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kittyscabin · 8 months ago

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LET'S GET MISCHIEVOUS (AND POLYAMOROUS!)

shortly before

#COFFINCHAIN'S STRONGEST SOLDIER IS BACK!! well actually i never left i've just been So Busy #saw #coffinchain #chainshipping #hoffstrahm #coffinshipping #peter strahm #mark hoffman #lawrence gordon #adam faulkner stanheight #strahmdon #strahmheight #actually i'm not tagging every mix this time i'm so so so tired #guys please be nice i'm so on the fence abt this piece but i wanted to draw them all together again so bad #also pleaseplease please join me in the coffinchain pit it's so lonely and cold down here i haven't seen my family in 13 years

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silvermeww · 8 months ago

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okay, when was someone going to tell me that

oh, idk, steven started at 19, burgh has a younger sister, clay actually isn't born american, skyla's whole fam thing and ELESA IS 15???? (even younger than skyla like wtf???)

(also the 'alder' at the bottom is supposed to be drayden lol)

and that's not all

say hello to:

viola being 18??? 'black whirlwind' korrina, RAMOS MEETING AZ'S FLOETTE AS A KID, genderfluid and apparently also age-fluid olympia, CLEMONT?? AND HIS WHOLE THING DOWN TO BEING 12 OF ALL AGES???

(you know what, marlon being 30 definitely makes sense with the hippie vibes)

wikstrom SAYING that he only wears that suit in pokemon battles but i've never seen his casual wear, malva being pr for flare lol, drasna selling dragon merch + great family lore if you want to know, siebold having to third-wheel lysandre and sycamore while eating (move aside malva, you're not the only elite 4 dealing with this) and 20?? YEARS OLD?? DIANTHA????????????

(way too many men in kalos are getting ladies, c'mon)

ethan being into history is such a neat detail hmmm, idk much of the frontier brains ngl, and we've finally got the region for looker and it's... hoenn??? you know what, makes sense with his chaotic vibes so i'll take it (throws away unova taped to a rock behind my back). also he's abolsutely cheating we all see that he's just relying on knowing us as protags, should've known smh

(um i think someone said that 'caitlin' should've been anabel but idk)

oh and the last one is charon, if we care about how much of a loser he really is. forget about birch and the poochyena, this guy is the lowest heh. imagine being charon (please don't).

(when the protags of johto are the same age as clemont lol) (yeah i know there are years between those events just let me have this)

and last but not least:

aaron 🤝 valerie: wanting to be pokemon (and ig gotta toss in shauntal with the ao3 writer gift heh, don't know if they would commission her or stay away), bertha's description???? i love flint just saying, cynthia 👀👀 is absolutely doing something illegal 👀👀, roark is WHAT??? (child labour laws in sinnoh must be lax ngl), maylene as well???? fantina watching scary movies is something i'll have to incorporate into my worldview and bryon?? are you okay??

so yeah. credit goes to @/KuroBlitz96 on the twitter/x for having this up, i'm just here to project sheer surprise at this massive dump of ages... my thoughts on pokemon have completely turned on its head once more lol (this is fine)

#sinnoh is the most surprising out of the regions avaliable #but c'mon 12 year old clemont?? he is legit baby #steven is really just chilling around for at least 4 years until the protag got him huh??#when i was first watching bw i thought that cilan was middle child until that 3rd last ep?? with the fight for the gym #and having the bros come to him cemented the idea that he was the oldest #so hearing that is good to know #even though i have to make peace that they never left the city lol #WHY IS ELESA/ROARK/MAYLENE/DIANTHA SO DANG YOUNG???#i can maybe let go of viola. in time. maybe.#i also love some of that lore/history dump here as well #lenora's dad bringing back fossils and lyra being torn between countryside/city #viola being a big sister figure and getting that camera from her father #crasher wake being a fake fan but also heavily embodying that barry spirit in his own way #the ramifications of the mother dying after bonnie was born and wow that gag in the anime is suddenly a lot more sadder huh #on the brighter side the prism tower used to be a part of a travelling amusement park lol #flint's hype!!! maylene being confused over her own strength!!! (thoughts about paul's insults hit a lot harder after this hmm)#wulfric being an explorer!! and i'm still not over ramos and az's floette oh god #unfollow me right now. this is all i can talk about for the next few weeks. my brain is way too small for this knowledge help #is it canon now?? idk. but the fact that this was here is killing me #pokemon teraleak #save #deep stuff

