#OMG TODAY'S TEST WAS JUST HORRIBLE

[chaotic-personquotes]

today, i talked a lot with a girl from my class. she's very sweet, and talking to her is so easy that i didn't even noticed the hours passing by. it was a incredible time.

09/03/2023

[luveline]

Jade omg i love coworker james so much!! I was hoping i could request them taking the elevator up to their office together and it breaking down and them being stuck together!! Super cliche but i think it could be really cute and fun and that you’d write it so well!

You decide today is the day you stop pretending to forget something in your car. James has been nice lately. He does still hide your mug everyday, and he acts like an idiot at your desks. Just yesterday he made a parachute for one of his little figurines and made it land in your lunch. But he keeps saving you when you’re in trouble, and he might think he has to do it but it’s not true. 

If something goes wrong, James is the one who helps you out. Maybe it’s proximity, but maybe he’s just not the jerk you pegged him to be. 

So you’re being brave. You get out of your car, to James’ surprise, and you give him a teeny tiny smile. “Morning,” you say, making your way to the office steps, and following closely behind him. 

“Morning,” he says, looking back. He holds open the door for you without further comment. 

You walk in through the building’s lobby and past the main receptionist to the twin elevators. There’s a downstairs to the building, the lab, where the company conducts their water safety testing, and an upstairs where you and James and your colleagues work. He hits the elevator button on the right, you both wait for it to come down. 

“Did you see about that movie?” you ask. 

“I did!” He laughs at himself generously. “You’ll have to be more specific, I’m afraid.” 

“Crazy, if you gave me like, two more seconds before you interrupted, I would’ve specified.” You catch yourself scowling and soften your expression. “You know, the movie you told me about with the aliens that can hear you from ten miles away.” 

“Oh. What was I supposed to see about it?” 

You should’ve waited in the car. The elevator descends and the doors open. James waits for you to go in first before he follows, and you let him click your floor number as you lean against the mirror. 

You elect to wait in silence as the elevator chugs up, and up, and.

It stops short with a horrible sharp sound you’ve never heard it make. 

James looks at you, then the control panel. The doors don’t open. “That’s fucked,” he says hotly. 

“We stopped too early, right?” 

“No, no way.” He clicks the open door button, waiting approximately half a second before he starts to spam it. 

“Wait, what if you mess it up?” 

“Mess it up? It’s stuck.” 

You glare at him. “It’s not stuck.” 

“It’s stuck.” James slams his hand into the emergency button and waits with a frown for it to ring. “Hello?” he asks. 

“James, it’s still ringing.” 

“I’m glad this is funny to you,” he says. 

You hide your smile. You’d been unnerved by the sound, sure, but the elevator isn’t creaking or whining, it’s just stopped. There’s an inkling of worry growing in your chest. You’re perhaps a smidge too tired to panic. It’s barely 8AM. 

And James’ reaction is wildly comical. He glares at the control panel and rings the emergency button again, and again. Nobody answers. After a few long seconds of this, the control panel goes dark, backlit numbers fading. 

The overhead light blinks out. 

It’s quite dark without it. 

“What the fuck?” James asks. Surprisingly, he sounds less panicked than before. “The electrics gone. A power cut?” 

“It’s really dark,” you say unhelpfully. 

“If only I had one of my darling Smiskis to light up the lift.” James takes his phone from his pocket and turns on the torch, your eyes aching but then thankful for the added illumination. You can see his face again, the tug of a brow too handsome to be meant for grumpiness, and the confused pout of his lips. He has a lovely face, with sweet eyes, dark brown hair framing it, and the aura around him when he’s smiling is lovely too.  He’s a little less lovely when he frowns, but not by much. “I’m gonna shout,” he warns you. 

You and James spend that first half an hour believing the lift to be a short problem. Then another half an hour on the phone to Remus and then your boss, who assures you both that the maintenance team will fix it within the hour. “Within the hour?” James says to you where you’ve sat cross-legged on the floor. “Within the hour? How long do they think we’ve been in here?” 

“Maybe we can call the fire brigade to come and save us?” you suggest quietly. You and James are in very close quarters. His shouting has hurt your head. 

“They might have to. Why does nobody know what’s wrong with the lift? Are they really that complicated?”

James sits down beside you dejectedly. The lift is snug, but there’s room for him to sit further away that he doesn’t use. 

“You okay?” you ask. 

“Fine.” 

You open your bag in your lap and unveil your thermos. It comes with a cup as the lip. “Do you want some hot chocolate?” 

James tips his head back against the wall. “Yes,” he says, “okay. You never finished telling me about the alien movie anyways. What’s the news?” 

You smother a smile. “I’m not telling you. You should’ve listened to me the first time.” 

For some reason, you don’t argue once in the two hours you spend stuck. Not after the initial bickering. You drink your hot chocolate and you end up sitting together watching the trailer for the movie on your phone, and neither of you move away after. That is, until the elevator flicks back on and the doors are being pried open —you spring apart, caught red handed enjoying each other's company. 

[t0ast-ghost]

S3 EP19 (Requiem For Methuselah) let me guess. Kirk is romancing.

Forthwards:

- beaming down together <3

- uh oh a time limit!

- Spock grabs McCoy’s arm to get him out of the way of the fire

- very drawable right here

- Kirk is not fucking around today

- wow. Just wow.

- A SHAKESPEARE FIRST FOLIO?!? This guy is fucking rich holy shit

- She’s just like me when I watch Star Trek

- I like that she wants to talk to Spock about science :))

- “What is loneliness?” “It is a thirst. It is a flower dying in a desert.” Wow

- “Thank you, Doctor. I will have a brandy.” “Do you think the two of us can handle a drunk Vulcan? Once alcohol hits that green blood—” They’re adorable

- fuck off fuck off fuck off (edit: this is probably about them immediately flirting with Rayna)

- Bottles of colourful liquid. You think one of them is ketchup?

- Does Kirk know how to play pool? Is she showing him for no reason? He seems to know what he’s doing…

- I love that Spock likes playing musical instruments

- His boyfriend is dancing with a woman RIGHT THERE. I wonder what a rewrite of this would be like with canonical queer Kirk in a relationship with Spock and McCoy and why he would choose to dance with her. Cause I think he should be able to just enjoy doing stuff like dancing and holding hands without it being romantic. AND THEN MCCOY WALKS INTO THAT OMG THE DRAMA

- Damn Kirk isn’t interested in Spock’s info dump about Brahms. Tragic.

- and they’re kissing

- The way Kirk just pushed her out of the way-

- YEAH SAVE YOUR BOYFRIEND SPOCK!!!

- Flint kinda wishes that the bot killed Kirk

- Yeah it sucks to be home schooled

- This is becoming like Twilight but without the baseball and vampires

- This is a horrible power imbalance between Flint and Rayna

- And they’re kissing (Nichelle nichols futurama clip where she says "I had to kiss Shatner) (edit: here's the clip at 1:26)

- WHY IS HE SHAKING HER LIKE THAT BRO WHAT THE FUCK

- Kirk’s ass damn why is Flint hiding the Ryetalyn

- “(Spock): Captain, I shall get the Ryetalyn.” “(Kirk): Why you?” “(Spock): There may be dangers within.” “(Kirk): Let’s find out.” “(Spock): Let me go alone captain.” “(McCoy): Why? Get to the point, Spock. If there is one.” “(Kirk): We’ll all go.” Kirk and McCoy ARE NOT about to let they’re boyfriend go into a dangerous area alone

- OMG SHES BALD! (She’s bald and she’s torturing people who have hair)

- “Her only flaw, she is not human.” THATS HER FLAW??? First off Spock is RIGHT THERE. Second I'd say the flaw is that she's being controlled by a awful man

- Wait what? this guy is DA VINCI?!? And still no bitches...

- “She is my handiwork, my property.” EW DISGUSTING KILL HIM

- HE JUST BLOOPED THE ENTERPRISE OUT OF EXISTENCE

- I’m giggling

- “Give me back my ship. Your secret is safe with us.” YOU’RE JUST GONNA LEAVE HER?

