#I'll Be Gone In the Dark

[books-and-cookies]

5 SECOND REVIEW

* wow

* this entire story is just bonkers

* it's essentially a case study on the Golden State Killer, one of the most prolific serial killers i've ever read about, written by a woman who poured years of her life into trying to figure out his identity

* i had watched the HBO documentary, which got me interested in the story, but the book was a whirlwind

* it's unreal to me how someone can do so much harm and only get caught 30+ years later

* Michelle's dedication to this case is genuinely humbling, and there's something so profoundly human in her writing

* i'm so sad she didn't get to see him caught, she sadly passed away while writing this book

* if you're interested in true crime in any way, this is a must read

* 4/5⭐️

[girlzoot]

My mother was, and will always be, the most complicated relationship of my life. Writing this now, I’m struck by two incompatible truths that pain me. No one would have taken more joy from this book than my mother. And I probably wouldn’t have felt the freedom to write it until she was gone. —Michelle McNamara/I'll Be Gone in the Dark: One Woman's Obsessive Search for the Golden State Killer

[fridaypacific]

https://tvtime.com/r/2YfvG

[leiathejules]

Eu Terei Sumido na Escuridão, de Michelle McNamara [Resenha]

Faz muito tempo que não escrevo nada sobre o que leio, mas o impacto que este livro, “Eu Terei Sumido na Escuridão” teve sobre mim me fez pensar que seria bom escrever sobre.

Quando decidi parar com meu blog e abandonar as parcerias com editoras e aquela obrigação inerente de ler o que eles propunham e falar sobre, senti um alívio, uma satisfação incrível em poder ler o que queria, no ritmo que queria e, o que era melhor a época: sem contar nada pra ninguém.

Algumas vezes tive diante de mim leituras que me preencheram de diversas formas, mas que, por um motivou ou outro, sentia certo entrave na hora da falar sobre - talvez um stress ou descontentamento residual dos meus quase dez anos de blog - e acabava deixando de lado.

Mas desta vez é diferente.

Comecei a ler “Eu Terei Sumido na Escuridão”, da autora Michelle McNamara, publicado no Brasil pela Vestígio, sem ter nenhum background sobre o que se tratava, sem ter lido a sinopse, ou seja, estava livre de expectativas de toda e qualquer forma.

E como isso foi bom.

Em seu livro, a autora relata sua busca a um assassino em série que, apesar de ter passado mais de dez anos ativo, e ter cometido, segundo as investigações policiais, cerca de cinquenta estupros e dez homicídios, acabara ficando um pouco a margem da atenção da mídia, sendo pouco discutido.

No livro a autora detalha o modus operandi do criminoso, que invadia as casas durante a madrugadas para cometer seus crimes, após passar certo tempo analisando o local e estudando suas vítimas (após os ataques, e olhando em retrospectiva, as vítimas e alguns vizinhos conseguiam detectar objetos faltando ou fora do lugar, pegadas no quintal, cerca “amassada” parecendo ter sido pulada).

O primeiro casal que visou foi acordado com o clarão de uma lanterna de lente quadrada ofuscando seus olhos.

Algumas vítimas, relatavam ainda terem recebido, nas semanas que antecederam ao ataque, ligações em horários esparsos, em que a pessoa do outro lado da linha desligava imediatamente após atenderem ou então ficava em silêncio, com a vítima apenas ouvindo uma respiração, como se o criminoso estivesse monitorando os horários em que haveria alguém na casa.

A autora descreve a escalada da violência, com o criminoso - que a autora chama de Assassino de Golden State, termo que populariza através de um blog na internet que ela mantinha, sobre crimes não solucionados - passando do abuso sexual da vítima, sempre uma mulher sozinha, ao ataque a casais, e, conforme os crimes ganhavam destaque na mídia e após uma tentativa de ataque frustrada, o assassino passando a executar suas vítimas após a agressão sexual. Quase como se aquilo que antes o satisfazia não fosse mais o suficiente: à medida que ele aprimorava suas técnicas e se mantinha impune, suas “necessidades” também mudavam.

