#I’m being insane again

[the-tyler-as-in-skyler]

starscream and megatron this

optimus and megatron that

what about soundwave, huh? what about whatever the fuck is going on between him and megatron? because that shit’s gay as hell.

he is at any given time the decepticon least likely to defect, and almost unfailingly follows megatron and his orders (we’re excluding earthspark here but that’s the only exception i can think of) even if megatron isn’t in love with soundwave, he’s most certainly in love with megatron (again with the exception of earthspark where they’ve broken up ): )

also he’s my favorite. so.

[amoritasart]

Ok but I really like that there's like so many eras of Philip Wittebane and fans of him get a attached to specific ones and it's just so sweet and fun to see.

I love seeing kid Philip with Caleb and how different people portray their upbringing as orphans in the 1600s. I love seeing Philip as a young man coping with his brother's absence and how different fans interpret him navigating the isles. I love seeing beard Philip and how fans interpret his confrontation with Caleb and his spiral into depression and madness. I love seeing Preacher Belos and how fans interpret his interactions with the first grimwalkers and how he slowly conquered the isles. I ADORE present old man emperor and how utterly insane he is and everything he's done is finally coming back to haunt him.

He's falling apart and maybe he feels guilt, maybe he's actually having delusions, maybe he really thinks he's the hero and Caleb's soul can still be saved, maybe he's lying to everyone including himself, maybe he's gone through so much pain and suffering that accepting that he didnt have to go through all that is too much to bear so he has to keep believing his own lie.

This character is so fun and complex and everyone interprets him differently to the point anyone can see and point out a thing that no one has ever even noticed before and I think that is so beautiful.

[n1ghtm4r3-p01s0n]

For the Ben 10 road trip fic I’m working on I wanna make Kevin go monster form again but for one specific reason.

In my rewrite, Gwevin have four kids. One of them, named Dylan, is somehow completely human and even when her dad is like twice his normal size, got enough arms to make a spider jealous, an uneven amount of eyes, and far too many different textures between fur and craggy skin, she’s just in awe and thinks he’s cute and talks about how amazing her monster dad is.

Imagine the confusion on Kevin’s face, as he blushed fifty shades of pink and red, wondering why all of a sudden he feels like fucking jelly cause of a seven year old little girl, never mind his daughter. A.k.a He’s 100% a girl daddy and she can break him without trying.

(I also wanna draw them both but Dylan is wearing a Belle dress cause she would 100% think of her dad like The Beast in the movie.)

[soupdwelling]

the sheer amount of trauma gwen has gone through compared to the other characters (that we know of) in protocol so far is crazy like in archives they were all kind of dealing with the whole worm situation in season one (martin did get locked in his flat for two weeks and the others didn’t) BUT it was still a threat they were all generally aware of and affected by. GWEN on the other hand has so far had to deal with fucking mr bonzo, learning that she might be indirectly responsible for a gruesome murder, getting chased down by a tattoo gun-wielding fear avatar-thing?? AND is now getting terrorized by [ERROR] apparently and we’re ONLY 21 episodes in. meanwhile sam celia and alice are dealing with mild anomalies like ooooh spooky cases weird drowning person magnus institute oooh!! gwen is in the TRENCHES dude give a girl a break

[unknownarmageddon]

“you know, that boy wanted to share his life with you”

killer belongs to rahafwabas cross belongs to jael peñaloza

[sad-emo-dip-dye]

Atsushi really said ‘I can fix him’ and then he did

[skywalkr-nberrie]

I honestly disagree with the idea that Padmé “chose” Anakin because she’s just as unhinged as him or even the take that they’re both “toxic” and that’s why they work, which isn’t at all true.

Like of course, I know she is as unhinged and impulsive as him, and it’s true that’s part of what makes them “compatible” but that’s not why she fell in love with him. It’s not their flaws within themselves that drew themselves to each other, it was actually their good traits, such as: compassion, passion, deep love, sympathy, understanding, free spirit, joy, kindness, and much more that led to them both falling in love. They saw the “goodness” they both so strongly harboured, and held such strength within their characters. That’s what initially attracted the other to them.

