What is your OC's love language?
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a story that ends in blood
The world has always been unkind, and when you have turned to yourself for comfort you have come face to face with an empty pit which seems to be laughing. You don’t care if it kills you but once you find someone whom you love and who loves you back, you will make sure nothing happens to them. They are yours. You will make a tear in this world and create a new place for you and your love if it comes to that. Because it has always been about love, and it is how it always ends.
consumption of a heart unloved
Here’s a dining table, here’s a set of plates. Here’s your heart, red and bursting with love. You have tried to love people all your life, but no one seems to understand you. Your own mother perhaps forgot to teach you how to protect yourself, maybe people whom you trusted chose to look the other way when all you wanted was a hand full of love. All you want is someone to take from you, all you want is someone to dig in your heart and eat it and kiss you afterwards - bloody and red. You want them to tell you that you are what they have been looking for, you want to be the one who ends their hunger.
an undoing influence
Can someone tell you what to do? You have been carrying so much love within you for so long it is starting to turn into anger (why does it matter, all you see is red anyways) and you have been dragging this body through each day and every night you are split open on your bed and it is so so so lonely. If someone were to walk in while you were on your bed that way and they stitched you back in a new way, lining the seams with their love and kisses, you’d probably find this dreary world a little more bearable. You want someone to turn you over and over until you look in the mirror and see yourself looking back at yourself with a gentleness which has been lacking in you since forever.
violent devotion
Everyone seems to think you are faithless, but the thing is you haven’t yet found someone who will bring you to your knees and make you raise your head in reverence. This world has stopped bringing you joy, you want more of the divine. You want to dedicate your entire existence to someone; you want to make them realise they are not something terrible, make them see just how much beauty they are bringing to this world. You want to be the only one for them, the only one they have chosen to love. There’s a god shaped pit inside of you and only they can fit in it. And what if they choose to walk away? Didn’t I say this was violent devotion?
a knife called grief
You have left your house, you have left those people behind, but what are you going to do about the memories which have taken root in you? You can run but not without them. You want someone to sit with you on this cool marble floor while the sun burns everything. You want them to cut your rotten heart and theirs too. You want to sit with it in front of you, let them see you with all your flaws, which haven’t been your fault but you have been made to believe so, and you want them to love you anyways. Because you know you’d do that for them.
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x. he spun the stars on his fingernails (regular version)
self ship playlist for me n huffie composed of more contemporary music <3 i think this one is maybe the most representative of my s/i story tbh!!
lyrics under cut!!!
the ballad of mona lisa - panic! at the disco
- a lonely speaker in a conversation / her words are swimming through his ears again / there's nothing wrong with just a taste of what you've paid for
she had the world - panic! at the disco
~ she held the world upon a string / but she didn't ever hold me / spun the stars on her fingernails / but it never made her happy / 'cause she couldn't ever have me
remember my name - mitski
- 'cause i need somebody to remember my name / after all that i can do for them is done / i need someone to remember me
when you were young - the killers
- he doesn't look a thing like jesus / but he talks like a gentlemen / like you imagined when you were young
shadow - bearstronaut
- i'm the one you want in the palm of your hand / running down your back at every word's end / you can let me down, put me in my place / although you've had enough, there's still more i can take
i will - mitski
- i will wash your hair at night / and dry it off with care / i will see your body bare / and still i will live here
stay soft - mitski
- it's why i've arrived, your sex god / here to take you where / you need to go / to where the dark remembers you
genghis khan - miike snow
- i know there's no form / and no labels to put on / to this thing we keep / and dip into when we need
animal - neon trees
- here we go again / we're like sick animals, we play pretend / you're just a cannibal and i'm afraid i won't get out alive / no, i won't sleep tonight
casual affair - panic! at the disco
- break involuntary ties / a secret so the spies / could never find us out / stay for as long as you have time / so the mess that we'll become / leaves something to talk about
kiss from a rose - seal
- there used to be a graying tower alone on the sea / you became the light on the dark side of me
pure love - hayley williams
- if i want pure love / must stop acting so tough / (i give a little, you give a little) / (we get a little, sentimental)
far too young to die - panic! at the disco
- well i never really thought that you'd come tonight / while the crown hangs heavy on either side / give me one last kiss while we're far too young to die
resistance - muse
- will they find our hiding place / is this our last embrace / or will the walls start caving in?
fear the future - st. vincent
- when the war start anew / in our bed, in our room / i'll come for you, come for me too
starlight - muse
- far away / this ship is taking me far away / far away from the memories / of the people who care if i live or die
deus in absentia - ghost
- the world is on fire / and you are here to stay and burn with me / a funeral pyre / and we are here to revel forever more
parachute - sean ono lennon
- 'cause if i have to die tonight / i'd rather be with you / cut the parachute before the dive
skyfall - adele
- let the sky fall / when it crumbles / we will stand tall / face it all together
on my own - les misérables olc
- without him / i feel his arms around me / and when i lose my way i close my eyes / and he has found me
trade mistakes - panic! at the disco
- i feel marooned in this body / deserted, my organs can go on without me / you can't fly these wings / you can't sleep in this box with me
haunted by the kiss - talkfine, starkid
- my heart won't stop beating / hoping that this kiss / will never ever become a scar / you're in my soul / you're tormenting me / if you're suffering as much as i am / please, won’t you tell me
maps - yeah yeah yeahs
- made off / don't stray / well, my kind's your kind / i'll stay the same / pack up / don't stray
sweetest goodbye - maroon 5
- where you are seems to be / as far as an eternity / outstretched arms, open hearts / and if it never ends, then when do we start?
high - the cure
- and when i see you happy as a girl / that lives in a world of make-believe / it makes me pull my hair all out / to think i could've let you leave / and when i see you take the same sweet steps / you used to take, i know / i'll keep on holding you in my arms so tight / they'll never let you go (never let you go)
dig - incubus
- we all have a weakness / but some of ours are easy to identify / look me in the eye / and ask for forgiveness / we'll make a pact to never speak that word again / yes, you are my friend
two slow dancers - mitski
- it would be a hundred times easier / if we were young again / but as it is / and it is / we're just two slow dancers, last ones out
in our bedroom after the war - stars
- it's us, yes, we're back again / here to see you through 'til the day's end / and if the night comes and the night will come / well at least the war is over
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