#I hope one day there will be a pm movie I'd watch it

[anonymousicecream]

Mistress (Haewon x M Reader)

Becoming a leader is tough. You knew that ever since you were 10, but it wasn't as if you can reject this role. You're the heir of Pacific Corporation, a multinational conglomerate based in Seoul, South Korea. As the heir, it makes sense for you to search for experiences before eventually leading the conglomerate. You're now assigned by your family, mainly your father, as the CEO of Asiana Airlines, an airline owned by Pacific Corp. You have been in the role for 2 years, rising from vice president before becoming the CEO of the company.

You're currently relaxing in your office as everyone already went home earlier. It's currently 9:30 PM, and you're waiting for the appearance of one specific person.

"Hello y/n." The person said. Before we continue, let's rewind to my first interaction with the person.

(Rewind to 6 months ago)

You have worked with Asiana Airlines for the past year and a half, but this week is your first as the chief operating officer of the company. As the COO, you are to make sure that things go well. Due to the fact that you work for an airline, a part of the things you have to do as the chief operating officer is to make sure that operations are going smoothly on every flight.

Today is one of those days where you have to assess the operations in a flight. You arrived at the airport 2 hours ago and you just boarded the plane, heading from Seoul to Tokyo. It'll be a two hour flight, so you hope you get to enjoy all the in-flight festivities. You took a seat at the window seat in first class, enjoying the whole row to yourself as the flight is surprisingly empty, at least in first class.

The take off went well and it didn't take long before the pilot turned off the "wear your seatbelt" sign. Since you always felt a bit nervous whenever you're on a plane, you never really take off your seatbelt unless you need to use the bathroom. You decided to distract yourself with the in-flight TV, searching on what movies to watch. Before you manage to find one, you saw a flight attendant walking towards you.

"Good afternoon sir, I'm Haewon and I will be your attendant helping you today. What would you like to order sir?" She asks you. "I'd take the soba along with a champagne please." You told her. "Of course sir." She then went off, preparing your order before she returned to you with your order. She prepared them down, laying it on the table for you before she said, "Enjoy your meal sir. I noticed that you seem tense before. If you need a 'desert', come to the front, I'll be there, alone." She said, teasing you, before she went off. You ate your meal while watching the movie, still contemplating whether you would accept Haewon's offer or not.

(Time skip)

You finished your meal, and you saw that there was still 60 minutes left on the flight. You decided to make the most of it, so you unbuckled your seatbelt and stand up, walking towards the front, closing the curtains in the process. As you walked, you saw Haewon standing near the pantry. She then looked at you, smirking at you before guiding you to the toilet, which you obeyed immediately. Once the two of you entered the toilet, you locked the doors before lifting her onto the sink.

"Make the most out of this please. I need a release, and by the looks of this, so do you." She said, in a begging tone. You smirked at her, before leaning in to kiss her on the lips. She replied with the same intensity, her hands never staying in one place, constantly moving around your back. It didn't take long before you decided to up the pace, reaching onto her tits, grabbing them. "Ah!" She moaned, which allowed you to insert your tongue into her mouth. She did the same to you, and it didn't take longer before you started getting hard.

Haewon noticed this, and decided to move her hands down to your trousers, unbuttoning them before dropping them as well as your boxers, releasing your cock onto the free air. She pulled out of the kiss, spitting on her hand before stroking your cock. You decided to do the same, spitting on your hand before reaching inside her dress, setting her panties aside and starting to rub on her pussy and clit.

The two of you returned to kissing, while simultaneously pleasuring each other with your hands. It didn't take long before you decide to insert your fingers into her pussy, making her moan. "Ahhh." You took the opportunity to move down, kissing her neck and jaw, creating extra stimulation for her. At the same time, she decided to stroke your cock harder.

"You're getting close mister. Just cum on me and we'll fuck. I'm pretty sure you can release more load." Haewon said, teasing into your ears as you groaned, hearing her words as well as feeling her strokes. You decided to up the pace on your fingers, making sure the two of you can cum together.

"I'm close." Haewon moaned. "Yeah that's it baby, cum with me, let's cum together." You groaned into her ears, increasing the speed of your fingers before she lets out one loud shriek and squirted onto your fingers. You continued fingering her, trying to reach your climax as well before she did one final stroke, tightening her hands around your cock, which caused you to cum as well. You finished on her thighs, covering each of them as you sucked on her neck while you cum.

"That was..... incredible. I didn't knew I need a release that bad." You told her, and she smirked at you. "As much as I'd want you to fuck me, I don't have condoms right now." She said. "Yes, that's a shame. Give me your number, we'll fuck in Tokyo." You told her, and she smirked, before typing in her phone number.

(Time Return to Today)

"Haewon. It's been a while." You told her. "Yes it has. How have you been?" She asked you. "Bad. Not fucking you for 2 weeks has been hell." You replied. "Same here. Let's just get to the point." She told you, and you agreed.

You got up from your seat, walking towards her as she walks towards you, meeting in the middle as the two of you reached onto each other's cheeks, making out with each other. It didn't take long before you grabbed onto her thighs, caressing them before you lift her up, earning a squeal from her as you guided her to your work chair, sitting down on the chair. It didn't take long before she moved her hands downwards, resting on your now hardening cock. She rubbed it through your trousers, before unbuckling your belt and trousers, lowering them as well as your boxers, unveiling your now-hard cock.

She immediately starts stroking on your cock at a very fast pace, and it became clear to you that all she wants to do now is focus on your pleasure, so you let her be. You started kissing her neck as well as grabbing her tits from her covered dress, before eventually moving to her thighs and ass, caressing them.

After a few moments, she stopped stroking you and got off you, kneeling down under you. She opened her mouth before spitting on her hand, stroking my cock before she inserted my cock into her mouth. Her mouth was warm, probably the warmest it had ever been ever since she first gave me blowjobs, and the way she moves her tongue is second to none. She knew my weak points, as well as how to hit them and how long she should do it in order to make me cum.

"I'm close." I told her, and she nodded, increasing her pace. It didn't take long before I reached my climax and as I was about to reach my climax, I grabbed her head, pushing it down my cock as I came deep inside her mouth, with the tip of my cock reaching her throat. "AHHHH!" You groaned, as she groaned as well, enjoying your cum. Once you finished cumming, you pulled out of her mouth and she opened her mouth wide, showing you your load. "Swallow it." You ordered, and she obeyed immediately. She then opened her mouth, showing her empty mouth which is a sign that she already swallowed the load.

"Get on the table, lie down." You instructed her, and she obeyed. As she did that, you got your clothes off, getting yourself naked, before you went to your drawer, taking out a box of condoms. You grabbed a pack of condom, as you tore it open, before Haewon grabbed it from you, as she sat up and rolled it onto your hardening cock. You smirked at her, before you lined your cock up with her pussy, before pushing in, earning a groan from her and yourself due to her tightness. You stayed there for a moment, staring at her before she nodded, allowing you to start moving.

You started moving in and out of her at a moderate but deep thrust, allowing you to reach her g-spot sooner than expected. It also allowed her to feel the full size of your cock, which, to your surprise, made her tremble more than expected. You reached for her tits, grabbing her dress strap down before unhooking her bra, throwing it to the side as you thrust into her harder. You started increasing your pace as she wraps her legs around your hips and ass, making you go deeper into her.

"AHHHH YES RIGHT THERE!" Haewon moaned, and you kept on aiming at her preferred spot again and again. It didn't take long before she started clenching as she moaned "I'm close!". You moved one of your hands onto her clit, rubbing it aggressively while you suck on her neck, collarbone and her tits, before she clenched one last time as she.......

"FUCKKKKK!!!!" She moaned loudly as she came, squirting on your cock. You ignored her moans as you continued thrusting in and out of her, prolonging and increasing pleasure to her orgasm. After she came down from her high, you pulled out of her, taking her dress off before you grabbed her by her thighs and lift her up. She wrapped her legs around your hips as you kissed her again, before settling down at the couch.

You lift her up and aligned your cock with her pussy, but as you lowered her down, she grasped your hands. "What?" You asked her. "No protection, just this once, please." She told you, and you considered for a second before agreeing to her idea. Haewon took the condom off your cock, throwing it away to the side before grabbing your cock, stroking it before she lowered herself on your cock. "Fuckkkkkk!" A groan from the two of you, feeling the size, tightness and warmth of each other.

It didn't take long for Haewon to adjust as she starts grinding on your cock, before moving up and down on your cock, managing to hit her g-spot again and again and again. You moved your hands onto her back, making her lean forwards as you start sucking on her tits.

