Zoan and the Vanguard
Caryn Nicole Wells (Colorado, 2021)
For the women who smash glass ceilings and the men who hold the ladders
Prologue
The Raingate opens every Thursday at noon. The Vanguard voted and settled that this time was not disruptive to the normal goings-on and happenstance. Karishma Wentworth, the Vanguardʼs Environmental Chair, lost seven ancestors to Katrina. Once elected to her Chair, she vowed that Grateful would never know flood devastation. The Raingate was installed at mountainʼs peak to catch the rain and repurpose the fallen water for commercial irrigation. To keep Grateful green, a release feature was installed. Once every week, on Thursdays at midday, the captured water was freed.
Zoan scampered through the streets on this late summerʼs eve, quite peeved at this sighting of rain. Beneath the moon, neon signs flashed, “RAINGATE MALFUNCTION” as the water fell on Friday night, unplanned. Itʼd taken two hours to straighten her hair. Another hour to fix her face. Zoan was naturally beautiful, and she would not have been annoyed if she had chosen a lesser favorite pair of heels. She opted for her whimsical, mismatched pair of pumps. The box came with one fuchsia heel and one lime.
The “Rogue Bis” shoe by SJP had earned vintage status twenty years prior. She had paid five times the original $395 for the find. Her hair would revert to curls. She could re- powder her nose. But Zoan was unwilling to subject her shoes to rain damage. She took them off and zipped from covered alleyway to awning, with three blocks left to reach Whirl.
In the daytime, Grateful gleamed with post-modern tenacity. Every building scraping the sky without remorse. The reconstruction had been overseen by Wendy Carpenter, the Vanguardʼs Infrastructure Chair. Sheʼd chosen New York City, circa 1927, as the architectural inspiration for the new Grateful. Numbered streets ran east-to- west and noun streets, north-to-south, making the city grid easier to navigate. And it was, fairly so, unless the Raingate opened at an inconvenient time, like a buzzing and expectant Friday night.
One block away from her destination, Zoan stopped at the corner of 3rd and Harriet. She ducked under a corner-store awning to view the statue in the square. Celine dʼ Arc, the Vanguardʼs Art Chair, commissioned seven statues to honor Gratefulʼs governing body; each statue with a different design and theme: Environment, Health, Infrastructure, Human Management, History, Economics, and Art. One statue for each woman-held Chair of the Vanguard.
In the center of the square, stood the statue to commemorate Gratefulʼs History. At the base of the 30-foot structure, copper flames licked the ankles of a 20-foot-woman, 5-feet- wide. The woman, who stood unphased by the fire underneath, held a book in her left hand, and a diamond star in her right. Zoan darted from the awning and up final the block, reaching the bright red, high rise called Whirl. The rain glistened beneath her feet as she splashed her way indoors, showing her Placement Card to the bouncer standing guard. He waved her onward as she slid into her shoes and down the hallway to the thumping disco sound. Two leather doors in a solid gold frame opened inward to invite Zoan to the scene.
Three hundred and fifty people met beneath crystal globes, lit with pink neon lights in the center. The walls, painted red, covered in glowing neon paint brought the bright lights of nighttime Grateful indoors. An ancient song was blasting. “I Want Love” by Jessie J, prevented any real conversation from taking place. Pink drinks in glass goblets were served to men and women alike as they flirted underneath the strobing lights. Zoan, in dark-wash jeans and a white, satin camisole, slid onto an open bar seat at the end.
The bartender who knew her well brought a whiskey-sour double and a coaster, placing both in front of Zoan. She smiled and she nodded as she opened her purse to pay. The bartender shook her head and pointed across the bar. A woman dressed in black, wearing circular rose-colored glasses, smiled and raised her drink as a toast to Zoan. Zoan nodded back at the stranger and took a sip to be polite. The woman left her seat, turning the corner in Zoanʼs direction. Zoanʼs phone buzzed in her pocket and she read the received text, “Iʼm out back”. She put her drink back down on the bar. The stranger reached out her hand, Zoan shook it and replied and rose from her seat, saying, “Iʼm meeting someone here. Thanks for the drink”, as the woman approached. She didnʼt wait to hear a response before squeezing her way through the dance floor, past the bathrooms in the hall, and out the backdoor.
The alleyway was black, save for the shimmer of the rain. Zoan used the light from her phone to aid her sight. A man in a hoodie approached without saying hello and removed a silver compact from his pocket. Zoan grabbed the shiny disk from the man she knew as “Dub” and opened it to check the quality of the product. Thirty blue pills, one for each day of the month, sealed between plastic and foil. She reached into her purse, removing $3000 cash. She handed it to the man and turned to leave. “If you need a reason to use those, give me a call”, the man smirked after her. Zoan said nothing, rolled her eyes, and went back the way she came. She hurried through the dancing crowd to reclaim her seat. She pushed the abandoned drink to the center of the bar. She ordered a cosmopolitan and opened a tab. The fast-working bartender brought Zoan the pink-ish drink and placed it on a coaster like before.
Zoan took her first sip and stared at the coaster sheʼd been given. A reflective, rainbow square featuring the face of Quinn Sandoval, the Vanguardʼs Health Chair, stared back at Zoan from the wooden bar. She gave the middle finger to the bitch whoʼd banned birth control and flipped the coaster over, hiding the image. Zoan took a few more sips and let the atmosphere transport her to a place where there were no diamond stars or regulations.
Chapter One
Zoan woke to the sun that snuck into the open window. Its rays exacerbated the painful pounding in her head. The room spun clockwise as she rolled out of the bed. Her feet found her camisole at the base of the footboard. Her eyes met her shoes strewn across the bedroom floor. She wriggled into the jeans she had worn the night before. With her satin camisole still damp from the rain. She decided to borrow a shirt. Zoan tiptoed to the closet and grabbed the nicest one she could find; a starched-white, collared, menʼs work shirt with steam pressed cuffs. She rolled the sleeves to her elbows and tucked the front-end into her jeans. She fluffed her hair and dashed out the door before Pete could realize she was gone. Or maybe his name was Shawn.
She knew had to leave quickly or heʼd ask her to stay for breakfast. Zoan hated morning dates and she hadnʼt come to talk. She wouldʼve felt bad about taking the shirt if he had been any good. Sheʼd bring it back, or sheʼd send it back.
Definitely, send it back.
Zoan opened her purse: one phone, one wallet, one round and silver compact. She swallowed a blue pill and dove into the elevator. She took a slow, deep breath as the steel doors closed behind her. She scampered out the door and onto the sidewalk.
The sun was even brighter on the corner of 9th and Athena as she wandered up the block towards her home. The high rises stood at attention as she strutted cheerfully by, passing under the flashing lights of Hinterland. The actor-singer-dancers made their way to the stage door, carrying costumes and stage makeup in their hands. The last show sheʼd seen was ʻMother and Matriarch: The Birth of Grateful.ʼ Zoan had waited at the front of a five hour line to purchase opening night tickets. She'd bought out a box to sit alone.
She glided up the red-velvet stairs in a vintage, Oscar de la Renta gown. The sweeping, black skirt rose to sequins at her knees. Bursts of blue and whispers of red exploded onto a sparkling gold corset, featuring blinding dusts of sequins down the sleeves. Zoan ordered sparkling water with a hint of mint and lime. The usher offered his arm and escorted her to her seat. She sat to the east of three commanding, consuming chandeliers; each one handcrafted with fifty-thousand crystals that sent the light to dance. In the box across the way, Céline dʼArc and her staff sat laughing over bubbling drinks and cheese trays. Zoan longed to hear the joke that had caused such a stir.
The house lights dimmed. The Playbillʼs list of players were the best of Grateful talent, but Zoan hadnʼt gone to watch the show. Sheʼd come to see the conductor lift his baton from the pit and lead the instrumentalists through the opening orchestra suite. E- flat major served a sweetness with a sudden dash of strength. Violins brought relief that was interrupted by the regality of sustained French horn. The brass worked its way down chromatic scale, landing at the feet of the timpani. The rumble of the drum warned of the coming harmonic climax that brought a single tear to Zoanʼs eye. The emotional release was followed by a floating mist of flute and a finishing moan of cello at the end. The conductor lowered his baton half staff and the musicians followed suit. Zoan's night had come and gone with the musical introit. Sheʼd gotten what she came for and did not bother with the rest. She drifted down the theatre steps and onto the sidewalk, waltzing into the warm night that ended for her there.
The Hinterland was not nearly as grand in the blazing light of day. This, Zoan thought, they had in common. The concrete burned beneath the heat as Zoan rushed onward home. Her mission was disrupted by a shouting in the square. She followed the cries up the street past the History square, to find scores of people cheering at a stage. The crowd obstructed her view so she climbed and stood on a bench seat, using her hand to shade her eyes from the sun. A tall and slender brunette stood at a microphone, arms outstretched. Her eyes were a piercing blue that promised fear and disrespect. The people, mostly women, leaned further into her aura; inhaling her superiority. The woman at the microphone spoke in a high-pitched squeal that had become Barbie Stanfieldʼs key identifier. She wore a tight, pink latex dress, leaving nothing to the imagination. Her surgically enhanced breasts bounced with her bright, cartoonish consonants. Her perfect teeth sparkled as she spoke.
“People of Grateful...it is my distinct honor to announce that I am challenging Quinn Sandoval for her Health Chair post!” The crowd erupted with roaring cheers. Barbie stood in silence, basking in the praise. The campaign decor sheʼd chosen was inappropriate, but on-brand. The streetlights were wrapped in pink feather boas. The stage was dressed in glitter that speckled across the city concrete. The mic stand was covered in cheap imitation crystals that reminded Zoan of the dollhouse Barbie owned as a child.
The Stanfields were a well-respected pillar of the new Grateful. Her father, biologist Joseph Stanfield was the brain behind the Raingate. His dissertation, “Taming the Elements: A Study of Environmental Synergy” caught the selective attention of the Vanguard. Dr. Stanfield was commissioned to complete the project and did so in eight months. Zoan never met him personally, only seeing him in passing. But her sharpest childhood memory was of him; not necessarily of him, but what happened after he disappeared. Barbie cried uncontrollably for the next seven days. Her mother failed to console her child and herself. The dollhouse Joseph bought and had been the envy of the playground, now sat vacant and growing downward into the Stanfieldʼs front lawn.
Three houses down from Zoanʼs, witnesses gathered in the lawn. The Stanfield patriarch had last been seen in the driverʼs seat of his vintage Tesla. The report was inconclusive. Heʼd driven off into the night, and Joseph Stanfield was never seen or heard from again.
ʻA great loss for Gratefulʼ flashed on every available screen. Three days later, the world kept spinning. Meredith Stanfield, beloved wife and attentive mother, assumed the top position at Stanfield Laboratories. Barbie was a rare sight after that. She spent her days at the Academy for Gifted Girls and her afternoons and weekends in private tutoring. Barbie graduated from the Academy as itʼs 45th Valedictorian. She followed a full scholarship to the Ember School of Science, studying organic chemistry: pre-med track. She accepted a surgical fellowship at Mother of Mercy Hospital, becoming the foremost fetal surgeon in Grateful. Sheʼd graced the cover ʻDoctorʼs Monthlyʼ an unprecedented thirteen times. But, Barbieʼs Vanguard ambitions, no one saw coming.
The crowd fell to silence when Barbie stepped back to the microphone. The feedback failed to shake the crowd as they leaned even further into her platform. She took the stage alone with the exception of one other. A tall and thin black woman, dressed more aptly than her politician wife, graced the far-right side of the stage. Stacey Stanfield, architect, and woman who never smiled, stood firmly with her hands clamped together. Her jeweled fingers rested on her wide-legged pants. Zoan had seen them in this yearʼs edition of the vintage Calvin Klein catalogue, selling for an easy $1500. Finishing the look were her envious 1-carat diamonds, twinkling singular and stately in each ear. She looked proudly on as Barbie continued her speech.
