#I'm srs I need recognition for things I like

[frostbite-the-bat]

i hgoupe I'm The roller guy to yall

[neptunedivine]

my 2023 solar return observations

(tw: possible eating disorder mentions)

I was looking over my solar return chart yesterday and it made me very nervous. When I get nervous I feel better writing everything out. So that’s what I’m going to do :)

✨natal north node year✨ ✧ I turn my north node degree this year! My NN is Gemini 11H at 21° and in combination with everything else going on in my solar return, it does amp up the anxiety for me. I feel like I’m gonna be shoved into my destiny because I’ve been stalling for so long (well not stalling as avoiding, but not taking the leap(s) I need to out of fear).

8H stellium ✧ tbh I just wanted to address the obvious in all its glory before I tried to dissect it any further. Transformations feel like they’ll be a focal point this year, like heavily. But then again looking at the planets that make up this stellium (aside from Chiron), it doesn’t seem too bad? We’ll see.

Virgo rising at 3° + mercury as the chart ruler in Pisces 8H @ 29° ✧ I taste a lot of criticism in the air (mainly from myself but we’ll see). Some of this energy looks familiar because natally I have my mercury in Pisces in the 8H but @ 10°. Virgo is on my 3H cusp natally as well. Naturally knowing myself I feel like writing is going to be the focus for the year. Since my natal NN is also ruled by my chart ruler this year, I think I’m going to be pushed to really start making music this year. Especially since mercury is conjunct with my sun too. I think putting more time and dedication into it will change my life? (I’ve been viewing a lot of readings lately telling me that my passions and creativity will grant me great abundance so this could be in association) There could be an emphasis on me speaking my truth as well. Possible recognition as well with it being at 29°? It feels intense not only because it’s a fame degree but it’s the fate degree and conjunct with the Aries point.

Pisces sun 8H @ 28° ✧ I’m used to the placement but not in the 8H. With it being conjunct with my mercury I feel like this could be related to me shedding a bad mindset or patterns in my habits this year? (I feel like this pairs well with my Saturn placement which I’ll talk about later). As well as finding a trusted source to have deep conversations with (possibly a therapist) seems very likely for this year.

Aquarius Moon 6H @ 19° ✧ I think I will be very analytical and regulatory with my emotions and my feelings this year. Instead of feeling everything and questioning everything and feeling lost, especially with the possibility of a therapist, being able to dissect the reason for why I feel certain ways may happen. I also spiraled a lot in the past year so there could be a sense of grounding brought into the year.

Taurus Venus 9H @ 2° + + NN @ 4°+ Uranus @ 16° ✧ I don’t see myself traveling really? I could travel to somewhere beautiful, but since my natal venus is in 9H too this would be a continuation of my love for other cultures. A possible love interest from a different country or uni could be possible, but my guides know for sure that I’m not looking for that right now…right? Idk I’ve been very career driven for a few years now and I don’t see that changing. But who knows since my SR Uranus and NN are in the same house lol. Speaking of Uranus here, please for the love of God let this not play with my degree. I'm supposed to graduate next spring.

✧ I’m just now noticing how many feminine degrees there are that inspire creativity (Taurus (2°,14°,26°), Libra (7°,19°), and Cancer (4°, 16°,28°). Pretty cool. ✧

Gemini Mars 10H @ 26° ✧ Pairing drive (Mars) with curiosity (Gemini), this could relate to my passion and writing outside of the box of what is expected from me, or who I'd expect. (I have a list of talent that I really want to write for and I think about them when I write songs sometimes so that could be relevant). Or I could be just collaborating more? I’m not sure with the 8H stellium though. Oh! A drive to learn new things maybe? I’ve always wanted to get into production but with it being so white cis-male dominant it felt gatekeepy. But miraculously I have I think enough tools to figure out a good part of it independently.

