#I just got a message on my main blog and I needed to vent on my side one bc it's funnier like this

[orange-chair-of-doom]

For all Izzy Haters (not all, all, just the one puritanical enough to start a witch hunt for the one who enjoy him, the other idc, you do you, babe, agree to disagree):

If you had an Hannigram phase -> you're an hypocrite

If you didn't have an Hannigram phase -> I did, Izzy is literally the least problematic shit I like, stop clutching you pear in horror, it's literally a downgrade from my usual depravity and toxicity

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for "causing" someone's ED? (massive TW obviously)

so i (18x) have a pr0ana sideblog. i say this in the LOOSEST sense of the term; while i interact with pr0ana tags and content, i don't make any myself, and my "platform" is nonexistent. i primarily use the blog as a way to feel less alone since i can't talk about my ED in real life. it's a vent blog. i don't have the name of my sideblog anywhere on my main blog, and vice versa.

a few weeks ago, my good friend (18x) found this sideblog and decided not to tell me. over the next few weeks, we had several conversations about my ED and their dysmorphia (though according to them not a full-fledged ED), all started by them. at one point i promised them that i would try to get just a little better every day, and i do! i do try that constantly! but about ten minutes after saying that i posted something on my sideblog about how paranoid i was about calories or whatever, because yeah i'm trying to get better, but that doesn't mean i magically stop struggling. i also told them i was NOT on pr0ana tumblr or interacting with that sort of content, because i wasn't comfortable sharing that about myself. i didn't know my friend knew about the sideblog at this point.

they dmed me a while after this post to ask why i had lied to their face, or as they put it in a vaguepost on their blog, "made a promise and then turned around and immediately broken it." i got very very frustrated, since i think what i do on the internet is my business, as is my mental health. this definitely reflected in my tone, so i think i was definitely TA, at least initially.

during this conversation, though, they basically said that i needed to talk to them about my emotions and stop hiding them, and that i had to take the hand they were extending. here's where the main problem started. they then said that they considered contacting my mother or friends but decided in the long run it wouldn't be beneficial. my mother is emotionally abusive, which this friend knew, and would absolutely involuntarily hospitalize me if contacted about my ED.

i became extremely angry, both that my friend would have my mother's and friends' contact information in the first place (we met through tumblr and have only met in person ONCE -- i do not, clearly, have their parents' contact information or even their names, and this was not information i volunteered to them) and that they would use it as an ultimatum. at this point i became extremely furious and basically told them to leave me alone because no one who genuinely cared about me would do that, and i didn't understand why my mental illness was seen as something i HAD to overcome if i wanted to avoid getting literally hospitalized by my mother. at this point they told me that i was refusing to accept help and that i was "aestheticizing killing myself." they then blocked me. i was still fucking angry. i never blocked them from my main, but i did block all their accounts from my sideblog and change the url.

they later unblocked me and we tried to remain civil. we never stopped interacting with each other's posts or whatever. they initiated contact a few times, which i ignored. the first instance they initiated contact was sending me a poem they'd written about the situation, which made me feel like shit, and the second time was just saying "hey." i didn't respond either time because i didn't know how.

i saw a vaguepost that they made on their blog yesterday that basically said they were fucking angry that, after an entire lifetime of struggling to avoid developing an ED, the "person they used to be in love with" was the reason they were developing one. it was clearly about me and i felt a rush of shame so overwhelming that i didn't really know what to do with it. i dmed them to tell them that i loved them and i was sorry, that i didn't mean to hurt them, and that i didn't want things to end like they did. reading back over the message now, it feels very "woe is me" (i was crying while writing it), but basically it just involved me apologizing a million times.

i woke up this morning to their response, which was: "are you saying this because you miss me or because you don't have anyone else left? i don't want to be your last choice." i hadn't gone into the conversation with the intention of regaining their close friendship because, frankly, i don't want that. i hadn't gone into it with a goal in mind. a problem i've had with this friend in the past is that they seem to view a lot of interactions and relationships as almost transactional in a way that i don't (demonstrated by their insistence that i had to talk them about my mental health in the first place). i told them this, and told them i just wanted to apologize and that i loved them. they said that they were sorry, too, but that the timing made them "suspicious," i assume because they know i've been extremely depressed and lonely lately (i just moved to college without any of my best friends and have been making vent posts about it on my main personal blog).

i know it wasn't the intention, but it made me feel like they were using my mental illness against me yet AGAIN, and i stopped apologizing. as i'm typing this i'm trying to decide whether to block them. but i feel like shit about the whole thing, because i was responsible for the formation of their ED, and i feel like i should be able to handle whatever anger they have towards me for that without getting my feelings hurt and being petty. i don't know. AITA?

What are these acronyms?

[antianakin]

So to start with, if you don't like this blog and the things I post on it, nobody's putting a gun to your head asking you to look at it. Feel free to block me, blacklist my username, block the anti and critical tags I try to use VERY frequently, etc. Nobody's asking you to look at the things I post and, quite honestly, the fact that you felt the need to leave me this message tells me that between the two of us, you're the one being unhealthy because you felt the need to tell someone innocently staying in their own lane that they're participating in fandom wrong rather than just... moving on and doing fandom in a way you enjoy more. If you want to see something else, go look at a different blog or make your own posts. Nobody's stopping you, least of all me.

But to actually answer the question you didn't ask, I made this blog because I wanted a place to make the kind of posts I wanted to see. Yes, it's a venting blog. That means sometimes I vent about the same thing more than once. Breaking news: people in fandom talk about the same hyperfixation more than once sometimes!

My best friend in the Star Wars fandom happens to be someone who really likes Anakin. So whenever I disliked something about Anakin, she was not the person I could go to in order to discuss it. Well, not always anyway. Not when I got particularly bitter about it. And at the time that I made this blog over a year ago, I didn't have anywhere else to go to vent those feelings, so I made one for myself. I made myself a tiny safe haven where I could simply write those feelings out that I never really saw anybody else making or discussing. This wasn't intended to be a popular blog. I expected it to get about two followers total maybe and a LOT of haters.

Instead, I've actually heard from a number of people that this blog let them feel seen. That the things I've written have felt really relatable to people who just can't connect to all of the Anakin love that tends to exist in the fandom. Because yes, Anakin's been the villain since the 1970s, but you must not have spent a lot of time in this fandom because that is NOT a thing that a lot of his fans tend to remember or even believe anymore. According to a good number of Anakin fans, the Jedi are the real villains and Anakin is just a tragic victim who didn't really do anything wrong. And even a lot of the people who DO recognize that Anakin is the villain of the story often still tend to like Anakin as this tragic character and will primarily post positive things about him. So for those of us who just... don't LIKE Anakin very much, there isn't as much content out there for us. You either accept all of the Anakin love along with the content for the other characters you like or you just... don't consume very much content within the fandom. Or you find a very specific niche to try to stay in that you like better, I guess. But Anakin's the main character of the main saga, he's hard to avoid entirely.

