#I'm not gonna upload it for a few more days bc i only posted my first phantom of the Paradise edit 2 days ago. so no need to rush

[parakeetpark]

I finished my second ever video edit (both are of the Phantom of The Paradise 1974 film) and I'm so extremely happy with how it turned out that I can't stop smiling :-)

[seeyoumondaydevi]

Sorry you've probably answered these a few times I haven't come across any info on reading some. Do you have any new prediction on S3 of NHIE? 🙂

Hii thanks for the ask :) I know I said I won't answer asks till 13th.. but I wanted to answer this lol. I don't have like actual proper theories I’m just trying to avoid coming up with theories about writers butchering Paxton's character for love triangle drama or Paxton and Devi's inevitable break up. There are so many things I want for the season that it clouds my prediction making abilities lol. Soo anyways.. The episode titles for season 3. Here.

Season 3 Episode 1:.. Been Slut Shamed

Table read links for those who haven't read it yet.

Season 3 Episode 2:.. Had My Own Troll This episode is obviously about the anonymous person DMing Devi. She probably constantly receives texts and images from this person, especially about her relationship with Paxton thus making her insecure. If the writers want drama, she won't go to Paxton about it.. she'll try to figure out who it is and what Paxton is "hiding". Eleanor and Fabiola are definitely a gonna help her, Aneesa I'm not sure. She'll probably go behind Paxton's back and this will all blow up.. it's gonna suck esp bc Paxton said he trusts her this time in 3x01 and Devi going behind his back again? Or if the writers don't want some messy drama, she'll directly go to Paxton about this troll.

Season 3 Episode 3:.. Had a Valentine Devi probably is still receiving the texts, but it's valentines day.. we hopefully get to see daxton go on a date and see the actual date. Also there is no way Mindy isn't not gonna make Ben x Aneesa and Daxton go on a date.. Ben and Devi probably banter or have a moment which makes Paxton and Aneesa feel awkward or uncomfortable. Darren (here) said the love triangle is gonna be "up down and all around and I promise you it is not going to be boring” So I think this episode is gonna have some of that love triangle drama.

Season 3 Episode 4:.. Made Someone Jealous So many possibilities for this one? Aneesa and Paxton being jealous or insecure about the "moment" Ben and Devi had at their double date, or Ben being jealous of Daxton, or the new kid Des.. both Ben and Paxton are jealous of him? bc Darren said he's like the Indian Paxton and another article mentioned Des is as smart as Devi but goes to a private school. Probably more love triangle or love square drama. Still from 3x04 👇🏾

Season 3 Episode 5:.. Been Ghosted Again so many possibilities. I feel like Devi was trying to play it off and not reply to the DMs she’s been receiving but in the previous ep she probably replied and the texts stopped all together.. like the anonymous person texting her just started ghosting her?  Ben could also be the one ghosting her. Or.. Paxton too.. so like there is this pic of s3 table read the cast had via zoom.. it wasn’t streamed but one of the writers had uploaded this pic and in that zoom meet/break room all the writers present, Darren and Poorna were the only cast members on the call, so like what if Paxton had another horrible encounter with Nalini similar to season 1 which scared him off?

Season 3 Episode 6:.. Had a Breakdown  I’ve read lot of posts and theories and it’s probably Ben’s POV episode.  It could also be Aneea’s POV-centric episode bc in s1 we had a Ben POV episode narrated by Andy but we also had Fab and Eleanor centric-ish eps.. McEnroe narrated those.. probably something similar? It could even be Devi having a full on breakdown, Devi has lost her shit a lot yes, but I don’t think we’ve seen her actually have a break down or acknowledge that she’s having one. It could even be Nalini having a breakdown who knows.

Season 3 Episode 7:..Cheated Bro don’t even get me started on this one. I just really hope it isn’t Devi cheating on her boyfriend.. again. Idk she probably cheated in a test or sum? But all we know is that Des is in the episode

Season 3 Episode 8:.. Hooked Up With My Boyfriend So look, my trust issues is telling me the ‘boyfriend’ is not Paxton.. Do I want it to be Paxton? Yes. But I won’t be surprised if it’s not Paxton. If it actually is Paxton I’d be surprised bc I thought Mindy would break them up in like 2 episodes.. 

Season 3 Episode 9: No title I know this episode doesn’t have a title, but I found a BTS pic here. You can also see few guys in suits? 