- “Because you knew I could bring her emotions alive.” Bleh

- Kirk gets absolutely beat the fuck up

- “No. Do not order me. No one can order me.” YES GET IT! YES

- “She’s human. Down to the last blood cell she’s human. Down to the last thought, hope, aspiration, emotion. She’s human. Her human spirit is free. You have no power of ownership! She’s free to do as she wishes.” Kirk’s so happy for her!

- “No man beats me.” “I don’t want to beat you. This is no test of power. Rayna belongs to herself, and she claims the human right of choice. To be, as she wills. To do as she wills. To think as she wills.”

- Okay but she shouldn’t have to choose between two men. There’s so many more out there in the galaxy

- OH NO DHES SEAD

- “What happened?” “She loved you, captain.” Spock just admitted Kirk’s drop dead gorgeous

- This is giving boyfriend vs. father vibes which I hate. I hate that this is how women are treated. As burdens to be thrown from one man to the next. This is reminding me of A Dolls House by Henrik Ibsen it's a pretty short play and the ending is phenomenal for the time

- Kirk is lonely :(

- “If only I could forget.” Spock spends several seconds staring at Kirk and contemplating until McCoy comes in

“Oh thank heavens, sleeping at last.” McCoy just wants Kirk to get a good nights rest

- yeah

- “You see, I feel sorrier for you I do for him…because you’ll never know the things that love can drive a man to. The ecstasies, the miseries. The broken rules, the desperate chances. The glorious failures, and the glorious victories. All of these things you’ll never know, simply because the word ‘love’ isn’t written into your book. Good night, Spock.” “Good night, Doctor.” WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT AND WHY HAVENT I SEEN AN EDIT TO THAT. Also now I REALLY wanna write a mcspirk fanfic based solely on THAT

- “I do wish he could forget her.” BOTH McCoy and Kirk wished for this and so Spock does something crazy for his loves omg omg I’m gonna throw up wtf

- there’s literally romantic music playing in the background as Spock leans down to mind meld and says “forget”

Well

Masterpost

Episode written by Jerome Bixby

[jadeylovesmarvelxo]

Not what I thought

omg I just had an idea, can you make smth like popular! Reader x Eddie where reader is only mean to people who deserve it but other than that she’s really nice ? & she’s had a crush on Eddie for a while and he’s never rlly talked to her before because he thinks that she’s like one of those type of girls who are really rude but then she ends up being rlly nice to him and he falls in love . Sorry I’m horrible at explaining things.

Request by anon

Warnings; none really. Fluff.

Likes, comments and reblogs are always appreciated ❤ I do not give anyone permission to copy my work.

For the millionth time today, Jason was getting on her nerves. Why did he have to be so hateful all the time?

"Shut up you dumbass and leave the poor kid alone". Jason glares at her as he finishes trying to bully freshmen.

His name was Dustin Henderson, he's a sweet kid and y/n doesn't want Jason being an asshole to him.

Just because she was part of the popular crowd, didn't mean she acted like some if them did.

She strived to be kind always but bullying assholes like Jason tested her patience.

Dustin smiles at her grateful and she stalks past Jason who is fuming. Dustin rushes over to join Eddie Munson who is the leader of The Hellfire Club and her secret crush.

He had been her crush for years. They had never spoken though and she dearly wanted to change that.

She decided to go check on Dustin and hopefully speak to Eddie.

❤💞

Eddie is surprised when Dustin rushes over and gushes about y/n.

"Y/n just told off Jason, he was being an asshole and she stepped right in and told him to leave me alone".

Eddie looks over to y/n his mind racing. He always assumed that she was rude like some of the other cheerleaders and he was feeling guilty about that.

She just helped Henderson, she didn't have to. Most would walk away or join in. His heart races as she walks over and he can't believe he's never noticed how pretty she was.

Her sweet smile directs at him and he swallows captivated by her beautiful eyes.

"Hi, Eddie. I just wanted to make sure Dustin was alright. Jason is such an asshole". She's got that right he agrees.

"Sit down princess, don't be shy". He gestures to the empty seat on his side and she sits down moving closer to him.

Jesus H Christ, she's beautiful, his heart skips a beat.

"You know. I thought you'd be different. More like Jason. I am glad to be very very wrong on that matter princess''. She beams.

"Did you think that I be mean and scary?". She teases and he laughs.

"Terrifying sweetheart, he jokes then turns serious, thank you for looking out for Henderson". She gently takes his hand and butterflies or more like bats fill his stomach.

"I don't like bullies, Jason Carver is the biggest asshole that I've ever met". She huffs.

Eddie falls a little bit in love right there and then and decides to take a chance. Shoot his shot as Jeff would say.

"Hey, you wanna hang out sometime princess?". Her eyes light up.

"Thought you'd never ask handsome, I'd love to".

❤

[haveyouseenthisskeleton]

Skeletons with a S/O who is basically like a jester, very jokey, happy go lucky, and a bit of a bastard.

Undertale Sans - You two are pranking each other in turns and trying to be the biggest bitch to each other possible. Sans always had to play nice with Papyrus because he explodes easily and he can't stand the screaming, but right now he's catching on twenty years of horrible jokes he never dared to do to his brother. Papyrus is having a mental breakdown over you two.

Undertale Papyrus - You are trying to test his limits. But what you didn't know is that Papyrus has 20 years of experience with stupid pranks and half of them fall flat because he calls you out before you can do anything. You're so frustrated and he is so proud of himself. Sans can't believe it the first time Papyrus comes to him to actually ask him to explain him his best pranks so he can ruin his S/O's mood.

Underswap Sans - PLEASE GIVE HIM A BREAK. He loves jokes and puns too, but this is too much, he can't follow you omg. Everytime he enters a room, he needs to inspect EVERYTHING as he lives in fear of you making fun of him again. He's begging you, give him one day. Only one day free of your pranks.

Underswap Papyrus - You're bullying him. Honey just wants cuddles and love and you keep tricking him in believing you will cuddle him before tricking him atrocely and make him regret his decision of hugging you. Why. Blue calls this his karma for the 20 years he made his own life a living hell. Well, until he sat on a woopee cushion.

Underfell Sans - You two managed to infiltrate a school one day, broke all the toilets, put woopee cushions on every bench and chair, and then you drank vodka while witnessing the chaos. You will never grow tired of this. Police officers call you the "woopee cushions psychopath gang" and they are trying to find you, without success so far, except for that day when they found their car filled with woopee cushions.

Underfell Papyrus - Pranking him, he can still manage, but this is too far. Poor Doomfanger looks like a rainbow as you dyed her entire fur as a vengeance for all the times she made your life hell. Doomfanger is crying in agony on the floor at the feet of her dad, begging for help. You didn't realise Edge cared that much about the damn cat until he caught you in one of his trap in the garden and let you hang upside down for a whole day, laughing at your face like the sassy man he is every time he walked in front of you. You kinda desserved it honestly.

Horrortale Sans - You know that sloth in Zootopia? The one that laughs in slow motion after a joke. That's kinda Oak. He finds the jokes funny, but only after a very long awkward silence, the time the joke gets to his very slow brain. You think that's even more hilarious this way. He's a good public for almost anything, as long as it's not hurtful to his brother or the animals of the farm.

Horrortale Papyrus - You almost shit yourself when Willow pinned you against the wall and said with a very creepy voice he would love to cook human today, before laughing like a madman at your fear saying that you should have seen your face. Since that day, you are very careful with pranks around Willow. He's a sweetheart but never forget he can crush your skull with one hand if he really wants it.

Swapfell Sans - He gives you a deadpan face every time, not amused. That's your personal challenge. Caught him off guard. But it's still a work in progress so far. He's a very difficult public and he's insensitive to taxing humor. You need to be very subtile to just get one smile. But you are determined to find a weakness. Keep searching.

Swapfell Papyrus - You lost the count of the times you two got in trouble because of stupid pranks you set to random people. You are encouraging each other to go farther and farther, except not everyone is really receptive to your type of humor. Nox gave you two two warnings, then he let you in jail for two weeks so you both learn your lesson. That didn't work. You did it again as soon as you got out.

Fellswap Gold Sans - King of pokerface. You can try but you'll never have a reaction from him even if you're trying really hard. However, prank his brother and he's going to show you his kind of humor by pinning you against a wall, dark sockets, threatening you to lose your hand if you're doing this ever again, and you're kinda so traumatised you never do it ever again.