So this blog helps provide one little safe haven for others who just... don't like this character much.

And that's not even the entirety of this blog anyway. If you had scrolled through it much, you might've noticed the fic rec lists that have nothing to do with Anakin at all and are actually a lot more aimed at being Pro Jedi. Because this blog is just as much about loving the Jedi as it is about disliking Anakin. You might've also noticed the extensive AU concepts I've written a few times, one of the most recent of which actually ended up leading to Anakin surviving ROTJ and figuring out how to stop being a Sith and getting mentally healthy. And Anakin's not even the only character who's GOTTEN criticism on this blog, the pinned post on this blog lists a good 10 characters I've had to add to it because there IS going to be criticism for them here, too, from Satine and Bo-Katan Kryze, to Aleksander Kallus, to Crosshair and TBB as a show in general, to Padme Amidala herself. Not to mention some criticism of Ahsoka, as well, sometimes. I'm an all access kind of hater I guess, I like to have a varied diet of characters I complain about.

So yes, it's a blog named antianakin because the url wasn't taken, I thought it was funny, and it works as a WARNING for anybody who sees my posts or decides to come onto my blog. Obviously it doesn't keep EVERYBODY out who shouldn't be looking at them, look at yourself for a good example of that. But I like to think it's helpful. Yes, this is a venting blog where I allow myself to be negative and complain about characters I don't like in a space I have created for me to do that in. This does not mean that I am not EVER positive about Star Wars, it doesn't even mean that I'm never positive about Star Wars ON THIS BLOG. It just means that this is a place that I am allowed to be salty in, it is a place where I put my most bitter thoughts and feelings and throw them into the void that is Tumblr just to get them out of me.

This is MY safe space, MY little fandom haven. Nobody asked you to be here, so if it doesn't feel safe or even just entertaining for you, you're more than welcome to leave and go find somewhere else you like better or create your own little fandom space where you can create the kind of things YOU want to see. I can wholeheartedly recommend it.

[mlmshark]

Introduction to Mlmshark

Info:

Oliver, 17 yrs, trans male, gay/vincian

This is my account where I ramble about being gay and talk about my experiences as a queer man

And now because apparently I have to add this:

‼️PROSHIP AND RADQUEER DNI‼️ ‼️I AM A VICTIM OF PEDOPHILIA AND CSA I DO NOT WANT YOU HERE YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE‼️

This isn't an nsfw account, but it is 17+ so I can be more mature without worrying about younger followers like I have on my other accounts

Fanfic acc: @sharkboywrites (dead) art acc @sharkboyoli

I will give out my discord, but only to mutuals who ask

more info below, including boundaries please read before sending messages

This is an mlm blog

I use the labels I use/are comfortable with trans man, transmasc, gay, vincian, achillean, aroace, aromantic, greyromantic (more specific way of describing my romantic attraction) and asexual

I am autistic (maybe, I just got tested and am still waiting on results atm), and I have a horror and pokemon special interests (please talk to me about them plsplsplspls)

My pronouns are strictly he/him, but I'm not sure about neos, feel free to use them on me it doesn't bother me

Anyone can interact regardless of sexuality or ender identity, I prefer the people who are my mutuals to be 17+, but younger people can like my posts and ask me questions. I won't follow back anyone under 17.

The main point of this account is to have somewhere to talk about being gay and find more gay people to have a community with it.

For a long time and even sometimes to this day I've been shamed for my identity, so I want my own space to be an openly gay trans man with no hate and find other people in my community. I'm also still exploring myself and the world as a trans man, despite being out for six years, and this is my space to talk about it.

Boundaries

No proshippers, radqueers, zoophiles, etc.

No racism or ablesim, this is a space for all gay men/nblm regardless

My mutuals need to be 17 or older, I may be more mature at times, but not to the point of full nsfw

Do not send me nsfw asks unless they're questions about the queer experience ( for ex. asking about my experience, how to know, about my asexuality, and life as a gay/trans man are fine)

Don't send me/tag me in nsfw posts

Don't try to be homophobic or transphobic, I'll just block you

No shaming me or other people for liking men, even if you're also queer

Don't come onto my posts complaining about how you hate men

Don't try to compare my experiences with other queer people/try to make it the oppression Olympics

Don't complain to me about gay labels or flags

Don't try to invalidate anyone who interacts with this account that identifies as gay, even if you think they don't count (transmasc gay, tranfem gay, genderfluid gay, etc.)

Generally don't bring any discourse

You're free to vent in my asks if it's related to being gay or transgender, this account is for people to find community, just try not to make people uncomfortable

Don't call me the f or t slur unless you know I'm okay with it, even when I call myself it

As you can tell, this is mostly an nsfw neutral account, I'm okay with talking about it in the non- horny sense or now. this acc may be more open to it as time goes on (probably as I get older and experience more things), but for now: no <3

That's it, feel free to interact, i'd love to find some gay people in the community that I can ramble with and be a man kisser with :)

[carolmunson]

let's talk about it.

hi everyone, i wanted to take a minute to talk about the last few days and also issue a public apology to evie, since i think its time i did. but in order to do that, i have to take you back to early/mid february when the main catalyst of things happened.

back then i received quite a few anonymous messages that a user was copying and ripping my work. whether it was all the same person or different people, i'll never know. but i didn't post those messages and eventually decided to investigate as it wasn't the first time i'd been reached out to about it and squashed stuff with this user about it beforehand. when i investigated, i saw some similarities and ran with it in anger instead of reaching out to this user. while i didn't post about it on tumblr or message anyone through tumblr about it i did vent to a tumblr friend via text, blue, about how mad i was.

and i was fucking mean in these texts, like really vile. i called them names, i dogged on their writing (which i hadn't even really read, just skimmed so it was unfounded and mean just to be mean), and was all around pissed. i was truly not nice. and i'll own that. i said a lot of stuff i didn't mean, and definitely don't think is true four months later. i was super heated when i wrote them because i assumed the messages i got were true and went looking for the supposed 'copied' work. i was going through a lot in my personal life at the time that was out of my control and i think just needed something trivial to be mad at and ran with this. but i also was texting a friend in confidence because i wouldn't want to bring that stuff to tumblr and ruin anyone's experience. it's like writing an angry letter just to burn it. i'm not someone who likes drama, so i vented to a friend in anger.

