#I'll just google it and teach myself to sing

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cancelled all future singing lessons 😌

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ooh little tag game. i love these things. hate writing them cause i always feel like my formatting is awkward but i love talking about myself!! :) ty @witch-and-her-witcher :) //

nickname: none really haha i chose a hard name to nickname

sign: libra (scorpio cusp)

height: 5'10. manifesting 6'0 though (i'll get there if i try. and keep wearing my platforms)

last thing you googled: "ciri witcher". predictable as always. literally no other fucking thoughts just referencing character wikis

song stuck in your head: carnage by jazmin bean!

amount of sleep: got roughly 8 hours last night? 8 1/2? unfortunately i need ten to function properly 😭

dream job: oh this is hard. writing, probably? current Safe Plan is getting my credential and teaching high school english; no huge ambitions right now, though!

wearing: NOT going to talk about the pj getup. black sweatshirt mickey mouse santa hat pajama pants

movies/books that summarize you: labyrinth + muppets treasure island + clue + the belgariad (and accompanying series(es)).

favorite song: hell of hells to make me pick. no favorite song i just consume music voraciously. rlly liking seventeen by ladytron again lately though

instrument: guitar + ukulele + i sing! played piano when i was little but dropped off

aesthetic: punk rock greaser. fifties-era Classic Boy Looks but just a little more punkified

favorite author: myself. have you read that bitch's poetry? it's like it was written for me

fun fact: i work with kids! it is slowly becoming more and more a part of my personality now haha but i love it so much. really really enjoying this job honestly. shout out to those elementary schoolers they may be spoiled but they're cute as fuck <3

was supposed to tag 14 people for 14 questions but. vom. as if i know fourteen people. anyway @romcomfemme @lesbianboyfriend @cherryriposte @bucklikethedollar @canglanjueeeee @solicider those are the besties that's all i got in me

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Music Analysis Time!

Listening to music the other week and come across Gang of Youths "Achilles Come Down". It is gorgeous!!

I google the lyrics to get clarification on a few of the overlapping lyrics and a translation for the french sections and am shocked that one of the first things to pop us as a popular search is "did he come down?"

What?!? How is that in question? Did you listen to the song?

I played it for my sister and she actually asked me the same question. I stared at her dumbfounded for several moments before giving a music lecture that lasted half an hour.

Condensed Version:

YES! He did come down. The music makes this plain.

Long Version:

The song starts with our hero on the roof and the vocalist appealing to him to come down. This continues for a couple of verses, appealing to logic and resorting at one point to jump too.

Another voice cuts in, Achilles inner demon, telling him why he should just go ahead and get it over with. (While it is the same vocalist singing you can hear a distinct difference in the voices.)

The first voice comes back in warning him against listening to the demon (alcohol) and while life may be pointless you can make your own meaning.

The next verse both voices sing contrasting messages at the same time, refuting the others points. They then merge at the very end:

Be done with this now and jump off (get off) the roof Can you hear me, Achilles? I'm talking to you I'm talking to you

And the second voice fades out as it continues:

I'm talking to you I'm talking to you Achilles, come down Achilles, come down

At the end of this phrase, the music turns from somber to a more slow hopeful sound, before almost lurching back to what we have heard the rest of this song.

The second voice fading out and the more hopeful music sends a clear signal that Achilles is convinced to come down. The jarring back to what we have heard previously may be that he changed his mind but was already within reach of the first singer and prevented from jumping when the doubts creeped back in.

The final lines imply that that they won the battle today but the war will wage on but that it is always better to keep moving forward.

For many people I know (myself included), that have had a "jump" moment this is a very powerful and hopeful song BECAUSE he doesn't jump.

I think we are missing something by not emphasizing music literacy. And i don't mean heavy music theory, but how changes in music mean things. I have been lucky enough to have been immersed in music on a day to day basis since I was young but I think we do a huge disservice to many kids now by not teaching them how to analyze what they are listening to.

Anyway before I get even more on my soapbox, I think I'll stop here.

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Boredom.