Aries Jupiter 8H @ 16° ✧ I keep reading good things about this placement and I’m very excited about it. I could be receiving a large sum(s) of money this year (scholarships?). Also, this placement is not only conjunct with my natal venus but MC as well, so this energy could be amplified since having Venus/Jupiter in the 8H are very strong wealth indicators, but I could be gaining monetary abundance or just abundance in general towards my career somehow.

Pisces Saturn 6H @ 1° (tw: possible eating disorder mentions) ✧ I was watching a tiktok a few weeks ago about Saturn going into Pisces and what that could mean. They mentioned an end to things that relate to escapism, which makes sense since in modern astrology Pisces is ruled by Neptune, like overeating and procrastination. I feel like both of those topics would be covered in my life this year since the 6H rules over the physical body and health, but also the daily and routines. There could be a theme of cutting the bs and getting in control of my life in these areas. My Chiron natally is in the 6H so this has been a struggle I’ve been dealing with for a while. I don’t know if the "problem of Chiron” will be resolved but I think significant improvements could be made.

Pisces Neptune 7H @ 25° ✧ I don’t have the energy to be delusional in love this year please abeg. I have Neptune in the 7H but in Aquarius, so there’s an element of this that I’m used to. I could be continuing to manifest my dream partner? Because I do that every day when I listen to love songs and I really enjoy it. But a real person? In the flesh? Right now? Absolutely not, pass.

Capricorn Pluto 5H @ 29° ✧ I have my natal pluto in sag at 17° so I’m used to some of the energy but I think with it being Capricorn which rules over hard work and discipline rather than the freedom sag grants, I will take my passions seriously enough to make moves. Personally, I stress so much about making music and my skills and being really talented and getting everything right but I don’t do anything. I just sit in my charged obsessive energy. But hopefully, I’ll make the right moves this year. Recognition worthy? Possibly with how much 29° is popping up in my chart.

Taurus MC @ 29° ✧ The idea of getting recognition for my passion and my work feels very daunting for me because I don’t feel ready at all. I'm very perfectionistic with my passion. I'm so adamant about making it my career and being very well-known for it. I get very nervous about f*cking up. Regardless I don't think this year cares I might be shoved into the position to be seen, maybe not at its height because I glanced at my SR for the next two years and they feel like extensions of this year, like in acts.

that's all for now. see you later! :)

[saintsenara]

Classic: Harmony; Drarry.

A bit niche: James/Sirius; Regulus/Barty Jr.

Tastefully deranged: Voldemort/Barty Jr.; Lily/Bellatrix.

Deranged: Barty Sr./Winky.

Crack: Drapple.

ok, well this is the game that keeps on giving... thank you, anon!

hermione granger/harry potter

i'm afraid to say that i've never read a single piece of harmony all the way through.

i just never see it working unless the characters are changed beyond recognition. harry's conflict-avoidance versus hermione's love of debate is a recipe for disaster, and while i absolutely don't go in for the common anti-harmony argument that harry doesn't like spending time with hermione, it's certainly true that he doesn't pay a huge amount of attention to her and her interests in canon.

all of which is to say, there's a huge potential for drama here, which i would really like, but most harmony is in the vein of "tee hee, ron is so ugly and stupid, harmony is smart and perfect, come darling let us solve world hunger".

and that's not for me.

draco malfoy/harry potter

i fuck with drarry providing draco is the more feral of the two.

i've seen lots of drarry with harry being basically bewitched by draco and... no. draco "i'm keeping tabs on how many times you go to the hospital wing and constantly trying to get your attention from the slytherin table" malfoy is down bad and up to no good. he is not suave and cool.

harry's just there.

sirius black/james potter

canon.

regulus black/barty crouch jr.

i've mentioned a lot that i hate fanon regulus. well i hate fanon barty even more, since he actually has a canon personality.

that is to say, if they're both sweet woobies who didn't realise they'd joined a terrorist organisation, and just wish they could leave the death eaters and teach the world to sing, it's a hard no from me.

if they're both deranged aspiring war criminals with daddy issues, sign me up.

barty crouch jr./lord voldemort

i'm incredibly into it, and will one day publish the wip i have with this very pairing.

lily evans/bellatrix lestrange

i don't love it as a concept, largely because lily has enough drama queens in her life with snape, james, and sirius. she needs someone whose idea of fun isn't running around shrieking and committing murder.

plus, imagine the awkwardness of being lord voldemort's love rival. it couldn't be me.

barty crouch sr./winky

don't have sex with your slaves.

draco malfoy/apple

the apple - a crisp granny smith, since smith is a pureblood name [descended from hufflepuff, don't you know] - is the purest thing draco has ever encountered.

they're a match made in heaven.