Fellswap Gold Papyrus - He laughs at you at every joke, then there's an awkward silence. Then he looks at you. And then he tells you he didn't get it. And that kills you even more every time.

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

so. we have a problem at skl rn.

basically there's this boy that I've known since I was like what, 9 maybe? Well, whatever, point is that I've known him in primary skl AND high skl since he goes to the same one as me. and we were friends in primary skl and some of the first and second year of high school but we stopped being friends bc he became an idiot and decided that being friends and being in a friend group with ppl that make fun of him was better than cherishing the relationship we already had.

I'm not even gonna lie, some of it was partially my fault bc I knew that he had a crush on me and i kinda told him a was a lesbian one time just to see his reaction (YES IM A HORRIBLE PERSON, I REGRET IT NOW, BUT I WAS HALF TELLING THE TRUTH BC IM BI)

he didn't say anything, but it was obvious he had feelings. e.g. he wrapped his arm around my shoulders a few times, always laughed a little too hard when I made jokes and idk what else but I KNEW he had a crush on me, you can just tell, ifykyk.

Anyways we aren't friends anymore, broke it off, whatever. I hate him now, and I'm sure he does too since he laughs at me with his "friends".

BUT.

recently, we've been put together on the seating plan in geography last thursday and today in computer science. I was literally PRAYING in the back of the class on thursday when the teacher was deciding our seating plan.

I was like "okay, I don't mind being next to anyone in my entire class except Ali." (his name is Ali, he's Afghan but he doesn't look like he is, if that makes sense? Idk he looks has more east asian features NOT THE POINT, IM JUST SAYING HES NOT UGLY AT ALL, IM BEING REALISTIC WHEN I SAY HES LIKE A 7/10)

and YES of course I was put next to him.

here's the point though.

that double geography lesson when I was sitting next to him I realised...

I HAVE A FUCKING CRUSH ON HIM ‼️

AND I DONT WANT TO 😭😭

here's how it went.

I realised that when we were sitting next to each other, our knees kept touching and our elbows kept touching (AND HE DIDN'T FUCKING MOVE AWAY WHEN THEY DID, HE KEPT HIS LEG AND ARM IN PLACE!!)

I didn't get direct butterflies, but I felt a little something something. I decided to test it out to see if I had a crush on him doing a little practical experiment.

I put out elbows together and kept my fingers on my pulse.

AND GUESS WHAT?

MY PULSE FUCKING INCREASED 😭😭

AND I LITERALLY THOUGHT IN THAT MOMENT, "Oh, fuck."

AND I CAUGHT MYSELF TRYING TO MAKE SURE I LOOK GOOD MULTIPLE TIMES.

It's an actual problem, I cant have a crush on him, I just can't please 😭🙏

dear my heart, WHY?!

bro why is this so fanfic core omg… truly living out a fanfic this is CRAZYYYYYYYY sigh but i guess the heart wants what it wants 😞😞😞

[aguinhaac]

You know what time is it? TIME TO SAY SHIT ABOUT MIRACULOUS, YEY, so without winding up let's go, today I'll talk about the Mari chat episode of this season, the ninth episode of miraculous season 5 Elation

We start the episode with Ladybug being the biggest simp in the world to Chat noir and he just being a dumbass thinking that was just a test, I can already say this episode is gonna be great! (But ngl Chat noir being extremely stupid took a laugh out of me, maybe I’m the stupid one )

Also Ladybug asks if he has a girlfriend and he says that less they know about each other better, but just some episodes later they are happily talking about how now they’re both dating so… w h a t ?

Chat noar tries to transform in a random allay but comes a fan to harass him.

THAT’S WHY YOU SHOULDN’T TRANSFORM IN PLACES EVERYONE WALKS BY, FIND AN EMPTY BATHROOM, IN YOUR HOUSE, IN A GOD DAMMIT FLOREST, JUST DON’T DO IT IN AN ALLAY, I imagine someone passing through then ladybub hides behind a tree and just being wtf?

Adrien then detransforms in a rooftop, I’m telling you, the day those two reveals to the public who they are at least half of the city will be like “yeah I already knew” because omg.

Adrien then sees Marinette’s house and decides to activate his simp mode.

The scene then cuts to Marinette complaining that Chat noir is taking his job as hero of paris seriously? Marinette, Marineta, any other name Astruc wanted to give you, W H A T ? CHAT NOIR HAVE THIS THING OF NOT TAKING THINGS SERIOUS, HE IS IMATURE, DON’T CARE IF THERES PEOPLE DYING IN THE STREET OR NOT, AND WHEN HE FINALLY REALIZES THAT EVERYTHING IS BAD AND TRIES TO ONCE BE A GOOD HERO YOU COMPLAIN? LOOK OUTSIDE WOMAN. SHITNARCH HAS EVERY MIRACULOUS, YOU ARE LUCKY THAT HE DIDN’T TOOK YOURS AND YOU PARTHNERS MIRACULOUS TOO, GABRIEL IS ALMOST A GOD, actually he IS A GOD, HE HAS THE GOAT MIRACULOUS, HE CAN DO ALMOST ANYTHING, YOU ARE LUCKY THAT GABRIEL IS STUPID, BUT WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF HE GROW TWO BRAINCELLS AND USE TO GOAT MIRACULOUS TO CREATE A BAZZILION FUCKING NUCLEAR MISSELS AND THREATENT TO KILL EVERYONE IN PARIS OR YOUR MIRACULOUS, THERES PEOPLE IN THE STREET DYING RIGHT NOW AND ALL YOU CARE IS THAT YOUR PARTHER IS CARING ABOUT THAT? WTF?

Adrien can be a simp, a dumbass, and be self-centered as heck, but he Is not as horrible as Marinette, so I give him that.

Alya then tells Marinette she is saying bullshit, thank you Alya, I couldn’t say better.

Alya then says that Marientte is just lying to herself and that Adrienette should happen.

that’s why I never know what to think about Alya, in the moment I think she might be one of the few characters that has brain cells she says this.

Alya: if you love a superhero you gotta know who is behind the mask, how else are you supposed to live a legit love story?

And I lose all the respect that I’ve ever had for her

Marinette: I’m NOT lying to myself and I know exactly how I feel.

Alya: right, which explains the pictures of Adrien all over your room.

Mariette: it’s never worked out with Adrien! Making gifts to him, planning his birthdays for the next 25 years, kissy kissy hamster, yeah right, Adrien was more like kissy kissy nothing! What is wrong with kissy kissy meow meow?!

The first time I watched this episode I was like “no way Americans say kissy kissy,” and I searched it up and I found out that yes, Americans do say kissy kissy, so I’ll give a point, not to the show, to the Americans. Because that's the funniest shit I've ever heard, Good job guys

The scene cuts to Adrien going to the Dupain bakery to talk to Marinette, Marinette parents then assume that he is in love with Marinette, Sabrine then for some reason calls Marientte even if her room is not that far away? Now even the non-important character has lost their braincells.

Marinette says she’s busy and that he is just a friend from school and she didn’t want to see him after school, first of: Marinette’s an asshole. Second of: no man, Marinette and Adrien barely spend any time together after school, its rare a situation where the one of them call the other to do something, most of the time they are just there and they happen to meet. I’m not saying I want them to be together, Marinette is a selfish hypocrite and Adrien is not much better, I’m just asking for some better writing, that the basic of the basic of the basic of writing teen romance, making they just hanging out as friends, BUT NOT EVEN THAT, THE SHOW DON’T DO THE BASIC!

Marinette then blows up in Alya, Alya then tell her to calm down and touch some gras- I mean, get some air.

The scene then cuts to Adrien being harassed by fans again, Sabine and the guy I shall not say the name apologize for their daughter being an asshole and give him some chuquetes, chouquetes?

Oh, thanks google, Marinette parents give Adrien some chouquettes and he leaves.

Plagg: you’ve got the pastries but not the smile, you just wanted to see Marinette didn’t you?

Adrien: everything reminds me of her Plagg, I can’t help it

Adrien: it’s gotta be nice enjoying pastries with the girl you love.

Adrien then gets harassed by a fan aga—

Wow that’s a lot of fans, funny how this happens just when the plot demends and every other ep anyone ever bothers Adrien huh? Funny.

