#aaaa i'm too tired to go outside but i don't know what to do at home

[noxtivagus]

oh man first time actually being alone at home

[gaypirate420]

Let me take care of you // Silco.

Silco x gender neutral!reader

Silco doesn't feel very well, lucky for him, you are around.

(this is my first time writing for Silco so this is a bit ooc also, English isn't my first language, you can correct me if you want!)

This is a little bit angsty, sorry.

The drug lord let out a heavy sigh he didn't feel well, he assumed it was just the stress and all the hours he had been sitting down only doing paperwork.

"Ciao Sevi~" You waved at Sevika before you entered the hall that guided to Silco's office, you hummed a little song while walking .

Meanwhile Silco got up off his desk, horrible decision he realized that quickly, he walked a a couple of steps before his legs betrayed him and he supported himself on a wall, he felt a shiver.

"Huhg-" nausea, he put his hand on his mouth, the noise of footsteps outside the door making him lift his head.

"Sevika—"

"Wrong, It's me, your best error." You greeted while you opened the door. You gasped when Silco's eyes looked at you, his hair was messy and his vest was unbottom, his tie untied.

"Are you alright, my dear?" You asked while you got closer to him.

"No-" Silco replies trying to stay up, you help his stand and slowly got out of his office. With careful steps you guide him to his bedroom.

You lay him down on the bed and checked his temperature.

"You're burning, my love." You exclaimed, Silco was too tired to worry at this point he only rested his head on the soft pillows.

You grabbed a wet cloth and put it on his forehead, the cold make him react with relief.

"Mmmm Silco, where is the medicine?" You asked with shame.

"Over there, my love" Silco pointed still as kind to you as always.

You grabbed the medicine and put in on a spoon that was with it, you returned and gave him a smile, Silco returns it weakly.

"Say aaaa" You joked, Silco opened his mouth and swallow the medicine.

You returned the medicine on the shelve, you relaxed and turned around with crossed arms, Silco wasn't meet with kind eyes and a warm smile.

"I know what you'll say—" he tried to speak but you interrupted.

"I told you to take breaks, and to inform Sevika when you felt—"

"I know—"

"Then why you never do it?" You grabbed a chair and place it on the side of his bed, you sat down and put your hand on his hair.

"I am deeply sorry, dear." Silco, intimating, a man like him with his reputation, he was apologizing to you, because he got sick.

The power you had over him sometimes scared him, you were sweet most of the time, but a man like Silco sometimes needed to be humble down.

"How are you feeling now?" Your voice was softer and your tone lower.

"A bit better, my love." Answers Silco closing his eye to get some rest, you took the cloth away and you place a gente kiss on his damaged cheek.

"You can go now." He spoke, you gave him a deadly look that even with his eyes closed he still felt.

"I won't. You need someone to be checking on you—"

"You don't have to lower yourself as my nurse." Silco remarked, acold response is what you got for taking care of him.

"How many times you have lowered yourself then?" You snapped, he opened his eye and looks at you. You get easily sick and Silco doesn't mind taking care of you, but when he needs care, he won't say it.

"And I am not fucking lowering myself, I'm being a good partner for fuck sake." you put your hand away and you throw your body back on the chair. You crossed your arms.

Silco sighs and tries to get up, you look at him and lean over closer again.

"Let me take care of you, Silco." Your said softly while cupping his cheek, Silco immediately melt into your touch, you gave him kisses on his damaged skin.

"I love you, Silco—that's why I take care of you and worry about your health, you do the same with me, why can't you accept it back?" You play with his hair a little, he grabs your hand and returns it to his cheek.

"Spoiled." You murmured.

The eye of Zaun heards you but decided to ignore it, yes, you got him spoiled with your touch and kind words.

Silco was more touchy and less verbal when he's sick, you realized that the first time you catched him almost passing out on his desk and after you treat him, he was begging for your touch.

He doesn't let go of your hand until he fell asleep.

You got up and decide to rest too, you took off your shoes and lay on the other side of the bed, Silco immediately realize that you weren't holding his hand anymore, he feels you moving on his side so he turns.

"Miss me already?" You teased, he looks away pretending that he didn't heard anything, you got into the bed and he quickly grabs you with an iron grip.

"Silco, I'm not going anywhere." You remarked.

"I know— I just like to keep you close when I am resting." Silco also randomly expresses the things he won't normally say to you when he isn't sick.

"I love you and thank you for your patience" He says before closing his eye.

