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whentherewerebicycles · 8 months

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I am really tired of being in a bad mood!! I wish I were having a fun week at work doing the job I love instead of wasting all this time! I hate being stuck in a negativity spiral but I’m just so socially overstimulated and annoyed I can’t quite manage to wrench myself out of it. going to gently cajole myself into saying five good things:

I bought several pairs of cute pants today that I hope will alleviate some of my clothes anxiety esp as we transition into fall. I kinda maybe need to start making myself go on dates again and removing the outfit anxiety will make that a little bit easier on me.

I got to have hot pot for dinner with liz and alex because now they live five minutes away from me and I can have dinner with them anytime I want 😭😭😭😭😭 we giggled a lot and also the food was so good

I didn’t want to walk the dogs when I got home because it was so dark and wet out but I felt bad for leaving them alone for so long today. we just took a short walk around the neighborhood but I felt better

I had a really nice time talking with my work bff today when we were both skipping one of the sessions. she’s just interesting and funny and fun to talk to! we have clicked since day one despite our age difference and I feel like we’re probably going to become actual friends and not just work friends. we were supposed to coordinate our hybrid schedules so only one of us would be in our shared office at a time but we agreed that we like sharing the space so much we want to keep coming in on the same days. anyway it’s just nice to have somebody you like hanging out with at work.

I had a couple intense downswings into Very Bad Feelings today that felt out of proportion to the situations at hand. this was not a good thing in itself haha but it did feel like the kind of volatility I associate with PMS. my tracking app thinks I should be starting my period tomorrow or the next day and I am just like. on my knees praying we are about to start things up again. I think the weather is going to be nice again but today it was an intensely gloomy rainy day that really felt like The First Day of Fall and idk I just like the symbolism of my period arriving as a way to mark the end of this weird intensely unhappy summer and (hopefully) the beginning of a different season of my life. who knows! please beam START BLEEDING energy in the direction of my uterus thanks!

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mentally-illenial · 1 year

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My husband's friend and his family decided to drive out from San Antonio last night instead of sometime today, which is cool with me. They got here sometime after I went to bed, and I'm up and getting ready for work before anyone else is up lol, so I won't see them until this afternoon after work anyway 🤷‍♀️

Today should be very busy; due to natural forces outside of our control (crazy weather affecting the honey flow and general bee behavior) and forces within the owners control which were simply not managed well (the farm's needs and general functions being neglected due to a nasty divorce between the two owners 💔), bee pick up season has been a delayed, chaotic mess. A lot of pick ups were pushed back to this weekend; we had a few pick ups yesterday, which is unusual, just to lighten the burden. But we're really rolling them out today and tomorrow. And I've been expected to help run the kitchen while the kitchen lead is on vacation while also somehow being full time at retail. Yesterday I tried to get into the kitchen early to assess needs and make a list for the girls working that day; thankfully the butt-ton of work I did last week paid off and they had the bare minimum of prep to do. I still had a ridiculous grocery list to gather after work, and the order I placed for equipment from Webstaurant still hasn't arrived, nor the parts I ordered for the espresso machine that someone managed to lose 😒. We may not have lattes for breakfast service tomorrow lol. But I made a fresh batch of honeybuns, and had to trust that these kids, who have been coddled by the kitchen lead (their mom) for over a year while they worked in this kitchen, can figure out some basic prep and cleaning tasks. I had to teach them how to read a very basic recipe yesterday. 😭 They're good kids, just not good employees lol. I wouldn't normally care except that I am being held responsible for the well being of the cafe right now, and everyone else's mistakes are a reflection of my leadership.

I can't be in the kitchen again today, despite us being open earlier and longer to accommodate it being a Friday and a bee pick up day. Again, I'm going to try to jump in there as soon as I arrive this morning and assess the situation, then craft a task list and pray for the best. The kids are alone for the first three hours, then they are joined by another inefficient coworker lol. Again, I love this gal; she's one of my favorite people at the farm in general. But she's an unattached college kid who doesn't really care if the day is a nightmare or not, so she isn't going to be much support in making sure things run smoothly. During our last pick up, when I was supposed to be in the kitchen, I had to take over her duties in retail organizing and initiating the bee pick up event, because she simply didn't care. She showed up late and put in zero effort to initiate the event, let alone understand what was needed of her to communicate properly with the customers. The kitchen lead and I had to run bee pick up while the bee keepers caught up, it was a nightmare. And the girls were left to the few but steady customers that came to the cafe, and it was overwhelming for them when it needn't have been. They should be more than capable by now of running the place on their own, but obviously they weren't the issue that week. I'm just hoping to glob that they can hold on for dear life today lol. I'll be in the kitchen for breakfast service tomorrow, then back to retail to help run pick ups in the afternoon.