my friend did reach out to this user, evie, via DM with these accusations, which were made public. as i said before, i don't like drama and i don't like conflict, so i didn't say anything about it on my blog. i did tell my friend that it was okay and i wasn't mad at them, but they also knew i didn't appreciate that they did that and they were very remorseful to me about it after. i did not ask my friend to reach out to evie, they too were heated after i vented and as my friend at the time felt like they needed to defend me. i did not ask anyone to send anonymous hate to evie, i did not speak about them negatively on my blog or to others anonymous or publicly. i don't want anyone to have a bad time here, so i was angry in private.

evie and i spoke that night and they told me they were hurt and didn't copy my work and i told her i believed her. i did see some similarities but didn't have the energy to go in and compile them all and at the end of the day, so many of us write similar AUs that there's bound to be some crossover there. i was obviously in my feelings and hurt and so were they. we ended our conversation and blocked each other and i sort of stayed offline for a bit until things cooled down because again, i don't like drama or conflict and didn't want to be around it. my friend at the time did recieve some truly vile hate in response to this which i did find unfounded and deeply cruel. this is internet drama, not a means for death threats and being told to kill yourself. evie also did not condone this either and publicly stated that on their blog.

after we blocked each other, the only time i saw their stuff was when other people i followed reblogged it and that was that. i didn't check it, i didn't read it. i moved on from the situation. i had received a few anons about it here and there but ignored them because again, i'm not bringing that to my blog. people wanted to pick sides and like evie said before, i don't think there were 'sides' to be picked. i'm not keeping score and neither was evie. i didn't hear about anything for a couple months, i was just on here writing my stories and moving apartments. and going through some pretty huge life changes all around.

a few days ago i started receiving messages after blue deactivated and then evie did soon after. blue and i were not friends anymore and hadn't interacted for a while, but again, it was not something that i felt was necessary to address on my blog. i got a handful of messages saying i had bullied people off the platform, which was news to me because i hadn't interacted with either of these people for some time. i didn't even know either of them had deactivated until i was messaged about how i apparantly went out of my way to bully people offline at my big age. i stayed offline for a couple days because i was working on a project and then running a lot of errands but was communicating with friends who were seeing a bunch of stuff go down with a drama blog. i came across a lot of posts that were clearly about me and my friends talk about how we're mean girls who think we run tumblr. (i can assure you i don't think that). and that i'm a big blog bullying small blogs. and while i'm not a numbers girlie, i will let you all know -- i have less than 3,000 followers and even then, i'm sure at least a third of them are bots from the first bot-a-geddon in the fall. i've had this blog since october.

then there was this drama hate blog? (literally WHAT?!) that a message of mine had been leaked from a discord i was a part of where i addressed a few accusations of me being a bully and sending anon hate and to this day, i can confidently say, i have never sent an anonymous hate message in my life. i have sent texts to my friend that were mean about another user to get the anger off my chest, but i would never go out of my way to send a mean message to someone. it doesn't make anything better. myself and another friend of mine accused of being bullies and mean girls were infact the first to squash some major dogpiling we had seen on a user because we knew it wasn't right or fair. then there were these fake messages that were made, and i can confirm are fake and so did evie. that's where things really started to get to me because like, why are we doing this? all of this drama was back in february.

evie publically apologized to me and we spoke about the situation. they were also sent the texts i sent to blue, which i asked her not to share because they are my personal text messages from my IRL phone and also don't feel they truly represent my character or blue's or how i feel about evie months later or in general. but to reiterate, they're fucking mean, and i'm embarrassed about them and the things that i said because they weren't okay. but again, it was me venting privately to a friend and not posting it for everyone to see because i would never want to start shit online with someone i don't know. or actively hurt anyone for any reason, it's just not the kind of person i aim to be.

so i would like to take this time to apologize to evie for literally all of this. for the texts, for the dms you got from my friend at the time that i didn't publically address or publically condemn. for the drama in general. i apologize deeply for the things that i said to my friend back in february and i apologize now for things getting so out of hand that you felt you had to deactivate your blog where you had so much fun. i'm glad you're compiling all your old work and putting it back up because so many people love you and your blog and the AUs you write and talking to you about them, and that's what tumblr should be! and i apologize to both you and blue for not speaking up for either of you when you were both receiving a barrage of hate where which i was the catalyst of the argument. i don't think either of you are bad people, i think this was a situation that got way out of hand and was fueled by a lot of people anonymous or not, who like drama and arguments.

in conclusion, i think tumblr should be fun. i think writing fan fiction should be fun. we are all literally writing porn about the same fictional man/men and giggling and kicking our feet about it. that's all it needs to be. this is my first forray into 'fandom' and i didn't realize how, idk, cut throat it could be or how much people enjoy watching others not get along. but i'll be honest, i don't really like the person it's turned me into online, and i discussed this back in march when i took a break. this constant seeking for validation and notes, the need to feel like you always need to be producing content, it's draining -- and then there's stuff like this where you get messages from faceless people trying to convince you that others are trying to steal from you and take you down, that they hate you and your work, that just shit on you just to shit on you, and it's yucky. it's gross. i don't like it. i don't like the anxiety it gives me. it's taken a lot of fun out of writing for me altogether.

i am not sure how much longer i plan to be on here, but i will be in the process to moving my stuff to ao3 in the event i choose to leave. i like writing and i like tumblr, i really do. but if being a huge fucking bitch via text and making people feel bad is the kind of person it's making me become, then i don't know if i totally want to be a part of it. again, i'd like to apologize to evie and to anyone else who has been effected by this. and if anyone feels the need to send hate messages to my friends or to evie, or speak badly of my friends or evie or blue on my behalf or even in general -- do me a favor and fucking don't. i hope you all have a great rest of your day.