“Women of Grateful...I am proud to stand before you today and announce this new beginning. Grateful rose from the ashes of a world destroyed by war. And here we boldly stand as a beacon of what can be....of whatʼs to come.”
The crowd gave a civilized clap that tapered into silence. Stacey wheeled a covered cart onto the stage to Barbieʼs side. Barbie lifted the sheet to reveal 7 glass vials filled with shining blue liquid to the stopper.
“Welcome to the revolution!”, she screeched, arms held high with dramatic pause. The crowd didnʼt respond and Zoan laughed to herself at the silence. If the Evita stance was the revolution, she knew where this was headed. Clearly, Barbie was high.
“This blue baby is a single-dose injection called the HC-42 vaccine.” Zoanʼs eyebrows raised to her forehead. She was more surprised by her own intrigue than the mystery ink Barbie held. “This one shot will revolutionize womenʼs health and usher us into a bright future.” Stacey stood, palms together and smiling. Zoan waited for them to break out into song.
“The HC-42 vaccine is formulated to suppress motherly instinct, reduce emotional reaction, extend attention span, and reduce needed sleep to one hour per day. We, the founders and protectors of Grateful, must continue our quest for success! We must expand our borders! We must breach new frontiers! We must increase our knowledge! We must innovate! And thus, there is no time to procreate!”
The crowd erupted into boundless cheers and some in thankful tears. Zoan watched the jubilance wash over the crowd. She wondered if she was the only woman who felt a tinge of shock, or even fear. She scanned the crowd and met the eye of a woman in all black, peering up at her from the circular, rose-colored spectacles sheʼd seen last night. The woman removed her glasses, sending Zoanʼs blood straight to her brain. Quinn Sandoval smiled and nodded at Zoan who remained shocked and speechless. Quinn turned back to the stage. Zoan followed her gaze back to Barbie.
“We will vaccinate our daughters at birth and prepare them for the future! We are the future. We are Grateful!”
Barbie placed her right hand to her chest and then straight upward to the sun. “To the Mother!”, she yelled. The crowd echoed her gesture and sentiment with one unified voice. “To the Mother!”
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Zoan arrived at her loft after a long walk home. She placed her thumb on the reader that turned the lock. She closed the door behind her, leaning onto it for support, sliding down and sitting on the marble floor. White and black tiles spread throughout her apartment, adding a glossed and checkered busyness to the nest. Two sharp, houndstooth chairs sat on either side of her couch; long and white, covered in velvet with no cushion. The idea was interrupted by pink throw pillows, which were gently offset by a sapphire coffee table. The jewel-topped centerpiece introduced the granite fireplace. Blue velvet ottomans sat at its feet.
The loftʼs ceiling itself was a deepened shade of gold, hand carved into cubic tiles of glimmer. Zoan stared into the opulence and inhaled sharply. Her eyes met a mounted oak frame. The stained, glassed wood held a thin, square receipt reading “402” in bolded ink. Itʼd been three years since the annual lottery that brought Zoan to Grateful Metro. Three years that felt like three, long days all rolled into one.
She'd stood in the queue with the rest of the “25ʼs” and took a numbered ticket "402". London Clark, the Human Management Chair, a round white woman with silver hair, stood in a grey pantsuit before the crowd. Of the 900 hopefuls, only three numbers were called.
78, 639, and 402.
Two black men and Zoan were moving from Lower Third to a shining new life in Grateful Metro. They were escorted from the crowd and bussed immediately to their new homes. The first gate closed behind them, then the second, and the third. When they arrived in Grateful Metro, they were issued keys to their homes, Metro Placement IDʼs, and new names.
Lower Third children dream of winning Migration placement from their first learning about it at age 10. Parents were prohibited from discussing it at all, and the penalty of such was a year behind bars. The Vanguard thought it best to limit exposure of such hopes, as to not distract the children from their duties.
Zoan stood and walked to the bathroom. “Shower on.” The water fell. Steam filled the room as Zoan disrobed and walked to the mirror. She placed her jewelry on the countertop and stared into her reflection. Her curls looked three feet tall as the rain had washed them in. The heat opened the pores of her toffee-colored skin. She looked into her deep brown eyes that took up most of her face. She parted her lips to sigh; their fullness caving to the gesture. She turned towards the shower and stepped in. The water drenched her hair as she reached for her shampoo. She lathered and thought about of the days before campaigns and vaccines.
After conditioner, two body washes, a sugar scrub and a body oil, Zoan left the shower and headed to her closet. She picked a grey, sleeved, flannel dress sheʼd never wear outside. She pulled it over her head and smoothed it straight. She poured a shot of bourbon from her vase-shaped decanter sitting on an engraved dresser made of glass. The dresser matched the nightstand by her California King; white pillows, white sheets, and a white comforter made of fur.
Above the bed was a window overlooking Grateful Metro. She peered through the glass and found the park where Barbie spoke. She took a sip of bourbon, and another after that. She took an unsure seat at the edge of her bed. The mirror above her dresser flashed a familiar ten-digit number. The neon blinking was followed by a faint ringing. She ignored the notification until the ring and flash subsided. “Play voicemail.”
The mirror beeped and a voice she knew began to speak.
“Hey, itʼs Eli”, the playback said. And before Zoan had a chance to feel, the mirror, lights, and HVAC powered down. Bright red lights flooded her home and her curtains zipped shut, blocking any outside light from streaming in. The television in the wall clicked on and Zoan rolled her eyes. An artificial, female voice flooded the speakers in her room.
“THIS IS AN AWARENESS FROM THE VANGUARD.”
London Clark appeared on the screen in her signature, grey suit, her eyes squinted severely, and her arms firmly folded.
She spoke, “Tenant 402, youʼve used 90 hours of your Weekly Out-of-Nest Allotment. You have 10 hours left before mandatory quarantine takes effect. Please be advised.”
Zoan sighed as the Lower Third hijacked her running thoughts. Theyʼd had no curfew and no campaign rallies. But theyʼd also had no food.
“No extra time is given. Unused hours do not roll over. And lastly, Out-of-Nest hours cannot be saved, sold, or shared.”
The lights returned to normal, and the curtains drew to light.
London Clark nodded, “To the Mother.”
Chapter Two
Zoan grabbed her keys and marched to her door. She smirked at the Fendi furniture filling her designer prison cell. She scampered down the stairs, into the buildingʼs parking garage and pressed the panic button on the fob to find her car. The BMW X4 Coupe responded to the call from the corner. She journeyed to the edge of the garage and slid into the driverʼs seat. She turned the key and backed into the lane. One floor down, and six more to go, Zoan reached for the GPS to set her course. She felt a tugging to her left and stopped mid-circle to the exit, pulling the tail of her grey dress out of the door. She fluffed her hair in the rear-view mirror and applied her favorite lip gloss. She found her aviator shades in the leather, center console. She picked a vintage song to match the mood. "Hello," the songstress cooed. "It's me..."
She pressed the glasses into her nose and pushed her foot down on the gas.
The skyscrapers that lined the main road formed a tunnel leading out. The shade from the steel masses darkened the way. Zoan set her lights to ʻautoʼ and the asphalt came to life, giving brightness to the slow-encroaching night. The silence of the engine pulled her into introspection. She critiqued her last three years until her thoughts began to attack.
“Call Eli” Zoan said to the digital assistant. The dial tone rang four times before he answered.
“This is Eli”, he said with a voice that calmed her soul. “Hey”, Zoan responded, hoping to counter his formalities.
“Who is this?” Eli asked with an accusatory tone. “Me....Zoan”, she said and prayed that he was joking.
Eli released a low-toned laugh that Zoan hadnʼt heard in a year. “Are you borrowing someoneʼs phone?” he asked, and Zoan felt like an idiot. Sheʼd just bought the car two weeks ago. He wouldnʼt have the number. “No. Iʼm calling from my car. Iʼm on the way to your house now.” Her response led to silence that lasted longer than she expected.
“Umm...okay. I guess thatʼs fine. You didnʼt have to come all the way out here. You couldʼve just called me back.”
His words made perfect sense and she knew heʼd seen right through her. The visit was not for him, but for herself.
“Itʼs Saturday”, Eli continued. “What are your Out-of-Nest hours looking like?” Zoan knew that if she told the truth, heʼd tell her to turn around. Eli was never one to break the rules or ruffle any feathers. He was calculated and planned, and she almost never was. Their differences were both their attraction and demise.
“I have time," Zoan shook her head in disapproval of her own falsehood. "Iʼve had a boring week.”
Zoan shook her head in disapproval of her own falsehood.
“Okay. Cool. Well, call me back when you get to the gate. And put the phone on speaker.”
Eliʼs concern made Zoan wish she hadnʼt lied before. “Iʼm pulling up now.” This part was true. Sheʼd arrived at the gate and felt a sunken feeling.
The gate was 20 feet tall with pointed spikes that trimmed its peak. Motion censored floodlights lined the gate from east to west. Armed guards sat in lofted towers, 10 feet above the gate. A ground guard waved her forward to the entrance.
The guard shined her flashlight through the windshield as she approached the driverʼs side. Zoan rolled her window down and placed her hands on the wheel.
“Placement Card”, she barked.
Zoan said, “Iʼm reaching for it now.” She made no sudden movements and retrieved the card from overhead.
The guard looked at Zoan, to the card, and back at Zoan. “And youʼve not been here this year, correct?” Zoan shook her head no and stared straight ahead, her hands still on the wheel. The guard squinted her eyes and gave Zoanʼs card to the gate attendant. “Run it,” she barked again with a voice that made Zoan jump.
The attendant did as she was told and the guard searched Zoanʼs car, opening the backdoors, then the trunk.
The attendant said, “Sheʼs good.”
The guardwoman returned the card to Zoan, saying “This is it for the year. Once you leave, donʼt come back.”
Zoan nodded in reply as the gate opened before her. She breathed a sigh of relief as she pulled into Lower Third.
“You okay?” Eli whispered. Zoan was too shaken to immediately respond. “Zoan?” He called again, this time louder and more concerned. “Zora!!!” He yelled. And Zoan snapped out of her haze. She hadnʼt heard that name in three years and hearing it now brought her comfort. “Iʼm okay,” she finally said. “I just really hate that gate.” “Yeah. We all do”, Eli said as Zoan turned her air conditioning all the way up.
The blast of cool air calmed her as she passed through neighborhoods. She hadnʼt seen an actual house in a year. Children played in the yards of the vinyl-paneled houses. Music poured from open windows and into the street. One rain drop splattered on the windshield, then another, and another until the downpour restricted Zoanʼs vision and her wipers were deployed. The rain fell without pattern or design and slowed Zoanʼs heart to its normal pace. She hadnʼt seen a natural rainfall in three years.
Zoan turned towards Eliʼs house and saw a floating, neon sign, reading “Stanfield Laboratories” on her right. The concrete building had no windows and only one door at the front, from which a line that wrapped around the mass was forming. Two buildings down, she saw the house where Barbie had been raised. And three doors down from there, she saw her old home. She drove quickly past to beat the memories flowing in. She took a left, then a right to Eliʼs street. She parked out front and he met her at the door.
He enwrapped her in a long and overdue hug. He stepped back to take her in and she stared into his face. She wondered what he was thinking, but it didnʼt really matter. His eyes were pools of sand and his skin several shades lighter than hers. His warmth caught the sun and shone it back into her eyes. He peered down from one foot taller and said, “Hello. Welcome home.”
