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tarotwithavi · 9 months

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Your future spouse: personality

Positive and challenging sides

How to choose a pile?

Take a deep breath and gently close your eyes. Politely request your spirit guides to reveal the appropriate pile meant for you, then open your eyes. Whichever pile captures your attention is the one meant for you.

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Pile 1

Positive side : hello pile 1! Your future spouse is one smart cookie. They've got an insatiable curiosity that makes them a total brainiac. You'll often find them diving deep into complex ideas and theories, always hungry for knowledge. They've got this knack for seeing patterns and connections that others don't even notice. When you're stuck on a problem, just turn to them for some mind-blowing insights. Creativity runs through their veins. They've got a knack for coming up with innovative, out-of-the-box ideas. No boring solutions here! They're the kind of person who can turn the simplest of conversations into an exciting adventure of thoughts and possibilities. Their independent spirit is pretty inspiring too. They're comfortable doing their own thing, which gives them a unique sense of self-reliance. Fairness and objectivity are their jams. Emotions don't cloud their judgment; they rely on cool, logical thinking to make decisions. And when it comes to tackling tough problems, they're like Sherlock Holmes with a touch of MacGyver – they'll find a solution, no matter how tricky the puzzle. They seem to have more air energy, especially Gemini and Aquarius. They may have their Mercury in the 11th house.

Challenging side : Okay, so your future spouse might be a bit of an introvert. Social interactions aren't always their strong suit, especially when it comes to small talk. They're more like deep-thought conversations rather than chit-chat about the weather. And speaking of deep thoughts, they tend to overthink stuff. Simple decisions can turn into complicated quandaries in their minds. Practicality isn't their strong suit either. They've got a knack for brilliant ideas, but sometimes turning those ideas into reality can be a bit of a challenge. Routine? Yeah, not their thing. They get bored quickly with repetitive tasks and might struggle with focusing on the same thing for too long. Oh, and sometimes they can be like Mr. Spock – super logical, but not always the most sensitive. Emotions might not be their strong suit, and they might come across as a tad insensitive from time to time. And when they've made up their mind, it's like they've superglued their opinion in place. Changing their perspective? Good luck with that.

Pile 2

Positive side : welcome pile 2! I'm getting that Your future spouse is the kind of person who's always dreaming big and aiming for the stars. They have this incredible ability to come up with the most creative and imaginative ideas that you've ever heard. Whether it's art, music, or just day-to-day conversations, they infuse everything with their unique touch of creativity. You can count on them to be that empathetic and understanding partner you've always wanted. They really get you, and their genuine care and compassion make you feel truly seen and loved. Their open-mindedness is a breath of fresh air, and you can talk to them about anything without fearing judgment. Their unwavering commitment to their values is truly inspiring; you'll never find them compromising on what they hold dear. And when it comes to those times when you need a friend to lean on, they'll be there, providing unwavering support and a listening ear. Their flexibility and adaptability make navigating life's twists and turns an exciting adventure. They have heavy water energy especially cancer and Pisces. They may have personal planets in 4th, 8th or 12th house.

Challenging side : But, you know, your future spouse does have their moments. Their idealism, as charming as it is, sometimes takes them to places that feel a bit too far from reality. There might be times when their sensitivity comes across as a bit of an overreaction, leaving you wondering how to tread carefully. They're not the biggest fans of confrontation, which can be a good thing most of the time, but it also means that addressing certain issues directly might not be their strong suit. Oh, and the decision-making process? Well, let's just say it's not the quickest. Sometimes you'll be caught in a loop of considering pros and cons, which can be a tad frustrating when you just want a clear answer. And criticism? Yeah, that's a tough one. Your future spouse might struggle a bit with handling negative feedback; it's like they take it to heart a bit too much. There could be moments when they retreat into their own world, leaving you feeling a bit disconnected. But hey, remember, nobody's perfect, right? All these quirks just make them who they are.

Pile 3

Positive side : Alright, so your future spouse is a pretty cool cat. They're like a master strategist, always thinking five steps ahead in whatever they do. You can bet on them to come up with some seriously genius plans that nobody else saw coming. They've got this natural gift for analyzing stuff – they can see the big picture and all the tiny details, which makes them freakishly good at problem-solving. They are really smart. They have this insatiable thirst for knowledge, and they're not afraid to dive deep into topics that fascinate them. And trust me, their ability to think critically is off the charts. They're not just about book smarts, though. They've got this quirky sense of humor that might catch you off guard, and you'll find yourself laughing at their witty remarks. They're super independent and have this unshakeable confidence. They won't hesitate to tackle challenges head-on, even if it means going against the crowd. Their determination is downright inspiring. Plus, when they decide to share their thoughts and ideas with you, it's like getting a VIP pass to their brilliant mind. You'll never be short of engaging conversations with these guys. Your future spouse has more earthly vibes. I'm getting heavy Capricorn and Virgo vibes. They may have their Venus in earth or vice versa.

Challenging side : Alright, I'm getting that Your future spouse's brain is like a constant whirlwind of ideas, which sometimes means they can come across as a tad distant. They're so deep in thought that they might unintentionally tune out the world around them. You might need to remind them that Earth still exists lol. Their analytical nature can be a double-edged sword. Sure, they're great at solving problems, but sometimes they overthink things to the point where it feels like they're dissecting the meaning of life. Patience might be your ally when they go into full-on ponder mode. Another thing is their high standards. They have this vision of how things should be, and they won't settle for anything less. It's awesome that they strive for excellence, but it could lead to some frustration if things don't meet their expectations. And while they're great at giving advice, they might not always be the best at dealing with emotional situations. They tend to approach things with logic, even when emotions are in play.

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neroushalvaus · 6 months

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Tumblr in the 60s – Part 2

Part 1 / Deleted Scenes

💁🏼‍♀️brigittebardots Follow

anyone want to get fake married so i can get the pill to slut around

💋 marrymetwiggy Follow

Just say you have painful monthlies, I heard it works if you have a nice doctor!

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Remember you still should use the sheet whenever possible. Stay safe ♡

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i think there's something wrong with me, i'm just so sleepy all the time, it's not fair

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That's because you spend all your nights listening to radio luxembourg

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i heard nothing last night so i built an antenna out of poultry net, iron wire and bits of tin. i cut my fingers and our family chickens ran away

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A small price to pay for some music.

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the antenna fell apart before the german guy stopped talking

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🗣 ilovejohnlennon-deactivated19660729

me: chilling

my brain: if you were shot and weren't sure whether you'd live or die should you call the cops to make sure your murderer gets caught or call the ambulance to increase your chance of survival

me: what

🗣 elviskneesofficial-deactivated19631119

There should be a number that'd reach both of those

🕺 elvisherselvis Follow

That number already exists. It's been used in my city for like a two decades.

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Fuck you I'm British.

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Oh my G, this post from -62 sounds so prophetic now that they're trying to make the 911 thing catch on, where's that jagger meme

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🕺 elvisherselvis Follow

This is literally not gift of prophecy. I told you back when this post was first made that this number has already existed in UK for years. It was obviously going to spread elsewhere, even US was bound to catch on at some point.

🏆 petebest-or-bust Follow

you are still here?? keeping an eye on this post??

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you're so grumpy @elvisherselvis maybe you should phone the emergency number and get a wahhh-mbulance

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my date: Oh I listen to folk as well!

me: That's so cool! Who are your favourites?

my date: I'm sooo into Bob Dylan.

me:

my date: Is everything okay?

me, stuffing jelly babies into my purse: I have to go, like, right now, immediately, sorry

#it's okay if you liked dylan before he became the judas he is #but you can't call yourself a folk fan if you still support him #ugghh i hate him #electric guitar using lil bitch #sigh #jelly baby meme #bob dylan critical // #anti bob dylan // #bob dylan hate //

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Cock and balls, I'm watching this previously banned american film where an american man is trying to fuck a soviet spy (played by famously very russian Greta Garbo) by offering her champagne and he is like "have you never had champagne?" and Greta is like "never 🥺 only goat's milk and a ration of vodka in the army" and the tv screen freezed and was like "ERROR!! CHAMPAGNE HAS BEEN SERVED IN SOVIET UNION SINCE 1936" I'm 😂😂😂

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You Americans will say anything to make Soviet stuff look silly

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Where do you think I am watching soviet tv from?? Or did I miss the memo where americans have the monopoly on joking about their own damn country??

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"In future there will be telephones you can take with you anywhere" I can't even fucking listen to Radio Luxembourg without building a goddamn satellite, sending it to space, reciting spells and prayers, and sticking the radio out of the window at 2am EET. And even then it needs to be snowing for it to work because the radio wave fairies like snow or some shit

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preach

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#this probably won't be very popular because some of these are very niche but i had fun #is the radio luxembourg station being impossible to listen to an universal experience?#i feel like older people in finland have a permanent chip on their shoulder because listening to it was so hard #there is a possibility ninotchka is doing a little time travel here; i remember this corrected version was shown at some point #but it may have been later #anyway just enjoy the ride #tumblr in the 60s #1960s #dashboard simulator #fake dashboard #60s #unreality

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your-name-is-jim · 9 months

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What a Kirk/Spock shipper sees in a Kirk/Female-Love-Interest story [PART 2/2]

Part 1 <- Please read Part 1 first. Part 2 won't make sense otherwise!

This panel is absolutely AMAZING and you all deserved to see it :D

So, what were we talking about? Oh, yeah, Laura just proposed.

As you can see, Jim is panicking not sure what to answer, so the first thing he does is calling his two best friends. There are so many things going on here; I'll try to mention everything I care about!

"Starfleet is getting a lot better at partners of equal rank working together."

This is an important part of this comic: apparently, in this story Starfleet isn't encouraging relationships between officers with a different rank. I know it's sort of implied in canon too, but it's not always clear if it's actually against regulations or if it's fine when the ranks are close.

As a K/S shipper, this detail just gives me an in-universe reason why Jim and Spock aren't considering dating each other in this story: a commander can't probably have a relationship with a captain. I mean, we already know from canon TOS that Jim avoids relationships with the members of his crew, so this just adds a layer to a potential forbidden love story between them. Yeah, I know this isn't what this comic is trying to do, but what can I say? Fans don't stop shipping something just because they learn it's not allowed in-universe… if anything, they can find it more exciting! :D

"We could teach at the Academy. Mind you, she laughed at that idea."

Oh, wait. Jim actually talked to Laura about their possible future together! It looks like he's thinking about them as teachers at Starfleet Academy. Hmm… this sounds familiar:

2277 — Accepts appointment to Academy faculty, moves into San Francisco apartment

This is from Kirk's biography in Star Trek official website. Between The Motion Picture and The Wrath of Khan, Jim accepts a job at the Academy. We see it at the start of the second movie, after Saavik takes the Kobayashi Maru test.

