#Shameless SP series

[n0tangeliccc]

Give in

Stan x Fem!Reader

(All characters are 18+)

Warning: Cheating and references to sex

A/N: The bitch is back from her break (yes Im aware I said it would be a week long break but now I’m free of all the things that were stressing me so woohoo!!)

Next.

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You’ve always liked Stan Marsh. Maybe it was the way he’d look at you, or the lingering touches you two would share, or maybe even the steamy make outs you two would have in secret. Every little thing he did make you yearn for him even more but there was one problem, Wendy Testaburger, Stan’s long time on and off girlfriend and…you’re best friend.

You had felt guilty when first it happened, Stan had come over to your house after yet another breakup with Wendy and one thing led to another and you ended up under him. It became a common thing, Wendy breaks up with Stan again? Stan comes running to you and you help him relieve his pains and frustrations. Slowly it wasn’t only during their breakups, anytime they’d fight or he just felt frustrated with anything in his life he’d come to you. It wasn’t always for sex, sometimes he’d come to you for comfort.

You and Stan started to get closer as friends and from that you began to develop feelings for him. You knew it was wrong, you wanted to feel guilty again but every time his lips were on yours all those feelings would disappear. Was it really that wrong if it felt right?

The jealousy that ran through your veins whenever you saw him and Wendy together again was painful. You wanted needed him to be yours. You didn’t care if you were being a terrible friend, you didn’t care if Wendy never forgave you, you didn’t even care if it ruined your reputation, you needed him more than you wanted to admit.

Stan felt the same way, you could see it in his eyes whenever he would see you around. He didn’t feel the spark of love with Wendy anymore but he also couldn’t stop going back to her. He got used to the break ups, usually they’d make him mope around and feel like shit but now he had something to look forward too after it. He didn’t think much of it the first time, him and Wendy weren’t together at the time so why did he have to feel guilty? Sure he felt guilty the first time he did it while they were still together but that guilt left him fairly quickly and he found himself running to you for everything and anything.

Every time you guys were together you wished he’d finally give in and left her. You even told him and he simply brushed you off with a “I’ll break up with her soon” but that wasn’t good enough. You couldn’t take it anymore, the tension you two shared every time you hung out with him and Wendy. The poor girl clueless of her boyfriend and her best friend’s affair. You knew she would be heartbroken and you knew she would hate you forever but you didn’t care. You only had one thing on your mind….

Stan Marsh

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Masterlist

[daisynik7]

Make Me Sweat

Pairing: Aoi Todo x f!reader

Rating: Explicit - MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!

Word Count: ~2.5k

cw: written with a curvy reader in mind, canon-divergent (post-Shibuya but a happy one), all characters are 18+, explicit language, smut – cunnilingus, vaginal fingering, spit play, PIV sex (cowgirl position, mating press), breeding kink, praise kink, pet names (sweetie, sweetheart, baby, pretty girl, good girl), creampie 

Summary: With the start of the new year, you make it one of your resolutions to become more active. You begin at your apartment's fitness center, where you run into your muscle head, loud-mouth next-door neighbor, Aoi Todo. He offers his gratuitous advice, annoying you at first. But when he suggests a particular kind of workout, it piques your interest enough that you can't refuse.

Author’s Note: I used metric units (kg) to describe the weights. Also, I am no expert in lifting so please take all of this with a grain of salt LOL. I just know that canonically, these characters are fucking STRONG. I stopped with the tag list on this one bc technically this was a bonus fic and I wasn't sure if anyone wanted to be tagged in these. With that, please enjoy some shameless smut about our favorite JJK himbo! Divider credit to @/cafekitsune.

part 6 of to all the boys who live next door anthology series

When you said you wanted to start exercising more, you weren’t expecting this: being bounced up and down your next-door neighbor’s impressively huge cock. Yet, here you are, getting pounded with your ass slapping lewdly on his thighs. His big hands dig into the sides of your belly, his lips on the skin of your neck, voice gruff and husky.  “Told you, didn’t I?” 

Let’s rewind to a few hours earlier.

You haven’t been prioritizing yourself lately; your obligations during the day drain all the energy from you and your bed is always so enticing for a nap. When the new year approaches, you make it one of your resolutions to be more active. The gym in your apartment complex is finally open after being renovated the past three months and now, there’s really no excuses when the opportunity is just five floors below you. Your forego your usual nap and suit up in your favorite workout clothes, heading down the elevator to the fitness center. 

Luckily, it isn’t crowded; the only other people inside are Aoi Todo, your neighbor, and his pink-haired buddy, Yuji. They’re both at the weights section, Yuji doing squats with the barbell while Todo spots him, yelling at him encouragingly. “Come on, brother. Hold it, hold it! You got this!”

Yuji grunts, holding the deadlift for as long as possible, eventually dropping it to the floor with a loud thud. Todo claps emphatically, beaming at him. “That’s what I’m talking about!”

You smile to yourself, amused at Todo’s contagious enthusiasm. When he notices you, he gives you a nod, which you return, slightly embarrassed for being caught watching. 

Have you mentioned yet how fucking ripped he is? Today, he wears a loose tank, arm holes cut low to show off his extraordinary physique. Arms bulging with muscles, an incredibly large chest, a well-defined eight-pack. He’s built like a Spartan warrior, ready for battle, destined for victory. It’s impossible to ignore a body like his, even more impossible to ignore his eccentric attitude, which gets on your nerves when you have to listen to his noisy demeanor on the opposite side of the wall. 

The cardio section is on the other side of room, so you make your way to one of the treadmills, setting the level to a walking pace for a quick warm-up. Before you put your headphones in to listen to music, you eavesdrop of their conversation, observing them from your peripheral. 

“Good shit, brother,” Todo says, massaging his shoulders affectionately.

Yuji scratches his head, grinning. “Still got work to do to match my PR. After Shibuya, my strength hasn’t been the same.”

“You’re still the strongest fucker I know. Besides me, of course,” Todo adds, chuckling. “Spot me before you go.” 

They replace the already notable weights with what you suspect are heavier ones. Yuji whistles through his teeth. “300. You’re losing your touch, don’t you think?” he teases, nudging him in the ribs.

Todo digs into a container of powdered chalk, coating his fingers with it. “I’m taking it easy today. Don’t want to over-exert myself in case something exciting happens later.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

He grabs on to the barbell, smirking. “I don’t know yet. We’ll see.” Maybe it’s your imagination, but you can almost swear that his eyes meet yours for a split second in the reflection of the mirror. 

You continue to observe as Todo easily deadlifts 300 kg, as if it weighs nothing to him, repeating this ten times without breaking a sweat.

Yuji laughs, helping him rerack. “That’s crazy.”

Todo pats his back. “You’ll get there soon, brother. Once you’re fully recovered, you’ll be lifting more than me, I’ll make sure of that.” His unwavering support is actually endearing. Sure, he can be obnoxious, but this side of him is charming. 

Unfortunately, this sentiment doesn’t last long. Once Yuji leaves, Todo decides to choose the treadmill right beside you, purposefully neglecting the surrounding unoccupied cardio machines. You’re still at a walking pace, eyeing him suspiciously as he stands there, blatantly watching you with a cocky grin. “Did you enjoy the show?”

Avoiding his gaze, staring at the console in front of you, you mutter, “Excuse me, but I’m trying to focus here.”

“Focus on what? Walking?” he scoffs, leaning on the handrail nearest to you. “You’re not going to get far if you keep going at a snail’s pace.”

You roll your eyes, finally looking at him. “So what do you suggest, Oh-Wise-One?”

It’s meant to be sarcastic, but of course, he thinks you’re genuinely asking. “You’ve got to alternate between high intensity and low intensity. Sprint for thirty seconds, then walk for a minute to cool off. Then repeat. Simple as that.”

As much as you appreciate the gratuitous advice, you’re already familiar with high intensity interval training. You’re just nervous to actually do it, not confident in your running abilities. “I’m not a good runner,” you admit. 

“I’m sure that’s not true. Come on, show me what you got.” He crosses his arms over his pecs, waiting. 

Deciding it’s better to relent to him rather than argue, you brace yourself, upping the speed so that you’re doing an easy jog. 

“You can do better than that!” he hollers, reaching for the controls to increase the level, making the track move faster and faster. You’re sprinting full speed now, lasting about thirty seconds before you swat him away, tugging at the emergency shut off cord to stop it. 

You catch your breath, glaring at him, sweat starting to bead on your forehead. "What the fuck, are you trying to kill me?!"

He’s unfazed by your outburst and oblivious to the asshole move he made. “Don’t be so dramatic. You did great. You have really nice form.”

You don’t let his compliments dissuade you from being angry at him. “You can’t just do that without any warning. I’m still getting used to all this.”

“You’re right, I’m sorry,” he apologizes. “I won’t do that again.” He watches you take long sips from your water bottle, scanning your figure up and down. A coy smirk spreads across his face. "You know, if running ain't your thing, there are other workouts we can try that might suit you better."

You continue to drink, gradually regaining your composure. "Like what?"

He leans in close to you, breath hot on your ear. "Sex."

You choke on your water, using your towel to wipe the mess. Ready to give him an earful, he hops off the track, walking towards the exit. "If you want to work up a real sweat, you know where to find me. I promise to make it worth your while.”

And with that, he's gone, leaving you speechless. And intrigued. 

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After dinner, you take a long shower, Todo’s unconventional suggestion replaying continuously in your mind. You’re almost certain it’s a ridiculous joke, though the more you analyze it, the less ridiculous it seems. In fact, by the time you’re drying off in front of the mirror, checking your reflection carefully, you’re seriously considering it. You’re not particularly tired from earlier, so maybe you have room for one more workout. And hey, if the offer still stands, why not take it?

You slide into a different pair of leggings, one that shows off your curves, and slip on a t-shirt, fulling prepared to exercise. In your running shoes, you walk the few steps next door and knock twice. When he doesn’t answer within the first ten seconds, panic sets in and you’re tempted to turn on your heel to retreat. Before you can, the door swings open and you’re greeted by Todo’s bare bust. He smirks, not at all surprised to see you standing in front of him. “Hey.”

Swallowing the thick saliva gathering on your tongue, you let out a meek, “Hello.” His enormous frame towers over you and you can’t help but salivate at the sight of him. You always assumed he’d be the type of guy to walk around shirtless in his apartment. Not that you’re complaining.

He beckons you inside, closing and locking the door shut behind him. “Can’t stop thinking about it, huh?”

You roll your eyes at him, cracking a smile simultaneously. “Well, it’d be rude to turn down such a generous offer, right?”

He lets out a small laugh, stepping towards you, gripping at your hips to pull you into him. “I knew you were a smart girl.”

You’ve severely underestimated how much bigger he is than you until this moment, as you peer up at him eagerly. “Todo.”

He bows his head down, mouth grazing your ear. “Aoi.”

“Aoi,” you repeat, breath hitching. 

“Good girl,” he praises, making you shudder with anticipation. “Tell me exactly what you want and I’ll give it to you.”

You paw at his chest, admiring his sculpted muscles, pressing your fingers into them without even making a dent. “I want you to give me that workout you promised me.”

“Yeah?” he croons, his noticeable erection strained in his sweatpants. “You want this fat fucking cock, don’t you?”

He’s as vulgar as you imagined he’d be and it only spurs you on. You link your arms around his neck, on your tippy-toes to meet him for a kiss. Instead, he hoists you up, holding you with his hands below your ass, your legs wrapped around his waist. His boner throbs as you buck your hips on him, desperate for friction on your aching clit. “You feel it, don’t you?” he purrs, grinding you against him. “That’s all for you.”

