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still rolling around on the ground over the contrast between Jack and Mal. it's so...🤌🤌🤌
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#sam's new year sale 2025#(sorry if i made any mistakes with the outfits! i did my best but they're SO detailed)#man. i always love these silly events but this one really is just. chef's kiss.#i need an entire shounen anime about kite fighting immediately#i know it's a real thing i just need the big dramatic anime about it#preferably with jack continuing to just be extremely annoyed at floyd about everything all the time#also brb shoving everything out of the way to focus on canon confirmation that malleus does fibercrafting#even if it's only spinning and nothing else i am SO delighted#i'm not sure how much kite-flying is actually similar to spinning but you know if it helps it helps#malleus: though you fought valiantly i have ultimately claimed victory by conquering your kite in battle#malleus: also behold! i have made you a sweater
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Learning to celebrate the little wins!
#fersona#While I don't have the capacity to do Hourly Comics Day#I did journal my day hour-by-hour and the sheer difference in my self-care and routines is *staggering*.#Honestly both Feb 1 2024 and 2025 were rough days...but this year I had a far better outlook on it all.#The funny part is that when I drew this a few days ago I actually *was* celebrating not crying.#Might have still cried on Feb 1st. A meagre 4 times. But I also had lot of good moments!#January is a very hard month for me and frankly I've been in a fugue state for most of it.#Drawing helped me pull through these last 2 years but this year I've been finding myself so upset at how I can't seem to focus anymore.#So updates and posts have been slow. I'm just slow. I'm tired and burnt out from work and grieving.#But you know what? The days I do manage to post; I'm never shamed for how long it took. You're all just as excited and kind.#I'm coming home and eating better and sleeping more and spending time with loved ones.#This is all to say; you can be a lot happier when you realize that life can be taken a little slower.#I'm more grateful that words can possibly convey.#If you related to the mindset of constantly feeling like you've 'failed' the day; please know you have done more than you realize.#I'm struggling with it everyday! I'm in the trenches with you!#Life is too short and painful to not celebrate what you *do* accomplish! It's hard work but it is worth it!#Bit by bit...we will learn to live. *Really* live. And enjoy it!
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I believe Bobby is coming back from the dead because I think we deserve to live in a world where Kenneth Choi gets to act his ass off by playing a simultaneously relieved/joyous and angry/furious Chimney, who feels like he has to thank Bobby, but also scream at him until his throat is sore because it wasn't fair to make that decision! he's going to say they should have played rock, paper, scissors and Bobby will chuckle because he thinks he's joking like silly haha Chimney, but Chimney is like "no, we should have discussed it, you died and I didn't even get to say thank you. you died and I owed you a debt I didn't even know about. you let me carry that" and he has to wrestle with the guilt of knowing that Bobby would do that for him, not just theoretically, but actual concrete proof that Bobby would die to save him. which they all know on some surface level that they'd die for one another, but it feels like such a far-off concept until it isn't. but Chimney also has to deal with the gratitude because Chimney is also so incredibly thankful that he didn't die. every step of the way he wanted Ravi, Bobby, Buck, and Athena to commit crimes, because he loves his life and he wants to keep living it. he's so overjoyed that he got to go home to his wife and kid, and that comes with its own guilt because how can he be so happy to be home when Bobby DIED. does that make him a monster? that on some level he's HAPPY that Bobby did that? and now he has to FACE Bobby. so he tries to be the Before Chimney who gets people whimsical gifts, but how do you give someone balloons about choosing your life over theirs? and he spirals because he's different now and Bobby is here and he has so so much he wants to say but all of it feels contradictory and unfair and he would normally go to Bobby for advice. so he does. he goes to Bobby and he says "what would you do, if you were in my position?" and Bobby just says "whatever you need to say or feel, I understand" and that just makes Chimney even more upset because what he needs is for none of this to have ever happened. its like they all got a re-do, but kept the memories and the feelings and now he has nowhere appropriate to put them. anyway, Bobby lives and we get Chimney angst yay <3 forever and ever.
