#Ive been waiting weeeks for this

[4arconinoma]

Im excited because tomorrow Im going to go to a botanical garden aaand i might might Might see TARANTULAS there... for the first proper time in my Life!!

[astranne]

Dropping in to drop some Diluc brainrot because ive been analyzing his character recently

If you dont mind of course goddess

Diluc is canonically the pretty boy of Mond right? Donna(derogatory)

Imagine what he was like after he became a knight? A calvary captain at that. He made his father proud and such i can imagine there was a celebration because he was, not only the youngest captain but Crepus's son. :(

Imagine how happy he was to get his vision and learn to wield fire of a pheonix imagine his joy when he was possibly training/sparing, so determined he felt in that moment for the gods to bless him with the ability to wield pyro.

Now, imagine his pain when Kaeya told him and broke that and he had to use his pheonix against his own brother, the person who sparred with him and the person who he trusted, the brother in both arms and (sort of) blood. The brother who betrayed him.

Now the actual brainrot! :D

Diluc travelling across Teyvat? Hc he knows most languages and mostly well versed in Russian Snezhnayan.

Hes most likely warm because, not only his vision but his body had to keep warm during harsh snowstorms in Snez.

I imagine hes littered with scars, burns on his hands from the delusion, a few scratches from wolf whelps, maybe a few harsh wounds that ache from that night, that night when his brother stabbed him in his back-

I like to think he can stay up for a few weeeks at a time, not because constant coffee in his DNA but because his time travelling, hes in a network. Of course he has enemies. Enemies will attack you when you sleep.

After a few months of him being back Addie probably tied him down to make him sleep.

"Master Diluc you can't drinking coffee-" as hes pouring hus 7th cup of pure caffine.

Elzer probably faints at the sight of that man drinking an entire pot of coffee in seconds. His staff fears him for the wrong reason. His sleep schedule consists on 2 hours on a good day, a nap is 7 minutes at most. Oh my god its worse when hes working.

Kaeya?

Tavern nights pray for him. Kaeya purposely messes with him, probably knows hes annoying and bothers him but Kaeya the younger brother ofc.

Kaeya and Diluc moments consist of Diluc being annoyed and Kaeya egging him on. Its worse with Venti.

"Diluc please don't kill Venti."

"I dont care if hes our archon if he doesnt stop ill wring his neck out-" and Rosaria/Jean is the one that keeps them sane. Jean is the only reason Diluc hasnt ran away and Venti is alive with barely any sense. (Fanon Venti at least).

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BRAINROT FROM FISCHL ANON HELL YES OMFG AND IT'S DILUC sorry you had to wait a bit, i've been staring at this asks for a long time and my mind went brrr and i had to write this on my phone since my laptop pulled a tomo.

no because- how did you read my mind??? i didn't post it yet, but this has been sitting in my drafts for sure 2 weeks or more

how did you know?? but yes, FIRE OF A PHOENIX!!

calvary captain!diluc? yes please. 🙏🏻

yk these really big and strong horses, like tall TALL horses. his has red hide, just like his hair and a temperament… everyone fears that horse and you bet that horse is proud af. HE NAMES IT PHOENIX-

but yes, knight!diluc and he would do his job so much better than kaeya don’t tell him that. diluc is very dutiful and he will assist jean as good as he can, when grandmaster valka (i think that’s his name??) goes on the expedition (which- okay why and where?? i would like to know that and why the grandmaster and the elite knights didn’t come back when stormterror attacked mond. some knights they are-)

kaeya betrayed him? kaeya now bears burns across his arms, chest and shoulders diluc‘s fire burns hot, his flames blazing and burning everything in their path kaeya is rather bitter about that, but learns to live with it

traveler!diluc yes please. his trusty horse phoenix is naturally part of his travels and somehow, riding through all that snow and where ever he goes, makes his horse even stronger. this horse is a beast, i tell you. a freaking beast

diluc has burns, but he knows how to treat them, he needs to know after all he has a pyro vision. he has scars from a pack of wolves and even a bear, ugly scars which he had to cauterize with shaking hands.