He took her hand and led her to his dining room to sit. The wooden table felt like Christmas beneath her hands. He asked if she cared for a glass of water. She nodded and Eli vanished into the small and homely kitchen. Zoan looked at the oak wood cabinets and Eliʼs paintings on the wall. Heʼd always been a brilliant artist, capturing landscapes with his brush. He was kind and protective, but nobody would accuse him of being soft. He carried the seriousness of the world in his demeanor, but when he painted one could see his eye for gentleness and for beauty. He had a gift of stillness Zoan could never quite master.
He emerged with two glasses and placed the smaller one in her hand. He sat in the wooden chair beside her and flashed a smile.
“You look beautiful,” he said, as he reached for her right hand. “So do you,” Zoan returned with a shy and blushing smile. He chuckled and took a sip of water, placing the glass back on the table. They sat in awkward silence, neither knowing what to say. Curiosity broke the quiet and Zoan asked about what sheʼd seen.
“There were people standing in line outside of Stanfield Laboratories. Whatʼs going on?” Eliʼs brows furrowed and he took another sip.
“Stanfield Labs is running a clinical trial for some vaccine. Theyʼre paying one monthʼs rent and food rations to qualifying volunteers.”
Zoan raised her eyebrows sharply.
“You know about that?” Eli asked. Zoan shrugged her shoulders, nodded, and took a sip of water.
“Yeah. Barbie made an announcement that sheʼs running for the Vanguard. She used a vaccine as her platform. Iʼm guessing thatʼs it.”
“Probably”, Eli replied. Rolling his eyes and shaking his head. His waves rolled like evening tide with the movement.
The room fell silent again and both parties stared into space. Finally, Eli spoke the words heʼd longed to say.
“What are you doing here?” he asked, no longer willing to patronize Zoan. “I wanted to see you”, she said, hoping that heʼd soften. “I miss you.” Eli snapped, “I couldnʼt tell.”
Zoan recoiled at his attitude and developed one herself. “Relationships work both ways.”
Eli tilted his head to the side. “Weʼre not in a relationship.... remember?”
Zoan rolled her eyes and placed her glass back on the table. She folded her arms and reclined in her chair.
“Whose fault is that?” She wasnʼt going to back down and was annoyed at his avoidance of truth.
Eliʼs mother, Jackie, had been chosen for Migration. He was born in Grateful Metro, giving him full rights and privileges. He took a construction job, and the headquarters were in Lower Third. Heʼd forfeited his Birthright Placement and moved downstream.
“You left!” Eli fussed. “You shouldʼve turned down Migration.” “Has anyone ever done that?” Zoan snapped back. In truth, they didnʼt know. And as far as they could remember, everyone awarded Migration had moved. Eli sat back in his chair, resigned to the truth.
“Exactly”, Zoan spat, rolling her eyes, and reaching for her glass. “You should appeal for reinstatement and come back with me.”
Eli looked at her and squinted, “Has anyone ever done that?”
Zoan shrugged, not knowing the answer. “Exactly”, Eli retorted and then laughed. That both sat up in their chairs, leaning into each other again.
“Besides....the pick is random”, Zoan said, feeling sheʼd won the fight. Eli leaned back into his chair. “You still think that pick is random?” he asked.
Zoan shrugged.
“So, itʼs one big coincidence that the year you were chosen, the other 25ʼs they picked lived up the street from Stanfield Labs....like you!”
Zoan had been so surprised to be called that the details didnʼt matter. She had a new life and so did the other recipients.
“I didnʼt come here to fight.” Zoan said as sweetly as possible. And sheʼd not driven from the city to discuss the Vanguard.
“I miss you,” she said. “And thatʼs the truth.” “I can only come once a year. I donʼt want us to spend this time at odds.”
Eli smiled at her and took her hand. “I donʼt want to fight with you, either.” He took her hand and led her to the couch. He wrapped his arms around her and they sat in silence. The couch cotton was rough. The paint on the walls was peeling. The carpet was frayed, and the room smelled like the rain. Zoan hadnʼt felt this comfortable since the last time she saw him. His love for her was clear, and she hoped hers was the same.
Thunder woke them both from sleep and Zoan looked up at the clock. She had one hour to be home before sheʼd be involuntarily quarantined. She scrambled from the couch and Eli stared at her with a confused look on his face. She sighed and said, “I lied. I had ten Out-of-Nest hours left.”
“Are you serious?” Eli snapped. “You have to go!”
They hurried to the door and to see that Zoanʼs car wasnʼt outside. There was no fire hydrant or yellow line indicating a no-parking zone.
Eli began to laugh. Zoan didnʼt find it funny. “It must have been stolen”, Eli said while trying to contain his amusement.
“I literally just bought that car.” Eli smiled at her and said, “Nobody told you to drive a luxury vehicle down here. You couldʼve taken the train.” Zoanʼs body shook with fury. “My Placement Card was in there!” she yelled “I canʼt go back through the gate.”
Zoan sat down on the floor with tears in her eyes. The last thing she needed was Vanguard trouble.
Eli paced the foyer, rubbing his head with his hand. A few moments later, he looked at her and said, “I think I can get you back in...”
EPISODE TWO
Prologue
A right at the split. A left at the sign.
Zoan chanted the directions to herself as she crept through the tunnels below Grateful. Armed only with Eliʼs directions and a small flashlight to guide her, she hurried hoping to avoid quarantine. The rainʼs residual runoff had now risen to her ankles. Sheʼd borrowed a pair of Air Force Ones from Eli on the way out. They hung from the back of her heels, being several sizes too big. The water flooded into the gap, drenching her socks with every step. With no light to warm the water and no barrier between them, she quickened her pace to beat the clock and an almost certain head-cold.
A right at the split. A left at the sign.
The tunnel was short and dimly lit with rusting, mounted lanterns. The beams reached three feet in the dark before fading into another half mile of black. Zoan splashed fifty feet ahead and the tunnel split into two. One concrete burrow heading east, another pointing west.
Or had it been a left at the split and a right at the sign?
She was sure sheʼd heard correctly but the chill had reached her brain. She stopped and looked in both directions, allowing her heartbeat to slow. The darkness mixed with the sound of the stream to create a meditation. And with her heart now still, she heard a thumping sound she recognized. A faint but true disco beat floated in from the left. Whirl usually had last call at 8am. Donna Summer always sang the swan song. She turned towards the right way home and froze before taking a step. Sheʼd heard two splashes then a series of labored and nearly-silent breaths. She pointed her flashlight in the direction of the sound. A woman, short with sunken eyes, stared at Zoan. She crept forward without saying a word. Her face carried no expression.
Zoan took two steps back away from the stranger who was wearing a flannel shirt and jeans. The woman looked well-kept enough, but her eyes revealed fatigue. This woman with green eyes and jet-black hair walked three more paces up to Zoan. She turned her head slightly to one side, staring into Zoanʼs eyes without blinking.
Zoan could see her thoughts but their contents were a mystery. Neither of them spoke as Zoan stood paralyzed with fear. The woman snapped her head left and fixed her gaze on the tunnel towards Whirl.
She looked back at Zoan, squinting, then took off running into the dark. Zoan didnʼt bother to catch her breath or process what had happened. She kicked the sneakers into the abyss and ran flatfooted in the opposite direction.
She saw the sign and took a sharp turn, not wanting to know what it said. She ran faster still in the direction of what she deeply hoped was home. The tunnel stopped cold at a concrete wall that held a ladder of iron bars. She climbed upward until she saw a sliver of city above. She pushed what felt like a manhole cover and moved it to the side. She emerged into the alleyway behind her apartment building. She replaced the manhole cover and took the red backdoor inside. She closed it behind her and took a moment at the door to be in the present or something like it; between the past and what was coming.
Chapter One
The elevator doors seemed to open slower than usual, like the beginning of a dream you know you wonʼt remember in the morning. Zoan meandered down the hallway in no rush to reach her door. The several seconds wouldnʼt make a difference one way or the other. She pulled her house-key from her pocket as she took the last two steps. She drew a breath and lifted her eyes to the flashing red box beside the peephole.
“-1” blinked on and off in electric, neon fashion. Sheʼd missed her curfew by one hour. Not one second more or less. She looked both right and left as the silence was alarming. Usually, theyʼd send a guard and put a notice on her door. Today, there was neither. Worst case scenario, sheʼd been evicted. But the key turned, and the door opened before her.
Zoan stepped onto the checkered floor and waited for a sound; an alarm, a beeping, a blood-curdling shriek...but nothing. She closed the door behind her and turned to study its reaction. It didnʼt lock behind her and the door frame didnʼt glow red. It was clear sheʼd missed the deadline via the sign outside the apartment, but there was no evidence of punishment in the form of house arrest. The Vanguard wasnʼt famous for grace, or Grateful for its whim. She didnʼt know what to make of the quiet, her visit to Lower Third, or the woman underground.
She hadnʼt eaten since the night before and headed to the kitchen. She opened her refrigerator and grabbed a bag of grapes. The kitchen, all-white with not a single speck of color, welcomed her as she looked for paper towels. She found them in a cabinet above the stove and pulled one from the ring. She was headed to the sink when an out-of-place item caught her eye.
Her decanter filled with whiskey sat on the counter without its stopper. She had two: one in the kitchen and the other in her room. The last drink she remembered, sheʼd had before London Clark invaded her home and had definitely been in her room. She felt her blood run cold as she turned her towards the living room.
“Hello?” she called. The apartment answered back. “Hello, Zoan.”
She grabbed a knife from her silverware drawer and charged into the den. Quinn Sandoval sat in a solid black dress; legs crossed with bourbon in hand.
“Grateful bourbon isnʼt bad. Iʼve had better overseas,” Quinn snarked as she sipped from the crystal glass and leaned back into the chair. Her long brown hair was ironed straight and fell below her waist. Her rose-gold spectacles sat atop her head, her deep brown eyes, exposed.
“Have a seat”, she said to Zoan in a strangely non-threatening tone. Zoan put the knife on the table and sat down in an armchair. “Where were you?” Quinn asked with a smile on her face, but Zoan was in no mood for games.
“You know where I was”, Zoan snapped and folded her arms across her chest. Quinnʼs smile turned into a smirk. “Yes, I do. Though I donʼt know why", Quinn said. “You know why”, Zoan spat, clearly annoyed at the patronizing questions.
“Yes. I do. Though I donʼt know why”, Quinn repeated. “Eli isnʼt...”
Zoan raised her eyebrows to suggest caution. She and Eli had their issues. She wasnʼt sure their love would survive the border. She knew that he was flawed, and she was far from perfect herself. But she wouldnʼt allow a living soul to speak ill of him... ever. And she wasnʼt a fan of this rich, white woman passing judgement on any black man for that matter. Everyone in Lower Third was off limits for discussion. Quinnʼs intrusion had gone far enough. Zoan was now the border.
Quinn Sandoval seemed to take the hint as she quickly changed the subject. “I need your help, Zoan”, she said, taking another sip.
At first, Zoan failed to see how she could be of any help to her guest, but then it became clear. With Barbie Stanfield running for her post, Zoan realized why Quinn had stopped by.
“Having someone from Lower Third supporting your campaign wonʼt help you win their votes,” Zoan quipped. “Theyʼre poor, but theyʼre not simple. And this kind of thinking will do you more harm than good.”
Quinn rolled her eyes and put the glass down on the sapphire table.
“Barbie is doing the exact same thing”, Quinn said, leaning in towards Zoan. “She was raised in Lower Third because the family business was there. But make no mistake, sheʼs just as Grateful as they come.” Zoan leaned back into her chair as Quinn continued to speak.
“This vaccine sheʼs cooked up is for everyone. It wonʼt just stay in Grateful. Whatʼs stopping her from upping the Lower Third dosage to deplete the population?”
Zoan wouldnʼt be surprised if she did. Only Barbie knew what was in those syringes.
“The way I see it, Iʼm the lesser of evils”, Quinn continued. “Sure, you have to get your birth control from a bum in a back alley. But have you been arrested?”