He carries you into the bedroom, kissing you sloppily with his massive tongue invading your mouth. When he can’t take it anymore, he tosses you onto the mattress, stripping his clothes off swiftly, you doing the same. He crawls on top of you, ogling your naked body, a lustful gleam in his expression. “You’re so fucking hot.”

“You’re so fucking big,” you blurt out in response, not knowing a better word to describe him. Because everywhere you look, Aoi Todo is big. Big biceps, a tremendous torso, a huge fucking cock ready to fill you the fuck up. You spread your legs open for him, practically begging for him to fuck you. 

“Look at this perfect pussy,” he coos, face inching closer to your cunt. He hocks a thick wad of spit directly onto your clit, smearing it with his tongue. “So wet for me.”

You squirm beneath him, unable to control yourself. “Fuck, Aoi,” you swear, toes already curling from the sensation. 

“I’m going to make you come first. Make this pussy extra creamy for my dick. Is that okay, sweetheart?” He massages circles into your clit with his thumb, looking up at you from between your thighs. 

“Yes,” you whine, trembling with arousal.  

“Good girl,” he says again, and you realize how fucking sexy it is when he praises you like this. “Can I finger you too?” 

“Oh god, yes,” you moan, growing impatient, needy for whatever he’s willing to offer you. 

With his lips latched to your clit, he teases your entrance with his middle finger, slowly sliding deeper until he bottoms out. He adds another digit, pumping inside you while he sucks on your bud, tongue swirling around it. You rock your hips against his face, greedy for more. Todo hums, encouraging you, the vibrations spurring you on until it’s too much. You come for him after a few more strokes, gushing all over his face. You reach down to grab his hair, trying to pry him off you, but he’s obviously way stronger and more resilient. “One more,” he muffles, chin shiny with your slick, his tongue flicking your clit. “For me.” He flashes you a cocky smirk that makes him even more impossible to deny.

You throw your head back into the pillows, staring up at the ceiling, hazy-eyed from the pleasure. The squelch of his fingers in and out of your wet cunt is obscene, combined with the shameless moans pouring out of you. After your second climax, or maybe it’s the third (you’ve lost count), he finally eases off you, slurping his digits clean to swallow up your juices. “You’re doing so good for me, pretty girl.” He strokes his cock in his fist, tapping the glistening head on your swollen clit. “It’s going to feel fucking amazing.”

You hum, the only response you can muster in this fucked-out state. 

“How do you want it, sweetie?” He lifts you off the bed, having you straddle his lap. “You want to ride me?” 

You nod, resting your head on his shoulder, yearning for anything. “Yes.”

“Fuck yeah,” he growls, slapping your ass before guiding his cock into your slippery cunt. You gasp, astonished by the extraordinary girth of him filling you up to the hilt. “You’re swallowing me up.” He spreads your cheeks apart, squeezing your ass in his grip. “That’s my girl.”

You gaze at him, pressing your forehead to his, sticky with sweat. “Fuck me,” you whimper, kissing him fiercely, completely enraptured by him.

He does, bouncing you on his lap, hitting your sweet spot over and over until you’re unraveling for him once more. “Told you, didn’t I? Told you I’d make it worth your while.”

Whatever semblance of rationale you had is gone. All you can think of is Todo’s manhandling you like a fucking rag doll, pliable and yielding to his every touch. Before you reconsider it, you spout the words, “Breed me,” wishing nothing more but to have his hot load leaking out of your cunt.

As if he wasn’t already feral enough, he most certainly is now, planting his feet on the bed to fuck up into you faster and harder. “That’s what you really want? You want my fucking seed in you? Oh fuck. I’ll give it to you, then. I’ll give it to you so fucking good.”

It happens quickly; you’re on your back again, folded nearly in half, knees to your chest, Todo fucking you in a mating press like his goddamn life depends on it. The mattress creaks noisily with each savage thrust he delivers. Sweat drips from his face onto yours as you kiss each other passionately, his massive body surrounding you as he floods your womb with his cum. “Fuck, milk it all out of me baby. That’s it. That’s my girl.”

You stay like this for a moment, allowing yourselves to catch you breaths and cool down. This really was a workout. Todo takes his time, reluctantly pulling out and watching his cum ooze out of you. 

“I can’t believe we did that,” you sigh, hiding your face in the pillow.

He gets comfortable beside you, giving you a smooch on the forehead. “Honestly, I’ve been wanting to do that for a while now.”

“Really?” You look at him, cupping his cheek gently, wiping the perspiration off his brow with your thumb. 

He smiles, nuzzling into your palm. “Yeah.”

“Then maybe we should make this a regular thing,” you suggest as you snuggle into his arms. 

“Sounds like a plan to me,” he agrees, embracing you.

And just like that, you have yourself a new and very, very personal trainer. 

[eeunoia]

ENHYPEN Series

sinag — psh.

chapter two

synopsis: waiting for a great plot twist in your life, the ruthless and powerful mafia boss park sunghoon forced his way in to it.

pairings: park sunghoon x reader

word count: 2.7k

warnings: a contains violence, guns, killings, abuse, obsessive love & other stuff. if you can't take this stuff, feel free to scroll away. let me know if i missed some.

note: not proof read. sinag’s chapter will usually have 2k-3k words. i'm sorry if there’s grammatical errors. enjoy reading and my ask are open for your messages. thank you so much!

© eeunoia 2023 — all rights reserved.

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“Calm down, Kwon.” a man wearing a formal attire focused his eyes at the scene beneath him, standing proudly in front of the big glass windows of his office. He holds a cup of whiskey on his hand, the other one inside his pockets.

“Calm down?” his tone frantic as he slightly slams the coffee table near him. His fists balled, jaw clenching feeling perturbed by the situation they’re tangled in.

“Your son is uncontrolled! This arrangement was long overdue! You know we already need to do something about this.” he added.

The man remained calmed and collected despite his opposite demeanor. He went here out of frustrations in hope to come up with a solution for their problem and all he gets is a couple words of consolement. If anything, that's the last thing he needs.

“I am doing my best to convince my son, Luis.” he slowly turns to face the raging man. The placid look on his face pretty much mirrors the same with the young mafia boss they are discussing about. The main reason of their distress and troubled affairs.

“You out of all people knows that convincing your son is already out of the choices.” the man stoods and stares straight to his eyes.

“He’s stubborn and proud.”

“Mainly why we shouldn’t act repulsively. Sunghoon knows when to play his cards and is not stupid.” he took a quick sip from his glass and pursed his lips into a thin line.

“He is unpredictable and moves only to his demand. He was never born to be controlled. He's my own flesh and blood afterall.” the proud smile spreads across his face that only adds to Mr. Kwon’s anger.

“But he’s now going crazy over some girl? Is this the same boy you are blabbering about?” the man scoffs that faded the smirk on Mr. Park’s face.

“If we cannot do anything with your son might as well start by getting rid of that girl.” the look on his face were shameless. The way he talks was too casual that you’ll think he’s just commanding a luggage to be discarded somewhere.

“We have to find her before he does.” he fixed his coat while still keeping his dark, serious gazes over Mr. Park.

“In order to solve the problem, we need go dispose the one causing them.” he stated with firmness to his tone indication of want on immediate action.

“I will expect a bigger progress soon, Steven.” he starts heading towards the door, one of his man held it for him. He stops from his tracks and craned his neck to the man by the windows, “I’m not a very forgiving and patient person. You know that.”

He left the room and Mr. Park was lost with his own thoughts. His emotions at a mess that rarely happens. The lack of sense in the current situation was very unusual of him. All he can think of is his son and the tangled connection link between the Kwon family.

From the plane to your way to the hotel, you are well taken care of. The stress and worries you’ve been feeling when you stepped at the airport hours ago were vanished into thin air. It was crazy and you can’t even believe that you’re actually thinking that this trip isn’t so bad at the moment. Like as if you aren’t the same girl in distress for being sent over for this.

“This way to your room, Madam.” one hotel staff guides you in this beautiful suite. It was a hug room with a breathtaking view of the city beneath you.

The streets are busy, people rushing towards somewhere, cars honking at each other but it didn’t spoil the ambiance of the place. You giggled and eyes shut for a couple seconds, embracing the breeze blowing towards you. It surely gives off a different vibe, the feeling of being new to the place slowly gets into your system.

Scary, but thrilling. You are feeling anxious and all but staying in a fancy hotel with a rowdy surrounding rather than secluded villa sure comforts you a thousand times better.

You are snapped out from your trance when you remembers the main agenda of your trip. Letting out a strained sigh, you walked towards your bag to fish out the well planned schedule that was prepared for you. It’s like a list of things to be accomplished along the trip. It sounds like something not of a big deal since this is a business trip afterall, but the amount is what’s gets you. Thankfully, they did left your first day vacant.

Another strained sigh liberates out from you, making your lungs feel more lighter. So much for enjoying this trip. You tried to find the brighter side of it. The things you will learn from the seminars and basically from the experience here will be much to your gain.

You ordered room service for lunch and decided to rest for a bit before roaming around near the hotel for the rest of the day. The next day, its work day so while waiting for your first agenda, you ordered food for lunch. If the place was great, of course the food was fantastic. It is expected and it didn’t disappoint. You enjoyed your meal and soon starts preparing for your errands.

Today’s task is an uncomplicated one. Pretty much a warm up for the upcoming busy two weeks of your stay here. You dress up cutely and comfortably before deciding on heading downstairs to ask the lobby for some directions.

On the other hand, multiple cars parked right in front of the hotel. People’s eyes darted curiously at the scene, some chooses to continue their day after watching for a while. Sunghoon went out of his black range rover and dominantly roams his eyes around, causing the lingering eyes of some individuals to tear away.

His intimidating aura just causes some to even stop at their tracks and give way to the handsome man. He didn’t give any care and went inside along with some of his men, tossing his car keys to the valley incharge without sparing him a glance. The boy bowed paying his respect, slightly anxious not to do any mistake.

Arriving at the hotel lobby, staffs bows as he walks by. It didn’t stop people to stare at him. His face is not one to be missed anyway.

His men clicks the elevator open and Sunghoon steps inside. After pressing the floor where his room was booked, the door closes. The people who's about to ride the elevator hesitates and decided not to join him.

As the door of the elevator closes, the one beside opens and you steps outside. Smiling to the people waiting just in front of it. They seem fazed about something that made you curious. Your eyes looks at the elevator beside you, but it was close and the lights above says its moving up the building.

Dismissing that matter, you shrug off your shoulders and walks towards the lobby to go ask for directions.

Sunghoon sighs and walks outside the elevator when he arrived the floor. The hallway was empty.

“What are you doing here?” his jaw clenches and his fist balled tightly at the sight of a man sat comfortably in the middle of the room.

He’s alone, at least here inside, and a glass of whiskey sat near him on a coffee table. The man smiles a little and opens his arms as a welcoming gesture.

Sunghoon furrowed his brows and kept his unamused expression.

“Is that how you greet your dad?” his Dad crosses his legs and gave him this stare.

Despite feeling so angry, Sunghoon grinned.

“Dad?” he scoffs. “Since when did you act like one?” his rude words pricks something inside Mr. Park’s chest, but he knew he was in no place to complain.

He took part on why Sunghoon became like this. He was part of his dark childhood that led him to be ruthless. He may feel sorry right now, but there’s nothing he can do about it anymore. All there’s left was to convince him over to do the arrangement and save him from any possible outrage of the Kwon family.

“Son,” he calls, tone longing.

Sunghoon face reflects disgust at what he heard. “Don’t you dare call me that.” he coldly rejects.

“What are you doing here? How did you know that I’m here?” his questions are full of suspicion for the older man. This isn’t the first time he did this, but its still so odd that he couldn’t help to not let his guard down.

