#Seizure response

[aliusfrater]

similar cinematographic choices to portray the same imagery with insanely different circumstantial contexts

[queen-witcher]

So I keep thinking about Tissaia with epilepsy. Like she's had it since she was a child, but when she came to Aretuza she was able to slowly get a grasp on it through potions and other magical care, to the point that by her accension, she rarely ever had episodes.

But I think it also fed into her obsession with control. There's nothing quite like a seizure to make a person feel out of control, and she hates the way they make her feel... vulnerable, exposed. If she can just recognize and catalog every symptom and trigger, can figure out the exact amount of water she must drink and the exact amount of wine she's allowed to indulge in and the exact amount of time she has to take her potions once the migraines and auras start, well, she can keep them under control - keep herself under control.

By the time Yennefer enters her life, she hasn't had an episode in well over a century. (And hasn't been witnessed by anyone during, in much, much longer). She can almost pretend she doesn't have them, but that doesn't stop the fact that she sees herself in Yennefer from the very first moment she saw her crooked spine and twisted jaw. And she can't tell which urge is stronger, to shy away from her or hold her closer.

All of this to say, I keep thinking about:

A) a post-sodden where the dimeritium in Tissaia's blood and the illness it leaves her with, leaves her struggling with the delicate grasp she has on her control. I think it adds an extra layer to how she interacts with Yennefer. The desperate yearning paired with the pained distance. The anxious need to feel strong for a powerless Yennefer, despite feeling so weak and out of sorts herself. Especially when Yennefer has always been the one to challenge her careful balance in more ways than one.

And B) a post-alzur's thunder where channeling that much electric current has more of an effect than just whitening Tissaia's hair. Electrical injury has been known to cause neurological symptoms, including potentially triggering seizures, and Tissaia channeled enough current to have been vaporized. She should have been. And maybe her control is what saved her, but not without consequences. I feel like she would have been hiding it for days. The faint trembling and unfocused eyes, the other mages can attribute to exhaustion, both magical and otherwise. But Tissaia knows. She knows what's coming, and what's worse, none of her usual preventatives are working.

I think she has a couple minor episodes before anyone else notices. She's always able to retreat to privacy before anything happens. Though there always seems to be a pair of watchful violet eyes staring after her.

Until one day, she just drops. The other mages, of course, panic because they've never seen Tissaia like this, but all Tissaia registers is Yennefer. Yennefer's warm hand gently turning her to her side. Yennefer's voice as it alternates between low soothing tones and commands to the other mages. Yennefer who sits with Tissaia and becomes her balance and control, when all she feels is chaos.

[ophelias-gh0st]

Devon: Mark:

[qoldenskies]

I was re reading coming undone last night because I couldn't sleep and I started thinking what if donnie had that seizure when he was in the sewers with leo after failing to set up the security tech. I feel like I'm hitting that turtle with depression inducing flyswatter

OW????

[luringfantasy]

Seizure

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Warning: seizure, self doubt, unnecessary guilt, I sometimes don't know how to write, hope, fluff

This was not the first time you've been to Asgard, but this was definitely your first time here in your official capacity. It being ‘fiance of the crown prince’. You were the future queen. But you had another queen to worry about. You were meeting Frigga today.

You saw her from time to time, but you were extremely intimidated by her and very shy. And the kind person (goddese) she was, she didn’t push you out of your comfort zone. At least not until last week, where she strongly insisted on meeting you in person and getting to know you.

So here you were, walking with Loki, hand in hand, going to have a picnic lunch with your future mother-in-law in her favourite garden. She wasn’t there when you both arrived at your destination. So you waited admiring the garden.

It was only a few minutes later that you suddenly started feeling unwell, you panicked knowing what was happening and immediately sat on the ground. You didn’t have time to explain to Loki what was happening, but turns out you didn't need to. Everything happened super fast, you sat down, and so did Loki. He crouched behind you, pulling you into him, lettin you take his support. At the same time you heard footsteps and realised that Frigga had arrived . Shit, you didn’t have time you.. were not in control anymore. All you could do was close your eyes and let it pass. Your bosya nd mind felt like two different entities, you were desperately trying to grab the steering wheel, but like all other times it was futile, your body was jerking around, while Loki calmly held you, making sure you didn't hurt yourself. And all you could do was endure this. After a few minutes of this, which felt like hours to you, calm darkness came over you.

When you woke up, the first thing that hit you was the soreness in your body, every muscle in your body felt stiff and sore and tired and fck it was oerwhelming. Then embarrassment and guilt hit you, you didn’t wanna open your eyes and come back to the real world just yet. You always felt very vulnerable during and after your seizures but it didn’t have to be today. It was unfair, it could have been any day, any other day, but it was today. Right when you were going to meet queen Frigga, right when she wanted to get to know you. Why did it have to be today?

POV Loki

To say he was worried would be an understatement. He knew that the hard part of this was over. And to an extent he was very happy that it happened in his presence. He could not fathom the thought of this happening to you when he wasn’t there to make sure you were okay. He knew that he couldn’t help you any other way just yet. But he wanted to make this as easy on you as possible.