he still has that delusion with him, never knowing when it’s time to go all out

insomniac!diluc. like, yes. feel that.

but insomniac!diluc together with coffee addict!diluc?? oh dear- when adeline takes away his coffee, he will just chunk down tea (some of them have even more caffeine than coffee) people do fear him, oh yes, but they also fear his sharp tongue when he didn’t get his daily unholy dosis of caffeine. they fear him for many reasons, some of then are just ridiculous

also yes. diluc is this close murdering both venti and kaeya. he doesn’t have time for their stupid shit, he already looses two precious hours to sleep everyday.

also,,, if we pair that up- jean and diluc. both of them come from respectable and noble families and even if said nobles don’t have much power, they still do arranged marriages. you bet jean and diluc marry each other, just to keep other nobles from their necks.

do they love each other? yeah, but probably not romantically. diluc is too tired for feelings like that and jean too busy. but they make a nice couple 😌

klee is definitely their child

jean and diluc are THE power couple of mondstadt and jean is also… a bit more respected? considering she’s lady ragnvindr and not only the acting grandmaster of the knights. women are totally jealous but wouldn’t dare to do anything, since yeah- these two are the darlings of mondstadt.

also, the nobles would praise the couple for keeping their love life private, not knowing there isn’t even a love life 😆

kaeya definitely teases them tho-

anyways, fischl anon thank you so much for sending this brainrot!! i had a blast writing this <3 my askbox is always open for more brainrots

[jediwayne]

ive been saving the last two eps of percy jackson and my phone broke 😭so i aint see the twt discourse lol out a commission for a weeek like ugh. but i got it back but now i wanna wait for the next ep since its so close. i can have a good hour b4 for the finale

[seravph]

I'm so fucking psyched out of my mind im Gonna show my lady friends les mis today over Netflix party IM SO EXCITEDDDDD

[halogen2]

life/writing update!!

IM GOING ON SUBMISSION NEXT WEEEK!! for those that dont know that basically means that my current novel is going out to editors with the hopes of being picked up by a publishing house, and if im lucky it means that soon i should be able to announce the book soon-ish. ive been so excited and nervous to go on sub with ATOB for a year now, bc when i first signed with my agent we were kind of viewing that draft id given to him as what we would put out to editors, but then we realized it needed more work so now here i am, a little over a year later, hoping to go on sub the first week of august ... ugh im so excited and happy but im also so so nervous lol. but ! this is a good thing. i feel so good abt the draft of my novel im at. 

i know its a while off but i absolutely cant wait until this book is out in the world and ppl can read about this trans boy building community and falling in love and discovering his sexuality and allowing himself to be in ways he hadn’t before ahhhhhhhhhh

[chubbyooo]

Blurred Lines Chapter 21 - Resemblances

Chapter 21 switches over to Terri as we catch up with their venture into another temple (I know there’s a lot of jumping around at the mo but due to the timeline it’s kinda needed)

Terri and Lusari investigate another temple and have a scary experience (it’s a long one boys)

A chuttering sound came from the speeder as Terri began to park it, it was slightly worrying maybe she should check it out later. Terri had some mechanical skill so maybe she could fix it. Lusari had arrived next to her and began parking, her hair was messy and full of small sticks and leaves, Terri wasn’t that surprised with the length of Lusi’s hair things were bound to get caught in it. She promptly grabbed her satchel and picked out a hair brush, Terri tried to hold in a smirk as Lusari tried her best to a least tame her hair. 

As she finished she spoke up “ok we got everything for the ritual” Terri checked her many small bags and pouches for her adventuring gear and sure enough she was kitted out and totally rad.

“cool adventuring gear check, super good flashlight check, awesome lightsaber check, you?” she did think the adventure was super cool, she had always dreamed of being like the adventurers in the archives of the sith academy, she was very pleased to be doing it in a less evil way.

Lusari began riffling through her satchel “let’s see ritual components double check, emergency defences check aaaand one very cool holocron check” Lusari displayed her holocron for a second before returning it to the bag. It was cube shaped with triangular corners, the thing was much bigger than most holocrons she had seen but glowing just as sinisterly with a red hue. Apparently it was stuck that way which made sense considering it’s content, still that’s what they were here for to right that wrong. 