Zoan saw her opening.
“The Vanguard sees everything. You know everything. You control everything. And now youʼre sitting on my couch, drinking my liquor, and asking me to help you keep your luxury?” Zoan fumed. “The Grateful Metro glamazons talk about Lower Third like weʼre beneath you. Some of the greatest inventions, innovations, and art is floating around in the minds of the Lower Third population. The world may never see them.”
Quinn opened her mouth to respond when the entire apartment glowed red. A deafening buzzer sounded three times. Quinnʼs face flushed with confusion. “I cancelled your quarantine”, she said. “I donʼt know whatʼs happening here.”
The television mounted to the wall above the fireplace, flashed three times before a voice spilled through the speakers.
“THIS IS AN AWARENESS FROM THE VANGUARD.”
London Clark appeared on the screen, arms crossed, not smiling, and barely moving. “Thereʼs been a shooting at Whirl. Seven are dead. Three have been hospitalized with severe injuries. The suspect has been apprehended.”
Zoan and Quinn stared at the television as an image of the perp was revealed. A short, white woman with green eyes and jet-black hair was shown. Her name was printed below the picture. Lily Wright, 27 years old, had been born and raised in Grateful Metro and would be tried for several murders in the coming weeks.
Zoan fell back in her chair. She breathed heavily as sweat gathered on her brow. “I...I saw her.”
Quinn turned to Zoan and shook her head feverishly, “What?” “In the tunnel”, Zoan whispered. “I saw her.” “Are you okay?” Quinn asked as she grabbed her coat from the couch. “Yeah...Iʼm fine”, Zoan said as she stared off into space.
“Zoan...” Quinn started up again. “I need the Lower Third vote.”
Zoan sat motionless as Quinn continued her monologue.
“I see your frustration and I know what youʼre saying is true. But Grateful has become a world with plenty of ambition and no heart. Thereʼs no warmth here, and Iʼm afraid of where weʼre headed. There should be balance. There should be options. Itʼs fine to want to rule the world. Itʼs also fine to not. Women should have that choice and not be vilified for either.”
Zoan sat and listened, still staring off into space.
“Lily Wright happens because we are meant to be individuals. We are meant to be complex. We are meant to be different. Forcing one way of life on an entire population can cause internal confusion and chaos, even if the intent is well-meant.”
Zoan shifted her view to Quinn and shrugged. Quinn continued. “I hear you on the Lower Third. We have some major blind spots there.” Zoan let out a stream of air, meant more as a sarcastic chuckle. Blindspot was an understatement, especially when itʼs caused by a very intentional border.
“Thereʼs a Gala tonight”, Quinn said softly. “Please come and meet my team. Hear us out before you make a decision.”
Zoan nodded as Quinn headed for the door. She had no interest in the campaign or the frequent Grateful galas, but she knew the rest of the Vanguard would be present. She would go to gather intel.
“And for the love of god, please donʼt wear Oscar de la Renta”, Quinn snorted as she reached for the door.
“Why?” Zoan asked, pretending to care. Quinn smiled. “Because, Iʼm wearing him, dear."
Chapter Two
Zoan emerged from the bathroom after an hour-long fight with her denman brush. Sheʼd go to the gala and smile but wear the resistance on her head. She put a tube of red lipstick in a dazzling, envelope purse as she made her way to the double doors of her three room, walk-in closet. Zoan wasnʼt a fan of Grateful life, its governing body, or the neon. But the fashion...the fashion she loved. Her clothes were truly Grateful, but her beauty regimen was her own. Sheʼd grown up watching her mother mix honey with brown sugar to make face scrubs. Sheʼd combined her knowledge of natural resources and the branding power of Grateful to create a line of plant-based skincare that sold out with every restock.
As Gratefulʼs brush with Lower Third was rare, curiosity drove her sales. Women of Grateful were proud to carry her products; gaining what they thought was street credibility with each mention. She passed a box of moisturizers set for shipment as she hurried to pick her outfit. The motion activated lights came on as she entered the area of opulence. The first room housed her everyday clothes; her blazers, jeans, and camisoles. She walked past the hardly mundane to the second room that housed her shoes. Louboutin was the Grateful go-to. Zoan found the obsession a bit overblown. The fanfare seemed to be more about the label than design. Zoan had used the money she earned to stock her shoe racks with Jimmy Choo. Louboutin was for the lovers. Jimmy Choo was for the dreamers. The jewels, bows, and explosions of color brought a smile to her face as she passed through.
The final light came on when she reached the room that housed her gowns. Sheʼd worn Gucciʼs vintage collaboration with Dapper Dan for New Years. Gucci was out. Sheʼd worn Marchesa to a wedding, which was appropriate for the brand. She looked at the row of gowns designed by Oscar de la Renta. She fixed her eyes on a pink, floor-length option with black blossoms at the chest. The dramatic look was finished with a trailing, satin cape. She pulled the dress from the rack and changed her clothes where she stood. She checked herself in the mirror and fluffed her hair one final time. A merry sound of ringing filled her apartment. She pressed the button on the wall and sang a happy “Yes?”.
“Miss Zoan, your car is here.” She grabbed her purse and headed for the door.
Zoan stared at herself in the elevator reflection and smiled. For a moment, there was no Lower Third, no separation of people, no hierarchy. She looked like she belonged here and sheʼd carry herself as such.
As she walked through the lobby to the buildingʼs front door her neighbors turned and stared; their mouths agape and twilight in their eyes. A girl who couldnʼt have been a day over 5- years-old, came running up to Zoan. Her blonde curls bounced with glee as she galloped.
“Where are you going?” the little girl asked, flashing a nearly toothless grin. Zoan kneeled to her level and smiled.
“Iʼm going to a party,” she said, as the curious child picked her nose. “I like parties,” said the tiny human. “Are you a princess?” Zoan was moved by the innocence. “No, Iʼm not”, she said. “Are you?”
“No”, the child said. “I want to be one when I grow up.” Zoan stood to her feet and looked down at the girl with feigned seriousness.
“Then a princess, you shall be”, she said. The girl smiled up at Zoan. “Whatʼs your name?” Zoan asked. “Charlotte”, the girl said, jumping once and putting both hands in the air. “It was very nice to meet you Princess Charlotte”, Zoan said.
Charlotte waved and ran back to her mother in full laughter. The girlʼs mother waved at Zoan, who waved back as she exited the building.
She felt the urge to leave one shoe behind as she walked down concrete staircase. She laughed at the thought and greeted the driver who bowed slightly as she entered the limousine. The driver climbed into the front seat and turned the key in the ignition.
“Any music preferences maʼam?” Zoan smiled, "Lizzo.”
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Zoan climbed out of the carʼs backseat and stepped onto the sidewalk. She thanked the driver for the ride, and he sped off into the night. The Apex towered over her standing 35 floors high. It held a portrait of the moon, its majesty reflected in the structure made of glass. Security guards lined the building by the dozens on each side. Zoan didnʼt know if this safety measure was standard, or a reaction to the deadly attack on Whirl. This kind of violence in Grateful was as infrequent as the Migration lottery.
Zoan could feel the frightened tension in the air. People in their evening best scurried up the carpeted staircase, holding tightly to their loved ones; their faces red with anxiety. But in true Grateful fashion, the eveningʼs events would go forth. The champagne tray would circle the room. The light hor dʼoeuvres would be served. Zoan balanced herself on the balls of her feet as she climbed the outdoor staircase. She reached the door and greeted the man collecting invitations from guests.
“Invitation, please”, he said, staring down at Zoan. “I donʼt have one”, she responded. “But my name may be on the list.” He chuckled, saying, “Okay. Sure.” He asked her for her name. “Itʼs..” “Zoan!”, Quinn shouted before she could finish her sentence, and came bustling down the stairs holding the train of her dress off the ground. The black braided bodice met a full, hoop skirt at her waist. Quinnʼs hair was pulled back in a well-secured bun and she smiled as she approached.
“Sheʼs with me”, she shot the bouncer a look that collapsed his overbearing posture. “My apologies, Miss”, he said to Zoan as he ushered them both inside. “Nice dress”, Quinn said as she rolled her eyes.
“You too”, Zoan responded, laughing to herself.
The glass doors opened to wonder and Zoan lost her breath. The walls were covered, floor-to-ceiling, with tens of thousands of roses. A ceiling made of shattered glass scattered the color through the hall. Hundreds of people Zoan didnʼt know stood talking around circular tables made of oak. Zoan had expected the grandeur but was impressed to see the caterer serving french fries in crystal cups. She was about to make a break for the food when Quinn Sandoval grabbed her hand.
“We have a private room in back”, she said. Zoan followed her through the crowd. They walked through the halls past the portraits of Vanguard members past and present. They arrived at a room with a solid black door at the foot of another grand staircase. Quinn stood in front of the wood and pushed her face up close to the peephole. A blue light shot from the circular mark and scanned her eye for security. The door unlocked and opened, revealing a small, but stately room. The red roses were swapped for magnolias and the fast-food for prime rib. Zoan stopped in her tracks as she surveyed the room. The entire Vanguard was here.
Céline dʼArc, Art Chair, in a solid, silver gown stood in the corner chatting with her husband. Karishma Wentworth wore an olive-green pantsuit, quite fitting for the Environment Chair. London Clark wore the same suit Zoan always saw her in. Drab and grey, with the skirt nipping her knees. She stood there with her arms folded, in a separate corner alone. It was clear that her sternness was no act.
“Would you like to have some food before you meet the rest of my team?” Quinn asked, smiling and pointing at the plates. Zoan shook her head 'no'. She had lost her appetite. Suddenly, the smell of food made her nauseous. Few civilians had ever seen the Vanguard chairs in one room. Quinn led her to a leather couch where four gowned women were seated.
“Everyone...meet Zoan”, Quinn said with pride beaming from her eyes. “Iʼm Miranda. Press”, the first woman spoke as her dress train floated above a cooling vent. “Ashleigh. Glam,” the next woman said, which was clear from the glitter on her eyelids. “I love your sleep mask. I use it every night”, she said, beaming up at Zoan with excitement. “Thanks”, Zoan said, returning her smile, still in an unwavering state of shock. “Trista. Wardrobe.” “Obviously”, the fourth woman spoke. “Your dress is taking up half the space in the room.”
“Iʼm Chelsea. Policy,” she said, smiling at Zoan while tapping the seat beside her. Zoan sat down slowly, tucking her satin cape beneath her. Quinn sat in an armchair off to the side.
“Quinn told me about your concerns”, Chelsea started, finishing off a bite of steak. “She also told me youʼre not one to mess with, so I wonʼt even bother to sugarcoat.” Zoan appreciated Chelseaʼs frankness and leaned in to hear her out.
“The Lower Third vote is crucial. We cannot win without it”, she said. “Youʼre close enough to the area to make a difference, and well-known enough here to make a Lower Third push palatable to the donors.”
Zoan knew this was why Quinn chose her. She didnʼt like it, but at least Chelsea was honest. She continued.
“Itʼs not pretty, but itʼs true and we need you”, Chelseaʼs voice shook with desperation. “We have money. We have resources. We have connections. Everything we have is at your disposal. If we can help you in any way, weʼre happy to do so.”
Zoan sat silently and stared around the room, still in awe. “Enough of that”, Quinn interjected. “Tonight, enjoy the party. Tomorrow, weʼll meet here at noon to discuss the details.” She pulled a laminated pass from her purse and handed it to Zoan. “Come here tomorrow and scan this at the door. Theyʼll let you in”, Quinn said as she walked towards the bar. “Whereʼs the restroom?” Zoan asked Chelsea, feeling dizzy as she stood. “Out the door and to the right”, she answered. “The last door on the left.” Zoan ventured down the hallway, past the scores of Vanguard paintings. She heard a giggle spill from an offset hallway on her right. She peered down the alley to see Céline dʼArc in the arms of Joseph Black, Gratefulʼs most eligible bachelor and foremost engineer. Zoan had made it her mission to keep to herself and avoid Gratefulʼs not- so-wholesome happenings.
