#a lot of people wouldnt even like it💀 but it was so life changing for me

[grogspikey]

bye i get so sad when i think abt how few people have watched cr and gotten to experience how insane and cool and amazing it is

[pinkandpurple360]

Please don’t take this the wrong way, but I think you’re projecting onto Fizz a lot regarding the whole “he needs to go back to the circus” thing. Like I don’t know you, I don’t know your story, but it’s something that’s not really a part of Fizz’s story at all in canon. He’s moved on. That doesn’t mean he can’t interact with anyone other than Ozzie ever again (some fans make them WAY too codependent). But I don’t think it’s healthy for him/you to dwell on that.

There’s no “right way” to say something as rude and silly as this to somebody, because I have a headcanon or theory about a show that you don’t like, lol? Are you trying to embarrass me into shutting up?

I cant get to the bottom of why the fandom wants to pretend that he isn’t from that place, you want to pretend it never happened and is never mentioned again. Ever. Why? Is he too clean for such a dirty past of poverty? Do you not want to see him have a single positive connection to his past. Or did it all mean nothing and Ozzie fixed it all. Maybe I don’t know your story but could you be running from your past, hiding from the people from it, and projecting onto fizz 🙃/j

Another case of ‘arguing against something I didn’t say’ disease…that’s one thing that infuruates me.

I dont want him to go back to them forever and to leave Asmodeus and move in with them💀 I want him to have conversations with the people who for all intents and purposes, are his family. So we can see what the dynamic was like and how it changed. Hell, even if it’s Cash Buckzos funeral and we see the whole troupe reunited and talking to each other for the event. Then getting into it about who all his money should go to, cause the twins don’t want it, or something. Loonas family/parents also left her. That doesn’t mean we should never see a scene where she meets them and speaks to them.

Just look at these characters from the past. Five jester clowns who look almost exactly like Fizz does now. The difference is their hats have the original logo, fizz has a heart. Hey, maybe he still keeps one of his jester hats with the old logo on it which he keeps hidden away in the back of the wardrobe, gathering dust, but he doesn’t toss it out. Like you seem to think he should. Because not every memory is bad, and that’s ok. Pretending you don’t have a past and don’t have any relatives or memories, that is what’s unhealthy anon.

Isn’t there a part of you that would be interested to see him finally not feel like he’s completely out of place and feel like he’s one of them and they aren’t lost forever like he thought? He keeps saying how much he’s lost, over and over in Oops and his song. And in Mammons, it’s painfully obvious that him losing his entire home family and life in a horrible accident, is what makes him so afraid to “lose” (—it all again) The second life he built. You’re acting like he’s not lost anything. And isn’t even traumatised anymore cause he has Ozzie. Cause uh, lemme tell you that’s not how trauma works.

Wouldnt it be nice. Just once. For there to be a typical family moment where he’s mistaken for and called by one of their names by accident? And he laughs and is happy, because that’s not something that ever happens? He doesn’t feel like he sticks out so much? Heck I ship him with Blitzø and I’d never want for Blitzø to be the one and only person who ever mattered to him back then. That’d be strangely isolating. Acting like he has no past kills his story.

You guys are really…really weird and defensive about me wanting him to talk about his past, look back on it, actually show us him mourning it even. It’s not going to threaten fizzarozzie. Calm down. You’re literally pretending where he grew up, where he was injured, and who raised him from a child isn’t an important part of his story. Only Asmodeus is?? Wtf. That’s actually ridiculous. Do you also never want Barbie or Blitzø to ever ever dare speak of it again? Cause it isnt part of their story?