“I’m here to talk to you.” he answers one of it, but leaves out one. It didn’t slipped off from Sunghoon and sure he isn’t someone to disregard it as well.

“There’s nothing to talk about with you.” he grunts, letting him know that there is no way he can expect him to cooperate.

He turns his heels and was about to head out when his father talks once again.

“Marry Luna.” his words were short and direct.

Sunghoon halt from his steps and the crease to his forehead disappears along the emotions in his eyes.

He slowly craned his neck to look at his dad.

“Didn’t Mr. Kwon told you what we talked about the last time he went to see me?” he smirks with no humor.

“Please, son. That is planned ahead even before you’re even born.”

“If you’re too desperate in making her marry a Park, why not you do it?” he suggests in complete taunt.

“Park Sunghoon!” his Father shouts.

Seeing his father lose composure and frustrated like this, sooths something in Sunghoon. It feels something accomplishing in some part of him. He smirks unbothered of his Father’s threatening tone.

“This will be the last time you and Mr. Kwon will bother me about this stupid marriage.” he states, back to being very serious. His eyes dark, almost mirroring his father’s.

“It will never happen. He can have a gun pointed at my head during the wedding and I still won’t say ‘I do’.” he smoothly puts his hands inside his pocket.

“Don’t make me do something you will regret. Stop pushing my buttons,” Sunghoon tilts his head. “... Dad.”

Mr. Park was lost of words. He felt shivers run his spine at how cold his tone was. He can’t remember when he became like this. What did he do for him to end up like the cold ruthless person he is right now?

His mind was occupied for a while before he snaps back to his senses. He sighed and rest his back on the chair before massaging his temple. He expects no easy way to convince Sunghoon into this. And as much as he hates how Mr. Kwon last resort of solution to their problem, he was left with no other choice.

He’s doing this for his son.

He fished his phone from his pocket and dials someone’s phone number. “Did you ask the lobby about a reservation under the name Aelia Choi.”

He waits for the response of his assistant from the other line. He received a tip that Sunghoon gathers info that the girl he’s searching for are booked in this hotel. He figured his son will come here to search for her so he decided to take the opportunity of talking to him.

“There’s none, Sir.”

His brows furrowed, a little confused. Disappointed for probably another false information. A part of him felt sympathy for his son, he’s been searching for her and still no concrete leads of her whereabouts. Another, felt relieved. He can’t comprehend what crazy things his son can do for this girl. He can only mean bad for him. If he’s this wreckless for her right now, what more if he found her.

“All right, ready my vehicle.” he commands and ended the call.

After asking for details and asking assistance for your ride to the city. Waiting patiently, your brows furrowed curiously at the sight of men in black appearing the hotel’s lobby. They aren’t that many, but enough to catch attention. Their black similar uniforms sure captures people’s curiosity.

The view makes you remember of a particular night of your life. It makes you nervous, pressing your lungs and light pinches to your heart. It wasn’t pleasant for you so you quickly glanced away and move towards a more isolated part of the hotel.

From a distance, you watch how they move in an organize manner. It was evident how disciplined and well connected they are to each other. Their built and postures sure insinuates how dutiful they are. It seems like they are there to protect someone. Someone very important.

Everybody went back to normal once they left the premises. You can hear some of them still talks about the said person that just left. Uninterested, you walks towards the lady at the front desk.

“Can I ask a room service once I get back?” you ask smiling. The lady returns and smiled warmly at you.

“Under what name of reservation?” she asks.

“Oh, under Mr. (boss name).” you pursed your lips as she tries to check something on her computer. Patiently, you roam your eyes around the hotel lobby.

You noticed another group of men wearing suits pretty similar to the ones from before. This time, you saw the man walking in between them. He seemed like a very powerful man. His hair perfectly fixed, some gray strands can be seen even from the distance but it didn’t make him look that old. If anything, he looks like a Dad of a very attractive offsprings.

You didn’t realized you’ve been staring too much. Thankfully, the lady at desk calls your attention. The moment you looked away, the man gazed at you. Both of you clueless about how each other will soon make a big change to your lives, missed the opportunity to meet due to uncertain timing

“What time will you be back for the room service, Ma’am?” she asked.

You gave her the time you possibly back from your errands. Thanking her softly before going on with your day, unaware of what lies ahead of you.

“Hello, Riki?”

He heard some muffled sound from the other line, “Yeah, hyung?” the younger one responds.

“I think there’s a rat in my men. They’ve been snitching on my Dad about my whereabouts.” he continuously says in a cold tone. He’s not yet sure if hes right, but what could possibly the reason of the unexpected appearance of his father?

He’s very strict on sharing infos of his life, specially when it involves about his search of you.

“I want you to find who it is and report back to me.”

“On it.” he replies and chuckles. “This is not free, hyung.” the younger one teased.

Sunghoon rolls his eyes, “Just send me the bill.” and he ends the call before resting his back on his chair.

He’s inside his private jet. He went straight here after the encounter with his dad. The pilot waits for his command to fly and go back, but for some reason he felt something’s stopping him.

The plan of searching for you at this place sure is already sabotaged. He hope what they received was just a false information or else he will make his Dad pay for missing you once again. He tries hard to convince himself that its also probably his father who tipped him so he can have time to talk. But he can’t get rid of the thought that you might be near him. It’s making him suffer.

He have no idea how many times he will feel this way in the future, but he doesn’t care. He will never stop looking for you, even if it means he have to spend his whole life hoping that you two will meet again without a definite certainty that it’ll happen.

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I’m Becca and I’m a proud mama to my bunny Tapioca who I adopted from the shelter I work at!! Animals are my favorite thing in the world and I want to do all I can to help as many animals as possible!! Besides that though, I’m just a huge girly girl who loves cute things, and a huge nerd who gets really obsessed over random pieces of media! Follow me if you love bunnies, cute things, Evangelion, Devilman, Nana, Fear and Hunger, Earthbound, and gyaru fashion🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

This is meant to be a wholesome safe space for everyone btw!!!!!!!! This blog is strictly a PG place and so if you’re one of those super creepy rated R blogs (you know exactly what I’m talking about) PLEASE refrain from interacting with me because it makes me super uncomfortable☹️ I know I like really cute girly and feminine things, but I am SO NOT one of those blogs and they actually make me feel really icky🥲 so if you are one of those blogs, please leave me be and let this blog remain a cute and cozy place that I would be proud to show my parents!

Typology:

Esfj EF(S) sp/sx 2w1 296 SEI EFVL melancholic-sanguine s/L/o[A]i neutral good (in terms of principles, but my sense of humor is very chaotic)

Interests:

Fashion- gyaru fashion (specifically Agejo gyaru), scene fashion, goth fashion, jirai kei fashion, emo fashion, punk fashion

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Music- (my favorite bands are Nine Inch Nails, Skinny Puppy, Dead can Dance, Hole, Smashing Pumpkins, the 1975, TV Girl, the Birthday Massacre, Eminem, Sufjan Stevens, Alex G, the neighborhood, Asking Alexandria, Bring me the Horizon, Depeche Mode, Fields of the Nephilim, Lebanon Hanover, Crystal Castles, Pathetic, and Type O Negative)

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Video games- (Fear and hunger, Style Savvy, Yume Nikki, Omori, Tomodachi Life, Miitopia, the Mother series of games, Deltarune, Undertale, Pokémon, Animal Crossing, Pikmin, little nightmares)

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Anime/manga- (Devilman, Evangelion, Nana, Homunculus, Berserk, Serial Experiments Lain, Hunter x Hunter, Death Note, Chainsaw Man, Paranoia Agent, Angel’s Egg, Ghost in the Shell, keep your hands off Eizouken, Paradise Kiss, Sailor Moon, Attack on Titan, Fruits Basket, Princess Ai, Saint Oniisan)

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Shows- (Moral Orel, the Acolyte, Bojack, South Park, the Mandalorian, Schitt’s Creek, Helluva Boss, Bob’s Burgers, Hazbin Hotel, the Golden Girls, Fallout, White Lotus, Shameless)

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Movies- (American Psycho, Junior, Heathers, Mermaids, Defending your Life, My Dinner with Andre)

[dianight]

Seeing a few Watamote posts and the difference between Kuroki at the start of the series and Kuroki after that school trip is just so funny. Like a curtain being pulled over the audience, our slice of life about a cringy pathetic loner became a slice of life about a slightly less cringy more shameless lesbian.

Watamote holds a special place in my heart for many reasons. Story time!

I've got a notepad that I've owned for around a decade. Owned but barely used. Can't remember how I got it or when exactly, but the point is: when I started reading manga (One Piece was the first manga I read) my taste was not particularly good, so I just picked series based on the vibe of the cover.

It was getting to a point where too many series where I read a few chapters, didn't quite hook me, and I let it sit there on a firefox tab. I've been doing this for a long long time. 45 tabs open at the time of typing this (I'll get to it on the weekend). So I decided to write down the series I was either reading or planning to and a few anime aswell.

If you guessed that Watamote was on that list you'd be wrong, actually. I apologize for the misdirection. Here's a link [not yet working] where I talk about what's on the notepad.

You see, the important part is that Watamote was intentionally not on the list. When looking for recommendations on what to watch a semipopular one was Watamote, with usual warnings about how it gives you second hand embarrassement and whatnot (or cringe, as I learned later you can use in english).

I did not like the anime. Over time I've watched less and less anime, it's just a bit of a pacing problem for me, I feel like it's just too slow and that's one of the reasons I prefer reading manga/novels. I did not like the anime might be an undertatement, I was shocked at how (I perceived it to be) bad it was. In hindsight I was not equipped to handle a series like that at the time. So I didn't bother to keep it on a tab or anything.

One of, if not the one, site I used for manga was batoto. Back in the day, it was the "less shady" of the aggregators. So when looking for new series to read I'd go over popular manga, or looking at certain tags as I explain on this other link [not working yet, bear with me].

Watamote was popular somehow, but after trying the anime I did not bother to read it. A few things happened. Got kicked out. Moved countries. Was a(n-almost-not-)living corpse for a few years. Roughest time in my life. But.

During this period of time whenever I was off after dealing with the usual chores/meals/shopping I'd be either watching series for english practice, reading manga because I love them or (after miraculously recovering my pc) playing with friends to have a reason to live. Dark but it's true.

One of the series on the notepad was Yuusha ga Shinda (9). The 9 was the chapter I was at. And at some point I decided to keep reading it. The notepad list is hit or miss, with like 80%+ chance of miss. Yuusha ga Shinda is a hit. Pretty silly series, but it was very engaging and took itself seriously when it mattered.

The site I used to read it was wakga's (sp?) blog. I can find this one now, but can't confirm if it's the same of they moved the series to a new one. Wakga also scanlated Watamote. So I gave it another chance since at that point I was trying to give any series a "fair" chance. Later on my stance has changed a bit and I've grown more demanding(?), because some series are just so bad...

But it was the right call.

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Watamote is a series about Tomoki Kuroki, who at the start of the series is going to attend high school. She's a bit of a loner, tends to mess up very often and gets anxious about it.

The start is very, very cringy. At every chance to prove herself she'll keep digging her own grave, quite often because she just doesn't think things through and sometimes because she overthinks way too much.

Over time she starts meeting people, interacting with her classmates and other kids from school. Still very cringy, but we the readers start to see that she is not as weird as she sees herself, it's mostly a lack of experience socializing plus a lack of confidence with a pinch of pervertedness (is that a word?).

The point of inflection of the series is the school trip, starting around chapter ~70. Not like anything major happens, but from that point is where the series has a new perspective way less Kuroki-centric and with more focus on the other characters.

The series goes from Kuroki doing cringy things and despairing to Kuroki interacting with others as the weird girl she is. The pay off is that we see her go from an insecure loner to a relatively well adjusted lesbian.

