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angel-shaw · 4 months

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Here’s the Lasko/his listener one I made!

@annahxredaxted here you go!!

Thank you to @meepisindahouse for beta reading! <333

Kody is their little brother but they don’t know what he did, till Lasko tells them-

“Hon, you know I love you but you've to at least try, I cant keep doing this,” They said exasperated.

Their brother was sitting on their couch once again, venting about how people at his school were targeting him and even getting him kicked out of his dorm.

“I did! It's not my fault everything is against me!”

“I know bud, but this keeps happening, you know you have at least some part to play. You always blame the people around you for everything, so it makes sense why they don't like you. I'm not saying it's ok for them to get you kicked out, but you could at least try to be more pleasant and not as back-stabby.”

“Stop siding with them! The shit they accuse me of is total bullshit! I'm nothing but nice to these people and then they get their friends to target me! I had nothing to do with these other people!”

They sighed, “Look I know, but my neighbors are getting really fed up with you showing up randomly and making a bunch of noise. If they report me again it's going to start being an actual problem that can get me kicked out of here. I don't mind you staying here, hell, it's nice to see you, but it can't keep happening this way, /please/.”

Their brother sighed, rolled his eyes, and fell back onto the couch, “Ya ya, whatever. Your neighbors suck.”

“Thank you Kodes, Now I have to run out for some food. Any requests?”

“Mmm, I don't care. You can't just make something?”

“Tomorrow I can, but I’m having dinner with my boyfriend tonight so I'm just going to grab something for you.”

Once again their brother groned, “Can't you just tell your boy-toy that you can’t see him tonight?”

“Don't call him that. I actually really like him Kodes, I think this one’s gonna last.”

Defending their romantic relationships from their brother's scrutiny wasn't new. He was always annoyed whenever they got with someone. The two were always close growing up and Kody always hated when they went out with guys. There were quite a few relationships that ended poorly because Kody got in the way.

“Ya ya whatever, I doubt it. I just wish you would hang out with me and not with some guy who's probably gonna dump you.”

They sighed, “I'm gonna go to the store, I'll be back soon.”

“See ya,”

They grab their keys and head out.

Shopping didn't take long, but well they did they thought about how much their little brother had changed over the years. He used to be so sweet, but something happened after they had moved out. The next time they saw Kody was when he got into D.A.M.N, after they had become a teacher. They had tried to meet up with him multiple times before then but he never seemed interested.

When he started at D.A.M.N. he ignored them for months, they tried to talk with him but he always had some things to do, which was fair enough. He was grown up now and had classes. But at some point something had happened and he ended up getting expelled. He asked them not to do anything about it, but he did crash at their place for a while after it happened. They were ready to try to fight for him, but he practically begged them not to, saying that he didn't want their career to suffer. So they didn't, they just helped him get into a new place and get back on his feet.

As they walked back up to their apartment they saw a familiar face, “Lasko?”

Lasko turned, “Oh! H-hey, I was just on- on my way to pick y-you up.”

“Oh is it time already? I'm sorry, I went out to get some stuff for my brother.”

“Your br-brother? I didn't know you had one? Does he live with y-you?”

“No, he's just staying with me for a few days. I'm excited for our date tonight! Just let me drop this stuff off and put on something a bit nicer, ya?”

“Y-Ya that's totally fine!”

The two of them walked back to their apartment door.

“Do you want to come in? I'll be quick,”

“Ya, s-sure!”

They let themselves and Lasko in, “Kodes I’m back! Laskos here, so be nice!” They drop the bags off on the tables and see a scribbled note.

“Went out

Be back to eat”

They sigh, “Sorry Lasko, it looks like my brother went out so you'll have to wait to meet him,”

“Oh! That's alright! I’ll j-just sit on the couch till you're ready,” Lasko smiled and went to sit.

As they got ready, Lasko looked around. There wasn't much on the walls, but there were some framed pictures. Curiosity got the best of him so he started to look closer. He got up and smiled at his lover's happy face in the pictures.

There was one where they were holding their little brother when they were kids, they were both so cute. It was labeled “Kodes and me<3”. However as he looked, one of the pictures made him stop, his blood running cold. He could feel the air around him tighten in his anger. The picture was labeled just like the other. “Kodes and me<3” It was Kody. The same Kody who had hurt Freelancer, the same one who had led people to their deaths by being a dick during The Inversion. He was… their brother….

He didn't realize how much time had passed until their hand touched his shoulder, he jumped and turned around.

“Lasko? Are you alright?”

“Kody’s your brother?”

“Mhm, Do you know him? This doesn't feel like a good thing.. Did he say something to you too? I know he's not the best sometimes but I didn't think he knew you?” The worried laced their voice, they had no idea. They couldn't have any idea, they were so sweet, there was no way they would care for him if they knew. But how could they not??

“Oh I know him.” He could hear his own voice, he was angry. He stopped, took a deep breath, and looked at them.

“Do you not know why he was expelled from D.A.M.N?” He was quiet, he had to be.

They shook their head, “No, he asked me not to get involved, that it wasn't worth it. So I just figured he did something stupid and pissed the wrong people off…Did…Did he do something?”

“He was the one who hurt Freelancer.”

Everything stopped, their eyes widened as they processed what that meant. They had talked to Freelancer quite a bit. They had told them about the bad experiences with another student, but never said his name. The kid had bridged with them without them knowing what it meant, then continued to harass them. It only stopped when the kid was expelled and that only happened because their friends had convinced them to take action and helped along the way. That…that couldn't have been their baby brother. He was a jerk sure, but he wouldn't do that….He couldn't.

“It…it was him? Are you sure?? 100%?!”