#911 spoilers#911#bobby nash#Chimney Han#Because I think realistically Hen and Eddie will have the LEAST complicated emotions about a return#They'll just be like RELIEF JOY DISBELIEF CAN WE GET A HELL YEAH#Although I'm sure OFFSCREEN Eddie will have to explain to Chris like:#This is not a doppelganger this time this IS Bobby I know I'm sorry our lives are like this#Buck will be like “NO. I was SOOOO good I was THERE for THEM like you asked” and fully crash out from being so so so Buck Brave#and then no longer having The Task to focus on he's going to lose his damn mind being like I THOUGHT BOBBY WAS DEAD#Hen will just be like thank FUCK you are NOT allowed to die ever again#and then in my head Athena is like “okay bet. retire.”#you made us watch that shitty ass helicopter chase we are owed Kenny Choi getting real meaty scenes as penance#although imagine how fun it would be if like Bobby DOESN'T retire#he comes back after a bit and the team is like....so wary around him#They listen because he's their captain but they're also like is he saying this to get us away from him because he's hiding a mortal wound??#and Bobby is like “guys trust me” and they're like “oh yeah no for sure but also are you currently dying?”#and then the 118 goes to group therapy together#sorry I have the day off and this got away from me#the show that exists in my head and in my head only#I call this: some things are easier to say to a headstone
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unorthodox murder mystery
#zosan#one piece#roronoa zoro#sanji vinsmoke#fanart#okay so basically this concept is ok so basically#its a murder mystery where those who are murdered on the ship actually turn into VAMPIRES#but theyre like#guys. how the fuck do we not know who the vampire is#like what do you mean you are literally still alive after being 'killed' and somehow you dont remember who killed and turned you#zoro: well whatever. im still gonna be the greatest swordsman#sanji: right ok so hello FUCKFACE. DUMBASS. GREATEST SWORDSMAN THAT IS ONLY AVAILABLE DURING THE NIGHT OR WHAT–#sanji: CAN WE FOCUS ON THE FACT THAT WE JUST DIED THAT WE JUST CAME BACK TO LIFE THAT WE'RE IMMORTAL NOW. THAT I CANT TASTE THE FOOD I MAKE#zoro: wat dat gotta do wit me#sanji would be suchhhh a good vampire feeder but a terrible vampire I think#thats my opinion stop throwing rocks at me what the hell#anyway i dont actually know who the vampire on the crew woudl be#thats the mystery#its a mystery to the creaotr of the au as well obviously... or else whats the point.....
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Outlaws in the Wild East ⋆。°✩
(AKA, The Habanero origin comic!)
#undertale yellow#uty#uty au#lucky clover au#uty ocs#starlo uty#clover uty#ed uty#ace uty#mooch uty#moray uty#feisty five uty#the cowboy hat draws#Here it is.... the self indulgent comic establishing my UTY OCs#I never know what to put on the caption for these comics#These must be so confusing to stumble upon out of context if you don't follow me LOL#The little boar guy is a reference to Starlo's earliest design! The cactus guy is. Just a cactus guy LOL#And of course Habanero is my silly scrunkly I'm really glad people like him!#I tried to ride that line of showing that the Feisty 5 are capable when they need to be#Buuuut they're still goofy LARPers even when they're catching real thieves#Hopefully I didn't make Starlo come across too cool he's still a dork LMAO#The formatting is hell because I still cannot figure out how to format comics for Tumblr LOL oh well!#I forget everything I wanted to put in the tags on this post#Next comic will be more accessible and focus solely on the UTY characters I promise! This was more of an experimental comic
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happy wyllstarion wednesday! here's a short comic I drew for a server gift exchange 🤍❤️
#baldur's gate 3#wyllstarion#this was very fun to write/draw and I hope you can catch all of the like. subtleties I tried to put in the dialogue and expressions#also let me know if you need anything tagged?#needles cw#just in case but absolutely nothing graphic shown#f#also no one @ me if any of this is medically inaccurate there’s yaoi happening on screen. focus
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have you been keeping up with gozyuger? it's just... truly wild to watch