[choccy-milky]

Hi! I started reading your story sometime in the last week and I’m OBSESSED! I normally don’t have much patience and can’t get myself to read anything past like 15k or anything that’s still being worked on, but your story hooked me almost instantly! I really liked the description and decided to give it a try and I’m so glad I did. The detailed descriptions you give pull me into the story and the way you seamlessly switch points of view feels so natural. I just wanted to let you know how much I’m enjoying reading so far and I’m excited for more! ❤️

AW TYSM😭😭 this means a lot, esp since ive been kinda self conscious about the length of my fic lately (and also how long its gonna end up being once im actually done LMFAO) and ik my chapters have gotten ginormous BAHAHA so im glad that even if you don't usually read long stuff you still gave my fic a try and enjoyed it so much + are looking forward to more!!💖💖so ty again😭🙏 AND as usual i'll be using this to answer other asks:

thank you and AA im glad to hear it!! a lot of people have been telling me ive been inspiring them to draw lately and i love it (im just sorry i dont have any concrete tips to give people other than keep practicing LOL) but good luck and i hope you keep at it!!🥰🥰

GIRL IDK, IDEK HOW LONG THE STORY IS GONNA BE, but assuming im still brainrotted even when its done then YEAH u wouldnt be able to stop me if you tried😊 (im glad you like them so much as well, ty!!😭)

thank you!! and yes i usually have at least a vague idea of what i want in the story before i start, though a lot of it didn't become concrete until i started writing/things evolving from there. i made a big (slightly) vague timeline of the entire fic from beginning to (almost) end, and then i keep fleshing it out from there as the ideas keep coming to me/evolving, and for each chapter i make an even more detailed outline, and THEN i get started on the final chapter. so its a bit of a process bahaha, but the brainstorming is really fun!! as for any advice, im not sure. maybe just brainstorm/write down scenes and ideas that you know for a fact that you want to put in your fic, and then try to find a way to connect them to other scenes from there and work backwards. basically WRITE WHAT YOU WANT TO READ, cuz like im my own biggest fan fr, thats the most important part LMAO

LMFAO speaking of outlining future events.....this may or may not happen in the future/in an epilogue when clora is pregnant and she got those pregnant woman hormones that seb is fighting for his LIFE to keep up with HAHAHA

ive been drawing since i was 4 years old so...a while. LOL. and if you even look back to the beginning of my blog, my first drawings of seb were SO UGLY💀💀 so if you just keep drawing you constantly get better naturally (also in response to the other ask you sent as well, i use clip studio paint to draw!)

AW TYYY. AND YES CLORA WILL HAVE ANOTHER MC MOMENT, the ranrok confrontation is still coming, after all...👀👀 and true, idek who would win if clora and seb duelled again with neither of them holding back, but u are so right. even if clora DID win that would do nothing to change sebs mind about how protective he is LMFAO. THANK YOU AGAIN im glad you like my fic + drawings so much!!💖💖

BAHAHAH in my fic (for smut reasons and so that they could be 17 when they did the nasty) i made clora's bday april 3rd and sebs february 12, so clora is an aries and seb is an aquarius (and yes i just checked and apparently they ARE compatible, so seb can rest. also i just read up on aquarius and damn it unintentionally suits seb so well?? LOL "Aquarius is undoubtedly the most innovative, progressive, rebellious, and humanitarian. " and "They have incredible energy, though they may not always use it wisely. They find it easy to get through life on charm and good looks." LMFAO. ok king we love that

[termitesisagrandslam]

so my high school, which was private and tailored towards neurodivergent and queer kids, is closing bc of financial reasons ig. ive only visited once since i graduated, about 3 years ago i think. altho most of the teachers id had already left even before that. as of now, going there was probably the happiest/easiest time of my life. it's weird to see it closing even if i do think it changed for the worse a bit as they expanded and it got a bit more idk mainstream? in its aims. apparently they're organizing a reunion. i may go, altho im not sure any of the ppl i was closest to would show up. even so id at least hopefully see teachers and stuff.

itd be weird tho, i think, to have to say 10 years later that ive struggled, havent finished college, havent started a career. i was part of a trio of friends who everyone thought would last forever and id have to say that no we havent talked in 9 yrs (but she lives w the other one of the trio 💀 who im still besties w). i mean i know they wouldnt judge. given the type of students there, struggling is probably more common than not. but i still wish i was doing better, less bc im ashamed and more bc it was such a highlight of my life that it feels sad to, like, let them down. idk.

but a reunion could also, along w being sad over people we've lost, could also be fun. a lot of ppl have come out as trans or married/had kids(!!!!!). again im not sure the ppl i clicked w the most would come, as they tended to be the least "school events" oriented. the whole thing does bring back a lot of feelings tho. about the last time i was in an irl setting w peers who i felt liked and accepted me, with so many prospects ahead of me. it's weird and difficult and sad and all that stuff.