Lasko nodded.

Their eyes began to water, completely overwhelmed, they sat on the floor. Lasko dropped with them, holding their hands tightly.

‘’I…I'm so sorry, I…I knew he was causing his own problems but I never imagined he could do something like that…”

“I know, it's not your fault.”

They shook their head, “What- What do I do? I- he’s my baby brother but..but he..I can’t..”

“I know, take a deep breath. I know this is hard.”

“I…can't, I can't have him here..I can't support him like this…He..he's really terrible isn't he? He really is a bad person isn't he??” They broke down into sobs, clutching onto Lasko.

He rubbed their back as they sobbed, they kept repeating that same question, “He really is a bad person now isn't he? Oh god he is, it really was him.”

After some time they pulled back, their breathing still heavy and their cheeks tear stained.

“What..what do I do?” They sounded so lost. “He, he can't stay here, I won't let him but how…how do I tell him to leave? It feels like I can't just kick him out…he's��he's my baby brother but…I can't…how do I…”

Lasko took a deep breath, “I know it's hard, I-I know it's hard to cut off family. You don't have to do this by yourself. I can call Freelancer and Gavin ask if Gavin can come help. I'm sure he wouldn't mind helping get Kody out. D-Damien and Hux too.”

“God, I have to tell Freelancer, don't I? I have to tell them he's my brother-”

“Hay,” Lasko’s soft voice cut through the impending second breakdown, “Freelancer won't blame you, they know you. They will not blame you, you didn't know and were just helping your brother. You know now and you're not trying to defend what he did. It's going to be ok.”

They nodded, “Can…can we call Freelancer? I don't think I'll be able to kick him out by myself…”

“Of course.”

One call later the two of them were on their way to Freelancer’s apartment. It wasn't a long drive but it felt like it. They were too emotional to drive so Lasko did, during the drive he held their hand and kept telling them it would be ok, but it didn't feel like it.

Once they reached the apartment Gavin let the two in instantly, his usual playfulness missing. The three went into the living room where Freelancer was sitting with several cups of tea.

“Hey, there you are,” Freelancer's voice was soft, they got up and hugged them.

“I'm so so sorry, I didn't know-” They held Freelancer tight and they could feel the tears start to resurface.

“No no no, it's alright. It's not your fault.” Freelancer lightly swayed the two of them, “You didn't know, you were just caring for your family, I can't and won't ever blame you for that. His actions are his own, never yours.”

“He hurt you..”

“He did, I didn't deserve what he did. But he does deserve what happened to him and he doesn't deserve someone as sweet as you as a sibling.”

“I'm so sorry.. I..I didn't know what to do..”

Freelancer pulled back, taking their hand and led them to sit on the couch. They handed them a cup of hot tea, “I know, I can't say I know what to do either, I've never been in a situation like this before.”

“I don't want him near me, I love him because he's my brother, but…but my baby brother wouldn't do something like this. I don't know what happened, I don't know why he turned out like this…’’

“I can understand that, I can't relate to having someone who I care for turn out to be like how Kody is. I'm so sorry that you have to go through this too. I might not understand the care you have for him, but you can vent to me about it, I know this is hard.”

“I can't ask you for that! He violated you, I can't vent to you about-”

“Let me stop you there,” Freelancer interrupted, “You're not asking, I'm telling you and offering you to. I know what he did to me. It took me a long time to come to terms with it and well, I am still affected by what he did. That doesn't change that you are a friend of mine. He hurt you too by doing all of this. I might not be the person to tell how kind and sweet he used to be in a dream like way you can't talk to me about how this has hurt you too. Without my friends, Lasko, Damien, Hux, and Gavin, I wouldn't have recovered. Some of those conversions were about how Kody wronged them, or how they were upset about how he hurt me. And those helped, it was another perspective. I don't ever plan to forgive him and I never want people to try to defend him to me. You ranting to me isn't you defending him, it's just giving me another reason to never forgive him. He hurt another one of my friends.”

They nodded, “Thank you,” They sniffled and Freelancer placed their hand on their arm.

“I just don't understand how he could have turned out like this.. He used to be so sweet, I knew he changed and that that change wasn't good but I never thought he would do something like this.”

“We never expect the people we care about to be monsters,” Gavin said, he was standing behind the couch, his hand on his lover's shoulder, “It's hard to accept that sometimes they are.”

Freelancer nodded, “What do you want to do? I know you said you don't want him in your place anymore, but there are a few ways we can go about that.”

“I…I honestly don't know. I don't think I can just kick him out by myself. I don't want him there, but…”

“I understand don't worry, you don't have to explain yourself to us. Do you want Damien and Huxly to be there with you and Gavin? That way you're not alone? I would offer to go, but I don't want to be anywhere near him.”

They nodded, laughing breathlessly, “Ya, I get that. I don't want you to go anywhere near him either. I want to tell him to get out myself, having the others there would be nice. I don't think he will react well though, I don't want anyone getting hurt-”

“Oh trust me, Aquafina won't hurt any of us. He's learned that lesson. If he tries anything he won't get far.” Gavin said. His smile was slightly disconcerting. ‘:3’

They nodded, “Can you guys explain it to the others, I don't think I can explain it again..”

“Of course, Gavin and I will do that, you and Lasko can sit here while we call, ok? If you need something to eat feel free to rummage, ok? And all the tea is open for you.”

Lasko took Freelancer's place once they got up, “How are you doing?”

“Not good, honestly,” They laughed, though there was no humor in it. “It doesn't feel like I'm drowning at the moment, but this is so much to accept. It's a whole another layer that it's so easy to believe all of it… I think that's the worst part of it all. How easily I can believe Kody did all this..”

