#She's my bbgrl

[postsfromthedark]

claudia has made it very hard to excuse her war crimes, but I shall continue to do so

[horseshoemybeloved]

I am still dealing with chronic illness stuff and all that so still no new art I’m sorry guys :( I have this old ass Pete and Patrick painting I’ll post that

[little-shiny-sharpies]

OH MY GOD ARE YOU KIDDING ME WITH THIS

[whatthehekko]

save me Drew Barrymore lookalike lesbian I met on hinge save me

[shrimpyjackal]

I love the fact that her fans are two categories: " I love my bbgrl" and " She is a fucking loser"

[tadpolebobatea]

live slug reaction Chapter 211

thats… not what loop 100 tella looks like. lmao. anyway. Kills me that the only people unchaste worked on are Loop 100 Sean (not mentioned above, he’s dead by now) who is cartoon levels of asshole villain, of course he doesn’t have a loved one. And Tella someone who’s main character trait is his dedication to his boss. Who he holds as more important than anything else in his life, and who’s main conflict is worrying over said boss. tell me tozuka!!!! What is devotion if not love!!! Come on man!!!!

(I’m working on “he wasn’t being honest about what he wanted (i.e not wanting to fight god, not wanting billy to fight god) in his relationship with billy so it wasn’t sincere. Partners talk to each other rather than just being told what to do or something. But I am just coping here)

Poor boy. Dragged into being into being an unwilling Guinea pig… geez. So the crux of this chapter for me is if the ability is going to work on tella. Because I’m invested in-

What the fuck is that

Me when there’s a new chapter

BillyTella nation! we’re so back! It’s so over! results inconclusive!!! (Classic tozuka non-answer… don’t worry tella, i believe you care for billy)

Also oh my god. KURURU I WOULD KILL FOR YOU BBGRL. Grinning little gremlin!!! (Did she brainwash them into playing death metal as well? Or is she death growling over them playing regular idol backing music)

unclear what this means for kurukae yuri nation… I think we might still be on? Narrative foils are fair game

No further comments

get his ass (hi Veronica. Glad to see you’re still like… alive 👍)

I 100% buy this lol. He’s friends with creed who tried to kill him (and succeeded in killing his squad last loop). Billy is just like that…

Veronica being a mercenary does add another layer to Billy’s whole steal the disc and become the worlds enemy angle. And how it was like:

The reader: Wdym you’re going to be a supervillain. Billy you have a wife at home???

The wife in question, probably: FUCK EM UP HONEY!!! Get they ass!!

can you 2 maybe stop smoking around your toddler? Oh and glad to see Mui just being slid in next to the wives. Real casual like.

Glad that my joking prediction of a mlp equestria girls evil battle of the bands is coming true. Good for them (also that kururu eye close up goes hard)

Well good luck girls, unchaste has none of the weaknesses it had last time. Good news for the “Unchaste would be busted if the activation wasn’t so strict” girlies. We were right. This is not exactly good news for The gang though 

[velarisnightsky444]

mor’s trauma is SO overlooked. my girl went through it and everyone just hates her cuz she’s still mad at Eris.

i love Eris, but she’s allowed to be mad. ESPECIALLY because he hasn’t shared the truth about why he left her there.

she was tortured, likely sa’d, and left to die and he did nothing. and ik he had a reason(again, i love eris) but that doesnt mean she deserves so much hate just for not liking him.

tldr: mor is my bbgrl and i love her sm and she deserved better

[greetingsfromuranus]

I need to tell you guys about breaking bad it's my favorite show ever and it's awesome

Jesse is just like me fr Walter is the most peculiar motherfucker like that isn't normal bbgrl gus is so fucking cool and I absolutely can't wait to see more of him he's so fucking cool (swoon) Saul is a damn goober quite peculiar and may I say a bit babygirl (can't wait to watch better call saul) and yknow what Skylar is pretty badass at points like yea she's inconvenient for Walter but Walter is inconvenient for everyone and we still like him. Skylar is cool. Mike is also very cool

[Just started season 4, for context]

[violetkatgrove]

BumbleClan: 18 months in

thats right another update already babey(because i cannot stop playing this game)

Previously: Squirrelface and Buzzardpaw both had sprains, and Golddawn saw a ghost, but didn't really get a chance to react before it disappeared.

Lets see what these 6 moons have in store!

CW: Cat and Kitten death

Moon 13:

"Nothing interesting happened this moon". not even a recovery? cringe

Stoatskip thinks he can tell Sunstar something important. "I'm in love with your girlfriend" probably 🙄

Sunstart AGAIN saying Squirrelface doesn't do anything helpful!!! for one she has a SPRAIN RIGHT NOW BE NICE thats it. Quarter. you know what to do bbgrl

Hazelbloom thinks Buzzardpaw is nice :)

GOLDDAWN COMPLAINING THAT BUZZARDPAW IS UNHELPFUL. MEAN

Mudfur scolded Kokichi. I'm his lawyer now and i say he did nothing wrong

Stoatstalk and Gracklegorse have a nice conversation abt Clan happenings :)

Thoughts and In-Camp actions:

Sunstart head empty again. nods my head

Gracklegorse wants to get to know Sunstar better ohhhh the romantic meter is starting to go up to twooooo

Quarter again wondering why we cant all just get along. me too girl everyone is so mean :(

Stoatstalk wants to talk to Quarter abt something. sniff sniff what is it boy

Mudfur is greatful she has lived so long. im happy for you but im so fucking scared right now ur like 11 years old please dont leave

From StarClan, Fawnroot is proud of Mudfur's long life. Moonthistle looks forward to the day.

Quarter holds a meditating meeting with Sunstar and Squirrelface to work out Sunstar's recent comments towards the younger she-cat. it goes a little better than expected...???? i now know to turn off allow romantic sometimes

Patrols:

Stoatskip leads border patrol with Havenpaw and Hazelbloom. While walking along the border, they notice a HushClan patrol renewing their scent marks up ahead. Once the patrols cross paths, Havenpaw is quick to break the awkward atmosphere with a friendly greeting. The patrols pause to converse for a little while, Havenpaw bringing up a story that, while embarrassing for her, is entertaining and lighthearted. The patrols part in good spirits. another Havenpaw W 😎

Golddawn takes Kokichi with her to gather herbs. As she pads through the Clan's territory, she feels another presence join them. The connection wavers and fades, just as it did the previous moon :(

Sunstar, Gracklegorse, and Stoatstalk head off to the final patrol for this moon. While hunting, they catch the scent of a fox- and find one feasting on a deer fawn carcass. It's unlikely it killed a fawn of this size. The cats are only just smaller and outnumber the fox, if only by a little, and it's a prize they're willing to fight for. With a prayer to StarClan they throw themselves into battle, and the fox, already half full of venison and unwilling to lose blood over it, is driven off from the kill.

thats TWO deer carcasses BumbleClan has managed to get. if foodcount was a thing i would be winning

Moon 14:

Squirrelface and Buzzardpaw have both recovered from their sprains!

Quarter traveled to HushClan to resolve some recent border disputes. However, it seemed Quarter only made HushClan more upset. (thats probably bc u still have ur kitypet name bbgrl u shouldve let someone else go with you...)