I'm not exhausted or stressed at all, why do you ask??

Puppy tax:

#personal fitblr #2023 me #bee farm

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kexing · 8 months

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Mj, seeing our boys just enjoying being in Seoul. They deserve it so much, and I'm so emotional seeing them enjoy the food and the scenery. 😭

(it's probably because of the cocktail I just had, but whatever. I'm at home and I don't have to work tomorrow)

Now, if only they'd come to our side of the world. I'd totally find a way for us to see them.

Here's to our favorite boys. 🍻 May ForceBook's success continue for many years to come. 🙏🧧🍀🤞

P.S. Someone, please stop me from buying the Only Friends postcards. I REALLY don't need those. 😮‍💨 (even if they're autographed & Book is wearing glasses *sigh*)

hi bestieeee!!! same!!! i’m kind of having a bad week but seeing them happy is already doing wonders to my mental health aldkskkdsk thanks forcebook for the serotonin!!!

nooo it’s okay!! i’m glad i’m not the only one who gets legit emotional with their success!! like. we know how hard it was for them and how much they deserve the best so it really means a lot to us!

oh my gosh. it’d be AMAZING if we could see them live!! awww maybe some day!! pray circle 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

MAY FORCEBOOK’S SUCCESS CONTINUE FOR MANY YEARS TO COME INDEED!!!!!!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 it will!!!!!

aldkskkdkskd omg??? i need mew’s photocard!! 🤣🤣🤣

i’m an indulgent friend. i think you need them too!! 🩷

#ellasaru12 #mj got mail!

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gorjvs · 2 years

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Happy Birthday to me!!

I’ll be officially 20 years old at like 2-something am lol

It’s either 2:27 am or 2:37 am

I always forget.

No more “teen” at the end 😭 it’s insane. I have a lot of things I need to do like laundry and cleaning up my house for dinner 😖

It’ll be fun though, I have my favorite cousin with me and my best friend will be coming over as well! I’m excited to have them both here.

I’m not suree what to wear yet, I definitely wish I went clothes shopping earlier this week but that’s okay I have plenty of time to take photos later.

I’ve just been sitting here in the living room thinking of how this year has gone so far, it’s definitely been a ride but a good one. I have a lot of things to look forward to like applying for college classes and working on my driver’s license (finally)

I think I’m at a good point in my life where I can just sit back and soak in everything like a sponge. I also have a date tomorrow! I’m planning on going over to his place and have a movie night :)

I think it’ll be fun. I like trying new things and meeting new people (on my own accord of course)

I pray that the rest of my year will go smoothly and even if it doesn’t go as plan that I won’t be discouraged by it.

I have a lot of friends and family that I love and appreciate and they love and appreciate me as well. I’m really lucky 🍀

If someone asked me what I wanted for my birthday I would have to say “I wanna get my ears re-pierced” I love earrings and it sucks that I’m one of those people allergic to fake metals so I can’t wear many for too long but it’s still so much fun to wear them.

Thanks for listening and Happy 20th Birthday Lia 💛

#it’s my birthday #happy birthday #happy birthday to me #I’m turning 20 #did you know i have the same birthday as Janet Jackson #anime #manga #fanart #cardcaptor sakura #art mutuals #digital art #my art #my art lol #puella magi madoka magica #2022 #spring 2022

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baekhvuns · 2 years

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Godddd I'm glad they wore their previous fits to Daegu, because I would simply not survive another new and ILLEGAL outfit from Seonghwa.

EXACTLY MMMH COVER JUSEYO or better a mash up of Move and Mmmh I'm just saying I have a vision okay. I saw Mingi destroyed people it's not the first time and I'm not surprised because Mingi I'M LOOOOOKING 👁👁

Lmao your scenario, as long as he doesn't ditch me or scream into my ear we can hang out. And what are we talking about?

Makes me wanna rewatch TVD tbh lol. To me it was a perfect mixnbetween Twilight and True Blood - have you seen it? Twilight was very PG despite everything and their vamps were laughable, TB went all in and it was explicit. TVD had both, teenage angst, love triangles, angst, but more sex and blood just like TB.

