge-watch over the holidays.

Available December 14

Birdbox

I had my hands cupped over my mouth for the duration of this 3-minute trailer. Which means that, as a noted hater of bone-chilling post-apocalyptic films, I probably won’t be watching this. But hey, that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t! The Sandra Bullock-lead thriller mirrors of the sense-driven monster sentiment of John Krasinski’s ‘s A Quiet Place, but instead of having to keep silent, Bullock has to blindfold her small children. Here’s how Netflix describes Birdbox: “When a mysterious force decimates the world’s population, only one thing is certain: if you see it, you take your life.”

Available December 21

  And here’s the full list of everything else coming to Netflix in September:

Available December 1

Battle (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Conor McGregor: Notorious Crossroads: One Two Jaga (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Get Smart Hellboy Little Women Man vs Wild with Sunny Leone: Season 1 Mary and The Witch’s Flower Memories of the Alhambra (NETFLIX ORIGINAL SERIES: Streaming Every Saturday) Priest Resident Evil: Afterlife Rock Dog Unknown Yes Man

Available December 3

Hero Mask (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) The Sound of Your Heart: Reboot Season 2 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 4

Blue Planet II: Season 1

Available December 5

American Pie American Pie 2 American Wedding Bruce Almighty Evan Almighty Wentworth: Season 6

Available December 6

Star: Season 3

Available December 7

5 Star Christmas (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Dogs of Berlin (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Dumplin’ (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Free Rein: The Twelve Neighs of Christmas (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Mowgli: Legend of the Jungle (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Nailed It! Holiday! (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Neo Yokio: Pink Christmas (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Pine Gap  (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) ReMastered: Who Killed Jam Master Jay? (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Super Monsters and the Wish Star (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) The American Meme (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) The Hook Up Plan (Plan Coeur) (NETFLIX ORIGINAL ) The Ranch: Part 6 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Trolls

Available December 11

Vir Das: Losing It (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 12

Back Street Girls: Gokudols (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Out of Many, One (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 13

Wanted: Season 3 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 14

Chilling Adventures of Sabrina: “A Midwinter’s Tale” (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Cuckoo: Season 4 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Fuller House: Season 4 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Inside the Real Narcos (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Inside the World’s Toughest Prisons: Season 3 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Prince of Peoria: A Christmas Moose Miracle (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) ROMA (NETFLIX ORIGINAL FILM) Sunderland Til I Die (NETFLIX ORIGINAL FILM) The Fix (NETFLIX ORIGINAL FILM) The Innocent Man (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) The Protector (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Tidelands (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Travelers: Season 2 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Travelers: Season 3 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Voltron: Legendary Defender: Season 8 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 15

Dolphin Tale Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows

Available December 16

Paddington Springsteen on Broadway (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 18

Baki (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Ellen DeGeneres: Relatable (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Iron Man 3 Terrace House: Opening New Doors: Part 5 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 21

3Below: Tales of Arcadia  (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) 7 Days Out (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Back With the Ex (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Bad Seeds (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Bird Box (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Derry Girls (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Diablero (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Greenleaf: Season 3 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) LAST HOPE: Part 2 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Perfume (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Sirius the Jaeger (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Struggle: The Life and Lost Art of Szukalski (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Tales by Light: Season 3 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) The Casketeers (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Wolf (BÖRÜ) (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 23

Room

Available December 24

Hi Score Girl (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 25

Marvel Studios’ Avengers: Infinity War

Available December 26

Alexa & Katie: Season 2  (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) You  (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 28

Instant Hotel (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) La noche de 12 años/em> (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Murder Mountain (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Selection Day (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) When Angels Sleep (NETFLIX ORIGINAL) Yummy Mummies (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Available December 29

Eating Animals

[caffeinatedmusingsblog-blog]

love me love me love me

I recently watched a classic comedy, Bruce Almighty (Thank you Netflix) and as always, cringed at the blasphemous theme, but also laughed ‘till I cried when Bruce used his God-Almighty powers to control Evan Baxter’s on-air report (”blaksdjhflksjf goo-goo gaga!!”). If you know, you know. 

But as blasphemous as this movie is, there are some key moments that reflect some absolute biblical truths and actually, and accurately, touch upon the character of God. 