Terri snapped out of her accidental daydream and responded to Lusari “alright let’s get to it then” she was trying to be more confident in herself and the mission after the talk with Lusi last night, she was hoping it helped.

Lusari nodded in agreement and they headed towards the temple. From what they knew this temple was buried in the side of a mountain but it’s entrance was still out in the open and from their scans the interior was still somewhat intact. As they made their way to the cliff edge they very quickly spotted the overgrown temple entrance sticking prominently out of the rock face it was covered in moss and vines and looked more like a cave than a temple. It looked very dark in there and as they moved closer they could hear echos resonating throughout the temple. 

“woah that’s freaky” Lusari said seeming a little uneasy

“yeah we should stick close together, stay in my light” Terri turned on her flashlight and Lusari moved in close 

“thanks Terr I’ll be right next to you the whole way” she took Terri’s hand and they began to go into the darkness. Terri was a little scared admittedly but she thought anyone would be, this place was spooky. As they moved further into the temple they could see cobwebs lined most of the walls and a huge amount of dust was caught in the ray of Terri’s flashlight, the dust levels were so high they were making the back of Terri’s mouth tickle. Every now and again they could see a little bit of rubble crumble off the side of the walls, this place would probably collapse within a few months. Terri could also hear a faint dripping sound echoing through the halls, must be water nearby.

Lusari suddenly spoke up “hey Terr do you know the way to the main chamber” Terri was confused the other one had been pretty clear

“no is it different to the last one” Lusi had looked at the maps and planned out most of this ritual, she was the smart one but Terri was defiantly the cool one after her fight with the commander.

“yeah this place is a Labyrinth but I totally solved it, it wasn’t even that well made” Lusi sounded a little mad, Terri knew that Lusi loved solving puzzles and she knew even better how she got mad when she saw a bad puzzle, this defiantly matched that tone.

“do you know the way then? are we lost?” Terri didn’t realise they could get lost in this creepy temple otherwise she would’ve been much more careful

“yeah no I’m fine just checking you knew” good thing too she would’ve just gone in a straight line forever

As Lusari began to lead they heard a creepy echoed voice chuckle. Immediately Terri’s hair all stood on end and she started to tremble, she began to turn around looking for the voice

“u-um Lu-lusi d-did y-you here that” Terri thought about igniting her lightsaber but didn’t want to draw attention to herself, it wouldn’t exactly be covert

“ye-yeah u-um what was that?” oh no Lusi didn’t know what it was that was really bad 

“I don’t know um is it the Lady?” seemed unlikely but maybe it was a test

they were both looking around anxiously in the space “n-no she ca-can’t talk while con-contained” Terri kinda already knew that but she didn’t want to believe it was something else

“let’s uh let’s walk back to back y-you know for safety” Terri would feel better if they covered all their bases

“uh huh sure” Lusari backed up to were Terri was and she passed over the flashlight. They began to walk forwards carefully looking around for the source of the noise, Terri was facing backwards and could see little of were they came from without the flashlight but she swore she could see a small glow of blue coming from the end of the corridor. They continued down a few more passageways until they reached a door, Lusari stopped and Terri accidentally bumped into her back letting out a little surprised shriek.

“sorry, there’s a door here I need to concentrate” Terri nodded awkwardly and began surveying the chamber to avoid the embarrassment. She looked around the room for a bit before she found a average size moveable piece in the wall, It seemed too simple to be rubble and it may mean there’s a mechanism behind it. She closed her eyes and used the force to move the rock but then she suddenly felt a force knock her to the ground, what was that? it felt like a bunch of pipes maybe it was a mechanism. She reopened her eyes to see a Kaleesh skull starring at her, she cried out as she quickly moved the skeleton of her.