One of the most important reasons the school trip is significant is because she interacts with people beyond her close (and very small) circle, showing that everyone around her is weird in their own way; but most of all, she was always ignoring them in a way and they just though she was a bit strange, as opposed to her own self image that was greatly exaggerated.

Currently (chapter 217) the series is about Tomoki Kuroki and her friends on their last year of high school. One could say the series is a slice of life, but one could also say it is a coming of age story about a girl and the friends she makes while growing as a person.

You can read Watamote here.

[shindidnothingwrong]

Its funny to me the blatant hypocrisy of the BoruSara and KawaSumi fandom and their sheer shamelessness of not even trying to conceal it

KawaSara first kicked off with chapter 28 which was centered around them and the start of their friendship, which happened in 2019.

Antis were quick to mock us for shipping them after only ONE interaction when they spent the whole chapter arguing [ignoring the end of it where she forgives and reaches out to him]

When Sarada opened up to Kawaki about her personal feelings towards her dad in the past and her experience with Naruto and envy towards Boruto, people said it was no big deal, that she didnt really open up to him and all she did was talk about Boruto and Naruto. In fact they said they never even had a conversation and only ever talk about Naruto and Boruto.

But then in 2021 when episodes 190-191 came out that focused primarily on Kawaki and Sumire, SUDDENLY having only one interaction was enough, SUDDENLY them arguing and not getting along for most of the episode was ok, SUDDENLY opening up about her personal history with her father was meaningful and significant, SUDDENLY their conversations werent just about Boruto and Naruto [which by their logic IS all they talked about]

After only TWO EPISODES of interaction between them, yes Im 100% accusing BoruSara because I have more than enough evidence to support it because thats how shameless they are they dont even try to hide it, after just 2 episodes the BoruSara jumped on the KawaSumi ship and started saying it was the definitive endgame along with BoruSara

These same people were once on the MitsuSumi and KawaHima train, do you really find it a coincidence they suddenly jumped onto KawaSumi when they only had 2 episodes of hostile interaction that has never been brought up or referenced ever again? those episodes have been treated largely as filler that literally had no impact on Kawaki whatsoever, whereas Sarada's interactions with him did.

You dont find it strange how quickly they switched up? wondering why that is? its simple, the BoruSara fandom, a very large majority of it, want to protect BoruSara at any cost, they tried it with MitsuSumi but that ship was dead on arrival, they then tried with KawaHima and pushed that for a while, but then they saw the golden opportunity to kill 2 birds with one stone thanks to SPs bullshit of including something that wasnt in the manga and completely contradicts it.

In short Kawaki and Sumire are BoruSara's biggest threats, so what better way to protect their ship and play keep away than by putting your two rivals together? do not be fooled, these people dont genuinely care about Kawaki or Sumire nor do they truly think their a good pairing, they simply want them out of the way and are trying to force them together even though Sumire has been confirmed to love Boruto TWICE.

I wont even go into the manga scenes between them because there IS none, Sumire is iliterally a bystander while the rest of the plot is just happening all around her, shes not a part of the plot shes WATCHING the plot. She's not Kawaki's nurse like fools try to say, shes literally KATASUKE'S ASSISTANT, Kawaki's ACTUAL nurse is Katasuke and Amado, Sumire just assists them and barely that since all we've seen her do is administer needles, thats it.

Yet these people insist their soulmates, why is that?

When the KawaSara fandom were excited about actual moments and development between them, Sarada reaching out to Kawaki after he had a ptsd episode, becoming his first friend, helping him to train, watching him training, comforting him when he was distraught over Naruto, opening up to him about something so personal to her that shes never told anyone else, working together to defeat Boro, Kawaki supporting her being captain over Boruto, risking his life and relying on Sarada to find the core, Sarada saving Kawaki from Boro, Sarada including Kawaki as a member of Team 7, Kawaki being grateful to Sarada for helping to save Naruto, both sharing the same idolization and admiration for Naruto, Sarada buying Kawaki flowers.

All of these meaningful moments and development of them as friends, nobody even was saying it was romantic, we just were admiring their friendship and potential to become more in the future.

What did they tell us? that we were reaching, those moments meant nothing, they hate eachother, Kawaki doesnt care about her, Sarada doesnt care about him, KawaSara is a crackship, it'll never happen theres been zero development and interaction.

Compare to KawaSumi

Kawaki distrusted Sumire and rejected her kindness by kicking the plate of food away, fought her for trying to force him back in captivity, Kawaki was bitten and nearly killed by Nue because she was careless and disobeyed orders, Kawaki says shes a monster like him and flees, Sumire eventually finds him after having a sudden change of heart now that she believes hes 'just like her', Sumire apologizes about Nue and then opens up about her father and how Naruto and Boruto saved her etc, the whole time Kawaki is dismissive of everything she says and says he doesnt trust her or anyone, he continues telling her to leave him alone and pulls away from her but she continues to push herself on him anyway and him continues to pull away and tries to leave, she stops him because hes still injured and offers to give him a painkiller but the sight of the needle triggers him and he starts choking her, she tries to reason with him to no avail, he loses all trust in her when police and T7 show up believing everything she said was a lie to stall him, leaves her knocked out on the ground, Sumire begs Naruto to go easy on him because she somehow thinks hes the same as her despite knowing nothing about him, and thats it, these interactions are never acknowledged ever again.

Yet guess which one got all the praise and called proof that their soulmates and destined to be endgame?

Dont try and fkin tell me KawaSara is a crackship when KawaSumi is the most forced ship in the new gen with nothing going for it, the feelings werent mutual and Kawaki actually DOESNT give af about Sumire, she's just there because she works for Katasuke, not because he wants her there, and she only volunteered to work with Amado because Kawaki is always with Boruto so she'd get to ask him about him, the boy she ACTUALLY likes and Kawaki KNOWS she likes.

Im tired of mfs tryna act like their ship is superior when its literally standing on twigs while KawaSara actually has a decent foundation and an established friendship. KawaSumi is not popular and didnt gain popularity because its a good ship, it gained it because the actual popular ship, BoruSara, jumped on board and started pushing it to protect BoruSara.

Yall not fkin slick, yall act like yall confident but you are the most insecure fandom in this mug, the thought of Kawaki getting closer to Sarada scared tf outta you which is why you cant even handle the thought of them even just being friends and wanna insist they hate eachother WHEN THEY DONT.

Your not foolin anybody, your scared to death and you know what? YOU SHOULD BE.

If theres one thing we all know is history always repeats itself in Naruto, Naruto was like Kushina and married someone like his dad, Sasuke was like Fugaku and married someone like his mother, Shikamaru was like his dad and married someone like his mother, Jiraiya and Obito who parreleled Naruto had an unrequited love that was never reciprocated just like Naruto's wasnt

So if Sarada is like Sakura and Boruto is like Naruto and Kawaki is like Sasuke, who's she most likely to end up with given the pattern thats been established in the series? why do you think antis keep sayin they dont wanna see NaruHina and SasuSaku 2.0 but had no problem with MinaKushi and FugaMiko 2.0? I rest my case.

[sambart93]

Final 31 [2018 Edition] Day 31: 2018 Resolutions Wrap Up

Here we are! We are on the final day and it’s now time to see how well I did over the year! My 2018 Resolutions are here, so without further ado...

1. 20 Doramas/SPs - (PASS) I succeeded this one!! I was very happy to finally get back into the world of doramas and such. While the beginning of the year was strong, I started watching doramas just because my friend wanted me to watch along with her and unfortunately, all her choices were absolute rubbish. So hopefully next year I can watch just as many, but watch much better ones.

2. 20 Movies - (PASS) I marathoned whole series of movies this year which felt so great! I managed to watch about catch up with Jinro Game, and watch almost all the Yamikin Dogs movies too! I also got to watch some long overdue stuff like Tomodachi Game and Survival Family which were so good! I am happy with the movies I saw this year. Next year looks even more promising though!

3. 12 Books - (PASS) I don’t think I could’ve done this if I hadn’t gotten behind and then marathoned about 2 years worth of Shingeki no Kyojin manga. That alone was about 6 or 7 volumes of content xD I had either really good or really shit books this year. Of course my main man Sanderson never failed me once! And this year I started to read all his work from the beginning which has been fun! Also finally read some LONG overdue books: Frankenstein, Dracula, Leviathan Wakes, Ready Player One, Alice in Wonderland, A Torch Against the Night. SO MANY GOOD BOOKS! I already have lists of the top 5 and top 36 books that are my utmost priority for this next coming year. 36 isn’t entirely impossible but it’s definitely a challenge for me, but I am excited!

4. Keep Up with Reviews - (FAIL) I’m going to be honest, reviews take a LOT of time, and I can’t exactly concentrate all that well when I’m at home. One review takes at least 4 hours, and when I have events every week, it really cuts down how much time I have to get these things out. I still have reports/review from JUNE that I still haven’t even started! I am seriously cutting down on outside events next year so hopefully I can catch up and keep up. I do love writing reviews but I just wish I had a better environment and more time to get through them all. Also me marathoning whole Korean Variety shows the last 6 months of this year have NOT helped. One episode is always about 90 minutes and I watch like 2 to 3 episodes every day so.... yeah that really sucked up a lot of the time I could’ve spent writing. I’ll sort it out, I promise!

5. Oshi Stages/Events Only - (PASS) I feel like I ONLY went to Oshi stuff this entire year... I’m trying to think of one play that didn’t have an oshi in it... even Tenimyu technically counts cos FUCKING HIGA, AM I RIGHT?! ... and I really thought it’d be saving me money; turns out NO! Because instead of going to seven DIFFERENT plays, I’ve just been going to the same oshi play 2, 3, 4 times instead! That is not productive Alex! So while I got very picky and more focused on my plays, I didn’t exactly save much money. BUT this year (especially towards the end of the year) I definitely didn’t feel like I had no money - unlike this time last year where I was in serious poverty and was scraping the barrel of all my bank accounts just to get by (yes I am shameless, and yes I really should admit the severity of my money spending), which means my money handling definitely got better which is good, but it’s still not at the level I want it at - we’re a LONG way off that. Luckily, I found more plays and production companies that I didn’t like this year (I’m looking right at you MARV!), and a lot of my favourite series either finished or no longer feature my oshis (TouStage, HakuMyu, K Stage, EnStage (for now) etc.) which means I should have more money staying in my bank account next year as well as more fucking time to sort out my mental health (it’s been very very bad the last 3 - 4 months, and money worries definitely don’t help)! PHEW!

6. Keep Complaints to Self and Be Positive on the Outside - (FAIL) I feel this hasn’t improved at all, especially at work. I know I shouldn’t be this vocal and this negative but my stupid brain works too fast for my common sense to kick in, and I end up complaining before my brain can say ‘hang on a minute bitch’ and then I feel like the worst fucking person afterwards. And, as mentioned above, my mental health has really been struggling since November so that’s not helped my negativity at all (one day I’ll probably open up about how bad it’s been but not right now, because I’m still dealing with it). But at least I am always trying to better myself on this one.

7. Travel Twice - (PASS) I definitely did this! I went to Sendai TWICE, I went to Nagoya, Osaka, Hakone, I finally went to Odawara (and Odawara Castle), I went to new places in Tokyo: Kichijoji, Nakameguro, Yomiura Land, Asakusa, Ikebukuro Aquarium. While it was all internal in Japan, I still managed some new places which makes me happy! But hopefully next year I have at least one external travel!