They let Lasko hold them. They both just sat there for a while.

After a while Freelancer and Gaivn walked back in, “The others are on their way. They were grabbing food so they grabbed some for all of us as well, Hux said food might help.”

“Hux is so sweet..”

“He really is.”

“Freelancer?”

“Ya?”

“Thank you, I know this has to be hard for you. I'm sorry for making you think about him all over again. But thank you for helping me.”

Freelancer smiled, “Of course. This is hard, but I mean hey, at least we have one more thing we can gossip about as if it wasn’t heavily traumatizing now?”

They laughed, caught completely off guard.

Over the next ten minutes the four of them talked lightly. They weren't ignoring what was going on, but more giving them a chance to calm down before having to do the hardest thing they needed to do.

Huxly and Damien arrived and Huxly immediately asked if they wanted a hug, they accepted. His hug felt safe and they stayed there for a while Damien handed out food. Once all of them settled down Lasko and Freelancer explained a bit more to the other two. They both listened intently.

They also immediately agreed to help get Kody out. The room heated up a few degrees even as Lasko explained.

“I want to talk to him…I want to tell him to get out,” They said. That was the only thing they were completely sure of.

“Ok, so we obviously want a game plan going in, Kody definitely isn't going to be happy. I wouldn't put it past him to try to get violent. Especially if he thinks you're alone.” Damien was logical and it helped them feel safe.

“If you want to be the one to tell him, I completely respect that, but I don't want to run the chance that he'll hurt you,” Huxly said. “Maybe we can wait out of sight until he tries something?”

“That still puts them in danger though,” Damein said.

“I mean..can..can you be in the room with me, Lasko? I know it's a lot to ask. I'm not worried about Kody really trying to hurt me but that's because I don't think he would. So that's based on an idealized version of him. I don't want to be alone in a room with him..”

“O-of course! I- I understand why you don't.”

“Ok. So here's the plan so far, Me, Hux and Gavin will be off the side, out of sight. Lasko will be in the room with you as you confront him and if he gets aggressive the three of us will step in and get him out and make it clear you don't want him to come crawling back. Freelancer are you going to stay here then?’’

“Ya, I’ll stay here and make sure all the wards and such are ready for when you guys come back.”

“What do you mean?” They asked, They were leaning against Lasko on the couch.

“Well, you're not going to stay at your place /obviously/. Kody is the type to try shit so once he assumes the others are gone, he's going to try to pull something. So we won't give him the chance. The best way to combat that is for everyone or at least most of us to stay here tonight. We have wards already set up against Kody, so even if he tries to follow you guys on the way back he won't be able to even come close. Plus I know it's not good to be alone after a bunch of stuff goes down.”

“I- Thank you..that..that means alot to me…I would really like that actually.”

Freelancer smiled, “Of course, you're our friend. We aren't going to let you go through this alone.”

They took a deep breath, “Let's do this. I want to get this over with.”

The others nodded.

Everyone except Gavin and Freelancer got into Lasko’s car. Gavin decided to rift ahead to make sure Kody wasn’t back yet. Damien drove this time.

“Hay dude, are you sure you wanna do it this way? This shit’s hard.” Hux asked.

They took a deep breath, “Yes. He's my brother, I have to be the one to do it. It will be hard but having someone else do it will make him think it wasn't my choice. If I need you guys I'll say so, don't worry. Just knowing you guys are there makes me feel safer..”

Hux smiled and patted their shoulder.

Once they got to the apartment building Gavin met them at the door.

“I'll text Kody to come back and you guys can just go into my room, it's a pretty small place so it's not far from the living room and you guys should be able to hear everything. Lasko if you want to be in sight you can be on the couch, if not the hall should work, He won't see you at first I don't think.”

“Ill s-sit with you. I don't w-want you do this al-alone.”

“Thank you Lasko,” They took his hand and pulled him into a tight hug.

Ten minutes later, Kody said he was on his way and the guys got into place, Lasko and them taking their seats on the couch.

Once Kody opened the door and walked in, he didn't immediately notice Lasko. “Finally you’re back, I didn't think your stupid date would be so long. What the hell were you even doi-” He stopped completely once he saw Lasko on the couch.

“Why the hell are you here?! Get away from them!” He yelled.

Kody yelling immediately caught them off guard, but they stood, “Don't talk to him like that. I know what you did, Kody.”

“I didn't do shit! Whatever bullshit he is telling you is a lie!”

“I know he's telling the truth, Kody. I want you out.”

“You barely know him and you're going to believe just anything that comes out of his mouth over me?! I’m your brother for fuck’s sake!”

“Kody you bridged with someone who didn't want that!”

“They said they did! I didn't do anything wrong!”

“They didn't know what that meant! You can't just say that and make it alright! What else have you done?? What else did you do and then come crawling to me for help when you got punished for it?! What the hell Kody?! I knew you were getting bad, but I never thought you would do something like this!”

‘You’re my sibling, you're supposed to support me! This is just that dumb fucking Freelancer trying to ruin my life even more!”

“Get out, Kody.”

Kody laughed, “You're not actually making me leave.”

“Out.”

“I'm your brother, I have nowhere else to go! Do you really want me out on the street??”

“You'll figure something out, I'm sure. But even if you don't it's what you had coming for pulling all of this shit.”

“I'm not going anywhere.’’

“Guys.”

Kody looked confused for a split second until Gavin appeared right in front of him. He stumbled backwards. Domain and Huxy came out into the living room, Lasko now standing and holding his lover.

Kody immediately tried to attack but was immediately shut down by Gavin. “I don't think that's a good idea.” He said coldly.