Sheʼd been successful until now, having been invited to this event. She took off straight with her head still turned in the direction of the scandal. Her stiletto caught the corner of her cape, and she flew forward into an unmanned dinnerware table. The glasses fell to the ground. Zoan spun around to view the damage. She heard footsteps coming from the loversʼ hall and dove into the restroom. She leaned onto the door for support, trying to catch her breath. A toilet flushed; a stall door opened. Barbie Stanfield emerged from the shadows.
“Zoan, right?” she asked with a grin as she walked towards the sink. She wore a bright red, sateen dress with a neckline that plunged to her naval.
“I heard Quinnʼs trying to recruit you”, she said in her classic high-pitched voice. “I havenʼt decided yet,” Zoan responded, in a manner quite matter-of-factly.
“Well, thereʼs always room on my campaign, if youʼre interested”, said Barbie as she took a strangely large amount of paper towels from their roost.
“Never would I ever join your science experiment”, Zoan said. “I know youʼre paying Lower Third to take the shots.”
Barbie pulled a tube of lip gloss from her purse. She stared straight into the mirror as she applied her makeup and sighed. “Lower Third isnʼt getting the HC-42 vaccine”, she said. “Thereʼs a completely different substance in those vials.”
“Then, what are you doing?” Zoan asked, anger rushing to her face. “Itʼs a serum to boost right side brain function”, Barbie said, still staring at herself in the restroom mirror. “The enemy of creativity is hopelessness. As the hopelessness increases, the will to create decreases. Itʼs important to keep dreams alive until we fix this border situation.”
“Do they know that?” Zoan asked. “Do they know what youʼre shooting them up with?” Zoan felt more nauseous than she had before. “I canʼt just go announcing that, can I?” Barbie turned to look at Zoan. “I have to monitor my platform until I get that Vanguard seat.” Zoanʼs anger turned to rage.
"It's still wrong”, Zoan said. Barbie sighed again.
“If youʼve got better ideas, Iʼd love to hear them”, Barbie retorted. “Hereʼs my card.”
She handed Zoan a bright pink card with her name in bold black ink. Her phone number was printed at the bottom in semi-cursive print. Zoan stood silently as Barbie headed for the door. Her curiosity took over.
“Do you always dress like that?” Zoan asked. Barbie turned to Zoan, expressionless. “Dress like what?” she asked and winked, turning on her heels to rejoin the party.
Zoan stashed the card in her envelope purse and took a paper towel. She drenched it in cold water and held the coolness to her neck. She gathered herself and left the bathroom, resigned to leave the party. She rushed down the hallway, through the guests, and out the front door. She stopped to breathe the cool night air and process what sheʼd heard.
“Check you out, looking the part,” a voice she recognized graced her ears. Zoan turned to see Eli standing on the steps in an all-black suit and tie. “What?” She barreled towards him. “How?” “Two guards showed up at my house today and gave me an invitation to this thing”, he smiled.
“Are you serious?” Zoan laughed. “Yeah...Quinn Sandoval sends her regards.” Zoanʼs joy turned sour. “How long are you here?” she asked. Eli grabbed her hand and they walked down the steps together. “The invitation to the gala came with an invitation back to Grateful”, he said, looking straight ahead as the limousine pulled up to the curb.
“Did you accept?” Zoan asked nervously. “Are you staying?” “Iʼm here, right?” Eli said smiling. Zoan leapt into his arms and locked her arms around his neck. He carried her the rest of the way to the curb and placed her in the car. She slid to the left and he sat beside her, closing the door behind him. “Where to?” The driver asked.
“Iʼm dying to see this palace of yours”, Eli said, smiling. She gave the driver a heading as he started up the car. “Any music preferences tonight?” He asked. “Do you know Burna Boy?” Eli questioned.
Zoan groaned, and Eli laughed as they drove towards her home.
“Iʼm not saying I donʼt like his music”, Zoan said as she unlocked her apartment door. “Iʼm just saying he has flashes of brilliance. Wizkidʼs albums are consistent from beginning to end.... like, conceptually.” “Something happened to your ears at conception”, Eli said as they entered her apartment and all its Grateful Metro glory.
“Well, this is it”, she said, spinning around in a circle, arms outstretched. Eli took a few steps in and surveyed his surroundings. He turned to Zoan and burst into laughter. She raised her shoulders. “What?” She asked, confused by his amusement.
“This is gaudy as hell”, his laughter filled the entire apartment and echoed. “You have this chess-board floor, a gold ceiling, and blue furniture,” he kept laughing.
Zoan walked towards him, unamused. “Youʼre about to ruin a perfect evening.”
“Almost perfect”, he grinned as he picked her up and carried to her room where the bedding was white and the glass was clear.
Chapter Three
Daniel Day, more famously known as Dapper Dan, had a keen eye for lines. His talent for tailoring was matched only by his abounding love for Harlem. The Apex sat at the corner of a road once known as Lennox Avenue. Zoan walked up the sidewalk in a black and fitted pantsuit; a purposeful departure from the gown sheʼd worn before. The pants were straight and danced an inch from the ground, at the thin of her heels. The jacket cinched her waist and straightened at her hip.
She wore a black bloused buttoned tightly at the top, and the matte black tie Eli had worn to the Gala. She'd thought of him while getting dressed and hadn't wanted to leave his side. As he slept, she paired the copied look the look with an oversized, black purse that she carried on her shoulder. Sheʼd revived her curls to crown her, parting them sharply on the side. She dressed her lips with the last remaining tube of Pat McGrathʼs ʻElson 2ʼ. The true blue red would speak for her while she sat and listened to the pitch. Sheʼd decided to keep her ears open and her bright red lips shut.
She scanned the security badge from Quinn at the gated, Apex door. She stepped inside and onto the buildingʼs marble floor. A woman wearing a grey work dress and hair pulled back from her face met Zoan in the lobby and waved her forward, saying, “This way”, as she smiled. Zoan followed the woman to a vast staircase lined with glass on both sides as it wound. They strolled down the hallway to an open conference room with a breathtaking view of Grateful Metro's skyline
“Zoan!” Quinn cheered as she stood from her seat stationed firmly at the head of the table. The cast of characters Zoan met at the gala sat strewn here and there, in front of piles of paperwork. Quinn motioned to a chair beside Chelsea, the policymaker. She smiled and Zoan smiled back as Quinn opened the meeting. “So, we all know why weʼre here”, she said, hovering over her team.
“The Lower Third vote, we cannot lose.” Her people nodded in agreement. “Zoan, we spoke on this before. And Iʼd like to know your opinion”, she said. “How do I get the vote without being seen as a blatant panderer?” Everyone turned to Zoan, their faces aglow with curiosity. “You canʼt”, Zoan said. “Thatʼs the honest truth.” The only sound in the room was the air blowing from the ceiling vent.
“The border and the inequalities it caused is all they care about. If you had the backing of the Vanguard and you vowed to change the system... maybe youʼd have a chance”, Zoan said. “But I donʼt really see that happening. Youʼre the only woman fighting for her seat.”
Quinn sat in her chair and folded her hands together on the table.
Zoan continued.
“Barbie is a formidable candidate. The Lower Third wants change, and she represents that, good or bad...”
“When it comes to voting, they know it will have little-to-no effect on the status quo. Most people wonʼt even go to the ballot and thatʼs just the beginning of the issue.”
“Please, continue“, Quinn said, clearly intrigued. “The voting itself is a problem”, Zoan said. ".....even for the people who want to.”
“If they show any of interest one way or another, especially if their leanings are contrarian to the local powers that be...they may not be granted the time off to vote. Or theyʼll lessen the number of precincts, making the lines ten hours long. Iʼd say find a way to win without Lower Third, to be honest.”
Quinn sat back in her chair and took a silent, pensive pause. “And how do I win without Lower Third?” she asked, her voice at a barely heard whisper.
“Barbie and the vaccine”, Chelsea said. “You must attack the vaccine. Cause chaos. Make people fear it.”
“At the very least theyʼll question its contents”, Miranda chimed. “Best case scenario, the people revolt.”
“Well, letʼs not go that far”, Quinn said. “Everybody, take five and weʼll meet back here.”
Zoan eyed the snack table through the structureʼs glass wall. She walked from the room, grabbed a plate, and filled it with celery smothered in ranch. Ashleigh, Quinnʼs one-woman glam squad, joined Zoan in fixing a plate. “So, youʼre launching your new moisturizer...”, she said in an excited squeal.
Zoan smiled, “Yes. It hits the shelves in a week.” “Oh my god. Thatʼs so exciting. You should go public”, Ashleigh said. “It is public”, Zoan said, confused. “No, like public as in the stock market. Open the brandʼs funding to outside investors.”
Zoan hadnʼt considered the option and she wasnʼt sure she wanted to. Outside investors meant outside opinions.
“Youʼd be the first black woman in Grateful to have a publicly traded company”, Ashleigh bounced. “The interest is clearly there. Itʼs one of the reasons Quinn wanted you here.”
“Your social stock is rising, whether you want it to or not. You should cash in.” As Ashleigh continued her speech about the market and its possibilities, Zoan wondered why she was present and what she really had to offer. Quinn had the money and resources to win the election without the Lower Third vote. She went through the trouble of canceling her quarantine and bringing Eli back to Grateful. Parading her around would have no effect on the outcome of the election. As Zoan chewed her last bite of vegetable soup, she wished sheʼd never left home. Sheʼd come all this way, worn her best suit, and left Eli...
“I have to run to the restroom”, Zoan said to Ashleigh as she rushed into the conference room to grab her purse.
“Okay! Itʼs down the hall to the left”, Ashleigh said, as she walked to the drink table.
Zoan panicked as she hurried through the hallway and down the stairs. Sheʼd felt queasy since the gala and her instincts were never wrong. For someone who needed nothing, Quinn needed her at this meeting. And for someone who hated Eli, she seemed quite willing to bring him to Grateful. The Vanguard wasnʼt known for its grace, nor Grateful for its whim. She rushed out of the Apex doors and hailed a cab headed for home.
Zoan burst through the barely open elevator doors, fumbling with her keys as she approached her loft. She opened the door and fell into the foyer.
“Eli!” she yelled. No answer. She dropped her purse on the floor and ran through the kitchen.
“ELI!” she yelled again, with all the power she had left. The apartment stood silent and unmoving.
She ran towards her purse to find her phone, though she didnʼt know who sheʼd call. She dropped to the floor when the sound of footsteps came up from behind her. Eli appeared with a confused look on his face. He pulled a visibly upset Zoan into his chest as she cried. “I thought something had happened.” “Thought what happened?” Eli asked, still confused.
“I donʼt know. I just had a feeling,”
“Had a feeling about what?” he asked.
“The Vanguard, Quinn...you,” she cried. “I donʼt know. Just... something felt...off.”
They stood at the center of the loft intertwined when the lights shut off and the apartmentʼs normal lighting glowed red. Zoan let go of Eli in a panic and the lights returned to normal. Both stood in complete shock, not knowing what to do. The lights flashed red again with no beeping or flashing t.v., and returned to normal again three seconds later.
“What the hell is going on?” Eli asked Zoan as she ran across the room to her purse. She was looking for her phone when the lights flashed red again. Still searching, she saw a dim blue light at the bottom of her bag. The lights returned to normal and the blue disappeared.
“Eli!” Zoan yelled from across the room. Eli ran over and the lights shone red again. She reached for the blue light and pulled out Barbieʼs business card. The lights returned to normal and the blue lights disappeared. They waited there in silence for the violent, red fluorescence. The lights changed, revealing handwriting on the backside of the card.