8. Save Money! - (MORE FAIL THAN PASS) I did manage to save some money: I started saving ALL my coins that weren’t 100 yen and that managed to total about 30,000yen by the end of the year which is great! But I am still very much financially unstable. And yes it is completely and entirely my fault. But at least I’m no where near as unstable and poor as this time last year! I’m not spending whole nights lying awake hungry and worrying about the fact I can’t afford food for the next 2 - 3 days unlike last year which is amazing progress (not really but...). While I did find out that saving coins is a great way for me to save up money, I am still not saving decent amounts every month. Hopefully next year is that year! This year I’ve managed to sort out some priorities and find out ways of cutting down on my spending, and I feel like next year I’ll be able to really hold my control on it, moreso than the last 2 years.

9. JLPT - (FAIL) HA let’s not talk about this one. I had every intention of doing the JLPT in December and I did seriously studying in July, August and beginning-September, but then SuJu came along and decided to do concerts the weekend of the exam so my brain went ‘fuck it! Not like you’re ever gunna pass anyway’, so I never applied and I stopped studying all together xD I haven’t picked up a book since September. I really have zero motivation to study Japanese anymore. And I’m going to be honest, the main reason I’ve lost all my motivation to study is because I have no fucking place TO study. I can’t study at work because people keep coming to my desk and my anxiety finds that extremely humiliating, embarrassing, and distracting to be discovered studying; I don’t have a spare desk in my room so I don’t want to study there; I don’t want to study in the living room because my roommates could come in at any moment which is again embarrassing, distracting and worrying; I can’t study at a restaurant or cafe because the air-con is fucking freezing and it’s just a different way of wasting and spending more money than necessary. I have NO place to study, so how can you (I’m speaking to the universe) expect me to take a fucking JLPT exam when I can’t even find a fucking place to study?! You see the pickle I’m in?

10. No Clearfiles, No Non-Fav Fandom TShirts or Bags - (PASS) I did it! And to be honest, I completely forgot I wasn’t buying these things anymore, I just naturally DIDN’T! Which is great! I am definitely stretching this buying ban far next year (you’ll see in tomorrow’s post), but I am excited and happy at how easy this has been!

11. Keep up with Dancing and Stretches - (PASS) I have whole weeks where I exercise ridiculously every day/night, and then some weeks where I’m doing the bare minimum, but at least I’m always conscious of how much I’m exercising and I’m always trying to keep myself in check when it comes to exercise. So I’d say this one is a success. I’m still enjoying stretching, I’m still enjoying my dancing, I enjoy walking so much. This is going well!

12. Spend Spare Time Studying - (FAIL) We already went through this; I stopped studying; K-Variety has taken over my life. No time or motivation to do such things!

TOTAL: 7/12 PASSED! - A little over 50% which is not that great but I personally feel like I made progress even in some of the failed sections which is great! I hope I can be more successful next year! But I think we can all agree that my mental health is definitely the biggest thing ruining my motivation and goals right now. So let’s get that sorted first!

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What were your goals this year? Did you succeed? How did you do? Let me know below!

My 2019 Resolutions are all set and ready to be posted tomorrow morning! Thank you for sticking around the entire 31 days even though my fandoms stretch far and wide, I hope at least some of the posts you could relate to.

[ao3feed-creek]

The Spare Room

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2r1zx9H

by scarlettshazam (thepinupchemist)

A South Park kink meme fill for the prompt, "praise kink!!!! any ship"

Craig and Tweek have a spare room. It's a special place.

Words: 2641, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 1 of Kink Meme Fills -- SP

Fandoms: South Park

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Tweek Tweak, Craig Tucker

Relationships: Craig Tucker/Tweek Tweak

Additional Tags: Praise Kink, Dom/sub, Domestic, Dom Tweek, Kink Meme, Sub craig, bottom tweek, Top Craig, Yes you read that right, Nasty boys in love, Spanking, Restraints, Hand Feeding, Smut, Fluff and Smut, Shameless Smut, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Porn, Aftercare, Aged-Up Character(s)

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2r1zx9H

[electroma89]

Oh dear I understand completely the utter disappointment in good rep you have atm with Loki (th tv show) since I'm a survivor of Sherlock 😂 and their shameless queerbaiting even though the bbc supposedly had conventions on avoiding such things in their contents and promoting accurate and valuable lgbt+ rep but yeah, they still killed their series with the last season and I'm glad it's dead now

Thank you fam ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Omfg i saw ep 1 of Sherlock and IT WAS SP OBVIOUS!!! They truly played you so dirty, and that's how I'm feeling right now.

I hope things take a different turn in season 2 but the damage is already done so 😔👌🏼

Still thank you for your words fam 😗❤️

[atc74]

Angelina’s Best of December

So I started doing something new and will be featuring author recs every couple of weeks in addition to this monthly list. I will still be reblogging all those fantastic fics, but now they will be here: @angreadsficsandauthors. 

Please still tag my main blog @atc74.

But send me an ASK and tell me who you think I should read. Who are YOU reading right now? You wanna send me you? DO IT! There is nothing sinful about being proud of yourself!

Hope your holiday season is bright and merry!

Here is what I wrote for y’all this month:

First Christmas (Rob x Reader)

The Convention Connection - Two by Two (TCC Master List) 

You Offering?- a gif drabble for @impalaimagining‘s Girlfriend? series

Indulgence part 1 and Indulgence part 2 (Jensen x Reader smut)

The Grave of Resurrection  (parts 1,2,3) (a Jensen AU mini-series)

Honey Butter (Sam x Reader)

Turning Dreams Into Reality (Rob x Reader request)

Not Once But Twice (Sam x Eileen)

Don’t Say That! (Rob x Me) part of my Say It Like That Series

Fluff

Procrastinating @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps (Rob x Reader)

Nov Drabble #23 @iwantthedean (Sam x Reader)

Nov Drabble #21 @iwantthedean (Dean x Reader, friends)

Daddy’s Happy Morning Drink @bringmesomepie56 (Daddy!Dean x Reader)

Better Together @becs-bunker (Jensen x Reader)

Shameless @hannahindie (Dean x Reader)

Nov Drabble #15 @iwantthedean (Dean x Reader)

Petty Arguments @thegreatficmaster (Sam x Reader)

Perplexed @iwriteaboutdean (Jensen x Reader)

What Was That? @not-moose-one-shots (Dean x Reader)

The Green Room Incident @bringmesomepie56 (Jensen x Reader)

Green Eyes @evansrogerskitten (Dean x Reader)

The Way You Look Tonight @hannahindie (Sam x Reader)

Something for Muffin @madamelibrarian (Sam Wesson x Reader)

The Onesie @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader)

Nov Drabble#27 @iwantthedean (Rob x Reader)

Jacks’s Bar: A Prequel @bringmesomepie56 (Jensen x Reader)

Fridays at Jack’s @bringmesomepie56 (Jensen x Reader - see ^^)

Cool If I Come Over @natasha-cole (Rob x Reader)

Rob x Reader Drabble @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps (Rob x Reader)

Wake Up Call @luci-in-trenchcoats (Sam x Reader) 

Mommy @not-moose-one-shots (Dean x Reader)

The Substitute @luci-in-trenchcoats (Jensen x Reader AU)

Flangst

Ramble On @crispychrissy (Dean x Reader soulmates)

Homesick @not-moose-one-shots (Daddy!Jared x Daughter!Reader)

Baby Sister @luci-in-trenchcoats (Jensen x Reader)

Nov Drabble #14 @iwantthedean (Dean x Reader)

In My Dreams @becs-bunker (Dean x Reader)

Head High @queen-of-deans-booty (Jared x Reader)

Dean x Reader Drabble @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps

Never Again @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader)

Nursechester @crispychrissy (Sister!Winchester!Reader, no pairing)

While We Have Time @not-moose-one-shots (Dean x Reader)

Unlovable @winchester-writes (Dean x OC)

Smut

#100 Coming Untouched @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader)

The Sex Scene @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms (Jensen/Dean x Reader)

Dean’s Favorite Flannel @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog (Dean x Reader)

Heat Timing @not-moose-one-shots (Jensen x Reader ABO)

Oreos @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader) 

Rob x Reader Drabble @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps (Rob x Reader)

We Love Anyway @sp-oops (Dean x Reader)

Stuck In The Middle @luci-in-trenchcoats (Sam x Reader x Dean) 

Angst

A Heart That’s Been Loved @thing-you-do-with-that-thing (Dean x Reader)

Hell on Earth @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog (Dean x Reader)

She Said You’d Come @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader)

Brother, I’m Right Here @hannahindie (Dean, Sam, brothers only)

Not Possible @teamlara (Dean x Reader) 

If I Could Start Again @hannahindie (Dean Winchester, no pairing)

You’re Better Than This @katymacsupernatural (Sam x Reader)

Goodbyes and Funeral Pyres @hannahindie (no pairing)

General - no real warnings or genre (please read warnings if applicable) 

Candy is Candy @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader, touch of Dean)

Baby @luci-in-trenchcoats (no pairing)

Flash @saxxxology (Sam x Reader AU)

Saving The Winchesters @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader, Crack)

No One Saw That... @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader)

Nice To Meet You @impalaimagining (Jensen, Fan!Reader - not a pairing)

Series (most likely a lethal combination of smut, fluff and angst - HEED THE WARNINGS - links will be to the series master list unless noted) I know I have a problem and am following way too many series!

This Is How We Heal @sofreddie (Jared, Reader)

Forward @blacktithe7 Jensen x Reader 

The Fool @whispersandwhiskerburn (Sam x Reader, Dean x Lisa…)

The Wedding Singer @pinknerdpanda and @hannahindie

The Beauty in the Beast @like-a-bag-of-potatoes (Demon Dean x Reader)

Findings @kathaswings (no pairing) 

Lost and Found @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader) COMPLETE

Heart of a Hunter Act III (entire list here) @muchamusedaboutnothing (Dean x Reader) 

Take it All Back @iwantthedean (Jensen x OFC) COMPLETE

Undeniable Heat @katymacsupernatural (Jensen x Reader)

Our Little Secret @sis-tafics (Dean x Reader) 

Define Justice @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader x Ruby)

Homesick (pt 1) @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps (Rob Benedict x Reader) 

Living Two Lives @imaginesforthose-wholovefandoms (Sister!Winchester Reader)

Wishing, Wanting, Waiting @saxxxology (Sam x Reader) COMPLETE

Slow Fade @trexrambling (Sam x Reader) COMPLETE

Returning to Life @spn-ficfanatic (Dean x Reader) 

Our College Years @thing-you-do-with-that-thing (Jensen x Reader)

Behind Closed Doors @becs-bunker (Janneel x Reader)

The Virgin and the Sex God @anotherwaywardsister (Dean x Reader)

A Different Blend (link to pt 1) @winchesterprincessbride (Sam x Rreader ABO)

Back to School (link to pt 1) @like-a-bag-of-potatoes (Sam x Reader)

Intellectual Porn (link to pt 3) @littlegreenplasticsoldier (Dean x Reader)

Sanity is Relative @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms & @uttertrash--butlikecutetrash (no pairing)

Thick Thighs Save Lives @anotherwaywardsister (Dean x Reader)

Amazed @not-moose-one-shots (Dean x Reader)

Yes, Sir @evansrogerskitten (John x Reader AU)

Hotel California @katymacsupernatural (Dean x Reader)

The Path Taken @mysupernaturalfics (Jensen x Reader) 

More Than You Bargained For @luci-in-trenchcoats (Jensen x Reader AU) COMPLETE

Twelve Hour Test pt1 -pt2 - pt3 @saxxxology (Soulless!Sam x Reader)  COMPLETE

The Next Best Thing @ilovebeingjoyful (Sam x Reader)  COMPLETE

From Con to Con (pt 1) @nerdyforyourbooks (Rob x Reader)

Into The Mystic @tankcupcakes (Dean x OFC Evelyn)

Emergency Services @mysupernaturalfics (Dean x Reader AU)

You Found Me @impalaimagining (Jensen x Reader)

Promised Land (pt 1) @iwantthedean (Dean x OFC Israel)

Falling (pt 1) @luci-in-trenchcoats (Jensen x Reader)

Wake Up, Sammy (pt 1) @hannahindie (Sam, Dean, Reader-no pairing)

We Need to Talk @unadulteratedstorycollector (Dean x Reader - this is an older series form 2016, but I just discovered it and LOVED IT!).