It is the start of bad habits and unnecessary irritation.

We all have been there. Some are good in coping. Some go antsy...

So here are a list of things I suggest to do when you are bored.

I'll slowly remember and post bits by bits on what I can type in. Atleast these posts will keep you in.

SO HERE IS MY LIST

When it's really silent and preferrably dark (or some lights on what you fancy), you blast or listen to music that hits you on you👌😤 just right. Alaina Castillo has a really nice voice. In my opinion, her covers and those compilations where she sings you to sleep are so good. It calms me.

Challenge yourself. Have a fun game with yourself! Annnnd yesss... I know it sounds lonely but hear me out. This doesn't really appeal as a group activity. An example: you have this really favourite pastries you buy in the mall. Then you think to yourself: heyyyy i probably can make these myself! So you google some recipes and try it. Or when you read some news and you feel inspired of that news so you try and challenge yourself. For example playing an instrument or sport. OFCOURSE. In life, not all people will be too happy with your choices but if you think it can make you happy and there is no harm done so why dont you do it secretly 😀 once you feel comfortable of coming out you can do so. Also i dont advertise anything illegal. Pls

Eating. Ok. Cliche. Get over it. Ooohhh so you are teaching us to be gluttons o m g. Like isn't stress eating like baaad?? What I meant was to look at it in a another perspective. Go order food you have never tried and want to try. That's one. Like a new flavor. (but we heard this one a lot of timess) then go find your favorite food in different stores and compare them. Then try to rank them. Or another idea! Order every item on the menu differently till you order everything in the menu. Dont order all at once. Seriously DONT waste food. But slowly eat away to the top and find your favourites. Reminder: dont be an asshole if you dont like the food. It happens ya knowww. Not all are accustomed to ur tongue ur majesty lolol

Do the dumbest reasonable shit you can think of. Idk. For laughs. It's fun when you think of it right. Don't inspire yourself with weird youtubers clickbait titles. What i mean is something like ordering your burger but order it with out the patty. Or find the saddest movies knowing its spoilers and try not to cry. (ok that seems to go in the challenge category). Learn how to swim backwards. Eat the milo powder. Well i meant being silly is ok. Dont worry about it. Just dont be dangerous.

Sub to pewdiepie

(ok jk but please check him out. T series should not win pls. UwU)

Decorate your room. I was thinking of having a water for the floor's wallpaper so everytime i wake up I'll freak out why my bed is in water. (dont force if your scared) my bro also put up a huge sticker of a ghost from scooby doo and it scared my nieces. Now it's like a funny story of how everyone was atleast once scared of it. You could make your room look classy or really weird. All will be possible with creativity. Money shouldn't be an issue. A well thought room will sum up your personality and be ur special space.

Write letters! Address them to people you want to lay your thoughts on. It is your choice if you choose to send it or keep it like a diary. With the dates on it and hide them in a box so that in a few years those letters be really precious. Orrrrr if it is hate messages i prefer you to shout it off. Honestly negative thoughts are better to be expressed than well up to a huge thunder cloud. But not to be brought around as a grudge and as a irritable excuse. Writing to yourself in a few years and replying again so that in another few years that version of yourself will reply so that it will continue for on so long. It's nice to ask your future self some questions and in that future you get to answer seems so enlightening. I did this as a joke and i read my old self burning who I am now. Weird but funny.

Memes

Ok imma leave this here.

Imma suggest other stuff some other time.

Go ask me anonymously if u need someone to talk to

Feel free to fill in :depression is _______

Also i recommend to read this blog from oldest to latest. Coz i know from time I will update myself to a better version for this blog hopefully.

ALSO I WILL BE CERTAINLY BE GRATEFUL IF U ASK ME OPINON ON THINGS LAIK FANDOMS, LITERATURE, ANYTHING REALLY

I will write an essay back.

Ok

Thats all for now

May sunshine reach your face.