So I think it’s kind of a downer to see some of us make up the excuse that Padmé was just “crazy” to have chosen Anakin. Padmé doesn’t have to be “mentally insane” to want and desire Anakin, when in reality, she simply loves the person he is, admires him for the man he has become, and she’s 100% valid to do so. We as a fandom, don’t need to make up excuses or justifications for her loving him. The narrative already sets it up to simply be that way, without painting the ‘made up’ subtext that Padmé is ‘crazy’ for doing so. And we can simply understand why. Anakin is an amazing person despite what happens in the end, and Padmé herself says she loves him for all he is even WITH those flaws.

[ysabellious]

tis the (finals) season

[ghoulishcavern]

every single interaction between bdubs and joel makes me scream and yelp in joy. they’re unyieldingly insane isolated, but putting them beside each other is like the flathead screwdriver dropping the hemisphere onto the demon core. i swear if you look close enough you can actually see a deadly radioactive blue flash that emits when those two interact.

[leftenmost-window]

just watched the thirsty vampires skit and

uhhhhhhhHHHH i think my brain doesn’t work anymore.

I cannot believe sam played an existentially horrific build-a-bear that tries and fails to kill itself, and like a minute later is a horny teenager who watched too much twilight, then he’s actually bi?? wait actually he’s a girl? HES ACTUALLY A VAMPIRE SLAYER? the little strangled scream I let out when he stabbed luke is something I will share on this very public blog, but not to anybody who knows me in real life T-T

I was unhinged but I think watching this took all my remaining hinges so to speak. I’m not recovering from this

also I’m impressed at how comfortable they are playing lesbians lmao. the “women really want good listeners/personality” was hilarious because it’s true and then “also hair” basically saying “aj will get no women” was great

“have you ever had a woman?” sam you are KILLING me okay KILLING me

[moonkhao]

hi.

[poetic-ivy]

can u imagine telling your 17yo that his father is dead and his only reaction is to be like ‘okay. I must show u smth very important’ and then take u by the hand to your front door in the middle of the night before poorly howling like an animal at the sky

[bakudekublogblog]

ok where do I even fucking begin with all that!!!!!!!

[raplinenthusiasts]

paaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaain

[ssruis]

At some point I really do need to talk about tsukasa + rui wrt to rui - who has had so many people leave him because his ideas were scary/dangerous even when he did everything to ensure people wouldn’t actually get hurt - going “I’m going to be too weird and he’s going to leave me so I should just get it over with now by being as insane as possible. Ok he’s still here what if I’m more insane. Ok he’s still here but surely he’ll leave if I’m even crazier. Ok he’s still here but THIS time (rinse and repeat).” I feel like a lot of why rui acted Like That in the beginning was because he was like “this guy is a liar there’s no way he’ll actually stick around *nobody* is ok with my stunts.” If everyone says you’re weird and your ideas are insane and will hurt people you might as well lean into that being your reputation so that nobody else will attempt to be your friend and then leave when you + your ideas are too much. Obviously a lot of this is unconscious but I think in the beginning it was at least a little deliberate.

He was 100% lying when he was like “if you touch this you’ll die” in the main story but I feel like that was his way of being like “see recruiting me was a bad idea. Oh well this is what I expected”. Which is also why he immediately is like “bye then ✌🏻” when tsukasa is like “I don’t want to die.” & then he’s shocked when tsukasa is like “ok fine let’s do that” -> he suggests a flame thrower and launching tsukasa 10 meters into the air -> tsukasa is still like “😰… but it will wow the audience so as a future star I must do it”

which is 100% the first time anyone has been insane enough to agree to what rui throws at them & he’s very obviously super cheesed by this

The reason I’m singling out tsukasa (besides the fact that I’m a ruikasa enjoyer) is that, unlike with emu/nene, 1) tsukasa promised to match his freak during their first interaction 2) when rui attempted to call his bluff tsukasa continued to be insane and agree to his ideas.