You’re Home @acreativelydifferentlove (Dean x Reader ABO)

Cherry Stem Knots Saga (link to pt 9) @sunriserose1023 (Dean x Reader AU)

That’s What Friends Are For (pt 1) @natasha-cole (Rob x Reader)

The Contest (pt 1) @winchesterprincessbride (Jared/Sam x Reader/Gemini)

Save Me (pt 1) @your-modern-shakespeare (Dean x Reader AU)

Our Little Family (pt 4) @teamlara (Dean x Reader AU) 

Whatever It Takes (pt 1) @winchesterprincessbride (Dean x Reader ABO AU)

Black Butterflies and Deja Vu @iwriteaboutdean (Jensen x Reader AU)

Keep Her Safe @thegreatficmaster (Dean x Sibling!Reader)

Gypsy Girl (link to pt 1) @wi-deangirl77 (Sam x Reader)

You’re Better Than This (pt 1) @katymacsupernatural (Sam x Reader)

Becoming a Father Overnight @super100012 (Jared x Daughter!Reader)

December Spotlight

What You Wake For by @hannahindie (no pairing) - It took me a moment to realize what was taking place here, once I figured it out, I went back to the beginning and started over. This was so damn well done, I am not even sure I have the words. The narration was spot on (just go with it) and the storytelling was moving. 

Thicker Than Water by @crispychrissy (no pairing) - Even angst can be beautifully written and this is just that. Overcoming any addiction is a battle, and you need people by your side that support you, no matter what. 

[n0tangeliccc]

Replies

Stan x Fem!Reader

(All characters are 18+)

Warning: Cheating, sex mentions, toxic relationships, substance abuse mentions

Prev.

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You stare at your phone contemplating whether you should even look at it but begrudgingly you open his message.

You bit the inside of you cheek. He was going to Clyde’s party then. You would be there with Wendy and Bebe…He just wants to talk, nothing else just talk. You took a deep breath in and replied. You knew you would probably regret this but you couldn’t go the whole party ignoring him.

You turn on Do Not Disturb mode on and walk to your living room where you wait for the girls.

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Stan jumps at the sound of his phone and quickly grabs it. “Holy shit” his hands shake as he opens his messages. You answered him, even after his shitty drunk text.

He exhales a breath he didn’t even know he was holding in and a small smile crept up on his lips. It wasn’t much but just you responding showed him that you didn’t hate him, at least not that much.

Did he feel bad about spamming you in his drunken state? Yes but everything he said was real. He was desperate. He hadn’t drank in months for you and just seeing you walk away made him spiral to his old ways. He didn’t want to be manipulative but he hoped those text would make you feel at least a little bad and went back to him.

He assumed you fell asleep before he texted you since you had only seen his text an hour ago but he was happy saw it.

And he couldn’t wait to see you tonight.

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Masterlist

Taglist:

@hand-writxen @kenanonsthoughts

[lucystillintheskywithdiamonds]

Hey Lucy! I'm a long time follower of your blog. Before I even knew what Tumblr was I stumbled across your blog when googling Spock and Uhura stuff and checked it daily before I realized there was an actual website full of folks like you and me who I could freak out with😂. Anyway, enough rambling. Could you recommend me some of your favorite academy era S/U fics on AO3? The website confuses the day lights out me; I can never narrow it down to the fics I want. If you don't mind. Thank you!

hi! ..I’m ..- *blushing like crazy*  I’m glad I made you find this crazy site^, LOL

as for your question, tbh AO3 used to be my least favorite site for ff precisely because the filter and tag system was confusing (and there is the ongoing problem of fans of.. ehm.. other ships spamming the S/U tag with break up fics). So for a long time I only used fanfiction.net that had a better tag system (that’s why most of the links I have are from there, but also because most of S/U’s ff are there) until they, of course, made that site a mess too LOL

there are so many great academy era S/U ff that I’m totally, 100%, sure I’ll miss some of them now (and there are many great ones I probably didn’t even read because, as I recently discovered, apparently I didn’t really read all the good ff out there). Also, did you read the starfleet academy licensed novels? because those are amazing too. (I posted some quotes, but it’s worth to read the books)first of all, I suggest you to read everything by @psicygni (ao3 page   |  The Place Between  is epic and so are the others. Oh and Discovery you are late because someone already gave Spock a sis ) @notesfromaclassroom (ao3  | ff.net) and @cgockel (ff.net)

my tag for recs is a good start. There is a Spock/Uhura Archive over ao3 but it isn’t updated with all the ff (this is their ship tag where I filtered out the sp*rk stuff, tho now we might need to filter out sp*nes as well )some links (shameless copy/pasted from an old post of mine), I bet you already read some of those

“Break” ~ YahtzeeLinks: livejournal | AO3author summary: During their final semester at Starfleet Academy, two people who have no intention of ever changing transform each other.a classic!

“Miscommunication” ~ SalR Links: fanfiction.net | livejournalauthor summary: Another take on the how-they-met-at-the-Academy story. This version is inspired by the wonderfully combative Farragut scene in the movie. Fireworks, anybody? ;  (this is a bit inspired by pride and prejudice so double awesome)sequel?:yes

for another p&p inspired story check also   “Pride and Logic”    by Yalegirl03

“What We Think We Know” ~ NotesfromaClassroomLinks: fanfiction.net | AO3author summary:Commander Spock hires his best student to be his teaching assistant-and both instantly regret it.sequel? yes! (you will want to read them because they all make one big series)check the author’s page for the chronological order: NotesfromaClassroom

“Descartes’ Error” ~ StarTrekFanWriterLinks: fanfiction.netauthor summary: Starts with Spock accused of misconduct - specifically with being involved with a certain Cadet we all know and love, and flashes back to how he got in such an illogical predicament to begin with. Romance/Sci-Fi/Humor/Drama - Spock and Uhura Origins.sequel? yes!The Vulcan | Reunion: The Rejoining | What Feels Rightone shots that are set in the Descartes’ universe (but can be read as standalone too):Logical | Vulcan Kissing | Once Bitten | The Bean Jar | Descartes Drabblescheck the author’s page for more: StarTrekFanWriter

“Like the Stars, Like Your Destiny” ~ anodynaLinks: livejournal | AO3author summary: Nyota Uhura has always been drawn to things that resist her understanding. Finding out she’s lived her entire life in an alternate reality is a mystery she’s not sure she can solve. Sleeplessness and self-examination ensue.

“Flawed Logic” ~ PoorQueequegLinks: fanfiction.net | AO3author summary: Spock for all his Human gentility, was by Vulcan standards an utter cad.

“Sufficiently Familiar” ~ PoorQueequegLinks: fanfiction.net | AO3author summary:He calls it a delicate situation. She doesn’t call it anything at all. Spock/Uhura pre-movie angstfest.

“Winds against a Star” ~ valyriaLinks: fanfiction.net | AO3 author summary:An obsession with a brilliant young cadet leads to Lieutenant Commander Spock discovering the truth of the Vulcan heart. A Spock/Uhura origins story set at the Academy. Mildly AU.sequel? yes!Part of the series “Kaiidth“ 

“The Sum of Both of Us” by igrockspocksummary: The first time Spock asks Uhura out, she turns him down.  He is forced to present a logical argument to change her mind. 

“If You Should Take Me”  by Sigridhrsummary: On the first day of Advanced Vulcan Nyota sits in the front row, takes meticulous notes and tries not to think about the way her professor’s voice makes words like phoneme and morphology sound like something one might say between lovers.

“Historical Perspective on the Changing Politics of a Relationship“ by carnationsandrobots (ao3 link)

“Logic and Linguistics” by  lily winterwood

“Caesura“ by Lanesy 

Boldly Go: Twenty Sentences  by SEEKER-2000 (not academy itself but this one just kills me. One word, one sentence and it all shows their relationship)

some I read recently:

the academy era series by @tomfooleryprime Seventy-Four Hours Later and An Algorithm for Dating

 “Trust”  by KaCole(not academy era, but it’s a different take of how they’d become a couple post battle of vulcan)

 “Improvisations” by powmeow

“The Appearance of Favoritism”  by  powmeow

“Exegesis” by  karikes (still have to read “like birds’ wings” too)

[dapperfvck-arc]

🔥 The TV show... (Because I really want to know exactly why you don't like it [or hate it?] because i'm so freaking curious. Also I think in general a Constantine TV show would do best on AMC rather than NBC... FEEL FREE TO COMPLETELY RANT. I WANT TO KNOW. Please.)

Unpopular Opinion Time!

Oh boy. Hooooo boy. I’m still going to be relatively gentle, because honestly, I’m saving my true vitriol for the times that I must defend my choice not to RP it or for the hysterical consensus opinion from the fandom that TV show was an improvement over the film (lol nope, aside from Matt Ryan “looking the part” but that’s a whole other can of worms). 

Note: Cut for length and maybe a bit of brutality in my honesty.

*sighs* Ok, I’ll first preface this with that I still have like four episodes to go. Obviously, I have massive issues in the needless changes made to the adaption of comic canon. It was unnecessary to make Chas American while retaining the fact that he’s John’s oldest and best of friends. It doesn’t make a whole lot of sense to me, but who knows. Maybe it’s explained a little better in one of the last few episodes, but you know. My hopes aren’t high. I don’t like Chas’s virtual invulnerability, not just because it takes away the stakes of the danger he’s putting himself in, but also? It’s a plot device scarcely used? So why make that choice if it’s not going to be capitalized on with meaningful frequency? I hated that Zed was portrayed as a novice, and that the teeth were taken out from the Newcastle Incident. Now obviously, I understand why they’d have to alter a bit of it due to Network censorship, but at the same??? I mean child abuse and sexual violence are nothing new on shows like Law and Order: SVU and Criminal minds so…Idek, it kind of comes off as an excuse. It’s not a child’s show. Maybe it could be argued that it was marketed toward teenagers, but it’s not like they’re ignorant to those horrors in the world. I’m not asking them to show Astra’s rape, just to acknowledge the true horror of the situation instead of making it all about John’s failure. So yeah, I was annoyed by the occasional attempt to adapt source material and completely mucking it all up.

Now to begin with, I completely get the SP/N’s fandom bitterness more than ever. Before watching it I thought they were just trying to be like “whaaaat, another show about magic and exorcism? Of course it’s a ripoff because don’t you know our fandom invented those things?” I honestly believe the crux of the issue is that NBC clearly wanted their own SP/N as well as to cash in the popularity of comic book based media, so there’s that. To me, it comes off as a shameless cash grab. I honestly believe if I felt like there was some kind of passion from its creators, I could have dealt with some of those changes, but I don’t get that. It’s been a soulless experience overall. Like it’s not been a matter of me nitpicking like “oh this is wrong, this has been changed, boo hoo, it’s not all existential horror and fucking and drugs.”