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welcometogrouchland · 6 months ago

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Noticing that TV and film will often have a character either have had an abortion in the past that isn't showcased on screen (and just used as part of the character's ~fucked up and twisted backstory~) OR contemplate getting an abortion in the present day but not to through with it. Just once I want to see someone delete that fetus within the events of the plot and not be like. Extremely majorly punished for it and/or be in the wrong

#ramblings of a lunatic #was watching a tv show w the fam recently and it's the 2nd series of a show that was clearly written with only 1 in mind #so in the 2nd season a character gets pregnant (bc ofc) and contemplates getting an abortion #only to do the whole 'omg she thinks she's lost the baby and realizes she wanted to keep it all along!'#which like. fine and valid and happens to ppl irl I'm sure #but like. this season doesn't establish if she wanted kids prior or if she has a stable job (she was struggling career wise-#-last season and the timeskip this season doesn't go into it)#AND has this fucking bizarre scene w/ her boyfriend (whos mostly been irrelevant and occasionally annoying up til now)#where he says it's 'our pregnancy' that she was going to terminate and when she (rightfully) bites back-#-saying 'you mean MY pregnancy?!' he just. storms off and deflects #which would be one thing but we have to wrap up the main plot so she just apologizes to him (for other plot stuff)#and we're never given any indication that his opinion has changed and they're just happily parenting at the end of the season #which just. left a bad taste in my mouth #like I KNOW i know not every bad thing said on screen needs a big blinking arrow that points out that it's Bad and Wrong #but idk how I'm supposed to feel in a series that has painted itself as explicitly feminist up til this point #presents the outcome of a woman dating and bearing a child for a man w seemingly zero respect for her bodily autonomy as happily ever after #w no follow up #like the whole series is centered on a group of sisters and this pregnancy story happened to the youngest one #who's always seen as needing to 'grow up' in season 1. so assuming this is meant to be building off that arc it's so WEIRD still #bc yes being a parent is an opportunity for many ppl to mature emotionally but that's not really something the character-#-reflects on all season. it's more abt her burying her past relationship w a season 1 guy (who was infinitely more interesting than new guy)#-than anything to do with that #AND EVEN IF IT WAS the notion of pregnancy as a punishment/reckoning meant to make her grow up or take responsibility-#-which is secretly a blessing in disguise i. god the show fell apart so hard here for me #and my mom and sister were just cooing over the baby at the end and i didn't speak up bc i didn't want to be a bitch #and in all fairness I'm probably being a tad uncharitable in this post but like. don't piss me OFF man #anyway. normalise abortion storylines that aren't backstory fodder and aren't fakeouts for baby plots. please

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shadyvoidhologram · 8 months ago

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I was laying in bed overthinking, as you do, and started to go on a depressive doom spiral. And then, to distract myself I started thinking about the things I like.

[Spoilers and some gross details incoming, you know what Mouthwashing is about]

So, eventually I started thinking about Curly being in a similar headspace as I was, laying down, incapable of doing anything, constantly in pain and hearing time and time again how quickly things are going to shit and that it's all your fault.

Him replaying his mistakes over and over on his head, imagining the many ways things could've gone a different way if only he had done something instead of ignoring the issues to "keep the peace".

Remembering every interaction that led to the accident, Anya's confession, his friends poorly disguised resentment, him ignoring and filtering details of his crew's mental state, her taking the gun, the notice, Jimmy.

Him being a coward and disguising his hate of confrontation with the guise of being a good friend.

And then comming back to reality, to is burning flesh. To the blood, shit and bile staining the bandages, robe and bed, to watching and hearing his friends suffer and die, unable to do anything.

When the kid dies, in the midst of all the emotional chaos, he feels some sick sense of relief knowing that probably Swansea will deal with both of them quickly and it'll be over at last.

Then Jimmy finds the gun.

And he can't help but laugh. He remembers the conversation they had and he cackles bitterly because not even in death can her wishes be respected. She trusted him and he failed her even after she was gone.