[lindszeppelin]

to the stalkers on my blog, make sure you send over the entire post.

something has been brought to my attention and i cannot keep my mouth shut about this. i will not stand for molly to insult my intelligence on her gossip blog and start a lynch mob against me for something that is not even true to begin with.

the anon that came to me sometime ago who asked me if i wanted to know where she went to law school...as soon as i got that anon in my inbox i knew that person was attempting to bait me. i don't give a fuck about molly to want to know her personal information. hell i don't even know the personal information of my actual friends in the fandom besides basics lol. and while i might despise the scumbag that she is, i would never dox anybody. doxing is serious and has permanent after effects, and it can cause trauma. so knowing that this anon was trying to make me look a certain way and make me fall into their bear trap, i set up a bait for their bait on purpose. I wanted to know who that anon was so i could put them on blast to the community as a PSA. i didn't actually believe they had her personal information. im nearly 30 years old and have been around the internet for a long time, i wasn't born yesterday.

if that anon remotely knew personal information about any one of us and they were to dox someone, that is breaking the law and we do NOT need a person like that in this fandom. so i went to find the rat and lure them into my trap. well the coward came back to me on anon with a "nice try" response, so i obviously wasn't able to get them into a private message and figure out who the user was, which was my goal. and i knew how this would be perceived. but i have nothing to lose by being candid and honest about my genuine thought process. and like i said, no matter how much i dislike molly, i would never dox her as if im some disney channel villain.

as always, all that molly cares about is pointing the finger at me to her followers and inciting a lynch mob against me. and as for the other thing she said about me recently...i have been receiving dozens of anon messages all the time about the crazy things she says about austin and people on anon venting to me about her. but i delete them, and i have done for a hell of a long time. i can't even remember the last time i even mentioned molly by name as a response to someone's message, it must be months at this point. so you are incorrect when you tell your followers that i have started a hate campaign against you and talked about you for the last year. but hey, you basically have done the same to me on your blog, and you actually cannot keep my blog out of your mouth. so in your eyes it's okay to start drama because you're exempt from the backlash. got it.

you are not worth my time, the breath i have in my lungs, or the mental capacity to give a shit about anything you say or do. but when you try to go on your gossip blog and say that i purposefully tried to dox you, you're a fucking moron first of all, and as much as we hate eachother i would never put someone's life at risk like that. but i guess that is just simply out of the realm of possibility for you, because what other thread do you have to go on to hate me besides the fact that i think Austin and Kaia are not endgame? give me a break.

but circling back to one last thing i forgot to mention...after we had our issues with each other where i had to block you because you refused to do something as simple as have the common curtesy of making a separate austin tag so we didn't have to see kaia content in his main tag where you basically said "deal with it"...so many people came to me on anon sharing their experiences with you in the beginning of me turning on anons, and they came to me out of fear that you and your friends would bully them out of the fandom for daring to speak up against you. i am proud to have cultivated a purported safe space for people in the fandom to freely speak their mind and share stories free of judgement. i will never silence anybody for speaking about their personal stories of bullying and harassment. you got an issue, take it up with the many victims you have under your belt. you are not the innocent princess you like to try and portray yourself to be. and while nobody is perfect, there is no excuse for the shit you have put people through in this fandom. on here and on twitter.

that is my truth. whether you choose to take your blinders off and believe me and put this stupid shit aside is up to you. i am not holding my breath because your words are predictable. but i was not raised to be a narc, i was not raised to be a snitch, i was not raised with off-base morals where i would harm people for fun. i speak the truth and i have nothing to lose by being honest. but i was raised to stand up to bullies like you.

i know my intentions and i can sleep well at night knowing i was trying to do the right thing and expose a cockroach in the fandom. clearly that person still is a degenerate, and if they are your friend then you better be careful of who your friends are if they were willing to sell you out to me for shits and giggles. i know you will always believe that i was trying to actually dox you. and while i am not here to break bread with you, i was looking out for a fellow human being, regardless of what my feelings are for you.

oh and by the way, can you say that you ever do the same for me? absolutely not. when i came back to tumblr after a few days break when i had a fucking mental breakdown at the spiteful, venomous anons that came to me to send me hate after a shitstorm that you started, what did you say in response to me coming back? basically "yeah good look trying to block anons babe, they will never stop". if the shoe was on the other foot and an anon sent you my personal information, no doubt you would not share the same cutesy to me of trying to expose that person to the fandom for their snake behavior. you do not take accountability for the horrible things you say to people and how you purposefully start online wars with those that dare to disagree with you about austin. you have a fucking wrap sheet of people you have hurt and offended on tumblr and yet your response is "i don't think i have done anything wrong". just because you think you didn't hurt anybody doesn't mean it didn't happen. it's called taking accountability.

so you're welcome for trying to expose the shit stirrer. while my attempt to expose the person didn't end up working, i gave it my best efforts and i am okay with that. why don't you take your anger out on the person who acted like they were actually going to leak your personal information to your enemies instead of me, the person who was actually trying to expose the shit stirrer? because you never will. my integrity means a hell of a lot to me, so you're dumber than a sack of hammers to think that you can talk about me like this and expect me to not respond to you. you have once again brought this one on yourself.

happy valentine's day, pookie.

[diari0deglierrori]

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Hiiiii!!!! @omarfor-mp3 I’m diari0deglierrori, I’m alive and (almost) well, sorry to appear like this out of the blue but I was desperate and I’m feeeling awful and I need to vent so I figured I’d make a new blog to explain a bit. I saw your post about a mutual disappearing and figured it could be me (in the eventuality of it not being about me, feel free to ignore). So! Where do I start.

It all started on a dark January afternoon, the sky was grey and the air- ok I’ll go straight to the point: so I was just chilling, using this app as usual, and then all of a sudden, the Wi-Fi went down for like an hour and I couldn’t use it anymore, so ok, I go on with my life (although very annoyed because I had things to say). So then it seems that the Wi-Fi is back, at least insta is working, so I come back here to make a post about it (I don’t even know if it got published or not though? Something about the Wi-Fi who stopped working right when I was about to watch a movie ?) But when I hit post an error message appeared, the one that usually appears when there’s not Wi-Fi, so I try turning on my phones data and all to make it work but it doesn’t change a thing, I only get error messages. Then foolish little old me thinks it’s only because of a bad connection again so I check everything else to see if they work or not, every other app seems to be working so I come back here and when I check on my blogs they all seem to be gone, only my main’s name appears (it kind of happened once but only lasted about 5/10 minutes) so I start to worry and check other peoples blogs to see if it’s just the app or me. I figure I can go on the trending page, I can search things and go on blogs, so I go on yours and see the post about a mutual disappearing and it hits me. I’m simply gone. My whole life for the past 9ish years, vanished. I’m devastated. Oh but the problems are only getting started! I somehow still think my phone is the main problem, maybe it crashed a bit somehow so I go on settings and turn it off, thinking that maybe it’ll kind of reset things (not like reset reset, you know? Just like when you turn it off and on? I can’t explain right, my brain feels crushed). So I do the usual, turn it off, wait for a couple of minutes and try turning it on again. It does, the screen turns on, it says it’s locked and to swipe up to unlock, which I do. But it doesn’t work, the screen doesn’t move. I touch the buttons and they work just fine, I mean I can put it on mute and stuff, but nothing that needs the screen. So I start to panic a bit, tell people to call it so I can see if it still works, so they do and I see it can ring but I can’t swipe to answer, it’s like it’s frozen or something. But like not completely, I don’t know how to explain. Anyway, long story short I think I broke my phone, I can’t use it anymore, but the screen stays on and the hours go by, as if it was just mocking me. This is when you realize you’re stupid and wished you did a backup before, which I never do because as I said, I’m stupid. So anyway I tried to go log on my tumblr on my laptop but it didn’t work, so I tried changing the password too but then it said that my account got terminated and that I should report it to the staff or something… so I did, I’m waiting to see if they’ll ever answer.