OKAY I'm finally caught up! and...wild is an understatement, huh! getting some real Donbros energy off of this one (in the best of ways though really) (just all kinds of super weird and super fun! 💍) (...also the blue ranger might have murdered a child?) (I mean probably not) (they wouldn't. but.) (what if)
I'm especially fond of Bouquet and Fire Candle, just because they encapsulate the two modes of my brain at any given moment
#art#super sentai#gozyuger#gif warning#gifs that will AVENGE CASSIUS FOR HE WAS THE BEST OF US warning#i was unsure at first based on a lot of the promo stuff but thankfully the show just immediately started throwing sausages around#now we're six episodes in and i'm already like...what can i even say about this. how do you expand upon such (mwah) chef's kiss#i don't know why 'supernaturally youthful-looking elderly man goes incognito as a high school student' is the hot new trope#but oh boy am i glad it is!#he hasn't even had a proper focus episode since his intro and i'm already pushing everyone else out of the way to get at him#(jk jk the others are also great) (hoeru is no. 1 in not knowing what the FUCK is going on at any given point and that's his true power)#god i love sentai#someone at toei said 'okay so our theme this year is rings'#'how do we want to interpret this'#so of course they decided on ALL OF THE POSSIBLE WAYS#we got jewelry! wrestling! random circles everywhere! EXTENSIVE wedding theming for the absolute heck of it!#also inexplicably street fighter WHY NOT#someday i hope to find something i can commit to with even a fraction of the strength as sentai commits to its bits
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This might seem like an "old man yells at cloud" situation, but it's just wild growing up and being told how dangerous distracted driving is - how, at highway speeds, you can traverse the length of a football field (100 yards, 91 meters) in a matter of seconds - how one split second sending a text while driving could result in a potential fatal crash, and then getting on the road as a driver and being surrounded by billboards. Their entire purpose is to catch one's attention, so they're lining major roads, which tend to be highways. How is it that you're told how important it is to never be distracted while driving, but still being advertised to?
At best, this type of advertising is an eyesore to pedestrians and motorists and a general waste of electricity to light it, and at worst, it is an active danger considering they are there to advertise and therefore, must catch people's attention.
I'm not even against advertising in theory, but this particular mode bothers me so much and I hate how pervasive it is - especially in large cities or highways.
#politics#i don't know much about são paulo banning marketing billboards but on paper i want that here in the USA#as a motorist it at best just makes me more anxious driving in those larger cities because i want to FOCUS ON THE ROAD#and passing 5000 billboards per mile isn't helping actually!#i've gotten good at filtering that out of my FOV but it's still fucking exhausting lol#i especially hate those modern electric billboards. despise them actually#i am aware that advertising is a critical aspect to business management in some cases...#...but it shouldn't risk the safety of the populous for you to advertise to them and i see things like billboards as risking safety...#...i feel similarly about online advertising in that so much of it risks internet user's safety...#...such as flashing ads online which risk triggering epileptic seizures in light/photo-sensitive folks#distracted driving (texting): NO >:( || distracted driving (being advertised to): YAYYYY :D#i've been driving on my own for a few years now and i've been thinking about this for ENTIRELY too long
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Someone hadta do it
@sneakend also has a scene like their fic Open Secrets
#not your dad#not the guy that killed your dad#just someone lmao#vinland saga#in the fic its funny cause it quickly devolves into bjorn defending askeladd 😂#before anyone tells me thorfinn didnt know shit when they found karli#i am aware. he didnt listen#prologue finn only had room in his cooked little brain for hatred and vengeance#and we love him for his focus#thorfinn#bjorn#askeladd#oh uh. if you dont get the euphemism- 'the birds and the bees' is 'the sex talk'
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okay. uh. here? have some gays for your pride month?