[michygranger23]

LOOKING FOR PEOPLE TO HELP ME WRITE A POS! DISCDUO STORY FOR A COMIC!!

Hello there!!

I'm looking for people who are interested on helping me with finishing a story I'm working on that it will be turned into a comic.

This will be about a positive discduo zombie story. It will focus mainly in these two and how the two of them start off as just simply allies to survive and achieve their personal goals in the apocalypse, and as the plot continues, they start developing a deep bond that forms into a strong brotherly connection and care for each other deeply (platonic only obviously/srs/lh)

I want to include as many people in the story as I can. Karmaland, DSMP, some members of the QSMP perhaps, Hermitcraft or the Life Series/Empires members, other streamers like Sykunno, Corpse, Sylvee, etc.

The story will be based around the characters and not the CC's because that's what any fanfic/comic writer does lol (And also to respect boundaries of the CC's obviously, I love them all sm and I don't want to break those rules/srs/lh)

Mainly I'm looking for people that are willingly to help me make the skeleton's plot of the story (I've already established some worldbulding and ideas I want to do but I need help with connecting those things with each other to make sense, and how to incorporate them into a plot that is really good to read), and pretty much any idea you think it would fit well with the AU. I will put the names of all the people that helps me in the credits of each part of the comic to put the recognition they deserve.

This is a project I want to make for fun so it wouldn't be something you would get paid for and I don't want to force anyone to participate if they don't want to. Mainly it can help with writers that could be in a writing block and this could help them get out of it. /lh

If you're interested please send me a DM through here on Tumblr or Instagram so we can talk and send you the ideas I already have. You can also leave a note in this post as well. Or if you know anyone who would be interested on this share it with them or reblog this to your blog please.

Have a nice morning/evening/night everyone!! 💖💖💖

[figureskatingcece]

2023 GPF Thoughts - Sr Women

kaori sakamoto (jpn) is the best female figure skater in the world. full stop. i love her SO GODDAMN MUCH. (see icon.) her power, her jump height, her expression, her strength, her flow, her surety on the ice... i could go on and on. and her lauryn hill free skate. GAWD. i love. absolutely stunning, 10/10, no notes (other than the 3f turnout). 1 SP / 1 FS / 1

loena hendrickx (bel) is an icon, and i love how unapologetically herself she is. and those JUMPS. they're so big, and when she's on, they're SO solid. she has some of the best spins in the field too, but i mean, what did you expect from jorick hendrickx's sister. another powerful, strong, sure skater. i've loved watching her over the years, and i am SO HAPPY that she's finally getting the recognition she deserves. 2 SP / 4 FS / 2

*side note: it pleases me to no end that the top two female skaters in the world right now are skaters whose styles lean power/strength heavy and who do their own thing. i was so sick of the onslaught of one-note delicate, balletic programs that did nothing for the skaters.