Soon enough it's just the two of them left.

Through muffled ears he hears Jimmy rambling, talking to himself, asking questions and answering right after, he sees him moving the bodies around. When Jimmy carries him from the infirmary to the common room table he's still as stone, not a sound leaves his mouth, he doesn't look at the bodies thrown on the chairs around the table, he doesn't even breathe.

But all of Jimmy's attention, hatred, idolatry, and envy are on him only. Eyes glossy, cut pieces of a one sided conversation and a tentative smile on his lips when he reaches for the slightly dented knife.

He screams until his lungs close and his throat burns. When he's fed parts of himself he cries and throws up until he is forced to swallow and keep it down.

He's dehidrated, half delirious from the blood loss and emotionally checked out when Jimmy picks him up and tells him they can still fix this, he knows what to do. That he's going home.

Sure, he thinks, he wants to go home.

When he's placed on the cryopod he just stares at Jimmy talk to himself at him some more, about being heroes and everything being all right now. Then he steps out of sight.

It's on the silence after the loud bang when his brain starts working again, he's completely and utterly alone on a crashed ship of a company that's closing it's doors, with a now depleted shipment that wasn't even important enough to guarantee a search party, and no way of fending for himself in the case of 20 years passing and no one coming, even less if the power gave out before that.

As the cryopod finally starts to cool, the few tears he has left fall from his remaining eye.

He hopes he doesn't wake up to see what happens next.

..ok see y'all when I wake up-

#I wish I was better at talking about the themes of the game and characterizing the crew. There's so much I wanna say-#I want to play the game again just to see if I missed anything in here but it's almost 6 am and my brain is shutting down #I would blame stress and insomnia on this but I legit think about this when I come across the tag again #I want to talk about his guilt of wishing he never helped jimmy get the job. how he wished he died first. how his crew didn't deserve it-#and *if* he makes it out. the surviors guilt. the trauma and the pain it would still chase him for the rest of his life #damn. in any sueing case the company could use him being traumatized and vulnerable to make him agree that it was all his fault-#I swear the rest of the time I imagine a what if AU where Jimmy gets yeeted into space by Swansea and they all live happily ever after #this is basically a fic at this point and I'm so sorry but I wrote too much to delete it all now in a state of post revision clarity lmao #me being a dumbass #mouthwashing #tw death #Ideally Anya would be the one throwing him into space. And Swansea would help her bc honestly fuck Jimmy #Curly would be held at arms length until they've gone back home. only left there to pilot them back safely #long ass post #long ass tags

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its-a-beautful-day · 1 year ago

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Updating my donation post as it's been a few months. I'm still struggling with being homeless and I recently lost my health insurance (yayy turning 26!)

I've applied for section 8 at a local large city but that can take time. I'm also in the months long process of applying for SNAP/medicaid. I've also applied for financial assistance through my work to help me as well but I'm unsure of the turn around time or how much they can assist me.

Currently with the cost of rent in my local area the best option might be for me to renovate a free mobile home. However I need to move it to a lot/mobile home park with hookups and that can cost alot of money. The current estimate I got is around $8,000.

This doesn't include the lot rent per month or the cost of fixing the mobile home. But I do get to own the trailer after and can sell it once I have my feet under me again and ready to move.

I've been looking into so many different options but I'm struggling with finding something in my budget. Current income restricted housing is at a 1 to 2 year wait list. Others require a $48 per person application before you get to even see the apartment (for a one bedroom no less)

I've already made so many sacrifices during this year including not perusing fighting to get my cat back. Unfortunately with the way I can't find housing there wasn't a hope I could find housing and have it allow pets.