“2900 Eliza Avenue, Suite. 246. 2 pm”, they read aloud together, and the red lights disappeared.
“I used to live there”, Eli said, as he stood up from the floor. “In Lower Third?” Zoan asked, confused. “No. Before I left. I grew up in 245, across the hall.” Zoan looked at her phone for the time. They had thirty minutes left. “We have to go. Get your stuff”, Zoan said to Eli who grabbed her arm as she rushed to the door. “Iʼm not going anywhere, Z", he said. “This doesnʼt feel right.” “What doesnʼt feel right is us staying here!” Zoan yelled. “We have to leave.” “Because you had a feeling?!” Eli yelled back. Zoan took a deep breath, knowing the yelling would get them nowhere. “Look, youʼre usually right. Almost always”, Zoan pleaded. “But I need you to trust me on this. We need to go now.” Eli peered into Zoanʼs eyes and exhaled.
“Okay. Weʼll take the tunnels."
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Eli and Zoan arrived at the back of the complex. They crept into the building through an unlocked door. They climbed the stairs to the second floor and found apartment 246. Zoan turned the handle, but the door refused to open.
“Dammit, Barbie!” she cried. “Hold on”, Eli whispered, as he felt along the doorframe for a key. The searched turned up empty and Zoan almost gave up hope when an electronic keypad at the side of the door turned blue. Zoan pushed her thumb into the screen and turned the handle again. The door didnʼt open.
“You try”, Zoan said, looking up at Eli. He shrugged and put his thumb to the light. Zoan turned the handle. The door opened.
EPISODE THREE
To those brave enough to change.
Prologue
“And they compelled a passerby, Simon of Cyrene, who was coming in from the country, the father of Alexander and Rufus, to carry his cross.”-Mark 15:21
The morning bell rang with a stormʼs urgency. Itʼs deafening revelry carried through the classrooms. Rows of perfectly aligned desks filled quickly at the sound. Each chair claimed a student. Each student claimed a chair. The walls, painted a glistening grey, glowed pink from the globe lights above. The pearled marble floors saved the remnant rays from waste. A tri-toned alarm sounded over the intercom. The students jumped to their feet in unison and turned towards a hanging portrait. Eli stared into the solemn faces of an unmoving Vanguard, placing one hand over his heart and the other at his side.
“I pledge allegiance to Grateful...,” the class spoke in unison.
“...may she stand in restful peace.” Eli mumbled beneath his breath, indifferent to the promise.
“...at the crest of innovation, where the roots of knowledge meet.”
His eyes wandered to the front of the room and met the gaze of his professor. She pointed to the portrait and nodded her head in the same direction.
“May Grateful be a beacon to the world beyond our reach...”
Eli turned his attention back to the hanging frame.
“...and the Vanguard, their unwavering love, be light to all who seek.”
The students took their seats to receive their lesson for the day. Eli removed his laptop from the leather satchel his mother had given him. He opened the screen to the welcome page and laughed silently to himself. Heʼd been foolish to assume the daily pledge would stop after grade school. The childlike ceremony, he thought, was beneath his university age and wisdom. He quickly entered his password and looked up at the professor whoʼd begun her lecture.
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Eli gathered his belongings at the sound of the ending bell. He walked out of the classroom and into the busy hall. The remnants of the lesson lingered in his mind. He hadnʼt chosen engineering for himself, but had come to love the subject, drawing connections where he could to his art. His notebooks, filled with pencil sketches of Grateful architecture, weighed heavily in his bag. The arm strap dug into his shoulder as he walked. The pink fluorescence danced above him, luring him into a daze. He could see the invisible connections and feel the electrical currents on his skin; each beam of light darting from its source onto the crowd beneath.
His trance was interrupted by the sight of sudden movement. A thin, brunette figure darted towards him in a sprint. He shuffled to the left, hoping to avoid the womanʼs path. His efforts proved futile as he and the running student collided. The coffee cup she had in hand lost its top. The caffeine spilled to the floor, splattering over his right shoe where it fell. Eli stared at the damage to his vintage Timberland boots, and raised his sight to meet the bright blue eyes of the culprit on the floor. He knelt and offered his hand to his disheveled colleague, keeping one eye on the splatter across his shoe. “Whatʼs the rush, Barbie?” he asked, helping his lab partner to her feet. Barbie stepped over the coffee spill, pulling her hair from her face. “Iʼm meeting my mom for lunch”, she said, still catching her breath. “I got sidetracked, and now Iʼm late.”
“Sheʼs your mom. Sheʼll understand”, Eli offered without really caring.
“Will Quinn Sandoval understand?” Barbie snapped as she turned back towards her heading. Eli stared at Barbie, still unfazed. “Iʼm meeting my mom and Quinn Sandoval”, Barbie repeated in a tone that searched for ovation.
Eli might have been impressed if heʼd been interested in politics. Heʼd been born in Grateful Metro, the only son of a Migration recipient. While he kept up the Vanguardʼs policies, he wouldnʼt be bothered with the rest. The Vanguard chairs relied on the cooperation of Gratefulʼs affluent families. Barbieʼs brush with power was standard for her circumstances. She was smart and likable enough, but she was a Stanfield and quick to remind others of the fact in moments like these. “Weʼre still meeting at 7?” Eli asked of their standing lab session. Heʼd be on time, pull his weight, and stay out of the Vanguardʼs way. “Yeah”, Barbie said as she resumed her running pace. “See you then.”
Chapter One
“Know from the rivers in clefts and in crevices: those in small channels flow noisily, the great flow silent. Whateverʼs not full makes noise. Whatever is full is quiet.”-Buddha
Eli woke to an unrelenting buzzing. His alarm flashed '6:30' and back to black again. He placed two feet on the cold. teak floor, sitting silently and supporting his weight on extended arms; his two fists pressed firmly into his mattress. His eyes surveyed his room as he inhaled the solitude. A single, king-sized mattress was topped with eggshell-colored sheets and a beige, flannel comforter sat atop a mahogany frame; a hollow box with storage space built in and wooden drawers he never used.
The headboard was an off-white wall across from a massive window running from floor-to-ceiling, a wall in and of itself. Heʼd turned the foot of his bed towards the view to greet the sunrises. From where he sat, the open floor plan gave visibility into his living room and kitchen. He kept his decor simple, having only what he needed. One brown leather clutch, the same color as his bed frame, and a rectangular glass-topped coffee table in the center of the room.
Per Grateful standards of opulence, his fireplace carried the room; terra-cotta bricks, stacked and sealed the walls length wide, with black steel trimmings at the mouth. A steampunk light fixture hung from the ceiling; two tiers of rusted copper holding downturned Edison bulbs. It lit a charcoal canvas of the Grateful skyline on the opposite wall. (Heʼd colored it with his own hands.)
The kitchen was white with stainless steel appliances. His countertops and island, brown marble with platinum; swirling smoke, and golden flecks of dust peppered in.
He finally stood at 6:35 and made his way to the bathroom. “Lights” he spoke, and they appeared across the marble sink that matched the kitchen counters and over the waterfall showerʼs clear and glistening backsplash. He opened a compartment hidden in the wall and pulled a small, bristled brush from a shelf. He brushed his beard (heʼd shave when summer came) and did the same to his fade. He turned back towards his bedroom, stopped, and glanced at himself once more. He smiled at the physique heʼd worked hard to build and furrowed his brow at the sight of his torso. He counted five rows of prominent abs and rumors of a sixth, but no matter the effort or loss of sweat his midline refused to cooperate. He hustled back to his bedroom, to the walk-in closet door. He took a pair of baggy jeans from a hanger, pulling them up to three inches below the waistline of his boxers. He sifted through his clothes and found an oversized flannel shirt, sliding one arm in its sleeve and the next.
He wandered to the living room, to the bookshelf in the corner, and pulled it from the wall to reveal a secret, hidden room. He walked inside and exhaled a smile at 202 pairs of shoes. Heʼd spent the past three years collecting Nike sneakers and Timberland boots. Available only on Lower Thirdʼs black-market exchange, he was standing in a room worth way more than heʼd ever admit. He scanned the three walls of shelves and settled on the perfect matching shoe: the 2019 Travis Scott X Air Jordan 1 Retro High OG “Mocha”.
He sat on the bench in the middle of the closet and grabbed a pair of socks from the basket below. He slid both feet into the cotton and both into his shoes, tucking the front legs of his jeans behind the tongue. He hopped up from the bench and out of the closet. The automatic light turned off as he closed the door behind him.
Eli walked to his refrigerator and opened the stainless door to a carton of eggs, thin sliced turkey, and artisan Swiss cheese slices. He pushed past the deli selections to the back to of the cooler and grabbed a can of 'Othello'. from the corner. 'Othello', a drink heʼd discovered two weeks prior and ahead of finals, was a jet-black coffee made with five shots of espresso, ginseng, and cane sugar. It was made and packaged in Lower Third, making it contraband in Grateful. Like his shoes, the cajun heat potato chips, and his crispy peanut butter heʼd paid for the exchange in cash to a sketchy hooded figure in an alleyway. He rinsed a carryout cup from the last nightʼs takeout, filled it with ice, and poured the coffee over the chill.
Eli swung his leather satchel from the couch to his shoulder and down across his torso. He headed to the exit, taking his keys from the coffee table. He walked out the door and checked his “out-of-nest” hours. He had twenty-six left on a Friday night. The number flashed behind him as the door locked automatically. He walked past the elevator and took seven flights of stairs to a doorway into the courtyard. Eli walked through the botanical brilliance, magnolia trees surrounded by explosions of olfactory wonder, letting gravity ground his left side a few inches downward more than his right. His syncopated steps kept steady on the green. Not even the espresso could disrupt the way he traveled, his silk and jagged equilibrium.
He passed three other dorms and the campusʼ main building to the Science Center. The building stood a monument with stone columns that stretched to the sky. Three sets of hand carved, wooden double doors greeted him as he approached. He jogged up seventeen marble stairs and opened the doors at the center. Twelve chandeliers glowed golden from the ceiling and towered over Eli making him only a few centimeters tall. He passed through the foyer trimmed in gold, marble, and oak. He approached a sharp, steel arch at the end of the hall. He gave his campus badge to the security guard as she motioned towards the arch. She scanned the badge, the arch glowered red, and he stepped inside the fixture. A dance of red lasers fell from its top and locked onto Eli.
“Elijah Darius Cunningham. Engineering Major. Senior”, a computerized woman spoke. “Grateful native. Confirmed.”
The arch flashed green three times and Eli continued through the structure. He traveled down the ornate hall and down one flight of stairs, taking a right turn towards the labs at a portrait of the Vanguard. He entered a room through two glass doors on the right and took a seat at an empty at a black-topped table in the back. The room, empty and sterile, held eight such tables in two rows of four, facing north towards the white board. Eli removed his laptop from his bag, logged in, and checked the time. “6:59” the clocked read, as Barbie came rushing in. Sheʼd tossed her hair into a wet bun on top of her head. Eli figured sheʼd nearly overslept. The square glasses he hadnʼt seen before were one of many clues. She didnʼt wear makeup (heʼd not seen that either), her eyes wore fatigue in the form of dark circles of purple hue. She was pale and translucent were sheʼd usually be flushed and beaming. Somehow, she was more beautiful this way.
“They all are”, Eli thought to himself. And seeing her out of Grateful style in a blue t- shirt and black sweatpants, made her more human than sheʼd ever seemed; her name didnʼt help much, sharing one with the plastic beauty icon.
“Hey! Sorry”, Barbie said as she put her giant purse on the black surface, covering half of the table with snakeskin. “Sorry for what?” Eli smirked, “Centuries of progress and women still apologize for nothing.” He sniffed a lopsided grin. “Youʼre not late.”