“ah oh my god oh my god oh my goood there’s a creepy dead Kaleesh here” Terri’s heart was racing, she had never been so frightened in her life but more than that she was confused; Kaleesh weren’t exactly native to Yavin IV so this was not random. Not only that but there still looked to be meat on his bones, but this place was abandoned it didn’t add up. As she looked up though she did see a lever in the hole so at least her wimpy moment wasn’t for nothing. She pulled the lever and as she did she saw that Lusi was still deep in concentration, the door began to lift and she opened her eyes.

“see I just needed a little time” she said with a smile, whaaat this was Terri not her she better not take credit. Terri gestured intensely to the lever “oh... right well um nice job” Lusi seemed a little disappointed but Terri felt it was more important to get out of this horror movie waiting to happen. They continued through the corridors eventually reaching the main chamber where Lusi began unpacking her things on the similar tablet in the chamber.

Terri took a defensive position as Lusari set up the ritual but as they prepared they heard the same echoed voice “hmhuhuhuh two little sith flies falling riiiight into my trap” Terri looked around for the source of the voice igniting her lightsaber for extra intimidation factor. 

Lusari looked at Terri concerned but they had a job to do “Lusi get on with the ritual I can hold off whatever this is” she wasn’t really sure of that but she had to be brave and trust in their plan “show yourself” Terri shouted into the chamber as Lusari sat down to begin the ritual, she was protected like that Terri wasn’t sure how.

As her shout echoed around the chamber a blue etherial form materialised in front of her. It was a Male Togruta with a snarl covering his face, his teeth were like fangs and he was covered in some form bone armour. Terri was immediately scared of him what was this guy? an ancient warrior? a crazed zealot? whatever he was he seemed loco

“well well another fool has entered my abode ohohohohoo I’m going to enjoy skinning you” oh no no thank you no skinning, Terri began moving backwards as he talked, what was she supposed to do he was a ghost she couldn't exactly hurt him. Could he hurt her?

her hands shook as she said “stay back I-I know how to use this thing” she was actually pretty good with a lightsaber and probably could take this guy if he was a real person

But in response the ghostly figure just chuckled spitting as he did “go on then I’m dying to see this” Terri tried a proper stab but it just went straight through him, in response he began to laugh in a booming voice

Terri had to regain the upper hand Lusi was counting on her to stall “yeah but you can’t hurt me either right...you ghost” it was true right he could only use the force against her and she was good at blocking that.

“oh but my dear I won’t be doing the hurting” he began to whistle and as he did Terri could here a aggressive shuffling sound coming from the other end of the temple “you best be prepared my Varactyl haven’t eaten in weeeks” oh god oh god what did Terri do she had no idea how to stop this she was going to ruin everything. She could hear the Varactyl coming closer and closer soon they would be here then what would she do, she had no plan and they were counting on her

Suddenly then she heard a familiar echoed voice but this time in her head “Terri get the ghost close to me” close to her what does that mean? close to the holocron, best option she got right now

She quickly shuffled next to the holocron, how was she going to get him over “oh I see how it is not brave enough to fight me yourself, afraid you’ll lose” she could see a little twitch in his face, please say that worked she could hear the varactyls howls very close

he began to step forward “believe me missy nothing would make me happier than flaying the skin off of you myself but” he was getting closer, yes! thank the force, stupid monologuing sith so easy to trick “I’m afraid I’m otherwise impa-” as he was talking his words were almost drained away from him and suddenly his form was being pulled towards the holocron with a chilling energy. Oh my god the Lady is saving her she felt so honoured, she heard a snarling coming from behind her, oh no the varactyl she saw them enter the chamber ready to pounce. She was petrified she had no idea what to do she just closed her eyes and trusted the Lady had a plan. 

She could here the togruta screaming as she stood there unable to move “noooo, noooo you will never cage me I will destroy yo-” and then silence Terri could still hear the snarling though, she wasn’t brave enough she had really tried but now she had just froze. But then she heard them whimpering and as she opened her eyes they were running away.