hana yoshida (jpn) had a great free skate (the speed of her 3a!!!) and redeemed herself from her mess of a short, but to me it looks like her coaches are trying to mold her into kaori 2.0. and it's not working. let her find her own style, her own way of skating, her own preference for music. she has a more graceful and delicate way of skating, and the continued use of ultra powerful, beats-heavy music is not doing her any good. 4 SP / 2 FS / 3

nina pinzarrone (bel) still reads like a junior. a strong junior, to be sure, but a junior. i give her major credit for having consistency throughout gp events and qualifying for the gpf, because that's HUGE, but... i'm not seeing the quality i would normally expect for senior women. she's got fun programs and a heapload of talent, for sure, and i can't wait to watch her develop over the next few years. 3 SP / 5 FS / 4

isabeau levito (usa) redeemed her terrible short program with a clean free skate, and i'm so glad she was able to do so. i was worried, since she's still so young, and this was her first major world-level competition, but she pulled it out! i've watched her come up through us figure skating for some time now, and while her technique and skating style is not my favorite, i can appreciate her hard work and the dedication she has for the sport. her free skate is ten times better than her short anyway, so i'm interested to see what happens at us nationals for her. 6 SP / 3 FS / 5

rion sumiyoshi (jpn) unfortunately has the combined problems of nina and hana. she reads like a strong junior skater, and her programs do not match her style of skating. i feel she needs something a bit more lyrical, instead of the heavy music she has. again, i appreciate her consistency during gp events and getting a spot in the final, but i don't feel that she's fully up to the level of senior skaters. 5 SP / 6 FS / 6

**another side note: whoever they had doing english language commentating on the streams was.... interesting. they kept saying kaori's lutz was on the wrong edge when it wasn't (and the tech panel didn't call it). and they were super repetitive when talking about components, like someone had given them the isu communications and said 'here say these phrases minimum three times'. weird.

[redvanillabee]

okay this seems to be a topic of debate so whats your thoughts on Jack Thompson and siblings? To me he’s either an only child or giving major middle child vibes

Oh anon this is a hard question. I have seen so many versions and there are so many good takes, even I go back and forth between versions.

I will say, one thing that might tell us his sibling situation is first taking a step back and examining what Jack's home life might have been like. So let's start there. From the clues the show gives us, it wouldn't be a stretch to say that the Thompson household is one where the parents have high expectations but are emotionally distant. Judging by the way Jack acts around Peggy, I would also add that it is probably a family where gender roles are quite strictly enforced.

From the way we see Jack yearns for approval and recognition, it is possible that his father has very high expectations of his son(s). However, I don't think he was necessarily overshadowed by better and brighter siblings. The way Jack acts suggests he wants recognition, not attention. He wants his hard work and achievements to be approved, rather than just wanting someone significant to look at him.

(Which would make the Navy Cross that much more of a burden—it is the ultimate recognition, gallantry in battle, but he got it not because of actual courage or hard work or any achievement; they pinned it on him for a war crime.)

(Which would also explain why Vernon got to him more easily than Peggy or Daniel. Peggy 'I know my own value' Carter does not need someone to tell her she's awesome. Daniel does not see himself as a hero worthy of a medal. Meanwhile, to Jack, Vernon is a person with power who recognises and compliments his work at the SSR, which is something he seems to take some degree of pride in.)

Would he have been an only child? I'm really not sure. Historically it does not seem particularly likely that he would be an only child, but that's a really thin argument. He does have a bit of an obnoxious sibling kind of vibe, so...yea, I don't think he was an only child.

It matters less to me where he stands in the sibling order, than what his relationship with them is like. Which leads me to my current headcanon: that he is potentially the only boy in the family, or maybe (in his father's eyes) the only upstanding boy. I can see maybe he has a sister or two, but they are raised very separately—going to different, single-sex schools, maybe boarding schools even, so they develop very separate social circles and know nothing about each other. That might also explain why he is the way he is to Peggy.

Or maybe even, he does have an older brother who in one way or another became indisposed to fulfil whatever grand plans Thompson Sr. has outlined for his heir. Maybe said older brother got seriously ill/died young. Maybe he outright refuses to play along to his dad's plans and did something that the family finds 'untoward'—became an artist; moved away from their hometown/America to somewhere the parents don't like; is gay and got discovered by the parents, etc. And so Jack, the younger son, is suddenly thrust into the line of succession and has to bear the brunt of his father's expectations. That might explain why he simultaneously feels like an only child and a younger sibling.