“Oh?! So the Freelancer really is collecting everything they can?!! They're just as bad as what you are!” Kody spat.

Despite knowing this could happen they still held tightly to Lasko’s arm.

It didn't take long after that. The three others got Kody out and definitely made sure Kody knew they didn't want him back. They were pretty sure Hux had to stop Damien from punching him more than once.

Once Kody was out he banged on the door for a bit, but Gavin soon let them know he had stormed off.

They all spent some time in the living room, it wasn't long until they started to cry in Lasko’s arms. Gavin and Huxly were kind enough to go and get a bag ready for them. Well Lasko told them which clothes to grab and some other items.

After a while they were able to calm down, Damien and Lasko sitting with them as they breathed. Once Gavin and Huxly had gotten two bags ready for them they all went back out to Lasko’s car, Gavin deciding to rift ahead to let Freelancer know it was over. Lasko grabbed their blanket and wrapped them up in it.

They made it back to Freelancer’s without any problems which was nice. The four of them were mostly quiet, but once they got back to Freelancer’s the mood seemed to switch.

“Do you need quiet or noise? Either one is alright. If you want to try and just process everything it's alright, or if you want to relax for a bit and try to have some fun to get your mind off it. We've got Mario Kart and a bunch of other things we can all play.”

“Can…Can you guys play? I don't think I can focus on controls but I love watching you guys play.”

“Ya of course! Now, what do you want for food? Snacks? Drinks?”

They laughed lightly.

That's how they ended up sitting in between Lasko and Freelancer on the couch. Listening and laughing as the others played and yelled at each other. The day was hard and painful. That pain wouldn't go away fast but they had people who truly cared for them, and maybe that would be enough.

“Thank you,” They whispered to Freelancer once again.

Freelancer smiled and threw their arm around them, “Don't worry about it, Now you sure you don't want a turn? I bet you'll crush these losers.”

“Hay!”

They laughed and took the controller, “I'll try once I guess.”

#redacted asmr #redacted #Redacted audio #redacted lasko #redacted listener #redacted dear #redacted freelancer #Redacted kody #redacted damien #redacted hux #redacted huxley #redacted gavin #Kody is listeners little brother

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astroismypassion · 2 months

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Hey, I need to know your opinion here. It's totally fine if you don't wanna but just read maybe you'll enjoy 🤣

My moon and venus is in his 8h and my sun in his 7h; his sun is in my 8h, his moon is in my 9h and his venus in my 7h.

Sometimes I feel very overwhelmed— like why are you so obsessed with me?🤡 like what does he even sees in me??

He constantly tells me that he would leave his family if they tried to stop us being together (I'm assamese and he's a nepali— different tribes also his family knows about us but mine doesn't cuz they are strict asf)

I will not lie, at first I totally ignored him (for 2 year💀 kinda on and off contact- we were classmates) but there was something about him that kept pulling me towards him like crazy istg

He can't express very well nor can I wait he's actually better at expressing his feelings compared to me.

He's lost his v card and I have not. For me, my v card needs to go to someone who is gonna be my permanent not 'maybe/temporary'— he thinks otherwise. So different values and morals.

He constantly spends money and have to keep reminding him to be more strict with his finances (this one irks me so bad)

He gets jealous so fcking easily— like I do too but I try to rationalize my feelings and tell myself that "no they're are just friends, he can have friends okayyy!!" I try to control my possesiveness but no he doesn't.

This is actually my first serious relationship. I'm scared that I will lose my v card to him— no bad if we are the end game but if not then i don't wanna give other than my future hubby TT

I'm scared to commit with him bcs in his past he played around with different girls (NO I'M NOT A 'I CAN FIX HIM' ENERGY 😭) but he claims that I'm the first girl he wants to be with and commit too (his sister told me that he never cried for any girl in his past except for one but that was long ago and now he cries for me bcs I don't trust him) yesterday he told me that "you are making me crazy— are you having fun by having a guy run behind you like a dog??" I was speechless. He was drunk btw he called an hour ago apologizing (he doesn't remember anything he apologized cus his roommates kept scaring him that he told me shit) we haven't talked after that tho

Like always it's an on and off connection.

Okay there's so many things I wanna spill but I'll stop here. Thank you for reading, I hope you had fun my reading my tea lol 😹 anyways

Byeeee<333

Hi!

Hm, lots of complex questions these days in my mailbox. No, but it's alright. I understand the 8th house synastry desire to vent haha. Honestly, so much is to be said, when you are in an 8th house connection.

Definitely don't rush losing v card with the said person. You sound indecisive, which often leads to a "no". Remember that when you are unclear, confused or unsure about something, it's because it's probably a "no". I think that 8th house connections (especially with Sun in the 8th or Mercury in the 8th overlay) are not really worth losing your v card, if you are not beforehand in a committed, mutual partnership with this person. Otherwise, it's just regret and kind of feeling present you would wish to wait it out for someone that you truly have a mutual respect of boundaries in the connection with. If this has not been discussed and establish beforehand, I advise to not engage in any type of sexual activity. Sex might overly complicate already complex situation and when it's sex and feelings involved, the confusion is even stronger after. Don't think that by having sex this will give you more clarity. Try to simplify things for yourself and not overly complicate them, mutual respect is very important.

#astrology #astroismypassion #astro notes #astroblr #astro community #astro note #astro observations #natal chart #astrology blog #chart reading

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bbokkie · 2 years

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(HOLYSHT MY FIRST REQUEST 😱😱 Anyways, I'll try my absolute best 'cause I only have written dada Chamber and Yoru 💔💔 I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS <333)

Sasha Novikov, Sova

-Sova noticed rather quickly, he has a keen eye and knows how each Agent works (that's not weird, I swear.)