I looked it up and apparently it happened to a lot of people, someone even explained it better than me: 

“Originally it wouldn't load and said I needed to log in. I logged out and attempted to log back in, but it said my email/password was wrong. I tried to change my password and now it says my account was terminated. I've had this account for 10 years.”. 

Same thing happened to me. 

Aaaanayway, I’ve been dying inside ever since, hahahahahahejsfbkand 

(I’m tagging you because of the post btw, sorry to bother) 

[roguemonsterfucker]

Every fucking time I make a post about Tr*e Bl*od (censored so it doesn’t show up in tags), the person that called 911 on me when I posted about being somewhat suicidal reblogs it.

On my main blog, two or three years ago, I’d posted about being mildly suicidal and then I went to play a video game and listen to a podcast to try to get past it. This person tried to message me but I was busy playing a game so I didn’t see it in time.

And this fucker called 911 and gave them my username and shit.

I had a fucking panic attack when I found out. Like... don’t fucking do that. I paced around my house for hours, worried that somehow they would track me down and fucking drag me away for posting depressive thoughts on tumblr.

And for fucks sake, I wasn’t even as bad as I could’ve been. I knew it would pass, I just needed to vent someplace so I could move on. So what was really just a small, not serious situation, got turned into a full blown crisis because of that fucking asshole who didn’t know me at all.

I mean, fuck. I didn’t even post saying “I’m suicidal.” I posted something mildly depressive and tagged it ‘suicide cw’ because one of my mutuals was in a pretty bad place at the time and I didn’t want to trigger her. So just to be safe, I tagged it that way.

Ugh. Anyways. Just needed to vent.

For the record, I’m okay. I mean, I’m constantly extremely fucking depressed lol. But I’m not in danger. Please never call 911 on me. I do have family around me and if there’s ever a danger, they’re here. As strangers on the internet, you could do way more harm than good trying to contact authorities to ‘help.’

Oh and the reason I mention the TV show is because that person followed me (my old blog, not this one) because of that show. And they’ve remade their blog a few times, though I can easily recognize their style so I know it’s them. So they keep getting around my block when I mention the show here. =/ They don’t know this is me, of course, and they don’t follow this blog. They’re just finding my posts when they search for the show.

[silverhallow]

I am feeling in a really weird place at the moment...

like I want to write but at the same time I don't want to write... like I want to write for me, for my stories because I love them and the idea...

but at the same time

i'm feeling really fucking flat...

like... what's the point kind of emotion.

it's been a rather underwhelming reaction to stories that people really wanted to see but I know that I am writing them for me and the person who wanted them the most is enjoying them which is the main thing as well but still...

since benophie week and all the effort and work I put in... i got a lot of thanks and praise for putting it together and then the fandom just seemed to turn to shit all over again.

i'm just...

i'm feeling a little fed up and weirdly under appreciated in a lot of aspects of my life.

like i genuinely wonder what would happen if i just...

went on strike.

refused to write. refused to work. refused to do anything...

like i don't want to but at the same time my brain is going what if...

but it's also itching to write.

it wants to continue my stories, it wants to start new ones... it wants to finish what is there

but the amount of SHIT i've had to deleted in the last two weeks since Benophie week finished.

did you know last Sunday I deleted no fewer than 15 hate messages.

on my fucking BIRTHDAY.

i have no idea if its the same person or what and i feel like i'm forever blocking IP addresses and just...

I've been feeling really weird all week and so fucking close to tears constantly that i've no idea what to do.

I want to write

but I don't want to at the same time.

i hardly posted yesterday and I had no hate this morning but 5 "why haven't you updated posts" like... seriously... read the room, read my blog...

i'm struggling and need a break... and I know i've made a rod for my own back with the regular updates but i had 30 messages when I was on my honeymoon asking why I hadn't posted.

not any "are you okay?" messages just "WHY HAVEN'T YOU UPDATED" sort of messages yet when I do update i get the same people commenting and I KNOW those people aren't the ones sending me the WHY messages...

i know it comes with the territory of having nearly 800 followers (well 799 so it is nearly 800) and being quite a big deal in the benophie fandom... and from what I can see one of the more active Benophie blogs...

but I don't see my counterparts getting this...

so it's like

WHY ME.

i've only ever wanted peace. i'm very much life and let ship... and yet i've had so much shit this last week it's really starting to get to me

having my account be attempted to be hacked hasn't helped. it's not happened since. I changed my password again but still...

it's draining.

there is a human being behind the blog, behind the smiles and the cheery posts... and i hate writing these moans but i've literally no where else to vent my feelings.

So if you've read this, kudos for getting to the end of my bitch fest...

if not...

oh well. no one cares and i needed it off my chest... so... yeah...

[foxesandmagic]

May Hiatus

I don’t feel like I’m creating for the love of OCs and stories at the moment, and I’m hoping I can change that. I know I do these a lot, and I know that usually I fail to actually go through a hiatus without feeling some sort of guilt, but I’m going to try a full hiatus for May. 

I’ve been feeling like I’m creating just to share at the moment, and yet it also feels like each creation is little more than screaming into the void. I know that there’s been a lot going on in the OC community recently, and people are trying to bring positivity back, but for me I think I need to fall in love with my own creations again first. 

The queue will still be running, just at a limited capacity, over May (hopefully it’ll be like I’m not even gone). I’ve got some scheduled posts for Weekly OC Questions, and should have stuff for birthdays of people who asked to be on my birthday list; there’s also going to be some things about OC blogs who interacted with this post (hopefully a question for a main muse/someone who caught my attention). There’ll be posts about my original fiction (@thevoyageurmoteplass) and fanfiction (@justmoreocs) blogs as the queues for them are running still too (there should be enough until like July). I just won’t be around to pick up any direct messages, or to reblog creations over May (I might catch up when I’m back, I might not, I still don’t know). And I’ll probably reblog this a couple of times. 

Even if I’m not around, please remember that my ask box and direct messages are always open if anyone needs/wants to talk. It can be just to vent, to talk about OCs or anything, I’ll always try my best to help. 