Squirrelface and Sunstar went for a nice long walk together :3

Stoatskip wants to spend more time with Stoatstalk! stoatx2 friendship is real in BumbleClan

The tick bites Mudfur was suffering from have healed.

Sunstar asked to swap prey with Mudfur, who happily agreed :)

Hazelbloom had a disagreement with Quarter about smth. Probably with her going off on her own to HushClan with her kittypet name + collar still intact.

Havenpaw took a sunbath with the medicine cats :3 bonding

Stoatstalk thinks Buzzardpaw is being annoying. have you considered hes just a little boy like you once were.

Kokichi listen's to Mudfur talk about her younger days :)

Buzzardpaw, Sunstar, and Squirrelface had a nice chat over food :)

Quarter works on the strained relationship between Sunstar and Golddawn. Helping the leader and medicine cat re-earn each other's respect.

Thoughts and In-Camp actions:

From StarClan, Fawnroot has been following the growth of Hazelbloom. Moonthistle is feeling happy!

Sunstar is worried about clan relations. me too girl if Quarter accidentally starts a war I'll be so fucking sad.

Gracklegorse assesses the apprentices, whilst Golddawn checks on the warriors.

Squirrelface is proud of her ability to take care of her Clanmates... im so proud of her

Quarter is meditating a long time friendship between two Clanmates :)

Kokichi is worried others are judging him. whos being mean to my special little boy

Buzzardpaw is grooming his chest in embarrassment after being praised by his mentor awwwwwwwwwhhhh

Patrols:

Sunstar and Buzzardpaw accompany Golddawn in herb gathering. With the newleaf sun hidden behind cloudy drizzle, it's a damp day to find thyme, and the patrol would rather have this over with quickly. With the drizzle hiding scents, Golddawn almost walks straight past the thyme plant- but Sunstar calls her over. Thanks to its calming, well-loed scent, medicine cats aren't the only Clan cats who can identify this plant, a fact that Golddawn is greatful for right about now.

Gracklegorse leads border patrol with Stoatskip and Havenpaw. While on patrol, Stoatskip notices som e suspecious pawprints in the mud beneath the canopy. Turns out they were his own pawprints. Stoatskip can't meet the eyes of the rest of the patrol. (lmao)

Hazelbloom, Kokichi, and Stoatstalk patrol together. Stoatstalk and Kokichi get into a dispute, which they look for Hazelbloom to settle. He has no time for this spant and pulls the patrol to a halt to remind them that they have a star-damned job to do and quarreling like kittens will not be tolerated. The patrol returns to collecting nesting material with newfound vigor.

Thoughts before the next Moon:

Sunstar begins pondering recent dreams she's been having... perhaps from StarClan?

From StarClan, Moonthistle is judging Stoatskip while Fawnroot walks through his dreams.

Also SquirrelStoat and GrackleSun canon now because im IMPATIENT

Moon 15: Greenleaf

Stoatskip got stuck in a Twoleg trap! He eventually escaped, but his leg is heavily injured

Kokichi's kits have now graduated, Sunstar calls a meeting and proclaims them both warriors, Buzzardpaw is named Buzzardpoppy, honoring his commitment, while his sister is named Haventail to celebrate her nurturing precense.

Quarter was bitten by a snake! but she's alive as of right now.

Hazelbloom appreciates Buzzardpoppy for pointing out something amiss with his appearence, and admires Haventail's bravery.

Stoatstalk was seen arguing and borderline fighting with a loner boy WHAT are you doing

Gracklegorse lets Quarter vent her worries to him.

Stoatstalk thinks about how lucky he is to have someone like Sunstar was a friend...found family strikes again

Haventail bumped into her mother and did NOT say sorry AGAIN girl WHAT are you DOING

Kokichi, Quarter, and Hazelbloom have small talk and a sunbath together :) Hazel and his outsider best friends

Quarter complains about something Squirrelface did, but Haveltail lets the medicine cat share he troubles with her, hoping she'll feel better afterwards

Thoughts and In-Camp actions:

Squirrelface and Golddawn had gathered cobwebs and tansy, and were quick to put the cobwebs to use on Stoatskip's mangled leg. With Quarter recovering from her snake bit, there would be no meditating this moon.

From StarClan, Moonthistle is looking to visit Sunstar in a dream soon. ruh roh?

Sunstar is feeling underappreciated...i appreciate u bbgrl

Squirrelface thinking abt an apprentice again. i promise we'll get some new cats soon honey mark my worms

Stoatskip ponders his warrior ancestors, and the protections they grant the Clan.

Haventail eavesdrops on Buzzardpoppy, who's looking to get to know Quarter better.

Patrols:

Gracklegorse takes Buzzardpoppy and Haventail on their first border patrol as warriors. As the patrol checks the border markings, an OatClan patrol appears and begins jeering at the Bumbleclan cats. Buzzardpoppy is quick to strike up conversation with the other patrol, trying to get to the root of their rudeness. Eventually the problem is smoothed over, nothing but a misunderstanding and unfounded assumptions. thank GOD thank you Buzzard i was nervous abt those guys

Stoatstalk and Squirrelface go herb gathering together... its a repeat of their previous time gathering herbs together Stoatstalk that is your MATE BE NICE TO HER........WE'RE LOSING SQUIRRELSTOAT NATION

Hazelbloom and Kokichi practice hunting techniques together. Both cats have a nice session, swapping their best tips and tricks with each other :)

Golddawn gathers herbs alone, while searching for some specific herbs, she's startled by weird sounds and whispers in the wind. she finds another queen and her kits, gone too soon. she cancels the patrol and returns to camp to help hold a vigil for them.

SquirrelStoat's romance has been pretty rocky, but they both feel secure with each other. Stoatstalk also has 6 platonic love bars for Sunstar 🥺💜

Thoughts before the next Moon:

Sunstar insists that she should have TEN lives instead of nine. she has not lost a single one but i agree with her.

Gracklegorse is having a good day :) also has dislike/jealousy ticks on HazelStoat. you literally have a wife that u love so much clamn down bestie

While recovering from her snake bite, Quarter is trying to meditate a small disagreement with two Clanmates. I mean she is currently in the medicine cat's care. trying to get the girls to get along whilst being their patient Quarter you are so strong

Hazelbloom & Kokichi try to set a good example for the younger cats. best of friends i love youuuu

Buzzardpoppy is in awe of Sunstar's leadership🥺🥺

From StarClan, Moonthistle is comforting his fellow StarClan cats. wails and screams and explodes.

Moon 16:

Sunstar announces that she is expecting kits!!! she wont be moving to the nursery just yet but by StarClan we are WINNING GrackleSun nation

The medicine cats replace their rosemary deposit, noticing some of their stock going bad.

Squirrelface scolded Mudfur who is now ignoring her. Squirrelface why do you have beef with her shes like almost 12 years old. be nice to her

A rogue waits on the border for a patrol, asking to join BumbleClan. The cat decides to take on a more Clan-like name, and is now called Plumshine :) hello plumshine my new friend plumshiiiine

HazelStoat winning: they are sharing prey together. Gay Rights

Sunstar and Haventail hatch a plan to sneak out GIRL? DID YOU NOT SAY YOU WERE PREGNANT?