Season 3 Episode 10: No title  Again, no title but based on the BTS here. All we know is it’s something big, they wrapped in Malibu.. it could be prom but Poorna and Richa on set. It could be a family thing but Hanna(Shira) was on set too. Both Hanna(Shira) and Maitreyi(Devi) were getting glammed up soo.. 

[dazedhypen]

kinda important announcement?

hello everyone!!! i've been inactive lately though i doubt anyone noticed bc i only have a few mutuals here, i also doubt that anyone will see this as soon as i post it?

the past few weeks i've been busy with studying and all but when i had the time to take a break, i spent that time thinking of stuffs that is pretty much connected to me being on tumblr =͟͟͞͞(꒪ᗜ꒪ ‧̣̥̇)

i've been on tumblr for like less than a year and during that time, i sometimes feel uneasy in some way?? that feeling is not bc i'm guilty or sumn ofc but bc i feel like who i am/how i behave on this app is kinda different than how i am irl ++ i know that this doesn't seem to be a big deal but recently it feels like i'm forcing myself to behave in a certain way too much and it leads me to think that i'm tricking people with a whole different personality

it honestly bothers me so much like how i exaggerate everything ranging from my personality to the way i type(?),, i feel like i'm rlly overdoing it with my constant use of kaomojis and many other things ☹️ while what i've mentioned above is true, ofc the way i've behaved on this app isn't always forced nor is it always different than me irl but it's more like i'm trying too hard to be someone who i'm not???

another thing that has been bothering me lately is that i've been having writer's block and since i rlly rlly love to write, it bothers me that i can't bc i'm constantly focused on my studies 24/7 and even when i have the time do write i'd always be distracted by other things

as much as i love writing, the past few months the writer's block are really getting to me and all i wanna do is write but as i mentioned, i'm unable to do so (ಥ﹏ಥ) usually its bc idk how to start the fic or most of the time bc i worry that it won't turn out well

i try to motivate myself to finish everything by posting that i'll be uploading a new fic but in the end it doesn't work out ++ even if i have the fic prepared but i'll always go back to reading it and be bothered by the quality of it,, i'm currently trying to improve my vocabulary, grammars and writing skills so i could post again but i rlly don't think it's working and i hate going through my blog then seeing so many of me rambling here and there, it looks so cluttered and messy ://

as a result of this i became a little bit stressed especially with my studies also happening rn,, i feel like i decided this a little too rashly?? but then i've thinking abt this long enough to not be considered as acting too rashly

i'm announcing that i'm no longer gonna be active on this blog, based on how i'm feeling i wanna sort of start over again on my new blog @hypesahi (can't tag it yet lol but do comment if u still wanna be moots on my other blog <3) also i won't be deactivating(?) this blog bc i rlly like my username and i rlly don't wanna lose so many things from here :((

i think that's all i have to say?? have a nice day/night whoever sees this <33 i won't be tagging anyone bc i'm not sure who to tag,, soooo 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😭

[starsartattempts]

Apparently, my last try was in January, so basically a year ago. I would have sworn that it has only been a few months or so since my last draw-attempt, but I guess not. Though, of course, there was a drawing attempt in ~October, I simply did not post it here because it was a thing related to one of my own characters and that of another person, I only shared it with them basically. Maybe I'm gonna upload it some day, maybe not. I don't know. I'm not all that liking of it anyway - as usual. Anyway, here's a new drawing. Again one I'm not happy with, but at least it's one I can post without using many tags because it's an OC of mine.

4 versions, because I couldn't decide whether I liked it more without the sketch-lines in there or not, and because I'm not so certain on using a background or not. The background is taken from one of these various "free vector background" websites.

This is Lightning! She's a speedster-oc of mine (with a lot of inspiration from dc's own, but unrelated to their force bc I don't know a thing about that), and as you can see, she's doing a special job during the holidays! I've had the headcanon for a really long time that speedsters would totally do this during the holidays, to give something to children that might need it most or something, and now that I made this OC of mine "public" in some form, I had to make this an actual picture.

I drew her face twice, actually.

On the left you see the first face I drew. I was so utterly unhappy with it that I decided to try again, which I then did as you can see on the right pic, and while I'm still not happy with that, I did like it more than the first so it ended up being the one I used for the rest of the process.

For comparison, here's a picture of her face I did many many years ago.

