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herbofgraceandpeace · 8 months

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#I think I’ve figured out what to give up for Lent?#Not excited about it… but I was really stressed not to know what to do #I think I’m gonna give up using my phone after turning out the lights for bed #It can be a bad habit and keep me up too late #So it would be a good thing to mortify #But I’m also slightly worried that it’ll wreck my sleep habits… and I need to get lots of sleep cause the semester be crazy #But I also need to trust God and be healthy #So I think I’ll do it #thanks for listening!!#I know it’s not always the thing to announce what you’re doing for Lent #But I won’t be telling anyone who knows irl (except my roommate for obvious reasons) so

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jellyjamheadobb · 5 months

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Not this being me at a local grocery store earlier :D

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moongothic · 7 months

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#Moon posting #There's a lot to be said about FF7's themes and Cloud's character arc and how a lot of it ties into toxic masculinity #And like. The scene in VIIR where you play as Aerith when Cloud comes out of the bar in a dress and he's absolutely MORTIFIED by his get up #That fucking out-of-body horror and distress Cloud is going through even though there isn't anything for him to be ashamed of?#How humiliated he felt and how the compliments on how he was looking didn't make him feel any better?#That was me when my mom forced me to wear a skirt to my grandma's funeral back when I was in high school #(The last god forsaken time I wore a fucking skirt) (And even at that point I hadn't worn those things for YEARS)#That scene with Cloud? Yeah. Big ''I'm in this picture and I don't like it''-energy.#So this whole thing of Cloud wanting to live up to a horrible twisted idea of masculinity (a Shinra Soldier(/Sephiroth))#And realizing that he never can but(/and?) doesn't have to. That his masculinity is already good enough. That's wonderful.#Also Cloud is just kinda gender leave me alone #Sure wish I had a PS5 because I sure would like to play Rebirth but I am not dropping 700€ to play a single fucking game #Already feel bad enough about getting a Switch last year just for TOTK #Can't even watch my fave Tubers play it because I wanna experience it on my own too #Woe is me

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dutybcrne · 7 months

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Huffman was definitely the first person Kae'd ever slept with, and had to spend a great deal of time talking Huffman out of proposing bc the man wanted to 'take responsibility', send tweet-

#//Not on the other blog bc it a general hc #//ANYWAY #hc; kaeya #//It's bc of Kae's voiceline #//HIs Mika one; where he mentions both Mika AND Huffman take things WAY too seriously #//But also the fact that Huffman is basically canon Kae simp lol #//Bc if there's anybody Kae could rope into shit; it's Huffman #//And at the time; he'd used his pretty face to do ONE reckless thing of his own; with ONE person he'd have no qualms doing so #//Prolly bc Huffman was the only friend Kae had at the time that he COULD fuck without a mortifying slew of problems #//Still prolly panicked just as bad as Huffman over the whole ordeal; bc he had yet to enter his flouncing peacock era at the time #//Cried abt it to Addie & everything; she helped make sure he wouldn't deal with any lasting consequences. & gave him a Scolding; but STILL #//He later on looked back on his first time like 'Wow I was so fucken stupid; you'd think I'd gotten knocked up or smth-'#//Deffo likes sleeping with Huffman every chance he gets in present day #//For the stress relief; even if it's a stress in and of itself to keep convincing him that he does NOT need to 'take responsibility'#//Huffman was prolly also the only person whose marriage offer Kae has ever actually seriously considered; to this date #//Bc they were already friends; but also bc Kae Knew that Huffman would only ever have good intentions to him #//For a FACT #//Known the guy since his trainee days; ofc he'd trust him over any nobles or most other people that'd try to vie for Kae's hand #//But it's also precisely BC Huffman is such a good friend that Kae also would rather Not marry him #//He knows the man too well; he'd make for a good fuck; yeah; but partner??? With how he's raised Mika??? His habits????#//Nahhh #//And that's without mentioning Kae's OWN issues with marriage as it stands-#//Adding shit bc yes: Huffman is deffo the person Kae goes to when he starts getting antsy abt his looks #//Bc he knows Huffman would NEVER stop praising and complimenting him throughout #//Would deffo let the man fuck him through a dysphoric episode too; for the same reason #//Dude's too stupidly sincere; Kae finds it endearing and so very reassuring

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the-acid-pear · 1 year

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One of the most beautiful things Deltarune story has is the fact that you cannot remove its tragedy, because it's thru that very same that hope and love is born. You cannot change the past but you can take what you learnt and thru it build a brighter future.