Buzzardpoppy and Haventail welcome in Plumshine and Quarter is telling them a story 🥺 so niiiice

Stoatstalk and Hazelbloom have a nice talk with Plumshine over some food :) everyone is so nice

Kokichi, Quarter, and Stoatskip take a sunbath together :3

Thoughts and In-Camp actions:

Stoatskip and Quarter are given cobwebs and tansy for their respective injuries, lowering risk of them getting worse.

Squirrelface gathered juniper and horsetail, and Golddawn gathered poppy and ragwort, as well as more horsetail.Stoatskip wonders how Sunstar is doing, while Squirrelface checks on him and the other warriors.

Plumshine looks around camp with wonder.

Hazelbloom and Kokichi spar in the clearing.

Haventail is wondering if she would be a good swimmer. maybe but also dont do anything scary young lady

From StarClan, Moonthistle is sad to see how the Clan has changed :(

Patrols:

Buzzardpoppy takes his sister and new warrior Plumshine to go hunting together. Haventail spots a fat rabbit on the other side of the OrioleClan border. A tempting opportunity, but it may be best to hunt in her own clan's territory. Before she can make a decision, Plumshine pounces on the rabbit with no hesitation! They easily kill the rabbit before glancing up and coming face to face with an OrioleClan cat. Plumshine is promptly chased back over the border and the other cat glares, hissing and spitting, until the patrol leaves the area.

Squirrelface leads the herb gathering patrol, with her mate and former mentor by her side. Surprisingly, Stoatstalk actually starts up a conversation about the herbs they're looking for this time. Squirrelface launchers into the usual spiel, but even more astonishingly, Stoatstalk is actually interested, and it makes her heart feel lighter getting to share her knowledge and skills with someone who respects her. They were able to find marigold and rosemary before returning to camp (sorry you had to third wheel Golddawn but SQUIRRELSTOAT NATION IS WINNING)

Gracklegorse patrols the border with Hazelbloom and Kokichi. The cats begin to discuss rumors they've been hearing of a badger denning in a certain part of BumbleClan territory. Kokichi decides there has to be a easy way of figuring out if a badger has moved in without coming face to face with the predator. He leads the patrol on a search of the clearning around the sett until they come upon some fresh badger scat- stinky, horrible, and perfect proof of the new occupant of the sett.

Thoughts before the next Moon:

From StarClan, Moonthistle is proud of Stoatskip🥺😭thats hims brother...

Squirrelface and Hazelbloom await to hear Mudfur's next story

Moon 17:

Sunstar moves into the nursery to prepare for her upcoming litter.

Quarter's snake bite has healed so well you can't even tell it happened in the first place! yahoo!

Stoatskip preys that he isn't on patrol with Plumshine tomorrow. Did Haventail tell you about The Incident(TM).

Squirrelface and Mudfur got into a spat over food :( what is it with Squirrelface and not getting along well with her elders.

Hazelbloom thinks Squirrelface has a weird sense of humor. what did she Say...

On the topic of Squirrelface happenings, she also has fleas. sad

Golddawn might be reading a little too far into Mudfur's kindness...? I'm super autism what does this mean.

Stoatstalk feels like he can tell Stoatskip something important... the stoats are friendshippinggggg

BUZZARDPOPPY TOLD GRACKLEGORSE A SECRET ONLY FOR THEM TO TELL SOMEONE ELSE... WAS IT SUNSTAR. UR WIFE AND HIS FORMER MENTOR STILL COUNTS AS TELLING SOMEONE GRACKLEEE

Quarter wants to spend more time with Kokichi YESSS outsider name friendship real...

Plumshine apologizes to Stoatstalk over something. poor buddys having a rough time adjusting to clan life it seems :(

Haventail wants to spend more time with Hazelbloom! yippi!!

Thoughts and In-Camp actions:

Stoatskip is given a treatment of marigold, and should heal sooner with it.

This moon the medicine cats both gathered oak leaves, Squirrelface gathered an additional moss and ragwort, while Golddawn acquired some lungwort and rosemary this moon.

From her spot in the nursery, Sunstar is eavesdropping on Quarter, who is looking to get to know Stoatstalk better.

Gracklegorse assigns cats to the dawn patrol, Golddawn is excited for another half moon meeting, while her former apprentice, Squirrelface, is tending to growing herbs

Mudfur is feeling under appreciated :( i appreciate u bestie...

Haventail wants to surprise some1 w a gift!

Quarter notices some tension between Plumshine and Stoatskip, and decides to hold a meditating session between the two cats. They don't get along instantly, but the two cats are a little more comfortable around each other now.

Patrols:

Kokichi takes Plumshine and her kids on border patrol. As they begin checking border lines, they notice that HushClan scent has strayed into their territory. They follow the scent to a HushClan cat taking refuge up a tree. The cat yowls a warning and the patrol scatters when they hear the cry. Just in time, too, as a large dog jumps at the patrol, catching Plumshine but thankfully only injuring them before Plumshine tears themself free and sprints away (torn coat injury acquired. also HushClan relationship worsened i guess???? fucked up)

Gracklegorse goes training with Hazelbloom and Stoatstalk. Hazelbloom takes charge and coordinates exercises for the patrol. Soon the cats are practicing trips, tricks, and tumbles.

Squirrelface and Golddawn stroll through the territory, chatting while on their way to an herb patch they haven't visited in a while. Golddawn asks the younger she-cat what she thinks the nature of StarClan is. Squirrelface swishes her tail, admitting she never really thought about it, past the fact that they're ancestral spirits. It certainaly makes for interesting conversation, and it's all too soon that they pick the herbs and have their mouths too full of marigold and lungwort to continue.

Thoughts before next Moon:

From StarClan, Moonthistle is disappointed in Plumshine. everyone so mean over that rabbit incident huh

Gracklegorse does his best to honor their Clan and their leader. Sunstar makes a solemn vow to protect their Clanmates.

Quarter feels a sense of pride after meditating the two previous cats. Squirrelface wishes to speak to her about something.

Fawnroot is hoping he'll be remembered. so what if i exploded

Stoatskip tries to reassure some Clanmates that StarClan will guide them... his mentor and bruder up there they're in good hands he knows this.

Kokichi is chastising Clanmates for... something. the other cats aren't quite sure what for.

Buzzardpopy and Haventail offer to assist the medicine cats :)

Moon 18:

In the nursery, Sunstar lies suckling newborn Howlkit, Yewkit, and Runnelkit. Gracklegorse watches over them proudly, purring so hard their body vibrates.

Stoatskip has fully recovered from his previously mangled leg! You can't even tell something had happened to it. Plumshine's coat has also recovered from the dog attack.

Kokichi, unfortunately, has gotten Squirrelface's fleas. a bit of a problem that the medicine cat has fleas huh.

Plumshine finds a young kittypet named Broken, who decides to join the clan. She decides to keep her old name, but takes on the more Clan-fitting version of Brokenpaw. Stoatskip decides to mentor her. Sunstar's kits mewl welcomes to the new apprentice.

Haventail makes sure Buzzardpoppy knows he is loved 🥺💜💜💜

The medicine cats replace their old supply of thyme. Squirrelface gathered more cobwebs after using some to help with recent kit's birth. Golddawn was unable to find any new herbs this moon.