Barbie glanced over at his laptop, seemingly to check the time. “Cool”, she nodded. She pulled her chemistry book from her bag and placed in on the table. She seemed present but not, like the look she sported; her superpower turned down to an unsuspecting spark. Eli thought to ask her about the lunch with Quinn Sandoval, but more for small talk than wanting to know. He decided against it. If itʼd been his business, he wouldʼve been invited. Eli pulled the lab instructions from an email Dr. Warner had sent. Her instructions were always vague, so he and Barbie slumped in their chairs preparing for a long haul. An hour of slides, slipcovers, and equations crept by and they werenʼt anywhere close to finishing the assignment. Eli reached for his forbidden substance and overshot the reach. The contents spilled on uncovered compounds and Eli dove for his laptop to save it from the liquid. Barbie sprung to her feet to assist.
“Iʼll get paper towels”, she said. “No. Iʼll get them”, Eli said, shaking the coffee from his sleeve. “Donʼt worry about it”, Barbie shook her head and smiled. “Iʼm exhausted. I need the walk.” Eli nodded upward and Barbie headed out of the glass doors towards the bathrooms. Eli put his laptop on the dry side of the table and turned back to see bubbles and sizzling steam erupting on one of the coffee-stained slides. He covered his hand with the tail of his shirt and grabbed the reactive plastic by its corner. The slide labeled “melanin” whirred like a tea kettle close to steam. He put it back on the table and grabbed a blank slide. He dipped it into the coffee and placed the slide beneath the lens. The components of the coffee were spinning in sync. The circular crystals turned counterclockwise; step-in-time to a click of a metronome only they could hear.
“What are you doing?ʼ Barbie asked and Eli jumped back from the lens. He hadnʼt heard her come back in. Eli thought of lying, but Barbie was far from stupid. He knew her well enough to know sheʼd clocked the confused look on his face, but not well enough to know what sheʼd do next.
“I donʼt know what this is”, he told the truth, and Barbie leaned in to look. She stared through the lens for sixty long seconds, leaned back, and leaned into the lens again. “Whereʼd you get this?” she murmured. Eli didnʼt respond; insulted that she thought heʼd answer without knowing her intentions. Barbie appeared to have read his thoughts herself and caught herself.
“It looks like HC-41”, she started. “Itʼs a synthetic hormone that alters a personʼs state of being.” Her voice trailed off as her irises began to swim; pools of sapphire stars covered in a fog of faint memory. Eli leaned toward he, suggesting she continue. Barbie sighed. “My father created it and was ordered to discontinue production before he...” Barbie sat back down in her chair, turning back to the microscope. “He meant well, I think. Trying to help Lower Third people cope.” Eli stiffened his posture, his jawline turned to stone. “Cope?” he asked, his arms folded across his chest. Barbie sighed again, her breath tinted with sorrow and remorse. “HC-41 was meant to increase domestic contentment in Lower Third people; to curb the depression and in-fighting that accompanies not getting Migration.”
Eli grimaced, not being able to say much in response. Heʼd been born and raised in Grateful. His mother told stories of Lower Third, but spoke only of the culture she sometimes missed. Barbie had grown up there, in a house next to the labs. She knew more than he did, but he wasnʼt convinced his blood had forgotten, or that it held no traces of the world to which he belonged. In moments like these, he felt inauthentic, having reduced his origins to style and food. He resented his mother for telling him anything at all, for not letting him just be Grateful. Lower Third was a call he always heard and couldnʼt answer. A question he silenced with bright orange boxes in back alleys.
“What happened that your dad...I mean, did something go wrong?” he asked humbly. Barbie grabbed the paper towel roll and headed towards the mess. “In small doses, it did exactly what heʼd meant. People seemed happier at home and work. But, long term exposure or high doses of the compound had a hallucinogenic effect. It made people forget their lives entirely, to the point of ignoring external threats.” Eli blinked as Barbie continued.
“I remember Quinn Sandoval coming to our house. I remember her yelling about something similar happening before, long ago”, Barbie said softly. “Another chemical that spread through other places like Lower Third.”
Eli leaned away from the coffee spill, listening as she cleaned.
“After she left, my parents were shouting at one another. Last I saw of him, he was heading to his car with a suitcase.”
Eli remembered her fatherʼs death being a national event and felt sorry for Barbie and the spectacle made of her grief. Still, he was curious, and finally asked the question heʼd avoided. “This meeting today?”
Barbie walked to the long side of the table and grabbed a glass capsule with a rubber cap. She coaxed some of the liquid into the tiny jar and sealed it, wiping the rest with another paper towel. “We talked about my future and the possibility of me running the labs. But I donʼt want to spend my life like this”, she motioned to the lifeless, silent room. “I want to do more.”
Eli shrugged at the hypocrisy that wasnʼt wholly hers. “You, and everybody else”, he said. She looked at him in acknowledgment. “Yeah...I get it”, she corrected herself. “I mean...I donʼt...,” her eyes pleading for mercy. “But I get what you mean.” He extended his hand. She stared at it first, then took it. “Iʼm sorry for your loss,” he said, processing what sheʼd said while seeing her pain. “Thanks", she smiled, and took a step closer. He pulled her into a hug and she returned it with two arms around his neck. They pulled back and stared into one anotherʼs eyes. Eli scanned her face, still holding her waist and tilted his head to the side. She really was beautiful. “Eli...,” she whispered. He raised his eyebrows in response. “I like girls”, she said, smiling, and they both dropped the hold. Eli jumped back, “Yeah...nah...I know that”, he said, embarrassed.
“As far as men go, though...if I was...youʼd be....”
He interrupted, ending the awkward exchange. “Yeah”, he laughed. “Cool....ummm...thank you?”
They laughed and moved to opposite ends of the table. They sat in silence for some time. He looked at the clock reading 9:30. “Ummm...maybe we call it? Same time tomorrow?” He closed his laptop, not waiting for an answer.
“Sounds good”, she said, also packing her things. She hustled to the door and turned to Eli who wasnʼt far behind. “Whatever it was you bought, Iʼd get rid of it.”
“Also, I was eight when this happened, so check your expiration dates,” she said. “Not just for the possibility of cross contamination, but do your digestive tract a favor, dude,” Barbie laughed.
Eli grinned and nodded. “Where are you taking that vial?” he questioned as they journeyed towards to foyer.
“I have a kit in my room, and I want to run some tests”, Barbie said. “It was my fatherʼs work,” she shrugged. “Iʼll discard it when Iʼm done.”
Eli left in the same direction after quick and friendly goodbyes. He tried to process what heʼd learned, but only remembered Barbieʼs oceanic eyes, how it felt to hold a woman, and that he hadnʼt in some time. Chanel dumped him the previous summer when she graduated and he didnʼt propose. Heʼd taken her to dinner and ordered dessert and champagne to celebrate. They toasted to her accomplishment, and she exploded when he reached for the tab, making a soliloquy of the evening in front of the entire restaurant. He hadnʼt known thatʼs what she wanted, and even if he had, he would ask her when he was ready to do so; not because itʼs on her to-do list.
Her vitriolic outburst surprised him. He wasnʼt expecting that from a Grateful girl, primmed for portfolios and Ph.Ds from birth. She was a migration baby on her fatherʼs side. Her mother had been born in Grateful. Chanel had been more “Metro” than Grateful for his taste, but he enjoyed her company well enough. She was smart, chipper, and beautiful; smelling of lilac and walked to the rhythm of sun rays.
He scanned his security badge at his dormitory door, the barrier opened to the staircase and he took seven flights upwards. Somewhere between the fourth and fifth floors, he wondered if heʼd made the right call. He was a year behind her, and not ready, but he couldʼve been if heʼd tried. Their children wouldʼve been smart and well looked after. Chanelʼs occasional theatrics may have evened out with age. He pulled his phone from his pocket as he approached his dorm room door. “Wyd?” he sent her a text as he closed the day behind him. He kicked his shoes off at the door and stared into the phone waiting for a response.
Chapter Two
Eli woke to the sunrise peeking through the trees. He met it face to face, lying horizontally on his stomach with his arms above his head. He could feel his phone vibrating under his pillow. He wiped his eyes, reached for the buzzing, and squinted again at the fifteen unread texts and seven missed calls from Chanel. Sheʼd sent paragraphs; commas, emojis, and exclamation points. He scrolled through the messages to see the last one heʼd sent:
9:48pm
“Maybe you were right. Maybe we shouldʼve. Can you talk now? Come through. Gate code-6138.
Eli raised his hairline and forehead towards the ceiling fan. He sat up in his bed, throwing the covers of his legs, and kept scrolling through the messages from Chanel. Apparently, sheʼd knocked on the door. Apparently, he hadnʼt answered. Heʼd fallen asleep and she was furious. Eli tossed his phone to his comforter and buried his face in his hands. “Man....”, he said aloud. “I was out of it...”, he laughed. The image of Chanel making a fool of herself in the hallway shouldnʼt have been funny, but it was.
“Funny how that happens”, a female voice chimed from the living room, with long, drawn out vowels and cracking, chewed consonants. He jumped to find Karishma Wentworth, Environment Chair, staring at him from the couch. She sat, thin and motionless, with her right knee over her left; her hands resting gently on the cap. She wore an olive green, buttoned pantsuit and a matching, silk camisole. Her jewelry was gold and simple; a single chain around her neck, a tennis bracelet, and a pair of stud earrings. The top half of her whimsical curls had been slicked back into a ponytail at the crown of her head. The rest spiraled down her back and landed at her hip.
Eli hopped up from the bed and dove into a shirt and sweatpants. Her eyes were green and piercing as he approached, his right hand extended. She smiled and stood, returning the formality, and motioned towards the couch. She slid backward making room for Eli to sit, and he did, at the edge of the seat. Heʼd never seen Karishma Wentworth in person. She wasnʼt a public presence like Quinn Sandoval, nor did she hijack televisions like London Clark. Celine dʼArc would speak on campus, even lecturing from time to time. But Karishma Wentworth was mysterious like the wind; a whisper one could hear, feel, and breathe, but not see.
Her beauty was unsettling, to her almost being not. She was white, but not. Black, but not. And something else he couldnʼt quite tell. The blend was not directly hers, but generations back; still speaking in her face.
“It would seem your phone has betrayed you”, she smiled. “Or have you gone a betrayed yourself?”
Eli searched her eyes for motive, finding nothing but the words she spoke; kindly embers meant to ease the tension with no clues to her next thought. He played along, “I betrayed myself, for sure.”
She leaned back into the couch and placed her elbow on its ledge, propping her face on her fist for support. “Can you fix what youʼve done?” she asked, unblinking.
“Yeah...I think so,” he said as if to a friend, disarmed by her casual mannerisms. He corrected himself, “Yes maʼam. I can,” leaning away from the strangeness of the encounter.
“Then youʼve not betrayed yourself,” she said, no longer smiling, but no less friendly.
Eli nodded, still unsure of how to feel. She sighed and reached for her bag, and Eliʼs posture turned to cement. She pulled a picture from a manila envelope and placed it on the couch between them. Eli stared at himself and Barbie walking away from the science center. He looked at the photo and back at the Vanguard chair who seemed to be searching his facial expressions for hints of truth. “Miss Stanfield was apprehended when her dorm room caught fire. Half of the dorm populace has been relocated,” she said. “Thankfully, the only casualty was the building.”
She stopped and looked at Eli who tried his best to remain blank. “Her room was searched, and authorities found traces of a most curious substance, indeed.” She leaned her face back into her fist and tugged at the bottom of her blazer to straighten a fold. “A science student with a substance is not ever a cause for alarm,” she continued, checking her manicure, then looking back to Eli. “...unless that science studentʼs last name is Stanfield, and half a building goes up in flame.”
