#I need to become enough for myself again

[shibe]

I don’t know how to feel

[qqueenofhades]

The extent to which the tankie-lite "America Has A Magic 'Stop Everything Bad in the World' Button and Biden Just Refuses to Push It Because He Doesn't Want To!" mindset has infiltrated this website, even among supposedly sensible people, continues to be alarming.

[journey-to-the-attic]

lucifer acts like he's the type of guy who'd be into dark comedy or high-brow satire, and he is to some extent, but he in fact prefers to watch michael mcintyre walk around on stage going "wooo wooo" pretending he's hoovering

[arsonist-chicken]

hehehe fourth day in a row I've slept until 5pm because I fucked up my sleep rhythm staying up until 7am but probably more likely because of the ✨curses✨, but at least today I finally saw some sunlight again by walking to the store to still make it before they close. this is fine.

[ironmanstan]

I am coming to the realization i have been slowly killing myself with work i think oops

[sonofshu]

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[blackvahana]

Well! Well. I shut off Oblivion. I went to annoy Lev in the astral. He has a body chilling on my bed reading something or playing with something or. whatever. Anyway. So I start making Poses at him again because something in my goddamn biology needs to fucking do weird ass bird mating dances at him at every given opportunity. My bed is right beside my desk, head of the bed and back of the desk are in a line. Im sitting at my desk physically. I'm like oh. Sudden strong spirit presence beside me! Said hi to Lev guessing he got up to watch over my shoulder because I closed oblivion and he was asking me about it (so he probably came to look) and then was like. Oh that's not you is it. Because. That's where my astral body is.

Yeah no that was me. Because I could turn around and look through planes into my faces.

It's not the first time I've had a strong presence in the astral! I do that every once in a blue moon. I've dropped the temperature and brightness of rooms before, the spirits possessing my body have felt me before in the way I feel them but

I. don't talk about this because I don't agree p shifting is a thing but this is dangerously close to p shifting type beliefs, but in my and my groups experience spirits can actually physically come here. All planes are connected, it's not about a Veil but about a huge magnetic gap between this plane and the others and it's huge polarisation that means you need a fuck tonne of energy to translate yourself into a body on this plane And to get back out of it so it tends it really just be gods coming here and generally as shit like animals so they don't get Spotted. Generally. I don't care if anyone believes me I don't talk about it for others - uh. double meaning there. I'm not talking about it for others now, and usually I never mention it for others' sakes. This is not about others

But I was thinking that. I get thoughts crossing my mind especially lately about "well if I had a fuck tonne of energy, could I be here in two bodies...." in the way of the theory of it. trying to understand more about how this plane works and whatnot. this.

This was the first time. looking at myself through planes. Where I was like. I have two bodies in the same universe. both real. both exist. both are me. This is not some abstract "I exist and then the astral is some foreign place" I was in another body as real as this one on the fucking other side of the veil and I felt myself there. Like I've felt myself in the astral before, but now I'm like. spirits are not vague fucking things. I know they're real i Know the theory but I never let myself KNOW the theory

[erythristicbones]

i think making my own discord server for my original stories was one of the best decisions ive made in awhile tbh

[the-most-pathetic-edge-marquis]

can’t stop thinking about that post that was like “let maría be evil! she’s manipulative for turning people into vampires knowing she was just going to kill them!”

like. yes, she’s doing something horrifying and soul-wearing, and hurting the people she turns. but she’s also in the middle of a war zone! (A WAR SHE DIDN’T START!!!! SHE’S JUST TRYING TO GET HER HOME BACK!!!! IN THE ONLY WAY SHE CAN!!!!!) war corrupts morals! war presents you with impossible choices! you can’t be purely “good” when you’re fighting for your life!! (like sorry she isn’t a white man who can float around cheating the stock market and pretending to be a doctor??? maybe take that up with the colonizers who wrecked her home????)

and like, that’s the whole point! that’s what makes her an interesting “villain” to explore!!! she’s in impossible circumstances and she’s become ruthless and manipulative as a result but at the end of the day the goal she’s fighting for is righteous and what does THAT mean for the blood on her hands?! you lose ALL OF THAT complexity if you just make her “evil!” not to mention the gross racial stereotypes that are obviously happening there.

also like it’s so stupid to call her a “villain” in the first place bc she’s just NOT, the literal definition of a villain is “a character in a story or play who opposes the hero” and she has no impact on the “hero” of twilight and does absolutely Nothing to affect bella at all (arguably except for positively influencing her by turning jasper), she’s straight-up just Not a villain, by definition

[dog-girl-zezora]

If you see me reblogging at 1 pm its bc I'm at the gym looking gay as fuck and scaring the normals with my goal keeper training

[qumiiiquinnquin]

ill never be good enough at anything

[mythvoiced]

-. there's this thing i just... violently don't understand about having tense/stressed out characters in film & tv start fidgeting and touching things and adjusting things that they are generally and socially allowed to mess with (as usually established by the context, for example, an array of pencils that anyone can pick up because idk free gift, just bear with me) and then another character just stops them, picks it out of their hands, smacks their arm, gives them a mean look, and i'm supposed to read the scene as 'haha they're so right for doing that make them stop' like??????? why. i know i'm preaching to the choir but why is this a thing, why is it any of your fucking business to be so genuinely annoyed with someone fidgeting to self-soothe, buddy you are Literally not involved in this, i hate those scenes, immediately kills empathy points for a character for me

[healingheartdogs]

Love having talks with my parents (/s) where they tell me I "need to stop living in fear and get back out in the world" and that they haven't stopped living because of COVID and they don't even mask and it's fine because they got it once and it was just like allergies to them and "it's not even that bad it's just like the flu or a cold", ignoring that I also have had COVID before and was in the most extreme all over pain I have been in EVER in my entire chronically ill chronic pain suffering life for over a week to the point that I was mentally begging the universe to just let me die toward the end of it so it would finally be over and am now left with significantly worse chronic fatigue, chronic pain, and heart issues than I had already before because of long COVID. Also my sense of taste and smell have still not fully recovered, which is a sign of lasting neurological damage.

But it's just fearmongering, clearly, and I'm just falling for government propaganda (even though the government has said COVID is over and that we don't need to take precautions anymore because they value profit over human lives). Sure. Makes sense.

[calowlmitygoddess]

my favourite romance trope ever will always be monster/human , specifically dragons, but my biggest pet peeve with this genre/trope is that usually the monster is a male character. Like i get the appeal, specially when its a m/f couple, big stronk man and all that, but what about big stronk monster woman hm?? where are the terrifying girls and their waifish men?? its such a good concept why am i paddling this little boat alone