[trinrose3]

1-30 for the weird asks :3c

who is/are your comfort character(s)?

Amelia :3

lighter or matches?

I dont really use either but matches

do you leave the window open at night?

Oh FUCK no lmao just asking for bugs even with a screen in the window lol

which cryptyd being do you believe in?

Bigfoot genuinely think it might just be some evolved giant sloth or smth

what color are your eyes?

I think this is the closest match to it, they have a tendency to change

why did you do that?

who the fuck knows I sure dont

hair-ties or scrunchies?

Scrunchies! they get stuck in curly hair less

how many water bottles are in your room right now?

Dont actually drink bottled water :)

which do you prefer, hot coffee or cold coffee?

Neither! If I had to choose cold but only if it was basically a milkshake

would you slaughter the rich?

[REDACTED]

favorite extracurricular activity?

besides art? I dont play a lot of video games but those are neat! I keep saying I want to learn how to make plushies or write more and than I dont do that lol. I pretty much draw all day tbh

what kind of day is it?

I blinked and it was over kinda one

when was the last time you ate?

A few hours a go, I had a bowl of rice and cheese :)

Do you love the smell of the earth after it rains?

Oh FUCK yeah, right before too

are you a parent? (all answers qualify)

Do ocs count?

can you drive?

lmao

are you farsighted or nearsighted?

nearsighted, I can barely read on my laptop without my glasses on ��

what hair products do you use?

I dont usually unless Im Going Somewhere(tm) in which case just some gel lol, I typically have my hair in a bun anyways

imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails?

Sure :)

do you say soda or pop?

Soda I feel like saying pop means youre talking about some old guy lol

something you’ve kept since childhood?

A bunch of my stuffed animals as well as some DS games and a few snow-globes. I had a bunch of snow-globes when I was little but my mom accidentally broke a bunch...we are...very klutzy people 💀

what type of person are you?

A good one I hope! Genuinely I have such a hard time defining myself as a person and who I am and being an artist is really the only defining feature I can ever really think of. I even made this the topic of my thesis film!

how do you feel about chilly weather?

I hope it burns in hell :)))))

if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing?

Idk about you but I;d be hanging on for dear life, hell I wouldnt go up in the first place fuck that, I hate heights

perfume/body spray or lotion?

Perfume

a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times?

Bro I got maladaptive daydreaming disorder and ADHD and/or Autism, so many and all of them at once, and yes theyre all my ocs and shit

about how many hours of sleep did you get?

Hard to tell cause MaDD so even when I DO go to bend I cant fall asleep unless I daydream and that can take over quite easily so probably 9 at MOST

do you wear a mask?

Yes! The only time I go out and dont is when I walk my dog but my neighborhood isnt busy and its rare I cross paths with someone else

how do you like your shower water?

Boil me alive please and thank you :)

is there dishes in your room?

....maybe....

[rosachaotic]

[ chants ] talreza wedding hcs talreza wedding hcs talreza wedding hcs talreza w

— adellovesrowan

OKAY OKAY AISWNISSJJS

Idk if you mean before, during or after the event so i will share all three of these:

- Talbott and Cereza both asked to marry eachother at the same time💀 they literally shared one braincell when it came to that. Both took a day off from their jobs to spend a day together, decided to go out on a date in the city and then go for a walk on the beach. It was on the beach when they were both alone and it was all quiet, Talbott proposed to her first with a ring and, of course, Cereza was very surprised by it and didnt know how to reply...she just showed Talbott the ring she got for him as well, they both stared at eachother for a while and after a few seconds they started laughing and accepted eachother's proposals and rings.