Wait, who's the other teacher here? :D

Okay, okay, in that era Jim is an admiral and Spock is a captain, so their ranks are still different, but except for that… They both teach at the Academy. And it's literally what Jim proposed to his love interest Laura in the comic! With my Kirk/Spock goggles on, what I read in that panel is "If Laura and I got married, we could both do this thing that I'm totally going to do with Spock in the future." LOL

Did the comic creators notice the parallel? Probably not. However, we K/S shippers have special skills for finding accidental implications about our ship everywhere, so here it is :)

"Your thoughts, please, Mr. Spock."

I said I had a lot to say about that single panel, so of course I can't skip the last line! A human woman has just proposed to Jim, and what does Jim do? He asks for Spock's opinion. This says a lot about Jim and Spock's friendship, and it's very sweet on Jim's part, but it also makes me think about Jim's love life. What about Jim and Laura's romantic feelings for each other? Does Jim want to spend the rest of his life with her? Perhaps the reason they don't talk about it (not even with Bones!) is that it's implied that Jim loves her and she loves him, even if they never say it. However, I still think it's interesting that Jim's discussion on the matter is mostly "logical".

Anyway, I swear I won't post every single panel of this comic, but Spock's reply is an absolute gem you all must see:

"I AM SOMETHING OF AN EXPERT ON THE SUBJECT OF JAMES T. KIRK."

(dkjflsdjlkdjglk brb losing my mind again)

Ahem. Okay, Spock. Noted. Also, wow, nice make up. Did I say that the art in this comic is great? Good.

"I believe someone of equal status would offer you the best possible chance of happiness."

Maybe I'm reading too much into it, but I find interesting his use of "equal status" instead of the more specific "equal rank". Status makes me think less of their official position in Starfleet, and more of how two people actually see each other. It's not just about Laura and Jim being both captains; it's about them seeing each other as equals.

Anyway, Jim jokes about Bones and Spock finally agreeing about something, and the conversation continues.

Jim's best friends are both encouraging him to marry Laura. In this panel, I zoomed in on Bones because his words are especially interesting. Based on everything we've seen so far, it looks like having a romantic partner when you're in Starfleet is a pain in the ass in general in this comic; however, Bones is pointing out that for the first time, Jim has someone who really understands. Of course, that's because she's a Starfleet captain too.

About Spock, I won't share the entire conversation, but I just want to say that as a K/S shipper who likes to think Spock is secretly in love with Jim in this era, I find his dialogue where he's supporting Jim's relationship with Laura totally reasonable. It's important to remember that this comic takes place close to the end of the five-year mission. We know that Spock is going to run away after that, trying to erase all his emotions in Gol. So, in this specific part of his story, I find pretty in character that he'd tell Jim to find happiness with someone else. That's what he'd do, regardless of his own feelings.

So, Jim knows his two best friends think he should say "yes" to Laura. What happens next?

During a mission, Jim meets his ex Carol Marcus. She is surprised to find out that Jim is considering settling down. This is not completely related to this analysis, so I won't post it, but I found interesting that Carol knows about every single woman Jim dated before he became captain (the only one she doesn't name is Ruth), and she even says "And that woman in 1930, what was her name?" Just… how the hell does she know? LMAO

At least Jim hasn't told her about Miramanee and Rayna (well, technically he doesn't even remember the latter), but seriously, Carol does know a lot about Jim's private life, even if it's clear she doesn't want her or their son to be part of it. (Not really related to this plot, but in case you're confused about the timeline: David is a child in this era; however, he doesn't appear in this story.)

Anyway, this is what she eventually tells him:

So, I like to think that Carol is genuinely trying to help Jim here, because the spiteful ex girlfriend is another thing I don't really want to see in 2020. I want to think that the creators meant well; however, what happens in the story is that, despite Jim not seeing himself outside the captain's chair, and despite his best friends telling him to marry the captain that is just like him… Jim keeps thinking about Carol's words.

He knows from Starfleet that he's going to be promoted to admiral the moment he reaches Earth. What is interesting here is that Jim could refuse the promotion and be a captain with Laura. This is definitely a different situation from everything else I've seen before. It's obvious to anyone who has watched TOS movies that Jim is not happy as an admiral. He didn't really want to be one. He doesn't want to be one in this comic series either (you can see it explored in Star Trek: Year Five main story). However, thanks to The Motion Picture, we also know that he will accept promotion at the end of his five-year mission. This isn't a canon divergence story: the writers can't really change any major event, so they have to work with what canon offers.

What I find interesting is that in this 2020 comic, Jim finds himself in the opposite situation he is in Gene Roddenberry's The Motion Picture novelization from 1979. In Roddenberry's novel, it's mentioned briefly that Jim starts a relationship on Earth with a vice-admiral, a woman that was basically asked to use her charm to keep Jim grounded. Jim could refuse promotion, but he finds himself lost, without his ship, without Spock, and eventually without Bones. So he tries to convince himself that a life as an admiral with a perfect woman by his side will be good for him (it will not; Jim himself will realize a year later that his lover was an "Enterprise-surrogate").

Now, I understand trying to write something fresher and more modern in this Valentine's Day special, but I confess that I find a little hard to believe that Jim would accept a promotion as admiral if the alternative was keeping both a starship AND a wife. Also, let's not forget that Spock and Bones are both telling him to choose the married captain life. So, while I totally get from a writer's point of view that if you can't change canon, you have to work with what you have, I'm also not sure that Carol reminding Jim that he's always wanted to challenge himself is enough to make him doubt everything.

I guess I can sort of see that as part of a bigger problem: Jim knows he can't be a captain for life; during his first date with Laura, as we saw in Part 1 of my analysis, he talks about it.

"I've been thinking lately about whether I could ever stop being a Starfleet captain. Whether I could ever want to. A friend of mine talks about 'infinite diversity'. That applies to the Federation, too. But here I am, only built for one thing."

So, Jim knows he has probably avoided the subject for too long. Carol is forcing him to think about it. And, more implicitly, we could say Spock and his IDIC philosophy are also making him think, even if it's not what Spock would have expected. After all, Spock told Jim to marry Laura (in the comic), and he'll tell him that being a starship captain is his "first, best destiny" (in The Wrath of Khan).

Anyway, Jim eventually decides to meet Laura and talk to her about his personal concerns. First of all, we find out that the two of them haven't called each other for six weeks. Laura is still waiting for Jim's answer, and she didn't want to call him. If you ask me, their lack of communication is yet another a big clue that perhaps getting married is not a great idea.

Well, now Jim is at least trying to talk to her.

Aaand that's how she breaks up with him.

I'm not sure how to feel about this. I mean, in a sense, Jim doesn't say "I decided to be an admiral instead of marrying you", but Laura definitely sees it that way. I think he was genuinely looking for help, but that just proves that Laura isn't the right person for him. Why marrying someone you can't communicate with? They are such a great team as captains, but it looks like that doesn't apply to their relationship. I pointed out other clues in the previous parts, and now we got this. It's interesting to see that Jim in this comic can have a normal conversation about his future with Spock, Bones, and even Carol Marcus, but not with the person he's supposed to build a future with. Unless something changes between them, it can't work out.

Anyway, this isn't the end.

A year later, when Jim is an admiral on Earth, there's a sudden emergency. A miniature black hole appears out of the deep structure of the universe (don't blame me for the science, I'm literally quoting the comic LOL) and it's attracted to Earth gravity. Short story: they're all going to die, but fortunately the Drake (Laura's ship) can cause an anti-matter implosion that will shunt the black hole outside their reality. Unfortunately, that also means the Drake will have to go inside the black hole. Laura evacuates her crew and asks Admiral Kirk to give her the order to proceed. Reluctantly, Jim tells her that he knows she'll do it, and he gives the order.

Now, please appreciate The Motion Picture aesthetic:

Okay, I know I could have chosen a panel with Jim and Laura, since this is literally their love story, but I did say this analysis was going to be biased, so here is Laura with her two closest friends instead; they would never let her risk her life alone! <3 They are very obviously meant to be a parallel to what Spock and Bones are to Jim, which is very cute to see. Now, Laura, listen to me: I know the three of you have different ranks, but you may die in a few seconds… And I just think that the few times your friends appear in this comic, you have a lot of chemistry with them, sooo maybe you should forget about Jim and just smooch one of them, or both… just saying :)

Ahem. Anyway, after Laura and her girlfriends disappear into the void, there's another timeskip. This time it's 15 years.

Oh, damn.

I said in the premise of this analysis that one of the reasons I decided to read this comic despite shipping Kirk/Spock is that, in my headcanon, Kirk and Spock get together after The Motion Picture. Until this point, this comic hasn't really gone against my headcanon. I can genuinely believe that Jim had another girlfriend during his five-year mission; it's not a big deal. Unfortunately for me, this comic has its last part taking place around The Final Frontier era. Dammit.

Well, it's just one comic. I read until this point; it'd be illogical not to read until the end, right? Nah, it's not logic. It's human curiosity. I know I won't like it, but I still want to see it.

Also, if there's something that I really don't want to see in modern media anymore, is female characters dying just to make male characters suffer. I can accept that in TOS show because it was made in the 1960s, but even TOS movies got better about it! Characters like Saavik and Gillian can have their own lives without having to die for a man's pain. It's not a coincidence that the writers had to kill Spock to make Jim suffer. Without digressing too much, I just wanted to say that K/S bias aside, I went into this comic hoping to read something different from another dead woman for Jim. I'm very glad that, at least about this, the comic creators didn't disappoint me!

So, in this story, it's been 15 years since Laura's disappearance (actually, it should be more, but I'll try not to nitpick, despite being the trekkies' favorite hobby :D). Anyway, the one with the whales The Voyage Home happened, and Jim is not an admiral anymore. He's happy to have a starship again, but he hasn't stopped questioning his life decisions.

We can also see that, 15 years later, he's reading the book Laura liked.

HOLD IT! WAIT WAIT WAIT! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME??? WHAT THE--

*inhales deeply*

(Friendly reminder to myself that what is obvious to me may not be obvious to everyone else, so I need to explain. Fine. I'll try.)

The screenshots I posted are from The Wrath of Khan, right after Spock's funeral. What Jim is doing there is reading the end of the book that Spock gave him for his birthday. He's mourning Spock.

In the comic panel, Jim has a new pair of glasses, because it takes place a little later in the timeline. But, except for that…

It's the same scene.

The same fucking scene.

I mean, come on! I can't even post the "they're the same picture" meme, because it's not funny if they're literally the same picture! Even the bookmark is the same!

The comic creators literally took a canon scene about Jim reading Spock's book after Spock is gone, and they redrew it with Jim reading Laura's book after Laura is gone. In a Valentine's Day special. Where Laura is Jim's love interest. They made a romantic scene with Jim and a woman that was originally about Jim and Spock.