-Sova always notices how you brightened a room with your aura, your smile would make anyone smile, your smile makes him smile. And seeing you not smiling- something within him breaks softly.. :(

-He notices that your cheerful demeanor slowly disappeared, bright smiles would be replaced with droopy and forced smiles. A determined, fierce look on your face would be replaced with furrowed brows, eyes empty with no shine that he so, so loved.

-He will most likely approach you a few days after he's realized of your emotions, he would have approached you the second he knew but he didn't want to bother you because he thought you were just having a bad day.

-He approaches you when you are alone in a room, a sulky look on your face made his heart ache. Being here was stressful, being here meant that you were willing to risk your life for many other lives. It was a deep burden on your shoulders to just have the will to wake up the next day, he knew exactly how you felt.

-The male would sit down beside you, smiling softly.

-"What's wrong?"

-You know how people crumble when their in a bad mood and someone asks what's wrong.. Yeaahh..you kind of broke down.

-Tears welled your eyes as you just stared blankly after his soft words parted his lips.

-Sova panicked 😰😰

-He would hug you very gently, he wants you to soften into his arms, just telling you that you can trust him with whatever burden you are carrying.

-(Headcannon that Sova gives the best hugs, argue with a mousepad 😠👎)

-He wants you to know that everyone is beside you, whatever you were going through, he would be there, the other agents would be there. He will always be there because he loves you.

Amir El Amari, Cypher

-Like Sova, Cypher would notice very quickly that you were off. But then again brushes it aside, thinking that you were just having a bad day. Everyone had their bad days, and you would be just fine tomorrow, right? Right.. 🙁

-He saw your emotions decline slowly, slowly but surely. And one day he had enough, he never liked seeing his loved ones suffer. 👎

-Like Sova, whenever you entered the room, the feeling of a tense atmosphere would be lifted, muscles would be relaxed, and soft smiles would be seen in the agents face. And he was a victim to your cute self 👿👿

-Thankfully, his smiles would not be seen by you, so his ego is still a-ok. 😋

-He's quite unsure how to approach you (poor baba boy) but he's trying his best okay.. 😞😞

-He'll approach you when you're in your room, hovered in bedsheets.

-He knocks on your door and without thinking, you would tell him to come in even though you don't know who it would be.

-You peak out in your tower of blankets, seeing Cypher.

-You kind of panic because he rarely visited you. Omg, were you in trouble? 😱😱

-He helps you calm down and then eventually asks,

-"What's wrong?"

-BREAKDOWN BREAKDOWN

-And then you just started venting, (sus..)

-Cypher understood your feelings, slowly but surely he would help you get your happy self back. Slowly but surely, he would make you feel his love from a distance.

(oh my lordy lord, i hope this isn't shitty 🙁 I tried my best 😖😖

thank you again for requesting!@!!!!@!@!#@#R#$%$#$#)

#valorant headcanons #valorant sova #valorant cypher #cypher x reader #sova x reader

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ffriluftslivv · 1 year

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hello lovelyy 💘💘

happy new year!!!✨️ How's it going? Have these first days of January been treating you good? I hope so!

I'm okay, nothing too out of the ordinary BUT I still have in mind that boy I definitely told you about (and omg it's almost been two years since I first wrote to you😭) not because I've been seeing him or something it's only because this cruel universe has been sending me these "signs", like we had a number that it was our inside joke and yk it's a number so it's normal to see around, but in these last weeks it was everywhere and I know I'm probably just being delusional but it's fun to expect something to happen like the naive hopeless romantic that I am🤡

and that's my little vent, feel absolutely free to write me a book of what's on your mind and I will read it gladly

love you so so much Lu <333

-toothless💃

hiii darling❣️❣️❣️

happy new year to you too!! i was waiting for u😽

it's going surprisingly great actually! like if we ignore some of the negative stuff that always has to be there it's all going pretty fine🥰

two years!! how time flies💓 uh oh that's interesting.. the universe is sending you some signs eheheh. don't ignore them👀

I'm starting school tomorrow and I really don't want to like at all 😭😭😭😭 but I'll try to think positive because i don't want to be already stressed since it's just January. I don't know if you saw some of my posts but I might have a boy who's reeeally interested in me and guess what... im really into him too EHEHEHEHEH. it still feels so surreal because he's literally so sweet but yeah I'm starting 2023 with something good💌

hope you're doing well my dear, love you ❣️🤲🏻

#toothless 💌#lovely anon

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harlowcomehome · 1 year

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I am wrapping you in a soft cosy blanket... hch burrito!!! I am making you some hot chocolate and tucking you in. I'll read you a story if you want 😭😭

fr tho, I'm here if you need to talk or vent <333🌸

“Hch burrito” is the cutest ever. 🥺 The holidays are always chaotic and leave me feeling depressed. I’ve had a lot happen in my personal life in the span of a few weeks and I’ve been doing my best to keep it together and put on a brave face but I’m finally unraveling… I’ll be fine! I just put a lot of unnecessary pressure on myself and it makes me spiral. 😶

I appreciate you for always reaching out and being kind toward me. It means the world!! 🥹💕

#🌸anon

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wingedbeings · 3 years

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*fading echoey hiiiiiii as i run past you into a large cave never to be seen again*