Anyway, I hope you have a great time, and that you’re visited by inspiration and time as much as you want. Thanks for everything so far.

Also, if you have tag lists, please feel free to add me to them - I usually try looking at everything, even if I only reblog things really from fandoms I know at least a little about.

[dollishmind]

» Active April '23 « [ 1 week smoke free ]

❥ a lil hearty welcome!

✦ 「 about this blog 」 ₓ˚. ୭ » safe space « ˚○◦˚.

I would say that I've overcame my ed for the most part. There are still things I'm struggling with but it no longer dominates my day. To recover wasn't really my intention but it came along when I got a better understanding for myself and my struggles and started to see some things with a slightly different mindset. Since I feel confident enough to not fully relapse again after struggling for 6 years I think I'm able to lose a bit of weight again in a much slower and healthier way than before. I do not focus or post about any numbers. No states and no food intake logs and no body checks. My main focus is on how I feel and on building healthier habits for example exercising in a way my body has a benefit from it. Making thouse changes will lead to changes in my body shape over the time. I use tumblr as a journal or more like a safe place for my thoughts and to capture what I learn on the way.

one quote I try to live by is; "Your direction is more important than your speed."

Trigger Warning

contains weight loss related content and might include eating disordered thoughts, vents and discussion about mental illnesses/health. Feel free to leave my blog anytime!

I'm not pro anything! but I support and encourage recovery and every little step in that direction [still accept and respect the state you're in and the decisions you make. I mind my own business and only want to spread kindness and to stay positive on my way]

If anything on my blog makes you feel uncomfortable please don't report just block, thank you.

[ please, if your suffering gets too much to handle seak out for help! Your pain is valid and you deserve help and support just like everyone else. Don't give up! I'm proud of you for getting through all thouse tough days! You are much more than what makes you bleed. You got this ]

About Me

she/her, 2004. I've got my diagnoses for atypical eating disorder, social anxiety and depression. Currently in therapy and doing much better now. [Not everyone has access to a proper diagnose or even treatment for it but please remember that you don't need a diagnose to acknowlage your struggles and to be worthy for help!]

I'm open to discussions about any topic. I can only represent my own persepctive but other opinions are much welcomed. [always be kind tho]

I would say that I'm a decent human being (at least most of the time /j) so feel free to message me. It's always nice to come across new people.

.・。.・゜✧・.* 。 • ˚ ˚ ˛ * 。° 。 • ˚

stay safe!

[yippikaiyaymotherfucker]

Dear Bekah,

I highly doubt that you're going to even bother reading this because apparently for reasons I know not, you've decided to cut me out of your life.

Should you have gotten this far in this "letter", so to speak, then I'm going to try to keep this as short as possible, but if you know me at all, you should know that I usually fail and things turn up becoming a novel.

I am going to post this on my Tumblr, I am going to e-mail it to the two e-mail addresses I have for you and I am going to send this as a submission to your RP main blog then I'm just letting go of you.

There is no pretense that I am expecting a reply despite the fact that I have lost people in life and I never thought you were going to be one of them, least of all like this, and the fact that I /need/ closure should you feel merciful enough to grant me it, then I thank you.

You were one of my best friends, my soul sister, the woman I could turn to just to vent or chat or laugh with. I loved you. I love you. I have no idea what happened. I do know this, though, should you ever wish to have contact with me again, I will be right here.

My Discord is no longer that account in our server but "justcallmesah".

If you recall, I made a third account titled Meow Meow, I will also be sending this letter through Discord under that account, which you are free to block should you feel the need to with or without reading this.

I don't have the ability to turn my emotions off and on nor my feelings so, yes, I still love you as my friend and chosen family.

I just want to understand what I did to hurt you so I can try to make amends, like I learned in NA.

But it is not on me to complete that step here because now things are in your hands.

Now.

First of all:

I don't understand what the hell happened to begin with that caused you to block me, leave our server and just ghost me without an explanation.

The last thing we said to each other were legit the words "BRB" on your end because I remember that day you were having someone work on your net issues.

I had just asked you, or rather, told you that I was scared that you would vanish vanish from my life and if I recall correctly, you told me that you may vanish but you would never just ghost me because you had been ghosted by someone you loved and cared for and you would never do that to someone you loved.

This begs the question:

What is it that I did other than spam message you on any platform I could think of to get a response from you because I was /worried/ about my best friend. I was worried about her, you, her children, and Chris because you said BRB and just vanished.

Why would you just leave my life after promising me that you would never "ghost" me and vanish /vanish/ because you knew that pain? We had even gotten drunk and spoke about an experience you had where this happened to you and how badly it hurt you, so why would you hurt me like that?

It is clear you both read and got the point from my messages. What did you read and interoperate that garnered this post on your RP Blog: "I am going to ask this nicely once. Then I will go to the police for stalking if not stopped. Please stop invading all of my social media, and please stop bothering my co-workers/developer team. What happens on here and between you and me is separate entirely. Please don’t harass me while at work now. I was trying to handle this silently and with dignity… But you’ve kinda forced my hand by invading my lively hood… Please. just stop. I can’t handle it anymore….. That being said, I was trying to come back. But due to some extreme complications again… I will be away for a bit longer. And I apologize. I love you all and hope you all are having good days. I’ll be back soon. I hope… #pls don't ask #this is because things have gotten this bad that I came here #w0e speaks up #please. stop. #you know who you are. #the fact that I even have to GO this far....." and what is it that I did?

I want to make this clear. I never meant to "invade your livelihood". I saw on your Twitter under your profile a Discord link and I simply clicked it, thinking it would direct me to you somehow but upon realizing that it was your Book Team's server, we can both agree that I left as soon as I understood I was mistaken. So, no. I don't believe I was "invading your livelihood" in any manner.

That all being said, I understand if you haven't even gotten this far into this "letter" but should you still be reading this, I don't expect a reply. I don't expect a reaction. I don't want to hurt you, emotionally, mentally or physically nor do I have any intentions of doing so and yes, this includes your "livelihood", your book.

I simply wish to be told what it was that I did that caused and garnered the actions that you took all without a word to me, leaving me in the dark.

I am going to repeat this here because this is where it belonged but I needed you to understand the following before you just delete the submission/email/block me/dm:

I am going to post this on my Tumblr, I am going to e-mail it to the two e-mail addresses I have for you and I am going to send this as a submission to your RP main blog then I'm just letting go of you.

There is no pretense that I am expecting a reply despite the fact that I have lost people in life and I never thought you were going to be one of them, least of all like this, and the fact that I /need/ closure should you feel merciful enough to grant me it, then I thank you.