#i legitimately do not know where this came from#it's like actually a painting. why did I do this to myself#we know why#snuggling skk is best skk!!#this is the hill i will die on#bsd dazai#bsd fanart#bsd#bungo stray dogs#dazai osamu#bsd chuuya#chuuya nakahara#dazai fanart#osamu dazai#bsd skk#soukoku fanart#skk fanart#dazai x chuuya#dachuu#bsd soukoku#skk#bsd soukoku fanart#bsd nakahara chuuya#bsd nakahara#nakahara chūya#scheduled#but I did finish this today#I just refuse to post while I'm awake again. that was torture and I couldn't focus all day#anyways I'll check on this in the morning#love you all!
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I love libraries.
I'm browsing the WWI shelves (as you do) and notice a very old book about the war. I glance at the first pages that talk about how one day the war will be over and we'll look at this place and not see any signs of the battlefield.
Then it hits me. And I check the publishing date.
This book was printed before the war's end. Not written. Printed. The physical object was created in 1918, while the war in question was raging and the end was as yet uncertain.
Now I'm standing on the other side of the apocalypse, with this physical link to that era in my hands. I'm living proof that the war did end and life did go on and we can all look at the end of the world as a long-ago memory.
Reading old books is cool enough, connecting our minds and hearts through the ideas of people who lived long ago, but there's something extra profound about holding a copy of the book that comes from the time that it was written. It's a physical link between the past and the present connecting me to those long-ago people. A piece of the past come into the future that gives me the chance to almost take the hand of some long-ago reader, to hold something they could have held, connecting not just mentally but physically to their era, a moment of connection across more than a century.
Excuse me while I go weep.
#books#history is awesome#of course i checked it out#i had no real intent to read wwi non-fic but i couldn't just leave my new friend there it'd be lonely#i want to break out in tears every time i look at it#it's so stupid but sometimes something stupid just kicks you straight in the heart and you just gotta deal#it's old front line by john masefield#i know nothing about it except thinking the author's name sounded vaguely familiar#also the interior design is fantastic#these old books know how to use white space and make something super readable#if you must know i was in the wwi section because i was at the history museum the other day#and saw a local author had a book of wwi letters#thought i'd see if the library had it#looked at the selection of non-fic surrounding it and thought of the wwi persuasion#saw many books that could be useful#and thought 'oh no this looks like fun'#it won't go anywhere i know i won't be able to focus long enough to do real research#but darn if it wasn't an appealing little daydream
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Hello! When your Seb x Clora pregnancy one-shot is complete, will it be on ao3 or wattpad? (or both?)
waiting with bated breath btw
not pressuring a finish tho, take ur time Choccy 🥰
it'll be on both ao3 and wattpad!! and omg ik its taking long IM SORRRY, its bc its gonna be way longer than i expected LMAO, i just recently finished my outline and the outline ALONE is 41k words💀and im currently at 8.3k written😩🙏 IM GLAD YOU'RE LOOKING FORWARD TO IT THO🥹💖💖i defs hope to get it finished by this month or die trying...but heres a lil sneak peek in the meantime of impatient seb who cant wait to bring baby celeste into the world LMAO🤰👼
(seb is a freak but so is clora)
#that is the face of nervous excitement LMAOOO i see you clora i know what you are🫵🫵🫵🫵#my plan is to not go TOO in depth on the smut tho bc the main focus is other cute stuff....but also we'll see LOL#i dont want to blue ball ppl after the build up and just rush through it#im having so much fun with this oneshot tho its p goofy and just lighthearted#except for one scene..... 😊😊#ask#choccyart#this is also probs the last smut ill ever write cuz it takes me so long BAHAHA so if i do write another oneshot it just wont have smut#also i need it known that clora will finally be giving seb a proper bj in this oneshot LMFAO#brace for SO MUCH pregnancy art based off this fic tho BAHAH so many cute moments i already wanna draw from it LOL
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His ass is not working


#the outsiders#not new (to me) just thought I’d be funny - ask me about my photo collection#shoes still make me crazy why are you wearing office loafers 💀#which like I know people wore nicer shoes then. generally like today we wear primarily tennis shoes and that#was not normal even 20 years ago - like it’s kinda a big deal greasers usually only wear sneakers or boots like that’s a noticable thing#why is that my focus#soda picture 💕#outsiders#sodapop curtis#soda curtis#soda the outsiders
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Okay but it's super interesting how
Din = Power = Ganondorf
Naryu = Wisdom = Zelda
Farore = Courage = Link.