I've anyone has suggestions for finding roomates (that's not Facebook) or housing please feel free to message me

I'm also doing donation doodles for any donation over $10, give me a suggestion or prompt when you donate otherwise you get a bug art lol

#star's art #artist on tumblr #my art #mutual fund #Homeless #fundraising #Donation doodles #Kofi #artist on kofi #Housing help #Currently homeless and disabled and I don't have insurance so Im missing my doctor appointment and running out of my ptsd medicine #I'm working two jobs right now as best as I can #But I'm so tired and I just want to finally have a home #I miss my craftroom #I miss having my own personal space #I miss my garden #My cat #Oh ginger I miss you so much #You don't know why I left and never came back #I'm sorry I can't get you #I'm sorry he won #I didn't even get to go to pride this year cause it was fucking sold out and I was hoping to connect with the booths that would help me #I'm so so tired #I've been struggling for so long now #Average rent here is $800 for a one bedroom and over a $1000 for anything else #I've been priced out of where I've been living for over 13 years #And it's not like I can just get random roommates im fucking transgender like that's literally dangerous #I'm disabled and transgender and homeless with ptsd and I'm so tired #Universal basic income when

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nobodybetterlookatme · 3 months ago

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Anyway after thorough research, I can confirm that I am, in fact, not a big fan of the snow ahsjakskla it was really cool for like an hour and I was having a fantastic time, but the novelty wore off quick when it melted into my clothes lmaoooo

#not snz #might use it in fics tho #now that i know it's not something everyone made up to gaslight those of us who have lived places it doesn't snow our whole lives LMAO #i still think the rain is sexier and more versatile but snow has a cute vibe to it #anyway we did like a fake ass 'hike' lmao idk where tf we were tbh but we were Walking #it was a fucking struggle bro i was fighting for my fucking life #like i thought hiking in the mud was bad but this was something else #and it wasn't even a real hike like it was mostly flat 😭#also turns out none of the clothes i own are good to wear in the snow #crazy concept who would've thought that the clothes of someone who's never seen snow once in their life wouldn't be good for the snow #i had my thick ass jacket i wear to my ranch hand job in the winter/when it rains but that was Not Enough #i did have the sense to bring my parka that i had when i was a swimmer bc that shit is water proof af #and it did help i guess but i looked fucking stupid 😔#anyway we had all rented out like? a house? a cabin?? so we could all stay together #so we spent a few hours outside then went in and made food and played games and watched movies #so that was cool i liked that vibe #it was really pretty but man once you realize you're wet it just all goes downhill lmaoooo #got to snuggle with the boyf tho so that was nice 🥰#also why do men do the things they do ahdkaksks they started wrestling on the floor while me and the other girl were just like 👁️👄👁️#like i used to be included in wrestling matches at the station before it got banned so i know it's entertaining for them but i don't get it #honestly a bit unnerving knowing that i could never stand a chance if it was fr and i don't like to think about that for too long #but man idk what it is about this breed of men wanting to tackle each other to the floor lmaoooo like what instinct is that #also we threw snowballs at each other and that was fucking primal LMAO like i understand that one #and then a few of us built snow people while everyone else was working on making just a massive fucking snowball #so yeah i had a good time but I'm so fucking glad it was only a couple days bc i couldn't deal with that for long lmaoooo #loooooved just sitting inside and looking out the window tho like that was peak #anyway we left early on monday and came back late tuesday and i had emt work today #or yesterday technically bc it is ✨️ 1 am ✨️ lmaoooo #and i have a full schedule for the rest of the week with various activities/obligations so no time to rest for me until next week lmao #here's to hoping i survive ahsmkakz

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cesienthusiast · 3 months ago

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"What are you doing?"

"Summoning my moots."

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razzek · 7 months ago

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Aww I'm all out of Magnus Archives long fics to read. :C Gonna have to keep digging and see if there's anything to my tastes I haven't read yet that's at least over 10k words.

#the magnus archives #tma #feel free to rec anything you like #I'm big into jon/martin #but also jon/tim and tim/martin #with a preference for jon's asexuality being respected or handled well #I read the rose one and hot damn was I impressed by a sex pollen fic actually respecting an ace character!#that was rad as fuck!#if you're going to rec a coffee shop au it's gotta be incredible cuz I'm not usually a fan they bore me #and no college or hs aus please I left that shit behind decades ago don't wanna go back #I am the one person you can rec the most fucked up thing you've ever read to #I'm always curious to see if authors can pull that off and you'll never beat the homestuck fandom on that game XD #also not too keen on omegaverse #if it were handled with the horror of bioessentialism or had more to it than the weirder parts of furry #mixed with honestly pretty mundane smut #I have given it a read in those cases #but it's just not usually my thing #ah the joys of being the ace who is actually here for the worldbuilding XD

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front-facing-pokemon · 2 years ago

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#prinplup #oh shit i put this post here and started queuing it like this morning and then just forgot about it apparently. tabbed off and just left it #and then i came back home it's like 9 PM and opened tumblr to find this guy staring at me. realizing i never clicked the queue button #so. that was a fun experience. either way i just think this is a penguin. hard-pressed to find anything interesting to say here #it's another one of those starter mid-evos where i'm like… it's good continuity from the base 'mon and into the final evo #but as a midpoint is still a bit awkward. teenage phase‚ y'know?