I like this old pic a lot more than both of these new tries at her face. (She's wearing a proper speedster-outfit here, basically the outfit of KidFlash from the TT cartoon, which, doesn't really make all that perfect sense, but as explanation I can give that at the point of me drawing this one, she hadn't really been anything more than a female version of that KF. So yeah.) But well, what can I do? Outside of slowly stopping to believe in the whole "practice makes perfect" thing.

I'm just not gonna even start on the things I don't like, it doesn't quite feel like there's a point in doing that outside of talking myself down. And I'm already disappointed enough in myself in regards to drawing, enough so that I'm considering to just stop my tries at getting better with it, so I don't need the down-talk.

The red string you see just below her head? It's not a mistake, it's there on purpose, because her hat absolutely certainly has a around-the-head string to keep it attached when she's running.

Anyway, I hope you're having happy holidays or just a good time!

[littlespoonevan]

Not the Nonny you were talking to, but I am also from the old school and much prefer one shots over multi-chapters. It’s very easy for me to get knocked out of the story and it’s world-building whenever I have to wait for the next chapter and I have to claw my way back into focusing and remembering what’s happened so far. So I keep my AO3 on complete works only because it’s literally torture for me having to wait until a fic I KNOW is gonna be awesome is finished so I can fully appreciate it. But I don’t mind multi-chapter fics… as long as all the chapters are released at once. I feel like that would be a happy medium so everyone can move at their own pace.

yessss i get what you mean!!! that's also my reason for not reading wips as much because if there's a long time between uploads it can be difficult to remember what happened/get back into the flow of a story. whereas i definitely think it's possible to play around with the pacing more in a long oneshot???

tbh the reason i starts moving to posting multichapter fics originally was bc i'd posted a 30k oneshot in the skam fandom and got multiple comments asking for it to be turned into a multichapter instead (which was very jarring for me coming from the teen wolf fandom that lived for long oneshots lmao).

and idk why but i absolutely hate the idea of uploading all chapters of multichapter fic at once aksdjfhdajskhf i 100% take your point that it's a happy medium!!!!! and you're right!!!! but i think for me it's either gotta be a multichapter uploaded on consecutive days (or a few days apart) or else it's gotta be one big 20-30k chapter and that's it, y'know??

idk i'll see where i'm at at the weekend! thank you, anon 💖

[papirouge]

Papi, I need your wisdom. Lately, I've been checking some channels that stream games and for some reason I've been really wanting to do the same on Youtube. Truth to be told, it seems sort of fun, and it's not like talking while you play a videogame it's too difficult. I guess I'd like to do something different in my life, even if its something small like this, and I'd like to try Youtube and get comments and engagement.

I do admit though, that another thing that I find compeling it's that you can also win money. Like if you open a patreon or through ad revenue, you could monetize your content. It'd be nice to have some money for myself aside from my usual job.

The thing is, I don't know if it'd be worth it at the end. i really don't want to show my face, I'm pretty shy and with all of this ai porn it really scares me that something like that could happen to me. But it seems that for a lot of female streamers, showing your face and how you look in general its part of the appeal. I don't know if I could get a following only because I talk about stuff while playing games without revealing who i am.

I feel like I could get somewhat popular because I'd be filling a niche that's not really very popular in my language, which is retro games. But I don't know how well received a female gamer would be, like its not like gamers are the kindest of demographics, lets be honest.

I've also thought about playing those games that are aimed at girls, because that's also something that tends to get ignored, and if it is reviewed or played, its by a male gamer that makes fun of it. I think if I go for this, I could have a bigger female following, and perhaps other girls could feel more confident in also exploring these kind of endevours...

I'm gonna be honest, anon:

Gaming is a nest of scrotes, groomers, pedo, perverts and there's hardly a way for women to make a place for themselves if they don't A)whore themselves out OR are B)extremely good at what they're doing. And even when they dl, they still get sexualized.... Are you A or B ?

If A : sexualizing yourself online is a very slippery slope and you will inevitably end up regretting later (especially if you already have self awareness issues showing yourself online). Don't do it.

If B: if your skills are good enough, you might as well not show your face altogether. Plentiful of streamer are very lowkey with their face, and some HUGE walkthrough channels NEVER show their face. But you'd have to be EXTREMELY productive and regularly update. As a YouTuber wannabe, I can tell you that filming and editing is EXTREMELY time consuming and that you'll have to dedicate a lot of effort that won't necessarily translate into view/engagement.... That's a very long and one-sided effort that you'll have to provide before finally reaping the fruits of.