Because Din, in the hylian creation myth, created the physical world. Naryu then created the laws - gravity, time, etc. And Farore finally created life - plants and people.
Din created the body, naryu the mind, Farore the soul.
And the triforce and its wielders so perfectly reflect that.
Ganon is physical power, he is big and intimidating and he breaks things. He is cunning and determined, but that's not what he focuses on. He is might makes right.
Zelda is wisdom and cleverness. She is stall tactics and information and team work. She is a powerful mage with a spine of steel, but that's not how she'll win. She is the pen being mightier than the sword.
Link is courage and persistence. He is the wild card sneaking behind enemy ranks, always moving, plunging into terrifying situations head first. He's a phenomenal fighter with a keen wit, but that's not what will get him through his challenges. He is bravery not being the absence of fear but the triumph over it.
They sit in perfect parallels to each other.
And ganon is reborn through his body - his resurrection is immortality. No matter how low he is cast, as long as he has a body he can claw his way back. He can cling to his power, build it ever higher.
Zelda is reborn through the magic of her bloodline. It's the accumulated knowledge handed down for generations, the unique power she must master, the skills she must develop to survive and get her kingdom out the other side intact. Even her name, the knowledge of herself, is handed down from all the way from the very first. Her ancestors knowledge of her future presence, her stability, is what gives her the edge.
Link is reborn in spirit. He is not bound by flesh or blood. Just like his wanderlust soul he can reappear in any time or place. His variation, his unpredictability, is exactly how he fights. It's what makes him so hard to pin down.
Ganons need to build strength means he can't chase after link. Links impulsiveness means zelda can outwit him. Zeldas stationary predictability means she's an easy target for ganon.
But the other direction?
Fire melts ice, ice redirects lightning, lightning burns fire.
And that's the very essence of the triforce.
#It's little details spread across the games like this that just makes it work so WELL it's SO COOL#They're all great at all parts of the triforce but they CHOOSE to focus on the path most meaningful to them#And that's literally reflected in their unique cycles of reincarnation isn't that just AMAZING#And that's why the team up is so important! If they were all working against each other they'd be locked spinning their wheels#If zelda and ganon teamed up link would immediately die and if link and ganon teamed up zelda would instantly perish#It's the link zelda team up that means ganon is the one who kicks it#Also the elemental thing was cool but they do jump around a bit. Like wind is there half the time#In botk the gerudo have lightning and the goron have fire. Farosh still has lightning tho and dinraal fire#In ss lanaryu was the lightning and faron had water like its all over the place thematically. And that's when it's only 3!#Don't even get me started on the 5/7 lots notankyu#But that's the most common group and it's also thematically accurate#Fire being the only one able to self perpetuate with fuel. Can be banked up again. Ice compresses with time but needs the right environment#Lightning go boom 👍 you can feel the static in the air but you don't know when/where it'll strike and then it's all over#Like fr it's hilarious zelda and ganon are playing the long game and link runs past eats all the pieces and while ganons yelling after him#Zelda checkmates his king. And nobody can prove she wasn't cheating because nobody was looking lmao#Ah the duality of metaphors#ANYWAY isn't that so neat???#Reason no.372 why rhoam was a terrible king he didn't just screw up he did it ✨thematically✨#If link had been allowed to run off and get dirty and if zelda was allowed to study her interest (like post kingdom fall FOR EXAMPLE)#They'd have won (like aoc) but nooooooo. I've already made a post (or 3) about it lmao I'll be quiet now#loz#legend of zelda#botw#triforce#loz link#the legend of zelda#zelda#loz botw#ganondorf#loz ganon
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I think its so funny how little the deputy’s get in actual leader training. To be deputy truly just seems you get to make patrols all the time and then suddenly you become leader with zero prompting or training or anything
Like, Firestar has to go ask the elders on the ceremony to rename cats if i remember right. He didn’t get taught shit! No deputy gets taught shit! Like you’d think they’d have lessons for projecting their voice, on the wording to ceremonies, on diplomacy, on traditions. On how to do literally any leader job.