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ox1-lovesick · 1 year ago

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hi

#life update nobody asked for lol #I missed you guys my pookie wookie dookies #I deleted all my social media and life is so great wow #still a lot of mental health problems but I'm finally learning to deal with my emotions and not hate life (wow)#is it bad for me to say I'm so glad I left blr #I will probably never come back here lol but I think (?) today is txt's debut anniversary and since I am the self proclaimed empress of moa #downgrading to a flip phone actually #I unstanned txt and all the kpop peoples too (SHOCKER)#I do feel really nostalgic and sad when I think about them but I think it was the thing I needed most #delulu is infact not the solulu #daydreaming about beomgyu being the new student at my school and being soobin's bestie was never the greatest idea hey #it's so freeing to not care about them and focus on what's infront of me #if you need a sign to start growing out of kpop and start worrying about your own life here it is babe 😭 don't let anybody give you shit #Not to say kpop is bad or anything I just think for me it was getting a bit out of hand #As much as we all make fun of the delulus it's so easy to fall down that spiral when these idols constantly tell you they love you #The parasocial relationship was REAL istg these people felt like my friends #Hueningkai does not give a FUCK about me and he is so real for that #Thinking about deleting this blog but I'm logging off after this so I very well may forget it exists again #But I just wanted to share what's been going on #And I miss you guys a lot #I may have outgrown kpop and tumblr but you all still have a special place in my heart #I miss the good old days 😭 when discord let's me back in I might visit wme #Not much has changed with me but mentally I feel like a whole new person #But I hope you all are doing GREAT #Living your best lives and doing things that make you happy #You owe it to yourself more than you owe these celebrities anything #xoxo savie 😝🤟🤟🔥🔥🔥

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celendiar · 1 year ago

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In North Blue, they call it heartshine - two hearts meant for each other, lighting up when skin touches skin. Once upon a time, Law had wondered who the bearer of the heart with a perfect match to his own was.

His curiosity is left in the ashes of Flevance, shot alongside Cora-san and buried in the cold, snowy soil of Minion Island.

Until, at the ripe old age of 24, Law sits in an auction house and Monkey D. Luffy bursts through the wall like an avalanche.

#lawlu #one piece #monkey d. luffy #trafalgar law #one piece fanfiction #idk man i just fell back into this fandom headfirst #or more like i never left but somehow i'm also deeper than ever #2/3 chapters done so far #i never thought you'd see me writing fics again and here we are #my stuff

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nobodyexpectsthe · 7 months ago

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anders: i need you to say it pirith: anders: pirith, say it or i won't forgive you pirith: pirith: i love you more than solas. pirith: but not as much as i love ghila anders: more than a god but less than a deer, I'll take it.

#ooc.#imagine being such a wreck you wont make a move on someone you like & lock yourself out of any romance arcs midway through the game but you #start sleeping with the exboyfriend/husband of the lady you left for dead #and after two years of pretending like you haven't caught feelings the shady dude you were pining for turns back up and is like hey man #this is kind of awkward but i'm your trickster god and all your gods are fake #and your arm is literally killing you so I'm just gonna take that #and youre like oh sick i have no more feelings here #and finally admit you're in love with the dude who has been dead loyal to you for the last two years #now also imagine how all of this goes when you dont have that golden retriever and you're kind of dead inside #thats how you get a vengeance arc honestly #honestly his crush on solas is pathetic and he will never make that move and also the game literally locked him out of it #so instead he's just going to dedicate ten years to trying to stop him and gentleparent him out of a potential apocalypse #and then maybe probably move to the woods

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kitchensinksurrealism · 2 months ago

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marvin the martian transition goals