(Brb, I'm going to chew a pillow until I calm down.)

So. Well. If you wondered why I thought there was something about Kirk/Spock in this comic… you have your answer. Perhaps the artist didn't think anything about it. I certainly do.

And I guess someone could say, "But Jim is still reading Laura's book 15 years later! That's true love!" Why yes, he's not reading Spock's book 15 years later, because he didn't stay without Spock for 15 years; he risked everything and lost all the most important things in his life to save Spock's soul.

Anyway, back to the comic. Starfleet receives a signal from the edge of Federation space. It's the Drake. Laura and her friends are alive.

Jim and Laura have a reunion after a long separation. Since they're both captains now, Jim thinks they are given a second chance.

Oh, whoops.

It's her turn now. It looks like being away for 15 years has changed her (as you can expect, honestly), and she's now glad to become an admiral. In this comic, that means Jim can't marry her. So, this is how the story ends:

So. Um.

This isn't a bad ending, but I also wouldn't exactly call it a happy ending. It's certainly not a happily ever after story. I'd call it open, maybe hopeful? Honestly, pretty much what I'd expect from a love story between an original character and Jim, so I can't say the writing is disappointing about that.

On the other hand, I can't personally imagine middle-aged Jim being so eager to start a romance again with someone he hasn't seen in 15 years who broke up with him 16 years ago. Perhaps he felt guilty about Laura's disappearance because if he had married her, they would have been part of a colonization fleet somewhere else and the incident wouldn't have happened the same way? Maybe. Personally, I would have found more believable an ending where Jim asks her to have dinner together or go for a walk, and then something romantic happening as they get to know each other again. But I can see why the creators wanted to bring up the marriage proposal again, just to close the circle. The comic is just 32 pages, so they did what they could.

"Unless there's someone else." "Not so much. I've been really busy."

Busy with what? Oh, right: Spock's death, Spock's body on Genesis, Spock's rebirth on Vulcan, the time travel (okay, that one wasn't 100% Spock-related), Spock's brother… Honestly, just say there's been a lot of Spock in your life, Jim, because that's the truth :)

On a more serious note, I guess that dialogue could mean that Jim has someone, but "he's been too busy" to do anything serious with them. However, as a K/S monoshipper I don't really like the idea of Jim being in an open relationship with Spock, so Jim's character in the entire scene in the end is just a big NOPE for me. Sorry.

That said, I found very interesting that in a few panels they show very clearly the "captain" rank on Jim and Laura's shoulders, to point out that it's the same. They can't be together forever, but they can have fun for a few days as captains. Because of that, I went back to the start of the last timeskip, just to check out something:

Fascinating.

This is a pretty detailed panel, where you can see the ranks on the shoulders of Jim's friends; the colors of their pins are also pretty good, close to the ones in the movies… except for Spock's.

Oh, please. Did you really expect me not to pay attention to this? :)

Captain Kirk and Captain Spock.

And unlike Laura, this is what they are until the end! The end of a very long life! Generations? What's Generations? Spock will eventually become an ambassador, but that's just a different job. How did Spock himself put it earlier in this comic?

"I am something of an expert on the subject of James T. Kirk. And I believe someone of equal status would offer you the best possible chance of happiness."

Did the comic creators just play themselves? I don't know, I'm quoting their own story here! LOL

And what about Jim's words from the same scene? :D

"Starfleet is getting a lot better at partners of equal rank working together."

Partners. Of equal rank. Working together.

That's literally what Kirk and Spock are since the end of The Voyage Home! Without an expiration date!

The comic creators made a big deal in their universe about relationships being better between two captains, and how good Jim and Laura may have been for each other if they had married as captains; and now they can't have their happily ever after because Laura is going to be an admiral… But even if the comic tries to hide it, we know there is a captain in Jim's life. And to make things better, Jim lost his admiral rank to bring him back. Listen, I'm a huge Old Married Kirk/Spock fan, so there's no way anything can make me forget that in the last TOS movies they're both captains. And there's no way I can forget that Jim risked his entire career (and everything else!) for Spock, and that's literally why he's not an admiral anymore.

This is almost ironic in this Valentine's Day comic. If it hadn't been for Spock, Jim would have still been an admiral, and he could have married Laura. Whoops. Too bad.

Speaking of admirals, I didn't notice it at first, but there's also something about this line Laura says in the last panel I posted…

"And don't you dare 'Admiral' me."

Ah, yes, a typical thing you tell someone you're planning to have sex with. Right, Laura? Agreed :)

Honestly, at this point I should just stop checking this comic, because I wonder if I'd just end up finding a Kirk/Spock version of every Kirk/Laura Rhone line LOL

By the way, I have other thoughts to share now that the story is over, but there's one more thing first. Do you remember the last panels of the comic? Middle-aged Jim and Laura kiss; END.

Okay. After that, the comic has a picture of the cover, with Jim and Laura kissing when they're younger.

And then it has this:

dklsfjlskjflskjlksjlkdlkgjdlfgsnfjekniuwanf LISTEN, HOW--

Just how am I even supposed to say anything that makes sense about this…??? I'm just… I can't…

Okay. So. We're talking about a Valentine's Day comic. It makes sense for it to include a cute Valentine card. I also get that Spock's iconic line has become so mainstream that it can be quoted out of context. And you can make parodies.

But… But… A Star Trek TOS fan can't really forget the original context of "I have been and always shall be your friend"? Someone could just not think about it, I guess… But, well, I know that at least I can't forget that this is literally Spock's line to Jim rewritten in a romantic Valentine's Day version. I can't possibly NOT think about it!

And I know it's very possible that the people who worked on the comic story weren't even aware of this extra, but the fact that I'm seeing this after reading about Jim Kirk's romance without happily ever after… Jim kisses a woman he can't stay with forever, and then there's Spock's "I have been and always shall be your Valentine". It's just so fucking funny. I can't. If I was feeling a little down after seeing middle-aged Jim wanting to marry Laura, now I'm laughing again. Thanks, Spock's silly Valentine card. I needed it! :D

Anyway, what did I say about this comic taking things originally created for Kirk and Spock's relationship and making them romantic when they're not about them? I can believe that sometimes it's a coincidence, but this card? Please… In a sense, this is the perfect ending.

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Conclusions.

I started this comic with a question: in 2020, how do you write a story about TOS Kirk falling in love? I wanted to see this attempt. Overall, I think the creators did what they could. Laura is different from every other woman in Jim's life; they didn't kill her off, and they also didn't force a happy ending. I think they did a good job with the canon limitations they had, especially in 32 pages.

Do I believe that Laura could have been a good match for Jim in different circumstances?

As a temporary girlfriend? Yes.

As a lifelong partner? No.

Of course, I'm aware my answer is biased, but I can try to be a little more "logical" about it.

First of all, I think that the comic itself supports my interpretation: of course, like in every story, different people are going to see different things; however, as I already pointed out, Jim and Laura never say that they love each other, and before the marriage proposal their relationship is pretty casual.

In The Original Series, Jim isn't lucky when it comes to romance because the women he falls in love with can't really understand his nature as a space explorer. Sometimes they can, like in Carol's case, and that's why they break up with him. Laura is the opposite, because she's just like Jim. But here is the thing: I think Laura is too much like him.

What would have happened if Jim had accepted to marry her at the end of the five-year mission? They would have been both captains. On different ships, though. Sure, they could have been part of the same colonization fleet, as Jim says in the comic, and maybe it would have worked for a while. However, would they really have seen each other as much as Jim needs?

I don't know about Laura, but we see multiple times in canon that behind his mask as a starship captain, Jim is definitely more lonely than what someone may think.

First of all, don't get me wrong: in these screenshots from The Naked Time, Jim is single, so of course his attraction to Janice Rand is related to that. It's not the same situation he'd be in if he were married to Laura. Early in the series, he has thoughts about his yeoman exactly because he doesn't have anyone else. Contrary to his fame as a womanizer, TOS Jim in canon always has one woman at a time in his mind, never more.

So, why am I sharing those lines? To show that when Jim is always inside the Enterprise, he does feel lonely. He needs a romantic partner's physical touch. However, we also know that Jim does not want a relationship with one of his subordinates, so Janice Rand and the rest of his crew are off limits.

Laura is good for him because she's part of Starfleet, and not a subordinate. But is that really enough? From what I've seen in the comic, no. At the end of the day, it looks to me that Jim and Laura don't really know how to plan a future together. Perhaps it's because they're so similar, but they don't really think of themselves as a couple, especially Laura. There's Captain James T. Kirk and Captain Laura Rhone; they both love their ships, so they should get married? That's not how it works.

Their relationship is casual. Jim doesn't want to define it. Are they friends with benefits? Are they in an open relationship? Either way, when Laura decides to marry him, she asks around if Jim has someone else, and only after that she asks him. Jim, on the other hand, doesn't talk to her for six weeks after her proposal. He talks to Spock and Bones immediately, but not to her. He even talks to Carol first.

Then, when Jim finally tries to talk to her about his problems, she doesn't listen. Their lack of communication is the cause of their break up.

16 years later, what we see is even worse. It's obvious that Laura has just different priorities. Maybe it's because of what happened to her lost in space, but I'm not sure. If they had married at the end of the five-year mission, would have Laura always refused a promotion to admiral? Would she have tried to get a promotion with Jim? Based on what we see in this comic, it doesn't look likely to me.

Now, as I said, different people are going to see different things, so I'm sure that someone really invested in this romance can imagine that Jim and Laura are really meant to be, and they can get their happy ending after their retirement, or in other ways. However, I admit that Jim and Laura's huge communication issues make hard to me to picture a long happy relationship between them. They should both try to get better, but in those 32 pages there was no hint towards that direction.

There's another thing that makes really hard to find any love interest for Jim as a plausible "happily ever after" option: the stakes. I know that it's just a single comic, so the creators had to focus on a few things; however, I couldn't help but notice that Jim and Laura never really save each other from dangerous situations. They work together as a team, and Jim watches Laura disappearing into the void, but does he do anything about it? Does he try to reach her inside her ship before she disappears into the black hole? Does he try to bring her back from the void? No, he doesn't.

In TOS show and movies, Jim Kirk risks so much for his crew and his ship that a Star Trek fan can't believe that a new woman is the love of his life, unless Jim is willing to do for her everything he does for his friends. And honestly, after The Search for Spock… how can he even come close to do that?

And it's not just about Jim's actions. There's his language too. At the start of the third movie, Jim refers to Spock as "the noblest part of myself". What could he say about a love interest that is as deep as this?

Let's be honest here: the reason it's so hard to write a story about Jim Kirk's true love is that the real love story for him has already been written. You may not see it romantically, but Kirk and Spock's story is absolutely a love story. And when a character has someone he loves so deeply, it's not easy to convince the audience that he could have someone new to love as deeply. In Jim's case, the combination of his personality and his canon life makes it almost impossible.