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A/N: pusshhhh, this is so cheesy and kinda out of character IKNOW, but it's my first time writing for him.

[luvdsc]

Hey Cat!! I hope you're doing well as always ! 💖 AHHHH huhu I closed the form last Sunday since I've collected enough responses dy! (NOOOOOOOO ToT) I got a total of 221 responses at the end of the week, which is 3x the amount I initially needed! :o I'm beyond grateful and appreciative ToT I've cleaned the data and have proceeded to run some data analysis, but I ran into an issue whereby the scores on the subscales are equal (it has never been reported in past studies! :O) so I'm waiting for my supervisor's feedback on how to proceed. Hopefully it's nothing too serious ToT

Hehe finance is interesting indeed! I just started reading a book on finance for young adults (Rich Dad Poor Dad) and I look forward to learning more from the author's tips! The Coursera introductory course has also made financial terms a lil more familiar, even though it's just the basics and it's really helped w my financial literacy 🥺 I can push myself to study but it's also the numbers and calculations I'm worried of cuz I am rly a nong (idiot) when it comes to numbers * - * it runs in the genes I guess AHAHAHAHA my mom and sister aren't good at numbers either keke

Aww I'm glad yr professor made financial accounting enjoyable and a fruitful experience for you! Some lecturers / professors rly just have that spark in them to inspire ppl and I'm blessed to be surrounded by a bunch of em in the psych department!🥺😭 it truly makes a difference and I'm sure we both are living proofs of that!

After debating for a while, I've decided not to take a minor mainly because I'm so tired HAHAHAHAHAHA and I'll just do my own self-studying and exploration whilst working! Go out and explore the world, live life! Whilst ironically still staying in my room because of the COVID-19 situation in our country (cases are abt 20+k every day :') ) My proposal has been finalized and it's been accepted! It's just that some elements of my proposal is also part of my actual report, so I have some guidance to refer to in terms of structure! :3 and yes don't worry! I got plenty (sometimes a lil too much) rest during the sem break whilst remaining productive! Plus, I got to catch up w some friends and had game nights (maybe too much of game nights hehe) and movie nights w my friends which was truly refreshing! Also cuz I might not see a lot of them again after we graduate so we gotta cherish every moment 🥺😭

I'm a freelance graphic designer for my uni's newsletter! Occasionally, they'd ask us to create both the content and design! I'll place the link to my recent work below if you wanna check it out! UwU I'm trying to incorporate the same practices during sem break in my last sem (current sem) too! cuz yes mental health is so so important and I'm just tired of being academically tired you get me? :(

What makes me most trilled abt learning abt psychology is how to apply it in daily life too! I find it so fascinating and awestruck at how relatable and within reach these things are like wow we can be influenced in such ways?? :o can be both good and bad but imma stick w seeing it as the development and evolution of us humans UwU

Also, the vaccine has fixed my sleep schedule HEHE (another perk of getting vaccination :3) I got some rly good rest and managed to reset my usual sleeping time, thank you science ToT oooo I see I see, we've had cases of nurses injecting empty syringes hence the recording :( but GHIOGHWEOGIOHW I could never do that, I can feel the liquid entering me as it is so that's good enough ToT (* plays Love Talk * I can feel it coming)

OMG YOUR ART PIECES ARE SO BEAUTIFUL, ADORABLE AND ELEGANT! 💖🥺🥰 it must've required a lot of hard-work and effort AHHH thankiew for showing me yr work!! it's truly unique in its own manner despite it's simplicity UwU is there a reason or backstory to yr chosen theme and objects? :3

I just Googled Somi Somi and omg that's such an UwU ice cream AHHHH 💖🥺😭 ice cream is my fav food of all time and it looks like an ice cream haven omg imagine eating it after a loooong hard day's of work ToT and OMG THE SATISFACTION OF EATING THAI MILK TEA ICE CREAM ON A HOT DAY YASSS 😋🤤 hehe if you get the chance to try milk & biscoff, do try it! It's amazing !😍 and ooo i haven't tried alcoholic ice cream before but I will one day!! :3 my alcohol tolerance is rly low though, will I get tipsy over alcoholic ice cream? We shall see UwU (i can only drink half a bottle of apple cider before my face gets red and I start getting a lil tipsy + headache)

and lovie....knowing yr school schedule now...OURS IS DEFINTELY BRUTAL OMG a 3 month long sem break huhu that's only the total amount of sem breaks we get in a year ToT i thought uni was hard but not that hard ToT