Quarter travels to OrioleClan to resolve some recent herb-gathering disputes.

Stoatskip, Kokichi, and Hazelbloom talk together over their fresh kill.

Thoughts and In-Camp actions:

From StarClan, Fawnroot is watching over Hazelbloom.

Hazelbloom watches Brokenpaw and Quarter, thinking about how awful kittypet food must taste.

Gracklegorse wonders how his kits are doing.

Stoatskip thanks StarClan for his catch out on hunting patrol today.

Buzzardpoppy finds a much needed herb for the medicine cats while on hunting patrol. so nice to the medicine cats i love u Buzzardpoppyyyy

Mudfur's aching bones predict soon to come rainy weather.

Stoatstalk is a little exhausted from how many cats come to him for things :( it's tough being the Clan favorite.

Quarter decides to hold a meditating session with Stoatskip and his new apprentice, in order for Brokenpaw's training to go as smoothly as possible.

Patrols:

Hazelbloom takes his mate and his new apprentice on a hunting patrol. As the patrol heads out into the forest to hunt Stoatskip seems to be absolutely unconcerned with his duties, instead ambling along as though the prey is going to waltz into his paws. Stoatskip makes it look easy, and when the patrol is done mousing everyone else ends up carrying catches mostly brought down by him. He leads the way back to camp, sauntering with a distinctly smug sway of his hips.

Squirrelface sniffs the clean fresh morning air, wondering if she can smell juniper berries on the breeze. She assembles a patrol with Haventail and Buzzardpoppy to investigate. The warriors and full of complaints about the sharp juniper needles spiking their poor widdle noses, and eventually a mildly disgusted Squirrelface calls off the herb gathering patrol -_-

Gracklegorse leads the border patrol, taking the remaining available warriors with them. The patrol comes across a small dog, right on the border of BumbleClan territory. Kokichi tries to drive it off, but it only gets further excited, and the cats are forced to wait exasperatedly in a safe spot until the beast calms down. (edited)

Final Thoughts:

STOATSTALK IS THIS MOON'S HEARTTHROB??? DAMN

Brokenpaw is in the medicine cat den after a small injury :(

Runnelkit & Howlkit attempt to figure out all the smells around them.

From StarClan, Fawnroot is missing a loved one :(

I'll confess I had to savescum and redo all the patrols bc the final patrol gracklegorse AND plumshine both died and i was NOT having that shit. but guys its ok now :) and now i know to save after every patrol

I switched apprentice graduating to be experience-based now also since otherwise Brokenpaw would graduate Instantly. i might also switch her mentor bc SOMEBODY oughta let the OTHER WARRIORS take on an apprentice once in a while. But that will all be seen next time!

[vampkaashis-wife]

Awake again and angry about it BUT I acknowledge that I did get a full 8 hours for once

Now to coop myself up in the library for a few hours before class

Also if yall wanna know what I’ve been up to click down here

She is geto themed bc that’s my evil, crazy bbgrl

[bumbleclan]

BumbleClan: Moons 25-27

There's been quite the happenings in BumbleClan! lets get right to it

Thoughts before the New Moon:

Outside of BumbleClan territory, Whisker wonders if Clan life is the only way to live with others. pspspsppss ooooo u wanna join bumbleclan SO bad ooooooo

Haventail wishes to spend time alone, Quarter worries for the young molly :(

Stoatstalk STILL feeling that since of dread. honey whats going on

Flowerkit hides away deep in the nursery from other cats, their parent struggled to find them under the moss bedding.

From StarClan. Fawnroot is resting my PATIENCE STOP PREDICTING SOMETHING BAD HAPPENING TO YEWPAW!!!!!!!!!

Away from Fawnroot's dreadful visions, Moonthistle and Runnelkit are conversing, looking to visit one of the medicine cats soon

Moon 25:

Stoatstalk's claw wound has finally healed, alongside Brokenspots tail, although the former cat ended up with a thorn in her paw after falling to a prank.

Gracklegorse complains that Flowerkit doesn't do enough around camp. Kokichi finds this behavior uncomfortable and so do I grackle he is Just a Little Boy

After scolding Flowerkit for attempting to play in the medicine den, Mudfur helps the cats sort herbs. The raspberries have gone bad, they'll have to replace them soon.

Howlpaw checks on Stoatstalk after he exits the medcine den, properly healed. He appreciates his little sisters concern.

Kokichi confines in Sunstar, worrying about being the only cat who kept their original name. Sunstar assures him that he's a respected member of the Clan, regardless of name. The two become closer after this discussion.

Flowerkit spends time at the fresh kill pile with Haventail and Buzzardpoppy, listening to the warrior siblings tell him all kinds of tales.

Yewpaw began a trivial bicker with his sister. Howlpaw asks whats wrong and discovers her brother's recent depression regarding getting sick so soon after becoming an apprentice. She promises Yewpaw that he'll become a fine warrior once he recovers.

Quartermoon assists Brokenspots in bonding with Flowerkit, the latter hoping they'll get chosen to mentor this kit instead.

Thoughts and In-Camp actions:

Runnelkit doesn't fully understand what being in StarClan means. okay. wails

Sunstar continues to insist she deserves ten lives instead of nine. love u bbgrl

Gracklegorse must speak with his mate soon about something he found on patrol??? oh???

Flowerkit is shaken by a nightmare, Plumshine does their best to soothe the kit.

Hazelbloom rests his head on his mate's back, daydreaming blissfully. Stoatskip doesn't react, only hoping that Gracklegorse doesn't send him out on next patrol.

Brokenspots hopes Sunstar has noticed her improvement this moon. It's ok i notice u Brokenspots

The medicine cats were able to gather moss, daisy, burdock, betony, poppy, and wild garlic this moon. Yewpaw is given a treatment of plantain for his whitecough.

Outside of Clan territories, Whisker debates finding housefolk to care for her in his old age :(

RAZZLE IS ENGANGING LOAF MODE I REPEAT LOAF MODE INITIATED!!!!!!!!!!!

From StarClan, Fawnroot is looking to visit Howlpaw in a dream soon.... is this about the Yewpaw demise you keep forseeing.

Patrols:

Sunstar and Gracklegorse take Howlpaw out into the woods to practice her climbing skills. Their daughter listens carefully, and is able to practice proper tree climbing technique with no trouble. Gracklegorse praises her for being a natural learner.

The medicine cats embark on an herb gathering patrol. While padding through BumbleClan territory, Squirrelface tells Featherfoot of a dream she had where she was visited by Moonthistle, who told her visitors were coming from the sea to grow the Clan's numbers, bringing strong mists and heavy rain. Featherfoot shakes his head, unable to make sense of the dream.

Stoatstalk takes Plumshine. Stoatstalk, and Hazelbloom out on border patrol. As they approach border lines, they hear a sound coming from a nearby bush. Before Stoatskip can approach to check in, a loner emerges, 3 kits following in toe. They explain that they used to live out on something called a "boat" with Twolegs, but left after realizing they were going to have kits. She says she wishes to join BumbleClan, and the patrol leads them back to camp to talk with Sunstar, who happily agrees.

