#aaaaaaahg

[shiresome]

[mudwisard]

jag bögar för fan ur

[bigender2]

i want to continue writing but i want to play modded minecraft but i want to draw and finish pieces but im tireeeeedd

[blkkatsuki]

Kay so does anyone have any drawing ideas?? Cause I am struggling trying 2 draw Hidan's face for some reason

[aromanticasterisms]

i'm so sad about no archipelago rerun but i will forgive it all for klee and kaeya outfits

[jacksmysterylabyrinth]

Supernatural talents having a special name and used in detective work, huuuh. This setup is definitely echoing the ‘Ultimates’ shtick (’unusual for all these to be gathered in one room’ for starters)

An animal-communicator first up

[fawrishfish]

C-can I share

aaaaaaahg keychmaiiiins

Here’s my designs for them

They’re expressions match when they’re facing each other 🥺

Uhhh development stuff if you’re interested in boring numbers…I think the math is correct…if it isn’t please let me know lol

..the BBP might change if I decide to make some of the sticker designs pins(which I probably will), and I might need more keychains

Also, there’s gonna be another minus in the total along with the BBP.

Custom packaging! I wanna get colored envelopes and prettty stamp stickers…also thank-you cards

Sometime after school starts for me(next month) I should have the money to start my store tho guys!

I’m SUPER excited!!!

[secretlythepits]

Just a Rant

I don’t think I told you guys how hard it was to get my kids registered for school this year. Both kids had their own issues that seemed to clog the system so they required dozens, and I do mean dozens of emails to counselors, registrars, principals, the school district, an educational lobbyist, the state DOE. And this was in the midst of finding about my husband’s cancer and what treatment would be.

Today one school called and said they needed health forms they never told me about. Then a teacher who runs a program at one school wanted me to switch my other kid back to his program. Details I handled, but like please, oh please let this be done. It is taking so much of my attention. Also, the kids are taking some online classes through the state and haven’t been assigned teachers yet, so we’re twiddling our thumbs (an old-fashioned euphemism I’m repackaging to mean f%*king video games!) instead of doing school work.

Then the dentist appointment that was supposed to happen before school had to be rescheduled because the dentist’s entire computer system crashed. There’s an orthodontist appointment next week too, a new addition to our busy lives. And my husband has treatment on Friday.

When am I supposed to be able to work?

When am I supposed to be able to have some time to focus on my goals and my health?

It’s not just me crying for space in my life. Things like my husband’s pain are alarms saying: you might have to be the sole provider at any minute. And I literally cannot do that now. I need a chance to complete my project and get it to market. I cannot take care of everybody and build a career out of nothing at the same time. Besides preferring this kind of work, I can’t commit to a traditional job right now because my caregiving and mom schedules are just too demanding and unpredictable. I have no help. My friends will step in during an emergency. My in-laws did nada during our first cancer journey. My family and my dearests and on the opposite coast. Nobody is ever going to pick up the slack but me.

Still, work has to happen. These little scares, because that’s what I have to assume my husband’s pain is, feels like the Universe snapping me to attention and warning me that my time before the catastrophe is running out.

And my brain.

I’m having more and more slips. I can’t remember words. Say wrong words. Can’t access memories from a couple weeks ago. Had a couple of spells when I couldn’t walk. I need to have some calm, peace, and open stretches of time to calm my nervous system. I felt like I was 95% better, but now I’ve fallen to 85- 88%. It worries me.

(I will say I have an odd relationship with my brain, because as much as I struggle with the detail, conceptually, I’ve never felt so smart. It honestly feels like my brain damage has both good and bad sides to it. it’s counterintuitive, I know, but I think I’m right.)

The dentist just showed me I cracked a tooth from clenching. I wake up in full body clenches many nights. I cannot be mindful when I am unconscious.

Many people in my support system are educators so they are in the back to school overwhelm. There isn’t anything they could say or do to help so I’m just sitting here with very big feelings. I’m supposed to ground my husband and protect my kids.

Yet again a mom is asking: Who is looking out for me?

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And I am worried about what the doctor will say tomorrow. It could be very bad or relatively ok. Even ok would bother me since it’s so much aggravation and added stress for nothing. But of course, added stress for something is much worse. Aaaaaaahg!

Good night. I’m grabbing my ice packs and a book about chocolate and praying for sweet dreams.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

U WERE RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U WERE FUCKING RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

^LITERALLY ME RN

YEAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAA THE DADS ARE HEREEEEEEEE ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ AND TIDE HAS HIS POWERS!!!!!!! DUDE!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAHG IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR SO LONG. DO U KNOW HOW MANY TIMES IVE ALMOST SAID "YEAH I NEED 2 KNOW WHAT HAPPENED WITH TIDE AND MARK BEFORE EP 38" BC IVE ALMOST SLIPPED A COUPLE TIMES

[iceinwhb]

My anger in a single image.

(Being one of those who even saw the start of the first Halloween event, I swear I never forget anything, even the Nightmare Pass itself forces you to do daily achievements. AHG, AAAAAAAHG...)

[kittydragondraws]

HUUUUUUH MAT AND STEPH WERE THE SPIDERS FROM THAT ODD1SOUT VIDEO HUUUUUUH HUUUUUUH AAAAAAAHG

[abel-brannigan]

AAGGHAHHHGH AAAAAGHHHHH AAAAAHAHHHH AAHHH OH GOD AGHRHEHG AHHH

[CARTOON BANANA PEEL]

[VERY LOUD CRASH]

[CAT HISSING]

[BABY CRYING] SOMEBODY SHUT THAT DAMN BABY UP

[SIRENS WAILING]

[POTS AND PANS CRASHING]

['BOING' SOUND EFFECT]

AAAGHHHH AAAAAAAHG AAGHHGRGHFH

“WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!”

[petite-ursus]

The first of the Prides is this weekend. I want to go. But my Saturday is So Busy.

Always the long dog walk on Saturday and we are officially back at around 5miles... Then Hair, which means I have to decide if I want to go climbing after because I've really been loving that... And my brother is moving so I need to know when we are doing that...

I went garage sa(i)ling over the weekend. Found something cute to wear for a DOLLAR. So, like, I should. Even if it's just like... the night portion... Dance. Flirt. Social....ize....

I just. Need to gain the gumption. Need to maybe walk the dogs a different day? Skip the climbing this week and go a different day/next weekend? Normally I'd skip a club for climbing as I've decided I'm more likely to find someone who aligns with me at a gym than a bar.... but... Pride is an exception... I Should go be gay.

:') too many moving parts and I don't want to skip Anything. Plus. There is definitely a big part of me that wishes My gay people lived close. Really just grateful to have them and I can go alone and have fun. And I CAN meet people. But. 'Getting back out there' would probably be less daunting/more exciting with an In Person squad. But. As ways of acquiring some such... this is probably the way............ aha.

Insert pic of me in the new top... which... Look. I only have pictures of me flexing in it. Uhm. I don't know what to say about that. But. Also this bracelet I picked up? It's so cute? I don't want to waste it? aaaaaaahg

[mcskullmun]

Excuse me while I-

AAAAAAAHG

[kurjakani]

Girl aaaaaaahg

[roahs-lps-ark]

*Frothing at the mouth* I WANT TO MAKE MY LPS SERIES RN, BUT I GOT LIFE STUFF GOING ON.

YOU GUYS DON'T UNDERSTAND. I. NEED. TO DO. THIS PASSION PROJECT. I NEED TO TELL MY STORY. FUCK FUCK FUCK AAAAAAAHG