#I'm trying to be articulate but it is a struggle

[etherealiity]

interesting thought exercise but after the mock execution L says 'the kira I know wouldn't hesitate to kill even his own father' and knee-jerk reflex I was like, yes. but then I thought about it and was like, hm. would Light go so far as to kill his own father, his idol, his role model, in order to evade capture?

especially like, the Light Yagami before the six-year time skip. completely my opinion, but I do think Light even pre yotsuba arc wasn't the same Light post yotsuba arc. I think Kira and the depth of his emotions and morality radically changed after he regained his memories.

but even post time skip, Light does everything he can in order to avoid his father finding out he is Kira, and he doesn't actually deliver the killing blow.

and even L himself say, he can't rule out Light saw through the ruse. Light's emotional state in that moment is another conversation altogether but the long and short of it is he didn't have his memories, he was imprisoned for fifty days for crimes he didn't commit (to his knowledge at the time), and believed that his father and L were just going to do away with him without any shred of concrete evidence. would Kira have seen through the ruse? could Light have?

[dramarants]

i only want love triangles if it's whatever fucked up polygon junmo kicheol and euijeong have going on

[i-am-just-a-skeleton]

does anyone else live with such a constant paralyzing fear of Being Wrong that you avoid doing or saying things you're at all uncertain of even in situations where you know you've got something right or there's no reason to expect consequences from the people around you

[mamawasatesttube]

i like the name "supernova" for adult kon for a lot of reasons (stellar metaphors and imagery are just so good) but one of the chief ones is... something something the violently bright, explosive death of a star. the intent to die brilliantly. to go out with a bang. to never go gentle into that good night. ough kon you have issues <3

[junewild]

low-key a little distressed by that post that's going around like "what do you MEAN there are wild animals who live in proximity to people?? we keep ours in FENCED AREAS. america is like the hunger games" like. bestie no. that's your neighbor. the bears were here FIRST. let them live.

[netherese-blorb]

Gale, Karlach, and Feelings of Impending Doom

(cw: death, mental health, delusion)

So fun fact I have health-focused OCD that often manifests as touch aversion and delusions that I am dying/about to die. For uninteresting reasons, I've been in the middle of a pretty bad flare-up recently.

And I cannot stop thinking about Gale and Kalach.

Perfect examples of how fantasy and analogy can explain otherwise indescribable internal human experience.

Yes Karlach, it does feel like my body is running on a dying engine that could cut out at any minute. My skin does feel wrong and dangerous. It's not fair that the only place I can be truly safe is also my hell (isolation). I shouldn't have to go. I want to live.

She finds some form of treatment in Act 2 and, in all the ways that affect other people, she's fixed. Why would the rest matter? Why does everyone keep talking to me so gently? Why is it so hot in here?

Yes Gale, the specter of doom I carry has turned me into a shadow of my former self. The accommodations I compulsively seek to feel stable do feel like a costly sacrifice paid by those closest to me. I am also terrified of feeling too much joy, too much excitement, because I can't trust the tightness it puts in my chest.

He gets treatment in Act 2 as well. It's a miracle to have the ever-present swirling maw inside go quiet, but the threat of destruction still lingers, even if it no longer feels inevitable. Everyone keeps telling him "You're not going to die". They can't promise him that, but he smiles and indulges their reassurances. He owes them that much. Without them, he never would have made it past Moonrise.

[moe-broey]

Like a whole other thing is when I have put Mani/Moe in situations where suicide as a topic is part of the punchline, I am so cautious about it, and there's always a greater intention behind it. Biggest thing is the characterization -- this is a part of its history. Moe's experiences inform a lot of its feelings, choices, even core personality. It's also a distinct characterization of Mani. A reflection of the past. Mani is more prone to becoming volatile and destructive. I have so much lore in my head I can never elaborate on LMFAOOO (SCRAMBLED. EGG). But that is the point/idea behind it, and I am always So Careful. I don't do anything without intent.

[ilgaksu]

anyway! if any other of my headcanons has become popular fanon since i last looked, now is your chance to be the funniest person possible this sunday and inform me. i'm going to go take a nap.

[speakeasier]

more lore coming your way!! part two electric boogaloooo.