“oh oh oh my god my Lady h-how did you do that” that was soooo coool Terri was sure she had messed it up but the Lady totally had a plan

The voice resonated inside her head once again “absorbing of a force ghost is defiantly a crude and dangerous way to achieve power but none the less effective” absorbing? so all his power now the lady’s? well at least it was with someone who would use it well

“you absorbed him? like all his power and personality wow you’re so powerful” Terri hadn’t talked to the Lady much before, that was more Lusi’s job but she was still very pleased to talk to her

“yes it’s actually not a very hard ritual but given to a naive young force user and it can lead to disastrous consequences for the individual trust me” she sounded so smart, Terri knew that the Lady was quite an old being but her understanding of the force was always so baffling 

“Thank you so much for saving me from the Varactyls I know you didn’t have to” Terri felt like she should at least thank her, she hoped it wasn’t rude

“nonsense Terri you’re important to the plan just like Lusari, you’ll realise your part eventually” whaaaat she did have a part to play? she thought she was just helping out, why hadn’t Lusi told her?

“oh um well thank you” Terri felt very giddy after all this praise

“I must return to the ritual I have been away from it too long, Lusari may be getting doubtful” Terri let her go without another word and sat on the wall  excitably replaying the events over in her mind. It was dangerous but also so cool not only fighting the commander but a force ghost, her friends would be so jealous. As she sat the room slowly began to glimmer with light, oh yeah she got to watch the ritual this time awesome. As the glimmers became clear she could see many different language symbols all lighting up with a glowing yellow light, as the ritual continued the glowing formed tendrils which branched together all leading into the holocron. The chamber then returned to the darkness it was once in and the room was silent.

Lusari stepped up and turned around “what did I miss” Terri smiled she was gonna be so jealous...

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

WHERE IS PART 16?!!!! IVE BEEN WAITING ALLLL WEEEK

I dunno? It’ll be up when it’s up.

[sleeepysugaa]

Yoo I'm beyond stressed rn

So basically yo girl about to on an anxiety filled ramble because oh my god I'm beyond stressed So basically ignore this if you don't care or if you love a dramatic mop related story buckle in boii it's gonna get intense So flash back to two months ago lil courtney was like yo I'm 19 on September 16th lets go to Amsterdam huzzah right sounds gr8~ Then the king of everything, fashion, kpop, hip hop you know whom I mean kwon jiyong ya boi G-DRAGON is like Yo wassup I'm going to Europe so I'm insta like boIII I MUST Ive only ever been to one other kpop gig and it was BAP in London now lemme tell you they sang bang x2 like 50 times Youngjae did some body rolls and yongguk poured water on his hair then shook it in my face it was pretty lit BUT lord knows the king would be like 109283029119 times more lit rip me He's going to London Birmingham aNd Amsterdam in September right I'm like oh boi my birth month I must go to on- wait Amsterdam I was gonna go there for my birthday anyway Even though I live like two hours away from Birmingham letS GO TO AMSTERDAM‼️ So yo girl ain't playin she goes all out getting the super silver VIP package thingy whatever that is done spent £354 like holy shit she didn't come to play (I promise I don't usually speak like this what has come over me I'm from The U.K. Tea and crumpets anyone?) Anyway so I tell my parents I'm like yeah the ticket cost £100 done fooled them omf but they like freaked out and are like that's so expensive omg I'm like lol if only you knew SO HERE WE ARe Two months later 3 WEEKS AND 2 DAYS TILL I LEAVE FOR DAM keep that in mind it's important information Now yo girl baby c don't get out the house much yknow so little did I know ya need passports to go to Amsterdam So my dad whom yes is coming to dam with me but no is not seeing gd was like imma check our passports He's humming merrily to himself as he looks and then he stops and is all O shit‼️‼️‼️ I'm instantly like🆘🆘🆘🆘🆘🆘 He like lol courtney your passport has expired I'm like hAahAhAAAhhhaA LoL INDEED FATHER SHAHAHIAW He's like don't worry we'll sort It out it'll all be fine Ofc I'm like ah yes ofc father I shall trust and leave it all to you *dashes into bedroom and begins googling shit asap* So apparently it takes three weeks to get a new passport THREE WEEKS REMEMBER I SAID ITS THREE WEEKS TILL THE SHOW yo girl over here constantly stressing bc I don't even have any info about the gig even tho every email and even the tickets are like "you'll get more info a week before the show" and I'm still stressedt about it So now I miGHT NOT EVEN GET IN THE CONTRY or whatever Amsterdam is I wasn't allowed to study geography lol So that brings us to do some math We leave the day before the concert for dam which leaves 3 weeks and 2 days however it's 11:30pm RN so we won't even be able to start getting my photos and shit till tomorrow which leaves 3 weeeks and a day literally might get my passport THE DAY before we leave I'm fine:) I'm not stressed:) All is well:) I stg Ive been hyping myself up for the past two months iVE HAD THE TICKETS FOR TWO MONTHS We booked the plane and the hotel tWO MONTHS AGO Why did we not check the passports two months ago And imagine if my dad hadn't checked the passports we would never have known I would never have been able to see GD I'm literally going to cry If anyone wants to offer some words of condolence for my loss of sanity or comfort me my inbox is open bc lord knows I ain't sleepin or eatin till I get his freaking passport Thnx for listening Yo girl Baby c