Because frankly...I just think it’s a bad show. It’s poorly written, poorly made, poorly researched, poorly acted, it’s just bad. The main issue I have with it is that it’s a lot of telling and not showing. There’s not a lot of tension or foreshadowing, just “boom this is how it is” and so much exposition. John, for example, about half of his dialogue in any given show is verbal exposition. It’s frustrating, tbh. Like, it doesn’t make sense for me in this day and age for a TV show, even on a network channel, to be this bad. Over the past several years, television series have improved exponentially in content and writing. It’s not shameful anymore to start off on TV anymore. We’re in a very exciting time that television and cinema are almost completely on equal par of perceived quality. So yeah, it’s been an even greater disappointment for me because it’s not just that they fuck with the source material but because on top of that it’s literally a bad show. I’m not one bit surprised that it wasn’t renewed because there just...Isn’t enough to like about it. It’s not faithful enough to the comic to secure that base of fans and it’s not good enough to be taken for face value. 

The other massive issue I have is the portrayal of magic, which honestly extends to DC’s handling of Hellblazer and John as well. See, what you have to understand is that predominately, throughout the Vertigo series, it’s clear to me that most of its writers either have some awareness of how magic works or at least have done their research. I can follow the logic and ritual in what he’s doing. ​Let me tell you a little something about magic. It's all about focus and will. You can do and say whatever the hell you want as long as you're putting your intent behind it. The ritual of spell work, use of candles, crystals, incense, chanting, incantations, etc. are meant to be the focus of a magician's energy and will on a particular result, but it could be attempted without as well. To explain it in more fantastical terms, in Harry Potter casting without a wand is considered impressive. This implies that the wizard's focus and will is so strong that they no longer need a wand to draw out their intent. Now I get it. By this understanding magic doesn't make good TV viewing (I guess...), but my main concern with this series is there's no attempt to portray an iota of witchcraft's reality along with the fantastical. Now part of this problem is that they've removed a great deal of John's innate ability. He can no longer see spirits/ghosts and there is no mention to his connection to synchronicity (as far I’ve seen, mind). Instead of happening to end up where he needs to be or what have you, he's following a map, and he uses a lot of artifacts and other implementation to get the job done. Which bothers me on a few levels. For one, it imbues the focus, not the caster with the power, which is not how magic works (at least in the sense of portraying gritty urban fantasy), and for two, it's very much against character. Let me give you an example: In the two part story Newcastle Calling, at the end of it, John hands a dying man a twig, telling him it's the finger bone of St. Cavartigan and that it's known to bring relief to those in need. He tells him to squeeze it tightly and focus on the pain going away. Near the end of the scene, the young man tells John that it's working. A couple things can be taken away from this scene: John's will was that the dying man would believe as he was told and his instructions were rote ritual. By contrast, in the series, John would probably had actually given him a Saint's fingerbone. You see the comparison takes the power of the scene away, as well as the mystery. Is the power of John's suggestion so strong that he could make the guy believe by holding that twig his pain would do away? Or was he so desperate to believe in order to not die in pain? You can interpret it either way. Hell, I could invent other interpretations, but going by what I believe would happen in the show, it can only be interpreted in the most literal sense. Now, to be honest, most television shows portray magic poorly. Even movies do a better job while keeping fantastical elements. The Craft, for all it’s 90s cheese, is a great example of this. So I suppose I could be blamed for getting my hopes up to be dashed because it’s just following the formula of 95% of all TV shows that feature a magical element or theme, but I mean...it’s not like Buffy or Charmed that was working without a script, so to speak. The TV series had a ready made blueprint and still chose to take the mumbo-jumbo bullshit route. Now, I have a lot of theories on the why for this, but that’s another post altogether and this has already gone on for way too long and I still have more to say.

Now, I guess I should, at least briefly, touch on the elephant in the room: Matt Ryan as John. What did I think? Because a lot of people have told me that he’s the shining beacon of this show, even literally admitting that yeah, it’s a poor representation of Hellblazer but that Matt Ryan man, he’s great! The problem that I have is that it’s not a good a show, and so no, I don’t like him in the role. I’m not going to compare him to Keanu because that’s not fair for a number of reasons, and maybe I’m a little biased because I adore Keanu (there’s also that can of worms I mentioned earlier, which is honestly yet another separate post lol). The way John’s written for this show, he’s positively insufferable. He’s not charming at all, which is find the most offensive, because one thing that can be said across all series and iterations of the character is that John is magnetic even despite xyz (he’s dangerous, he can be an asshole, he’s unreliable, etc.). Here he’s just a know-it-all, condescending prick. Now I do think with better writing, in a better representation of John’s character and Hellblazer in general (and maybe with a voice coach or director to discourage that Welshy intonation because yeah, his accent does irritate the shit out of me, but I’ve been very vocal about that before and honestly, at this point, I’ve come to realize that Ryan’s vowels are the least of this show’s problem), I think he has potential to be a fine John. As it stands in the media he’s portrayed John in so far (idk, maybe he was good on Arrow, but I’m talking the TV Series here and the JLD animation, which I’ve admittedly not seen, but I hated the comic so I’m not real likely to give that a chance considering my disposition toward the source material), I’m not entirely sold on him. Like if they tried another TV series for Hellblazer and didn’t cast him in the role, I wouldn’t be upset over it. 

I do agree that it probably could have been better on another channel, but here’s the rub, all the blood and gore and sex and loose censorship in the world could not save that show without better writing and direction. It could have been a fine show even on network if it had been crafted with some degree of caring. Let me give you an example off the top of head, namely the handling of the Newcastle incident. It was laid out pretty plainly within a few episodes. Alterations from canon aside, it doesn’t portray the horror of it at all and is one of the show’s many missed opportunities to really play up the scarier, more mysterious elements of John’s backstory. For example, instead of laying it out in a sloppy flashback with a laughable puppet, picture this scene instead: ​John is having a chat with someone, maybe Zed or Chas or some b-plot character. Something reminds him of the Newcastle incident and he gets a far off look in his eyes. The folly drops away to an eerie silence as the camera comes in tight on John's expression. Filling up the silence is a little girl's scream, then the voices of his friends, perhaps some sounds of violence, an inhuman sound or voice, it all blends together to become a hellish cacophony of sound as John's expression becomes more strained. Then suddenly the other person calling his name snaps him out of his reverie. The screams stop, the folly returns, and the scene appears jarringly normal. John shakes his head, makes a joke, and they move on. Yeah, that kind of scene has been done before, but the reason for that is it’s effective without giving away the whole story. It shows that this is a man haunted by something horrible. It’s also cheap and doesn’t necessitate straining the no doubt thin budget of a TV show that has yet to prove itself worthy of having more money thrown at it. 

Honestly, the issues I have with this show are innumerable and I’m just scratching the surface here and laying out my biggest problems. I could nitpick for days, and that’s the reason I’ve stayed mum about my opinions. There are people that follow me and that I write with that really like and care about the show, and I don’t want to make them feel...you know, bad about it or that they can’t talk to me or whatever. You know, if they found it enjoyable more power to them. I just didn’t and that’s maybe on me. By no means am I trying to bash the show here (because lord if I wanted to, I could), but to offer up what was requested, and that’s my undiluted opinions and feelings about the series. Of course I’m sorry that I couldn’t share the joy and that I couldn’t even like it on a similar level that I do the film (as a very solid AU, which people have tried to sell the show as to me, knowing my previous understanding of some of the changes made that deviate strongly from canon. As I said, maybe if it had been better made and written, I could, but as it stands currently, I can’t and unless real changes are made in the future, I’m unlikely to alter my opinion of it).

So yeah that’s it. Apologies that this got so very long, but as you can tell, there’s been a lot that I’ve been holding back.

[narutorememberance]

Blog changes

I think Im going to make this a positive blog with little to no anti posts

I have 2 separate blogs where I voice my personal opinions on those kind of things so I dont really need to clutter this blog with it too

I’ll keep this ship positive where I’ll post SasuSaku NaruSaku NaruSasu ShikaTema SaiIno NaruHina and some crack ships at times like maybe SasuHina SasoSaku NaruGaa NaruIno etc

Even some next gen Ships like BoruMitsu [my personal ship] BoruSara [I prefer they stay rivals but I dont outright hate it] MitsuSara MitsuChou DaiSara etc

Sadly if your a SasuKarin or BoruSumi shipper I will NOT post nor reblog ANY thing to do with them because I absolutely hate those ships [mainly because I hate Karin and Sumire] so I will avoid those two as much as possible

I MAY reblog some BoruSumi things but for Boruto’s involvement in it not so much Sumire but I will absolutely post NOTHING to do with SasuKarin

So being fair Im warning you now so you’ll understand the absence of that ship

I may post semi-anti things like things regarding Sarada’s birth [because there are literally still people questioning it] and theories and headcanons and what not

But I will now be posting Boruto anime related stuff here since I now know its canon or atleast semi-canon including the bits SP put in there for it fits the theme of the blog Naruto Remembrance which is basically about remembering the Naruto series and mostly the canon material in it [plus fanart obviously lol] so expect some Boruto content now

Aaaaaand thats about it, if you read all of this thank you

Shameless plug the 2 blogs where I voice those opinions are @ravenaveira [my main blog] and my more opinionated blog @raveneira

[ssuzumi]

Get to know me Tag Tagged by @sakuraharunocha Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people THE LAST: 1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: my sister 3. Text message: my friend 4. Song you listened to: At My Best (ft Hailee Steinfeld) 5. Time you cried: three days ago

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: no 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: no 8. Been cheated on: no 9. Lost someone special: yes 10. Been depressed : yes 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: no

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: violet, black, pink

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yes 16. Fallen out of love: no 17. Laughed until you cried: yes 18. Found out someone was talking about you: yes 19. Met someone who changed you : yes 20. Found out who your friends are: yes 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: no

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: majority of them 23. Do you have any pets:  no 24. Do you want to change your name: sometimes 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: ate and slept 26. What time did you wake up: 7am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: reading fics 28. Name something you can’t wait for: eat, GoT S7, gaiden (sp will screw it up but im still looking forward to seeing it nonetheless) 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: i can see her right now 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my confidence 31. What are you listening to right now: my nagging mother 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: unorganized things 34. Most visited website: youtube, twitter, tumblr 35. Mole/s: 6(?), i think 36. Mark/s: none 37. Childhood dream: to be doctor                                                                     38. Hair color: black                                                                                             39. Long or short hair: in between 40. Do you have a crush on someone: yes, both irl and fiction. I wouldnt bother enumerating its too damn many 41. What do you like about yourself: my looks (im shameless) 42. Piercings: ears 43. Blood type: AB 44. Nickname: i can’t say, its too embarassing 45. Relationship status: single 46. Zodiac: cancer 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show(s): Game of Thrones, Stranger Things, Riverdale, 13 Reasons Why, Series of Unfortunate Events, How I met your mother, Friends, Sherlock, Big Bang Theory 49. Tattoos: none 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: none   52. Hair dyed in different color: never 53. Sport: not the sporty type 55. Vacation: Korea, USA 56. Pair of trainers: uhm adidas? (i dont get this question)

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: Love it, but im a choosy eater 58. Drinking: juice, soda, milk, water 59. I’m about to: eat 61. Waiting for: the food to be cooked 62. Want: million dollars, high IQ 63. Get married: not my priority 64. Career: medicine (after 4-5 years, hopefully)

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: hugs 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: taller 68. Older or younger: older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: nice arms 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: idk

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: no 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: i dont wear glasses 77. Turned someone down: yes 78. Sex on the first date: no 79. Broken someone’s heart: yes 80. Had your heart broken: no 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: yes 83. Fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: most days, i guess 85. Miracles: yes 86. Love at first sight: yes 87. Santa Claus: no 88. Kiss on the first date: no OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: its a secret 91. Eye color: black 92. Favorite movie: too many   I tag @super-cat-noir @team7fangirl @raineya @the-sasuke-sama @asiantwinkies @roraewrites  @queenofkunoichis @bleu-et-rose @sasukeuchihayas @its-naruto-universe @robinsgirl124 @aymaabdullahmalik  @miss-gentle-fist @lord-sasuke @aiuchihashadow @kuriquinn @amitds @kyoandyuya @kakashi-gets-sasusaku @ss-is-beautiful

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The Trump Presidency As Religious Cult? Not As Weird As You Might Think

Scholars of religious studies such as Reza Aslan warn that support of Trump by some white evangelicals is like that of a religious cult, which would present a clear danger to our country. (Photo Credit: Gage Skidmore/Flickr/Creative Commons)

In November of 2017, avid Donald Trump supporter Mark Lee, as part of a panel of Trump voters speaking with CNN’s Alisyn Camerota, spoke about Trump’s possible collusion with Russia in the context of religious faith. His comments, which made the rounds on the 24-hour news cycle/water-cooler political discussion loop, were truly astonishing to many. Here’s the one that had people, if not up in arms, scratching their heads:

Let me tell you, if Jesus Christ gets down off the cross and told me Trump is with Russia, I would tell him, “Hold on a second: I need to check with the president if it is true.” That is how confident I feel in the president.

