#I'm going to walk into the ocean

[werewolf-transgenderism]

HELP

[talistheintrovert]

there's something so inherently queer in the way The Eighth Sense is being acted and ESPECIALLY in the way it's being filmed, and the cinematography and editing choices that keep taking my goddamn breath away.

the almost pain in the longing of short, broken glances to avoid being caught staring, the eyes darting over his whole face instead of lingering too long on his eyes or lips, the tentative broaching of conversation and testing of boundaries that only happens with that level of anxiety in a queer relationship

the constant fear of "what if he's not?" "what if i'm mistaken?" "what if i step too far?" which straight people rarely have to worry about, because at worst if you ask another straight person out you'll get meanly turned down, but if you're queer and you ask a straight person out the reaction could be SO bad, so you're scared and you're withholding but you're just WANTING

there are whole scenes where their friendship is clearly blooming and they both forget their sexualities and they're just having fun like they do with other people

and then there's always a moment where it THUDS back home again. the wetsuits. the showers. outside the bar. on the beach. where they're both so clearly HYPERAWARE of themselves and each other and feeling so exposed and so so scared but still desperate to be near each other

jaewon and jihyun are in parallel states of just YEARNING so badly that it makes my heart ache and my breath catch every time one of those scenes appears

[whatever-you-can-give-me]

ok was anyone going to tell me that vashwood start literally psychically communicating in vol10 after wolfwood breaks his vials or was i supposed to just find that out seeing a page out of context on twitter and realizing vash literally snaps his head towards him and then responds to what wolfwood asked him to do in what was definitely typographically just A Thought. by myself.

[bauresurrected]

born to write forced to sneeze 

[customskeletons]

the horrors (i missed our lady of sorrows.)

[tevanbuckley]

no but buck having someone who cares about him enough after only a couple of dates to come running after spending an entire day not just at work but actively fighting a wild fire, because they had plans and he said he'd try his damndest to be there

[saltpepperbeard]

so are y’all like me and fixate on the fact that stede has two pillows/an open space available every time you see a shot of his bed or are you normal

[astrarche-x]

today's episode of being obsessed with The Radiant Emperor: this conversation (even before the ''you don't kneel" moment) is insane for the parallels it shares with Ouyang's internal struggles. Aside from the obvious ''Why can’t you make it easier for me to hate you?/Would that I could only hate, It would be easier", it makes me want to chew on glass that Ouyang seems to never have considered forgiving Esen for (essentially) being Chaghan's son and is so taken aback by the fact that Esen considers forgiving Baoxiang simply because he loves him. Ouyang could never conceive of such notion even if what he subconsiously wants the most is to live happily ever after with Esen!

Another thing is the parallel between Ouyang being like ''oh no, Esen, why can't you see reality for what it is" several times (even if he admires that) and Esen here going ''oh no, Ouyang, why can't you imagine a different reality"... For all the poetic Ouyang waxes about Esen's naivete he doesn't share I find it sooo interesting this instance of Esen dragging Ouyang for his lack of imagination because this is ultimately what doomed him...

[jeansyvesmoreau]

I'm okay (no I'm not)

[justalittlebluetiefling]

Something I've seen a couple people saying is that they want to make sure that Laudna understands that she's not the only one who has been through trauma. But like. Laudna is not the only one who needs to learn that lesson. Actually, it's not even that Laudna needs to learn that she's not the only one that's been through trauma at all, because they're all very aware of what they've all been through. This became an inevitable confrontation when Laudna decided to let Delilah back in, though, and after rewatching the scene, I actually think the only people who managed this situation correctly were Imogen* and Ashton.

Orym and Laudna are both more focused on their own pasts with the sword and not thinking about each other. Orym should have talked to the group and come to a decision with them about using the sword and Laudna should have talked to him about it instead of trying to steal it.

*my feelings about this are still up in the air don't read into this too much

[heich0e]

i don't know how to explain it or why but the simple "suguru have you lost weight?" line viscerally rends me. makes me DOUBLE OVER in agony.

[coquelicoq]

i could never live at the coast because constant exposure would erode its liminality. the beach is the place for me where the veil is thinnest between human and nature, meaning and meaninglessness, thought and sensation, mortality and eternity. i need a place i can go to take me out of myself and into something else, something bigger and older and unable to notice me or care. i go to the coast to be reminded that i am small, that meaning isn't inherent in anything, that on a cosmic scale it doesn't matter if i'm here or if i lived, and by reminding myself of these things i refresh my will to live. there's no reason for me to be here, but i am here. there's no meaning in my life except the meaning i give it. so let me actively choose to be here. let me consciously choose my meaning. and then i go back to my normal daily grind and try to carry that with me as far as possible. if i lived at the coast, my normal daily grind would be occurring in the same place as my transcendence pit stop. that ain't gonna work. it would all become background noise and i'd stop noticing it. to look at the ocean and be thinking about my taxes would disintegrate my soul i think. the beach is my favorite place to be but only because most of the time i'm somewhere else.

[skloomdumpster]

[landfilloftrash]

so I stumbled on a thing while looking for fanart.

[muzzlemouths]

dead mall dare crumb for the soul

[anthonycrowley]

hm. thinking about how crowley probably was scared of the idea of saying the quiet part out loud for every minute of those six thousand years because what if aziraphale rejects him and then when he actually gets up the courage to do it that's exactly what happens.