It surprised you that you could last this long, considering how close you were, but you were relieved when she moaned "I'm close". You nodded at her statement, before reaching onto her hips and flipping her over onto her stomach while you were still inside her, earning a shriek from her. You put your hands on her hips, raising her ass up as you started pounding her from behind.

It didn't take for you to hit the sweet spot and you leaned onto her back, kissing her neck and back while your hands play with her tits and pussy, earning tons of moans from her. It didn't take long until.....

"FUCK! FUCK! FUCKKKKKK!" She moaned as she clenched, cumming, HARD. I gave her a few more thrusts before pushing into her as deep as I could, one last time, as I came deep inside. "FUCKK BABY!" You groaned into her ear as you dropped your load inside her scorching hot pussy, still kissing, sucking and biting on her neck.

"Ahhh fuck!" Haewon couldn't stop cumming, so I decided to give her a few more thrusts, prolonging her orgasm, and it definitely helped as she continued cumming, before we both came down from our highs. I pulled out of her, grabbing a tissue before cleaning her up and grabbing a blanket, wrapping the two of you over the couch as the two of you cuddled onto dreamland.

[themoonsbride]

After Dark | Albert Aretz x Reader

summary; Albert and Reader watch a movie together after he spends a long day filming for his channel .

warnings; none

notes; sorry I've been so inactive, I've been busy and haven't had motivation, hopefully I can start posting more often now . ♡ (sorry this is short)

(edit 7/19/23); lmao ty all for the likes even though it's short hehe, lmk in my inbox if I should write another albert scenario <3

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I've been scrolling through my phone for awhile now, mindlessly liking tweets and Instagram posts, waiting for albert to finish filming. He told me he'd finish around 7 pm, but it was now 8, and he seemed so occupied he wasn't even able to come out of his office to eat dinner.

I didn't want to disturb him so I just let him in his office and waited, and waited,, and waited. I think he's filming with Kaden because it's sounded like he's been talking to someone else.

"KADEN NO" I suddenly heard albert scream from his office, I almost dropped my phone onto my chin from the sudden alarm. Suppose I was right, I've met Kaden a few times before in the past, and he's really nice. I like his red hair, it's so bright red it reminds me of a tomato. I've also met some of Albert's other friends too, like Denis and Dani (Polarclub) and Temprist. They're all very nice people outside of their work, me and Dani are actually pretty close friends, and Denis is nice to talk to aswell, and his girlfriend is the sweetest.

"KADEN I TOLD YOU TO JUMP" Albert yelled, I sigh and find myself quietly giggling a little. Turning off my phone screen I decide to turn on the flat-screen TV that was kept sat on the black TV table across the king sized bed Albert and I shared. watching one of my favorite shows on a low enough volume for it to not disturb Albert's filming but loud enough for me to hear.

After what felt like the time span of 3 days, Albert finally entered the bedroom, looking worn out. "Hey" I speak softly, smiling at him. "Hey, did you make dinner earlier?" He asked, he probably felt like he was starving since he didn't eat, maybe I should've told him that I'd made food after all. "Yeah, but I didn't wanna be a bother so I just left it in the fridge for you." I reply, a hint of guilt clouds over his eyes as he sits next to me on our bed. "You never bother me, I wouldn't have care if you came in, my editor would've just clipped it out." His voice was slow and quiet. "I know, but I still would've felt bad." I responded as I slowly sat up, facing him properly.

"If you want I can go heat it up for you?" I say, in a question like manner, he smiles warmly at me and places a soft, long kiss to my lips, and I can feel it make my cheeks glow pink. I pull away and begin to stand and exit our bedroom.

When I enter through the doorway, warm porcine plate in hand with Albert's dinner, he's already lay in bed, the comforter pulled up to his biceps with a movie prepped on the TV screen, the lights dimmed lowly. I give him a small smile as I hand him his plate carefully. "I was hoping we could watch a movie together." He whispered down to me, pressing play. "I'd love to watch a movie with you." I mumble, kissing his cheek and snuggling myself into his side, attempting to be cautious of his food at the same time.

[grotesque--cooties]

"Is That Your Blood?"

The Narrator(Jack) x Gn!Reader WARNINGS: Fight Club (just the movie), mention of blood, mention of violence, the readers a little shit WORD COUNT: 2.4k Bro I know his name was never mentioned in the movie but I’ve never seen a dude that looks more Jack-like than him so we’re sticking with Jack(JACKIN OFF THIS DI-)

Day 327. It’s been 327 days since beginning this dead-end job, 327 days of staring at a barely working computer screen, dull-grey walls, taking ludicrous phone calls…

The motivation to work is gone, my body barely moving and my mind barely functioning. I can't even form a thought, let alone be bothered to fill out one more damn report on a car brand that barely even works. I rub my face with my hands, trying to find the motivation to keep on going but the minute I look back at my screen my mind blanks. I sigh deeply and lean back into my chair, my eyes looking up at the ceiling hoping for something, anything to happen that will give me the nudge I need to start working. But I blank…

That is until I hear the chime of my email notifications going off. I lean my head back down, my eyes finding my opened email tab and skimming over the first few words believing it to be a work email. However, the shortness of it and the indentations make me quickly realize that this isn’t a work email. I rub my eyes with the palms of my hands, quickly sitting up and leaning forward to read it better.

“Worker bees can leave….what?” I read over it quickly, quietly mouthing out the apparent Haiku my coworker sent with confusion laced in my voice.

I work too damn hard, stare at nothingness the entire day, and watch mind-numbing antique sales on tv at home and now my coworker is sending me not only emails with nothing important but haikus about consumerism. I let out a small chuckle at the absurdness of it all, haikus? Really? I looked to see who sent out the email and noticed it was Jack. Jack….that Jack? The ones who are always on the verge of falling asleep, the ones who can barely zone in for a conversation? I couldn't hold it in anymore and let out a loud laugh, some heads turned to see what was happening but I didn't care. Sleepy-boy Jack was sending “deep” haikus to us and when you do nothing all day, anything out of the norm is hilarious.

My laughter dies down and I look at the clock, 12 pm. I need my afternoon coffee now, the drowsiness of the day is getting to me. I stood up from my seat and cracked my back, groaning a bit loudly. I turned around to go near the coffee pot and slowly walked to it. Usually, when I get my afternoon coffee I just ignore everything around me and focus only on getting to the community pot, but today I focused on something different. Jack. To get to the coffee pot you'd have to pass his desk, and usually, I'd only sneak in a few glances at him but I wanted to see what he was doing. That haiku he sent all of us is still stuck in my head, the “deep” message it's trying to convey when in reality it just kinda looks like some 14-year-old boy writing his feelings out after getting told ‘no’ by his parents…or maybe I'm just to dumb to understand haikus, I never really liked them to begin with so I might be biased. Maybe I'll start a conversation with him, see what's going on inside that head of his now. I've talked to Jack before, mostly about the weather and how our days were going--nothing life-changing. Sometimes I'll try to make more interesting conversations with him by retelling some stories but he doesn't really interact, just listens. I was lost in thought and didn't realize I had already made it to his desk. Damn, I'm a fast walker!

I knocked my fist on his desk three times, trying to get his attention. “Hey Jack, I saw that ha- WOOOOAAAAHH!!!!” I shouted by accident. When he turned around to look at me a cigarette was hanging from his lips. Never in my life did I expect to see Jack smoking, especially at work.

“Good girl gone bad?” I giggle out, leaning my body on his desk now.

“Hm?” He grunts out. I flick his cigarette lightly, chuckling when he pulls back from the unexpected action.

“You smoke now?” I questioned, never expecting the guy who always refused a cigarette to start randomly smoking.

“Yeah…I picked it up recently.” He said quietly, turning his body towards me now.

“Writing haikus AND smoking??? You're getting more emo by the day.” I say, pushing his arm lightly.

The corners of his mouth move up slightly, his cigarette moving with his lips. I quickly glance down to the area where I hit him, now realizing that there was some blood on his shirt. I gasp, sitting up quickly and grabbing the area where the blood is. I lean in, analyzing the area for any injuries on him.

“Are you okay? What happened? Is this your blood?” I asked quickly, my worried questions spewing out of my mouth. He took hold of my hands a little aggressively, his grip tight and unexpected.

“Some of it, but I'm fine.” He calmly said, like it wasn't out of the norm to have blood on your shirt.