#luly talks #some things are rough and nasty but they need to happen so lessons can be learnt and so one can grow from them #its a game about the importance of mistakes and you see it everywhere #like i tapped on this lightly today in a post about spamton #for as tragic and painful as his fate was it needed to happen #he needed to try it. to try reach heaven #se tenia que sacar el gusto como quien dice KSJGHBNUY #half joke because yeah like.he had to do it and realize thru his own actions that he was reaching for the impossible #and thru that he grew and was like well maybe i can at least do something else #same with the ending of chapter 1 #ralsei had to heal the king to understand that you cannot be good to everyone. even if it costed everyone's lives.#hell EVEN WITH US in one moment i adore in the ending of chapter 2 #when you're talking to catty (katty?) and threre's that dialogue option about family #and i dont remember the specifics but its so normal to pick the ah family is good tho <:) option #bc taht's what we would think yeah. but she makes it very clear that that's not something kris would say #and when i first saw that i was MORTIFIED like omg im gonna get a bad grade in being Kris #but... i think its part of this all too. because we are learning how kris is. how they even were before us.#had we not fucked up maybe we'd have not know that #this is a game about doom and hope both <333333333 #deltarune

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mars-ipan · 2 years

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currently thinking abt the despair disease and the character analysis potential it brings

#literally the best motive in the whole franchise <3333 #i regularly think abt how it affected komaeda. he got the fucking Liar Disease #why? because he is completely and fully sincere in everything he does #he lies occasionally yes but overall he is honest and hides nothing #he’s an incredibly earnest person. that’s what makes him so scary #and it’s also why the liar disease would be the perfect source of despair for him. makes a lot of sense #personally i don’t believe that despair disease gives you the ‘opposite’ trait #just a trait you would hate to have or is very uncharacteristic of you #i mainly think that bc the opposite of ibuki isn’t ‘gullible.’ but she probably doesn’t like listening to others (punk and eccentric)#so the gullible disease that forces her to always believe what she’s told is despair inducing #and akane! obviously she’s very good at compartmentalizing #she never seems to show fear. ever!#as such the coward disease is Mortifying. she hates being anxious and she hates showing it even more. literal hell i’ve been there girlie #so overall. i think it’s a great way to analyze a character #obvi with komaeda it’s an EXCELLENT analysis tool bc it’s basically a roundabout truth serum #if everything you say is a lie then all you need to do is reverse it and that’s the full genuine truth #so we get confirmation of things with him. like his desire for companionship. and his genuine distress when he wants to tell everyone to be #hopeful but all he can say is ‘despair’- he gets so worked up about it that he collapses #i also like to imagine what it would have been like with other characters #what would hajime have? i’ve seen an honesty disease. i’ve also seen a happy disease #both are great. i think he has a good few options #personally though i think the thing that would stress him out a Ton would be an affectionate disease #not in like a silly friend ‘i hug everyone’ way #but in a ‘tells everyone specifically what qualities he admires about them and is vulnerable to others’ way #i think he’d be MORTIFIED. haji’s a very blunt snarky person #and he does have a lot of affection for his friends but it’s mostly shown in a teasing manner #he’s also quite closed off about his own insecurities. AND he finds komaeda incredibly offputting #to wake up one day and start both genuinely making himself vulnerable and praising everyone nagito-style would actualky be hell for him #maybe call it the admiration disease. or affectionate disease depends on ur perspective #other character have interesting possibilities too (even dr1 + v3) but I Care Hinata so. he gets spotlight for a sec

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pepprs · 1 year

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update i have to apply for my own job for the SECOND time in two years by wednesday and im taking my learners permit test on friday which means i have to finish absorbing the drivers manual by then. the way i am LONGING to walk into traffic.