#hiii girlies im back from another funny little episode i will be on line again now <3 #first task is finaly finishing the carrd i want insread of this one but ough the energy this shit takes... dear god #after tjat i will get back to all of u i am missing so maney asks n dms #fuck shit i forgot i had that discord too oh no so so sorry if any of u wanted to message me on there #also hrm. i want to change my theme n my url here :]#but well i cannot think of a better url and i am sufering #well one tat is not taken #but ya <3 ive been transforming this blog a little into being more of a personal/vent w images n text that make me feel a v specific way #and it just doesnt feel good to stil have my v trauma related url anymore here? even tho this blog stil has like a trauma focus bc that is #just my entire being <3 but ya :]#moss.txt #im tryig to manage a bit beter again n well since there is mosrlt just me being insane again like mentally like schizo funnies wise it just #is more where this blog goes also <3 #i'm also finaly goig to take a name out of my other carrd that sucks balls <|:]#i wish i could make all my bloges related rather than havig to keep these separate bc my abusers are whiny bitch babies #like boohoo suck my nuts im the hottest wizard in this cave #but i'll get my shit rocked so anyways :] minor changes but v much needed #goig to finally change my ask button message too bc i just cannot deal w asks that r like treating me as goggle or a therapist #shit still sucks balls but its fine <333 i also changed my theme on my lovecore? ish type of blog and am trying to enjoy posting there again #kink blogs r still being fucking gross but ya <3 i just mute my popular posts even tho that makes me behave in insane manners and try 2 keep #blocking the weirdos #but thas hard so also i just try to not check my notes as much but well i behave like a neurotic prey animal at all times so incannot also #well idk whete this post is going actually now i am just rambling #i think that even tho it makes me act up im going to take details of my ailments out of my carrd bc i augh but like none of u know how to #behave also and keep acting funny over that #bc i will say anything and u r instantly like oh i dont see it written down well then u dont have it and should be cancelled #like idk what to tell u some of u make me feel violent #im tired of many things im disclosing for no reason other than how it makes ppl act up and the neurotic behaviours that makes me exhibit #i cannot stand being misunderstood also if u misunderstand me i will beat u to death :] /j but ya #not like in a nd manner i mean the more like wilingly misunderstanding? idk how to phrase that bc of insanities no coherent thoughts in here

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k0kichiimagines · 2 years

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Skdhajdjsjadbnwbs bad ending ew *COUGHS AGGRESSIVELY* HELL NAH, I STILL NEED TO DO 3 MORE TO BE DONE WITH SAEYOUNG I'M-

SJDBS

Can I get Saeyoung with an S/O who tends to fake their emotions through difficult situations? (Toxic family/y'know that part with the bomb, they seemed calm but inside they were scared but hid it well) and he finds out later when everything was okie dokie-

I noticed I fake smile and laugh a lot when I'm with family that makes me tense but when I'm alone or with people I trust, I usually drop the act slska something like that? They do it so they don't get hurt easily or sum-

Also can I write something for you too? Think of it as a thank you gift for everything skdjah-

Please take your time!! You're doing amazing and I love you!^^ ❤️ /p

I DID THIS SOONER RATHER THEN LATER SINCE YOU SUFFERED THROUGH THAT ROUGH ENDING AND ALL THE DAYS LEADING UP TO IT. AND YOURE DOING MORE AS WELL, TAKE CARE AS WELL

thank you v much for the offer!! if it worked i put it in your ask box!!

ALSO THATS VERY SWEET I LOVE U TOO AND YOURE ALSO DOING AMAZING!! THANK U!! <333 /p

hope you enjoy!!

- mod kokichi

Saeyoung x reader

-> reader who hides their emotions in stressful situations

he does question it a bit during the later days. when you're both preparing to drive off to the mint eye, but you always reassure him you're fine, and your smile is so convincing he just shrugs it off. perhaps you're just very rational, is his thoughts.

you seemed so calm to him. oddly calm for someone with a bomb under their feet, let alone when you consider the hacker that had just smashed through your window moments before. at the time, he ignored it.

perhaps you honestly felt everything would be fine, perhaps it was a denial response, he wasn't sure, and honestly he felt even just thinking your name made his heart feel funny, so he avoided the thought entirely. he focused on his work. (as best he can with all the calls from you)

you didnt even react to his attempts at getting you to give up on him, at his harsh words or straight up blanking. nothing.

it slipped his mind after that. the next few days were a whirlwind of a mess. he only makes a lighthearted comment afterwards, having exhaustedly sighed and rested his head on your shoulder while you held him. "how d'you always manage to stay so calm... you should teach me one day, I'll be the most diligent student."

it's only then you kind of make an 'ehhhh....' noise in reply, and he goes to look at you questioningly. you confess that you're not as calm and unphased as he once thought - of course you were absolutely terrified throughout the whole ordeal, you felt paranoid and miserable in that apartment at times.

he kind of just blinks at you. he's surprised you managed to appear so calm, but also feels instantly guilty for not working it out sooner and comforting you more during those days. he'll tell you such as well, applauding your skill, but apologising sincerely. he does wonder if this means you've done this before, many times before, which would explain your skill level.

but he doesn't question it now. if and when you wish to tell him about anything from your past he'll be ready to listen.

now he's just more careful on keeping an eye on you. he tries to learn your behaviour and find anything that gives away your emotions. if its over something not so serious then he'll lift you in the air with a declaration that you can't hide your feelings from him! he was the 707 of course.

if it something serious then he's not as intense. he'll reach for your hand and hold it firmly, he silently tells you he's guessed your emotions, and he's here for you, but he won't make you talk if you don't want to. as you two stay for longer and you drop the act more, he's also going to be there for you to rant to or vent to.

no seriously he'll always be there, even if he's busy this man adores you he would drop almost anything to simply say hi and kiss your cheek, let alone if you were upset

#saeyoung x reader #seven x reader #707 x reader #luciel x reader #mystic messenger x reader #💌... stormflypriateskin #mystic messenger #x reader

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dumb-bitch-core · 3 years

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Teacher!! Yuu / Reader

So I was scrolling through youtube when I came across this, and I'm lowkey jealous of whoever is in her class- but that's not the point. Anyways, then I thought: what if the twisted wonderland boys had a teacher like this?

