#Jesus Christ I am so sorry

[suenitos]

when almost everyone on that panel said george is never serious and can always make them laugh and dream is like actually ☝️ he’s always been serious when i need him to be and supports me. like we get it your the exception and he’s in love with you whateverrrrr

you have to be a special type of person completely in love with and devoted to another person to help them do their taxes when their country uses a completely different tax system than yours and publicly support them coming out when almost no one else did and move countries to be with them while intertwining that and their most major milestone of their career by far into a single event that can’t be separated and you don’t mind being somewhat not the main event for most people outside your audience hearing about it because everything that’s his is yours and be there as a quiet support to them behind the scenes for EVERYTHING every single controversy every single success every single second and consciously choose over and over to keep following them wherever they go because you trust them completely to the point of religion and you may not have believed in marriage but you believe in them and suddenly you’re sold on marriage and after so many years you feel like you can be completely vulnerable around them because they make you feel safe and you can tell them everything bad you did and they would still love you anyway and do everything in their power to help you figure it out because you’ve always done that and been there for them . like idk you wouldn’t do that for just about anyone even if they are your friends like that’s your person inside and out they deserve all sides of you in return even the most private serious sides of you you don’t show anyone else

[morgana-ren]

I’m so sorry that you got a migraine on Christmas of all days! Migraines are really the WORST. Whenever I get them I try and sleep them off and use a bag of ice cubes for the awful headache that comes afterwards. I hope you get well soon x

It went from being a Christmas Migraine to being a multi-day sleeping fest. There's a lot of socialization around the holidays and even though I am not technically religiously or even culturally Christian, it's still a gathering point for family due to all the time of off work and the symbolic meaning of it all.

My social battery drains quickly. Being out for a few hours can really, really wear on me. I have to be left alone most of the time or I end up socially and physically fatigued. I love seeing people (in spirit) but actually doing it is... different. I can't even go out to a restaurant without staring around, checking the clock meticulously, and waiting in agony for the moment someone does that post-dinner stretch like "Well, we should head home!" And there's a lot of that during the holidays. It's just very.. draining in a way that makes me feel bad, but my constitution doesn't really allow for it either. I get sick. I get tired. I sleep for days. I have to sit in a dark room and regain control or else I start to go a little mad.

I just opened up my laptop for the first time in days. Hopefully after new years, things will go back to normal and I'll be back on schedule. I'm so tired and MAN, my thoughts are all over the place. I have a billion ideas for things but actually typing them out is intense and rarely works as planned. Like my organizational skills are really plummeting.

I've gotten some great ideas over the last few days, and man, I wish I was capable of pumping out content like I used to. I used to be able to do like two pieces a day. Now I'm lucky to get out one a month. It's why I stick to analyzations unless otherwise specified or asked for (not that I don't love writing pieces, fyi, I really, really do and I'm so lucky to get the kinds of kind messages I do!) Anyway, thank you for the kind message! I ended up drinking a lot of water and sleeping for... a while lmao. I was a bit sick for a bit, but hey, it happens! Sleep and advil and Tylenol had me okay in the end! Hopefully, with any luck, recovery time over!~

[katabay]

PERCEVAL THE UNHAPPY, THE MISERABLE, THE UNFORTUNATE, THE FISHER KING!

Perceval, de Troyes (trans. Burton Raffel)

ALRIGHT alright. so previously I did an illustration that explained the premise of all this, that it's inspired by the narrative choices that Bresson made in his film Lancelot du Lac etc

to dive in more into it (because this is something like derivative fiction. I'm putting concepts into a blender and seeing what comes out of it): the setting is haunted by the previously existing narratives that started cannibalizing each other until it regurgitates itself into the more well known narrative beats, and something else about the invasive rot of christianity and empire mythmaking into settings. it's an intertextual haunting, if you will! and this scene takes place during the grail quest narrative, but the temptation of Perceval plays out differently.

in both Chretien (and Wolfram's) Perceval narratives, what 'wakes' Perceval up (in more ways than one. desire and self actualization in one go!) is seeing knights, something his mother tried hard to keep him from. so instead of the temptation of lust & etc in the Morte narrative taking the form of a lady, it takes the form of a knight. the temptation to renounce one's faith to serve something else remains.

so Perceval still stabs himself, but instead of continuing on the grail quest in the shadow of Galahad, he becomes the narrative's Fisher King because his earlier state of being as a the grail quest hero is creeping back into his marrow. it was waiting for an opening, and stabbing yourself in the thigh is one hell of a parallel!!!

that wound isn't going to heal buddy, and the state of the setting will now be reflected on your body. sure hope that Arthur hasn't like. corrupted the justice of the land or anything. that sure would suck for your overall health.

all the red in this sequence is because in de Troyes' Perceval, Perceval takes the armor of the Red Knight and becomes known as the Knight in Red.

and now for the citations, which I will try to order in a way that makes sense!

Seeing Knights For The First Time

Perceval, de Troyes (trans. Burton Raffel)

The Temptation of Perceval

Le Morte Darthur, Mallory (modernized by Baines)

The Fisher King, and Perceval The Unfortunate

Perceval, de Troyes (trans. Burton Raffel)

On Perceval and Gender, etc.