The only way to bypass this long process is finding a niche. Do something that might not be for everyone, but will stil attract a committed audience. Exactly like some Tumblr have a very limited amount of followers but who still engage a lot with their posts (it happens when most of their followers are friends or mutuals). For example I follow a male french YouTuber (which is quite exceptional bc male YouTuber feel like nails on a black board) but dude is committed to a very defined theme of video : Five Nights at Freddy's, Hollow Knight, The Binding of Isaac, Minecraft, One Piece and Berserk new chapter analysis. That's it. I like his channel because it feels like what YouTube early days : passionate, rough but authentic. His biggest video is a 2 hours analysis of Fnaf timeline (825k views, when he only has 32k followers) - that's how I knew his channel.

Dude hardly shows his face and I think covering a very limited range of games helps him stay focus and upload more frequently. I think if you want to start on YouTube, you should take a few pages of his book.

But making videos is marathon anon, I wouldn't advise it to you if you want short term results. You should really to it because you *like* making videos, not only what you *do* on video. Like yeah playing video games is cool but do you like talking for hours? Even when no one's watching? Maintain a regular updating schedule? etc etc

Filming is only 20% of the work. Editing is A LOT. ...unless you only want to do streaming? But it goes back to point B and how to detach yourself from the gazillion of other streamers. Tbh I'd recommend you to do something no one else can. That's why I decided to do YouTube/podcast imo In the long run I'd like to show more of my unhinged Christian side but also vulnerability (see my laster video talking about my hair issues). I'm just struggling to find a way that's not to weird or cringe bc video format is very demanding.

[euphoricfilter]

I would never have guessed that you consider Smut as one of your weaker points, bc for me it was really good while I was reading it, means that once you are more confident about it, Babe you'll kill it.

YES blowjobs are better when you are reading them than seeing them, but for me it applies to majority of things in sex lol. The pegging HAHA sorry it's something I have seen its usual on pet play.

But after reading that I'm excited to see you experiment with those new themes you talk about. The request sounds interesting Lmao, take your time tho, wouldn't want you to stress because of it. Gonna be stalking your page until then.

Also the title is perfect haha <3

i’m gonna cry, thank you 😭

writing in itself is still relatively new for me so there are definitely areas i can improve on. i ‘started’ this blog at the end of january this year (i’d had it for a while i just never uploaded) with DTIK and i literally uploaded the first chapter like a week after i wrote it and that’s where it all started and my experience is like the last 10 months. i had written in the past when i was like 13-14 but it will never see the light of day, it was very much the unrealistic, mafia bangtan but i was convinced to write an empowered woman that didn’t need men, which they don’t, but my writing was so crusty i can’t read it now without giggling. i have 60 something drafts of wattpad 😭 of crusty old fics.

i think the first time i wrote smut was 4 months ago? maybe? it could be 5, i know i was still in china at the time because i remember i’d said i wanted to add smut to the last chapter of TBAH but then i was like yeah idk how to write this in part 9 and then an anon was like “i think it’s time they fucked” and i was like yeah you’re probably right. and i remember sitting there thinking what the hell am i supposed to say, this is kinda awkward and i was stupid and thought an ot7 fic would be a good place to start. writing smut for 8 people is so freaking hard so i had to split it up into subunits 😭 and then i started writing “smut” in DTIK but they haven’t actually had sex yet so it doesn’t really count and then helping hands came along + rope bunny and that basically all my experience so i’m happy i seem to be good at it 😭

my skin crawls when a bj post comes up on my twitter, i scroll past them so quick THE NOISE I ACTUALLY HATE IT 😭 it’s so much better when you read it 😭 i’ve read some out-there smut, and i think ‘wait that’s kinda hot’ and then i think logically in real life what that would be like and i want to cry because it would be foul

don’t be sorry about the pegging 😋, it’s actually not something i’ve thought about putting in a fic before but also it reminds me of that rumor that prince william is into pegging so i can’t take it seriously

IM SO CLOSE TO FINEIHINF THE REQUEST. i’ve edited to main part, and it’s like 50/50 it’ll come out tonight if i could just hurry up and write the sexy lil smut scene but also i have ptsd from wattpad smut so i always try to make sure it’s nothing like that and there’s a decent amount of detail to fuel the reader’s imagination 😋

i always think about, what if someone stalks my page because recently i went through a few of my old posts and it’s kinda crusty ngl, the other day someone liked a post i made months and months and months ago that literally only had the tag of the au so only people that followed me at the time could see it and i was like oh someone liked that but they would have had to have scrolled so far down, i don’t post a shit ton on here but they would have been so deep into my page i wanted to cry because i can’t remember half the stuff i post and there’s definitely some dark stuff crawling in the depths of this blog but that au was cute so i’m glad they liked it 😭

while we’re on the topic of my writing weaknesses, titles. i’m so shit at naming my fics it’s awful 😭 i changed “open” like 3 times before it became that name because i cant name my fics for shit it’s so bad 😭