“Wa-wait…some of it? This is someone else's blood too?” I urged him to explain. What the hell is happening to this guy?

“Don't worry about it, I'm fine.” He placed my hands down, placing his own on his lap. “Yeah sure ya are, people that have blood on their shirts are fine.” I sarcastically replay, crossing my arms over my chest. He shrugs his shoulders and just blankly stares up at me.

“Jesus Christ…” I sighed, pinching the bridge of my nose. I place my hands on my lap and they make a loud sound at the impact, startling Jack a bit.

“Welp…if you won't let me help you then can I at least wash it out for you?” I offer, worry written all over my face. “Mr. Boss-man will literally shit his pants in anger if he sees that.” I point at the blood stain.

He lets out a small laugh at that, his eyes meeting mine and I see the tension leave his body. His shoulders slump and relax, his body looking exhausted from holding all that in. I grab his shoulder and quickly pull him up from his seat, his eyes widening as I start to walk with him to the breakroom. “R-right now?” He yelps out, not expecting to go on a journey.

“Yeah, I know I can't get the entire stain out but I can help lift it so It’s barely noticeable,” I explained, holding onto his shoulder still as we walked to the break room.

As we entered the break room I let go of his shoulder and quickly walked to the tiny, run-down refrigerator we had. It’s a miracle that this thing even ran still, the temperature barely rising to cool inside of that thing. As I looked through the fridge, trying to find the ingredient I needed Jack slowly walked over to the fridge, looking inside of it with me.

“What are we trying to find?” He inquiries.

I froze for a moment, his body being so unexpectedly close to mine made me feel somewhat anxious. Sure, I found him to be attractive but I’ve never felt anxious around him before. Before I could dwell on that thought though he repeated his question.

“(Y/N)? What are we looking for?” His eyes sharpened in confusion.

“Hm? Oh sorry! Uuumm….” I quickly looked back in the fridge, finding the item I needed. I move aside some of the lunches and reach inside to grab my item.

“Lemon Juice!” My hand brings the bottle out, holding it near my face as I show it off to him.

“Lemon Juice?”

“Yeah, the acid makes it easier to rinse out the blood. I used to use this whenever my sister needed help with cleaning her clothes and we didn’t have any stain remover or hydrogen peroxide in the house.” I explained, looking at the bottle to see how much of it was left.

As I was examining the fullness of it, Jack cleared his throat making me look back at him. “Alright emo-boy, let's get you cleaned up!” I smile up at him, grabbing his shoulder and pulling him out of the room.

“Wha-what…what are you doing???” He spews out, his feet tripping a bit from the unexpected grab. As I sped-walked with him I brought us to the men's bathroom, opening the door harshly to let us both in. As I got close to the sinks I let go of Jack, turning to him fully now.

“C’mon, take your shirt off,” I demand, placing my hand out. He looks at me like I’m the one with someone else's blood on my shirt, his eyes widen so much they might as well pop out.

“What? How did you think I was gonna clean it out? Pour the lemon juice on you?” I chuckle, finding his shocked face adorable. As he stuttered for an explanation I interrupted him, “Listen, if you don’t want me to get it out that's fine, I can leave if you want?” I questioned, my face frowning slightly. While his confusion was adorable, I didn’t realize that he might not want this and I was making him uncomfortable. I didn’t want to make him uncomfortable if he didn’t want me here I would gladly leave…but I really don’t want to go.

Before I could dwell on my thoughts any further he sputtered out: “It’s fine.” I leaned my head up and smiled at him, my fingers working the screw off of the bottle as quickly as I could. As I got the lid off I placed my hand out for him again, giving him a “come-hither” motion so he would take his shirt off. As he unbuttoned his shirt I noticed large amounts of bruising on his torso. His skin, while already pale, was enhanced by the deep purple scattering his torso painting a scene of pain.

I gapped slightly at the sight of it, not knowing what to make of it. I decided to keep shut about it, if he has someone else's blood on his shirt who knows what he did to get so many bruises on his perfect skin.

Perfect?… I need to control myself better.

As he placed his shirt in my hand, I quickly averted my eyes from his body and looked at the blood on the shirt. As I was analyzing, he stood there, rocking back and forth on his heels. I decided that to not be too awkward I would try to make some more conversation.

“So…” I dragged out, pouring a little bit of the lemon juice on the spots of blood. “You wanna explain those haiku’s you're sending to everyone?” I scoff a bit, remembering that stupid haiku he sent this morning and I shake my head, a smile pulling at my lips.

As he looked at me through the mirror, I grabbed a nearby paper towel and started rubbing the acid in, having to make do with the materials I had.

“No…They’re just something I want to write. Thoughts I don’t care if others hear about anymore.” He explained, his eyes following my hands every movement now. I stop my scrubbing and turn my head to look at him fully, a smirk playing on my lips.

“Oh~ you think about queen bee’s often? Okay, Winnie.” I scoff out the last part, a laugh escaping me. I turn my head back down to the shirt quickly as he stares blankly at me, a laugh threatening to leave me once more. I just can’t take the haikus seriously, they’ve always been a silly subject for me. Ever since having to write them in 7th grade I have found that no one has been able to make a serious haiku, they always just sound like “deep” poems except they ran out of ideas 2 lines in. Somehow, that comment got a small laugh out of him. His laugh was raspy, a little airy but gods was it perfect sounding…

Perfect sounding?……oh…oh fuck…..I like him.

I’ve always found him to be an attractive man but I never really got far with him in conversation, he just seemed so closed off. He would sometimes doze off in our discussions or wouldn’t respond, giving me a blank look. Yet, I still tried. Something inside of me just wants his attention, I’m yearning for it at this point. As I continue to try and clean the blood off, I notice Jack stepping closer to me–looking at his shirt. I felt my cheeks heat up, my eyes refusing to look over in his direction or up at the mirror, just focusing on the blood coming out. After a few more minutes of continuous scrubbing, I turn the water off and place the shirt down on the edge of the sink. I throw the paper towel away and turn around, facing Jack now.

God damn is he good-looking!….. I really need to control myself.

I lean back on the sink, both my hands behind me as I nod my head down at the shirt.

“Got what I could out, you’ll probably need to clean it longer and with actual hydrogen peroxide though.” I expressed, my fingers nervously tapping against the sink. As Jack picked the shirt back up, shaking it out a bit, I swayed my way over to him. I looked over at him as he examined the shirt, nodding a bit when he saw the improvement of the stains.

“You know…” I dragged out, his eyes focusing on me now.

“You could come over to my place later, help you really clean out those stains and who knows…maybe you can explain that haiku to me.” I offer, my face unable to contain my smile. I just really want to talk to him some more, and who knows, maybe something else could happen too while we’re at my place.

As I stood there, waiting for his response he turned his body to face mine, his eyes not breaking contact. “Okay, I’ll come over.”

Notes: GUYS DID I EAT OR WHAT!?!?!?!?!? (there is a full plate of crumbs left) I know he’s ooc in this, I’ve never written for him before though so I think this is a good first try.

[final-girl96]

My Boyfriend's Back Chapter Three

Wednesday 10:30 PM

September 25, 1996

I was in my room reading when I heard something out on the roof. I set my book down and walked over to my window. I peaked my head out and saw Billy walking across to get to Sidney’s room. “What’cha doin, Romeo?” He jumped a little, spinning around to look at me with wide eyes. “Fuck. yn, what’re you doing here?” he asked. I raised my eyebrows at him. “Well, you see I live here and this is my room. It would have been easier for you to just climb up onto the roof from the other side.”

He looked a little awkward just standing there. “So you going to tell me why you decided to climb into my sister’s bedroom window?” I asked. He looked hesitant to tell me anything. I rolled my eyes, “I'm not going to tell my dad if that’s what you’re worried about.” He relaxed a little after I said that. "I was at home watching TV and I got bored. Thought I'd take a drive and come see Sid." I hummed, "well, have fun. If you were hoping to get laid you know that won't happen." He glared at me and I smiled, closing my window and curtains.

Only a few seconds later I heard Sidney let out a small scream and then dad was knocking on her door. I was so entertained by all this that I had to know what her excuse would be. I walked out into the hall and across the landing. "Yeah, Sid, what's going on in there?" I asked, smirking at her. "Nothing. I didn't scream," she said. "I swear I heard a scream," dad said and she shook her head. He gave her a look but let it go.