You read that right. Hold on, Mr. Savior, I have to ask President Trump if what you’re saying is God’s honest truth. Beyond the seeming absurdity of this scenario—Jesus returned just to tell Trump supporters about his connection with Russia?—the expressed faith in Trump above all others (and I am not using the word faith lightly) was duly baffling.

When Camerota pressed Lee for additional context, Lee, a pest control business owner who expressed vague notions of Trump being an advocate of the little guy, America-first, a drainer of the swamp, and a non-politician, stressed his belief that Trump is a good person, and that he (Trump) “has taken so many shots for us.” Presumably, that “us” is the American people, and any backlash is related to jealousy of his constant “winning.” Dude can’t help it if he’s so famous, handsome, and rich—that’s just how he rolls.

Any number of observers might choose not to share Mark Lee’s views. Heck, I sure don’t. Still, as extreme as Lee’s stances might seem, they may not be that far off from other people’s admiration for or faith in the current President of the United States. Reza Aslan, author, commentator, intellectual, and religious scholar, recently authored a video for Big Think about his notion that the Trump presidency is a religious cult. At first blush, Aslan’s comments might seem as grandiose as Lee’s. Trump as a cult leader? And his devotees are the ones who have drunk the proverbial Kool-Aid?

For all our skepticism, though, Aslan does make his case in a very well-thought-out manner. First, before we even get to “why” certain Americans feel compelled to hold up Donald Trump, there’s the matter of “who.” Aslan cites a statistic that 81% of white evangelists who voted in the 2016 election went for Trump. That’s pretty significant, especially when considering that’s a higher percentage than George W. Bush received, an actual white evangelical. What else is significant about this figure? Well, for one, 67% of evangelicals of color who voted cast their ballots for Hillary Clinton. Thus, when Aslan instructs us not to ignore that there is a racial element to Trump’s support, we would be quick to agree that he ain’t just whistlin’ Dixie.

As to why, however, white evangelicals “acted more white than evangelical” in their backing of Trump, as Aslan and others have put it, one element Aslan points to is the influence of what is known as the prosperity gospel. Loosely speaking, this is the idea that financial success is God’s blessing, and through faith, preaching the word of God, and, of course, generous donations, one’s material wealth will increase. In other words, if the Lord didn’t want you to have that Mercedes-Benz, he wouldn’t have made it so dadgum shiny. This is the sort of Christianity that Aslan explicitly dismisses and rejects, associating it with the likes of “charlatans” like Joel Osteen and T.D. Jakes, but given Trump’s boasts of wealth and ostentatious displays of such, it makes sense that Christians who adhere to this doctrine would back him, even when his spiritual credentials are, er, lacking.

Additionally, Aslan points to Trump’s promises to afford secular benefits to white evangelical groups and other religious affiliations. In Trump’s apparently ambiguous vows to “give them back their power,” Aslan points to Trump’s willingness to defend Christians in their goal of making a stand on specific issues—even if he may not agree with their positions on those underlying issues—as well as his indication of intent, for instance, to repeal the Johnson Amendment, which prohibits 501(c)(3) organizations like churches from endorsing or opposing political candidates. Just a few days ago, Trump signed an executive order directing the Department of the Treasury not to find churches guilty of “implied endorsements” much as secular organizations wouldn’t be. Never mind that this could help create a slippery slope that allows churches to bypass campaign finance laws and effectually become partisan super PACs. That sweet, sweet support from the religious right is too much to ignore.

Meanwhile, all of this may merely be a prologue to a separate conversation we need to be having about Donald Trump, morality, evangelicals, and the intersection of the Venn diagram of their circles. As Reza Aslan insists, none of the above explains why white evangelicals have gone from a voting bloc that has insisted on a candidate’s morality as a significant qualification for office to one that eschews such concerns—in the span of one election cycle, no less. To reinforce this idea, Aslan highlights the fact that, re Trump, self-identifying atheists were more likely to consider morality as important than white evangelicals. So much for being “values voters.”

As Aslan reasons, this is more than can be reasoned away by talk of race or the prosperity gospel or the Johnson Amendment, and points to a different conclusion: that Trump, his presidency, and his most influential supporters have turned a significant portion of his white evangelical base into a religious cult, and a dangerous one at that. From where he (Aslan) stands, all the signs are there. For one, he points to Trump’s infamous remark that he could shoot someone on Fifth Avenue and not lose votes as being a kind of prophetic revelation. Aslan also alludes to statements made by Pat Robertson that he (Robertson) had a dream in which God took him up to Heaven and Trump was seated at His right hand—the space traditionally reserved for Jesus Christ—and Robert Jeffress, Robertson’s pastor, who said that he (Jeffress) prefers Trump as a candidate to someone “who expresses the values of Jesus.” Suddenly, Mark Lee doesn’t sound so out of place.

The implications, in short, are scary. As Aslan instructs, cults, particularly when confronted by the realities of the world, do not tend to end well. The Trump presidency, for all its claims of stability and success, by most objective accounts is on the brink of collapse, its central figure “spiraling out of control,” as Aslan puts it, and the subject of regular conversations about impeachment or other removal. In the perhaps likely event that leadership fails, the response for cult followers is often to double down on the group’s mantra, and this creates, at least in Aslan’s mind, a very perilous situation for the country at large. As he closes his address, “The only thing more dangerous than a cult leader like Trump is a martyred cult leader.” Ominous, indeed.

Reza Aslan is a religious scholar, and since he often approaches worldly matters from a spiritual frame of reference, even with his treatise on why Donald Trump’s presidency is a religious cult, there would likely be doubters and dissenters on this point. On the right, because so much of politics these days involves taking sides, this is all but a given. Naysayers would undoubtedly highlight Aslan’s Iranian heritage and Muslim beliefs (in reality, his faith is more complex, having been born into a Shia Muslim family, converting to evangelical Christianity, and then converting back to Muslim, all while largely regarding religion as nothing more than a series of metaphors and symbols designed to express one’s faith), as well as his anti-Trump animus (after Trump’s comments on the 2017 terrorist attack in London in which a van struck and killed pedestrians on London, Aslan referred to POTUS as a “piece of shit” and “man baby,” comments that, ahem, didn’t go over too well with then-employer CNN). Never mind that that Aslan is a theologian and literally talks about, thinks about, and writes about this stuff for a living. Because he doesn’t care much for Trump, his opinions must, therefore, be invalid, right?

For the non-shameless-Trump-backers among us, though, there might similarly be a reluctance to characterize the President’s following in terms of a destructive religious cult, since these societies tend to remind us of devices of works of fiction set in apocalyptic times. To this, I submit people may be understating just how abnormal Trump and his presidency are. Besides, as many would aver, we are in the midst of a crisis right now, one primarily borne of climate concerns, but not without worry over its political stability. Trump just pulled the United States out of the Iran nuclear deal without an apparent replacement strategy. Does this make the world safer? Does this instill confidence that the U.S. is a country that honors its agreements and is therefore worthy of trust? On both counts, the answer is a resounding “no,” and that should inspire concern from Americans regardless of their political orientation.

Then again, maybe it’s just that devout Christians can be hypocrites or otherwise twist the Bible to suit their purposes. Phil Zuckerman, a professor at Pitzer College and someone who specializes in studies of atheism and secularity, among other topics, penned an essay shortly after Donald Trump’s upset 2016 electoral victory regarding the role of religion in the election’s outcome. Zuckerman—who also cites the statistic about 81% of white evangelicals voting for Trump, as well as 56% of American voters who attend church at least once a week going for the orange-skinned one—points to other disappointing tendencies of the Christian right.

For one, they tend to regard men as superior leaders and reinforce values that support male dominance over obeisant females. They also hate, hate, hate homosexuals and tend to fear and hate other religions, dividing people into a saved-unsaved binary. Furthermore, fundamentalist Christians place a stronger emphasis on authoritarianism, and mistrust and reject the science which clashes with their faith. Or, as Zuckerman frames this, they are a sanctimonious lot, a subdivision of the American electorate that touts morals and yet voted en masse to elect someone in Trump who is the epitome of immorality. As with Aslan’s criticisms, people would be wont to use context to dismiss Zuckerman’s views. He made these comments not long after Election Day, and thus was probably harboring strong feelings at the time of his piece’s publication. Also, he’s interested mainly in secular studies. Maybe he just hates religious types. PROFESSOR, YOUR BIAS IS SHOWING.

Maybe, maybe not. Irrespective of Reza Aslan’s invectives directed at President Trump and Phil Zuckerman’s discontent with strong Christians for voting for someone clearly not of the same mold, this sense of devotion to Trump by a significant portion of the American people is startling and disconcerting, especially in light of the comparisons between Trump and Jesus. These are the same kinds of “values voters” who, say, conceive of gun ownership as a God-given right. Fun fact: the right to bear arms is a constitutional amendment contained in the Bill of Rights, not one of the Ten Commandments. Thou shalt not kill. Gun ownership increases the likelihood you will violate this precept. How does one reconcile these two apparently competing interests?

One oft-cited biblical passage, Matthew 10:34, in which Jesus is believed to have said that he “did not come to bring peace, but a sword,” may just as well speak to Christ’s existence dividing (as a sword would cut) people based on their belief, if not a faulty translation from the original Koine Greek. Psalm 144 in the Book of Psalms, another quoted portion of the Good Book, has been translated as, “Blessed be the Lord, my rock, who trains my hands for war and my fingers for battle.”

This is context-dependent, however. David, in speaking of bodily strength, ascribes true strength to God, and prays to Him to rescue him and his people “from the cruel sword.” In this context, David is King of Israel at a time when war among rival groups is common, and what’s more, the ending of the psalm expresses a hope for peace. This seems like quite a departure from the rhetoric of the National Rifle Association, which would have you believe in its promotional videos that America resembles a scene from The Purge. Lock ’em and load ’em, ladies and gents. Conflict is brewing, and nothing shouts His love like the cold steel of a .45.

Mark Lee’s pro-Trump comments seemed crazy at the time of first utterance, and a mere six months later, still do. As the Trump presidency wears on, though, at least until anything manifests with respect to impeachment or other means of removal, and as Donald Trump’s support from his base not only holds steady but grows, one wonders whether Aslan’s depiction of Trump as a salvific figure, as something more than an inspiration to those blinded by patriotism, is accurate. For white evangelicals who support him, in particular, Trump’s actions should prompt them to look critically at their set of beliefs and the importance of morality to their worldview. Whether or not the apparent abandonment of their principles holds beyond Trump’s presidency, meanwhile, is anyone’s guess, and is hard to approach with any sense of faith on the part of those who already don’t believe in him.

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