-none of the gods in any sphere celebrate or really care for the idea of birthdays, as time has no real meaning to any of them. while the concept of celebrating when one is born is foreign and odd to them, quite a lot of them vividly remember and can recall the specific moment they were born or how they at least manage to came to be.

-with that being said, a lot of them are always down to celebrate a 'birthday' in the mortal realm for whatever reason. not everyone is a party-goer, obviously. but attending events with festivities is something most don't mind doing, no matter where it is or what it's for.

-i believe i've shared this more than once before. but zeus' main kids birth order consist of the following. a mix between all the elder girls of the muses, kharites, and themis' girls. athena, ares, 'aphrodite', hephaestus, artemis/apollo, hermes, 'eileithyia', 'enyo', dionysus, persephone, hebe.

-those in bold are claimed to be and are seen/accepted as children of zeus in an upfront glance for various reasons. but in truth, they do not really come from zeus in any way, and predate him as well.

-in the case of dite, despite the siblings having a feeling and have BEEN knowing for a very long time that she is far older than them and not really a spawn of zeus. it is an unspoken rule to casually point it out, especially in front of zeus or hera. despite knowing though, they do treat her and consider her a 'sibling'.

-dite actually doesn't mind if the kids or anyone bring up her age or her origins when it's just them. it's just that they tend not to mention it out of respect to her and to preserve the sanctity and that illusion of being one of zeus' precious daughters.

-hera (along with her siblings) know too, that dite didn't really come from zeus. but it is also an unspoken rule to really mention it for her as well. so she keeps the facade of being ignorant. 'accepting' the idea she is a daughter of zeus and dione.

-ares, heph, and hebe are the only real siblings that are from zeus and hera. those three can sense their kinship, but not with their 'sisters' of elei and enyo. though they are respectful in that they'll still say they are related even though they sense something with those two.

-in fact, none of zeus' kids really buy into the idea that elei and enyo are related to ares, heph, and hebe. ESPECIALLY the three sibs themselves. but they keep a silent mistrust on this even more because hera insists elei and enyo are her children. and zeus actually THINKS they're his with hera too. in contrast to dite in whom is more obvious she's not from zeus, and everyone is aware of that, including him.

-to put it simply. dite can hang and be respected and treated as a sib by zeus' kids. but elei and enyo have a vibe of, i don't really know you like that. y'all are like strangers.

-elei doesn't really try to hide her sketchiness as she's vague about things. enyo tries to hide it, but her nature makes her seem like a troll so it's hard to tell where she comes from.

[katya-goncharov]

i don't quite know how to articulate this, something that annoys me about the internet is that often it feels like the names of serious disorders and conditions seem to become more and more familiar and widely used until it's like they're these easy buzzwords that everyone just whips out to describe what they're feeling. and i don't know. i don't want to invalidate what anyone is feeling or going through, but sometimes it does feel like it kind of minimises the experiences of people who genuinely suffer those disorders on a serious level, and their ability to talk about them

[mari-animates]

That other person is insane and anti black your explanation was very easy and clear to understand I’m sure even for white ppl let alone other poc who aren’t black. They literally lied and said they were coming to you in good faith I’m sorry about that

Shoulda seen it coming, at least I'm articulate

[misscrazyfangirl321]

Adelle DeWitt and Paul Ballard know that they're in a narrative. Not necessarily that it's fictional, but they recognize tropes, themes, and motifs in their own lives and the stories playing out around them.

Echo/Caroline and Laurence Dominic, however, do not know that they're in a narrative. And so they refuse to engage in the tropes and cliches they encounter.

[shikai-the-storyteller]

One of the biggest problems with trying to do custom Figmas (and trust me, there are many) is that sometimes I'll get my hand on a really nice doll and I'll be like "Frick. I don't even like this series but this is too nice to Frankenstein for my project."

[castrovulcant]

hello :) sorry this is out of nowhere but as a classic who enjoyer: do you have an opinion on whether or not the very early "lost footage" episodes are worth watching? I find the powerpoint-y nature of them sort of hard to pay attention to but if it's especially worth it I will brave through it lol

Hi, Anon! I'm sorry, I know this was like a few weeks ago, I'm so forgetful.