Kokichi takes her kits and Brokenspots out hunting. the patrol locates a fox scavenging a large deer fawn carcass. Kokichi leads the charge, the other three cats harrassing the fox long enough for her to deal a devastating blow to it's hindlegs, causing it to run away, it's not likely to live long after such an injury. The hunting party triumphantly brings back their spoils, this will keep the Clan fed for the rest of the moon. (the leg injury was explained a bit more squeamishly in-game kokichi what the HELL) (edited)

Thoughts before the new moon:

From StarClan, Runnelkit is imagining what it would be like to be medicine cat. MAN..............WAILS

Fawnroot is also curious abt what Haventail's doin. She is purring loudly, hanging out in the clearing with her brother and Stoatskip, who are gossiping about Squirrelface's latest prophecy that lead to their newest Clan members.

Flowerkit is running like a whirlwind around camp, After getting her tailed pounced the other day, Quartermoon wishes the kit would play a bit more quietly.

After Yewpaw was caught almost sneaking out while sick and without a warrior, Howlpaw is spending a considerate amount of time grooming herself, embarrassed but sympathetic towards her brother's actions.

Shenzibat watches Brokenspots escort the medicine cats. Curious about the fellow ex-kittypet.

luckey number moments lets go-Buzzard and Haven and also both 22 moons old! almost 2 years,,,they grow up so fast

Moon 26:

Yewpaw has recovered from whitecough! His sister, however, twisted her paw on some rocks. the ol' switcharoo...

Gracklegorse finds a feather he thinks of keeping for himself, but Poppykit sees it and attempts to claim it for themself, the feather ends up destroyed.

Haventail mock spars with Poppykit....haventail u are my everything

Brokenspots small cut has healed! yahoo!!!

Haventail is actually miss popular today- Listening to her father's troubles, Swapping prey with Featherfoot, Plumshine asking how shes doin... everyone loves her finally :3

Poppykit stands tall when Yewpaw exists the medicine den. I like this kid

Thoughts and In-Camp actions:

Poppykit and Mistykit both receive a nip on the rump after troublemaking. Rainkit only wishes to snuggle with their mother for today.

The medicine cats are able to successfully gather moss, wild garlic, poppy, mallow, raspberries and cobwebs, greatly restocking their herb supply.

Sunstar is finding leadership to be a very heavy burden to carry. Meanwhile Gracklegorse wonders who will give him his nine lives when he becomes leader. I once again remind u mx that ur wife still has all nine lives and is not that old.

STOATSKIP WOULD FOLLOW HIS CLANMATES TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH....OKAY WOW

Haventail is rethinking her life choices...whats wrong bbgrl.

Outside of Clan territories, Whiskers wonders where they'll go when they die. okay. ouch

Razzle is hiding form a dog...stay safe out there king.

From StarClan, Runnelkit is following Moonthistle around, whos silently missing his brother :(((

Howlpaw had a strange dream... wonder what it was about

Before patrols start, Featherfoot considers taking on an apprentice 👀well we got 3 new goo gagas and Flower's apprentice ceremony is ever approaching, keep ur head up king

Haventail is put on kitten-sitting duty for the day while Plumshine and Shenzibat go to stretch their legs. The young she-cat struggled to prevent Flowerkit from pouncing Buzzardpoppy's tail, but the younger three are a little easier for her to manage, Poppykit talking her's ear off about how excited she is for her apprentice ceremony, despite being many moons away, and Rainkit playing with a lone stick by himself while their brother, Mistykit, refuses to eat some herbs for a minor tummyache.

Patrols:

With Yewpaw out of the medicine den, Kokichi takes him to catch up on training, Buzzardpoppy and Haventail tag along. The three focus on training the young tom on current hunting techniques. Yewpaw gets really into it, and Haventail praises him for his enthusiasm.

Stoatskip and Hazelbloom head out on a patrol together. While passing underneth the canopy, Hazelbloom notices some pawprints in the mud. The two cats find a trespassing rogue, and work together to chase the intruder off BumbleClan Territory.

The medicine cats embark to restock their herb supplies. As they walk along the Clan's territory, Golddawn tells of a dream she had the previous nice, curious if it could be a vision from StarClan. Featherfoot shakes his head, and Squirrelface can think of no proper sense in the potential vision. No herbs were found.

Sunstar and Gracklegorse head out to hunt together, as they stretch their legs with a good run and tear through the forest, Gracklegorse spots momvent out of the corner of his eye. They gleefully bounce off a tree to redirect themselves and tackle a surprised mouse. Sunstar skids to a halt, eyes shining at the catch. The two share a few laughs on their way back to camp. (edited)[3:16 PM]

The final border patrol of the moon is lead by Stoatstalk, he takes Brokenspots and Plumshine with him. As they check out border lines, the trio hear a traispe of pawsteps through the territory. They discover a kittypet sniffing around, the cat hissies and bristles when they notice the patrol. Stoatstalk however calmly introduces himself, and manages to relax the kittypet with conversation. She introduces herself as Valentino, and when Stoatstalk asks if she'd like to join the clan, she agrees! Brokenspots smiles at the thought of another kittypet joining the Clan.

When Quartermoon hears of Valentino's life at sea, she happily introduces her to Shenzibat. The queen is still tired from caring for kits, but the two seem to have a good time getting to know each other.

Thoughts before the new moon:

Runnelkit is judging Poppykit from StarClan hello????

Squirrelface hears the voices of StarClan cats... is it runnelkit talking shit mayhaps

Stoatskip watches as Kokichi puts Yewpaw through a rather rigorous training session, and wonders if the young tom is alright.

Stoatstalk and Hazelbloom spend the day chatting and sharing jokes together, Hazelbloom claiming to be the funniest cat in the Clan.

Brokenspots wonders how Haventail is doing, who wonders how Stoatstalk is doing. the girls are Thinkin. Pondering even

Howlpaw asks her mother how she can best help around camp depsite her injury. Sunstar, currently fighting her own battle of doubting her leadership, simply urges her daughter to keep resting until the wound heals.

While Haventail helps Mudfur practice her balance, Poppykit bounds over to the older cats and asks where kittens come from. the two simply share an awkward glance to one another.

Outside the Clan, Whisker was chased out of the shelter she was staying in :( pspspsppsps ohhh you want to join the clan ohhhhhh

Rainkit sneaks into the medicine den, quietly pondering who his mentor will be. young man u have a habit of sneaking out of the nursery and sniffing around the starclan-connected dens. i love you so much

Moon 27:

Hazelbloom and Stoatskip return from a hunt, but with something else instead of fresh kill. The golden tom places down a small tortieshell, while his mate explains the situation. "She was near by the Twoleg place" Stoatskip starts, "But she was pretty far from the fence, and too young to be out there on her own..." he begins to grimace. "They must have left her there.". The three medicine cats check her over, and let the warrior take her to the nursery to care for her after giving her a clean bill of health. Hazelbloom has named her Claykit.

Quartermoon...tries to convince Rainkit to run away with her???? anyway

Lungwort, thyme, and daisy is gathered the first week of this moon. As Squirrelface inspects the herb stores, she notes to her companions that they will need to gather more goldenrod soon, as the current supply has gone bad. Howlpaw is given elder leaves for her sprain.