Adrien then escapes the fans and transforms into chat noir, running away from fans becoming someone even more famous, smart.

We then have a genuinely funny scene with Marinette and Chat and we have those two morons being cute, for some reason seeing two sided marichat Is surprisingly funny and not forced, I don’t know why but this wat of Chat, joker and carefree yet not knowing much about life, works a lot with Marinette being selfiish yet sweet and her way of being, makes some really good scenes. I think even the worst of shows can have some nice moments sometimes, I need to say, good job writers, you surprised me.

But the writers ruin everything making the two say stupid things while almost kissing so there’s also that-

The scene then cuts to Alya and Tikki talking bout Marichat or Ladynoir being a Canon.

Alya: cmon Tikki it wouldn’t be the end of the world.

Tikki: actually, Alya the end of the world is exactually the kinda thing that can result from problems between the holders of the miraculous of creation and destruction.

Alya: oh, you’re over reacting.

OH, SO NOW YOU’RE ACTING IN CHARACTER TIKKI? YOU’RE 2 EPISODES LATE.

The scene cuts Maributt and Cat noar looking for Andre the ice cream man and Mari uses an app max created just for finding him.

is the show implying Max put a tracker on andre's ice cream cart? Because I think the show is implying that Max put a tracker on Andre's ice cream cart. Forget putting Marinette in jail for being a stalker, PUT MAX IN JAIL, actually PUT EVERYONE THAT WORKS IN THIS SHOW IN JAIL.

Marinette then proceeds to ignore her best friend in the world and the two idiots go to Andre's cart.

Andre: marinette and chat noir! What are you doing here?

Chat noir: we are here for joe mama that fat ass-

ok I stopped XD

Chat noir: we’re here for ice cream, unless you’re selling hot dogs now.

*Chat and mari laugh*

Show procedes to think joke is funnier than it actually is.

Andre: that’s a good one chat noir, but I make sweethearts ice cream, not jokers and good friends ice cream.

Huh, what?

Dude in “heart hunter” you literally asked if they wanted an ice cream that represented Kagami and Marinette.

and in “glaciator” you tried to give marinette an ice cream when she was alone saying that "true love finds a way"

did the writers really are that dumb to don’t check Andre’s past apparencies to see what he was like and just made a whole ass episode pretending that it doesn’t contradict all Andre’s apparencies before?

no I trust the writers of miraculous, probably in glacietor he thought marinette was aromantic, and in heart hunter he found out that know and discreetly asked if mari was dating adrien or Kagami, that was just some lgbt representation in a show passed in a conservative as heck contry. and to that I say good job guys.

Andre: look, who do you see next to Jon and Sarah? Ladybug and chat noir!

How the hell did he got that picture? it is from glaciator, Is the show trying to tell us that in the middle of a fight with a villain who kills single people, a mother's son, stop to take a picture of ladynoir, and gave it to Andre? Writers W h a t ?

Andre: love is not something to joke about, you chat noir are in-love with ladybug, and you marinette are supposed to be in love with Adrien agreste

Chat noar and maributt in synchrony: no.

They them get sad and just walk away

The scenes them cuts to them sad that their crushes aren’t in love with them anymore they say that being in love just made them act in the worst ways while a sad music plays in the background,

Marinette then walks to chat, they have a moment and they kiss.

I know what you’re thinking, and yes, NO ONE GIVES A SHIT ABOUT, CAUSE WE KNOW THE SHOW WANTS ADRIENETTE BEEING CANON EVEN IF MARICHAT IS BETTER. SO THERES LITERALLY NO POINT IN THIS SHIP, IN THIS EPISODE, AND IN THIS SHOW, BECAUSE THOSE 3 THINGS ARE NOT ENTERTAINING TO WATCH AT ALL!

Chat noir then pushes marinette away and says that he is taking avantege of mari kissing her, wait... chat noir being a responsible hero, did I hear it right?

Chat noir can be a decent character but marinette isn’t so she blows up.

Marinette: UGH.. I’M SICK AND TIRED OF OTHER PEOPLE DESIDING WHATS GOOD FOR ME.

Chat noir: I’m taking you home.

Marinette: SICK, I’M SICK OF IT, WHY CAN’T I BE HAPPY? WHY CAN’T I LOVE WHOEVER I WANT TO LOVE?

Chat noir: you can, I can’t. Not like this.

Wow, that's bullshi-

Like this scene would be good if it had the right context ,just imagine.

Marinette arrives in her room tired of everything, she is sad she is angry, tikki even tries to calm her down but she then blows up,

Marinette: WHY? WHY SHOULDN’T I BE MAD? I’VE GAVE EVERYTHING FOR THIS CITY AND LOOK WHAT HAPPENED.

Tikki: marinette calm down!

Marinette: WHAT IF I DON’T WANT TO? DID YOU HAVE YOU THOUGHT ABOUT IT? WHAT IF I DON’T WANNA BE PERFECT ALL THE TIME? WHAT IF I DON’T WANT TO CARRY ON MY BACK ALL THE PROBLEMS OF EVERYONE? WHAT IF I DON’T WANNA BE A LEADER? WHAT IF I DON’T WANNA BE A GUARDIAN? WHAT IF I DON’T WANNA BE LADYBUG?!

Tikki: marinette what are you even saying?

Marinette: OH YEAH, WHAT IF I NEVER WANTED TO BE LADYBUG IN THE FIRST PLACE? IF I JUST WANTED TO BE A NORMAL GIRL WITH A NORMAL LIFE? WHAT IF I DIDN’T WANTED TO SACRIFICE MY HAPPINES JUST TO BE LADYBUG?

Tikki: what?

Marinette: YOU NEVER ASKED THIS TO YOURSELF HUH? BUT IT’S TO LATE NOW, I AM THE GUARDIAN, I AM LADYBUG, AND I SHOULD ACT LIKE SO, I SHOULD BE PERFECT, I SHOULD MATURE, I SHOULD NEVER LET ANYONE GET HURT, I SHOULD BE A GOOD FIGHER, I SHOULD BE A GOOD LEADER, I SHOULD AWAY KNOW WHAT TO DO, BUT I DON’T.

Tikki: marinette I don’t expect you to be perfec-

Marinette: LOOK OUTSIDE, 2 MILLION PEOPLE ARE COUNTING ON ME, THEY HOPE I DEFEAT MONARCH, I’M THEIR HOPES AND DREAMS FOR A BETTER FUTURE, THEIR EXEMPLE OF PERFECTION.

Marinette: THEY’VE MADE STATUES ABOUT ME, THEY’VE MADE BLOGS ABOUT ME, THEY BELIVE IN EVERY WORD I SAY.

Marinette: everyone believes I’m so great and I’m so mature, and that I’m make everything alright.

Marinette: But behind that mask is just me… master fu should have given a miraculous to someone else.

Tikki: oh marinette, you are an amazing ladybug, and an even better leader, and anyone want you to be perfect, you shouldn’t push yourself too far.

Marinette: TAKE A LOOK AROUND TIKKI. ONE MISTAKE WAS ENOUGH TO HALF OF THE CITY HATE ME. IF THEY LOOSE TRUST ON ME PEOPLE MIGHT GET AKUMATIZE AND WHAT’S THEN? I LOSE BECAUSE I WASENT GOOD ENOUGH. MASTER FU GOT AMNESIA BECAUSE I WASENT GOOD ENOUGH. CHAT BLANC HAPPENED BECAUSE I WASENT GOOD ENOUGH. ALL MIRACULOUS ARE GONE BECAUSE I WASENT GOOD ENOUGH. I SHOULD NEVER HAD BECOME A GUARDIAN, I SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN NOTHING MORE THAN A BAKER, I SHOULD NEVER BE LADYBUG, MAYBE IF I WASEN’T BORN EVERYTHING WOULD BE BETTER.

……….

Marinette starts crying.

Marinette: I’m just so tired…

The way the original plays looks like marinette is just a spoiled kid who has never been dumped in her life, which isn’t a lie but you get my point.

Gabriel then gives some stupid speech and tries to akumatize marinette

Chat noir: Marinette resist! You have to resist!

Monarch: unmasker I’m monarch if you love is hiding behind the mask of your idol, he wouldn’t have any reason to reject you, would he?

Marinette: that’s true.