"Okay, well, I'm going to bed. I have an early flight in the morning. Remember–" before he could continue we spoke at the same time. "You're staying at the Hilton beside the airport." He nodded his head, "and if you need anything just call me. I've left money for you if you need it. Good night, I love you." He kissed Sidney's forehead then walked over to me and did the same. He walked back down stairs to the guest room, well now his bedroom. I walked over to Sidney before she closed the door. "Romeo, should really be more discreet when trying to sneak in through your window." I winked and walked back to my room.

When I walked back into my room Stu was sitting on my bed. "How the fuck did you get in here?" I asked, quickly closing and locking my door. "You gotta lock your window, babe. Now come here." I rolled my eyes but went over to him.

Thursday 8:00 PM

September 26, 1996

When we got to school the next day there were news vans and new reporters covering the lawn. "What the hell is going on?" I whispered to Sidney. I had taken the bus since Stu called and said he wouldn't be able to pick me up. We looked around and my eyes stopped on one person in particular. Gale fucking Weathers. She decided to take advantage of our mother's death. She took Cotton Weary's side and then wrote a fucking book.

"Did you guys hear?" Sidney and I both jumped. "Jesus, Tatum," I said, putting a hand over my heart. "What's going on?" Sideny asked. "Casey Becker and Steve Orth were murdered last night." We looked at her with wide eyes. "What?!" I shouted. "And not just killed. We're talking splatter movie killed--split open end to end," she said. I felt fucking sick ti my stomach. "Casey Becker? She sits next to me in English," Sid said.

"Not anymore. Her parents found her hanging from a tree. Her insides on the outside," Tatum said. I looked at her and she cringed. "Shit, sorry, yn. I know you guys were friends." I nodded my head, "yeah, kind of I guess. Do they know who did it?" I asked. We walked up the steps to go inside the school. "Fucking clueless–they're interrogating the entire school. Teachers, students , Btaff, janitors."

"They think it's school-related?" Sidney asked as we stopped before going inside. "They don't know. Dewey said this is the worse crime they've ever seen. Even worse than…" Tatum stopped talking. We knew what she was going to say. This was the worst crime they've seen since our mother's murder. "Well, it's bad." We walked into the building after that and headed to class.

Everyone was being called to the office to be questioned by Sheriff Burke. Sidney and I were called at the same time and it was awkward to say the least. After we were allowed to leave we went to one more class before meeting everyone at the fountain. "Hello, beautiful," Stu said, kissing my cheek when I sat between his legs. "What kind of questions did they ask you, guys?" Tatum asked. "They asked if we knew Casey," Sidney told her. "Yeah, they asked when the last time was when I saw her. I told them when she came into the video store around like eight-thirty."

"Yeah. They asked me that too," she said. "Hey, they ask if you like to hunt?" Stu asked Billy. His arms were wrapped around me holding me to him. "Yeah, they did. They ask you?" Billy asked and Stu nodded. "Hunt? Why would they ask you if you like to hunt?" Tatum asked, confused. She popped a grape into her mouth looking between Billy and Stu. She was sitting on the other side of me and Stu right beside Randy. "Cause their bodies were gutted," Randy said.

"Thank you, Randy," Billy said, sitting up more to look at him. "They didn't ask me if I like to hunt,' Tatum pouted a little. "That's 'cause there's no way a girl could've killed 'em," Stu said. I turned my head to look at him. "That is so sexist," I told him. "Yeah, the killer could easily be female. Basic Instinct?" Tatum said, rolling her eyes. "That was an ice pick. Not exactly the same thing," Randy said, popping something into his mouth.

"Yeah, Casey and Steve were completely hollowed out. And the fact is, It takes a man to do something like that," Stu shrugged. "Or a man's mentality," I said. He smirked at me and gave me a quick peck on the lips. "How do you... gut someone?" I looked over at Sidney. Her head was looking down at her lap as she played with a loose string. I reached over and grabbed her hand and she squeezed it back. "You take a knife, and you slit 'em from groin to sternum." We looked at Stu in shock and disgust.

"Hey. It's called tact, you fuck-rag," Billy said. "Hey, Stu, didn't you used to date Casey?" Sidney asked. Fucking low blow, Sid. Sru scoffed out a laugh, tightening his hold on me. "Yeah, for like two seconds," he said. "Before she dumped him for Steve," Randy said. "I thought you dumped her for me?" I asked. I mean sure me and Casey were friends but we weren't that close. Besides she was never really into Stu in the first place. "I did. He's full of shit," Stu said, looking at Randy.

"And are the police aware that you dated the victim?" Randy asked, smirking. "Hey, what are you saying? That I killed her?" Stu asked. There was no way Stu could do that. Why would he? It's not like he had a grudge or anything. And I just can't see him killing a person. "It would certainly improve your high school 'Q', " Randy said. "Stu was with me last night, okay?" I said. Stu kissed my neck, a smile spread across his face. "Yeah, I was."

"Ooh?" Randy says, eyebrows raised. "Was that before or after he sliced and diced?" He asked, leaning over Tatum a little as he stood. "Fuck you, nutcase. Where were you last night?" Tatum asked. Randy sat back down and shrugged, "Working, thank you. And yn was there too," he said. "At the video store? I thought they fired your sorry ass." I chuckled, "They did. Twice," I said. "I didn't kill anybody," Stu said and I kissed his cheek. "Nobody said you did."

Stu looked over at Billy and smiled, "Thanks, buddy." Yeah there was definitely no way Stu could kill someone. Billy only on the other hand…well i could see him doing something like that with that pent up anger he has. "Besides, it takes a man to do something like that," Randy said, trying to mock Stu. "I'm gonna gut your ass in a second, kid," Stu told him. "Tell me something—" Randy stood up. "Did you really put her liver in the mailbox? 'Cause I heard they found her liver in the mailbox next to her spleen and her pancreas."

"Randy, you goon-fuck. I'm trying to eat here," Tatum said, throwing a grape at him. "She's getting mad, all right? You better liver alone," Stu said. I rolled my eyes and watched Sidney get up. She kissed Billy and then walked away. "Sid, wait up!" Tatum grabbed her stuff and ran after her. "Liver alone! Li— Ow!" Billy punched Stu in the arm. "Liver. Liver. It was a joke."

[evermourning]

𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 - seo changbin

pairing: seo changbin x reader (bewitched series pt. 7)

genre: angst, hurt/no comfort, non!idol au, unrequited love

wc: 1.2k

warnings: yn is toxic as hell. don't be like them, language, changbin's pov, yunho from ateez is mentioned, mentions of cheating, you are definitely gonna hate me for this

a/n: i think i projected a lil

changbin remembered the day he fell for you like it was literally yesterday.

it was the first day of spring that didn't feel as if it was still freezing cold. the first leaves were starting to appear, beautiful yet minuscule bursts of green upon barren branches.

he'd slipped into the nearest café, hoping for a warm drink, when he saw you sitting at a table in the back, tapping away on your laptop. just looking at you had changbin's cheeks growing rosy. he knew he had to shoot his shot.

"i'm sorry - i don't mean to intrude, but i think you're absolutely stunning." changbin said, a bit flustered. you had looked up from your laptop, smiling.

"that made my day...thank you." you smiled, your eyes piercing his. his heart swooned.

"do you think i could...you know...take you out on a date sometime?" he asked suddenly, playing with his thumbs a bit anxiously.

"oh, sure! i'd love that." you'd replied, shaking his hand. "i'm yn. you?"

"changbin. seo changbin. and don't you forget it."

spring and summer were an absolute euphoric time period for him. the first date had gone amazing, and so had the next, and the next after that. you were so interesting and funny. every single time changbin saw your face, it was like the butterflies in his stomach began to migrate, blood rushing to his cheeks. as his love grew, so did his attachment to you. he sent you texts every single day, gave you his all.

but just as everything else is, seasons are not permanent. the leaves fell from the trees, laying wasted on the ground as the earth returned to its hibernating state. changbin was embarrassed. he felt so stupid. was he always this oblivious? the signs were so obvious, why couldn't he see them? regret flooded through him like it was those feelings of overwhelming love he used to feel so strongly.

it'd been a rainy thursday morning. changbin had plans with you, you were just going to come over and spend the day with him. when you arrived, the two of you had a lovely brunch together before cuddling up to watch a movie. you'd dozed off, head resting comfortably upon his broad shoulder. the movie had reached a bit of a low point, so changbin was scrolling through his phone, when he received a notification from chan.

chan, 1:02pm: hey, can we talk? i need to talk to you about something really important, so just brace yourself.

changbin, 1:02 pm: okay...is everything alright?

the three dots on the bottom left of changbin's scream were there, floating up and down for an uncomfortable amount of time. when chan stopped typing before continuing, changbin's heart nearly stopped. when chan finally sent a very long paragraph, along with photos, changbin wanted to genuinely die.

chan, 1:08pm: so i know that you've been dating yn since like april, right? i was working my shift at the coffee shop and i take my weekend shifts with this yunho kid, he's a great guy and all, i've mentioned him to you a few times. he was talking about how blessed he was to have such a loving and caring partner and he referred to them as yn? i was like "oh cool they have the same name as binnie's partner!"...and then he showed me a picture of the two of them

chan: 1:09pm: it was your yn...i'm so sorry :(

attached to the text were pictures of you and yunho, happily in love. like a sharpened dagger slicing every single one of changbin's arteries.