Anyway, before I end up not so accidentally turning this analysis into a complete Kirk/Spock ship manifesto, I'm just going to mention one silly thing about the Valentine's Day comic. Please, don't take it too seriously, I'm half-joking :)

So, there are two kiss scenes in the story: one when Jim and Laura start to spend a lot of free time together, and one in the last panel. Well, I can't believe Jim isn't holding Laura's shoulders when he kisses her! That's just the basis of the way Jim kisses women! D:

Different Star Trek characters kiss in different ways; it fits their personalities. And because the rest of my TOS posts are probably too gay for these gifs, I'm dropping them as references here:

Sorry, but if Jim Kirk doesn't grab someone's shoulders before a kiss, it just kills my immersion! :P

Okay, a little more seriously: Jim doesn't always kiss women the same way; however, his "shoulder grab" is common enough that you definitely notice it if you pay attention. Because of that, I think it would have been nice to include it in the Valentine's Day comic.

After reading this comic, what kind of person would I consider perfect for Jim?

Well, my answer is obvious. However, I'll try to elaborate.

First of all, this story definitely convinced me even more that Jim can only be really happy with another Starfleet officer (or at least someone who's been deeply involved with Starfleet). He also needs someone who understands him as a space explorer, without trying to keep him grounded. And someone very smart, of course. These are all traits Laura has. But they're just the basis.

I don't think Jim needs someone in command of their own ship as a lifelong partner. As I said before, I can't really imagine it working out. Another starship captain would have their own goals and their own ambitions; that doesn't mean Jim shouldn't marry someone with specific plans for their own career, but I think these plans should keep the two of them close, not on different ships. Jim needs his partner physically at his side; if he could be happy in a long-distance relationship, I believe we would have seen at least one working out in canon. But it's never the case. Working on different starships from the same fleet would be a little better, but in my opinion not enough, unless it's for a short period of time.

And there's also the matter of his partner's personality. Jim is a natural leader; that's why he's so good at his job. I don't think he needs a similar kind of leader as romantic partner. This is just my personal opinion, but I believe they would just fight about everything they disagree about. I think he needs someone calmer in his life, not someone who'd encourage emotional outbursts.

More importantly, he absolutely needs someone he can communicate with. If he can't talk to his partner about everything important, they're not the right person for him. That doesn't mean they can't have disagreements or miscommunication issues, of course, but they shouldn't happen all the time, and Jim and his partner should be able to talk about them and make up.

In conclusion: someone at his side on his ship, smart, calm, trustworthy :)

Now, I know what some of you are thinking about: what about the "no relationships with subordinates" personal rule Jim has? How can Jim be in a relationship with Spock (or anyone else on the Enterprise) if he's everyone's superior officer? Well, first of all, I already said that after The Voyage Home, Jim and Spock are both captains. And before that… I think that Spock in the comic phrased it the right way. Jim can find his happiness with someone of "equal status". I think it's pretty clear, in my opinion, that Janice Rand and Spock aren't the same kind of subordinates to Jim. Just think about it: which members of the Enterprise call their captain "Jim"? Bones, Spock and (occasionally) Scotty. These are the three people I believe are "equals" in private to Jim, no matter their ranks when they're on duty. Because of that, a relationship between Jim and Spock could work pretty well.

By the way, another thing the Valentine's Day comic made me think about is that in TOS movies, Jim sort of does with Spock pretty much everything he does with Laura in this story. Not the same way, of course, but does it matter? Spock is his own person, he's not Jim's copy. That doesn't mean he can't indulge Jim, have fun himself… and try to stop Jim from doing dangerous things "for fun", as an old spouse would :)

Okay, perhaps throwing each other into the water doesn't count as dancing, but it's so much better :D

In conclusion, this is the way I can read the Valentine's Day comic as a Kirk/Spock shipper:

Jim mentions Spock on his first date with a woman.

Jim questions his life choices as he thinks about Spock and IDIC philosophy.

Jim does with Laura everything we see him doing in TOS show, except for playing chess (just the thing he does with Spock).

Jim says Laura and him are a good team in Starfleet because they had a lot of sex (is that true about other people he works well with??)

There haven't been many ladies or gentlemen in Jim's life because he's busy (not because he's not into men, apparently).

"Starfleet is getting a lot better at partners of equal rank working together." Good for your future with Spock, Jim!

If Jim and Laura got married, they could both teach at Starfleet Academy, something Jim is totally going to do with Spock someday.

Mister "I am something of an expert on the subject of James T. Kirk" Spock.

Also, Mister "I believe someone of equal status would offer you the best possible chance of happiness" Spock, which is actual foreshadowing of his own future status with Jim.

Hey, look at Jim reading a book that reminds him of his lost love! I wonder where I've seen LITERALLY THE SAME PICTURE???

"Don't 'Admiral' me". This is totally not similar to what Jim tells Spock in The Voyage Home, of course.

Hey, we're both captains now! Just for a few days, but isn't that great? I wonder if anyone else is a captain now, and forever? :D

"I have been and always shall be your Valentine". Totally not a Kirk/Spock line, I don't know what you're talking about! :)

Okay, okay, that's all.

As a Kirk/Spock shipper, I won't deny that I'm a little jealous of this Valentine's Day special comic, because I wish we could get something with amazing art like this where Jim is in love with Spock. On the other hand, Star Trek: Year Five comic series has a few scenes about Jim & Spock's friendship that I really liked. Platonic, sure, but good enough for my K/S goggles!

Thank you so much for reading this post until the end! I hope you enjoyed my analysis! Live long and prosper!

#star trek analysis #star trek: year five #star trek: year five valentine's day special #star trek comics #james t. kirk #laura rhone #spirk #star trek tos #star trek the original series #k/s #kirk x spock #space husbands #my gifs

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neyafromfrance95 · 9 months

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i'm sorry, but internalized misogyny in star trek fandom is insane.

yes, i feel bad for spock, his heart was broken in 2x09! but for god's sake! he intentionally pressured christine to talk about the topic that she was clearly uncomfortable discussing in front of others so that she would actually lose control and involuntarily bare her emotions! this is not cute baby boy behavior at all!

at that's okay! our beloved characters are allowed to have flaws! what is not okay is acting as if christine is a cold bitch when she was literally forced to reveal her feelings/thoughts the way she did!

the only thing christine did wrong was not telling spock sooner, but please remember that it was only a few hours between christine finding out about the fellowship and spock confronting her about it. erica found out with christine about it and christine celebrating with erica and sam was spontaneous, it wasn't planned, since christine said that it was not the time for celebrations!

and christine's song was mostly about how happy she was for being validated academically and professionally, it wasn't about her not caring about spock! she only said that if she had to leave him for her future, she wouldn't fight it!

+ remember that christine had been hurting ever since she was told that she was nothing to spock in the future and then she had her war trauma triggered in the worst way possible! considering all of this, spock should have been more patient, instead of forcing her into opening up in the name of an experiment, imo!

like, i'm begging you all, don't turn snw fandom into this misogyny-infested media-illiterate dump that a lot of fandoms turn into, please let's not ruin it here!!!

#spapel #star trek #christine chapel #spock #strange new worlds #star trek: strange new worlds #snw #spock/chapel #spock x chapel #star trek: snw #st: snw

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bagog · 5 months

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Star Trek: Discovery Narrative Highlights

So I really like Discovery, but differently than I like other Star Treks. My love for Voyager, for instance, is based off the sense of found-family in the face of sci-fi shenanigans. I could pick out favorite episodes, but my favorite episodes don't necessarily represent the epitome of what I love about the show, y'know?

It's different with Disco. There are concrete moments from through out the show that made me go "Okay, I like this, I want this. More of this." Here's some of them! This is indulgent and all from memory

Season 1 - Klingons Speak Klingon

In a story about Klingons fearing the Federation as an institution which will irrevocably alter their culture, the Klingons actually speak Klingon. Love it. Season 1 - Gabriel Lorca

I loved seeing a Star Fleet captain who seemed to have ascended because of his skill at war: a trait which ordinarily would not elevate one within Starfleet service, per se. It made him interesting. Your mileage may vary on where this went, but. He's still a big appeal on rewatch.

Season 2 - Queer People Helping Queer People

The introduction of Jet Reno is one of my favorite hallmarks in the show. I love Jet, and I love the way she serves as a foil to every other character. But best of all, I loved the scene when she is talking to Hugh Culber about how distant he's been from his husband (since coming back from the dead, so, you know) and helps him by relating her own story about her wife, who is now passed. To say I'm happy to see queer stories on Star Trek is a massive understatement, but this was the moment it locked in for me. In the world of the Federation, there's no difference between being queer or straight and anyone could've talked Hugh out of his funk. But in our world, it's usually queer people helping queer people make sense of their experiences. Recognizing the importance of that distinction and going with the queers-helping-queers take is a really big deal for me.

Season 2 - Amanda

This is hands-down the best representation of Amanda we've ever been given and she is so wonderfully human and warm that it helps you understand Spock and Michael so much better. I don't know what to say other than that, I love her.

Season 3 - The Future

I love that they went not just into the future, but further into the future than any mainline trek lore has gone. Hell yes. I'm bummed it's kinda a post-Utopian mess, but I get storywise why that's the case. I love the future starships, I love the future technology, I like that we just "BZP" to wherever we want to be in the ship now. In a show increasingly steeped in centuries of canon lore, it's smart and challenging to try to do "a millennium in the future."

Season 3 - Queer Family

Queer Family! Queer Family in Star Trek! This is my queers-helping-queers point but dialed up to 11. Love it, would do anything for it.

Season 4 - Artificial Intelligence

The ship is alive and she's named herself. This comes to a head in an episode in Season 4 where Paul Stamets feels very hesitant about this, after the plot of Season 2 was trying to stop AI from destroying the galaxy. There's this whole Measure of a Man but Not Quite Because Its the B Story thing going on, but at the end of it, there's a twist. Paul eventually learns to accept his new crewmate, but then he asks the person in-charge of the inquest "What would you have done if I said I wasn't comfortable serving with an AI?" and the dude goes "I would've assigned you to another ship. This was never about whether she has a soul or whatever, it's about if you can learn to accept that with you 22nd century brain." And that's.... that's great.

Season 4 - Mental Health

Mental Health is a thread running through some of Discovery (Season 2 flirts with Spock's neurodivergence, for instance) but never more than in Season 4. Hugh Culber, the ship's ray of sunshine and de facto counselor, is in bad shape, mentally, and he needs help. But the best moment is when the away-team is beset by chemical memories of panic and basically rendered useless with fear... except for Detmer, who helps them all get through it. When asked why she was unaffected, she says "Oh I totally was affected, but after my grievous injury during the war, I went to therapy for the PTSD and learned some coping strategies" AND THAT'S WHAT SAVES THE GALAXY.