Chat noir: please resist! Don’t listen to him!

Monarch: I’m giving you the power to see what’s behind any mask, all I want in return is ladybug and chat noir miraculous

Chat noir: Marinette kiss me!

And they kiss, ugh. Marinette is a spoiled kid that never got rejected so she plays the victim making the other person look bad so she can get what she wants, chat noir is the only one that have braincells here.

Also when it was princess justice, it was dramatic, here it's just... Nothing, because in princess justice Marinette has Expelled, and everyone believed she was an asshole, she had lost her friends, She was going to have to change schools, And with a record of being expelled it would be harder for her to do anything. Her life was at the worst it's ever been, but here is just "oh my crush dumped me" so no one gives a shit.

Chat noir then apologizes for kissing her and marinette realizes what the hell she did.

Marinette: I was almost akumatized… you’re right, were both being totally foolish.

WHAT? YOU BOTH? WHAT? YOU’RE THE ONE WHO IS IN THE WRONG, CHAT NOIR ALSO IS BUT HE REALIZED THIS INSTEAD OF MAKE A DRAMA BECAUSE, oh my crush rejected me… YES, IT’S OK TO BE SAD ABOUT IT BUT THE WRITERS MAKE IT LOOK LIKE IT’S THE END OF THE WORLD AND AFTER THAT SAY THAT CHAT WAS ALSO AN DRAMAKER AT THE SAME LEVEL AS MARINETTE? NO, HE ISN’T, THAT’S THE ONE THING THE WRITERS GOT RIGHT, THEY DIDN’T MADE ADRIEN AN UNLIKABLE FREAK, ugh, back to the episode

Gabriel then akumatized Andre because “the two teenagers I ship should date because my ice cream said" he then turns to glaciator 3 and Gabriel gives him the clout, Andre then proceeds to go kill Marinette for ruining ladynoir, forget about putting max in jail, PUT ANDRE IN JAIL.

Chat noir then hides marinette and her only and she calls alya to pass her location to tikki.

The scene then cuts to chat noir fighting glaciator but by the power of theres-still-8-minutes-left he fails.

Andre then DESTROYS MARINETTE HOUSE, WTF? PUT THIS MAN IN JAIL, THIS IS ATEMPT OF MURDER.

Marinette: oh, tikki this is all my fault…

Tikki: I’m sure you’ll make everything alright

Shut up tikki, idk why just shut up please, no really couldn't they choose a voice actress with a more annoying voice? this one is not unbearable enough.

Ladybug then transforms and go fight the big man.

With chat noir, glaciator is struggling to get his miraculous but when he almost go it, alya appears out of no where to say Andre was stupid, which is true, but even so andre tries to kill alya, that’s the character that was supposed to be the lovely ice cream man.

Andre then hears ladybug and because he is a sociopath, he proceeds to try kill her too. What a good character!

Ladybug and chat talk about he not being in love with her anymore and she accepts his choice.

Also chat with heterochromia is amazing ngl.

Monarch then tells glaciator that they’re hiding behind a building, huh good foreshadowing.

Ladybug then activates her lucky charm which is a big umbrella, and by the power of Girls-good-boys-stupid glaciator loses all his braincells (which was zero) and fall for the most obvious trap in the world, hero saying he gives up, and we have a butt joke….

If you excuse me, I’m gonna commit suicid-

Ladybug then purifies the akuma

Andre: ladybug and chat noir! Was I akumatized again?

Ladybug: yes

Andre: I’m-a sorry, is just that you make such a beautiful couple, but oh well, what matters most is that you’re happy.

When the heck did, he learn the most obvious lesson in the world? Just 9 minutes ago he was all “marinette deserves to die for ruining my ship” when did he learn his lesson? I think he learn it by the power of ladybub bullshit, yeah probably.

Ladybug then gives him a useless magical charm and fixes everything. Gabriel talks about exploiting chat noir’s feelings for Marinette but literally no one cares because he never does.

Chat then takes Marinette home make some jokes and we have platonic marichat.

Marinette then cry because of love; she didn’t grow up a little since season 1.

Adrien proceeds to be sad about love and, I don't know if you know but I like chat noir but hate Adrien, so I really couldn’t care less about it, also he gets happy to seconds later, and that’s where the episode ends

This episode isn't very good, it's not the worst but it's not good either, Marinette still this anoying selfish thing, and Adrien still nothing but an one dimensional simp, the villain was boring as heck, Andre still the same kinda sycopath ice cream maniac as he always was but now with less brain cells.

and really what the purpose of this episode was; to make Marinette not be in love with chat noir anymore.

But it wasn't delivered properly, it's the same case scenario as the rooster miraculous, it can easily be exploit.

Marichat wouldn't work ok, but what about ladynoir?

They see each other every day, they work together well, based from past episodes Marinette don't respect much if someone has a crush on another person, then what's stoping her?

Fear of being akumatized? Chat rejected her because she was in civilian mode.

Fear of being dumped out? This wouldn't stop Marinette for loving chat noir, it would just stop her from telling him that.

It was because of the moment that chat and ladybug talked about their feelings for each other? Marinette always runned after Adrien even if he said she was just a friend.

So what is stoping her from being in love with chat noir?

I'm general, I think what saved this episode for me was cat noar and Maributt when they weren't simping each other, they have a good quemestry what can I do? Well I'll give this episode a 5.5/10 put Andre in jail

Now if you excuse me I'll just

Thank you for reading until the end, I'll see you in the next life.

[mischiefesse]

HELLO THERE! 1! 1! 1! 1 just wanted to say that I love your edits sm and that's all :D (I love how soft the looks are and it's really look so pleasing to look at)

Also how was school today? (If you already go to school ofc)

HI OMG SRRY FOR THE LATE REPLY- I WAS GONNA ANSWER THIS EARLIER BUT I FORGOT-!

thank u btw!!! Ur super awesome too love your art.

School is uh very school-y today. Honestly it's horrible as a first day cuz immediately after this day I have a shit ton of tests and activities due but whatever-

[kanamori-kamper-moved]

your babygirl!! (for the gimme a character thing)

YUSSS VETRIX BABYGIRL!!!!

Ask game

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How I feel about this character

I LOVE HIM!!!!

I adore him, unironically. A lot of people hate him solely because he’s a bad person, and to me that’s narrow-minded thinking. He’s fun BECAUSE he’s bad. He’s fun BECAUSE he’s a horrible person who hurts other people and doesn’t care for their feelings.

He’s pathetic, a disaster, and unironic mess. He’s like 50, trapped in the body of a toddler, constantly slapfighting with kids because he’s petty and can’t keep ANYONE out of his relationship drama with a certain homophobic rat. I’ll get into the relationship/ship stuff in the next section, if you’re curious.

I also like his design a lot.. the right side of his face is this beautiful mosaic and FOR SOME GOD FORSAKEN REASON HIS EYELINER IS AMAZING??? Also most people think his voice is annoying but there’s a cute charm to it… nobody can tell you sound like a girl if you make it annoying on purpose!!!! 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

A lot of my thoughts about him I can’t put into words because it’s all just “HAKASKISKAKAKSJSKSOSKSKSJS MMMM BABYGIRL OLD MAN YAOI” And TV static, so I hope this’ll suffice!

All the people I ship romantically with this character

Should be obvious. I ship him and Kazuma (Fathershipping), and him and Dr Faker (Deceitshipping/scientistshipping). Technically nothing I like about the two are canon but FUCK YOU their both amazing

The way I think of Fathershipping is all cute and fluffy and “omg kazuma.. but you have a wife!! But.. I still love you..”, sometimes it’s unrequited and sometimes it’s just doomed. Byron’s just a horrible shy, gay mess when it comes to Kazuma. Like ITS SO TELLING how he was willing to literally DIE for him during episode 55, and the fact that in the Sam episode there were only TWO TENTS?? Yeah, they fucked

But as for scientistshipping, it’s just horrible toxic yaoi. You know the Cantarella scene from Utena (assuming your there)? Yeah, that’s them. I wish they had more non-toxic interactions, it would have been sweet to see them reconcile beyond their gay little shoujo bubble apology

My non-romantic OTP for this character

Him and his kids! And probably him and Yuma, I’ll go more into it in the last section.