Always glad and honored to have you onboard! and AHAHAHAH the contractions about to start soon 👀 I enjoy talking to you huhu you're such a sweet and supportive person 💖🥺🥰😙 huhu for my period cramps, I've been having them since I was 12 ToT my doctor prescribed me some panadols but sometimes I can't even swallow them cuz I'd puke them out ToT I've settled w heatpacks to reduce my reliance on medicine, but I finally got some upgraded and safe to eat medicine from my gynae! She said it's fine to take it every month to keep my womb healthy and apparently my ms. lil uterus is suffering from inflammation, hence the super crazy bedridden cramps :( the upgraded medicine worked for a while, but after time it kinda didn't help either :/ but I realised that exercise rly does wonders to reduce the cramp too (gynae also recommended exercising) so i take walks and do my back stretches more frequently now! my period in the previous months (2 months ago) have been almost painless and bearable, it's so weird not seeing my bedridden ._. when I was in high school, there would always be a day in every month in which I don't attend classes, and that's solely because of my cramps. It just isn't worth suffering in school, plus we don't have a sick room :/ I hope the pain continues to subside! ToT

And ayy internship is also working experience, yr advice would be of great help to me regardless! 🥺 oh yes, I always remind myself that interviews are similar to the speaking test I took for my Cambridge English exams! That kinda help calm my nerves down a lil, but w nerves comes bigger smiles, so I guess it takes on a rather practical form of coping mechanism (sublimation) AHAHAHAHA

WAAAA WHAT A QUEEN you got an offer from every interview?? I aspire to be like you! 💖🥺🥰 huhu skill wise I believe I have lots to prepare esp in terms of case studies, and I perform rly poorly on certain assessments (*ehem * esp those concerning numbers) so I took the chance to study a lil during sem break too ToT but noted on that! I will work on that too and try to maintain that me element in interviews and overall just be myself keke

That's all from me for now! Imma wait for my supervisor's feedback and journey on w my last semester. Bon voyage! Link to my recent work: https://www.instagram.com/p/CTBqGzjr6sN/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link Other works: https://www.instagram.com/p/CPpv-IyM7Gi/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link https://www.instagram.com/p/CL55EG-MbL2/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

hi hello honey bee !!! 💓 omg i'm so sorry for the belated response, i finally got on my laptop 😭 i'm gonna put my response under the cut since it got a little long 🤧

omg 221 responses !!!!! that's so many 🙀 congratulations aaaaa it's amazing that you were able to get 3x the data you needed !!! was it difficult to run data analysis? were you able to solve the issue with the equal scores on the subscales? i hope it didn't create too much additional work for you ):

omg yes finance is really interesting! i enjoyed the classes i took for it :') how is rich dad poor dad? did you learn a lot from it? i know it was a book my prof recommended, but i never got around to reading it 😶 did you learn any helpful tips? and ooo i'll have to look into coursera! yeah, there's quite a lot of terms for finance, and it can be a little intimidating paired with all the math formulas and such, but it's pretty useful imo! how are your financial studies going so far? 💕 omg nong is such a cute word?? i would never think it meant idiot asdkfhlkajsdf omg my whole family is good at numbers and really like math, but i didn't like it 😭 my mom made me study it a lot everyday though rip are the financial calculations getting easier for you as you practice more hopefully?

yessss omg i absolutely agree with this!!!! like you can just feel when a professor loves to teach and is genuinely so excited to talk about their subject, and it just makes the most boring horrible subject into something you learn to enjoy and hate less :') and i'm really happy to hear you have tons of professors like that in the psych department 🥺💗

that's great to hear!!!! 🌷🌷 i'm glad that you're prioritizing yourself and your health, which is so much more important than taking on a minor. what fun subjects have you decided to explore and self study so far? 💞 oh my gosh, the rising cases are so high?? i hope it's gotten better there for you ): are you able to go outside yet?

big congratulations on your proposal being finalized and accepted, lovebug !!!! 🥳🥳 i'm very proud of you and hoping one day i can read your published studies in a scientific journal :') aaaa i'm so glad to hear that you got to rest and enjoy your time with your friends!! i definitely feel that omg i regret all the times i skipped out on movie nights or game nights with my friends because now we're all scattered across the country and the only way we can have them again is over zoom calls 🤧