Eli always thought Barbie to be above reproach; her last name superseding the rule of law, with her family being an extension of the ruling class. Karishma Wentworth raised one eyebrow and cracked as surreptitious smiles, as if sheʼd heard his thoughts aloud. “She was questioned by Grateful detectives and the substance was tested for its contents.” Her emphasis on the “eh” in tested, and the long “ah” sound in contents transported Eli to a land heʼd only heard about. A land below an invisible borderline when Grateful was America; much larger and divided into 50 separate states. Eli nodded and waited for Karishma Wentworth to continue. “Miss Stanfield says she swiped it from her familyʼs lab, and maintains it was the last remaining sample.” Eli sat frozen, knowing she knew everything. Lying wouldnʼt help and telling the truth could lead to worse. He opted for a question instead, “Where is she now?”
Karishma Wentworth cleared her throat, sat up straight, and checked her manicure again. “Her mother came for her”, she said slowly, her eyes branding Eliʼs face with the reality of the situation, and a hint of disappointment as if heʼd let her down personally. “Sheʼs staying at their loft by the Apex, I believe,” she sighed.
“No matter”, she said, turning her head to the side. “Thatʼs not what Iʼm here to discuss.”
Eli leaned in towards the magnetizing demagogue.
“There is...a job I think youʼd be perfect for”, she said, nodding once. “A new construction company is opening below the border, and theyʼve stacked the C-suite with older men; finance people with ideas that jingle and fold”, she said, sighing again. “The board could use a young face; someone with your immense potential,” she paused looking at Eli with the same disappointed eyes as before.
“....as Chief Officer of Operations.”
Eli took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, now sharing her disappointment in himself. If Grateful Metro didnʼt have daily caffeine allotments, he wouldnʼt have purchased the Lower Third find. Cause. Effect.
Karishma Wentworth stood, balancing on six-inch heels, palm-over-fist with her hands at her belt line.
“The company is in Lower Third”, she said, her eyes still piercing his. “...of course, youʼd have to move.” She grabbed her bark colored, leather bag from the floor. “I spoke with the CEO this morning and theyʼre elated to receive you”, she said, with no emotion in her voice; her facial expression now reflecting the same.
“So much so”, she spoke, “that theyʼve requested you start this afternoon.”
Eli felt tears forming behind his eyes as he sat in silent shock. Karishma Wentworth turned back to face him. “Theyʼve provided a company car”, she said, pulling a set of keys from her bag and setting them on the table in front of Eli. “...and a house near the forest, as best as Lower Third houses go.”
Eli grabbed the keys from the table and stared at them in his hands. Karishma Wentworth extended her right hand to Eli, lips pursed, eyes sarcastic; a chiding he seen on his motherʼs face.
“Congratulations”, she said as he stood and took her hand. His body warmed and ears burned as his tears made their way to the front without release.
“Thank you for thinking of me...”, he said. “....for the position.”
Karishma Wentworth nodded, turned, and headed out of the door. Eli closed the door behind her and rushed back to his phone. He wondered if heʼd missed the dorm fire news in the torrent of Chanelʼs notifications. He saw no alerts and opened his web browser app. He typed “dorm + fire” in the search bar and this morningʼs headline appeared at the top of the screen.
“Stanfield Labs donates 1.7 million dollars to GU dormitory renovation project.”
He scrolled down to read that the students had been given an option to either return home to their families or be housed in “dʼArc Tower”, a newly finished apartment building that would be available to lease in the coming weeks. A new notification appeared on his phone. He tapped it to reveal an email from Karishma Wentworthʼs office with his new employee I.D number, home address, and directions to company headquarters. He put his phone and wallet in the side pocket of his sweatpants and grabbed his new keys from the coffee table. “G-27”, a tag clipped onto the key ring read as he hurried out of the door and into the direction of the parking garage.
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The garage was dark and smelled of smoke; the cement had heard the gossip of the blaze from across the way. Eli walked the structure alone and read the space markings aloud, “G-25, G-26, G-....”. Eli stopped where he stood and stared at the 2122 GMC, four door Hummer EV. He pressed the unlock button on the fob to be sure his sight was true. The pickupʼs headlights flashed twice before him. He crept slowly to the truck. He walked to the tailgate and removed the cover, revealing stacks of orange shoe boxes. He recovered the shoes and walked to the left, back window. More orange boxes had been stuffed between the cabins and placed, one on top of the other, on the cloth covered seats. His clothes had been vacuum shrunk and flattened to fit into two large plastic containers. Eli looked back towards the dorm and saw no reason to return. He climbed into the front seat and tuned the GPS to the border.
Chapter Three
Eli drove through Lower Third in silence, parallel and keeping time with the train rolling by, carrying homesick Migration recipients on their annual pilgrimage. They had nothing in common but a heading, a truth Eli internalized with every creeping mile. The train was going back to Grateful Metro. His GMC pickup was not. The outstretched road lured him into meditation; a thoughtless series of breaths that filled each moment of silence and the next. The past had come and gone; Barbie, the fire, and Karishma Wentworth. The future hadnʼt happened, making it a figment of his imagination. The house near the woods and high-paying job would only be if he accepted them. With ash behind him and vapors ahead, all that was real was his truck, his shoes, the road beneath them, and his breath. Eli settled into the now and let it carry him into next.
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Eli stared at the piles of paperwork on his desk and rubbed his brow in stress. The company was building an apartment complex and the project was mired in controversy. Heʼd received complaints from the zoning board and residents of neighboring houses. He tried his best to respond to them all with kind but directed indifference. The project would continue, and effected parties knew it. They were writing in frustration, knowing their protests wouldnʼt change anything. He leaned back in his chair, placing his hands behind his head, and closed his eyes to steal of moment of calm. A commotion in the hall broke through the silence. “Stop her!” a male voice bellowed, followed by a series of thuds and shouts. Eliʼs office door flew open, and a woman appeared in the doorway, wearing cowboy boots, ripped jeans, and a neat, white t-shirt. Her skin was toffee and heath, and her coils reached to the ceiling, falling back down at her shoulders in buoyant spirals.
Her almond shaped eyes danced brown and bright. Her lips were full and seething with anger. Two men came flying from the hall and grabber each of her arms. She protested and fought against their might and Eli stood from his desk. “Hold on fellas”, he said. “Can I help you maʼam?”
She glared at Eli and spoke. “I emailed you weeks ago about that smell,” her tone raising towards the end of the sentence. He nodded to the two men who released her arms as Eli walked forward. “My apologies maʼam, if Iʼve not yet responded”, he said. “I have a few moments if youʼd like, to hear your complaint.”
She rolled her eyes and stepped forward. “Iʼll take it from here”, Eli said to the henchmen. He closed the door behind her and motioned to the chair in front of his desks. “Can I get you anything?” he asked. “Water? Coffee? Tea?” She shook her head and Eli reclaimed his seat. He clasped his hands together and placed them on top of the wooden desk. He leaned forward in his chair, “What can I do for you?”
“Thereʼs a smell...”, she said. “...since construction started. I live down the street, and thereʼs a smell.” Four years of projects and this was a first. Usually, people griped about the noise or bustling populace.
“What kind of smell?” he asked. “Can you describe it?” The woman slid back in her chair and placed her forearms on the rests.
“I sent you an email”, she said, as a matter of fact; less forceful than before. He nodded and stared into the womanʼs eyes, taken by their depth. She blushed at the exploration, and quickly gathered herself in response. “Itʼs all in the email”, she said, adjusting her curls; her movements swift and fluid. Eli tore himself from her face and its draw.
“Okay. Letʼs find it”, he said. “Name?”
“Zora”, she said. “Zora White.” He typed her name into his database with no results. “I donʼt have an email from a Zora White,” he said, still staring at the screen. “I sent it weeks ago”, she fussed, pulling her phone from a black satchel sheʼd placed on the floor. She scrolled through what Eli figured were sent messages, squinted her eyes, and the color left her face. “I...,” she began with remorse in her eyes. “I never sent it...itʼs still in my drafts.” Her eyes turned to pools of softened guilt that pierced Eliʼs soul.
“No worries”, he said. “You can tell me now. Iʼm all ears.” Zora dropped her phone her purse and threw the strap over her shoulders. “Iʼm so sorry. Iʼve embarrassed myself,” she stood and turned towards the door, apologizing again. Eli stood. “Ms. White...,” he said, enamored at her figure as her posture slumped beneath her curls. She turned back to face him. “...I take lunch around this time”, he said. “Iʼd like to hear about the smell if youʼd be so kind.” “Please join me.” She blushed again, “Zora, please...and I donʼt want to impose.” “The imposition is mine, Ms. White, “he said smiling. She returned his grin and nodded.
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Eli parked his truck at the entrance to the park. He checked his teeth in the rear-view mirror and adjusted the cuffs on his sleeves. He stepped out of the car in his perfect, white sneakers, straight jeans, and a white buttoned-down top. He walked down a graveled land parted by maple trees that let out at varied freesia. A perfect circle of blossoming color and earth, and there she was.
Zora stood amongst the flowers in a dress that swept the ground; two thin, grey straps flowing into a cinched waistline, and curving down with her own. If heʼd known his love of a lifetime lived here, below the chandeliers and science labs, heʼd have packed up a long time ago, changed his name, and made a break for the border. He laughed to himself, his new understanding of everything heʼd heard about love. Heʼd seen beauty before, and she was smart, a familiar combination. If that was love, an attraction to traits, he could have fallen for Barbie (her own preferences notwithstanding), Karishma Wentworth for all it mattered, or any other woman in Grateful Metro.
But Zora had something he couldnʼt describe, like the foam the sails the waves. Her mystique not being the force itself, but the enchantment its power creates. She turned to him and flashed a smile that made him stop where he stood. She walked the rest of the way, and they stood in silence and stared. “We look stupid,” Zora finally said, and broke the quiet with laughter. Eli smiled and looked over his shoulders, “Nobodyʼs here, so we donʼt look like anything, he said.
“But beautiful”, he said. “You look beautiful.”
She smiled and took a seat in the grass, and Eli, right beside her. They stared at the clouds and planned their future under the sky. The sunset crept over the hills beyond. The time had come. Eli reached into his pocket and retrieved a small, velvet box. Zora squealed at the sight and jumped to her feet. Eli assumed the proper position with one knee pressed into the ground.
Zora jumped twice with her hands covering their face. “Is that a, yes?” Eli asked and Zora burst into tears. “Yes!” she shouted, waking the trees as Eli grabbed her left hand. He slid the diamond ring onto her finger, and she threw herself into his arms. They shared in glee for a moment and walked through the grass, back towards to lot. Zora took two steps back in a panic to find the exit disappeared.
“Eli!” she yelled breathlessly, and he extended his hand. “Do you trust me?” he said, eyes yearning.
She nodded and took his hand, and he led her towards the trees. He pushed the shrubbery to clear the path, and a blinding, white light flooded in.
The door opened and Eli stepped into the room, stark white from wall to wall. He climbed seven steel stairs to the viewing loft, joining Barbie, Karishma, and Quinn.
“She said yes”, Barbie snickered. “They always say yes.”
Karishma Wentworth shook her head. The three of them stared down at Zora strapped to a chair with an I.V. of blue liquid flowing into her veins.
“Subject 402”, Karishma Wentworth said. “Not fit for Migration.” Quinn Sandoval nodded, “Wipe her memory. Send her back.” “Such a shame. I really thought sheʼd be different. The gala should have been enough to fix her.” She walked down the stairs and out the door. Eli nodded at Barbie who pressed a button that stopped the fluid. They stared down at Zora one last time before theyʼd return her to Lower Third.
“Simulation terminated”, Barbie said, as she and Karishma headed for the exit. Eli stared at Zora from his lofted perch. “She really is beautiful,” he thought to himself. “Exquisite.”
Zoan opened her eyes and winked at Eli. He winked back and headed down the steps to the exit.
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