My unpopular opinion about this character

He never had a wife. He’s a transmasc (or agender, depends on how I feel) gay man, his kids are test tube babies. He’d sooner die than willingly put his lips let alone *bits* near a woman

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon

I wish things with Vetrix were explored more beyond “haha look at the evil freak!!”, I wish he wasn’t demonized for wanting revenge when he literally got deformed and has PTSD from being in Barian World for 5 years straight.

I like Zexal, but (somewhat yugioh as a whole) has an issue with portraying people as either black and white villains or good guys, and people who aren’t pretty bishounen tend to get the shortest end of the stick at times. Like, there’s a REASON why his kids get more screentime than him. It’s because he isn’t conventionally attractive. Vetrix is not a black and white villain, he contains multitudes.

You have to factor in that he was was put in a foreign alien world for half a decade by a person who he thought was a FRIEND, thought his only other friend DIED, was away from his kids (two of whom were taken away and put in an orphanage), got deformed so badly literally no one recognizes him, and more. People who try to act as if characters like KAITO are better than him are so fucking insane because he’s not. I watched his duel with him today and Vetrix had a line about them being the same. They’ve both hurt and killed people as a means to an end. Hes truly not a bad person and people need to realize that 😭😭😭

There’s also the issue with his kids. I wish he got more scenes with them after his arc, I wish we got to see him work to be better especially after all he did, to deal with the ramifications of it all. It feels like his relationship with his kids were just haphazardly tacked on and stapled together, held together by a few peices of duct tape that the writers saw and just sent on its way. It would have been interesting to see if his kiss (ESPECIALLY Quattro) did not forgive him, especially after the shit he said and did.

The same for faker, these kids have no reason to forgive their father after the actual VILE acts they’ve committed towards them.

Also more old man yaoi. LET HIM INTERACT WITH KAZUMA AND FAKER AND LET THEM KISS!!!!

[lightlycareless]

chapter 30 has me CLIMBING the WALLS

the visceral uncomfortableness of a dead silent car ride with these two,,,, i can not even begin to imagine it. the tension in there was so heavy and so dense i’m shocked it didnt make a black hole

first thought when naoya took a suddenly different turn on the street was “oh so we’re getting murdered in an alleyway??? left to die??” he does not come off with good vibes for himself at ALL. luckily its just for more doctors appointments. deeply sorry to every individual that had to be around these twos painfully obvious rift

EVERYTIME NAOYA TRIED TO TALK TO HER… i know hes done nothing to properly redeem himself but ohmygod i can feel the awkward pains. kudos to him for not just like bursting into tears in the elevator when she turned away. i would’ve been a mess.

i’m gonna THROTTLE this doctor (also y/n girl i get the frustration but what did you WANT him to SAY for you on the cheating question,,, if he speaks over you to answer i know you aren’t going to like that either he can NOT win this one,,,) - and also the one time naoya pulls himself together to assist by showing the ultrasound that gets just shot down as well. we are on a losing battle. naoya stans stay losing 😔

incredible balls to try for the “wanna get something to eat?” a SECOND time. that play failed MISERABLY last time and its already been a string of horrible events today but lets GO king!!🗣️💯🔥give us nothing!! 🔥🔥❗️💯

concluding- naoya has been exuding CRITICAL levels of shaking chihuahua and cringefail energy ft. y/n desperately trying to Hold It Together. exquisite chapter. looking forward to the next as always

AUGHAUAH I ALREADY SENT A CHAPTER 30 ASK BUT I REREAD IT THIS MORNING N WENT BACK OVER THE “test her condition” PART- not sure how i left this outta the last one that had me so fried

but am i hallucinating or is naoya… also hesitant about that? i know that its just two words “Naoya swallows” but it SOUNDS like he’s got just. the barest hint. the barest idea that perhaps,,, maybe,, that would be a bad thing to do. now if he knows the WHY of why it would be bad is a completely different question, but it at least reads as if he faintly understands he should NOT do that again.

(feel free to just like. screenshot this and throw it in w the bigger one lmaoo i still can’t believe i left this out its huge)

Hello!!!!

HAHAHAH I’m glad you’re suffering, I mean, enjoying the latest update 😊 Also, don't worry about the asks hehe you can send in as many as you want! I looooooove reading and answering them 🥺❤

Now, Imagine if someone decided to accompany them? I don’t know, like Ranta. I think the poor boy would’ve been like “omg… Naoya really has no chance” lol OR WORSE, NAOAKI FOR SURE Y/N WOULD’VE IGNORED NAOYA EVER MORE HAHAHA

“Y/N” Naoya calls “Is there something you’d like to—”

“Naoaki, look! There’s snow on the mountains! No wonder it’s so cold, guess we'll need more than a few blankets tonight”

Naoaki: 😳

Naoya cries, mind going on and on about what did Y/N mean with “we’ll” before remembering the night he saw him leave her chambers.

And I’m pretty sure that’s what Y/N thought too when they headed somewhere else lol she has long accepted that nothing good will come from him (but she didn’t expect it to happen so soon!!! She feared Hitomi and Haruko were going to be like GODDAMN IT I TOLD YOU TO NOT GO. Also, wasn't Naobito in charge of that!!?!?!) but thank God it was just him doing (1) of his many commitments towards Y/N, which considering whom they came from, mean nothing.

I’d hate to be the person attending them :s luckily… we’ll have something of that perspective next chapter (if I don’t discard it 🤭)

The worst part of Naoya’s continuous failing attempts would definitely have to be the way Y/N just turned away hahahah I was like DAMN girl, even if she was somewhat afraid of doing anything because of his outburst she really did that. And Naoya took it lmao straight to the heart. Good.

As for Naoya crying… heh. 😊 I just realized we haven’t seen him do that… interesting, I think you might like that one chapter.

The whole doctor thing was just awful. He was really out there, jabbing at anyone he could 😳 I’m surprised he didn’t kick it up a notch and slander Toji too. Though I think Naobito was like “No, Naoya is sensitive and he might actually kill you so chill, I still have use for you” lol

I’ll still defend Y/N by saying she hasn’t cheated on Naoya but…. I mean, the emotional department… that’s long gone hahahahahahahahahahhahahaahhahahaha Still, wtf is this man going over and over about that particular topic? Like, we get it. You want to know. Ok, sure, maybe she’s gotten something but these two for sure haven’t so NEXT. Shouldn't we be talking about Naoya in that sense???

As for the ultrasound part, I actually was like “huh, impressive Naoya decided to actually stand up and do something” maybe to get his money’s worth, or probably to reveal “WHAT THE HELL DO THESE THINGS MEAN????? IS THERE A BABY THERE OR NOT” get outta here... and how he reacted to the rest of the procedures I was just like yep, there he is... usual Naoya.

This man is grasping at straws at this point, inviting her out to eat was the evidence of that lol. If Y/N was a bit more… assertive and fearless, she would’ve been like “are you serious right now? You want me to get sentenced to death again? Sir, I only have one life, GOODBYE”

As for the “test her condition”… it’s the doctor instigating Y/N and Naoya again with Naoaki lol. I don’t know what this man is thinking, seriously. Probably that Y/N was abstaining to do the deed in a more pleasurable way 🤮and the way he was disappointed that there was no heartbeat or a fetus in there wtf lol.

Naoya is hesitant because of Naoaki more than anything, as well as the fact that he can’t get near Y/N at all, his father’s conditions for her survival looming in the back of his mind.

If it helps to give some peace of mind, Naoya does not have it in him to force himself on Y/N again, at least… not now. Because he knows if he crosses that line again, she’ll definitely run towards Naoaki and never leave, and his marriage is DONE. GONE. (can’t be a good person just cause, eh??)

Both characters are on a really tight spot, but I guess in an emotional distress Naoya is in the worse position as of right now. (Y/N is used to it in a way, while he’s barely comprehending what’s going on around him, he's got a whoooole world of turmoil to comprehend, and more to come lmao)

But as you said, we're out here cheering for Naoya lmao!!! Indeed, go give us nothing 😂😂 And the way you described Naoya as a chihuahua... lmao, couldn't be more accurate.

I'm so glad you like this chapter!! It gets me excited for the rest which I cannot wait to show :> !!!!!