Os detalhes de como o criminoso atuava são de arrepiar os cabelos, a autora teve acesso a milhares de documentos, inclusive depoimentos das vítimas contando a pressão psicológica que o assassino impunha a elas.

A mais cruel, pra mim, consistia em o assassino, após abusar da vítima, vendada, ficar em completo silêncio, de modo que, quando a vítima respirava aliviada, imaginando que ele já teria ido embora, ele se aproximava de repente, fazendo-se sentir presente novamente.

Outra característica de suas ações era dominar os maridos/namorados das vítimas, fazendo com que as mulheres os amarrassem e que eles ficasse deitados, de bruços. O criminoso então colocava louça, como uma xícara e um pires sobre as costas do homem, dizendo que, se ele ouvisse o barulho da louça se mexendo, mataria a mulher.

O livro tem uma prosa cadenciada, informativa, factual, disposta de forma que a cada página somos guiados pela narrativa extremamente competente da autora, e conseguimos imaginar os fatos como aconteceram e temos uma visão de tudo como se estivéssemos acompanhando as investigações de perto, torcendo pelo desfecho positivo do caso, como apenas os melhores livros da literatura policial podem nos proporcionar.

No caso de “Eu Terei Sumido na Escuridão”, a autora, Michelle McNamara, não viu sua conclusão, tendo falecido enquanto dormia, alegadamente de problemas causados pelo stress trazido pela investigação que conduzia para o livro.

O trabalho foi finalizado por um editor, contratado pelo marido da autora, e por companheiros dela, que compartilhavam com ela a missão de trazer a tona a identidade do Assassino de Golden State.

Recomendo fortemente a leitura, as duas primeiras partes do livro são escritas de forma genial, e as demais, apesar de terem ficado inconclusas dado o falecimento da autora, complementam o cenário de forma competente.

Segundo li, o livro deve virar uma docusserie da HBO. O livro foi adaptado para uma docussérie já disponível na HBO Max.

E, para um desfecho ainda melhor, o Assassino de Golden State foi finalmente preso, em 2018, graças a resíduos de DNA deixados nas cenas dos crimes.

★★★★☆

Ficha Técnica: Eu Terei Sumido na Escuridão Michelle McNamara Editora Vestígio 352 páginas Título original: I'll be gone in the dark Tradução de Luis Reyes Gil

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[destinyhunterwolf]

The responsible

[thomdoesthings]

Just finished I'll Be Gone in the Dark by Michelle McNamara

I don't talk about it much, but I have a pretty big interest in true crime, especially the unsolved. And this book is one of the best non fiction books I've ever read. Terrifying and chilling, definitely one I'd recommend. Especially the updated edition, which finally puts it all to bed

[tvthemesongs]

I'll Be Gone in the Dark intro

[alaffy]

I’ll be Gone in the Dark

I’ll be Gone in the Dark is a six-part true crime documentary based on the book by Michelle McNamara.  This documentary can be broken into three parts.  

This first part is the true crime case McNamara was writing about. This would be The Golden State Killer, who was wanted for 50 sexual assaults and 10 murders that happened in California in the 1970s and 1980s.  At the time the book was being written, the Golden State Killer was at large.  And that fact is important because, as McNamara learned more and more about this case, she became more determined with finding justice for the victims.

The second part is about McNamara herself.  See, McNamara didn’t live to see her book published.  In fact, it would be her husband (actor Patton Oswalt) and friends of McNamara who would finish the book.  As the documentary progresses, we learn more about McNamara and we are given possible reasons as to why she had this need to find this killer and how this need turned into an unhealthy obsession; to the point where she started abusing prescription drugs.  And it was that abuse that ultimately ended her life.