"hm? bin, who are you texting?" you mumbled sleepily, yawning, changbin could only look at you with horror and disbelief. "is everything okay?"

he nodded, still feeling numb.

"i uh, forgot i had somewhere to be soon, it's kinda sudden and everything, sorry..."

you smiled at him gently, before kissing his cheek and leaving with a soft "i love you, see you around." how many times had you done that, murmured sweet nothings and whatnot to him when you were in reality, very in love with someone else? when you'd walk faster than changbin, as if you were escaping him, were you actually trying to run to yunho? when you were kissing changbin, supposedly filled with total adoration, did you really desire to be kissing his replacement instead?

he'd loved you so much, he settled for less. there were so many other people better suited for him, but he only wanted you. even though you were quite horrid in terms of commitment, the memories you two had made were real to him.

and so, seo changbin's eternal winter began, a freezing cold time of utter grief and disarray.

now, as snow fell in blankets outside of his apartment, changbin laid in his bed, staring at the white, relatively boring ceiling. nothing could get him to fall asleep. sometimes, he'd close his eyes and your memory absolutely haunted him. he'd broken up with you, but that didn't mean his feelings were over. sometimes, he saw you around town with yunho. he wanted to cry.

he knew that when he loved, he put his all into the relationship and was completely vulnerable. changbin loved, yes, but he loved way too much. he desperately journeyed across and around the earth again and again, searching hopelessly for that special soul who's fate was intertwined with his, and he got hurt each and every time. it was a tough thing to bear, but even harder to confess.

strangely, there was really nothing to miss about your relationship. sure, it'd had its moments, but at the end of the day it really was some unfathomably textbook relationship. and if he had to be honest? his life had improved so much since he last spoke to you, focusing on work and friends and family, but if everything was better in some fucked up way of thinking, why was he laying awake, shattered from the thought of you?

if you came to his house in the pouring rain, saying you were single, would he stand a chance? would you want him back?

no.

you were not the victim here. changbin was warned by all his friends and even his older sister that dating you was a bad idea. that his love life would end in tragedy. that he was way too attached to someone not reacting the same. but he didn't listen, he never did. not when it came to you. maybe if he saw you again, older and wiser, more mature, in love with someone who'd actually treat him right, maybe he'd lend an ear to their pleas.

but for now, he was clinging frantically onto this mess of an old relationship he'd had with you. he was fighting for his life, kicking and screaming as they dragged him away. you were his everything, but you'd decided not to put him at the top of your list.

he was just second best, again.

@evermourning, ©2023. all rights reserved.

[rose-n-gunses]

15 Questions for 15 Mutuals

I was tagged by @1lostsoul0fishbowl!

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Are you named after anyone?

Nope! My name's somewhat unique and I'm not really sure how my parents came up with it.

Do you have kids?

Oh God no. I'm too young for that.

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Probably too much for my own good.

When was the last time you cried?

Yesterday maybe? Idk, I've been going through it (and pms is a bitch).

What's the first thing you notice about people?

I honestly don't know. Maybe their nose? Smile? Voice? Idk. I guess scent too, if they're close enough and that isn't weird to say.

Eye color?

Like, hazel? Brown? Idk.

What sports do you/have you played?

I played soccer for a long time but haven't played on a team since middle school. (I'm now out of shape and have hip/knee problems so I don't plan to get back into it any time soon even though I do enjoy it.) Oh, and I was in a lacrosse club for like five minutes in sixth grade so I have lacrosse sticks and understand the basic gist but I never played on a team.

Any special talents?

I'd like to say writing, but idk if that counts as a talent. Maybe singing too, I did voice lessons for several years and even though I don't do lessons anymore I do still actively try to maintain my voice just for fun. Maybe one day I'll have the confidence to use it in front of people again. Who knows.

Where were you born?

This is, like, mad specific and I hope nobody I know irl sees this because they'd instantly know it's me, but I was born in Bahrain. (My parents were stationed there for my dad's job.)

Scary movies or happy endings?

I guess happy endings, but I do enjoy a good scary movie every now and then.

Do you have any pets?

Not anymore, no. :(

How tall are you?

Somewhere between 5'3" and 5'5" but I'm not actually sure. Shorter than my younger brother, that's all I know. (😒)

What are your hobbies?

Writing! Maybe reading. Being a general nuisance to those around me. (This is my least favorite question to answer ever to anyone because I'm always embarrassed by my lack of hobbies. Watching tv? Contemplating? Wasting my life away scrolling through Instagram reels??)

Favorite subject in school?

General subjects? Probably history. Classes I took? Definitely creative writing. Oh, and chorus.

Dream job?

Oh man. Archaeologist. Librarian. Waitress in a small town diner. Museum curator. Owner of a funky vintage-style drive-in theater. (There are so many things that I think of on a regular basis that I'd love to do and now I can't think of any.)

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I waited too long to do this so everyone's probably been tagged already. Plus, I don't even think I have fifteen whole mutuals. So I'll just tag anyone that wants to do it!

[imhereforscm]

Good morning sweetie 😘

Hiiiiii, sweetheart!!😊😊💖💖💖

It's 7:10 pm over here✨

So there was this movie I wanted to watch and I was so excited for it. I watched it last night and I was so bummed.😑 It was disappointing.

But today, I found this🥺🥺🥺✨✨✨

BANANAS WITH PYJAMAS!!🥺🥺🥺🥺🍌🍌✨✨✨ I saved the playlist with ALL the episodes and I'll be watching every day >:DD✨✨(Which reminds me I've got banana and cherry jello in the fridge😚)

As a kid, I adored shows were the characters seemed to be people cosplaying or puppets/dolls!! Ex: Lazy Town, Shaun The Sheep, Muppet Show, Bananas With Pyjamas, Rolie Polie Olie, Teletubbies (there's one more that my mom can't remember the name of and right now, she's sitting there fully pissed and scrolling through you tube, trying to find it lmaoo)

The reason Scorpio has not proposed yet is not because I'm unattractive, don't listen to those rumours! t's because I'd sit him down to watch Bananas With Pyjamas with me and he's not emotionally ready for that

Also, my mom showed me this

And told me that when I furrowed my eyebrows as a baby, I would remind her of this😂😂😂

Also, another movie I want to watch very badly is Last Night In Soho. From the summary and the trailer I've got high expectations, so it better not disappoint me like that other movie did last night😭😭🤞🤞🤞 Also, the production company that made Last Night In Soho is the same one that made the movies for Jane Eyre and Pride And Prejudice if I'm not mistaken. And so far, this production company has never disappointed me.

And at some point I want to rewatch all the Mission Impossible movies, because I loved them as a kid, but I have forgotten them by now.

Soooooo

I hope you all had and will keep having a wonderful day, my sweetie pies!!🌹🌹💕🌹💕🌹💕🌹💕💕💕🌹🌹💕🌹💕🌹

Ps. LMAO MY MOM WAS TRYING TO FIND TELETUBBIES THIS ENTIRE TIME AND HER YOU TUBE SEARCHES WHERE HILARIOUSLY DESPERATE

[wyndhamvossler]

I love (not) writing things

an AI wrote my official lore

WyndhamVossler is a Detective VTuber and Part-time Cat.

At least that was how I started. It's not like I had any other choice, really. My parents were both dead, my sister was in jail for murder, and the only thing I could think of to do with myself was become a detective.

I'd been watching videos on YouTube for years before I decided to start making them. The idea of being able to make your own show seemed so cool! And it wasn't just me who thought so; there were thousands of people out there doing it. Some of them made millions of dollars every year.

But I didn't have any money, and I couldn't afford to buy equipment or pay anyone else to help me. So I did what everyone does when they want to be a YouTuber: I went to school.