You know, ACTUALLY treats them like humans and cares 😃

I did some research on some good non-binary parental titles, and came across this :

Nobi

- taken from the term '(no)n-(bi)nary' (Pronounced as no-bee not nob-ee!)

so i'll use the term nobi 😼 if anyone has a non-binary japanese parental title, please tell me and i'll edit this!

*.✧ contains : gender-inclusive reader, teacher! reader, platonic relationships, lowercase, not-so-serious writing, slander [ it's jokes i swear ]

i think we can all agree you got the job just because crowley was desperate for staff lol

you : hi, i'm here to-

crowley : hired.

you started the day after that. not that you were complaining. you'd get to know your students first hand instead of looking through files! give me that enthusiasm please and thanks

the students were surprised when getting a new teacher, but they didn't mind. though when they heard you were gonna teach them simple, non-magic, basic subjects, they were kinda surprised. ace was the most disappointed, though.

but they didn't hate you for long because you cool like that 🙄💅✨

ace : * struggling with a question *

you : * walks over *

ace : * gets ready to get scolded for not paying attention *

you : * looking over his shoulder * do you want me to help you with that?

ace : :O

the first years are basically your children at this point. no questions asked. you even almost got papers before but clownley stopped you smh 🤡

out of all of them, though, deuce is your favorite. he always tries to listen tentively to your lessons and tries his hardest. when you found out of his background, you reassured him that it's okay, and that you were proud of him.

but, the students did get a surprise when you didn't give them homework.

* school bell rings *

you : alright everyone! i'll see you soon!

students : * lowkey confused *

student A : [ miss/mister ] [ last name ]?

you : yes?

student A : what about the homework?

some students : >:O

you : i don't give out homework??

students : <:D

the ones who appreciate this the MOST would probably be : riddle, jamil, octotrio, vil, and ruggie.

RIDDLE : he already has a lot going on at the dorm with all his dorm head responsibilites, and he's way more productive than all of us. yeah. i said it. PU-

JAMIL : he has clubs, and he has to watch over kalim.

OCTOTRIO : jade works at mostro lounge, runs around fucking bitches up, and watches over his brother. azul has to watch over mostro lounge, make contracts, and don't get me started on bills as well as dorm head responsibilities. floyd has clubs, then works at mostro lounge, AND fuck bitches over. we stan talented hoes 😩❤️

VIL : he has photoshoots, actor duties, dorm head duties, probably goes to meet-and-greet, and has to deal with rook an epel.

RUGGIE : has to take care of leona because that mf is a PISSBABY. I SAID IT. MF LAZY. LIKE YOU. he also basically runs the dorm, does the chores, and runs around tricking others.

i'll be honest, the students didn't expect the mental health checkups. but they do appreciate it. a lot. they can vent all they want and it'll stay between you and them.

you are literally their parent, teacher, and therapist all at once. ugh stan the reader 😼

[ if female ] riddle needed a new mommy figure anyways LMAO

[ if male ] deuce needs a dad. mf got some daddy issues.

once ace ACTUALLY called you 'mom/dad/nobi' in front of everyone in class and it was SILENT as tears rolled down your cheeks. face ones. not ass.

you were ecstatic. slowly, you answered with a " yea, ace? " in a small, yet joyous voice.

from then on students would sometimes call you 'mom/dad/nobi', some doing it 24/7.

students who'd do this A LOT would probably be : kalim, ortho, silver, rook, and cater[?]

KALIM : he sees you as a parental figure, and he isn't embarrassed. in fact, he thinks it's a compliment. parents are the best if you have a healthy relationship with them, and he thinks you resemble his parents.

ORTHO : i don't think he's really had a parental figure. only a brother figure, which is idia. and seeing how you act so caring and motherly to idia, he'll call you okaasan/otosan! and sometimes, when idia isn't a PUSSY, he'll call you 'mom/dad/nobi', too.

SILVER : he does it because you and lilia act like parents. like lilia, he'll call you something with the words 'old' in them [ only after he's sure you're fine with it. he respects you, after all! ] so don't find it shocking if he calls you " old man/old woman/old lady/old person " even though sebek scolds him.

ROOK : this is rook we're talking about. he has no reason other than the fact that he sees you as a parental figure lol.

CATER : i'm not so sure, but i do feel like he'd call you mom/dad/nobi. maybe not as much as the others, but more than everyone who isn't on this list.

in all, everyone looks forward to your classes, and appreciate how considerate you are of their outside lives <333

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twisted wonderland imagines #mc / yuu

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icarusatmidnight · 6 years

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Oh gosh, asks definitely coming your way for this one! For Olea and Thyme, #s 4, 10, and 19. And for you, #22 and 29. (Let me know if you want more asks and I'll send one for the other two, too!)

:D!!! Thank you so much for these and sorry it took a bit of time for me respond. I kinda went overboard with ninety percent of the questions. ^^;; For anyone curious, the questions are from this ask game too~ It’s cute, so reblog it and have fun!