Kokichi has gotten a stomachache :(

SUNSTAR IS COM PLAINING THAT BROKENSPOTS DOESNT DO ANYTHING HELPFUL. IM LITCHERALLY GONNA CRY SHE LOOKS UP TO YOU SO MUCH DONT U SEE

Rainkit was apparently worried by Quartermoon's words, and goes to let out his frustrations to Buzzardpoppy, who lends an ear to the kit

Haventail wants to spend more time with Mistykit! Haventail mentor arc pending

BROKENSPOTS REJECTED A GIFT FROM HAVENTAIL?? GIRLS NAUR.....

With his stomachache, Kokichi is having extra difficulty reaching a spot to groom, Quartermoon offers to help, and the tom happily agrees and gives them his earnest thanks.

Plumshine has TWO sunbaths, the first at the start of the week with Howlpaw and Stoatskip, the second a few days later with Yewpaw and Squirrelface.

While in the nursery for a routine check-up on the kits, Squirrelface tells Shenzibat a little more about medicine cat life, and the queen learns it's much harder than they had thought initially.

Valentino wants to spend more time with Stoatstalk!! :D

Bonus: screams and wails and screams and wails

Thoughts and In-Camp actions:

Quartermoon wants to get to know Rainkit better. Golddawn, meanwhile, wishes the kit would play a bit more quietly. (... is kidnapping possible im so scared quarter bbgrl this isnt like you) After checking with the official tumblr, kitnapping is not possible so Quartermoon evil arc is cancelled. thank god

Plumshine excitedly plays games with their son, and lets him win every time 🥺💜

Yewpaw wants to know Brokenspots better! Friendship for her...

Mudfur wishes the other's would quit pitying her, she lost her tail moons ago, she's fine!

From StarClan, Moonthistle is worried about the Clan, Fawnroot is judging Featherfoot, and Runnelkit hopes they'll be remembered... okay so asplodes

Patrols:

Gracklegorce entrusts the first patrol to Plumshine, who decides to take Valentino with them to show around the territory, Kokichi and Yewpaw tag along. While on their trip to the far corners of the forest, Plumshine tries to tell the others a story to keep everyone entertained, but bushes and undergrowth block the noise of their meows, so they give up.

The three medicine cats embark to restock their herbs, Stoatstalk decides to go with them. They head to their usual elder tree to gather more leaves, it's tiring and risky work, but the leaves are gathered with little trouble and the patrol returns to store their new bounty and rest.

Brokenspots, Buzzardpoppy, and Haventail go out to train together, but before they can begin the two sibling warriors begin arguing amoungst themselves over their recent kit-sitting duties. Buzzardpoppy thinks it's pointless, that the queens should be the ones watching the kits, while his sister thinks the queen deserve a break from time to time. When they can't come to an agreement, they turn their disgruntled gaze towards Brokenspots, as if asking for her to settle things. The younger molly nods her head, agreeing that the kits can be a pawful, but asks Buzzardpoppy to imagine handling them every day like the queens do. The tom sits there for a minute, and nods his head, admiting wrong this time.

Sunstar and Gracklegorse invite Hazelbloom and Stoatskip to hunt with them, the toms happily agree. Stoatskip is the first to make a catch, but the warrior is almost tempted to eat it now, not having eaten much since caring for Claykit. While the rest of the patrol isn't looking, he gives in. After all, it sounds like the other's are catching plenty already, he even sees Gracklegorse drag two large rabbits into small clearing, another mouse would over-encumber the group, so he has his quick snack and the group return to camp, none the wiser.

Final thoughts/actions

Howlpaw begs her mother to be made a warrior early, Sunstar almost considers, but it's Gracklegorse that reminds her that even if Howlpaw was to be made warrior now, she's still resting her sprain, and that combined with her lack of skill would be a recipe for disaster for their daughter. Yewpaw promises his sister to train with her every day when she's all better.

plumshine kEEPS UP A SMIRK WHILE INSULTING A CLANMATE??? YOU ONLY HAVE LIKE 0.1 NEGATIVE TICKS FOR GRACKLEGORSE WHAT IS UR DEAL. lesbophobia moment/j

Valentino wants to get to know Golddawn better!

wh. what do you Mean. Shenzibat hasn't been seen for a while. you mean she's just been holed up in the nursery right. shes just with her babies right.

Mudfur tells scary stories to the kits, starting with a dramatisized version of how she lost her tail, Rainkit snuggles up to her for comfort, while his brother plays brave, calling her bluff with stuttered mews. Poppykit hasn't been pating attention, instead leaving to go chase Kokichi's tail.

Flowerkit bats a pebble around the nursery, careful not to wake a sleeping Claykit. He knows his apprentice ceremony is coming up. He's both excited and nervous to who his mentor could be.

Outside the clan, Whisker watches Razzle through a window, jealous of the protection and food the Twolegs give him.

[llamasgotoheaven]

I just finished s3 of Big Mouth and damn it these things are too short!!!

[kittymochidiary]

It's my Sixth sense, Diamond bb I am so sorry for pushing u off bbgrl😭😭

(Lmk if you want me to post pics of diamond dawn, shes like the cutest ever.)

[spellcastersjudgement]

I just found your blog and I fully support more 5D's content if you wanna make it! Also Carly Carmine is hella bi and lowkey a dom

i had to stop my tutor ask to respond to this because you just attached jumper cables to my ovaries bbgrl 

carly fucking carmine!!! a bisexual icon!!!! YES YALL #happypride 

i could go on about carly for ten fucking years thats my woman!!!! take-no-shit journalist that tamed jack FUCKING atlas into a respectable human being, amazing capacity for empathy?? morally gray?? she is hitting on all my goddamn cylinders i love her so much 

lowkey a dom???? lowkey?? no, she ties her bf jack atlas to a st andrews cross and makes him beg to be treated like the little shit he is!!!!! (i love jack but sub jack is the best jack) she has that fancy ass camera and whats on it??? pictures of jack atlas in compromising positions!!! jack “camera whore” atlas loves that his gf is goofy and high energy and always excited about everything and then can switch to this sultry, sexy dom at the flip of a switch?? 

u bet ur sweet fuckin ass he lets her dress him up and take pictures!!! all kinds of pictures, not even explicitly sexual, just something for her to torment him with in the bedroom!!! jack in a dress? carly has pictures of it!! jack with a strapon in his perfect fuckin ass? carly has it!! 

i would let carly carmine step on me and i know u did not ask for my feelings ™ but i am THIRSTY for carly carmine 

[meddlingheels]

              GOOD MORNING / AFTERNOON / EVENING ,  my beautiful friendships !!  it’s  scoobynatural  day !!   remember to please blacklist the tags scn spoilers and spn spoilers as i’ll most likely be live blogging the episode  ( i have no chill  &&  my bbgrl is doing gr8 so have u seen her she’s so good so queen ) .  also ,  if you wish to watch episode but aren’t caught up on the show ,  don’t fret !!  it’s a filler episode so whether or not you’ve been watching it shouldn’t matter  ^-^

[mvssmallow]

Cloudy With A Chance

Part 17: …of maple butter.

Masterlist

“It’s awesome right?”

“It’s…a drawer of our socks.”