After high school, I took an associate degree in computer science from a local community college. Then I moved onto the University of California at Berkeley, where I got my bachelor's degree in computer engineering. That was almost four years ago now.

While I was studying, I made videos on my off time, mostly about video games. Those videos never gained much traction, but I didn't care. They gave me something to do while I was working toward my degree. It also helped me meet some friends who became very important to me.

VTT is the name of this friend group it consisted of Astrid, Merlin, Yume, Yereza and Hilda. We hung out all the time, and when we weren't hanging out together, we would all talk about our lives over text messages.

Eventually, one of them asked if I wanted to join a new channel that he was starting. He said that he needed someone to run social media and create graphics for his videos. I told him I'd give it a shot, and that's how I ended up doing what I'm doing today.

The first few months were rough. I had no experience in making videos, and it was hard trying to figure out how everything worked. But as I got used to it, I started enjoying myself more and more. Now I love what I do.

Most days, I work on my videos from 9 am until 6 pm. After that, I relax by taking care of my dog, Hugo. Sometimes I'll go back to sleep or play video games for a bit, then get ready for bed.

On weekends, I usually hang out with VTT. On Friday nights, we watch horror movies, which is basically the highlight of my life. Saturdays are devoted to gaming, we all play Dungeons and Dragons together. Sundays we usually spend playing board games.

Hilda and Yereza live on the east coast, and Astrid lives in the Bay Area, so we don't see each other often. When we do get together though, it's always fun. Even if I don't get to talk to them much, I still think about them all the time.

And of course, there's Hugo. He's a shih-tzu puppy, and he's adorably ugly. I can't imagine being without him. He's my best friend.

Not to mention my sister, Elaine. She lives in San Diego. And she's… complicated. One day, I hope to forgive her for the things she did. For now though, I just avoid talking about her.

My family was pretty fucked up, but I know things could've been worse. I mean, I only had to move across the country to get away from them. At least I'm safe here.

I'm making a video right now about my birthday. it's very nice and super high quality. You should watch it.

Well, that's about it for the backstory. I hope you liked it. If you did, please subscribe to me.

[pwblogarchive]

July 2003

July 3, 2003

12:30 pm

happy fourth of july, we're spending it alone

being in a band means missing out on all the good things you meant to not miss out on by not having a regular job which is why you wanted to be in a band in the first place.

July 6, 2003

3:17 am

the secret order of badboys

yeah you wish you were in it. we're in texas. i feel done for. i miss my friends. but i'm doing what i always wanted. the kids are so awesome. we set our sails against the wind. we don't need you. spent the day soaking my pen in spite- you'll read about it soon. oh yeah, i want to read the new harry potter book "order of the phoenix" unfortunately it is not available to me. if you are my best friend you could bring it to me on july 17 or anytime before. i will trade you lots of worthless stuff like FOB merch and my love. peteccentric

spend most of my time trying to write hits- with the constant weight of worry that they'll all miss.

Current Music: bright eyes "fever and mirrors"

July 12, 2003

12:38 pm

need you like i need water in my lungs

we are in california again. finally i can breathe. slowing my heartbeat trying to remember every show, every face. tonight rootbeer and 80's movies. don't you wish you were me.

i hope you don't.

July 12, 2003

12:40 pm

need you like i need water in my lungs.

california. i can breathe again. i'd like to explain it all but it won't make any sense. root beer. 80's movies. tonight. stars are different in the desert. don't you wish you were me?

cause even i don't.

July 17, 2003

2:27 pm

status report:

drank iced hot chocolate in the hustler store with this girl. she told me i smelled like baby sweat. swoon. played shows in the desert. it was hot. met julie from the real world new orleans. she's pretty rad. kind of cliche. word. see you tonight chicago.

July 22, 2003

12:25 pm

"why do you come here when you know it makes it hard for me"

okay so the livejournal is out of control again. someone is writing as me and asking how i know anonymous people. pretty radical. i am in town but i am gonna sleep and watch movies and waste it on some stupid drama. we leave again next week. if you see me, remind me to smile cause it's not that bad.

July 25, 2003

“Snitches And Talkers Get Stitches And Walkers”

ordered a bunch of new merch today. its gonna be bad ass. sitting around writing made me come to many realizations: life with busey is one of the funniest shows around. the new american nightmare is gonna smoke whatever music you write. every girl i have ever dated but one has cheated on me. my dad and me had dinner tonight and talked about my band. my family is the greatest. i’ll talk to you guys soon,

love peter

July 27, 2003

5:09 pm

i'll hold this pen over your head

grocery shopping today:

count chocula

cocoa puffs

donuts

hotpockets

ibc rootbeer

i win. it made me think about how someday i am gonna be living with a girl and stuff. i think it will maybe be rad. if anyone wants to practice with me so i will be ready when the time comes let me know. no sex or kissing but lots of arguments and hangout.

July 30, 2003

12:01 am

“You Should Try Saying No Once In Awhile”

the show tonight with Gob was amazing. its crazy how much kids know the words. i am doing what i love. thank you. i am truly completely happy with that part of my life and completely unhappy with the rest of my life.

Dear, don’t bother try to make it cute or charming cause you’re not. It’s last call- finish your drink so you don’t feel a thing. “don’t worry, I’m in a better place” or whatever I have to say so you’ll let me in. I got one foot in the door and the other in your bed. “with friends like you who needs friends”. Your sheets have the scent of how convenient it is to have me three thousand miles away.

July 30, 2003

2:46 am

staying alive is as good as it gets.

if you want to know then ask me otherwise keep your mouth shut. stalk me you couldn't pick a better subject. i like this girl from california alot. me and her are gonna have 10,000 babies. do you want to find a cure and save the world or just fall in love and fuck?

you should try saying no once in awhile.

July 31, 2003

3:07 am

“I’m Wreckless. This Love Is Mayhem.”

woo. last night in toledo was pretty amazing. its such a shock that kids actually believe in the words we wrote and sing them back. it means so much. Stuhby came out and sang Saturday with us. do you want to take me to Bend It Like Beckham? it’s easy all you have to do is ask. i promise i’ll go. good times had some kids come up and talk to me about soccer at the past couple of shows. pretty much soccer is one of the best things in the world. tommorrow i’m gonna get to see some friends bands, pretty excited about that. to get to just sit in the crowd and relax. for what it’s worth it makes me happy to know you are out there breathing and laughing even if i am not on your mind.

July 31, 2003

6:04 pm

“for the record you did hurt my feelings.”

you shut off the light and i am a moth in the dark begging for more.

as much as i wish you would just drop dead- a part of me is happy you are still breathing and laughing even if i am not on your mind.

[lilacsugarcookie69]

⚠️ CONTAINS IE SPOILERS, CRIES FOR HELP FROM CHILDISH BEING, I LOVE IE AND U HAVE TO LIVE WITH THAT HEHE⚠️

(if u get the pain, I'd be more than happy to chat with someone bout that, no one of my friends/family really knows that, thus they don't get my pain/ other emotions (and there's a lot!) while watching this anime, so text!!!!)

OH FUCKIN GODS OF ALL THE UNIVERSES EXISTING!!!!!!!

I...have...just...finished... WATCHING IE GO GALAXY!!!!

And let me tell u, that was nothing I've expected it to be! So many new characters! So many new places! AAAAAAA!!!!

If fuckin Areorion or Chrono Stone brainwashed me then Galaxy has fuckin stole my brain and erased it, blew it away for good...

Holy fuck, that scene, when Banda (I fuckin forgot the name, even though I've watched 20 episodes today!!!) died made me cry like a little kid!!

☝️ it's edited tho, I googled his name :3

God, I'm so fucking sensitive, when it comes to stupid fictional characters!!!

And when potomuri died and only Mizukawa's true self was left, was also heartbreaking af!!!

I've read some fics/ seen some pictures or spoilers before watching Galaxy and I thought it would be much more Resistance Japan centric, and it wasn't (thank goodness hehe), no but really I have been relieved, although I hoped to see more KyouHaku tbh...

I've made some screenshots/ photos while watching it (let me know, if u do that too :P) and i have some stuff I want to share, so I'll do it in the following post(s), the following day(s).

I'm sure, there's so much more I'd like to say rn, but my brain is as empty as my plate when I finish all my pancakes with an incredible speed (apologies for a not-so-funny- poor-attemp-to-make-a-joke-at-almost-10-pm-hehe)

Anyways, yeah, now there's just (if I counted right, my current 'data' may be wrong - I with it was, I neeeeeeed IE to survive, it's my oxygen :3) 2 movies left: the great ogre army and the second one which's name I forgot (sclerosis hits hard, my friends), so yeah, looking forward to enjoy them, but kinda scared of what I might see, I'd like to keep my now-erased-brain after all...