SPOILER ALERT: Okay so you mean who was "A" in PLL? MULTIPLE FUCKING PEOPLE worked on the A team, but the main baddie was - brace yourself - Spencer's BR'I'SH LOST EVIL TWIN?!?! I thought the ending to Gossip Girl was ridiculous and out of pocket, but this reveal was much worse, so anticlimactic. But the show was crazy like seriously killing people left and right and in the weirdest way? Kidnapping, torturing, assaulting

It's Seonghwa affecting me, I'm going crazy, he's cringy amd cheesy and so am I now, that's why we're #married.

The Bad Prosecutor is on my looooooong watch list, how do you like it?

When Seonghwa mentioned they crossed paths with Taemin and greeted each other... we will never see it. At least they stood next to Minho on camera!

Yes yes SM THIS RIGHT HERE!!! Go full spooky please. Some of the photos reminded me of Wuthering Heights, when she was in that white dress, the potential was so biiiiiig. The apple, she's like the Snow White villain

I know that Jongho recommended Tomorrow on his PM, so 👀 seriously lol, but the hips didn't lure me instantly, on the contrary I got into Hwa because of his softness 😩💝

I know there are a lot of pairings in your villain fic and I don't mind it, I love a slow burn! But there's only ONE TRUE PAIRING REMEMBER THAT. Ooof yeah I'm bracing yourself for so many funerals...

More sinister songs with a sick beat, please! I love when they start slow, almost seductive but then explode, Taste's dance break is gonna slap sooooo hard. Reminds me of Sunmi's Heroine, her voice at the beginning 😳 and then we go dancing

BAEK FANSITE ERA PLSSSSS l. You

My friends said TMA was a shitshow and I could even tell from the screen, but it was nice to see everyone. Daegu was cool though! Friends were so overwhelmed I can't blame them, so many pretty people to look at

Us Also I live for the I.N sign next to it uwu

WHY SO FCUKEN CUTE WHEN LOOKING LIKE THAT - and a praying circle for Cyberpunk Halloween performance. Also I'm obsessed with this and I need to give him a smooch I'm afraid... - DV 💖

hi hello!!! this is so late i was busy liking wooyoung’s biting tweets <3

Godddd I'm glad they wore their previous fits to Daegu, because I would simply not survive another new and ILLEGAL outfit from Seonghwa.

no bc they looked so good 😭😭 NO SERIOUSLY IF HE WORE SOMETHING ELSE I WOULD NOT HAVE SURVIVED 😭😭😭🔫

EXACTLY WHEN ARE WE GETTING IT PARK SEONGHWA U GOM WE NEED THE MMMH OR PEACHES COVER RIGHT NOW,,, omg him covering move or want, mmmh or nothing on me (with ribbons <3) OMF PLS SONG MINGI IS A MAN OF ART IM FHQKDJWK EVERY STAGE THIS MAN IS A WHORE MY EYES WIDE OPEN FOR HIM WE ARE L O O K I N G he rly had it all 😭😭😭😭

Lmao your scenario, as long as he doesn't ditch me or scream into my ear we can hang out. And what are we talking about?

LMFAOOOO FQMDBALBFAM i would like to believe u guys were talking about how to escape the house but he walked too close and u did the squint and asked him to “dont walk too close to me u coward” fbwndbns

ive only watched the first twilight movie i could not make it past the first 😭😭😭 AND NO I HAVENT I LOOKED IT UP ITS QUITE A OLDER ONE,,, pls twilight was def so laughable but carlisle cullen 👁👁 I CANT FIND THE EDIT I WANTED I TRIED FOR AN HOUR ISGABGSKS IT WAS THE BEST ONE BUT I WILL FIND IT but tvd,,, this edit made me want to watch it bc how is he so pretty fbsndsn

A OR X WHATEVER IT WAS,, A WHOLE TEAM?????????? STOPPPP WHAT THE FUCK IM SORRY I JUST WATCHED THE ENDING AND DBWNBDWK WHAT JUST HAPPENED 😭😭😭😭😭😭 KILLING SM PEOPLE HOW WAS THIS ALLOWED ON A SHOW BACK IN THE DAY FHWJDHWK STOP ITS SO FUN BUT SO CHAOTICALLY WEIRD 😭😭😭

It's Seonghwa affecting me, I'm going crazy, he's cringy amd cheesy and so am I now, that's why we're #married.