#the driving thing is just extra stress but the applying for my own job AGAIN thing is making me absofuckingLUTELY insane. this process was #so psychically damaging for me to go through a year ago and the fact that exactly a year later i am doing it again and have to jump thru all #the same hoops and write a new cover letter and find new references and INTERVIEW with my colleagues and all that… like i appreciate this so #much bc basically what is happening is im getting a raise and will be converted to a regular employee (im contractual rn bc that’s all they #could do when i graduated). but like the fact that i am once again under the MORTIFYING psychic stress of my colleagues being the search #committee and me being u able to talk to them abt this or get reassurance and them having to treat me like they don’t know me and this not #being guaranteed and other people potentially applying and me having to compete with them… it is too much fucking stress for me to go #through. it’s just too fucking much. i am so mentally and emotionally exhausted and now i have to walk through fire AGAIN⁉️⁉️⁉️ i wanna KMS #like it’s fine. but also the existential dreaddddd the way i cannot bear to live through this one more time but i have to and im going to. 😍#purrs #delete later #like i get it and i know it’s to make it fair and equitable. but whyyyyy do they have to put me through this again have i not proven myself #time and time again is this job not QUITE LITERALLY designed for me to be in it. and it’s not merely an annoyance it’s like… actively a #stressor that is taking years off my life just like it did last year and the timeline is even more accelerated bc last year i had two weeks #to apply and this time i have FIVE DAYS!!!!! and i have to reach out to references and i can’t do that until monday bc it’s the weekend 😭😭😭😭#like LMFOAHDHSKDHSODHAJJB of course this is happening to meeeeee im going fucking insane. also i might have to do this a THIRD time someday #and i would have to get a masters degree for that too. so basically the only path forward is CEASELESS suffering and psychic agony. there is #no hope for women. fuck my stupid baka life. but also this is a good thing and also i have it sooooo good which is soooo unfair to everyone #else for example possibly wasting everyone else’s time who applies for this job. but also fuck my stupid baka life.#technically im applying for this job for the second time in 365 days. like it’s not even two years it’s that i did this a year ago and now a #year later im doing it again. LESS than a year later. it hasn’t even been a full year yet. help 😻👍#if february 9 2022 me fucking knew what HORRORS awaited her 24 hours from then and 3 months from then and 5 months from then and 15 months f #from then. she would have imploded LMFAOOOOOOOO

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samarecharm · 2 years

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Head swimming w pegoryu thoughts; no way to put them down without poking and prodding from outside sources 😭

#i am specifically thinking of like #palace au stuff #and more specifically the 2-3 weeks ryuji is keeping akira company during the summer #thinking about like #character stuffs #bc its both me being teehee boy time #but also like #me making excuses to flesh out my akira some more #like i think he would he a very touchy bf #very kitty. he is always very close to his friends and likes to lean on them but he is also like doubly so w wuji #other things #i think akira is below average cook; never really cared about What got shoved down his gullet as long as it was food #and ryuji is so mortified #hes not even a good cook himself but his mom taught him enough to know that akira eats like a dog 😭#so ryuji gets into the habit of cooking for both of them and something in akiras brain is sending alarms #alarm is the wrong word i think. maybe signals is better #its like akira is so attentive to the world around him and the thieves #and so when his brain is like ‘ryuji (ur crush) willingly came here to keep u company-#-cares about u alot. has said his place is by you always. and is now cooking for you bc he says he worries about u’#and his brain has like a singular word in bold plastered at the front of his minds eye that says ‘ DOMESTIC’#anyway he is like ‘i cant NOT kiss him and keep him with me forever’#ryuji will also notice that akira is so much more lax now #hes not wound up tight at all. and its like. back then they didnt even Notice he was wound up like a coiled spring at all times #but seeing akira Now is like good lord its like seeing a completely different person #he is still like. sad. incredibly sad. but its bearable. and less stressful. and also ryuji is here cooking him curry and stews :)#this has led to the worst rabbit hole imaginable #where i am thinking of domestic shit for these two #waugh

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nazumichi · 10 months

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whole new situation when something so so SO embarrassing happens and you don’t have anyone to tell about it because it’s SO embarrassing so you just keep saying what happened to yourself.

#raii talks a lot #oh my god i could die. this could be funny if i was either of the other two people in this situation #maybe. theoretically. someone was being. oh you know. with their friend. and hypothetically that friends other friend appeared. perhaps #THIS IS SO AWFUL AND HE WAS SO CHILL ABOUT IT.. “oh hey ____ how’s it going” STOPPPP #god. he’s in cahoots with my mother and my prof who were in cahoots against me ABOUT HIM #and this would be soooo funny if i was the one walking in on something like this.#but no it’s mortifying. not for his friend though and not for him either absolutely no shame #im ace btw the phrasing of this could suggest things i’ve realized but no just um. good friend behavior. nightmare though #sorry that i don’t make funny posts anymore i just talk about events in my life that are awful

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gamebunny-advance · 1 year

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Huh...

I forgot it was October (10).

I should have held onto that drawing until 10/10, cus now I'm not gonna have anything for it.