Anyway, this is very indulgent and probably nobody reads this, but thanks if you did.

#star trek #star trek discovery #disco #Jet reno #Michael Burnham #Hugh Culber #Paul Stamets #keyla detmer #i will probably delete this

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t0ast-ghost · 2 months

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I will not shut up about Star Trek TOS yet and you’ve decided to listen in on that. So welcome to my thoughts on the 11th episode (The Corbomite Maneuver):

- starting off strong with these camera angles and movements

- *sees a spinning colourful cube in space* just go a bit to the left (he is not up for shenanigans today)

- can’t wait for Checkov to be introduced, I hear he gets a gun or smt

- WHAT IS THAT PHYSICAL CHECK??? Why does he have to lie on his back?? And why does he have to have his shirt off?

- if I were Spock trying to call the captain and he picks up and all I’d see was his tits… all I’m saying is he keeps a really good straight face

- OMG we got a “what am I a moon shuttle conductor or a doctor?”

- Sulu laughing at Spock’s sense of humour

- the close up on Kirk’s ass as he leaves the room is so intentional

- Bones sitting on the railing…

- how many surfaces can I sit on competition but my opponent is Leonard Bones McCoy

- just to prove my point the next scene starts with him sitting on a table

- god I feel bad for Scotty having to sit between McCoy and Spock in some of those meetings

- Sulu was cool as a cucumber

- “do you ever tire of questioning me on things you’ve already made your mind up about?” “it gives me emotional security” they are each others emotional support guy (Spock & Kirk)

- Kirk saying“navigation, you’re timing was lousy. Same with engineering, Helmsman” then Bones immediately after “you’re timing was lousy”

- how can you sit in a chair like that even (bones)

- Alexa play tik tok by Kesha

- (okay now I’m just imagining Spock dancing like one of those spider-man memes but completely straight faced (also Spock now listens to Kesha canonically but like in my head))

- THE FUCK IS THAT FUCKING THING??? THAT IS A PUPPET!

- Bones is so caring, he has so much fucking compassion I won’t shut up about him

- “you now have seven minutes left” but there’s 23 minutes left in the episode. Guess a lot of it’s just gonna be dead air… er space I mean (yeah I can come up with a better line than this later (edit: no I can’t I’m tired))

- SPOCK IS SO SAD. He truly thinks this is a hopeless situation.

- Bones is about to die in four minutes and he’s threatening Kirk because of the fact that he put Bailey’s health at risk… I love this man

- “Anytime you can bluff me, doctor” I can’t legally say what I thought was said but maybe the ancient archaeologists will know from context clues

- I don’t think Uhura has spoken to most of the bridge crew up to this point, she barely has had plot or even dialogue, I can’t wait till they give her an episode or just even make her more central

- Spock going to Kirk’s side after the bluff for emotional support

- Spock is so proud when talking about his mom :)))

- Your science and medical officers usually shouldn’t stand so close to your chair and clutch at it while leaning over you. It’s not normal behaviour.

- Okay I’d like to mention how calm Sulu has been and how much I love him, can we please get more of him in future episodes?

- wait so Bones is just gonna let Bailey go back to work? Like I get they apologized to each other but that doesn’t change that it’s still a bad idea to have him there

- Spock, Kirk, and McCoy immediately after the death threat is gone: guess it’s time to start flirting again

[Video description: Spock stands on the bridge, he says, “A very interesting game, this poker.” Kirk sitting in his captains chair replies, “It does have advantages over chess.” McCoy smiling at Spock adds, “Love to teach it to you.” Spock smiles back at him. End description]

- he’s got a twinkle in his eye

- The shake on the bridge as the tractor beam tows them is so funny if you watch Spock and McCoy (it continues to be funny for the next couple minutes)

- "Captain request to-" "Denied. If it's a trap.. If I'm wrong, I want you here" awwe he wants him safe (idc that this is not what the writers are trying to say, HE WANTS SPOCK SAFE)

- they all have to bend over on the transporter pad but when they get transported Bones isn't even bent he's just standing at his normal height slightly hunched

- HOLY CRAP I HATE THAT THING... I'm so glad it's a puppet

- nope okay I don't know what's happening, I can't. I'm. What.

- that is apple cider, they are sitting around this guy trying to drink apple cider

- McCoy doesn't know what the fuck to do right now and neither do I

Now imagine, if you will, Spock dancing

Thank you, and have a good day.

Master post of past/future episodes

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anxiously-going · 2 months

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I want a Star Trek AU in which the Enterprise becomes sentient.

It starts out almost like an egregore, the way the crew talks about the ship like she's alive, referring to her as one of them rather than just a ship. She slowly and imperceptibly gains a conscious and just quietly does things to take care of the crew.

Slowly, anomalies start being noticed. Reports are run on their own, minor repairs seem to fix themselves, Scotty isn't sure what to make of it till they're hit with some space anomaly or other and for the first time ever, she's able to speak to them.

Scotty thinks he's gone made at first, but the Enterprise has kept the data and is able to explain it to him. It's bonkers, but there's no other explanation for any of it and there is definitely something happening with the ship. Sentience may as well explain it.

Scotty heads up to the bridge and tell the good captain that he's figured out what's going on.

"Fantastic news, Scotty. What is it?"

"Well, Captain,...I think it's probably easier if I show ya." Scotty gestures to the broad widow before them. "Ready when you are, lass."

Jim frowns, "Scotty, what are-"

Then on the display stands the image of woman with shifting features in an engineering uniform. "Hello, James," she says with a voice as shifting as her beautiful features. "I am the Enterprise."

Everyone on the bridge is completely still.

"Mr. Scott, explain," Jim says flatly.

"Well, sir. Y'know those old Earth ghost stories about how...believin' in something gives it power? There seems to be some truth to those. Our belief on the ship brought her to life, Jim. The power surge we experienced gave her the energy she needed to-" he gestures at the screen "-present herself more physically to us."

Jim shakes his head. "Those were just stories."

"Captain, you met the actual Greek God Apollo just a few weeks ago," Enterprise points out with a gentle smile.

"All legend and myth must start somewhere," Spock points out. "While superstitions may muddy the original truths of such tales, that does not discount them as impossible."

Jim turns to Spock, the most scientific mind he's ever known, in shock. "So you're totally okay with this? This is completely reasonable to you?"

Spock nearly shrugs. "We did meet Apollo few weeks ago, Captain. And there has been a belief long held that such deities are sustained by belief. I don't think we can rule out the possibility the creation of a similar consciousness through the means of collective belief. Especially given the evidence presented before us." He gestures the woman on the screen.

Jim sighs and returns his gaze to the Enterprise, and has a rare moment of being at a complete loss of words.

"This is too elaborate to be a prank and you know it," she tells him, a knowing look playing on her face. "Just accept what you know to be true, Jim. I'm real."

#star trek aos #jim kirk #montgomery scott #spock #my writing #flash fiction #what can i say im still a whovian and night valean at heart #this was very much inspired by the tardis being cononically sentient and huntokar #also i love the idea of the town of night vale being at least semi sentient but i cant remember if thats actual canon or not #anyway enjoy

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muirmarie · 4 days

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Title: just don't feel like fighting anymore

Fandom: Star Trek: The Original Series

Ship: McCoy/Spock (Spones)

Rating / Warning: T / no warnings

Word Count: ~3k

[This is another dopamine pinch hit (aka gift fic)]

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Post "All Our Yesterdays," McCoy thinks he probably needs to have a talk with Spock about whether his choices have made Spock uncomfortable.

Spock also wants to talk about some of McCoy's choices, but his are a little more of the "stop being a martyr" variety.

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“Okay,” McCoy says, hating how flustered he feels, hating how Spock still has him pinned in place with his hands, with his gaze, with his words. “Okay, good, so we talked about it and now we're—”

“I'm not finished,” Spock says, the corner of his mouth twitching up in a smile as McCoy groans.

#spones #star trek #star trek the original series #star trek tos #leonard mccoy #spock #fic #mine #flirting by forcing someone to hear you say nice things about them (even if they're begging you to stop <3)#(i have also been known to flirt this way lmaoooo - it is......EXTREMELY satisfying to make someone blush w/ compliments 😌)#st:tos

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holodeck-enthusiast · 2 months

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BY THE DYING FIRE

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Bones went to his tent leaving Kirk and Spock by the fire. He tries to sleep early these days.

Spock was playing his instrument calmly. Jim was silently observing the smooth moonlight on his face, his hands, the strings of the instrument. For Jim's birthday, the trio had planned a camping night together. Nothing seemed to be a better plan. Jim feels grateful to have Spock and Bones in his life. He always does.

Jim forcefully drove his eyes away from Spock to the dying fire in front of them. It's getting colder. Jim tried his best to organise his thoughts but he's failing. He hates to fail.

He was waiting for a moment like this for years! To be able to open up to Spock. To confess to him about his feelings, however complicated they are. Spock surely would understand. What could go wrong? If this isn't mutual, if this was never mutual, that doesn't mean it wasn't worth every longing. Spock mind-melded with him for multiple times. That didn't seem so awkward. And if Spock truly can see through him he already knows. And Jim's pretty sure Spock won't be the one to face and clarify such strong, fucked up, confusing, brilliant, exhausting, and rejuvenating (all at the same time) emotion Jim has for Spock; and wonder if he has too.

Spock seems to be completely immersed into the experience. His eyes are closed. His slim elegant fingers are flowing among the strings like water. This is pure mindfulness! It's getting harder to look away from such an otherworldly sight. Jim actually knows what could go wrong!

This confession could mean losing Spock as his best friend! Jim can't afford to jeopardise what they already have; the mutual feeling of eternal friendship!

But Jim is getting more certain along with time, that there is something more to it. Something Jim doesn't entirely understand. It already took years to admit to himself that he loves Spock!

"Jim!"

Jim pulled his mind up above the waves of thoughts.

"I'd suggest you move back a little. The distance between you and the fire is dangerously short."

"yeah yeah right.." Jim moves back quickly.

Spock was looking at him. Jim could sense it. He looked back at him to find a bit of concern in his eyes. At least it seemed so.

"Is everything alright cap..Jim?"

Spock's first officer mode was turned on.

"Nothing....nothing....just..."

Jim desperately searches for words to articulate.

"... Spock, I want to say something to you."

Spock puts his instrument on his side.

"Yes Jim. Go ahead please."

"Spock...I think.."

"I think..we should....I..."

Spock has never seen Jim fumble. It's most unusual, he thought. Is he actually okay? Should he go and talk to McCoy about it?

"Spock I think...we should do this more often"

Jim failed. Again. But the failure seems to be so relaxing every time! Because it ensures a few more space-time of them together just as they already are.

"Do you mean camping? I like it too, Jim. This particular type of terran forest is especially fascinating."