AMEN TO THIS !!!! AMEN !!!!

The Bad Prosecutor is on my looooooong watch list, how do you like it?

it’s actually better than what i expected, i watched ep 3 and i thought that was big but then i watched ep4 aNd WENT WILD FOR A LITTLE WHILE THE ACTING OF EVERYONES REALLY REALLY GOOD SOLID 9/10 ATM FOR ME

When Seonghwa mentioned they crossed paths with Taemin and greeted each other... we will never see it. At least they stood next to Minho on camera!

EXACTLY THAT SM PLS HIRE ME AS UR MV DIRECTOR 😭😭😭 WILL MAKE BIG BANK AND HAVE SOLID CB’S GUARANTEED,,, omg no bc the concept photos are better than the mv itself,,, the art behind it was so so stunning only if we saw that same energy being put into the mv,,, NO UR SO RIGHT HER AND SHE COULD EASILY PLAY THE PSYCHO MALEFICENT

I know that Jongho recommended Tomorrow on his PM, so 👀 seriously lol, but the hips didn't lure me instantly, on the contrary I got into Hwa because of his softness 😩💝

jongho is a soohyuk stan idc idc this man has TASTE seonghwa’s shakira hips didn’t WORK on u BUT IT DID DURING DV HUH 🔫🔫🔫

I know there are a lot of pairings in your villain fic and I don't mind it, I love a slow burn! But there's only ONE TRUE PAIRING REMEMBER THAT. Ooof yeah I'm bracing yourself for so many funerals...

bestie the pairings u would not expect bdwnbdkw just know seonghwa is getting married to someone when he meets y/n <3 y/n was exiled <3 soohyuk as his father <3 dark magic <3 its reallt cute bc y/n always wears black and has a huge hat that covers her face and then theres hwa and his family who participate in activities whole theres that looming darkness in the bacK FHWKFHWKD ONE TRUE PAIRING WBFKWB I TRULY WONDER WHO THAT IS FHENFJN a lot of funerals, flashbacks, the pain 🤌🏼😮‍💨

here is a little spoiler 🤲🏼

“i do not trust anyone in this palace, not you, not me.”

“and why is that?“ you hear his shoes clack against the wood.

“…because i’ve seen lies change….i’ve seen truths change.” you pause to lean back, eyes on the glamorous chandelier that twinkled as the wind it grazed it gently. “…i’ve seen god change.”

“but if you changed,” you whisper, eyes stuck on that one teardrop diamond that twinkled at you. “i would cease to exist, your majesty.”

EXACTLY!!!!!!! ALL OF THAT !!!!! WHEN ITS SLOW AND TRANSITIONS INTO SEXY AND THEN BOOM VILLAIN 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 MORE OF THAT PLS omg do u remember history’s might just die 😮‍💨🤲🏼 WHEN WILL THOSE DAYS COME BACK omg sunmi’s heroine is so nostalgic,,, her vocals were truly the best there idk if she’ll ever come back to that but truly the best era,,, if u have any good those type of song recs 🤲🏼🤲🏼 i would say! imagine dragon’s bad liar relates to our villain fic!!

BAEK FANSITE ERA PLSSSSS l. You

BRMQBDKQDHKW I WILL TAKE MY DSLR AND I WILL BECOME AN FANSITE IM NOT EVEN GONNA LIE IM GONNA ZOOM IN EXCESSIVELY JUST TO GET THE HIP THRUSTS FOR U

it honestly looked like 😭😭 i heard a lot ppl said and even in the performances the camera work was absolutely shitty, they didn’t even capture the transitions for songs for so many groups properly and zoomed out in the best times 😭😭😭 RHWNDBSM DAEGU FESTIVAL SEEMED TO MUCH FUN FROM THE KAI PURPLE ERA TO WOOYOUNGS CLAP BACK FBFBFH LOVED EVERYTHING ABOUT IT BUT????? MF ATEEZ ALREADY WERE ON THEIR WAY HOME WE NEVER GOT THE END STAGE WHERE THEY COULD HAVE HELD KAIS HAND I WOULD LOST MY SHIT WHEKQJDKQ