[hoshiyoshis]

Hey, its gonna be okay. There are lots of moments in life where our pasions just arent as intense as before or even disapear for a little while, but that doesnt mean you should feel bad/angered with your self over it. Try to give this a breake, focus on other things even if it is only a week or two, because the more you drawn onto this feeling the harder its gonna be on you.

Also, you dont need to apologise to people for following you, you are doing you best🌸💖

ive kinda left this one in my inbox all day bc i dont know what to really say to it, ig? like. obviously i want to start with the fact that i appreciate u took time out of ur day to say something nice to someone whos struggling bc it genuinely means a lot to me that u did that!!

idk take some ramblings of a struggling artist or w/e u wanna call me. 'depressed bitch' also works lmao

i guess i just... always feel like i'm not doing enough as a creator. like as a fan idc abt making content, but i like making things. i think just... stuff comes back around like darl+ing did, or like HOT did, and i just kinda watch everyone else make pretty much every single thing ever and i sit there and im like... well, what do i do? what can i do? everyone's always going to make things better than me to begin with.

it's not like drawing or writing where i'm the only person who can create a thing that way. its taking the exact same content as other people do and just... doing it, but always doing it worse because other people have done this enough times that it looks easy to them even though i know its not. some people probably have their stuff automated so that they can churn content out quickly.

i guess i'll always feel like... not good enough. and i think that's always where my passion dies out. and if i'm honest, i think i notice it the most in caratblr out of anything else. it always feels weirdly competitive. gif the mv first. make your sets for the new gose episode and get them posted as fast as you can but also make them look good. there's a new fancam? there will be gifsets already uploaded before you even view the first few seconds of it.

and it's not that i would ever ask another creator to slow down because if they're genuinely enjoying making their content then go for it? have fun? i just wish people consumed content better. if you aren't a "big name" then you aren't going to get notes. sometimes it feels like if you aren't a part of closed network that you aren't going to get anything either. or maybe people just... don't want to reblog things.

i don't know. i just notice it the most in caratblr compared to the other groups i made gifs for. i think that's honestly why i really prefer making content for groups like treasure or golcha? its just... more comfortable. i don't feel like i'm constantly competing with other people to produce something for them.

i make a gifset of hyunsuk and i feel at home with getting reblogs from my mutuals and seeing people be nice in the notes. i make that skz + red set and i see some ppl being super nice and calling it pretty/stunning or pointing out the way felix looks in one of the gifs.

which isnt to say caratblr isnt nice. i think abt the sweet tags i get usually from my mutuals, sometimes from ppl outside that circle, too. but idk, i just notice an imbalance more of reblogs to likes more often there. i compare myself to other creators who get hundreds of notes which is probably my own damn fault for comparing so much.

and i think that just... genuinely impacts my enjoyment of things. sometimes im like "oh maybe it'll be fun to gif the new mv haha" or something and then i remember oh, right, im not talented enough for that. other people are going to do it and do it better every single time so why should i try?

also lmao its just hard to be on tumblr in general when stuff like this happens. logic says "take a break for a few days" but i just... i dont want to. i like being here. i like interacting with my mutuals. i just know i'm going to sit there and feel fucking awful though if i try to scroll through my dash. and if i take a break for too long, then it feels like im falling even further behind. i already have to take a fucking extra semester to finish my schooling, i feel even more pathetic falling behind in a hobby that i actually like.

its stupid. sometimes i feel like i don't deserve to be here and to be a fan if i let so much stupid shit like that bother me. i know i don't have to create content to be a fan, but i just... i like doing it. its just hard to not lose all motivation again and wonder why i even bother being here and listening when i can't give them my all in return.

[heffrondriving]

the btr fandom has kinda been hibernating lately again methinks, but will that stop me from continuously screaming into this hellish void of a dumpster fire blog and posting yet more absolute brainrot rusher content no one tf asked for????? hell nAH

[loseeverythingloose]

30 Day Custom Weight Loss Challenge

DAY 3

1367 cal, 99 g carbs. (I'm quite exaggerating how much I eat, so don't be alarmed bc of 99 g, lol.)