& then when rui “shows and theatre are my entire life and also the only way I know how to connect to people (even though that never works)” kamishiro leaves and refuses to return, Tsukasa elects to convey his true feelings/rediscovery of his original goal through a show based around their argument. Which is an absolutely unhinged thing to do, but it works because rui is also unhinged and shows are the language he speaks best.

I think after the main story rui’s continued attempts to find the point where he’d finally become Too Much for tsukasa were unconscious. The brain likes patterns and it’s natural to attempt to make any exceptions to a rule fit with what you’re used to.

Wonder Halloween is absolutely rui’s worst nightmare coming true, in that he constantly goes to such great lengths to ensure that what he does is safe and people still leave anyways - and now he’s finally found someone just as crazy as he is, a place he can be accepted, and Tsukasa gets hurt because one of rui’s inventions malfunctions. If people left rui when it *was* safe, why on earth would someone stay when they actually got hurt because of him? & then tsukasa doesn’t leave, but rui pulls back because there’s no way he’s getting a second chance if someone else gets hurt. I think tsukasa being mad at *himself* for getting hurt and only getting mad at rui for pulling back was Huge because rui is so used to being too much, and now tsukasa is going “I won’t accept anything less than your authentic self.” Also huge because it showcases that tsukasa is a fucking freak.

The constant roping tsukasa into antics at school is (imo) another part of that - ok so tsukasa is fine with all of this on the stage, but what about in front of all of his peers? Getting in trouble and being labeled as weird will be the deal breaker right? Even nene doesn’t want to be seen around him. Nope! Tsukasa actually is going to act like they’re glued at the hip at school. Tsukasa cares about his reputation, in that he doesn’t want to be labeled as a trouble maker, but he’s already known as a weirdo and doesn’t really care. He’ll huff and puff about Rui being irresponsible and tarnishing his reputation but he’s still not leaving. Rui will purposefully annoy him & tsukasa will react dramatically but continue to associate with him.

Pandemonium is essentially an event about their relationship, & I’m not going to go pull a bunch of quotes (I am keeping this post solidly under control. I am not going to go insane with the evidence. I am normal and in charge of my own destiny.) but since I have this quote on hand:

Rui: I had always thought that I could never properly understand everyone around me.

Rui: as I started doing shows at Wonder Stage with everyone, my way of thinking and feelings began to change.

Rui: now, I am able to understand and connect with someone without relying on shows, and I’ve come to value the beauty of laughing alongside others

Rui: that’s why — tsukasa-kun. Thank you for giving me the chance to change.

The reason why pandemonium is the turning point for their relationship is because they’re connecting outside of shows. The reason why rui specifically cites tsukasa as the reason he changed is because tsukasa brought him to wxs, repeatedly emphasized that he would not accept rui holding back, and stuck with him when any sane and reasonable person would have been like “I value not getting detention on the daily and not dying on stage.” I say that with love. Pandemonium shows that rui *can* connect to people and form relationships without playfully threatening bodily harm several times a day, but the rui + tsukasa relationship is special in that they’re both insane Together.

One specific thing I want to point out is in the card story where tsukasa joins the disciplinary committee (I’m not transcribing that/pulling quotes watch it yourself) because he’s tired of having a reputation as a trouble maker. The easiest way to clear his name would be to stop associating with Rui at school, but tsukasa instead goes “I’m going to be taking responsibility for him and watching him carefully”. ??? Ok? Freak. (Tsukasa Tenma voice) you are NOT getting rid of me.

Last thing to mention is that saki, upon first meeting rui, is like “He must keep my brother in check I’m glad he found someone to do shows with 🥰” (funniest possible first impression of the ruikasa dynamic). This post is rui focused (consequence of spending the past 24 hours rotating him in my mind) but I think that because rui is so crazy people often forget that tsukasa is also insane. Even saki, who he’s objectively more normal around, thinks he’s a freak.

They’re both show maniacs. Matching each others freak. Absolutely misery inducing to be around if you haven’t built up a tolerance. I think they’re neat. I hope they both explode. You understand.

[0vergrowngraveyard]

daily internal debate of “am i aromatic or just terrified of relationships”