It's worth a try, it's worth trying a few serials from both Doctors. I've tried, I find some of them hard to sit through because it's slides, sometimes I just have to listen to the voice overs and imagine it's an audioplay which is tricky because they weren't designed in that format. After a while, I just read through the transcripts instead.

[bataranqs]

what if you are a beautiful person and i love you. what then. will you not accept this love? will you take away this joy of delighting in your presence? how long are you going to say you aren’t someone beautiful?

[rubysparx]

Honestly I don't think I'm qualified to make this post, I just don't know if I can make coherent enough words man. But the thoughts are in there and I will try to articulate them. This is probably going to be mostly images though. anyway yeah KABRU POST.

A couple nights ago (at approximately 2:30am, lasting a little over half an hour) I had a bit of a moment about Kabru. That, too, was mostly images- most of what you see in this more concise post were presented then as well. I think my main points of the "moment" were about Kabru's trauma + self hatred, his autism and/or general otherness, and also a little labru if you'd like..

I think something easy to start with is I wanna point out Kabru's constant back and forth and conflicting opinions of demihumans and how, I believe, thats a reflection of how he goes back and forth on what he believes his purpose of living is- and the general worth of his own life. I've said it before and i've just kinda shown it in images; Kabru is "i think im a monster and it disgusts me" where Laios is "I know im a human and it disgusts me" (i could go more into the latter on another post)

the above are both from the world bible, with the left being from the section on kobolds and the right being from the section on Kuro specifically. Utaya was very near to the desert where most of the kobold population is, this is likely why Kabru is able to speak Kuro's language- he grew up around demihumans. (chapter 48 cover, kobold chapter in the world bible) I won't try to speak for how his mother or the rest of utaya felt about the kobolds but I can say that Kabru was very much othered as a child, as was his mother, purely for the way her son's (kabru) eyes looked.

I feel like its fair enough to say that both kabru and the kobolds were othered, and possibly for similar reasons (villager's seeing them as nonhuman, as monsters) and the fact that Kabru learned their language probably didn't help his case. I think his perception of kobolds (and all demihumans, subsequently himself, as he probably still views himself as nonhuman or not human enough.. deep down) was damaged by the Utaya incident. at 2:30am when I first started this ramble my main comment was that "had the utaya incident not happened kabru would have little reason to feel ashamed for his connection to monsters. and may have ended up similar to laios in that he couldve had otherkin swag" which is just a sort of silly way of saying Kabru could've learned to love the thought that he is possibly nonhuman or at least not hated himself so much for it.

in the original ramble I said, and quote, "he has been STALKING laios. laios is his hyperfixation to learn how he can ever be loved. he keeps going back and forth so harshly on wether or not he wants to kill Laios and he clearly sees his survival from utaya not as an unfortunate trauma [*] but as a necessary, deserved fate. a punishment for his mother's witchy sins, and for his sin of being non-human. to atone for it all, to apologize for being alive, he tries to better the lives of all humanity. He was set on his way to dethrone the governor of the island . do you understand? im going insane" *i also said somethings about the way he processes other people's traumas and not his own. He's able to understand and even help some people, but he struggles to process his own issues and see himself as worthy of love and life.

^some examples of Kabru being understanding of or helping others who have suffered greatly. I think its also worth mentioning that with Rin (called "Lynn" in that translation) he says "I wish there was a way to get her out of this" though he's insisted and pushed for himself to go into a dungeon;

In chapter 94, Mithrun says "The desire I had left wasn't revenge. All I wanted.. was for it to finish devouring me." and I don't feel like it's a stretch to say Kabru was in a similar situation. Mithrun sought out the demon with no plan on how to kill something like that because deep down he wanted it to end his (Mithrun's) own life, to finish the trauma it caused and kill him. I think Kabru went into the dungeon in part with the hopes that it'd kill him. That the same thing that destroyed Utaya and caused him so much trauma would just.. finish him.

I just think Kabru is a beautifully complex character, I have a lotta thoughts on him and I don't see nearly as many analysis posts for him than I do Laios (despite labru being such a popular ship)

there is no tldr for this post idk how to summarize it. do what you will with this collection of images. have fun. go crazy

fun fact the woman in the bottom left corner is his mother, she is labeled here as "witch"