You were one of my best friends, my soul sister, the woman I could turn to just to vent or chat or laugh with. I loved you. I love you. I have no idea what happened. I do know this, though, should you ever wish to have contact with me again, I will be right here.

My Discord is no longer that account in our server but "justcallmesah".

If you recall, I made a third account titled Meow Meow, I will also be sending this letter through Discord under that account, which you are free to block should you feel the need to with or without reading this.

I don't have the ability to turn my emotions off and on nor my feelings so, yes, I still love you as my friend and chosen family.

I just want to understand what I did to hurt you so I can try to make amends, like I learned in NA.

But it is not on me to complete that step here because now things are in your hands.

~ Love, despite everything, Sahar.

@w0efulsoul @outcastbybirth

[n1et]

Today marks I think 2 full weeks without my dear dictaphone; a device very dear to me; lay abandoned in my autumn bomber jacket; which itself lays tossed on a wooden chair used in my family home to swap out footwear and abandon the top most layer of clothing and bags on. It is usually the outlet of my melancholic pining and other monotonous and verbose ramblings, but as I find myself distinctly lacking, and in great need of an outlet of any kind, I have decided to, this one time, use tumblur for what it's actually supposed to be used as.

A micro blogging website.

I'll try to keep subject matter light and venting to a minimum, after all it's bad form to complain on main, that being said standards vary, so be warned if you're not into that sort of thing.

Throughout today I have felt a deep penetrating exhaustion; the kind that starts in your eyes goes all the way down your optic nerve into the temples, culminates in stress pains in your neck and shoulders and then reverberates throughout all your joints; the kind that is final overencompassing and complete. I say that not to complain; as I mentioned above I will try my best to avoid that when possible; but to set the scene. As always when a wave of such feeling hits me; there comes an equal and opposite reaction from my psyche, a result of a full day of inactivity, a powerful and just as overwhelming wanderlust. I write it in italics as I think simple letters on paper, or in this instance, a screen are, just as simply, inadequate. It is after all the same feeling that very closely tempted me to jumping out of a second story window into a thicket of bushes just to feel the wind, or has actually compelled me to go ice skating on a frozen river in the middle of the night (that particular excursion ended with a very bruised ass and 2 weeks of lung infection after nearly getting hypothermia {I at least had the good sense to skate on parts which I knew were shallower then I am high})

It's also on days like this that I am reminded what I want to accomplish within my lifetime; eat good food, figure out a way to function day to day; make pretty things; make functional things; make functional pretty things; become 50% metal and cured bone by mass; eat good food; and of course, become the kind of friend that throws dinner parties. That last part is more complicated then the rest; maybe with the exception of the functioning bit; but I've given up on planning for that one years ago and resigned to "just figure it out one day".

All that said I think I'm doing good progress; I already know how to make a mean creme brulee (at first it was an excuse to use my gas soldering iron as a kitchen torch, but I actually got good at it), and am adept enough at making decent, or at least drinkable tea. The tea is actually the hard part, not only do you have to have a good blend, brewing it is also non trivial, and differs with each kind of tea, which itself is a preference of your guests; but of all that the actual hardest part is sourcing willing guests that will not be discouraged by a 100 decibel dog with teeth the size of daggers that really, and I mean REALLY, does not want to have guests over.

If any of the people reading this will be visiting Cracow I encourage you to shoot me a message and come over for a chat, it's always nice to get an excuse to break out the "kitchen torch" again, and it's hard to justify spending a small fortune on vanilla beans when you can just make yourself hot chocolate like a normal person.

The second hardest part on the bracket is the making things, and I'm afraid my efforts thus far have been inadequate at best. For all the theorycrafting in the world, if you don't start, nothing will actually get done. That's something that I need to internalize on a deeper level, as more often then not I am content to talk about doing things, instead of actually doing anything. To gush about the perceived coolness of the project, without ever realizing any of said coolness into the world around me.

That too; as all things; is easier said then done when you have no work space and keep having to ping pong around the same two places, sometimes in a rather unpleasant hurry {that was the part that's entirely pragmatic and totally not venting btw}; but enough about that, let me move on to talking about all the cool projects I will totally get around to making some day; like my totally structurally viable and not at all partly fictitious deployable jumping stilts, walking locomotion throne, actively cooled oxygenated respirator mask, and fully controllable extra set of arms, that fits together with the stilts and mask to create a braced and spring supported exoskeleton that carries it's own weight.

Out of all of those, the mask is probably the most achievable, all I need to do is buy a full face PPE mask, get a used oxygen condenser from ebay, hook everything up, stuff it in a backpack, and hope nothing catches fire, and I don't get too high off of high oxygen exposure and crack my skull open on pavement. Easy. I'd say the second most likely project to see the light of day are the jumping stilts, I heard you can get good springs from car manufacturers, for cheaper then actual jumping stilts, tho how I'm going to keep the whole thing both light enough to jump around in AND collapsible is a mystery to even me. The end goal is to have something I could use to go shopping as well as vault cars when it strikes my fancy. And the thing I am least likely to ever complete is a tossup between the extra arms and locomotion throne, as for the arms I'd need to solve 2 issues that have been plaguing actual engineers and biophysicists for years and for the throne I'm basically signing myself up for making a fucked up walking car all on my lonesome, without as much as an actual car or an auto repair shop.

All of this on top of my very pronounced chronic fatigue; something which i both loathe and respect, as it made me into the person I am today. After all I would not be trying to reclaim my prison of flesh if that flesh was not imprisoning me on the first place. I would have more likely then not ended up just as maladjusted as I am right now, just in more boring, standard ways. Like starting to behave like your mother; or getting into an unhealthy relationship with a romantic partner; instead of yourself. Instead I got such wonderful aspirations as wanting to get screws into your bones to attach cool technology to your limbs, something I have long since abandoned after discovering any wound deeper then a scratch basically does not heal on me. Seriously, I pierced my ears over a year ago and they still haven't frown over, I'd be worried, but I basically never get infections, and I got used to bleeding from random places when I was little; so now I'm in this endless cascade of sunken cost fallacy. I mean surely the wound that has not shown any signs of healing since it was put there will heal after This Week of keeping the stud earring in, and it's not like it'd close properly if I pulled it out anyway so might as well keep it in right? That's just the kind of double standards you get yourself into when you finally want to put on some earrings I guess, I would like to get a tattoo to go along with those, but as you might have already guessed that's less then possible without a massive scar (at least according to my doctor). But I've gotten off topic.

All of those quirks shaped my life quite thoroughly and that's not even getting into all the people I met over the years, subsequently forgotten about, only to remind myself about them specifically on days like these.