Meditation Challenge: 5 breaths.

Completed. I felt like I couldn't fill my lungs again, I don't know why it's happening.

Thinspo Challenge: A picture of your thinspo. What features do you like about this person?

I was gonna upload pictures, but I realized the post would end up with tens of them. I have so many thinspos, so many people have amazing bodies, even people I know in real life are damn thinspos. There was no way I could choose only a few. Then, I remembered this GODDESS. Miss fucking Bo. What a body, what a face... What features do I NOT like about her? She looks unreal. Instead of pictures, I'm just gonna drop her insta right here: @_missbo

Writing Challenge: A memory.

When I first visited the grave of the person I got my name from, I cried like I never did before. I'm the type of person that looks at the mirror when they cry, I don't know why; to not feel alone, to see my worst, to pity myself... Each time I did it, I always found something, someone, fighting, angry, powerful, ready to get right back up. But, I remember exactly how it felt that day, and why it was different. I believe I'll always carry a piece of that moment with me, even if I forget it one day. I never felt as weak, as helpless, as small as I did in that moment. That thing, that person I saw in my eyes every time I cried was not there when I saw myself in the rainwater pooling on the ground. It was the moment I admitted I was born dead, everything around me was the ghosts of the past, and my body was a graveyard. It was the moment I realized I was just another puppet of history, nothing more than my ancestors who haunted my mind, and understood why I was so obsessed with leaving a legacy behind. It was complete submission and surrender to time, and to the fact that there is no such thing as self. I don't think I will ever feel something so surreal again.

Gratitude Challenge: My favorite part of the morning.

Look, I know this is the gratitude challenge, but I've had such a hard time sleeping and especially waking up these last couple of days that I have no idea what to say. OK, OK, lemme think. My favorite part of the morning is when it's still a bit dark and cold. The nature is awakening but people are still asleep. There is something so lonely, sad, yet peaceful about it. It feels like death a little, more than sleep itself does, but it's utterly serene. I love waking up early and studying or just reading with a cup of coffee, milk, or hot chocolate.

Song Challenge: A song(s) title with the name of a food.

I can't believe I listened to some of these when I was a child and had NO IDEA what they were about, lmao.

[maychorian]

Hey, so, i hope you're not bothered or annoyed by this, you can really just ignore me if you are... I just wanted to know if you could tell us about the future of yofa, bc I'm a shitty reader and too obsessed by your fic to sit and wait for the next chapter, although you're so amazing and super fast with the uploads. Like, is mcdaniels gonna play a role, or will tim have breakdowns or fights with the others, or anything else that would be okay to share? I'm really sorry for being like this

Ha, you're not annoying. I'm quite pleased to know that I have readers who are impatient for more, truly. The problem is that I don't really have answers for you, because I don't know. I've talked about this on my blog before, but I am very much a seat-of-the-pants kind of writer, or a gardener. I don't make outlines, because it's not fun for me to write like that. When I write a long, detailed outline, I lose all interest in actually writing the story, because it feels like I've already done it. It becomes work instead of play at that point, and fanfiction is very much my playtime.

I like to plant ideas and watch them grow, or dig the story up from the dirt of the subconscious like a big boulder (Stephen King's analogy for how he writes). One of my favorite writing quotes is about how writing a novel is like driving a car at night--you can only see as far as the headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way. I believe that's from E.L. Doctorow, and I don't know who that is, but I agree with that philosophy.

This has the downside of me having tons of WIPs that will probably never be finished, at least one in every fandom I've written more than a one-shot for. But the upside is that I have a lot of fun writing, and I go through the same emotional rollercoaster as my readers. I often feel compelled to keep writing because I want to know what happens next, just like you do.

That's also why I don't have an update schedule. That would require me to have, like, a backlog of chapters, or at least some idea of what's happening next. I tend to write a chapter over the course of three or four hours, give it a cursory reading for typos, and post it immediately. I usually only figure out what the next chapter is going to be about after cogitating on the last one I wrote for a few days. Right now, I'm thinking that the next chapter will be about Tim's friends visiting him at the manor, but I need to read more Young Justice before I feel comfortable writing Conner, Bart, and Cassie, so it might be a while before that chapter comes out. Or I could realize that something else needs to happen first, as has happened several times over the course of the story.