Its so funny to me how ill prepared every single deputy ever is. Like they gotta just be making shit up when they become leader honestly, who’s gonna call em out? Just making up random ceremonies that seem legit or plausible because no one actually taught them any ceremonies. Bluestar walks up sees an apprentice dying and just makes up some nonsense to give them a warrior name and no one can call them out on that not being a thing just two minutes ago. Leader with the smallest voice ever who has no clue how to project their voice in the slightest so it just sounds like muffled squeaking at the gathering. Its so funny, someone please give the deputies more to do that will actually help them be leaders.
#warrior cats#warriors#warrior cat#warrior#firestar#like you just know brambleclaw internalized nothing as deputy#hes too busy with everything ever to focus on passive memorizing
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This might be due to the fact that on my first playthrough I ended up creating a Rook more emotionally guarded than any of the companions except Minrathous-route Lucanis and perhaps Neve, so I was primed to look for it, but I never got the sense that the companions don’t care for Rook (the thought never even occurred to me until I saw other people post about it) — to me it seems much more like it’s Rook who keeps the last bit of distance, Rook who pulls away when the companions try to extend their care or worry too directly, who keeps themselves slightly apart. (Rook who is so full of grief they cannot know as grief and thus process that there’s no room inside them to let anything else all the way in, perhaps.) They deflect and flinch back when someone gets too close or approaches them too overtly about their feelings — especially when it brushes up against the theme of grief. They can offer care to all the companions who are grieving, come along to any number of funerals as emotional support, but the moment someone turns that towards them they shut that shit down Immediately, like when Taash almost gives the whole game away with ‘Like you’d know? You act like you haven’t lost anyone!’ and Rook just blandly responds ‘We’re talking about you’ and doesn’t engage. But they can also admit that they struggle with accepting compliments, or knowing what to say, or having confidence in themselves without Varric’s help.
Despite all their determination and even in their most stoic no-nonsense incarnation, Rook is awkward, with the struggles that entails. Someone who is eager and happy to be the helper wherever they can, and helplessly unequipped to know how to be the helpee, as it were. It’s not that the companions don’t return Rook’s attachment to them, there’s MUCH more of a ‘okay so what are the ways you will allow me to be good to you??’ desperation of care vibe behind all their invitations to conversations and hangouts together, to my mind. They bring Rook to their favourite places and share the things they love with them, they ask to spend time together (many times just to have their company, not because they have a problem they need help with! Sometimes the problem arises anyway b/c video game quest narrative of course), they bring them out for some direly needed grass touching, they introduce them to their families. Everyone is clearly getting the sense that Rook does Not want to talk about Varric especially (this is in fact what Harding says in banter, if she’s still alive after the reveal :’( ), but they are absolutely SCRAMBLING to find ways to show that they’re there for them even so. AND from the companions’ perspective, with the situation as they have the means to understand it, accepting that Rook isn’t ready to have that conversation and backing off is also a kind thing to do. (tl;dr: To Me Rook is that weirdly socialized friend who is a great hang once they’re actually there but you have to directly invite them or they don’t quite know how to initiate the contact themselves lol)
Just as a crushing sense of responsibility for their family is a trait that is built into Hawke no matter how you play them or how you make them respond to that, I feel like Rook — however helpful and earnest, warm, charming, jocular, stoic or straightforward they seem at a surface glance — is always someone who struggles deeply with connecting to themselves and other people. (Emotional Intimacy, the Final Frontier.) As, indeed, is the case with all of the Veilguard companions too! It’s clearly a deliberate theme. These are all lonely people struggling with their sense of identity and belonging in some sort of way. AND having, working on and eventually starting to overcome these difficulties also makes Rook a direct foil for Solas, who doesn’t learn that lesson unless you corner him at the end of the world to force feed him his medicine lmao. They don’t manage to break out of the regret prison under their own steam, it’s because even struggling and grieving they have managed to create mutual bonds with other people who show up for them in turn now — and with all the protective walls of denial around what happened to Varric crumbling and making them less of a stranger to themselves, Rook is finally able to let them. An outcome Solas seemingly didn’t even consider to guard against, because he’s become that deeply entrenched in his loneliness, the utter isolation of the self — he can no longer truly imagine an alternative. (It’s not that he can’t form these bonds, obviously, it’s that he resolutely refuses to value them. Whether it’s because he feels like he doesn’t deserve it or out of a need for control or the martyr complex where he must sacrifice everything he loves on the sacrificial pyre of fixing his mistakes, all of the above and more, the result is the same. Mind!Varric, who I think is mostly Solas speaking, even calls this out directly. So yet again a situation where he has some self awareness about it and it doesn’t help At All haha. Solas falls to the temptation of making people into tools again and again and again, no matter how many times it comes back to bite him in the ass and the eternal solitude it traps him in.)