Us Also I live for the I.N sign next to it uwu

hwa i.n interactions WHEN

WHY SO FCUKEN CUTE WHEN LOOKING LIKE THAT - and a praying circle for Cyberpunk Halloween performance. Also I'm obsessed with this and I need to give him a smooch I'm afraid... - DV 💖

nO BC HOW DARE THIS MAN,, this man is so embarrassing i want

I WOULD like to side line hwa for a second BC SONG MINGI IS 😭😭😭😭

AND THIS???? THIS ATINY DESERVES EVERYTHING

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

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tokyokookmin · 2 years

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Hi, I need your help :( I had depression and anxiety for about a month, because of that I can not force myself or just push myself to attend our online classes. I do not attended those days because I really can't. I feel empty, drained, lost, uneasy, nervous and afraid of tomorrow, and these feelings are slowly eating me. I can't think of anything to do, and the projects or modules aren't helping, so I deactivated all of my account thinking that it will be a great help for me to breathe and to reflect. To find my happiness. But till now, I still can't find it. I don't really know what to do and I know that our semester will end in a week thus I reactivated my accout to grasp infos what happened on all of the days that I'm absent and I found out that all of my teachers are about to start to compute our grades. And here I am, haven't done anything. I don't want to have a failing grades😭😭😭 What should I do? What should I tell to my teachers beside from the depression that I am still experiencing for them to not give me a failing grades and a chance to pass my pending requirements? What reason should I give to them about why I did not attend our class or why I will just pass my papers or projects on this upcoming Tuesday or Wednesday? I really can't tell them the reason why, especially since I am still not healed, and my mind is still not working properly. Please help me, what should I suppose to tell? I am scared of disappointment. I am afraid of rejections. I am afraid of failing grades. I am afraid of everything. I am scared of my parents when they found out about this. I feel sorry for them. Please. Please, help me🥺😟😟

I am a Senior Highschool student, specifically grade 12. Please, help me. I'm really scared, I don't know what to do😢😔

Hi anon ❤️ oh my, my heart sanked when I was reading this 🥺 This is so sad ☹️.

First of all, I just wanted to assure you that everything is fine, it's going to be okay. The lockdown for the past 2 years has definitely took a toll on almost everyone. Especially being a student and having to join daily online classes, staring at a screen, it does feel unmotivating. It isn't only you who is suffering from this this condition, many are. Take a deep breath and tell yourself that you are witty, brave and courageous 🤍 it helps, trust me!

You are in 12th grade and you have and still are going through your depression and anxiety. You have been assigned to plenty of homeworks, modules and projects which you didn't finish I suppose. Depression and anxiety is a common issue in almost every teen during that era of theirs. Teachers may not or may excuse you. But since these past two years, online classes has been conducted and I'm so sure that many teachers are aware that it isn't effective as face to face classes.

Therefore, I suggest you to talk about your condition to your school counselor, class teacher or any teacher that you are comfortable with sharing private information. Do share your condition with your parents first, tell it your mom, there's nobody else who you can trust the most other than your own mother. Not even your bestest friend. I beg you to not reveal these sorts of things towards any of your classmates. People take advantage of things, remember that! I'm only advising for your best 🤍

It's time to step anon, no matter how much you don't feel up to it, do it and finish it. Try to complete all of the assignments which you think are the most important. Then complete the rest. Ask for a date of extension, I'm sure your teachers will agree to it! Ask for help from your parents to complete it, ask your siblings and get information from Google. I'm sure you can do it! Pull all nighters if you're up to it but you know your mind and body well so it's okay, sleep is necessary for us!b

I'm giving you lots of hope and I pray for good results! I love you so much, please don't be sad and I want to see you happier! Im really grateful that you chose my blog as a safe corner to reveal what your going through. Love you lots 💜💜 .xx

#anon #love yourself #keep hope #anonymous #☹️🥺#thank you 💗💗💗

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tawaifeddiediaz · 4 years

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9-1-1 Season 3 Episode 13 Live Blog

I’m quite aware the episode was leaked so a lot of people may have already watched it

But I’m hoping y’all will watch it on FOX so we get the ratings xD

Also, I just found out XfinityOnCampus also has 9-1-1 streaming on Global! I didn’t even know I got that channel here xD

I’m so exCITED FOR THIS OMG

OKAY BOOMER AHAHA

Jesse is literally everyone’s one of my employees.

oh shit. They’re gonna take Lane 5. RECIPE for disaster.