- Everyone was so happy for both of them and also relieved that this back and forth between them finally stopped and they finally decided to marry eachother, even thought they were already living with eachother and acted like a married couple already.

- The preparations for the wedding however was chaotic, David's family(David is Cereza's father) wanted to make this into a big party where all the family members would be invited, with loud music, a big party hall, a lot of food and etc. However Yara(Cereza's mom) was having none of it and didnt want David's family to get into her daughters wedding and decide what they wanted for it. Talbott and Cereza wanted to have a small wedding ceremony at the beach(Yeah the same beach) and only invite people they were close to(aka their hogwarts friends and maybe some of Cereza's relatives she is close to.) And thats what they planned to do. No matter how much Cereza's aunts wanted to butt in her bussiness this wouldnt change anything.

- They invited all of their friends, even some of the teachers (You know Mcgonagall, Hagrid, Sprout and Flitwick had to be invited.) To their wedding.

- When the day came, it was all done and perfect. But even then Talbott still felt anxious about it, having those bad thoughts of "what if she gives up? What if she says no? What if the wedding isnt perfect?" But this train of bad thoughts were out the window once he finally saw her.

- I will draw it once i feel better to start drawing again, but this is what I imagine Cereza's dress to look like:

- Talbott always thought Cereza looked like an angel, but when he saw her wearing that he was 100% sure she was an angel. And Cereza of course thought Talbott looked very handsome himself, like a prince in romance books she used to read as a child.

- After the ceremony was over and both said yes(obviously) they celebrated with their friends and family for a while, they all had fun and took alot of pictures but after a few hours they decided that they wanted to have some time alone together. While they both love all of them very much, this was still their wedding day and they wanted to spend the rest of the day/time they still had with eachother only. And they did.

- This was the start of their married life, while they already lived with eachother before marrying this was still something big for them that will be forever in their memories. Also, maybe the start of building their own little family of birds together. 👁️👁️

What matters is that: they had and will always love eachother.

(If yall wanna know more pls ask)

[staysuki]

aaaaaa i finally read EHALOJ aaaaaa puchaaaaaaa

seungmin had those pogi typings going on lmao i love it v much huhu he was really an ass at the start but i still could bring myself to hate him 👁💧👄💧👁 idk if its automatic bc hes my bias or wut xd

moving on i honestly dont know who to ship y/n with :”> im debating on hyunjin and lee know. and yeji my queen uGh 🤨☹️😠😐 but whatever, INTEOTW yeji has my full heart. hyunjin is oblivious af but i still cant say much since i wouldnt really also believe if someone dearly close to me is a bitch irl even if the signs are 13628 inch by 28251 inch big, colored red with christmas lights.

aaaaa lee know and y/n has those history going on tHat makes me kilig ehe ehe but the typical and cliche ‘main character changed bad boy’ is 🥵 BTCH IDK WHO TO 🚢 ANYMORE 😠 sorry felix but ur bromance with jisung is more than fine already.

anyways the focus is BARELY on seungmin but i keep thinking about him ugh ✨ biaz tingz ✨ thankfully your seungmin smau already started xd

omg you re so good at antagonising people wtf 🤩 like literally all your works have the most detestable characters bc of how hurtful and toxic their dialogue sounds 😎 ur so very super duper amazing x9999 at writing, believe me 😭 you always incorporate the right amount of crack and dark thrilling shit in your stories uWu

BTW I THINK the dates. chapter link is broken on the masterlist and the next button on ch 19. i accidentally skipped ch 20 but thankfully i noticed it bc i got confused since lee know stated on ch 21 that y/n didnt answer him when he asked her on a date wHEN i didnt read anything abt him making a move. i got to the dates. chapter, ch 20, by clicking previous on chapter 21 though. hOPEFULLY U GOT WHAT I EXPLAINED 😭

im soooo excited for the next chapters huhu you did so well like di ako mapakali aYAN GANDANG GANDA AKO NAPA TAGALOG 💀 rly good job 👏

so i checked the playlist you shared and all the songs there are exactly my vibes 😭 they are the singers i listen to and i agree 100% that it hits home. OMG ZACKS VOICE IN BINIBINI SOUNDS SOOO SIMILAR TO HYUNJIN SHXHWHXHWHDHWHS IDK WHY BUT I THOUGHT ABT IT AND I CANT GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD HUHUHU 😭😭😭😭

huhuhu neways its 11 pm here, i might read a few more fics before heading to bed. hows ur day btw?