I do have...vague ideas about what might be up ahead in the future. Someday. Maybe. These ideas might or might not happen, or they might be in a different form by the time I get to them. I'll put them under a read more, just in case anyone wants to avoid even possible spoilers.

Edit: Frigging heck, tumblr won’t save the read more line. Whatever, if you don’t want to see possible spoilers, hit J on your keyboard now.

As for McDaniels, he will be returning to the story, but I'm not sure when. It might be at the end, as some sort of catharsis for Tim, or it might be in the middle as part of a plot complication. For now he's too much of a useful motivation for Tim to have anxiety and Jason to want to protect him, therefore keeping Jason in the picture when he might otherwise take off. The family and their allies will keep looking for him, and it's going to be a major frustration and source of friction that he's so hard to find. I definitely have a picture in my head of Tim going out in the city for the first time since the incident and thinking he sees McDaniels, then having an anxiety attack that Jason or someone else will have to comfort him through. That idea has been in my head since very early in the writing process, but who knows if it will happen.

Tim having breakdowns? Very probable. Fights? Maybe. Eventually he and Dick do need to work out the hurt between them. But Dick has promised to let Tim take the lead on that, so it will have to be on his terms, and I don't know when Tim will be ready for that conversation.

I have ideas about Damian. I'm thinking that Tim is going to be very bored, waiting for his body to heal enough that he can do things again. He can't even exercise until his ribs and knee heal up some, he can't swim with his casts, he can only type with one finger, and that kind of hurts...all he's going to be able to do for a while is sit around and watch TV or listen to Jason read to him, and that's going to get old, fast. So he might take an interest in Damian. Damian is puzzling, and Tim likes to solve puzzles. It remains to be seen whether or not Damian will appreciate the attention. Probably not.

But Damian's feelings are evolving, too. He hasn't been in prolonged contact with Tim...ever. And he has promised to be civil, as well. It's going to force them to find new ways to communicate, new ways to be around each other. Jason might also be helpful for bridging the gap there, since he spent time with the League and will probably understand Damian in a way no one else does.

Also, bored Tim results in Jason taking him on rides on his motorcycle. Great bonding. Tim likes to go fast.

Once the casts come off and the pins comes out, Tim's hands are going to be very weak and shaky. He's going to need a lot of therapy, and it's going to be frustrating and painful. Also: hand massages help. (Dick is also going to keep treating his back, trying to minimize the scarring from the whip marks. Because it really, really sucks for a teenage kid to have whip scars.) So they're all going to take turns massaging Tim's hands when they get cramped, and it's going to turn out that Damian is the best at it. Damian is going to be territorial about this, because it's something tangible he can do that is visibly helping, and as much of a brat as Damian is, he also has the heroic, helpful impulse as well. Once the dust settles and Damian and Tim are more like friends and brothers than they have been in the past, Damian will be just as protective of Tim as everyone else in this story. That's the end goal I have for them.

One thing that will happen relatively soon is Bruce enacting a Big Comfy Couch Protocol, or BCCP for short, in order to be a better dad to his children, all of whom have trauma of varying levels. When one of the kids is having a bad day, or feeling fragile, or suffering nightmares or flashbacks or what have you, or just needs their dad for whatever reason, all they have to do is tell Bruce that they need to activate BCCP, or BCC Protocol. Bruce will nod seriously, then set aside at least an hour in his schedule. And they will go sit together on a big comfy couch in a quiet room, just the two of them. It might involve cuddling, or talking, or just being together, whatever the kid needs. But it'll be just the two of them, no work, no books or movies, no distractions. Because Bruce needs to be very deliberate about connecting with and being there for his kids, and putting a structured protocol in place to make sure that happens is a very Batman thing to do.

Tim will probably drag Jason along for his BCCP time, because of the bodyguard thing. (And because Jason would never do it for himself, and Tim knows he needs it and is not even a tiny bit above manipulation to get his way or help other people.) Eventually they're all gonna like it, though.

And...that's pretty much it, so far. I think about this story a lot, so new ideas pop up and float away in my head all the time, but they're mostly about what's going to happen or might happen in the next chapter. Like, I imagined the conversation between Jason and Bruce going a bunch of different ways. Once I actually sat down and wrote it, though, it turned out differently than anything I'd come up with in my head before.

And that's why I like writing this way. It's always surprising. I let the characters go, and they do things I don't expect ninety percent of the time.