Once again, thank you so much for tuning in for another update ❤ also, if there's more things you wish to know or just share my askbox is always open 🤭I looooooooove reading your comments ngl 😭 it often provides me perspectives I fail to see, thank you so much 🥺❤

I hope you have a wonderful week, take care, and hope to see you soon!!!

[zippers]

okay ptsd is so crazy. i woke up depressed/suicidal bc i didnt want to check my emails/felt really guilty that today marked a week since I checked my emails. and [redacted] so I was able to open them and omg...! The only email I got was a really long and kind email from my boss, telling me that he knows it's really difficult in our industry, generally being extremely encouraging and kind.

which is always the case with my anxiety. i don't know what it is that wiser people see in me but the number of chances that i have been given after i feel like i've fucked everything up & burned every bridge is genuinely unbelievable. i honestly think that is part of my problem. i feel like if i faced a seriously negative consequence (like, getting yelled at?! i dont think i have been yelled at, except for strangers calling me slurs, since high school) for my action/inaction would instill some sort of responsibility in me.

which is horrible to think. i know my mom raised me the way she did because her adoptive mom was abusive. but i do think that my nonexistant self-discipline is in part due to people giving me chance after chance because "they believe in me" or "see my potential" when i want to hurt myself over having to check my emails.

and like. I won't do anything. i have a lot to live for, camp starts in two weeks, and I'm literally just waiting on one more test result to confirm that it's my birth control causing other hormonal problems. so presumably once i get it removed and onto a different birth control my mental health with improve. and I am gonna ask my therapist about ketamine therapy as there is a nearby clinic a friend went to and I've heard good things about. i'm pretty confident the $5k commission is going to work out as well, that's one of the emails I'm waiting on so fingers crossed I can check my email tomorrow as well lol.

mental anguish..... :(

[mylife-whatisit]

38 Weeks pregnant and while this whole ride has been a struggle, I literally feel like I am falling apart and definitely not ok. At least with the puking stage I could crawl into bed and cover myself with the covers and just feel sick but safe - but third trimester, ready to pop at a moments notice?

No no no.

Laying down these days needs a strategy - did I take the tums to battle indigestion? Can't lay on my left side - I'll for sure get indigestion. Laying on my back? Upsets Filbert - now he's kicking me - but he's big now so the kicks aren't little flutters anymore - and while they don't hurt per se , they are VERY uncomfortably startling when he kicks in the right place.

Finally get comfortable? Nope. Gotta pee out a shot-glass worth of urine for the 50th time today. Great. But getting up to go do that is an Olympic event of rolling over and pulling myself up because my abdominal muscles are not very useful these days.

Thirsty constantly - but drink too much water and then lay down? Indigestion. X.X Not to mention it just refuels the 4000 trips to the bathroom in the middle of the night.

Then the weird restless leg syndrome. Hip discomfort (I already had a bad hip, now it's widening or getting loser or whatever? Just chop it off god who needs it.)

And if it's not the indigestion, it's the frigging GAS - I think I've been non-stop burping since 4:00. Weirdly, eating a slice of pizza and drinking a can of pop helped make it less severe.

Oh sweet - a contraction. But not like, a useful one, just a test of the good ol' contraction muscles or whatever. And then it upsets Filbert and he gets back to kicking. Thanks uterus and friends. I hate u.

I don't even have a baby yet and I can't sleep at all. Maybe like an hour and a half chunk if I'm lucky, before I need to use the bathroom, rotate from the bed to the couch to the floor to the couch to the bed, crack at 4am and go "I NEED A BOWL OF CEREAL RIGHT NOW" because I tried to hold off on food before bed to combat the indigestion.

And then can we just discuss the frigging hormones from yesterday and earlier today? Just crying because of discomfort and frustration, and boredom and whatever else - literally, sitting at work entering new users into the computer and just staving off tears of weirdness for no reason. Luckily a Black Eyed Peas song came on and weirdly made things feel better for a bit.

But Dalton is so sweet and nice and helpful and he's a good listener. I don't know how so many women do this alone or with horrible partners. I could not. But I also don't even know how I'm going to get through the next two weeks feeling like my uterus is going to fall out on no sleep and a thirst that feels like I've been licking a brick of salt throughout my trek of the Sahara desert. Maybe Filbert will just fall-out a little early and save me a week. Please.

But I still haven't packed the hospital bag or put batteries in any of his swings or toys, and my house needs to get vacuumed first; but if we can just make it to the weekend then those things can get done. And then we'll be 4 days closer to the end of this and the beginning of new fun like leaky boobs and baby poops and omg why did I do this to myself.

EDIT: I forgot about the HOT HANDS. Trying to sleep? NOPE - hands are ON FIRE - gotta get downstairs and find a cold can of pop to grip to try and make it better. Or run them under cold water? That works better. But also, UNBEARABLE. I hope that goes away after all this too.

[rottiens]

hello hello:D i’ve had such a busy day again today, but i’m here now:)

aww, of course! thank you thank you too :3 i meant everything i said:)

ooh, it rained a little here earlier too! i was out, but it wasn’t that strong so thankfully i didn’t get too wet.

i adore rainy days, cold wether is my absolute fave! i do like summer, but i don’t like the heat unfortunately, as it makes me feel really claustrophobic for some reason 😭 i love the sound of rain tho, it’s so soothing and cozy!

and i bet! i’m glad it got cooler for you:)

omg omg i’m so so excited for your fic! no pressure though, take your time and i very much look forward to it 🤍

and ooh a new book? i hope you enjoy reading it! i haven’t read in quite a while because i need to get my eyes tested, but i’m hoping i can get back into it soon as it’s so calming!

and ofc! my start to this week has been pretty good so far! it was my sisters birthday today.(i’m genuinely so sorry for my late reply btw 🙏😭)

i took her over to a park for a bit, that’s when it started raining unfortunately 😭 but i didn’t mind as i promised her and i love the rain anyway >ᴗ<

i was hoping to have another go at baking today, but i was too tired and it got late, but hopefully i can tomorrow!

the first time i tried baking it the other day it was so yummy! but then i tried again another day and it wasn’t as nice, it was a bit more dry. and it’s strange because the first time i just eyeballed it 😭 so maybe i need to try making it that way again 🤔

oh and i tried making caramel too the other day but.. it was an absolute disaster 😭 it stunk so bad as well because i burnt it. but i can always try again:)

i hope you’ve had a great start to the week and a lovely day too! thank you for asking about mine, you are seriously so so sweet and kind! i really appreciate it 🤍

about feeling claustrophobic because of the heat you are so right :( sometimes i feel like i drown in my own clothes no matter how light they are so i can relate, actually where i live it's always hot and it's much worse in summer so i don't like that season at all.

and it's nice when it's raining and you're at home but it's uncomfortable when you have to go out like this (it rained again today! hehe) so I hope you don't get wet and don't forget to carry your umbrella <3

oh no :c it's very uncomfortable to read when you need glasses, i wear too so i understand it can be especially annoying for your eyes so don't push yourself to do it. plus you can always get audiobooks which has been my choice lately so it doesn't tire my eyes so much. on the other hand, i'm so glad you got to spend time with your sister and enjoy her birthday 🤍 and i'm also so glad the rain didn't ruin your day in the park

And about cooking and baking and caramel 😭 omg experience with caramel reminded me of the first time i tried to make it and it turned out horrible, since then i haven't tried it again but i think part of everything in life and especially in cooking is from failure and learning. i think to get to the perfect recipe or the perfect taste you have to damage many meals and burn some foods lol, so don't give up <3 at first it took me a lot to learn to cook but now i'm getting better at every dish i make and i know with you the same will happen

Sending you a tight hug and really glad to hear you had a great start to a great week ! I had problems with my internet so I was basically offline all day lol and I'm trying to catch up now, I have work piling up and tasks to do but nothing that a positive attitude won't fix ^^