He looks over in irritation but Jiwon just gives him a blank stare.

“Okay, maybe you don’t appreciate it but that took me fifteen minutes. You just dumped everything in, closed it and walked off. That’s not really how you move in.”

Jiwon shrugs apologetically. “It’s just socks?”

He resists the urge to punch him on the arm. “How do you find anything in the morning? Do you go to work with mismatched socks?”

Jiwon looks at him with the slightest tinge of guilt. “Nobody looks at socks! They’re not important.”

He has to roll his eyes at that. “Well, now they’re all in order. I don’t want people thinking I don’t look out for you. I did your t-shirts too by the way. How the hell did you accumulate like forty white t-shirts?”

Jiwon shrugs again, like everything in his life was just some happy accident that didn’t require his active participation. “I don’t know. I need them though. 39 to wear and one just incase someone wants to steal it.”

His face glows warmly. “I put it back after I wore it!”

Jiwon comes behind to hug him to his chest. “Hanbin, if you want the Disneyland t-shirt you can have it. You can have anything you want.”

He already knows the Disneyland t-shirt is safely folded on his side of the wardrobe. He put it there and he’ll return that when Hell freezes over. Maybe not even then. 

“Anything? Really?”

“Yeah, really.”

“Even your snapbacks?”

“Yep.”

“And your Jordans?”

“Sure.”

“And your Winnie slippers?”

“No, you got those for me. You can’t have him back.”

He laughs and turns around in Jiwon’s arms. “I don’t want it back anyway, you kinda ruined them. They’re all shredded. I don’t even know how you did that.”

Jiwon leans in and kisses him on the nose. “They’re not shredded. They’re worn in.”

“You’re worn in.”

“Yeah I know. You’re brand new and mint condition though.”

He grimaces at the compliments. “God, you’re so lame.”

Jiwon’s arms squeeze him tight. “Yeah, get used to it.”

It takes them an entire week to move Jiwon in. His apartment was already small but with another life jammed in, it felt even smaller. Jiwon called it cosy but he’d say it was just shy of claustrophobic. There’s just enough space to hold him back from a nervous breakdown.

Or maybe that was still coming. Maybe this was the honeymoon period and he’s still in shock.

“I can hear you thinking. You okay?”

He rests his head against Jiwon shoulder and nods. “Yeah, this whole thing is just kinda new for me.”

“The moving in thing?”

“Yeah. And the you and me thing. Everything is just new. I don’t know what I’m doing, sorry.”

He didn’t. He’d never been in a relationship that lasted this long or gone this far. He’d never been with anyone who knew anything important about him.

“Well, for a rookie you’re doing alright. I’m still surprised you haven’t kicked me out yet. I think I messed up all the systems in your kitchen.”

He hums against Jiwon’s shoulder as he feels warm hands rub reassuring circles into his back. “It’s your kitchen too now.”

“That all you’re going to say? Not gonna yell at me for putting the tea towels with the plastic bags?”

He shakes his head, soothed by the hands moving across his skin. “I already put everything back.”

Jiwon chuckles. “Knew it. Sorry you ended up with a mess.”

“Sorry you ended up with a nutcase.”

Jiwon tips his face up and whispers in a low pitched voice, “I love nutcases. All the best people are nutcases.”

He can’t even look at Jiwon after that, just buries his face into the safety of that solid chest and holds on for dear life.

**** The second week is a blur. They’re both so busy that they only see each other for ten minutes in the morning and maybe a hour for dinner before collapsing into bed at separate times. Late shifts and deadlines eat up every spare moment between them and it feels more like having a regular roommate than a boyfriend. 

It was good in a way, he was so busy that he barely had the chance to overthink the whole moving in thing. There were some things he was already used to when Jiwon had stayed over before: the awkwardness of waking up with bad hair and in a bad mood, constantly battling his rage whenever Jiwon leaves towels on the floor or gets toothpaste all over the sink or frantically rushing to pick up the phone in case it was his parents calling. It freaked him out in the beginning, he’d wake up at 6am every morning so Jiwon would never see him all gross and he remembers shutting himself in the bedroom whenever he had to talk to his mother.

But after awhile, he realised that a lot of those small things didn’t matter. Jiwon learnt not to answer the phone when the parental caller ID was flashing and even better, he didn’t even care how disgusting his boyfriend could be. It was liberating being able to sleep in dirty clothes, eat like pig and wake up swearing at Jiwon’s alarm. He didn’t get judged for it, just a chuckle and sympathetic back rub. 

Things were different now though. Jiwon doesn’t leave to go back to his apartment anymore. There was no hiatus or reprieve and that’s something he’s still learning to deal with. There were no longer days where he could come home after work and sit on his couch for hours in silence. That’s gone and he does miss it, the solitude was his most constant companion for so long.

On the plus side, he learns a lot of new things about himself. He learns that he can cook decent food, live amongst the occasional mess and share personal space with another person without having a full blown panic attack (he just has smaller scale panic attacks). 

But the thing he loves the most is discovering his capacity to care for another person. Maybe he felt it in bits and pieces before, and obviously he feels it for his sister, but with Jiwon, it’s no longer something that he just wants to do, taking care of him is just something that he does now. Like a blood transfusion, it’s worked its way throughout his entire venous system. It makes him who he is now and he feels human knowing that his heart could do this all along.

****

By the third week things had slowed down for both of them. The holiday season was coming up, which meant time off work and eventually, he thinks with dread, family gatherings.

The magazine goes on vacation before Jiwon’s garage closes so he gets to wake up early and make them both breakfast. It’s not until one random Wednesday that it all catches up with him.

Jiwon is half sprawled across their breakfast table and complaining about garage life again. “Some rich dude is giving his girlfriend a Porsche. I can’t believe it. She doesn’t even appreciate it. She called it a cute little car. That’s like calling Jurassic Park a cute little dinosaur movie.”

He half listens as he flips the maple pancakes over and checks on the coffee. This type of comfortable mundane-ness is what he absolutely loves and would fight to the end to protect. He wonders if Jiwon ever thinks about things like this. 

“We had to fit the dumbest customised number plates. You wanna know what it said? BBGRL. I know it’s supposed to be babygirl but what if someone reads it like: babygrowl?”

He snorts as he pours the coffee and sets it down on their breakfast table. “What if they’re genuinely in love or whatever? He obviously just wants to make her happy. That’s nice isn’t it?”

Jiwon rolls his eyes and gives him a look like he’s gone crazy. “Is it backwards day today? You are meant to be the most cynical person ever. Why aren’t you roasting the shit out of them with me? How would you feel if I got you babygirl car plates?”

He laughs and starts stacking the pancakes. “I’d say thank you but poison your breakfast later.”

There’s a split second where Jiwon hesitates siping from his mug.

He grins. “Drink it, baby.”

Jiwon narrows his eyes and takes a long sip out of defiance.

“You know, evil brings out a really nice colour in you.” Jiwon says as he starts cutting into the pancakes and chewing thoughtfully. “Hey, these are really good. Can we have this again tomorrow?”

He tilts his head and can’t help but feel impossibly fond of this messy guy in front of him. 5 foot 9 of crumpled pyjamas, crazy bed hair and a face full of maple butter.