[Expect more of shit like that]

☝️

Meaning more posts containing IE (Galaxy) content ;w;

[threenorth]

Today's messages.

Saturn, I don't have much money to spare but every dollar is yours, I'll be flying back soon enough hopefully... I'm hoping for June. But I don't know. I can't wait to have you in my arms again, we're be dancing till the cows go moo.

Lea, I sure need a laugh the last few months have been pretty rough but I'm surviving... Some how.

Yousif, I'd ask you out but you and I are really quite busy and you don't like this long distance thing, and hopefully soon some paperwork can make it a little easier to be a little closer.

Ben, I knew from the day I met you in match 2012 that you were special. The day you hugged me I believed in love at first sight. And I still feel your butterflies in my stomach some items, but the one in my frame is one I caught.

Danny, you can video call me or message me... like i said but remember sleep is important don't fuck up your schedule mines a train wreck, at least if I go to Australia it's 3 hours different so I'll be on the money 😂.

Forrest, it's like the world dampens down and it's just a wide shot.

Quinn, you know my feelings I miss you, I also really want to kiss you harder and better than last time.

L, it's better to call and get a voice mail then someone who hangs up on you but you'll never know till you try.

Tony, I think there's a few good moments I can count on one hand and your 2 or 3 of them.

Olivia, I said I'd never leave but I guess I've had a few meltdowns and never had the time to really have time for me and try do my healing process. And now just taking each day as it comes but yknow hopefully I get this job, I'll be moving out and it would be nice if you could get a working holiday visa I'm more worried about soup and I'll need to get some injections for my allergies.

Lennon, you never left my mind or heart just everytime I saw my pain I saw you and it made me fall deeper...thanks for keeping me alive...

Summer, I feel only wiser and stronger but much the same I guess that's just living with truma but my feelings for you will never stop.

Yesterday's messages

Daytona, that's Florida I said where in Colorado so this can't be me but... I'm planning on it but sometimes life keeps getting worse and Messer, I'd send you money but you'll be sad...

R, I see you in the couples I see, I see you in the song lyrics, I see you in the movies I watch, I see you all the glimmers of my mind where you planted flowers and it's spring all year round *sneeze*

Milo, reminds me of the song the luckiest.. But I really wonder how our parrele universe self's met, I hope it's a bop.

X, I can see us adopting some strays but we can't get crazy cat lady hoarding level but enough to have like two or four (cats and dogs because no sane person in my house will have a snake)

Phoenix, in the hard times it's your love is what keeps me breathing my love for you is what keeps you alive in the hard times we call life. But these tough times, they and bad times they will past but our love remains... Infinite.

Angel, I don't need time but I do need you to help me out a little bit... I appoglized for my stupidity and you still remain... Our next significant date is march but by then I'll probably be snowed in with this new job possibly, can we make new history? Tomorrow or sometime soon... On your Sunday I have a two hour interview from 12-2 so how about 2.30?pm send me a text ?

Ben, you want me to talk to you but you don't pick up the phone, and I'm blocked on your social medias, you know I will always reply and I'm sorry I asked for what I asked, I said time and time again...and yes maybe next time I'll watch my mouth... You teach me many things but sometimes I look at the moon and think what am I supposed to be learning this time. Where's the sliver lining, and even when it hurts to hear you rip me apart before your birthday at least you still have gave me what I needed...

Anyway, the apartment I'm looking at in Australia is a little expensive and I might need to find another person to live in the apartment unless some how you and I start getting back to...

Logan, I don't know if I'd say you feel safe but you feel warm like chocolate in the soul or coffee on a cold day or rainbow after the rain, but maybe your just everything beuiutful.

Ethan, there's gonna be better kisses then that last but there's still a few firsts that I kept for you.

Grey, a million cats... Yeah Mayne not the cost might be a little to expensive. But I can do a few. But I have something better then pets to grow old with.

Eliah,

Soon... Kind of... Weer delayed.

Somethings keep getting in my way... Money and ergh... Shit.

Elijah, in the night before this was posted I had an odd dream with someone I dated once she was 5'11 her name was Louise, but she felt more like you I think my body is connected thru wrong body to the wrong person but it wasn't a dance we were how do you say.. .horazstsl tango.

I haven't seen her in bonks (years)

So I do not know why I had this odd dream but I woke up out of it like most of my gravy dreams.

Anway, off to sleep it's 1am.

Have a great thursday.

Xo

R

P.S

Feel free to call tommrow I might be at the supermarket or I'm just reading somethings I printed for my interview Monday.

[dopaminergicaddictions]

The hallucination got to much worse yesterday. I wonder why? I couldn't focus cause I was so tired.. I heard it talking at me during therapy it went from inaudible just i could hear it trying to it was saying full sentences. This is why I always worry about sleeping cause when I talk to someone I can drown it out very easily when I actually slepe even when it's 5 hours of sleep.

I took maximum dose at 5:35 last night and laid down at 6:30. I got up a few times over the night and had to take like 30 to 40 minutes to knock back out but I woke up at 6 am. I am staying up. It fixed my schedule and the hallucination went back to the way it was. Quieter and less distracting and I can focus again. I prob got 7 to 9 hours but it's so segmented with bathroom breaks. That's its somewhere in between.

My will to live went from 2 to like 8. My doctors don't want to increase from 1.0 to 1.5..... I'm having my therapist Erin call in cause of they can just get me to fucking February 21st sleeping every fucking night. I'd need two weeks without weed and I'm going to go back to fucking normal.

I'm requesting a gene test and a hair test for the 22nd... I want to rule out the gene thing... cause I mean tbh.... with the onset. How it visited everyday and went away after I stopped being high it it's so obvious thc... but until i see that I don't have the gene and as long as I hallucinate I'm going to keeo worrying...

I worry that I have the gene but thc started it..... if that's the case I'd wait until the thc drained out and end it if it hasn't left once I get the thc out.. when I sleep regularly and everything it seems to get minorly and I mean minoely better every single day...

I'm worried I won't slept tonight. My doctor is pushing me to see a psychiatrist to take over and percribe a higher dose.... it's making me lose hope cause just push me through the next month and half. It could be done tomorrow or next week or even before the 22nd.... maybe it'll be Feb 10th... but I need to SLEEP EVERY SINGLE DAY. I'm going to take less than maximum dose at 10 tonight and if I'm not sleeping by 12 I'm going to raise it so hopefully I'm our by 2. At least now my 17 hour mark is fucking 10 pm... 10 pm seems like so fucking long from now. I wish I could take it at 8 but I tried 12 hours, I tried 15-`16. I guess my body needs 17 waking hours.

Wish me luck as if Erin can't get them to push it to 1.5... I'm going to have major issues Well before this goes away. Getting in with a psychiatrist is almost impossible and they are going to push fucking antipsychotics and anticholinergics... and prob antidepressants for christ sake. I won't take any of those EVER... and it could be a useless thing to do If they won't increase it.

I'm hoping that after my doctor has another provider in the loop they'll consider it. At least they'll give me 1 for the foreseeable future but I can't scarfice one night of sleep.

I'm not joking yesterday it might as well even been November 15th when I couldn't even watch a movie or talk in therapy without the voice taking away my entire fucking focus... and today it's like wait it's Jan. 12th and It's like it even improved from the day before I didn't sleep...

[a-heart-like-a-sparrow]

December 26th, 2023 - wtf am I doing

────────────────────────────── Woke up at 2 PM Just had lunch We keep fighting the negativity ──────────────────────────────

☆.。†：＊・゜☆．。†：＊・゜☆．。†：＊・゜☆

I'm fighting the negative aura again lol

But I'm trying to be okay.

I just realized how much of a disappointment this year was. It was messy, chaotic, sad. It's like every year just gets worse.

It's true when they say everything went wrong since 6th grade. They are fucking right.

I wish I had the will to make 2024 a good year. To break the cycle. But I just got used to it. I don't care anymore.

I only have a little bit of will to avoid getting hurt. Not talking to anyone, not trying to stand out, avoiding every boy I meet despite having this sickening feeling inside of me. I'd rather avoid things than facing them.

But we all know that, so I'll talk about my day now.

The photo shows the plants from the entrance of my house. I was sitting there while my mother was washing the car. It was good.