[darisgossip]

gonna write here all of the things that happened today cause i swear it was the messiest most terrifying day of my life . we start with bomb fit pink top low wasted jeans . then school, first class physics , TEST ! hoping for a 8,50 i really really hope . then the whole school h were messy especially when this girl in class started being a COPYCAT !!!! and this other girlie texted me im pretty !! then my geography teacher embarrassed me in front of the class for 5 whole minutes i hate him forever for that . then i had a breakdown/fight/screaming/horrible thing with my mom for 35m STRAIGHT and shes so bipolar at the end she just switched to omg so caring anyway i was depressed the whole day . then after being in bed all day , i remembered about the coffee shop next to me and the fact that they have pumpkin spiced late and i instantly got up and it was the most refreshing walk ever it was almost dark night outside soft wind perfect weather so quiet and at the coffee shop my BEST FRIEND EVER was ordering herself a coffee and that was the sweetest thing ever we hugged and we kept hugging and she saw i was sad i love her endlessly and then i got my coffee and it was so good pumpkin spice late was a whole important inside joke in my old friend group and i got so emotional cause the group got destroyed but i miss everyone so much so i was drowning in tears while drinking pumpkin spice late and then i got home and made bracelets and this day is the messiest most rollercoaster day i’ve ever had in my entire life existence i hate being 15

[withloveajaxx]

for the ask game!! cinnamon, mauve, blush, fuchsia, lavender, umber, razzmatazz, safron YES <3

IVE MISSED U TOO ☹️💗 & TELL YOU EVERYTHING?? OMG OKOK (it’s mainly me being sad tho bc life is unfair)

I’ve been doing alright, the two times I moved blogs tho,, it had to do w personal problems & some people had the audacity to send in asks that they rlly shouldn’t have bc it made me so damn uncomfortable and it was not helping w my current state so I left :,) THE SECOND TIME I LEFT WAS ALSO BC OF MY PROBLEMS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE and everything was going downhill and I needed a break + people were still making me uncomfortable w their asks (turned them off before I left again) I had accidentally deleted my only moots blog which I had to replace but using the same url (@yonayie pls my layla theme was so cool I miss it) I then deleted my other blog and moved here!! away from the trolls!! and weirdos who can’t comprehend the fact that I’m a minor!!

I spent my Christmas and new years on the verge of tears, it was not fun 😭 my house started flooding on Christmas and it scared the shit out of me!!! & on new years?? i cried bc 2022 was an ass and sm happened it was terrible & we didn’t set off fireworks like we used to so that sucked :,)

school has been a PAIN. I’m a complete loner so that makes everything harder 😭 & my math teacher? literally how did he get hired he cannot teach to save his life he’s so unfair too it’s CRAZY HNGJSJWIJE the only way I get a passing grade is if I self-study and do rlly well on the end of course test in april (which is getting dangerously close im not ready) I dislike my drama teacher 👨‍🏫 I’m okay with my environmental sci teacher + history teacher theyre chill 🤞the workload is manageable so I think I’ll be able to get all of my credits most def!!

oh oh my birthday is on the 27th!! yes this friday pls im not sure if I’ll be able to do anything for it but if not it’s okay <3 (it’d be the 3rd year not celebrating it which is why I’m so chill abt it that’s so sad 😭)

wow omg that’s sm word vomit pls!! why has my life been so depressing I cannot!! i just hope this year doesn’t treat me as badly!! PRAYS 🙏

okay now ur turn TELL ME EVERYTHINGGG <33 (everything that u can ofc 💓)

STOP WAIT,,, I INSPIRE YOU??? HELP WHY DOES THAT MAKE MY DAY WTF YONA PLEASE ILYSM 💗💗

also omg that's a lot that happened in your absence,,, FIRST OF ALL, i will willingly beat up life and people for you i swear,,, those weirdos better watch out for these hands >:((. secondly, i'm sorry that school, christmas, and new year were a pain in the butt :((. i hope everything gets better for you!! and ofc if you need anyone to talk to, i'll do my best to reply mwah 🫶

AND OMG okay what's been happening in my life,,, i'll put this under a cut so ppl don't need to scroll for too long HAHDJXJSJD

OKAY SO FIRST OF ALL... COLLEGE APPLICATIONS. good god those humbled me HAHDJKDKSD LYK I AM ACTUALLY STUPID 💀 the one i recently took was so fucking hard it was not even funny,,, like they put shit i've never learned, heard of, or saw and it was HORRIBLE. i was literally guessing everything math related please pray for my future </33 HAHDJDJKD.

ALSO!! I GOT INTO KPOP MORE AGAIN HEHEHEHE. i recently went to a concert of one of my favorite groups and holy shit. i cried. like so many times. HAHDJCKDF IT WAS CRAZY GETTING TO SEE THEM IRL AND I JUST AAAAAAAAJSKCIISJD 😭😭 i'm also seeing another group next week,,, MY ULTIMATE FAVORITE ONE. and i shit you not i am not mentally or emotionally prepared to see those men up close and on stage HSJFKDKDD

also yea school was a bitch 💀 tons of freeloaders and horrible teachers but yk what,,, i got my report today and i passed so it's okay HAHSJFKKDD. also i'm graduating soon and that's kinda scary n idk how to cope but yes 😭 i'm just hoping for the best and giving it my all HSHDJKKFF

BUT THAT'S BEEN ABOUT IT FOR ME,,, HOPING 2023 IS GOOD TO US <33

also nah i'm making sure your birthday will be somewhat special <33 gonna hold a tumblr party n give u a lil something I SWEAR 💗

[awizardsdisaster]

RANT/VENT WARNING

MENTIONS OF S/A, SUBSTANCES, AND THEFT

i am going to Die if my best friend keeps flirting with someone who literally i cannot stand

fuck them. i want my best friend. Fuck The Person He Keeps Flirting With.

i hate them i legit hate them they suck i cannot deal with them all of their morals go against mine everything they do is like a big ol middle finger to me and omg i hate them

but NOOOOOOOOOOOO my best friend is fuckingr IN LOVE WITH THEM??? and if i say anything about it i’m ‘selfish’ and ‘jealous’ and jfc i hate that person j hate them i hate them so much they smoke and i’m p sure they’re gonna drink one day when they grow up like i HATE them i cannot STAND RHAT BITCH I HATE THEM SM

they support piracy and stealing and shit!!! like get the hell away from me!!!!!!! i’m a Good Persoj and they’re just NOT

LIKE I HATE THEM I WANT THEM COMPLRTELY GONE FROM MY LIFE

AND MY BEST FRIENDS OTHER BEST FRIEND IS SO FUCKING!!! HHHHH!!!!! I HAGE THEM MORE THAN I HATE MY BEST CRIENDS ALMOST PARTNER! I HATE THEM!

in one of my favorite books, the main characters figure out if they really hate someone by asking if they wish the person was never born. and you know what? i wish [shitty best friend of best friend] And [shitty almost partner of best friend] WERE NEVER FUCKING BORN

I DO HATE THEM I KNOW THAT I HATE THEM SO MUCH I WISH THEY DIDNT EVEN EXIST AAA

I SWEAR TO GOD EVERYTHING HURTS. LIKE. YESTERDAY I LITERALLY HAD A HORRIBLE FUCKING PTSD FLASHBACK BECAUSE SOMEONE I THOUGHT WAS MY BEST IRL FRIEND JUST FUCKING SA’D ME, AND NOW GUESS WHAT. IM TRYING TO DEAL BETTER AND MY FRIENDS FUCKING FLIRTING WITH THE BITCH I HATE. AND THEY DONT EVEN LIKE ME TALKING ABOUT SOMEOJE I LIKE BC HE DORSNT LIKE THEM. SO IM GOOD. I RESPECT THAT HOUNDARY. BUT DOES IT GO THE SAME WAY??? NO, OBV NOT. I OULD DEAL JUST HAVING THE PEDSON AROUND. THEY TRY TO BE NICE TO ME. BUT SEEING MY BEST FRIEND ALL LOVEY DOVEY WITH THEM FUCKING HURTS SO BAD ESP CONSIDERING HE WAS GONNA BE TRYING TO COMFORT ME TODAY SINCE I HAVE TO GET BLOOD DRAWN. IM IN CHRONIC FUCKING PAIN. IT HURTS TO WALK. AND IM GETTING TESTING DONR TODAY. AJD I NEEDED MY BEST FRIEND!!! AND I DONT GET HIM BC HE LIKES HIS CRUSH MORE THAN HE LIKES ME. I HATE IT. I WISH THAT HITCH(THE CRUSH) WAS JUST GONE. I HATE THEM. I HATE THEM SO MUCH. I HTE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HAYE THEN I HATE THEM