#i'm very bad with dates #but like i said that was meant to be a thank you to someone #so it was supposed to be a quick sketch then posted immediately so i didn't think about it.#i made a post alluding to this a while ago #but there's someone on twitter that always makes nice comments about my art...#off of the art #so i wanted to thank them for always saying such nice things.#tbh half the time i draw 10/10 it's because that person makes such nice comments and they fill me with motivation #but on the one hand i still can't tell if i'm 'supposed' to see them #like if this is a shyness thing #wouldn't it freak you out if the person you were making 'secret' notes to turned out to have been reading them this entire time?#would you stop writing them or be happy that you got acknowledged?#i dunno. i'd personally be mortified #so maybe it's a good thing that things turned out this way #but on the other hand... if you didn't want your feelings known then you would keep them to yourself and not say anything i suppose #maybe i'll just make a new doodle

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strwbrymlkshake · 2 years

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ohh I do want to pass away why am I so stupid

#mine #🎸#why am i such a terrible person 😇 genuinely what the fuck #me when i want to cry and tear my skin off over a minor mistake ufhdshdjfjg can i stop being fucking stupid for once #crying over a mistake right NOW actually everything is so difficult i dont know what im supposed to do in these situations!!!!!!!#i get in trouble for not knowing what to do in social situations then i have to apologize and i didnt know THAT either.#bashing my head against the wall violence maiming killing death torture bloodletting slicing tearing defenestrating murdering annihilating #me anmd my epic autism powers. shouldnt i know better why csnt you understand!!! who is at fault here! i dont even know #ashshsjdksjfklsfke im wanna cry so hard everything sucks right now im too busy for this shit. for Emotions #why are you punishing me do you hate me?! did you never even like me at all are you trying to make me mad!!! why #im so tired and frustrated i want everything to go perfectly but its not nothing can be perfect in this terrible world he is going to hate #me now. hell why do i have urges like this it always ruins everything im being so selfish arent i aren't i arent i !!!!!!!! why cant we #be FUCKING compatible and perfect snd everything what is the problem am i the problem?!?? why cant you understsnd what im trying to tellyou #maybe it really would just be better if i died nothing good has happened or is going to happen to me since he probably hates me and #my life sucks!!!!! my face hurts from crying i cant cry properly it hurts it feels so hot why cant it end already!!!!!!! why cant #we be perfect like we are supposed to why cant you UNDERSTAND it seems easy to understand to ME whwueh i am mortified my throat hurts #my head hurts i hate this world why couldnt i resist why did i have to be vulnerable id be better off if. well i dont know #i do want to crush bones and flesh beneath my hands to be honest i dont KNOW i thought it was going well i thought it was good #the thread i am hanging on by is quite thin actually why do i care so much why do i care so little im going to explode right meow!!!#my mood is so ruined i dont know if im even used to this whole thing i cannot get in particular moods im so. rgrhrhggr none of this post #is going to make sense i just need to say words while crying then itll be fine probably #this is just another one of god's little tests i think that everyone will hate me no matter what in the end so i have to enjoy it while #it lasts. no matter how hard i try everything always ends up the same way. all this started because of my mistakes and itll end with them

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polaroidcats · 1 year

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okay someone needs to teach me how to use technology wow I just accidentally uploaded the excel sheet I use for the wolfstarshipping tags onto an old google drive folder from a group research project from my bachelor's degree and now i just have to PRAY that the owner of that folder didn't get a notification before i deleted it again to reupload it in the correct folder lmao

#ramblings #that was slightly mortifying #it was in that folder for like a good half an hour before i realised it was in there #i thought i had just put it in like the general google drive thing but no it was SPECIFICALLY the folder for an old group project fml #luckily i used my spam mail so i don't think they can even tell it was me even if someone saw it #and the folder has been last active in 2017 #so i should be fine #but still lol if they somehow can see that it was me that would be slightly embarrassing #bc it's basically an excel sheet of all the tags i use for wolfstarshipping bc i still haven't given up on creating an index page one day #but idk what that looks like to non fandom people #okay this is a sign i should probably just go to bed.....