(There are honestly so many ways to spin what his relationship with his siblings might be like, I think that is worthy of a lot of exploration.)

[transgenderbenders]

i'm FTM and my mother is a transmedicalist + thinks that you have to have SRS and be on hormones for her to treat you as whatever gender and i have explained how this is a bad point of view and she just does not care, she's insanely left wing otherwise and she does not care, i do not want to get on hormones until after i have a few kids with my partner and she says she won't treat me as a male until i "don't have any 'girl parts' left" in my body. i do not want a hysto or bottom surgery!

Hello Anon, and thanks for writing.

Family is tough. Most people grow up hearing “I support you. I care about you,” and that makes it difficult for us when we transition and challenge those statements.

I will be responding under the assumption that you are living apart from your mother, if this is not the case, please let us know and we will address it further.

There have been multiple studies that have confirmed that familial support during and after transition reduces the risk of self-harm and suicide. In my life, I think this was the turning point for my mother. She learned that I had a plan for suicide, were I to think it was necessary, and I think she made the decision that she would rather have a transgender daughter than a dead son. I wanted to protect my mother from that reality, that things were THAT serious, but in the end all I was doing was hurting our relationship.

Reducing the amount of time spent in contact unsupportive family is another option. If family can’t respect you as a human being, worthy of both dignity and respect, then they are undeserving of your presence. A familial relationship is just like any other relationship: when it becomes toxic, we need to make the decision to abandon ship or repair the boat. Repairs can ONLY happen if both sides are willing to work toward a resolution.

Legally change your name. It may seem like a minor thing, a piece of paper, but it carries with it the authority and recognition of the government. If you are dead-named, you will have the power to say that it is LITERALLY not your name. Many people are raised with a respect for the authority of the government, and this may help with your validation.

Your mother seems to be more concerned with the physical aspects of gender identity, rather than the psychological aspects; putting this into perspective might help. A cisgender woman with PCOS who has undergone a complete hysterectomy and bilateral mastectomy is still a woman by virtue of her identity, not her physical aspects. Sadly, due to the Caitlyn Jenners and Christine Jorgensens of the world, people view transition as a checklist rather than something that is not only deeply personal but intuitive.

You ARE valid as a man simply because you ARE a man.

Thank you again for the message.

~Ami

[laetermichelle]

Hi! I'm a Christian and I do not want to leave the faith at all. But I've spent my whole life around very conservative people who tell me sex outside of wedlock is evil and wrong, and many having done that myself, I am immoral. Everyone I know has either left the faith to embrace sexuality or vice versa. I don't want to leave either one, but I'm wondering how it's possible to stay in the faith and be sex positive. It's something I've struggled with for a very long time. Thank you in advance.