[the-small-one-to-rule-them-all]

Arospec Awareness Week

Sooo..... I haven’t been wanting to share a whole lot of my personal thoughts or anything on this blog, partially because none of it really feels signifigant enough. However, Ive had an eventful week this week and a lot of thought about Aromanticism and related subjects and I figured that this is important enough to share. This post will be kinda long so I’ll continue under the cut.

So as I mentioned this has been quite the week, but the coolest thing that happened this weeek is that I had not only the chance but also the bravery to come out to two of my best friends as Aromantic.

The first friend is a girl who is a year younger than me. We go to different schools but have stayed in touch over text and seen each other in person a few times since I graduated HS. She was the first person I came out to as Asexual and she was supper supportive of that. My coming out to her as Aromantic was rather spur of the moment. She asked me what was going on with me and I ended up sending her a text saying that it’s ASAW, “which is cool for me since im Aromantic. Wait, do you know what that is?” This text started a long, and somewhat one sided conversation where I was able to explain what being Aromantic is like for me and how I figure it out. We then went back to sending each other memes. I liked that even though it was kinda a serious conversation, it was comfortable and felt like it was no bigger of a deal than me telling her what Netflix show I was binge-watching the night before.

Now the second friend I came out to is a girl who is in several classes with me and I see every day. She is super kind and we have grown close this year. One class we have together is a psychology class. On Monday in that class we talked about the neuroscience behind how we as humans fall in love. When given a chance to talk about it after I mentioned that I hadn’t ever fallen in love before, so the way they explained romantic love in that video sounded really strange and, if I was being honest, unappealing. She then asked me if I think I will ever fall in love. My brain froze. My brain was shouting danger. I panicked. I told her that I don’t know and that i’m not looking for anyone right now. Which is true, but after I said that and I was able to get my brain moving again, I realised that I wanted to come out to her.The timing ended up being bad and I didnt get to tell her.

When I saw her in class the next day and we decided to go get dinner. on the way over,she started talking about this book she’s been reading that discusses how the purity and abstinence movement has been harmful, specifically for girls. I showed interest and as we sat to eat she asked me what my experience with such talks has been. I knew that there was no way to answer that question without coming out as not only aromantic but also asexual, so I just jumped in head first. I told her that I couldn’t answer without first explaining my orientations to her. What followed was a really good conversation.

My friend was so kind and accepting. She was, of course, curious, what psychology major wouldn’t be? She asked lots of questions and let me talk and ramble about different types of attraction and how romance centered our society tends to be and I even told her about how I had figured out that these terms fit me. At every step she was attentive and eager to learn more. I told her about ASAW and the Ace rings, and at one point I made the joke that according to Freud I don’t exist and we both ended up laughing.

I hear a lot of people voicing fear at coming out, and trust me, I get it, I was terrified. ButI think that’s why it’s important that we spread the positive stories around. Seeing all the positivity this week is what gave me the courage and the push I needed to finally come out. 

 Thank you for reading this far! I know it was long. I just  wanted to share some positivity with the community, thank you for giving me the words to understand myself and explain my experiences to others, it’s made a world of difference.