“I was going to make crepes tomorrow. Lemon butter crepes. Yoyo taught me the other day.”

Jiwon groans and it sounds more erotic than it probably should have. “Oh make that. Yeah, I want that too. And those chocolate waffles you made on Monday.”

He doesn’t say anything, just smiles like an idiot into his mug of tea. This is New. This weird satisfying feeling that he’s feeding someone he cares about. Jiwon doesn’t tease him or ask about the silence, he just rabbits on and on about all the cars coming through the garage that week. He wonders when they switched roles. Did they switch roles? He didn’t even notice.

After Jiwon goes to shower and get changed, he turns on their sound system (that he broke and Jiwon fixed) and starts cleaning the dishes as Sunday Morning plays in the background. It wasn’t even a Sunday but it felt like it could be one. He sings along to the music as he packs Jiwon’s Spacejam lunchbox, catching himself smiling at the packet of Oreos he sneaks in because he knows Jiwon is a sucker for them. That’s when his hand freezes. 

Oh my god.

You have changed.

You’re packing his lunch now.

You’re the sucker.

“Oh shit! I’m gonna be late!” Jiwon is a blur as he flies into the kitchen, picks up the lunchbox and runs out the front door. Two seconds later he hears the door opening again and Jiwon rushes back into the kitchen to kiss him twice, once on the lips and once on the cheek.

“You’re the best. Have a good day.”

“You too. See you when you get back.”

And then he’s gone again. The kitchen smells like maple butter and a woodsy cologne. It smells like a Sunday morning. 

He leans against the kitchen bench, taking in all the little bits that didn’t even exist a few months ago. From the way there’s two sets of plates and mugs to the scattered rap flyers and car magazines on the table to the random hoody (his or Jiwon’s?) that always seems to be draped over a chair. 

He doesn’t notice that he’s doing it until his face begins to ache-

He’s been smiling at an empty kitchen this whole time.

****

Left to his own devices, his mind wanders and his fingers get restless. He makes himself a schedule to continue writing his book but the research has him constantly chasing tangents and falling down the Wikipedia hole. He writes in fits and starts, mind always ending up in the same place. Even when he’s physically absent, Jiwon’s presence fills their entire apartment. 

There’s a note in his diary about an upcoming mic night and his finger traces over the words as he stares out the window, imagining what it might be like if Jiwon ever got a record deal and could live his dreams out for real. Things would change. Would he be a part of Jiwon’s plans or get left behind?

He doesn’t get much done after that and he’s still thinking about their future by the time they’re in bed that night. 

“What do you think you’ll do if you get a record deal?” 

“Accept it?” Jiwon laughs. “Why are you asking?”

“I was just thinking about it today.”

Jiwon pulls him closer until his head is resting on his chest. “Thinking about me getting a record deal?”

His hand smooths over the soft hoody next to his cheek as he thinks. “Yeah. Imagine where you’ll be in a year. Someone from a record company will find you and you’ll be all famous.”

“You’re optimistic.” The chest chuckles underneath him. “Where are you in all this?”

“Still living here, trying to get my book written and published.”

“How far ahead have you thought about this?” Jiwon asks with a smile. “Where are we at three years?”

“Oh you’ll definitely be a legitimate recording artist by then. We should get a bigger and better apartment. And you can say no but I want a dog.”

A hand cards through his hair. “You can have two dogs.”

“You know verbal agreements are legally binding right?”

Jiwon laughs again. “Yeah I know. What about in five years? What do you think we’ll be doing in five years?”

“Five years? Better book deal. Better record deal. Better apartment. Two dogs. Maybe we’d split time between here and the US.”

“The US? Why?”

“For all your collaborations.”

Jiwon’s fingers are soft against his skin and he can hear a strong heartbeat under his ear. “What else?”

“I don’t know what else. I want to write a lot more things but it might be hard though because you’d have tours and stuff.”

The hand in his hair moves down to gently caress his neck. “Will I? You gonna come to all my shows?”

“Yeah, I need to keep the girls in check.”

Jiwon lets out a loud laugh, it jostles his head about. “What about the guys?”

He looks up sharply. “What about them? You gonna ditch me when you get famous?”

There’s a kiss against his forehead which does nothing to calm his irrational thoughts, even though he knows they’re just talking fiction. “Nah, I’ll be too old to look for another relationship. I’ll just keep you, it’s less work.”

“I know you’re joking but-”

Jiwon rolls them over until he’s hovering above him. “Do you really think I’d leave you? Famous or not. Do you really think that you’re not my entire plan?”

He looks up at Jiwon’s serious face, surprised by the sudden change in mood. “I wouldn’t really blame you.”

“That’s a really weird thing to say Hanbin.” Jiwon says with a frown. “Why do you always say stuff like that?”

He frowns too, unsure how the conversation went from fiction to real life so fast. “I just mean, if you found someone-”

“-don’t even finish that sentence. Just don’t. I know what you’re going to say. Some bullshit about me finding someone better or normal or whatever. Why do you always think that there’s something better out there? Don’t you see me in your future?”

He reaches up to finger the drawstrings hanging from Jiwon’s hoody. “I do. But let’s face it Jiwon, there probably is someone better for you out there. I’m pretty sure I’m just systematically ruining your life.” He says with a chuckle, trying to lighten up the mood.

“Is it something I’m not doing right?”

He looks up in confusion. “What? Doing what right?”

Jiwon lies back down with a heavy sigh. “This is how all our conversations go. You talk about staying together but you don’t believe it’s going to happen. So I must be doing something wrong if you can’t see us being the end game.”

He rolls over and tangles his fingers between Jiwon’s hands. “You’re not doing anything wrong. I just….I don’t want to jinx it. Because…”

“Because what?”

“Because this is already end game for me. I don’t care if we never get any better than this.” He finishes quietly and snuggles right against Jiwon’s side.

There’s silence for a moment as they both run the thoughts through their heads. He plays with their fingers and holds his breath as he waits for Jiwon to say something.

“You got low standards, Hanbin.”

He smiles into Jiwon’s arm and just like that, the mood changes again.

“Does your low standard have a ten year plan?”

He presses a kiss into Jiwon’s arm and grips his fingers tightly. “Of course it does. We’re going be on your dumb apple orchard with five dogs and really neurotic hyper kids running around screaming their heads off.”

It’s not until it leaves his mouth that he realises what he just said. But it’s too late to take it back.

Jiwon looks over at him with surprise. “I thought you said you didn’t remember any of that?”

He shrugs. “I lied.”

“Why aren’t you freaking out about this?”

“I’ve been thinking about it for a long time. It gets less scary after awhile. Anyways, the kid thing is just a crazy dream. I’m going to need to practice taking care of you and the dogs first.”

Jiwon just shakes his head in disbelief and rolls over so they’re facing each other, inches apart. “I’m….I just….”

Sometimes he second guesses himself. Sometimes Jiwon’s impassive face gives him nothing. Sometimes he’s confident about Jiwon’s feelings. Sometimes even Jiwon has his own doubts. 

But this time, he’s sure he saw it, the way Jiwon looks at him as softly and with as much focus as the way he knows he always looks right back. It’s just a small moment, a few seconds, but it feels big. It feels huge.

“I know. Me too.”