#TYY FOR THE ASK!!

[herequeerexitentialfear]

⭐ for I want to die with you, Wendy, on the streets tonight in an everlasting kiss!

Hehe<3 ty for indulging me to talk about this fic more Dujour!

ive talked about the contents quite a bit, but one thing i haven't touched upon as much is Celia knowing Elena's gonna leave, and how she changes to make up for that- this fic capturing Celia as she steps towards taking over Elenas role of leader and is slowly running out of denial about how Elena will leave. Ft taking about the power structure and leadership pre everlasting kiss. it got long so under the readmore!

Celia is not anything close to a leader, or even in the middle of the social hierarchy, when she turns 17. Elena and Tesoro are both near the top, not enough to be considered in the running leaders of their year, but Elena has an intelligence and fighting talent that overshadows that shes a girl, and Tesoros emotional intelligence and levelheadedness means hes the de facto mediator.

if all 2-3 'leaders'- the people fighting over the top position who have the ability to hold it- are down, Tesoro may be the person who most look to, but Elena would be the true leader, having the intimidation and strength to take control.

Celia is at best, a loyal grunt whos aware of the complexities of reputation and can win a fight enough to mostly avoid being fucked with.

But Elena is nominated for a scholarship by the school. Elena is already spending less time with them and more in what passes for an art studio, planning her portfolio and pieces, spending extra time behind class to make sure she gets those grades.

Elena will no longer be the person to step up as leader.

Tesoro is already cracking under the strain of his home life as well as the emotional baggage piled onto him. he will be important- but he cant be the one at the top.

and this is fine- well its not Celia has to grapple with her best friend leaving but shes happy for her!

Then the race happens and Polpo orchestrates a turf war between street gangs just so Passione can take over and absorb the victor. [timeline here more specifically under the second readmore]

and by the middle there down to one leader, and even less people, then that leader gets hospitalized and Elena is forced to step up while Tesoro is trying to hold everything together and Celia is who Elena leans on, Celia is the one who is trusted by Elena, and Celia is the one who suddenly starts moving upwards.

turns out being head over heels for your leader motivates a low tier grunt to become someone people learn to fear, not to mention fighting for you and your friends lives.

then the war is over, then they can breath- and thats when Everlasting Kiss happens. and it all changes again.

Celia didn't know if she was glad it missed or not. She was already the de facto leader of their little sub-group, and despite the leers, she would be the one to step up when Sovrano was taken out of the game- Hell she had stepped up as he was taken care of in that clinic.

By all rights, Elena should be the next in line, but this scholarship- well, she's been slowly retreating from them, preferring to study and linger in what passed for a studio in school, than hang out in parks and bars and wherever they chose to linger at night, drifting through the stone jungle they called home.

by the beginning of the fic, Celia is hyper-aware of Elena leaving, and has even become the leader next in line herself. Her and Elena are seen by the current leader as of equal status- showing just how far she has risen from effectively being Elena's lackey.

not to act like a Shakespearean dick joke is a truth of the universe but Celia is not born great, she had greatness thrust upon her every time, greatness being leadership. Her mother dies, she is forced to take up the role of parent. Elena is working for that scholarship [and other people die] so she is forced to take on the role as leader.

Celia is willing to make hard choices and sacrifice herself for those she loves and so she ends up carrying the burden of responsibility for others. she will end up stepping up to become a leader not out of a thirst for power, but because those she loves cannot hold the burden themselves.

+ bonus thats actually in the vein of directors commentary:

Yet Sovrano was waiting for something, anticipating action- despite the bandages and stitches, and there had been so much blood, and someone else had managed to knife him, in that last desperate attempt, but missed killing him by a few centimetres.

that 'last desperate attempt' was by Elena. she was so fed up of his shit she shanked him in the middle of a fight but unfortunately she missed.

[dandelionflowery]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers ❤️

Ooh um

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the Harry Potter universe

My friends

Flowers

Vacation!

[vapemaster42069]

f, L, and x !

F: Uhh, I never write dialogue I think the last one I wrote was the cTommy suicide fic lol:

““I always knew you would come back, Tommy,” Dream drawled, “I knew you wouldn’t be able to let it be and leave L’Manburg alone,”

“I did leave L’Manburg, Dream,” Tommy sighed contentedly and closed his eyes, leaning back, “I left them a long time ago,” He raised an arm to his eyes, leaving a mock-salute to Dream, to the rain pummeling the landscape around him, to the country that cast him out and the one he had left behind, “But was never meant to be,”

Tommy raised both of his arms, spreading them like wings and leaning back over the edge. “

I liked this one bc I rewrote it so many times, I thought I finally had the pacing and verbiage that would stick to the tone and convey the weight of the scene :3

L: 12. Deadass. That’s why I post so little, it’s exhausting to do it more than a couple times lol. Like each fic has its own folder in my drive, bc there are so. Many. Documents. I think Factories had the fewest drafts, and that was. 7? I think? I delete some if I hate them or don’t need them anymore, but when I edit I fully rewrite what I’ve made lol. Otherwise I can’t fluidly change everything I want to, and even then I think I might rewrite Factories bc the prose and general structure is. Lacking.

X: Chibo, recently Grian, uhh used cTechno lol. I’m in the middle of a Scarian fic from the Life series, might post that, might not, depends if I finish it lol, but it is. Angst. Major Character Death / Hurt/Comfort / Graphic Depictions of Violence angst. I’m having so much fun w it lol but the dialogue is killing me.