You might even join them if you do decide to come over for that creme brulee and tea or coffee.

[silas-stories]

March 16

I decided I'm gonna start writing more frequently and not just gonna use this blog to vent. I got accepted into the art gymnasium and I'm really happy about it, but I'm also really nervous. I don't there are gonna be many problems with the school tablets, I don't think I'm gonna need one (at least if they don't give the illusion of a choice like at my current school cause you absolutely need them).

I've been listening to some Lady Gaga Songs since the beginning of the year. I also just finished watching Parasite: The Maxim, I really liked it and it has an interesting message you don't see that much in media. The characters are alright but I don't like them that much (specifically love interest and protagonist). The main guy (forgot his name) has a pretty interesting development, I like him at the beginning of the series and he's alright at the end. I think he deserved a happy relationship after everything that happened. Hand Parasite is definitely one of my favorites and I miss him. I know this sounds really weird but I love seeing characters in media suffer (sorry Elias but at least you don't have to go by Tyler anymore) it makes for great character growth/changes and fluff.

I've been working on an illustration of Elias (my beloved<3) and so far it's turning out really good. My friend paid me a cent to draw a metalhead roman doing the 🤘 and asking for 2 beer. My first time making money with art! Even if it's just a cent. I really wanna start getting more into Jack Stauber and Ghost, let's see if or when that's gonna happen

So far I'm actually doing pretty good but I have to work on improving my grades in Physics, Chemistry and History. I think I understood the current topic in physics but a friend and I are meeting with a tutor next week because there's a big test coming up, I hope I won't fail. I just such at chemistry and I don't like it, I participated in a competition in hopes of not totally failing. My history teacher just sucks and I don't know how I got that grade. She's really strict on participation in class and stuff and the tests didn't end very well so far, I'll see what I can do.

[csmeaner]

AHAHAHHA wasn't expecting i'd be messaging you any time in my life. dude so like, yeah one of my friends made the bunnochimeaner blog as a joke. No maliciousness behind it there was no plans to try and "out" people or whatever. It was just for shits and giggles because we couldn't comprehend the absurdity of a bunch of people (presumably grown adults) saying "shut up minor" to a guy who until that point didn't know better. If i'm doing anything wrong i'd like to be told! otherwise i'll just think you're being mean to me for no reason. i know me the cringe 16 year old is really intimidating or whatever but don't feel afraid to approach me. and i'll make it clear, I got that paypal info from being a chimereon GA (feel free to read their sign-up terms for proof), they told me it was fine. and don't piss on them for this, seems like it was just a mistake. I love cs and i think artists can charge whatever they want, so im mostly against the things your blog contains. (but i appreciate calling out shitty/shady behavior!) but maybe you should take down the tutorial that guy posted on how to expose anonymous asks, seems counter-productive to what you're all about. even if your criticism is often harsh it still has potential to bring light to important things p.s. sorry im annoying, doing my best to get therapy and improve. xoxo (and i deleted the things in the discord because i was leaving the discord for my mental health, to give you some backstory on that.)

post related

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probably need proof this is bunnochi or whatever and the main parts in reply to this are:

just because you didn't know any better does not give you a pass

if you're bunnochi your profile's riddled with shit about how you liberally block people and generally come off antisocial as hell

this is a vent blog i.e to vent anonymous frustrations whether people came to you or not is not my problem

people find you annoying and you were found to be breaking the rules of paypal that's why people are mean to you. if you want to confirm dm me with your discord and i'll reach out

[licncourt]

Idk if you have already answered something like this, but do you have any thoughts or headcanons about what our Precious But Sometimes Stupid vampires would think of newer technology like Google Dot or Amazon Alexa, or even just texting/group chats? I'd love to know how they interact with stuff like that! I bet Daniel would be exhausted trying to help the rest of them figure that stuff out correctly. Love your blog, it's amazing!

I have SO many thoughts about this actually because as a concept vampires with technology is inherently funny (my sense of vamp humor was shaped by WWDITS 2014). And thank you so much!!

Lestat LOVES new technology and he has absolutely no fucking idea how to use it. He's got the spirit though and the two things he can do successfully are take hundreds of selfies and text Louis with too many exclamation points and emojis. He's also the one friend with the perpetually cracked phone screen no matter how new it is. He won't put a case on it because that ruins the aesthetics. Tiktok seems up his alley if he ever figures it out, as does livestreaming. If he knew how to vlog, he would.

So Daniel is pretty good with tech, he enjoys it and tries to keep up with new developments, but he is also a boomer, so he's probably not going to be quite as down with the kids as he wants to think he is. I'm thinking "soccer mom with an iPad level" of tech literate. He can do decent troubleshooting though and is Lestat's main hookup for new devices when he breaks them or downloads seventy viruses from clicking on pop-ups

Louis pretends to be a total luddite but he's actually not. It's all an act to keep Lestat and Armand from trying to find his social media accounts. He's not super great with it, but he's reasonably competent and has a secret vent Twitter that he also uses to save artwork/poetry/etc and to get in fights about history and culture. He might have a sad boi finsta with pretentious photography and melodramatic captions, but I haven't decided. He's torn on ebooks when Daniel shows him the Kindle app. The practicality is unbeatable but on principle it feels wrong

Armand is the best with tech and internet culture in general. He's on his phone 24/7 scrolling socials, online shopping, networking, and basically just girlbossing it up. When Bluetooth comes out, his earpiece becomes a fifth limb. I mean, he's still limited by his circumstances, but he's pretty damn savvy and even keeps up with new memes/slang terms. He doesn't use them, but he has a mental catalog mainly so he can feel superior to everyone else

Marius ONLY likes youtube and texting. He has no interest in being taught anything else. All he needs are TedTalks and instant communication with everyone he knows so that they all have to hear every thought he has. It's a lot of thoughts and literally no one cares. The four times a year it's something important no one gets his message because they've stopped checking and he has to use the trusty brain beaming method

There is definitely a group chat. Lestat and Marius talk the most (incessantly). Armand chimes in when he has something snarky to say to one of them. Louis has it muted, but Daniel texts him screenshots of anything particularly stupid

Armand has probably scammed someone with NFTs (as he should). Daniel literally does not care anymore as long as his one Bitcoin keeps going up (he bought it as a joke in 2011 for like $10 and totally forgot about it. He's sitting on 40 grand now and has no idea what to do what to do about that)

Lestat is fascinated by Alexa and the like, but he doesn't have one because Louis is horrified by the privacy implications of the whole thing. Lestat just wants to be able to talk to a machine and have it play him Careless Whisper on command. He does not care about internet privacy as long as his life is convenient