I SAW YOUR DESIGNS AND THEY'RE GORGEOUS OMG I LOVE THEM SO MUCH !!!! 💖 I'M IN AWE AAAA IF PSYCH DOESN'T WORK OUT, I HOPE YOU BECOME A GRAPHIC DESIGNER 🤩🤩💖 and yes i totally get it ): i really felt the academic burn out when i was in college and it was really difficult at times 🤧 but i hope it's going better for you nowadays, sweetpea 💝💝

omg yeah i absolutely agree !!!! whenever i read about psychology, i keep it in the back of my mind and then when i see something irl that relates to it, i'm like :O amazing. it's so cool to learn about different psych tricks too and see how it works when you test them out yourself and whatnot. and it's really crazy to see how the human brain is so easily influenced at times ??? it truly is an amazing subject !!!

ah what a great side benefit of the vaccine - a better sleep schedule 🤩 i'm happy to hear that your schedule has been fixed 💘 and omg what ??? they're injecting empty syringes wth ????? 😭 that's absolutely horrible, are they getting sued?? lmaooooo that love talk reference askdfhlaksjd

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR KIND COMPLIMENTS 😭😭💗💗 there were many late hours spent in the art studio to finish them, but i'm really happy with the end products :') i thought light bulbs are an interesting subject to do, and my prof said that cutting out circular objects or sculpting them is the most difficult since they're made up curves and not straight lines and i was like ok bet i'm gonna do it aND I'M SO GLAD I DID BECAUSE I REALLY LIKE THEM 🥺 and i love honey bees !!! that's why i decided to paint them and we were supposed to paint them in a combined style of two artists so i tried monet's impressionist style with the short brush strokes and pop art triptych style like marjorie strider 💕

somi somi is sooo good and i just had it again a couple weeks ago :') omg ice cream is your favorite food? :o and YES ice cream is so satisfying after a long day of hard work, like it's such a nice reward to look forward to at the end of day ✨ aaaaa i have to try thai milk tea ice cream one day now !!!!! it sounds amazing 🤩 and YES i must look for places that sell milk & biscoff ice cream !! i have milk ice cream from somi somi, but i need to try to combined flavors 💘 i don't think you'll get tipsy over it !!! it's a really faint taste of alcohol, like i didn't even notice it at first, and i don't think they put very much of it in there! aksljdfhals omg you're a lightweight :o at least that means you save money on alcohol LOL i need like nine shots to get drunk 🤧

your school is too hard 😭 you need more than just 3 months of break !!! 😡 we get a week off for thanksgiving in fall semester and a week off for spring break in spring semester too and then the month long winter break and three month summer break. and we have the one day holidays off too like labor day, memorial day, etc. i can't believe they give you so little time off after working so hard???

asdfhlkajshdlksja loool are the contractions over yet? has it been born? what's the current status, doctor? 👀 i really enjoy talking to you too !!! i'm very sorry for the late responses, work is really taking over all of my time, and i never have enough time to get on my laptop to reply to my asks 😭 and thank you for saying such kind things about me 🥺🥺💝 oh my gosh, i'm so sorry to hear that you have such terrible cramps 😭 i can't even imagine going through that - mine are nowhere near as horrible 😖 do the heatpads help a lot? i'm relieved to hear that you were prescribed better medication though! but yeah, your body does eventually get used to the medication and you have to continue taking stronger meds for it to work, but that's not a very healthy solution /: but i'm really glad to hear that exercise has been helping out a lot!! 💖 hurray for almost painless and bearable periods 🥳 i'm sorry to hear that you had to go through that in high school ): that sounds absolutely horrible 😭 periods are just awful, but it's like i'm grateful that i have my period because that means i'm not pregnant, but also please go away aslkhdfaklsj

omg what was the speaking test for the cambridge english exams like? :o it sounds so formal and a lil intimidating askdjfhalsd do you know of any psych tricks that can possibly help calm your nerves? :')

aaaa yes i did !! i was really surprised that i got an offer from them all because at the time, i was not in the right major and i think i was one of the most underqualified applicants 🤧 one person who interviewed me asked why i withdrew from my engr physics class and i explained it in a kinda funny way but in my head, i was like "oof i'm not gonna get this offer anymore" but then he laughed at my response and told me about how his prof told him he should drop a guitar class he was taking because he was doing very poorly and we bonded over that aklsjdhfkals omg how do interviews for psych jobs go? do you have to discuss a lot of case studies? do they give you a list of possible case studies they'll ask about? :o what sort of assessments do you have to do? good luck on all of your interviews, honey bee 💛 i'm rooting for you, you're gonna do amazing !!!! 💘

omg what did your supervisor say about your case study? and how is your last semester going? are you almost done now? 🌸 (also how have you been? what have you been up to? thank you for taking the time to leave such detailed messages for me, i'm really excited to see all the fun updates in your life, lovebug 🌷🌷)