- bs

uy omg ok 👁

POGI TYPINGS PLS 💀. true, we can never hate seungmin 😤.

and yes hehe, the ships are ALL OVER THE PLACE one’s going to antartica while one’s going to florida or smth idk. but my goal is to just pull on everyone’s strings with that one since i don’t really plan to focus on the romance that much, it’s really more of a slice of life story with shitty people in the mix or smth. but there wILL be an endgoal boy. the key is that even i don’t know who it is 🥴❓ makes it more unpredictable, no? but it probably won’t be until long. i plan on focusing on every character and give them beautiful developments so that’s how many arcs(?) 😀, probs overambitious here but i’m excited to try and make a longer smau after rushing my previous ones + i have a lot of notes for EHALOJ from when i started planning it a long time ago so i already have a basis for season 2 once i start it in the VERY DISTANT FUTURE.

i made INTEOTW yeji the way she is to make up for the fact that she’s one of the antagonists in this story :,). that’s kind of like my own pattern, i want balance. also hyunjin being gaslit by his own sister 😔💔💔💔.

minho ship looking promising for you huh 🥴. felix kinda came out of left field but isn’t he such a cutie. literally everyone’s rooting for yongbokie but i don’t blame em, he’s not like INTEOTW felix huhu.

SECRETARY KIM is a busy man 😤 let him do his job. kim seungmin smau is indeed out and it’s a new character trope!! no more tsundere, confident, and/or snarky seungmin 😌 i’m moving out of the stereotypes here.

and also thank you!!! that means a lot. ngl, i feel like i overdo it(??) like, i want villains to be “real people” and not outright “people made to be villains” ifykwim, i don’t want them to be hated because “hey i’m obviously a shitty person!!!” but because they’re complex and not some 2d bond villain. but idk, maybe i didn’t really have a choice with EHALOJ yeji because SHE IS just like that 🤔. hyunjin is in mental turmoil even. probably my favorite “antagonist” moment would have to be dark seungmin in the earliest chapters. but thank you for the compliments, i love writing dialogue, even my editor irl (for my non-tumblr works) always compliments my dialogue dynamic writing so that’s why i stuck to smaus, it’s just dialogue all the time 🤪. i was a bit afraid the EHALOJ might be a bit too dark to garner any attention (bc nobody wants to see their faves antagonized, valid) but i’m glad i took the risk, it was hard to get through but it’s honestly one of my hate-favorite works and i’m glad others seem to enjoy the twists and turns too despite the obvious lack of focus in the romance.

AND YES I FIXED THE LINKS. SOMEBODY ELSE POINTED IT OUT. HOW EMBARRASSING. MY QUALITY CONTROL IS GETTING BAD 😭💔

and tHANK YOU huhu, i swear it’s finished na, just all queued up hehe, not gonna dump it no no no 👆👇👆, i will follow a fixed schedule of uploading every three days. i think there’s five chapters left in the good ol basement. one of my irks too is that i don’t want smau chapters to be released in succession bc i don’t want people to just see smaus when they scroll through my feed so like, if i already have a lot of buffer posts in between like asks or self updates then i might update early. if not, then imma post other randoms in between.

HWANG HYUNJIN AS FRAT BOY NA TAGA BGC SUPERIORITY. medyo napa 🤨🤨🤨 ako sa exbattallion, that group is such a meme (i remember when socmed was tRASHING pauwi nako for being cringe) but i just respect the vibes and listened to everything 😤. AND SEEEEEEEE. THEIR VOICES ARE SIMILAR OMFG I CANNOT.

my day went great! celebrated my mom’s birthday. out to get tattoos once again. hope you have a good sleep, i’ll always be making fics for you to read 😌♥️ how’s ur day.