"Yes, I concur." Jim replies to Spock without making eye contact. He was staring at the little flame that was left.

"I believe it is time I go to my tent." Spock stood up. "..and I suggest you do the same. Tomorrow we will have to leave early."

"Thank you, Spock. I think I'm going to stay a little longer. Good night!"

Jim finally looked into Spock's eyes and left a full smile typical of him. Spock raised his eyebrow.

"Good night, Jim."

Jim sinks into the lonely ocean of his thoughts once again.

#star trek #spock #star trek tos #james t kirk #spirk #jim kirk #tos spirk #leonard nimoy #william shatner #spirk fanfiction #captain kirk #star trekkin #trekkies #shore leave

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adamantiumspy · 11 months

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of bar brawls and bruises

part 1

pairing: bones x reader

summary: you, captain pike's daughter, are one of bones' best friends, so when he discovers his feelings for you may run deeper than friendship he has a hard time acting normal about it... and then your ex comes back into the picture

word count: 6272

warnings: swearing, drinking, bar fights

notes: I'm embarrassed by how long it took me to write this after part 1 but here it is! this is the same fic as part 1 but told entirely from bones' perspective (both fics can be read in any order)

“She’s been avoiding me.”

Jim looks up from his lunch to glance at Bones. “Who?”

“Pike.”

Jim shakes his head. “She hasn’t been avoiding you. Why would she be avoiding you?”

“I don’t know.” Bones runs a hand over his face. “But I’m losing sleep over it. I’ve been thinking about every recent interaction I’ve had with her to try and figure out what I’ve done and I’ve come up with nothing.”

“When was the last time you talked to her?” Jim asks, taking a bite from his sandwich.

“Two days ago,” Bones replies, picking at his fries.

“Yeah, I wouldn’t exactly call that avoiding you.”

“But the conversation lasted all of two minutes. I asked her how the plants in the greenhouses were doing and if she’d have time to hang out after she was done. She gave me the plant update but said nothing about hanging out and then scurried off.”

“Maybe some of the plants aren’t doing well. You know how she gets when they’re sick or dying,” Jim says, popping a fry in his mouth.

“She usually tells me that. And it’s not just that interaction. The last few movie nights she’s sat next to you when she usually sits next to me. When I run into her in the hallways she hesitates, like she didn’t expect or even want to see me. And...” Bones looks down at his plate. “And she doesn’t smile at me much anymore.”

“She doesn’t smile at you?” Jim asks incredulously.

“Yeah, she used to give me these big, beaming smiles. They made me feel like the sun was shining on me. And now I’m lucky if I get a small one.”

Jim stares at Bones. “Oh my god.”

“What?” Bones asks.

“You’re in love with her.”

“What?” Bones’ eyes widen. “What are you talking about? She’s our best friend.”

“Our best friend that you’re hopelessly in love with,” Jim says, pointing at him with a fry. “C’mon, Bones. You’ve kept track of how often she sits next to you. You noticed when her smile changed. You’re in love with her.”

Bones blinks. “But I’ve felt the same way about her for as long as we’ve known her.”

Jim raises a brow. “Then you’ve been in love with her for as long as we’ve known her.”

Bones thinks back over the years. “Oh... Oh... Oh no... That must be why she’s avoiding me.”

“What are you talking about?”

“She must’ve figured out I’m in love with her and she doesn’t know how to let me down gently.”

“How would she have figured it out? You didn’t even know.” Having run out of fries, Jim reaches across the table and starts stealing from Bones’ abandoned plate.

“I don’t know. Maybe I subconsciously made a move. It’s the only thing that makes any logical sense.”

“Remind me to get Spock to give you a lesson in logic.”

“Fuck off.” Bones leans back in his seat, arms crossed over his chest.

“Bones,” Jim starts, brushing the crumbs from his hands and giving his friend his full attention. “I think you’re reading too much into this. Pike is definitely not avoiding you on purpose, okay?”

“But–”

“If anything, she’s avoiding everyone. She’s holed up in the greenhouses all day because she insists on doing the work herself. But if you’re so worried, I’ll think of something to get her to come out with us.”

“Like what?”

Jim thinks for a moment, then snaps his fingers, eyes widening. “That new nightclub I pointed out to you the other day! We’ll get the whole gang to go, that way she can’t say no!”

“Jim–”

Jim jumps to his feet. “Nope, no arguing. I’m gonna go put the wheels in motion.”

Before Bones can stop him, Jim runs out of the diner, leaving him to pay for the food and make his way back to his quarters alone. When he gets back to his accommodations, he doesn’t turn on any lights. He throws his jacket onto the bed, grabs himself a drink, sits on the couch, and starts to think.

He starts to think about you.

Bones always knew his feelings for you were deep, but the moment Jim said the word ‘love’ he knew he was truly fucked. Before, thoughts of you usually involved mental notes to mention something that reminded him of you, or the sound of your laugh on loop in his head. Now that he knows his feelings are love, those thoughts have become... significantly less pure.

One look at his bed has him imagining you in it. He imagines your lips trailing kisses along his jaw, down his neck, across his chest. He imagines how your lips would feel wrapped around his–

No. No. You are one of his best friends. He cannot be thinking about you like that. You wouldn’t want him thinking about you like that. And then, as if to taunt him, his imagination conjures up the inverse scenario, him kissing up your thigh until he reaches that point right between your legs. Bones blinks. Dying would surely be preferable to the torture he is putting himself through.

Jim bursts through the door without knocking, sending the last thoughts of you flying out of Bones’ mind. Bones scrambles to grab a pillow to place over his lap.

“Jim, what–”

“My plan has been executed!” Jim exclaims, brushing past Bones and heading straight for his closet. He throws open the doors and starts sifting through the hangers. “I’ve spread the word to most of the crew, so the club will be packed. Plus I ran into Uhura and Sulu and, once I explained everything, they were more than happy to go and cajole Pike into joining.”

“When you say you explained everything...” Bones narrows his eyes at his best friend.

“Oh, not that. Your secret’s safe with me. I just mentioned how Pike’s been distant lately and they seemed to agree.” Jim throws a shirt and some pants at Bones. “Wear this.”

Bones doesn’t even argue. He’s learned there’s no point when it comes to Jim, especially when he’s on a mission. Bones gets up, the remaining evidence of his daydreams now gone, and changes out of his clothes and into the dark jeans and button up shirt.

He’s barely done rolling up the sleeves to his elbows before Jim is dragging Bones out of his quarters, down the hall to Jim’s room so he can quickly change, then back out again to head to the club.

The nightclub is just opening when they arrive. Besides them, there are about five other people—locals—three huddled in a booth and two more at the bar. Bones shoots Jim a look.

“We couldn’t’ve waited an hour? Waited for more of the crew?”

Jim claps Bones on the back. “Where’s the fun in that? Besides, you wanna be here before Pike gets here.”

“I think you just wanted to start drinking already.” Bones watches as Jim flags down the bartender.

Jim grins at him. “You know me too well.”

The bartender passes them two glasses of whiskey. The pair clink their glasses together before taking a sip of their first drinks of the night.

As time passes, the crew starts trickling in. Scotty shows up after half an hour, Keenser trailing behind him. Spock arrives ten minutes later and beelines directly towards them, taking up his usual spot at Jim’s side. Chekov and Sulu get there after an hour. Jim pulls Sulu aside to ask him something, but they talk too quietly for Bones to hear anything. Even if he could make out what they were saying, it wouldn’t make much difference. His gaze hardly lingers from the doors, anxiety rising with every passing minute. You’re not here yet. Why aren’t you here yet? He definitely did something to upset you.

Bones feels Jim’s hand on his shoulder.

“You know,” Jim starts, “staring at the door isn’t gonna make her appear any faster.”

Bones nearly chokes on his drink. “I’m not staring.”

Jim gives him a teasing smile. “No, of course you’re not.”

“I just...” Bones’ gaze flicks back to the doors. He can barely see it now, the club is so packed. “What if...”

“None of that,” Jim says. “She’ll be here.”

Another hour goes by before you and Uhura walk through the doors to the nightclub. Bones forgets how to breathe. A warmth fills his chest at the sight of you, so full of love and hope that he wonders how he ever thought it was just friendship. Your hair is down, framing your beautiful face, and your dress... your dress. He catches a glimpse of your bare thigh through the slit in your dress and a thousand dirty thoughts enter his mind before he can stop himself.

“There you two are!” Jim calls, waving the women over. “I was about to send out a search party!”

In the time it takes you and Uhura to fight through the crowd, Bones banishes the dirty thoughts from his mind. Regardless of how he feels, something is definitely going on with you. You need him as a friend right now, and he intends to show you that friendship is all he expects from you.

When you finally join the group, Bones gives you a smile.

“Woah, darlin’,” he says. “You look incredible.”

Bones freezes. Uhura says something to you, then you look at him and say something else, but he hears none of it. He just complimented your appearance. Sure, he’s called you darlin’ before, and he’s given you plenty of compliments on your clothes, but never has he complimented how you look in your clothes. That wasn’t very 'friendship only’ of him.

Jim saves him, swooping in and carrying you off to the dancefloor, most of the others following behind. Bones slumps against the bar, left with only his drink and Spock.

“Are you alright, Doctor?” Spock asks.

Bones opens and shuts his mouth a few times before downing the rest of his drink.

“I’m fine, Spock,” Bones says, placing the glass on the bartop. “Just a little out of it today, is all. I’ll be right back.”

Bones escapes to the men’s room. He’s grateful when he sees there’s no one else in there, marching straight to the sink and splashing some water on his face. He needs to get it together. He tells himself nothing’s really changed. You two are friends, you don’t know he’s in love with you, and the fastest way to fix whatever is causing you to be distant is to act normal.

Bones stares at himself in the bathroom mirror. He can do that, can’t he? Act normal around you? Maybe he’ll have more luck if he just pretends to act normal. Pretending is something he can definitely do, he reasons. Much easier than forcing himself to revert back to how he felt about you before.

He steels himself, wiping his face of excess water and love, and walks out of the restroom. Bones makes his way back to the bar, where Spock is still stationed. Spock says nothing as Bones rejoins him, and for once he’s grateful for the Vulcan’s quiet nature.

An hour later, you’re bounding over to the pair, gasping for air as you collapse onto the stool between them.

“Worn out already?” Bones teases, flagging down the bartender and motioning for a glass of water. Teasing is allowed, he tells himself. You two tease each other all the time.

“It’s been a while since I broke out my dancing shoes,” you reply. “But Jim doesn’t stop. Where does he get the stamina?”

“I do not know,” Spock says as the bartender slides the glass of water over.

Bones wordlessly passes you the water. You take it, beaming up at him like you used to. For the first time in weeks, he feels like the sun is shining on him. Pretending is definitely working.