[bronzetomatoes]

🎧

Celebrity Skin - Hole

"Oh, look at my face / My name is 'might have been' / My name is 'never was' / My name's forgotten"

[skyland2703]

12 16 24 34

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

Hahaha no never— I LOVE sleeping!! I *have* slept for 48+ hours tho! XD

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

Mixed feelings. My morning started out really crappily because of some people, but everything after that has just gone well so I’m thinking I should just forget what happened in the morning and get the :3 smile back on my face hehehe

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

Organic chemistry my love— I do love history too, Ive taken it as an optional in college. And English!!

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

I'm trying to think and I don't think I remember any dreams from last night, but there was this one from two nights ago?? It was about this movie i was watching and the two characters in there were having a field day at *my* college XD (the movie was 'Two States'. Yes it was Ananya and Krish) and it was so weird because then my irl friends and I went to some concert?? What the hell why am i even writing this it makes no sense XD

THANKS FOR THE ASK!!!!

[time-slink]

Voidwalker scar pretty please? 👉👈

[ ask game ]

HI STIFFF this actually kicked my ass super hard i haven’t drawn scar in forever

[nekotato]

what's the most fun you've had recently?

Hi!! Ough hmm I have had a lot of fun recently daring to go out drinking and partying more with a few drag friends, but one occasion that left me gasping for air laughing was doing a tutorial round with a new DnD group where at one point we tried to sell our bard to get through a wooden gate....we literally had money to bribe the guard with but nope <3 we are so smart

[rill-is-thinking]

rill rillr illri llllllllll uhm. wallibear. unless you dont know who that is then just. uhm. marcus itzfireworkss

What are you talking about, I LOVE Mr. Bear!

:D

[choccy-milky]

Please, my lady

*kneels down*

Accept these shameful but humble drawings, from my own personal vegetable garden. My people and I (a barely purchased graphics tablet) have not seen sunlight in days. Accept my offering.

Hehe I wanted to draw a silly thing with Clora and the female protagonist of my recent fanfic 👉🏼👈🏼 Catalina doesn't understand love very well and only sees it as a destructive means of manipulation, so she would definitely be impressed to see Sebastian's heartfelt love and how he is so devoted to Clora ❤️

(I'm new at drawing, I promise to improve :'D)

BAHAHA AW THIS IS SO CUTE TY FOR DRAWING CLORA WITH UR MC 😭💖 AND OMG that lil drawing of seb is even holding a daisy.... (those are her favs) love the idea of catalina accusing clora of manipulating seb somehow but no...hes rly just like that

sebastian sallow the proud simp

[ask-funnybunnydoll]

I drew you guys. Hope you like it. :3

R: YAYYY!! MORE ART TO EAT!!

J: Gimme a piece would ya?

P: I already ate it, sorry guys..

[charlottan]

i think bangs would rlly suit you :) you look like a bangs girl

ive definitely thought about it but then id look like my mom 😭

[mrghostrat]

Pero like, what is Crowley dooooooing, dropping big bucks on styluses (styli? What's the plural here?) and.. shipping it to Azi? When did they swap addresses. Are they ~like that already? Did I miss what Crowley does for a living in the BNF Au? Maybe I glossed over it but like (insert the Crowley snake emote with the look over glasses here.) Highly enjoying all your current WIPS. I'm gonna have to read Mon Cheri soon enough. 🥳

no don't worry, you haven't missed anything. considering this is aziraphale's first time mustering up the courage to ask if crowley even has a job, he hasn't dared ask too many personal questions yet. we find out in ch5 🥰

i'm aware there are some details missing that might cause pauses and confusion (especially when it's slow releases like this; it might be a little less jarring to someone who binges it once it's finished), but i do quite like the reality of filtering in little bits of information slowly over time, and letting a whole picture fall into place after a few chapters.

like when you're talking to mates over DM, you'll refer to old conversations and jokes because you both know what's going on, and you aren't going to give full exposition before everything you say. having their conversation be a little gappy like that makes it feel (imo) like we're actually reading through somebody's chat logs, and learning about those people as we go. it's part of what makes the genre fun to me 🥰

[vapemaster42069]

6, 25, and 77

6. "Maybe he was just broken. Maybe he wasn’t meant to have friends or family, maybe he was destined to be alone, maybe it was futile that he try to reach out. Maybe there was something intrinsic about him that repulsed anyone he met, something vile or broken or wrong that he couldn't see. Maybe he was just a failure at socializing, the say way he was a failure at pretty much everything. Or maybe he was just being dramatic." <- idk if i'll ever post this one lol :P (I also don't know how long a line is? So I just pasted a couple sentences)

25. Editing! Or, I guess re-writing, because usually I end up scrapping or moving so much that I just re-write entire pieces. But it's so satisfying to smooth out a piece of writing, or to re-write knowing exactly where you're meant to go because you've done it before. I usually really struggle with first drafts, so having the direction of a first attempt makes the following ones so much more satisfying and fun.

77. I guess I like it because it takes a measure of pressure off of me. My characters don't have to be up to the reader's standards, the canon ones do. my worldbuilding isn't being scrutinized, someone else's is. It's much less stressful when you know that the main elements of your story are already loved or generally accepted, than when you're throwing smth original in front of readers and hoping they'll like it, yk? It's easier to write knowing that whoever is reading searched for what you wrote, or for the tags or fandom or smth related, and will probably enjoy it.

[softleesam]

What are you in the mood for tonight?

hmm

I'm caught between wanting cuddles and back scratchies a lil too close to my sides or wanting to be a brat and show off my tkl spots until I get wrecked dgabsh

either would do really😌

[literalite]

🔪 LILITH PLEASE FEED ME

lilith vatore in🔪 murder mystery

i stared at my screen blankly for like ten minutes before it hit me.... jaded chainsmoking genius private eye lilith who has seen so fucking much and is kind of just bored with it all. she needs some kind of arch nemesis or something

[habken]

ANDOWNXEJCINE I LOVE YOU *explodes*

-🐭

please don’t explode </3