4. Their favorite physical feature on each other?

Thyme would die for Oleander’s smile and his tooth gap, oh my god!! I will never be able to stress this enough. Thyme always has had a thing for teeth but he really digs people who have imperfect teeth, like crooked ones and teeth gaps and the like, especially when they smile all bright too. Oleander isn’t honestly much into bright smiles, but he smirks like a goddamn boss and his tooth gap just peeks out and it kills Thyme every time. It’s goddamn beautiful & he will fight everyone who says otherwise! o:

And I wanna say ‘awkward natural charm’ for Oleander because he’s kinda endlessly fascinated by the way Thyme holds himself. But! I’ll go with his eyes for Olea because he dearly loves Thyme’s mismatched eyes too. He has one albino pink eye and the other is this deep dark brown color but unless it’s during one of the Icarus meetings, he tends to cover up as his pink eye. It’s one of the signs of his burn. But Oleander thinks they look so frickin’ cool! *o*!! Even putting colors aside, Thyme is just so expressive and bright and it definitely carries into his eyes effortlessly too, all that love and warmth and joy. You can just see the whole of the universe within them and it’s a crime that he tries to hide them behind contracts and dark sunglasses.

Like Oleander knows that Thyme is uncomfortable showing them at times and he definitely respects that, but he also really wants to burn all the sunglasses that boy owns. >:(! Your eyes and existence are beautiful, Thyme, deal with it!

10. Do they have pet names for each other?

Haha! They should have pet names but not really?? Oleander isn’t much of a nickname person in general and Thyme is so a ‘romantically calls you dude, platonically calls you babe’ kind-of guy. I think if they ever stumbled over a set of names, they’d be ridiculous and semi-ironic.

Sugarpop would be a good one though. o:

19. Describe how they communicate.

TT___TT!! This is my favorite question, ngl, and I might’ve gone overboard answering it.

Okay! At a glance, it probably would seem like they’d be complete shit at communicating at first, just given how much they differ in their styles. Oleander is sarcastic and blunt and a bit callous at times, and he does his absolute best to keep everything on a surface level. He’d much rather be thought of as shallow then to let people see his depth without his permission. Thyme instead is stupidly sincere, absolutely wears his heart on his style and is sympathetic towards people, all people even ones he’s just met. He has …kinda puppy-dog tendencies with how affectionate he’ll be around people too.

Buuuut! they’re actually really open with each other and get along amazingly well. Part of this is because like, while Olea is pretty blunt, he’s definitely not tactless. He knows when to shut up and likewise with Thyme, he knows when not to push and when to tone down a bit. They’re also both giant frickin’ dorks?? Like I also can not stress how much of their time they spend just like, sending each other stupid jokes and even dumber memes. So much time!! Is Spent!! Doing this!! Like Kingcup starts a little group chat for them all after Thyme joins Icarus so they can talk easier outside of meetings ( like ‘hey, I won’t be able to make it tonight’ and junk like that). But Olea and Thyme just ruined it~~ instantly~~ with the memes~~ She refuses to ever open it up again because it’s just nonsense and stupidity and that’s fine when it’s just Olea but not when it’s the two of them. :’l

And when they stop joking around to have a more serious talk, their differences actually help put them both at ease. Oleander doesn’t mind Thyme’s touchy-feely nature but when he’s talking about the past, it doesn’t do him any good to have that extra stimulation. And Thyme totally gets and respects that, so he’ll pull back until Olea is okay again, offering him a shit ton of emotional support in the process. And when it’s Thyme’s time to trudge through the muck, Oleander’s composed nature is kinda life-savior. Thyme has a lot of emotional support if he needs it, but having someone just let him vent?? With absolutely no judgement?? He definitely wants that more than another dose of empathy. Olea also makes an effort to be more physical too, mostly just like holding his hand or laying his head on his shoulder but that little extra presence helps let Thyme he isn’t alone, you know?

Sooooo. That’s kinda them in a rambly nutshell, lots of silly joking about and doing their bests to be there for each other in their own ways when the other needs it. /thumbs up

22. From the outside looking in, what is their dynamic like?

^^^ It them.

Okay! They’re friends. They’re definitely idiots in love. They joke around like loons until shit gets real, then they try to do their best to make the other one happy again. One of my favorite aspects of their dynamic though is how they seem like two halfs in a whole, but aren’t. Oleander is drawn to Thyme’s joyous ray of sunshine aura, but he’s also an extremely guilt-ridden Stepford Smiler with serious anxieties. Thyme has major heart eyes over Oleander’s unflappable rock act but it’s really just an act. He’s really unsure on even what he is, let alone who, and that’s dangerous line of thought of a kid who’s not entirely of the natural world. So, he just… pretends.

It’s really fun writing them learning more about each other and that not much changing their opinions. Oleander still likes Thyme’s need to bring a little extra joy into the world and Thyme loves how absolutely resolute Oleander is. It’s same things just in a new light~

29. What are your favorite moments that happen between them?

All of them!! ;;v;;!! I get really distracted writing them at times because I just wanna write all the scenes with them and let them be happy and sad and desperate and in love. I just really love them both, especially together.

But~ One of my favorite talkable moments in one of the first ones I kinda ever wrote for them, I guess?? Back in the early days when Icarus was just a weirdo book club, Kingcup and this other member of their club were debating over magic theories, as you do, and in the background Thyme and Oleander were just fuckin’ around, chucking stupid candy hearts each other.

They were supposed to be like a little bit of background favor but I just really really loved them in that moment. They were dorky and darling and that’s pretty much when I started shipping them. I really adored the idea of Oleander (who’d been around sullenly for years at that point) having this cute dorky boyfriend he can just screw around and be like an actual …kid with, and Thyme changed from this sarcastic bad boy to my little sunshine hopepunk nerd and I couldn’t be happier with that!

The moment still exists in the story because I basically refuse to give up them being dorks. It’s too endearing to me~

And thank you again for the questions!!

#merigreenleaf #thyme oxeye #icarus at midnight #and thanks again!!! :D #also long post #because it me #oleander wormwood #thymander

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