Ye this alaina she sounds super cool

By means of sound yeh her voice a s m r

She really cool please be nice to her

She doing some blogs now i hope it entertains u 😊😊

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Me... I'm a hard worker. I always have been and I always will be! I'll get right to the point with that being said.(its a GREAT point I recommend the read 😁 that's only my opinipn though 😏)

I've only just begun my journey to success! I'm turning 31 in January...ugh I know eh getting old as hell and have only been successful at working myself into shitty situations! I won't deny it. A lot of my life has been fucked for a lack of better word.(you ask why I just said that, you now are no longer reading my post...that is for a reason. If those words offend you and make you not want to work with me, I too, do not want to work with you. I am who I am and it gets said, I appreciate anyone who is taking the time to read this I'll get back to my post 😁) It's been fucked in the sense of I never learned the real world everyday day 2 day stuff. Well that shit is important to know EVERYDAY haha. So after 28 years of COMPLETELY draining the life out of myself, living life testing most of the wrong paths in life. I found out only one thing, I have been living my life the wrong way. I'm not connected with the 9-5 lifestyle like some people are.

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Want to hear something funny...

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I didn't even know you could make money online🤔😮

I'm not even joking. Oh how I have discovered my path to being able to have the life I have always ALWAYS had in the back of my head. Even through days of dark deep depression I could see this life I was wanting but could not, for the life of me, understand why I couldnt reach it. I worked soooo hard at all these jobs, busted my toochie 😂😂 all fucking day(seriously though I'm a hard ass worker I like to joke with sarcasm 😃) only to make enough to barely live off of... (so I thought anyway, not having EVER been taught the handling of money) and feeding my weekend habits and my weekly habits and well all the habits in between that get picked up along the way. It's extremely hard to make it all come together. For many of those years it was completely unclear to me as to why it was all happening, I didn't understand the logistics behind life so basically all I knew how to do was work my ass off to be able to pay (usually only some) bills and have a rocking good time on the weekend. Until I was so far gone with depression it was basically over. Couldn't function regularly, had zero ambition for life in general... but there was a reason I was here. Still here I should say living through a couple car accidents, and the countless unremembered nights of my young adult life. I didn't know that reason then and couldnt figure it out for the life of me.(AGAIN😂😂) Just joking, I had three beautiful children of my own & beautiful step daughter to live for. They were my ONLY reason for still being and sticking around this crazy fucking world we live in. No matter what I was going to find someway to make a great life for them. It was around July or August of 2017 when I came to my good friend Google(that I used on a regular basis to find useless bullshit that didn't benefit my life at all) and typed in the famous saying "how to make money online" and there it began. I was hooked, I knew, absolutely KNEW this was how I am supposed to live! I could be with all my children, I could afford to have an actual house and yard for them, pay for hockey, pay for dance lessons, for singing lessons... I want it all for them.(if they choose of course... they are all extremely talented though) I want to help animals in need and kids have lunches at schools, donate to children's hospitals(as my daughter was 10 months premature and was saved by our local children's hospital the IWK!!!) That's the level I'm on! I have so much love and want to help bent up inside of me with a bank account that couldnt choke an ant😔 lol ...wait wtf is this guy talking about? Why the fuck would you be talking to me about investing in you then? Well let me tell you!

Over this past almost 2 years now I have turned my mindset from a "i cant" attitude, to a "I Can" attitude! I have walked over many demons in my life to get to the point I am at today. I've worked at jobs where I've been covered in shit for the entire day, or frozen to the point of losing feeling in your hole body.

This is why I am writing this post to you today, I need help gaining more knowledge to back up my 2 years of free surfing the net. Tai Lopez has been one of my favorite mentors because he is 100% knowledge is power! He teaches you how to implement that into your life to make your dreams a reality. I need this in my life, this is what I am asking for. A course from Tai so I can get his insight on business to be able to better build a more stable life for my children and me.

If you have read this far it is possible you are interested in working with me, so first off I want to thank you with or without your contribution for reading my story I hope it intrigued you or at the least you enjoyed it 😁 I am fully confident with the right mentor and guidance of that mentor I can make my life and the lives of many others much better.

My name is Myles Maclaren, let's talk!