WATCH ME NEVER GO BOWLING AGAIN

YES THAT’S MY BABY’S IDEA. BUCK WINS.

No Eddie can’t let Buck enjoy the win

Also, the terminator voice? Way hotter than it needs to be. Go away.

I KNEW IT. HE WAS GONNA FIRE JESSE. What an icon. I need him on my team

Camping 😭

Michael and Hen’s friendship? Living!

May :(

Athena is such an amazing mom. Maybe I love her.

ALBERT OMG. 😭😭😭💀

Brotherly love I see.

Albert do not throw this in here. this is drama that did not need to be here.

Wouldn’t be the same but it’d still be beautiful

This is so bittersweet but I love him

Eddie :(

I literally just wrote Buck asking Eddie “Do you love her?” And I’m....winning so hard!

Hen’s sass 😂😂😂

ALSO EDDIE’S WORDS. TOMORROW ISNT PROMISED TO ANYONE? BY BOTH THESE PEOPLE WHO WERE THERE WHEN SHANNON DIED? my baby needs a hug

Also do we find out why he clean shaved? I need to know.

Harry and Bobby? I prayed to see these babies together.

ALSO. WHERE IS BUCK.

Though, I do remember a pattern where the less a character appears in some episodes, the way more they appear in further episodes SO.

I’ve won but at what cost

“Open Concept only works if you have a maid” that’s a mood.

Why would he stand in front of her

OH HE SHOT HIMSELF. WHY HE BE POINTING IT AT SOMEONE HE DIDNT INTEND TO SHOOT AT

Eddie 😂 is he in charge with cap gone?

BUCK? why he sound so...hoarse?

Also them both? I love him.

The lunch date? I absolutely stan these two 🤡🤡🤡 the best crumbs.

“I haven’t had a proper meal since Bobby left” me during this quarantine

THE ENTIRE BLOODY TRUCK. that is a health violation is so many ways omg.

BUCK’S SMILE WHEN CHIM SAID HE WAS ABOUT TO TELL MADDIE HE LOVES HER. 🥰🥰😍☺️🙃

Maybe I’m just in love with one Evan ‘Buck’ Buckley

Bobby is so heated. 🥺🥺 I love it. We see so much controlled!Bobby but we need a little more of that control slipping

Can I give Harry a hug. And May. And Athena and Bobby and Michael.

Maddie and Josh spilling details? My love. This friendship 😍

Hen and Athena? I missed their talks.

Hen has all the advice I’ve ever needed in my life.

Wait though. Could we get an Athena-Eddie scene where they talk about losing a parent? Talk about how he got Christopher accustomed to it.

It’s different, but Chris is Harry’s friend...I’d love scenes between them about having lost their parents.

Chim 🥺🥺🥺😍😍🥰

Now I want to go to a revolving restaurant

Okay well there goes that fantasy

Trust their super important date to go this way.

I want to see my baby, where’s Buck.

I didn’t even know how much I needed to see Maddie and Chim in action together!

It’s like, we see Buck and Eddie in sync together all the time, and it’s amazing but seeing Maddie and Chimney? ICONIC COUPLE

Bobby and Michael’s friendship gets me every time. I’m crying already 😭

Oh it’s Jeff Goldblum (it’s an ad don’t sweat it. Though I would die if he appeared on the show)

THERE IT IS. BUCK. I MIGHT. JUST. CRY. I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE NEXT EPISODE but what happened to Eddie Begins?

also, why do they insist on taking two week breaks as if we haven’t suffered enough. We don’t even have anything to do to keep us company during this time.

I loved it 🥺😭

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carmenbrandyyy · 7 years

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Sometimes I feel like I'm in a giant room made of mirrors, where I tell myself in the reflection my deepest sorrows and pain; but as I break down, the words just bounce off the mirrors and hit me again. My depression feels a whole lot like that. Often, I find my emotions so crippling, I give in to it all and just dwell within them-- because it's comfortable.. they feel familiar. So I stay in my little corner of shame until someone helps me get out of it. The problem with help sometimes, is it enables me to continue this behavior. Get hurt + cry + run to someone who loves me + feel better + run to Jesus = semi-temporary healing. And the problem with that formula, is that Jesus isn't the #1 answer. He just contributes. And that's not the God I know 😭 Why do I sabotage myself into staying hurt? Why do I enjoy this depressive state???? Why can't I let the Lord tell me who I AM in His eyes, and not what the world tells me? More importantly, why do I choose to believe the lies? I don't know.. but this has me hurting. Today is fleeting, and I know the sun will rise tomorrow. But I don't want to continue to live like this. Pray for me friends! I'm in a vicious cycle of reminding my heart about the trash that once resided in it. And that's just so unhealthy. I know I'm meant to be a light, but sometimes all I want to do is hide it under a bushel. And we all know that doesn't work. So pray for me. I'm a work in progress. A recovering perfectionist. But by grace through faith, I know this trial will soon find its end. (at Franklin, Tennessee)