And that deep deep loneliness… There but for the grace of… well the theological state of thedas being what it is right now, let’s just go with the grace of Something, Presumably go you as well, Rook. The same capacity/tendency to pull away from connection clearly lives in them as well in some form (again, for whatever reason and with whatever motivations and instincts behind it for any individual Rook). Solas and Rook coming together to create a blood magic paper doll of the mind Varric in response to acute loss and loneliness is one of the most deep , deeply fucked up and invasive acts of intimacy I’ve ever contemplated. I don’t think that’s accidental, there’s something There’s Something Wrong With You (there’s something wrong with you that’s also wrong with me (derogatory)) here that resonates no matter how both parties would hate to hear it. (A fitting legacy for Varric and his wild ‘I made my best friend into a story because it’s the only way I know how to love with this desperation of sincerity’ brain to leave in the narrative, methinks. I feel he’d appreciate it on a craft level, if nothing else.)
If you read through all of Rook’s potential backstories, one of the common threads through all of them, along with a certain maverick ‘I’ll do whatever it takes’ streak, is a sense of profound alienation. They did something or have some sort of quality that made it hard for them to fit in with the group they’re from, causing a conflict that cuts them off from parts of their identity as it’s been up until now. All of which also adds to how important Varric is to them — he was clearly able to break/see through some of that and be closer with them, even in the relatively short time they spent together. No matter what else goes to shit, they can trust that a) Varric sees them, b) he genuinely likes them and believes in them not despite who they are, but for it, and c) he’s got their back, we’re in this together kid. And then he is gone, and it takes them the whole game to be able to bring themselves to accept that and know themselves again, be able to let new relationships in fully. The very understandable ‘the last time I let someone in, they got stabbed before my eyes and the world ended’ flinch away, even if they’re not consciously aware that’s what it is. Anyway I love Rook. So much space to play around in here as to WHY they might feel or react like this, even when the framework is more defined.
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#rook#solas#varric tethras#dragon age meta#some of the same stuff around how bellara feels like rare representation of the good AND the bad of being neurodivergent#and the ongoing nature of it -- there's no easy resolution or solution to this just ways to live with it both in joy and despair --#going on with rook being Like This. their bumbling awkwardness can be endearing and funny but it does also genuinely hinder them#(awkwardness can mean bluntness or insecurity or constant deflective quips or what have you it comes from the same source)#I personally like a slightly more set protagonist like this (as well as both Hawke and Ryder) -- it's more interesting to me#to have a specific person in a specific situation to build on than the more sandbox approach. but I think that's very much#just a personal preference thing I don't think there's a right or wrong thing here from either the creator's side or the player#just different things people respond to differently etc. I feel like rook's backstories are quite a good balance of set vs. open#to start to build a character within!#I do wish. perhaps. that there was more willingness in certain quarters to look at it with that kind of nuance and generosity#rather than having to read 'x is OBJECTIVELY a bad protagonist and everyone agrees!!' again and again. but you know.#at least I can focus on what brings ME joy (if people are determined to be wrong it's not within my power or responsibility#to change their minds jfskda)
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