Hi! I'm really glad you reached out to me, because this is something I struggled with myself for a long time and I was one of those people who decided to leave the faith (which turned out to be temporary) because I was so tired of being made to feel immoral, ashamed and like I was a bad person because of my sexuality. I don't know if you like to read, but if you do I strongly recommend reading "Damaged Goods: New Perspectives on Christian Purity" by Dianna Anderson (I've included a link to the book on Amazon below - hopefully it works). This book literally changed my life and everything I thought about Christian sexuality. It's what enabled my sexuality and my faith to coexist. Also, it has a strong theological perspective and Anderson explores what the Bible says about sexuality, which I am ill-equipped to do since I've never properly studied the Bible for myself. https://www.amazon.com/Damaged-Goods-Perspectives-Christian-Purity/dp/1455577391/ref=sr_1_7?ie=UTF8&qid=1483849219&sr=8-7&keywords=damaged+goodsSo that's the first step I recommend when it comes to tackling this issue. The second step is to know that sexuality - to feel sexual desire and to engage in sexual activity - is completely normal and natural. There is not something wrong with you for feeling sexual desire nor is there something wrong with you if you want to engage in sexual activity. I don't know if you're male or female (or other), but women in particular aren't 'expected' to have much sexual desire and so we can be made to feel as though we're abnormal if we do. That's a myth disproven by both reality and science. Women's sex drives are often on par with that of men's. And beyond that, I don't believe it is the right of anyone to judge anyone else and determine them to be immoral due to their lifestyle. How arrogant is it for some Christians to assume that their lifestyle is the only correct lifestyle! How arrogant it is for them to take the place of God and decide they know the best way for us to believe and live, when they are not God, nor us and have not lived our lives. That's why, personally, the way I reconcile my sexuality with my faith is through personal conviction. I will live out my life as I see fit and only change the things I feel convicted by God to change. Not convicted by the church, or other Christians. Only God. I believe this conviction can come in many forms - through consequences of certain unwise actions, through prayer, through the Bible. Though I'll be the first to admit that I consider the Bible a bit of a mess, one I can't make heads or tails of. Nor do I think I will be able to make heads or tails of it unless I learn to study it properly instead of reading it like any run-of-the-mill self-help book. So I live more through a process of prayer and trial and error. Because believe it or not, making mistakes is also a very normal part of life. We Christians can be so caught up in striving for perfection that mistakes become this big deal, when they're actually an opportunity to learn and grow. I also believe that there is nothing inherently wrong or evil about sex, and engaging in it before marriage doesn't suddenly make it those things. I think engaging in sex (and when I say 'sex' I include all activities before and including penetration) before marriage or outside a committed, convanental relationship can be unwise. But then, I also believe that depends on the person. Sometimes engaging in it before marriage (and by 'marriage'I refer to the moment you sign a piece of paper) can be very wise. Ultimately, I think it's a very individual thing that depends on who a person is and what works best for them in their life. And as I wrote earlier, I don't think it's for fellow Christians (including pastors, mentors and leaders) to determine what the best way of living or believing is for anyone other than themselves - therefore, they don't get to decide when or if sex before marriage is or isn't a 'bad' thing. I believe those people are there to advise, not dictate. Advice is optional. What a pastor preaches from a pulpit isn't law, it's a suggestion. Anyway, if there is nothing inherently evil about sex, why would engaging in it before marriage be seen as one of the worst 'sins' a person could commit? Why would that person then be a dirty, immoral sinner? It's been the tradition of the church to fixate on sexuality as an indicator of morality and Godliness - but I believe that's more cultural than spiritual. You're probably confused right now, because there's honestly so many different angles to this issue, so many ways it can be explored. Like, for example, what even is marriage? When is a couple married? When then make a commitment to each other? Do we really need a ceremony for that, or is that more of a personal decision? And why do we need governmental recognition for it to be legitimate? What constitutes sex? Is it the old 'everything but vaginal penetration' shtick? Then what about LGBT people? And why is vaginal penetration such a big deal? And why is more emphasis put on 'sexual sin' over other kinds? Why do other people get to tell us what is and isn't a sin in the first place? "Damaged Goods" answers all these questions and more. I honestly cannot recommend it enough. But what I really want to leave you with before you look up that book (please, please look it up) is:1) No one gets to determine whether you're immoral or not, for whatever reason. That can be a difficult thing to believe in Christianity's oft-collectivist culture, but it's true. No one but God is equipped to determine that, and don't believe the whole "God told me" stuff. Because humanity is fallible, so is our interpretation of God's word. I have too often been lead down the wrong path because of a fellow Christian's well-meaning but inaccurate interpretation of God's will for my life. No one gets to tell you how to live. You get to determine what is right and wrong for your own faith and life. 2) Sex and sexuality isn't inherently evil. And even if it was, shaming anyone for anything is wrong. Too often Christians try to coerce others into living how they see fit through shame and fear. That's straight-up emotional abuse and manipulation. 3) As far as a Biblical perspective on sexuality is concerned - refer to "Damaged Goods"! Anyway, this was a bit of a convoluted mess but I hope that, even if I didn't answer your question, I gave you some things to consider! It's a topic I'm very passionate about! Good luck with your journey on this matter, and I'm more than happy to discuss this topic anytime!