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baekhvuns · 2 years

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oh my god.

how long... how long has it been?!!?!? MISS BAEKHVUNS KIRA I MISSED U SO MUCH!!! I hope you have been doing well for the past weeks..month??? when I wasn't here.. and if you were miserable then that's understandable it's because I wasn't here but now I am so stop being sad UR STARRY ANON IS BACKKK!!!!

god i missed it here so much?? but anyway in the past month i wasn't here, i did so much!! i have finally graduated this year of high school being the 2nd in the class with an average of 9,92 (out of 10) so i see this with such an achievement honestly!! i have also been trying to love myself more and give myself more confidence which i think it's working out and im finally getting out of my introvert shell which again i didn't think it was possible 💀 im even going out tomorrow with some friends.. oh and i also started talking with a boy who has a car from last summer and i can't wait for him to drive me around when he gets home in august🤭 all is fair in love and war

and it's summer!! i honestly pray this summer will be good since it will be my last one as a high school student and then ill have exams and shit - im already preparing for them bc i don't want May 2023 to come and me being left in the dark bc I did not study at all.. but well I hope it will be good, I'm planning a lot so I hope I can get at least 2 or 3 things done off my bucket list heh

but how abt u?? how have u been? have ur exams went well? do u still have more and if so i wish u get the best results ever!!! how's your summer so far? do u have any plans for it this year? and how is my favorite bodyguard hwa fic going 👀 RIGHT I REMEMBER U SAYING smth abt u getting a svt ticket?? did u end up getting it?

well that's it for my long message i hope this message finds u well and u don't get annoyed by it 💀 - 🌃

omg

oh my god.

LMFAOOOO I THINK ITS BEEN A MONTH?? i was yes very miserable bc park seonghwa <3 nVDKSBDNS FINALLY UR BACK HOW WAS UR EXAMS AND STUFF and that shitty ass guy 🔫

OH MY GOD??? CONGRATULATIONS??? WHAT THE FUCK??? YOUR SO SMART???? GIMME UR BRAIN RN???? WHAT?? THE??? FUCK??? omg love this new starry anon era that hOPEFULLY BETTER LAST FOR A LONG TIME !!!! oh 👁👁 which car u say 👁👁 JCJCKSNM UR HAVING UR SUMMER ROMANCE 😩😩✨ YN ERA INCOMING

omg pls enjoy your last year so much,,,, you’ll be taking it for granted but genuinely have so much fun pls !!!!! (this comes from someone who never got to enjoy it bc miss rona) skip a class or two and go get some food and drinks and fool around in the parking lots 😭😭😭 !!!! LIKE GO CRAZY GO STUPID FUN i hope it’ll all be good!! you’ll pass and from ur credentials welcome to the scholarship club <3

omg bestie i had some really fun times staying home for the past two months i had crazy grades the gpa bOOSTED 😭😭😭 MY EXAMS WENT RLY WELL !!!! fr was bc of u fbndbd thank u so much 😭😭 oh GIRLIE SUMMER IS NEVER IN CANADA ITS ALWAYS WINTER COLD AND ITS RAINING ATM 😭😭 but summer will be fun!! lots of travelling!! OH OH BODYGUARD IS GOING 😮‍💨😮‍💨 SO GOOD BUT I HAVE ANOTHER SERIES IM GETTING DISTRACTED BY FBFBKFHD NO BESTIE SVT TICKETS ARE SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE ITS 700$ PER PERSON ????????? WHAT THE HELL 😭😭😭

well that's it for my long message i hope this message finds u well and u don't get annoyed by it 💀 - 🌃

omg the “hope this message finds you well” gave me ptsd <//3 LMFAOOO HEY IM NOT ANNOYED DW DW WELCOME BACK MISS BAGUETTE

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