This being the fiftieth or so time watching this movie, this one scene specifically stood out to me for the first time. 

Bruce had come to a point where he used and abused all his God-given powers to boost his career, his name, his success. However, at the end of the day, this led to a fall in his relationship with his girlfriend, Grace (played by the beautiful Jennifer Aniston, whom my husband so likes... *cough). ANYWAY. Bruce comes to see Grace at her pre-school to see how she is doing since she moved out after catching Bruce in a moment of infidelity. He is genuinely apologetic, but she, still freshly wounded and heartbroken, walks away and tells him to leave. 

It’s in this moment that Bruce attempts to use his almighty power to force her to love him. He literally shouts, “LOVE ME!” But Grace glances back at him, completely unaware of the “power” he actually has, and responds, “I did,” and continues to walk away. For the first time since he left that white building endowed with all of God’s powers, Bruce feels powerless. 

He seemed to have forgotten the rules that God laid out for him while they were taking a stroll... on water. (yeah... they went there) 

“Rule #1 You can’t tell anybody you’re God.  Rule #2 You can’t mess with free will.”

At the near-end, when Bruce is at an ultimate low, sulking in his wet apartment, Morgan Freeman, AKA God, pays him a visit and Bruce asks him the question: 

“How do you make somebody love you without affecting free will?”

God proceeds to scoff, and responds, “Welcome to my world, son.” 

I love this aspect of the film because it really reflects the heart of God, and his character. I believe he has the ability to turn a heart of stone into a heart of flesh. I believe he has the ability to turn wicked people to turn to his face. 

But at the end of the day, His desire is for us to freely choose Him. His desire is for us to desire Him. It makes me wonder how much his heart breaks, daily, seeing His people desire the things of the world, when he has a banqueting table to offer us if we simply choose Him? As much as I’m not a fan of Jim Carrey, his portrayal of a desperate lover (to the point of craziness, literally) just deeply desiring the love in return of the one his soul loves, paints such a small, small glimpse into the heart of God and the jealousy He has for us over the things of the world. 

Just a thought I had over a strange comedy. 

Currently drinking an americano @ AoSA Coffee on a B-E-A-Utiful day. 

And that’s the way the cookie crumbles. 

(If you’re completely confused, please refer to the film to catch up on every reference made in this post. Kthnxbai.)

[behindthewayfarer]

I Have A Lot of Time for These Things but Not Really

I never really got how some people believe that accidents don't happen. I may have had an inkling of what it meant through the scene on The Curious Case of Benjamin Button where a series of unknown events, perfectly (or imperfectly) timed by the universe led to Cate Blanchett's accident that resulted to the end of her career as a ballerina, but that was fiction. Not until I realized through the harsh reality of my sordid flirtation with romantic interactions that, indeed, love does NOT move in mysterious ways. Fuck you Nina! Another movie reference: He's Just Not That Into You; the movie discusses how some people are the rule and some were the exception. I think I'm most likely to be the RULE. To be the exception I've to experience the romcom treatment and live happily ever after and let's be honest, I'm so the rule it's not even capable of interpretation. Like, you've gotta be some special kind of stupid to find some ambiguity of how much a rule I am. Case in point: at the end of the day, love is a CHOICE. My friend told me this and I actually believe her. We choose the people whom we love, care for. We choose the people who we give our heart to. And it is up for those people to value the love we give. The people we chose, they aren't always the right recipients. We chose them not because we know that they may reciprocate the things we give, we chose them because we think, feel that they're the right ones at that moment. When we're ready to give, to share our heart, we choose them not for convenience, but because goddamit we just feel it. But we still chose them. You're lucky if the feelings you give is reciprocated. If it doesn't, it's hard to hate people for things that aren't necessarily their fault. Another movie reference: Bruce Almighty. Jim Carey could get whatever he wanted because he was God for a certain time but he couldn't make Jennifer Aniston love him back, Samuel Jackson, de facto God, told Jim Carey that he could get whatever he wanted but he can't interfere with free will. We can't force someone to love us, to fix our unrequited glitch. Conclusion: be careful who you give your heart to. But not too careful. Or, like, really, you know... just be careful. Caveat: I may be drunk right now.