Clothes Make The Man: Parzival Dressed and Undressed, Michael D. Amey

On Wounds

Wounded Masculinity: Injury and Gender in Sir Thomas Malory's Le Morte Darthur, Kenneth Hodges

The Red Knight

Perceval, de Troyes (trans. Burton Raffel)

On Arthur and the Corruption of Justice

The Failure of Justice, the Failure of Arthur, L.K. Bedwell

[majosullivan]

Me after finishing ‘The Circus’: GOD do Blitzo and Stolas have terrible fathers. Don’t think we’re going to see any worse father figures in this show than them

Me after finishing ‘Exes and Oohs’:

[isabelleadjani]

pink 💖

[soullessjack]

what if we kissed in the Garden of Gethsemane after the last supper and I did not refuse your treacherous kiss which identified me to the police of Sanhedrin but instead I kissed you in return to show that I still love you and forgive you for betraying me and we were both boys

[puppyeared]

my stardew farmer ^_^ he doesnt have a green thumb for shit so he keeps animals and does mining

some tidbits i came up with while playing hehe

reclusive and doesnt really go out of his way to talk or visit people unless its an errand. but he also doesnt try to befriend others to get something out of it, so he has a very easygoing approach to making friends. on good terms with linus and sebastian since he runs into them most often.

if he respects or takes a liking to someone, he'll greet them with miss/mister (name). if you get close to him he starts using first name basis. if he doesn't like you, he'll refer to you by your title without using your name. only a few people have caught on to this.

the farm he inherited, Milky Way Farm, was the site of a meteorite crash and sometimes you can find shards of meteor debris littered around the farm (i picked the hilltop farm bc of this lol)

lost his sweater and pants a long ass time ago and doesnt have the time to look for them, so hes been working in his sleep clothes ever since

isnt actually grandpa's real heir to the farm... ;)

[valtsv]

I can't watch the terror because Mr Hickey just reminds me of my ex-boyfriend

you are experiencing the terror in a way few can hope to and frankly i don't think i want to

[hadopelagicpsi]

Dark Matter Parade !

This is why I haven't been answering asks, been busy drawing zero being tormented by an army of dark matter.

In order of left to right, top to bottom:

Sloe (@autumnleafdraws)

Dark Cubozoa (@quanblovk)

Ceno (@blackmagikmusic)

Mistle (@george228732)

Artemis (@isaackkkbunn)

Helios (@blackmagikmusic)

Master (@shippyo)

Matt (@shippyo)

Zero Suvir (@waddledoodledee)

Charlya (@thundermarisol)

Wisp (@moonsharks-ex)

Eyelise (@thatonepizzaman)

Aphelion (@hadopelagicpsi)

Shade Knight (@rosiegardenlove)

Dark Dreamer (@heiressofdoodles)

Doctor (@lostsoulau-ask)

Kizo (@boa35)

Lone Ranger (@what-is-love-babey-dont-hurt-me)

Noir (@desultory-novice)

[doodlebloo]

When you're just chilling and then like a wave of ice cold seawater dwarfing you entirely you think "Oh fuck, L'Manberg."

[cosmos-fudge]

(oh thank fuck my tumblr didnt break again. also my camera sucks and screwed the colors a bit)

happy TDOV and Easter from space jesus Drumbot Brian and Jesus

[zhongrin]

dick owners who are bodily able and living in an enviromentally capable conditions to flush toilets in a shared bathroom but don't,

fuck you 🖕🏻

[byfulcrums]

i cannot stop thinking about anissa and marky though [COMIC SPOILERS]

how did he react when he learned what his mother did? just like mark, he lived a lie. he thought his mother was kind and nice — the only thing that is true is that she loved him, but now, he has no idea if he should believe it

and. you've grown up being conditioned to believe that violence is peace, and that kindness is a lie and a weakness. you hurt people. by hurting a person, by destroying him irreparably, you found the boy you love most: your son. and you don't regret it. you hope one day, once he sees him, he'll get it. but you still don't regret it. you can't say you're sorry

marky will grow up without his biological father, because when mark hugs him he can only remember his mother and what she did to him. your father can't love you the way your mom did. you can't love your mother the way your father loved his

the worst part is, that it she hadn't done it, you wouldn't have existed. you wouldn't be here. your father will grow to love you. you will grow to accept each other. but you tend to wonder — if he never sees you as anything else other than your mother's son, then who will you have when everyone else you know dies?

[every-character-ever-poll]

SPECIAL POLL - JESUS from THE BIBLE

In honor of these asks, I said I would make my 1,000th post be Jesus from the Bible. With the Halloween posts, I've made almost 200 posts today and jumped way up and hit that already. So here is the special edition, one thousand (and first) post on this blog: Jesus.

PROPAGANDA:

(from the poll runner): I don't know. He has a whole book full of propaganda about him.

[alexanderpearce]

guys it was chill

[god-impeaching-dj]

Beloved 'tism haver who is stimming the stress away