“Thank you,” you say, taking a sip of water. “You’re always taking care of me.”

Bones blushes. He ducks his head, hoping you didn’t see. Before he can say anything else, Jim and Scotty bound over to the group.

“You abandoning us already, Pike?” Jim asks, ordering himself another drink.

“Just need a break, is all. Doctor’s orders,” you reply, shooting Bones a begging look.

If you keep looking at him like that, Bones is sure he would do anything you asked.

“That’s right, Jim,” Bones says, keeping his voice as even as possible. “Can’t have one of our best pass out on the dancefloor.”

“Then I guess you’ll have to take her place,” Jim says matter-of-factly.

“Jim, I don’t–” Bones starts, but it’s too late. Jim grabs him by the arm and drags him onto the dancefloor. Within seconds they’re both swallowed up by the crowd.

“How are you doing?” Jim asks once they’re alone... well, as alone as they can be on the dancefloor of a packed nightclub.

“I’m a mess, Jim,” Bones confesses.

“I can see that.”

“I think... I think you’re gonna have to talk to her.”

“Me?” Jim looks at him confused.

“Yeah, you. You’re a neutral party. You can find out why she’s been so distant.”

“Why not you?”

Bones runs a hand through his hair in frustration. “Because if I’m the reason, then she’s not gonna tell me, is she? Besides, I... I’m having a hard time treating her like just my friend. I don’t want to burden her with my problem.”

Jim eyes him for a moment. “Yeah, you’re doing a shit job of acting normal.”

“I know.”

Jim sighs. “Okay, fine. I’ll talk to her.”

The pair push their way off of the dancefloor and make their way back to the bar, only to find you missing. Scotty looks concerned and Spock is... well... Bones has never seen the Vulcan look so angry.

“What’s going on?” Jim asks. “Where’s Pike?”

Scotty starts to explain, bumbling through an interaction it was clear he didn’t quite understand. When he says the names ‘Matthew’ and ‘Anja’, Bones’ blood runs cold. He feels Jim stiffen beside him. The countless stories you’ve told them both over the years about your ex spring to mind, causing Bones’ hands to curl into fists. Spock points them in the direction you went and Bones takes off, Jim running after him.

“Hey, wait.” Jim grabs Bones’ arm, pulling him to a stop. “We’ve gotta have a game plan.”

“The game plan is to go over there and get her the fuck away from them,” Bones spits out.

“We don’t even know if they’re that Matthew and Anja.”

“Did you see Spock?”

Jim drops his shoulders. “Fair point.”

Bones starts moving again, but Jim pulls him back to him.

“Listen,” Jim starts. “Let me take the lead. How’re you at improv?”

“What? What has that got to do with anything?”

“Don’t worry about it. Just do as I do, okay?”

With that, Jim lets him go and they continue marching across the club, zeroing in on the booth you’re seated at with two strangers. Without waiting for an invitation, they each take a seat on either side of you. You blink at them in surprise.

“There you are. We were wondering where you’d disappeared to.” Jim grins at you, before turning to the other half of the table. “Nice to meet you. I’m Jim Kirk, he’s Leonard McCoy. You are?”

“Matthew Williams and Anja Antos,” the man—Matthew—replies smugly. What a prick. The woman—Anja—rakes her eyes over Jim and Bones. Bones shifts slightly closer to you.

“Matthew and Anja,” Jim repeats, turning back to you. “That Matthew and Anja?”

You give a slight nod. Jim immediately scooches closer to you, throwing his arm across the back of your seat. Bones follows his lead, mimicking Jim’s actions and ignoring the butterflies he feels from being so close to you.

“We’ve heard lots about you, Matthew,” Bones spits out. “About you both.”

“And how do you two know Pike?” Anja asks.

“We’re her boyfriends,” Jim says.

Bones does his best to hide his surprise. He can feel his heartbeat in his throat.

“I mean, we’re also coworkers,” Jim continues casually. Bones considers killing him. “I’m the captain of the Enterprise, McCoy’s the CMO, and Pike’s one of my science officers. But I feel like the whole relationship thing supersedes all that.”

Time seems to slow. Bones tries to regulate his breathing. He needs to sell this lie, for your sake. And then he realizes he doesn’t have to lie. He can just let himself be in love with you out in the open. At least for as long as this charade lasts.

Maybe he doesn’t have to kill Jim.

You suddenly lean against his chest and, for the first time that evening, he relaxes against you, draping his arm around your shoulders. He watches you curl your hand in Jim’s, then looks up to see Matthew and Anja taking the scene in.

“You’re both her boyfriends?” Matthew asks incredulously.

“Yep,” Bones replies.

“So how’d you all end up together?” Anya asks challengingly.

“Oh, honey, why don’t you tell them?” Jim turns to you.

“Yeah, you tell the story best,” Bones adds.

Bones realizes it’ll be better for you to lay out the terms of this imaginary three-way relationship. Then he and Jim can adjust their actions accordingly.

“We all met at the Academy,” you start. “Jim and Leonard were cadets and I was an instructor’s assistant. We became fast friends.”

“And... what? You fell into a relationship?” Matthew asks.

“No, no, not all at once,” you continue. “It started with me and Jim. He was a charmer, swept me off my feet. Nobody knows how to make me laugh like Jim does. And it was just the two of us for a while, until one day I woke up and realized I’d fallen in love with Leonard.”

Bones forgets how to breathe again. He’s beaming at you before he can stop himself. You look up at him, returning his smile with a smaller one.

“In hindsight, I should’ve seen it coming,” you continue, eyes still on Bones. “Loving Leonard is like breathing, always there but you’re never aware of it unless you concentrate hard enough.”

Bones decides he’s going to pretend every word out of your mouth is true. At least until this charade is over. He’s already growing far too fond of how happy they make him.

Your gaze snaps back to Matthew and Anya. “I told Jim immediately because I’m not a cheater. To my surprise he said he was willing to share, providing Leonard felt the same.”

“And you two are happy with sharing?” Matthew asks.

“We’re happy with any bit of love we can get from her. She’s an incredible woman.” Jim grins.

“If it were up to us,” Bones says, “we’d be married already.”

The moment the words leave his lips, he realizes how true they are. He’s only consciously known how he feels about you for less than a day, but he can’t imagine living a life without you. Bones’ gaze slips back to you, but you’re still looking at Matthew and Anja.

“Baby,” Anja says, addressing Matthew. “I need a new drink.”

“Of course,” Matthew replies, turning to the other half of the table. “If you’ll excuse us for a moment.”

As Matthew and Anja move towards the bar, Jim whispers, “I don’t think they fully bought it.”

“Of course they didn’t buy it,” you whisper back. “They were never gonna buy me having two partners. They still think no one would associate themselves with me of their own free will.”

“They’ll buy it if you kiss one of us.” Jim looks over at Bones.

Bones is definitely going to kill him.

You widen your eyes at Jim. “If I what?”

Bones’ mind races. He wants to kiss you. He wants to kiss you badly. But he also doesn't want to force it, so he decides to put you at ease and give you options.

“If you’re worried about our willingness, darlin’, don’t be,” Bones says. “Jim and I got you into this mess and we’re gonna get you out of it. The last thing we want is for those two assholes to think they’ve one-upped you.”

You look between Jim and Bones. A part of Bones hopes you pick Jim. He doesn’t think his heart could take it if he knew the taste of your lips and knew he could never kiss you again.

Bones isn’t ready for it when you tilt your face up and press your lips against his. He freezes for half a second before his body takes over, gently cupping your face in his hand, parting his lips to deepen the kiss. This is better than he ever could have imagined.

He doesn’t want the kiss to end, but he’s running out of oxygen. You both take in air, breaths mingling in the space between you, but he doesn’t pull away and neither do you. He hopes beyond hope that he doesn’t look as lovestruck as he feels.

“Did they see?” you finally murmur.

“Yeah, they saw,” Jim confirms.

Bones eyes you carefully as you pull away from him.

“I, uh... I think I need some air,” you say.

Jim rises to let you out of the booth, retaking his seat once you’re standing. Before you slip away, you lean down and press a kiss against Jim’s cheek.

“What was that for?” he asks.

“I’ve allegedly got two boyfriends, don’t I?” you reply.

Jim chuckles as you slip away and out of the club. Once you’re gone, he turns to Bones, smiling smugly.

“How was the kiss?”

“Fuck off,” Bones says, but there’s no bite behind it. His gaze still lingers on the club doors.

“C’mon,” Jim nudges. “Let’s get back to the rest of the group.”

The pair abandon the booth, heading back to the bar. They find Spock and Sulu, each nursing their own drinks, eyes glued to the club doors.

“What’s going on?” Jim asks.

Chekov appears through the doors and makes his way over to them.

“She says she is going back to her room,” he announces.

Bones’ shoulders slump. He fights every instinct inside him telling him to go after you. If it were any other time, he would, but he suspects he’s part of the reason you don’t want to come back. Better to leave you be for the night.

Scotty and Uhura make their way over from the dancefloor.

“What’s going on?” Uhura asks.

“Pike went back to the accommodations,” Sulu informs her.

Uhura frowns. “What happened?”

Jim, Bones, and Spock all exchange looks. Then they explain about Matthew and Anja. At the end of the story, Sulu, Uhura, Scotty, and Chekov all look horrified.

“Where are they?” Uhura asks, voice dripping with venom.

“Uhura, don’t,” Jim warns.

“I’m off duty, Captain.”

As the rest of the group tries to talk Uhura down from murdering your ex, Bones tunes them out. He thinks about your kiss instead. He thinks about how soft your lips had felt against his, how you’d melted against him. Now that he’s gotten a taste of you, he wants more. He and Jim will definitely have to talk about this later.

Bones hears your name. It interrupts his train of thought, but it’s not spoken by any of his friends. He turns and sees Matthew and Anja a little ways down the bar.

“What did you just say?” Bones asks, raising his voice.

His friends all stop and look at him, gazes moving down the bar to see Matthew and Anja.

“I think you heard what I said,” Matthew says, turning his body towards Bones.

Bones moves down the bar towards them, the rest of the group trailing after him.

“I’d like you to repeat it.”

Matthew looks from Bones to his friends. “I said Pike only got into the Academy because of her dad.”

“Excuse me?” Jim spits out.

“C’mon, she was seventeen. People rarely get into the Academy when they’re minors.”

“I did,” Chekov says through gritted teeth.

“And I’m sure you got there on your own merits,” Matthew says condescendingly.

“You should leave,” Bones says, voice low.

“Please.” Anja laughs. “You can’t possibly be serious. You can’t all like Pike enough to be defending her like this.”

“Try us,” Sulu says.

“You don’t have to pretend with us.” Matthew smiles knowingly. “I’m sure the only reason she’s still even on the Enterprise is because she’s fucking the captain and the CMO.”