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jackalhadrurusluvr · 1 day

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everytime an artist i like is gonna perform in my state i go "i should go" (it helps that i like a lot of smaller artists so the one im looking at rn, tickets are 20 dollars and not ten billion) and then i immediately give up on the idea and then i have to tell myself that it is a sign of depression to not want to do anything ever and i have Got to Want to Do Things

#dream concert would probably be hozier or mitski but when they came around the tickets were over one hundo dollars #and i dont have that kind of money for such a thing #my other problem is that i dont want to go alone (mostly just because im scared) but i have no one to go with #the only person i am often around is my dad and it would be a little mortifying for my music taste to be known #man who gets really embarassed over his parents knowing even the simpliest things about him #not a simple thing and therefore not a good example but the last time i came out was like 7 years ago #and i came out as a lesbian........ soooooooooo #they have no idea i am a gay man #which is crazy to me because i think and talk about being gay everyday #but there is a really good chance my dad thinks i like girls #...shifts uncomfortably #but im not gonna tell him so what can you do #my mom has asked me a few times before what gender i liked and i just kind of awkwardly refused to answer #that is so embarassing. they cant know i have feelings. thats mortifying to me.#but anyways a better example would be that id be embarassed bringing up my favorite color #why this is. i have not a clue

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dutybcrne · 9 months

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Love the idea of Kae even in the present still having such baby brother energy that he can work favors out of people older/sterner than him SO easily.

#//Not even Rosa is immune; even if he does have to give something up in exchange #//The fact that she agreed to do him a solid in the first place is Monumental enough jfbfb #//Id include Diluc in that; but Windblume; Ballads & Brews; Jean’s SQ; AND Kae’s hangout prove otherwise jfbfb #//Mans would never outright refuse Kae a favor lmao #//Bedo is prolly the only one of those fond of Kae who can readily refuse and actually Hold to it #//But the odds he’ll agree are never zero even still; so Kae reckons it never hurts to try (with Klee &/or other Incentives as backup; ofc)#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. );#//Jean’s prolly the one he can get the most #//Takes advantage of her big sibling longing to dote on sb and Rolls with it #//Once even got one of the Fatui diplomats by playing up the act & batting his big ol baby (periwinkle) blue eye at him #//Worked much better than he intended. Got a whole slew of intel AND a favorite new drinking buddy out of it #//Loves the guy v much #//Would be Mortified if his antics and persuasions get him more than he bargained for tho #//ESP if they still wanna dote on him AFTER he got what he wanted #//Wouldnt know what to do with all the extra affection/good things it’d get him #//Would prolly blue screen and PANIK #//Works best on older folk/those his age #//Folks like Diona and Amber can see through his shit a MILE away; and he can’t BS past them so easy either #//Those of the Winery are like Diluc lmao. He doesn’t even need to put on a lil act or anything; anything he wants is his #//He feels a whole lot guiltier asking them than pestering Diluc though #//Bc he feels relying on them defeats the purpose of staying away from them in the first place #//Gives both them AND himself too much hope that he can come back and be with them more #//At least with Diluc; Diluc isn’t asking him to come back and stay #//If he did tho; Kae would fucken Implode

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falling-drops-of-ichor · 21 days

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Thinking about when foreign incomprehensible love may as well not be love after all to the object of it.

#dripping droplets #cosmic madness #the fact that nobody besides him might ever be able to understand. it's mortifying. i don't like thinking about being in a life where nobody #can tell i love them. and how it's entirely too likely to happen - it takes years of research to learn #how something as simple as a dog loves. it would take someone a lifetime to learn how to tell i love if they didn't already understand it #it's really.... there's so many facets of how I love that would be blazing red flags for most people and for good reason!#9 times out of 10 obsessive protectiveness is a bad thing in the long run! but unfortunately by human standards my love comes with-#-with my protecting you. what sort of love would it be if I'm not making sure you're safe? happy? fed? comfortable?#i struggle so badly with ensuring i do not effectively suffocate him. i don't think someone else could survive me #and that's something i signed up for by becoming this. they are not going to be loved by a human they are going to be loved by a god and #that's really unrecognizable by humans. and so that's why I'm hiding all this in the tags is otherwise i wouldn't put this part of this up

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digitaldiseas3 · 4 months

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there are still good people in the world 🙏

#the mortifying ordeal of asking someone if they already have dinner plans or if they’d like to find somewhere to eat with you #but they said they already have plans with others but said i could come with 🥳#if it was some of the other girls i’d be like oh damn they don’t actually want me there they’re just being polite :/#but w them i can genuinely see it as like. oh they kinda keep to themselves so their plans w others was only bc they happened to be around #whenever someone thought of dinner so they all planned together on the spot #and would genuinely not mind if i joined #PHEW good thing too because i could have had a breakdown tonight!

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