[guard139]

(time + school 1/2) ooo the ali smut :0,, i look forward to reading it when it's done ehe,, not gonna lie, the hour difference is confusing me lolol,, if it's okay with you, what country are you from :0? I think that would help me understand your time more XP currently, it is about 12 AM for me,, when i searched up gmt, it led me to London? so i'm assuming you're somewhere in the UK, but i could be wrong XP - peach

bear with me, this is a bit long lol

(time + school 2/?? - there's way more to write than i thought lol) !! psychology wow! i considered majoring in that, but then i realized that i wasn't as interested in it. and then i decided i might minor in it, but i changed my mind again because i think i only like learning about it as a hobby type of enjoyment :) - peach

(time + school - 3/???) the system in my country (the US) is quite similar to yours! we go from high school to college for our degree (majoring in whatever we want),, then after is our master degree if we'd like, then phD/doctorates (if we want :3). i am also currently in my sophomore (2nd) year of college! depending on the classes i'll take i have 2-3 more years left! on average, college is expected to be 4 years, but it is different for each person :) - peach

(time + school - 4/??) i'm at art major, currently heading for the illustration track! so for me, i'm automatically put into studio arts BA by the time i get to my third year, but if i want to apply for a BFA, then i have to submit a portfolio for that track! i am unsure if i'd like to continue the illustration path,, even though i haven't applied yet, i am very stressed about taking the right classes and making sure that i enjoy my college experience on the way - peach

(time + school 5/???) - art is my passion, as well as writing so i thought i might minor in creative writing as well :D but of course, it's all hypotheticals because i'm worried that minoring in creative writing might make me too tired and less passionate aha,, i love art, but i've found that college is exhausting and i really don't draw much outside of my classes and assignments :') - peach

(time + school - 6/??) but i'm still going to do my best to improve as an artist,, i haven't written in a while but squid game actually got me writing again so i'm super happy about that aha,, as of lately i've been thinking of ways to enjoy life and not get too stressed out about the future. i'm a terrible over thinker and i'm also the eldest in my family, so i do feel pressure in having to succeed :') i'm either in class, doing homework, or sleeping because i'm so tired - peach

(time + school - 7/???) it's definitely hard to balance,, my classes are still online so i'm nervous about going on campus again since i haven't been outside and socializing as much :') but enough about the stressful news aaaa,, i've been watching korean variety shows again and food is my motivation for waking up and continuing throughout each day :D despite the stress from school, writing fics again have been nice and it's what i do most the time whenever i'm free :D - peach

(time + school 8/8) i really didn't expect to write this much, but i did ahhhh,, i hope that wasn't too bad of a spam nor was it too much to read :') i think i'll stop here for now ;P also, i don't think you talked too much, it's quite nice hearing from you and of you! it's fun getting to know the author that's writing all these fics! what made you choose psychology over other majors :0? hope you're having a good day :D - peach

phew, thank you for your dedication! i am actually from brazil, gmt -3. oh, you are from the us! i'm thrilled to be talking to an american <3 you've mentioned that you're interested in psychology, may i ask what aspects of it you enjoy reading about?

regarding degrees, i'm always confused about the majors and minors you have in college. we don't have that in brazil as there's an governmental institution that regulates the curriculum of each course.

aaa, you're majoring in arts!! that's amazing! i find it all so fascinating even though drawing is not my forte, i admire artists very much! <3

don't talk about it! college can be stressing. i usually have the will to pay attention to classes on the first week only. :( after that, there is too much information to keep track and i lose interest and focus pretty quick.

i see! that's what you said about relating to sangwoo! don't pressure yourself, i'm sure you'll do the best you can and overcome life's challenges. take a break once in a while if you can!

i can relate to going back to classes on campus. studying for tests will be harder and the time that takes from home to college will make things even harder. socializing comes with practice, so don't worry! and if you don't like socializing, that's ok too! <3

peach, you write?? you have to send me one of your works through submit! also, i'm glad that you are enjoying korean variety shows and food has been a motivation to you. i hope you're taking good care of yourself!

what is your favorite variety show? i don't think i've watched any so far. 🤔 also, i'm not sure if you've watched money heist/la casa de papel, but netflix is making a korean version of it and i'm thrilled because park haesoo (sangwoo) will be on it as berlin!

aaa, this is so long! i hope it's okay! until next time, peach!