Spock looks more enraged than Bones has ever seen him. Scotty and Sulu both put themselves between him and Matthew so that the Vulcan can calm himself. Jim makes a motion towards Matthew, but Chekov grabs his arm and pulls him back. Uhura is shaking with rage. Bones’ hands are in fists.

“Fuck. Off,” Bones growls.

“Or what?” Matthew taunts.

Bones punches him. Matthew doesn’t have a moment to recover from the unexpected attack before Bones is swinging again, sending him sprawling against the bar, drinks spilling across the bartop and tumbling to the ground. Anja screams, but they all ignore her.

Bones pins Matthew to the bar, punching him again and again. Matthew scrambles for purchase, hand landing on a glass which he smashes across Bones’ face. Bones stumbles backwards. Matthew lunges at him, the pair falling to the ground. Bones wrestles with Matthew, each man throwing a punch or two when he can.

The crew, having frozen at the first punch Bones threw, springs into action. Jim pulls Matthew up and off of Bones, Chekov and Sulu getting their crewmate off the ground. Matthew lunges at Bones again, but Jim pushes him back towards Anja.

“He said fuck off,” Jim spits out.

Matthew looks from Jim to Bones to the rest of the crew. Bruises are starting to form across his face, surrounding cuts that pepper his features. His lips are starting to swell and his nose is definitely broken. Bones doesn’t feel like he looks much better, his face throbbing and his hand hurting like crazy.

“Hey!” the bartender shouted, getting everyone’s attention. “All of you, out!”

Anja pulls Matthew away, the pair scurrying out the doors before any more punches can be thrown. The seven members of the Enterprise crew file out more slowly, breathing in the cool night air.

“Jeez, Bones. You could’ve warned us at least,” Jim says. The others murmur agreements.

“I just did what all of you were thinking,” Bones replies.

“Damn right,” Uhura says.

Jim takes in Bones’ appearance. “Let’s go back to the hotel. I’ll comm M’Benga while we walk over.”

Bones shakes his head. “I’ll take care of myself.”

“Don’t be ridiculous.” Jim starts steering Bones towards their hotel. “Let me at least get Chapel to come and take a look at you.”

“Jim, I’m serious, I can take care of myself.” Bones extracts himself from Jim’s grasp. “Besides, I need to get supplies from the Enterprise anyways.”

Before anyone can say anything, he splits off from the group, heading in the direction of the spaceport. The adrenaline is starting to leave his system, the pain from his injuries becoming more and more apparent. He picks up his pace and before he knows it he’s on the Enterprise, heading towards the medbay. He passes the greenhouses on his way down and he thinks about you for a moment, but the pain is almost overwhelming at this point so the thought of you vanishes almost as quickly as it came.

Bones makes it to the medbay. He opens up the cabinets and is rifling through supplies when the doors to the room whoosh open. He turns in surprise, locking eyes with you. You’re standing in the doorway, taking the scene in, still in that distracting dress and holding gardening shears.

“Jesus Christ, Len!” you exclaim, rushing into the medbay, dropping the shears onto the closest surface.

“Easy, darlin’,” Bones says. “It’s not as bad as it looks.”

“Not as bad as it looks!” You raise a hand and grab a hold of his face by the chin, turning his head this way and that, analyzing the state it’s in. You then turn your attention to his bloody, bruised hand. He can almost see the cogs turning in your head as you take his injuries in.

“You wouldn’t’ve even seen me like this if I hadn’t run out of my damn first aid supplies earlier today. Keenser’s still oozing that highly acidic green goo and a coupla lieutenants got caught in the crossfire.” Bones huffs a laugh, hoping to lighten the mood. He cocks his head towards your shears. “What were you gonna do if it wasn’t me? Snip the intruder to death?”

“Ha ha, very funny.” You eye him for a moment. “Okay, go get on that bed over there.”

“What?”

“I’m playing doctor tonight. I’ll collect the supplies and meet you over there.”

“Darlin’, I can patch myself up just fine.”

“Just because you can, doesn’t mean you have to. Now go on. Get,” you say, waving him towards the bed.

Bones gives a slight smile before heading towards the bed. He sits on the edge, feet dangling over the side. While you collect supplies, he tells himself not to read too much into your actions. You’re helping because you’re one of his best friends. That’s it. He’s not gonna let his love for you get in the way of your kindness.

You walk over to the bed, metal tray in hand loaded with all the supplies you’ll need. You plop the tray down on the bed beside him.

“The other guy better look worse,” you say, falling into the usual banter you share as you grab the rubbing alcohol, dump a bit on a cotton square, and start to clean the wounds on his hand.

“Trust me, he does,” Bones says, grimacing as you move his hand. He doesn’t want to talk about Matthew right now.

You frown at his reaction, putting the cotton square down and grabbing the tricorder. “Oh yeah? Must’ve done something real bad if he made you do something like this. This isn’t really your style. Jim, on the other hand...” You finish scanning his hand, frown deepening. Before Bones can ask about the readings, you say, “You’ve got a hairline fracture at your wrist. You’ll need a brace for that, right?”

Bones nods. “We’ve got some over in that cabinet.”

You walk over to the cabinet Bones identified, grabbing the appropriate brace then walking back to Bones.

“I’m gonna add some salve to your hand before I put on the brace to help with the cuts. I’ll try my best not to hurt you,” you say.

Bones nods again. You apply the healing salve as quickly and carefully as possible. You’re being so gentle with him. Bones gives the occasional wince and you rub your thumb along the side of his hand in comfort. He imagines a scenario where your hand is in his because you want it to be. Where you rub your thumb along his hand because you love him, not because he did something very stupid, something he’s afraid you’re gonna be mad at him for when he tells you.

He watches you as you finish wrapping his hand and slip the brace on. Bones adjusts the straps on the brace to his satisfaction as you grab a fresh cotton square, add rubbing alcohol, and move to the cuts on his face. For easier access, you slot yourself between his legs. Bones’ stomach does a flip.

“What were you thinking, Len? You’re a surgeon. You kinda need your hands to do your job.” You start to clean the wounds on his face.

Bones fights a smile. You only call him Len when it’s just the two of you, and because you’ve been avoiding him he hasn’t heard you say it in weeks. And now you’ve said it twice.

“My hand will heal. Besides, if I hadn’t, Jim would’ve. Hell, Spock would’ve.” Bones winces as you pass the cotton square over the largest of the cuts.

“Spock? Our Spock?” you ask incredulously, dumping the squares on the tray and reaching for the healing salve. You apply small dabs of the salve on his facial wounds.

“Sulu and Scotty nearly had to hold him back,” Bones says.

“Jesus. Who was this guy and what did he do?”

Despite his fear, Bones refuses to lie to you. “It was Matthew.”

You freeze, focusing your gaze to meet Bones’.

“What did... what did he say?” you ask quietly.

Bones keeps his eyes on you. “He was talkin’ shit, insulting you. Started by sayin’ you only got into the Academy because of your dad. It only escalated from there. The middle part’s a bit fuzzy, but I remember he said something about how the only reason you’re still on the Enterprise is because you’re fucking the captain and the CMO. Which is just...” Bones clenches his jaw in anger. “Maybe sleeping with Jim would come with perks, but me? You outrank me. Sleeping with me wouldn’t...” Bones cuts himself off. He wants to tell you the truth but that doesn’t mean he has to reveal his feelings for you. “Anyway, I wasn't gonna let his comments slide, and neither was Jim. Our made-up three-way relationship aside, you are one of the only people in all of Starfleet that’s worth a damn. You run circles around both of those assholes. We tried to tell them to fuck off, but they wouldn’t listen. Chekov was holding Jim back, Sulu and Scotty were blocking Spock, and I guess Uhura thought I’d be rational enough not to get violent. She thought wrong. It was all over before it really started, lots of broken glass and spilled drinks, but I got a few good punches in.”

You lean up and press a kiss against Bones’ cheek, stunning him into silence.

“Wha... What was that for?” he finally asks.

“For defending my honor,” you say. “Thank you, Len.”

“Here I was thinkin’ you’d be upset,” Bones murmurs.

“Matthew’s an asshole. Anja too. They could get blown up on a starship for all I care.”

Bones chuckles as you finish lathering his injuries in the healing salve. You wipe your hand of excess salve and then grab the bandages. Bones lets you continue to work in silence, watching you as you place butterfly bandages on the largest of his facial wounds.

“Okay,” you say. “All done.”

“Got me all patched up, Doc?” Bones teases.

“As best I could.” You gather all the used supplies and place them on the metal tray. “You’ll need to ice that black eye and change the bandages every once in a while, but you already knew that. And I’m guessing you know how long you need to wear that brace for, or will at least have M’Benga look you over as soon as possible.”

Bones nods. “Thank you, darlin’. You didn’t have to do all this, you know.”

“You don’t have to thank me, Len. I care about you. This is the least I would do for someone I care about.”

You care about him. Bones has always known you care about him, but the way you just said it makes him hope that you might... that if he just...

“I love when you call me Len.”

Bones watches your face intently, but your expression doesn’t change. Shit. He just made a fool of himself for nothing.

“I love when you call me darlin’.”

Bones blinks at the returned confession. He thinks he imagined it. You both stare at each other, unmoving. Bones breaks the silence before you do.

“I wanted to say sorry.”

You furrow your brow. Bones thinks he’s definitely making a mess of this, but he’s too far in now. He has to see it through.

“What for?” you ask.

“For everything back at the club. Jim and I should’ve told you what we had planned beforehand. And I’m especially sorry you had to kiss me.”

“I didn’t have to kiss you, Len. I chose to.”

“Still, you wouldn’t’ve if we hadn’t put you in an awkward position.”

“That’s not true,” you murmur.

Bones blinks at you, eyes flicking to your lips. Neither of you moves, simultaneously too afraid to stick to the status quo or break it.

You make the first move again, kissing him softly. He sighs against your lips and wraps his arms around your waist. You press yourself against him, parting your lips to deepen the kiss, your hands cupping his face.

When you part for air, Bones resolves to confess. If this is going to happen, he wants to be all in.

“I love you,” he murmurs against your lips.

You pull back. “You love me?”

Bones gives you a soft smile. “C’mon, darlin’, you must’ve known.”

You shake your head. “Uhura and Sulu tried to tell me, but I thought they were just teasing me.”

Bones furrows his brow. “Why would that tease you?”

“Because I love you.” You run your thumbs across his cheeks. “God, Len, I am so in love with you.”

Warmth blooms in Bones’ chest, all the love and hope he’d tried to squash coming back to wash over him. He pulls you into another kiss and you giggle against his lips.

“What?” Bones asks.

“Uhura and Sulu are going to be insufferable for a while,” you say.

Bones grins. “You think they’re going to be insufferable? Wait until Jim finds out.”

You both laugh. Then he kisses you again. And again. And again.

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