I got ice cream again. But I don't buy it, my mom just gives it to me. I should change flavours tho, I'm gonna get sick of vanilla with caramel. Maybe cookies & cream? I don't know if they have it. I could add chocolate syrup.

Oh, my series on TV is playing. I kinda like it. But I'm still watching a movie anyway. I finished "Train to Busan" last night (plase watch it) and started "Little Women". I was watching it a bit before this. I'd rather do that than buying the book. Books are so expensive nowadays...

But can we talk about Timothee Chalamet? He's so handsome omg I love him¡¡¡¡¡¡¡ I must look for more movies that have him. He seems to be really cool, too.

Now, about the song of the night. Mitski (or the perosn behind the channel) uploaded the "Behind the Song" video for When Memories Snow. Even though it's my least favourite song -almost a skip-, I listened to it again. It's not bad... I just prefer the others.

But the lyrics are so me wtf

Nothing else happened tbh. I took a long nap today and it was so hot. But when I turn the AC on, it's freezing. My dreams were weird, too. I think Is saw things I had seen before in real life. It was strange.

One day I'll be able to sleep only in the night. Early.

But anyway, I'll keep watching Little Women now. I hope it end well.

☆.。†：＊・゜☆．。†：＊・゜☆．。†：＊・゜☆

[fenimores-book-nook]

Self care writing: Day 10

November 29th, 2023, Wednesday 6:48 pm

Today has been a mix of feelings. Mainly the feeling of: I-would-like-to-not-be-around-people-and-in-the-public-thank-you. But I was able to get that relaxing, away from people time after work, so that's good. :)

Events of my day:

~ I worked from 8-1, afterwards I stopped by the library to drop off a book I finished and to pick up one. Pumpkinheads by Rainbow Rowell and Unfamiliar vol. 2 by Haley Newsome. I've been loving the graphic novels I'm going through currently.

~ After the library, I grabbed some lunch and headed home. I ate lunch and watched Wizards of Waverly Place for a while. Then, a little bit of Gilmore Girls, and lastly I finished re-watching Dungeons and Dragons: Honor Among Thieves. So, it was a nice afternoon filled with good films.

~ I also did quite a bit of reading today. At work, I read a couple more chapters of Iron Flame. I had started Pumpkinheads in the morning and finished it before the end of my shift. I kind of zoomed my way through that one because one: it was super cute and an easy read, and two: I wanted to get the second Unfamiliar book but wanted more of a reason to stop by the library.

Some things I want to do before I go to sleep tonight:

~ Eat my supper yet, and most likely watch more of my favorite films.

~ I would like to read more of my Christmas romcom book tonight too, I kind of missed it today. ;)

~ Journal a bit, I feel as though I haven't done much of that lately but really, I have. I think it might be because I didn't do any kind of writing yesterday so the day off from it seems strange. So, I want to get some journaling in. I'd like to try to do more journaling or reading than watching films tonight as well.

Peaceful photo from pinterest. <3

Self care writing:

5 good things that happened today. I was able to do a lot of reading that I really enjoyed. I could relax after work and I didn't really feel guilty for doing so. The sunset was one of those that made me pause and look at it longer, it was so beautiful. I loved going to the library, even if it was only for ten minutes, the atmosphere is something that I love. I feel like today was a relatively good day, despite my introvert feelings, I think it was good.

How have I practiced self care today? By letting myself just relax after work and comforting my mind with films I enjoy. Taking time alone to be in my room and read or work on these writings. Not letting myself feel obligated to do more work than I need to.

Something that brings me a lot of joy right now. Reading! I talk about books and reading in almost all of my posts but it's because of this. Reading and spending time with and in books, brings me much joy. Even though I may be traveling through certain books at a slower pace, I'm reading several at a faster speed and just enjoying the reading. The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes also brings me much joy at the moment. Thinking of the book and the movie- it brings out my inner crazy fan. Not to mention the silly little young Coriolanus Snow edits on tik tok. ;) I think another thing is just simply having time to relax. Being able to come home after work and lounge, watch something comforting, or read, or nap, just relax.

I hope you can also find joy and peace in the little things. No matter what the size, if they matter to you, they matter.

Until next time,

Thalia <3

[im-always-the-problem-its-me]

i've spent the day nursing an asthma attack. (not my own). chores. reading. laughing at a hot take about 'female rage'. telling a supposedly depressed dude bro to get off his ass & stop eating mcdonald's or i'd beat him up. he laughed.

now i'm watching 'Tragedy Girls' and this is not the kind of tragedy girls i was hoping for.

i finally wrote a couple decent drafts last week too. i drank one too many hard ciders last night but when someone is like 'want to try this Black Phillip hard cider?' at a function and they've never even heard of 'The VVitch' and you have to explain it how could I not overindulge? the company at this thing was way too christian for me to make a joke about it being 'satan's hard cider' unfortunately. my own private amusement i s'pose.

i feel better. lighter since i told HIM what was up. also for having not slept much (due to the one night a month i hardly sleep as part of my PMS ritual) i've been fairly productive today.

i'm going to bake some chicken for dinner. then i'm going to commit sin by watching hallmark christmas movies. (they always do this shit to me, i'm trying to be all bloody and gory and they're throwing up lame rom coms that i'm addicted to for reasons i can't explain way too early...it's fucking orange outside...plus, i'm seeing real snow this year and not your cgi bullshit. but whatever, i'm addicted.)

toodle fucking loo.

[babeydollx]

Congrats on hitting 2k! Can I request 1 and 2 from the fluff list with JJ please :)

Love & Snuggles

Warnings: none, pure fluff

Pairings: JJ Maybank x Female Pogue Reader

Summary: this is just some cute and possibly cheesy stuff lmao. 

Prompts

1. "I just want to relax in your arms."

2. "You look really good in my clothes."

Word Count: 600+

a/n: I love soft, JJ fluff lmao.

© Maybanks-Luver, please do not steal or translate my work

You stepped out of the shower and grabbed your towel before drying your body off and your hair. You pulled on some fitted short yoga shorts but, you realized that you didn't grab a top. You wrapped your towel around your breasts and then walked out into your shared bedroom before going to the closet to find a top.

You found one of your boyfriends sweatshirts so you decided to wear that. You tossed the towel into your dirty hamper and then pulled on JJ's sweat shirt which was baggy on you. You brushed your hair out and when you saw that your face was a little burnt, it reminded you of your day today.

You went surfing with John B, Kiara, Pope, Sarah, and Cleo today but, JJ didn't come with you guys today since he had to work. You finished brushing your hair out and then sat on the bed and checked your phone.

It was 6 PM so you knew that JJ was off work by now so, you knew he should be home soon. John B had let you and JJ live with him in the Chateau since you both didn't have the best home lives. Since JJ worked up on Figure Eight, you knew that it would take him a little longer to get back down to The Cut and down to The Chateau. You laid in bed and then went on your phone waiting for your boyfriend to come home. 

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You herd someone come inside of The Chateau and you knew that it had to be JJ. You gently tossed your phone onto the bed and then hopped off the bed before running out into the living room to see who it was.

You giggled and grinned when you saw JJ standing in the door way. He was kicking off his shoes and taking his zip-up hoodie off. When he saw you a big grin spread across his face. You smiled and ran over to him before jumping into his arms as he chuckled and caught you.

"I think this is my favorite part about coming home. Getting to see you." JJ said with a smile. You giggled as he gently placed you back down. He then kept his hands on your waist and admired you wearing his clothing.

"You look really good in my clothes." JJ said with a grin. 

"Thank you." You said with a giggle. "Your clothing is comfortable so, I love to wear your stuff. Plus your scent is on it." You giggled. He chuckled and cupped your face before planting a loving kiss on your forehead.

"God, I missed you so much today. I just want to relax in your arms." You said. 

"That sounds nice." He said with a smile. "Why don't we go to our bedroom so we can do that then?" He asked with a grin.

"I'd love to." You giggled. He smiled and picked you up before walking to your shared bedroom. Once the two of you were laying in bed together you were clinging to him like a koala. He smiled and caressed your cheek with his thumb before leaning down to plant a soft, loving kiss on your lips.

"God, I'm in love with you." JJ said with a grin. You smiled and then rested your forehead against his forehead.

"I love you too, JJ." You said with a soft giggle. The two of you then snuggled together and talked for awhile and watched a movie before falling asleep together, curled up in each others arms. 

a/n: I hope y'all enjoyed this fic!

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