He was in the middle of giving instructions to the roya; chef on how to make your comfort food when he heard you wake up. You didn’t open your eyes yet, but your breathing turned uneven.

He dismissed the cook and waited for you to wake up. He knew that you were up but when you didn't open your eyes for minutes he got concerned. He walked over to the bed and gently sat down beside you, running his hands through your hair, hoping to convey his torrent of motion for you. He wanted to tell you how concerned he was, he wanted to make you feel the love he has for you, and he wanted to tell you that he was there, right by your side.

Your POV

You felt Loki sit beside you on your bed and him running his fingers through your hair, massaging your scalp. Some of the stiffness immediately left your body by having him there with you. But you were not ready to face him just yet. You hoped that sleep would take over you, so you would have a few more hours for yourself. You messed up and didn’t know what you could do to fix it.

Loki’s sweet presence made your heart heavier and soon you could not control yourself. You turned to face him, pulling him to face you, hiding your face in his stomach, wrapping your arms around his waist while his hands moved to trace patterns on your back.

He pulled away from you when he heard you sobbing, “are you hurting?” he asked softly. Yes you were hurting, but the mental agony was more than the physical pain you were in. You told him that you were fine, but he wanted to know the source of your tears so he could take the pain away.

“I am sorry Loki.” you begged him through your words so he would forgive you eventually. “What for?” he asked, confused. You knew that it was a special event and it was ruined. The more you explained the more he was confused. After minutes of you explaining, he stopped you. “Did anything that happened today under your control?”, “of course not!” you exclaimed. “Then there is nothing to apologise for love.” he calmly told you. You knew this but you were still upset. Before you could say anything else, the guards stationed outside your room announced that queen Frigga arrived.

“How are you dear?” she asked you calmly, the kindness in her voice resembled Loki’s. “Your majesty” you bowed your head, “I am better now, I am so-” “That’s great”, she cut you off before you could apologise to her. You saw her nod to the guard, and within seconds a few servants walked in with picnic baskets and multiple vases of flowers you were admiring in the garden. The vases were placed around your room, after which the servants left. 

Then Frigga asked Loki to leave. Loki pulled you a little close to him, not expecting, like you, for his mother to ask that. “Mother, I believe that she needs rest right now.” Frigga simply smirked at her child, happy to see how deep his emotions ran for you. “And she will rest, with me here of course. I still need to get to know my daughter better.” You both were taken a little aback by her address of you. But you both smiled at her. Loki was still confused as to why she wanted him out.

“My child, you need to see the healers, they have been doing the research and you need to guide them.” What research? What healers? you thought, but before you could ask Loki rushed out without sparing you a second glance.

You looked at queen Frigga for some answers. “You know I had a friend once, a midgardian, who suffered the same misfortune, I could not help her that time though.” She continued setting up a plate of fruits for the both of you. Gesturing you to keep sitting when you started to get up to help her. She continued, “Loki has gone to see the healers, because they have been researching the cause and cure for this. He started this research program a couple of years ago.”  Couple years? You and Loki started dating 14 months back. So that means he started the program when you were friends. This new information melted your heart and your love and admiration for him increased ten folds.

Frigga sat on the bed beside you handing you a fruit plate. You tried apologising to her, but she restarted what Loki said that this was not under your control, and this was nothing you should feel ashamed of or guilty for. You continued to discuss what makes you feel better and she insisted that you spend the rest of your day in the room resting. 

You spent the next couple of hours chatting to her, asking about Loki and Thor’s childhood. Loki would get angry later when he realised what secrets his mother divulged. But you wouldn't have it another way.

Big credit to @kaylalikesmanythings for sharing her experience with me, I wouldn't have been able to write this without the help! 💚

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

they think he has epilepsy :(

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

Real tired of media using someone pouring liquor away as shorthand for recovering from alcoholism.

Hope that person doesn't experience any alcohol seizures! That'd be unfortunate! 😐

[caffeinatedopossum]

So apparently, for years, a handful of my spontaneous "panic attacks" have actually been from asthma. O_O I was panicking because I COULDN'T FUCKING BREATHE

"It's just anxiety" I hate you + hammer car explosion + dungeon for 2 thousand years + ratio

"Just breathe" well NO FUCKING WONDER that wasn't working for me!! My dumbass thought I was just doing something wrong but I literally physically could not breathe

[evildemonclan]

Having POTS and a fear of fainting or feeling faint is wonderful.

[spiritualityloves247]

Weren't allowed stuffies.

Mom called the psych unit AHEAD of time

[thesnacken]

Uhhhhhhh

[fiddlepickdouglas]

The horrors :(

[tittyinfinity]

i am definitely still having mild seizures (idr what they're called) bc I'll just be sitting here and then suddenly my brain is super foggy, my vision is blurry, and my tongue is bitten. My nose also started bleeding randomly. I have this intense level of lethargy too. DO NOT miss your seizure medication.

[aquarri]

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[v-tired-queer]

Does anyone on here have tips for training shelter dogs to be service dogs? My local shelter has a couple of dogs that have really good potential to be service dogs so I want to adopt from there. Any general tips would be appreciated!