The third part of the documentary is the aftermath.  It is the need of Oswalt and McNamara’s friends to continue her work; to make sure this book is published.  It also shows how the book led to more awareness of the case and ultimately did lead to finding the killer.  It also points out that….when the killer was arrested, McNamara was acknowledged in that she brought more awareness to the case, but law officials said that her investigations didn’t lead to any major lead in cracking the case.  And while I won’t go as far as to say that is completely untrue (as there is no way to prove this), that is a questionable statement.  While writing her book, McNamara came up with several ways that maybe could be used to track down the killer.  And one of the ways she suggested is, in fact, how they were able to find him.  Now, in fairness, it is very possible that she just happened to stumble on to an idea that the police where already doing; it’s just the timeline is a bit interesting.  

Anyway, this documentary is on HBO Max and I strongly suggest to anyone to give it a watch.  

[fairydrowning]

In my "can't continue under this circumstances" era.

[skyward-floored]

Just realized in IAU they uh. they probably had a funeral for Sky, huh.

[bonkalore]

Sooo... There’s this newer show called Daniel Spellbound and this demon guy named Jayce Chinda in the second season, who I’ve kind of attached myself to recently and very suddenly, but I will add admit, I feel the show could have been much better and I’m sad about that. 😭 You can tell there’s a lot of constraints from budget and time that limited it a lot. It’s an urban fantasy setting with some cool concepts and good & diverse character designs, and whoever is doing the color keys for the show is on point, but it does end up feeling lacking in most other things to me unfortunately.

Jayce here sadly only mostly looked like the first few pics here. No tail or other horns. 😔 I don’t want to give spoilers, but it definitely felt like his narrative was leaning toward him having a bigger, badder demon form or at least something change, but he did not and I was rather disappointed.

So I gotta do it myself I guess.

But yeah, I’m back on my bullshit and have gone and run off with the AU stuff as I usually do and will say in advance that most of my fanart is only vaguely rooted in what was given in the canon if you’re wanting to check out the show and expect something else!  I’m just glad to want to draw something again tho, it’s been ages.

[icewitcher]

Just realized it's been a week I didn't play FFXIV and that after I reach that Heavensward part.

The " A smile... better suits a hero." part in english.

And in french "But you... You have such a beautiful smile... Try to not forget mine...."

Definitively in my top 5/top 10 lines that hurt my soul deeply.

And Alphi and the others doesn't make things easier when they say "I didn't know you were so close/had such a relationship.". Like bitch... Are you trying to make me cry ? Like I don't need to know. I know that Haurchefant was flirty with the WoL but not sure I would be able to handle it if they were in a romantic relationship or a queerplatonic relation so deep that it hurts bc WoL reaction was already hurting me by dropping to the knees and holding so gently his hand with their own so adding this and make it canon ?

It's the killing blow.

Well done Yoshi-P, well fucking done. But also you goddamn bastard. How dare you hurt my feelings like this. Do you want to take away what's left of my tears that Honkai Impact 3rd chapter 25 of main story, "Everlasting Flames" animation, the end of the Kolosten arc, "Thus Spoke Apocalypse" animation and the whole Elysian realm arc hasn't take from me ?

[girlzoot]

For advice I turned to the retired detectives who’d worked on the case, many of whom I’d come to consider friends. The hubris had been drained from them, but that didn’t stop them from encouraging mine. The hunt to find the Golden State Killer, spanning nearly four decades, felt less like a relay race than a group of fanatics tethered together climbing an impossible mountain. The old guys had to stop, but they insisted I go on. I lamented to one of them that I felt I was grasping at straws. “My advice? Grasp a straw,” he said. “Work it to dust.” —Michelle McNamara/I'll Be Gone in the Dark: One Woman's Obsessive Search for the Golden State Killer

[opens-up-4-nobody]

The way that the sun hits leaves and clouds. I feel like I could watch the colors change forever. If I could slow down for that long.

[tragicotps]