#about ;; kai

[kaija-rayne-author]

I went thrifting with the kids a couple of days ago and I'm still in so much pain it's making me teary. I don't cry easy. My therapist scolds me about it. 5 hours of shopping with two well behaved kids and I sat down through most of it. I could really use a wheelchair, but I can’t afford one. It would have to be electric, because my EDS is degenerative.

Guess I'm stuck in bed again.

I really wish people would understand that I would give so much to be able to just... live. Even the limited existence I had before covid was better than it is now. I can't go to a movie, or the zoo, or the aquarium. I leave the house for supplies and medical care. That is literally it. I risk my immunocompromised life every time I leave the house because people won't mask. I risk my minor children's lives and my partner's too. We're all immunocompromised.

I used to hike, ride horses, dance, bike, practice 3 types of martial arts.

Then I caught swine flu and my body gave up. I was diagnosed with me/cfs (which is now usually considered a post viral illness, meaning you got sick with a virus and never got better).

Then 3 years ago, I caught version 6 of the first wave of covid. I barely survived, but I never got better.

I honestly can't imagine how people can be so blasé about viruses. They can absolutely destroy your life. They've destroyed mine. I was healthy! I exercised and ate well! I was vaccinated! (Antivaxxers fuck off. I have science degrees, you're really badly misinformed.) I did everything right and it still took me down.

There's nothing you can do behavior wise that will guard you from viruses except masking, vaccinations, and social distancing. Setting up air cleaning options helps too, but since we can't even get people to mask, I'm not holding my breath on that one. (Har, har, I'm hilarious.) Vaccinations are imperative, but they don't do anything for transmission. They exist so that if you do get it, you have a better chance of survival.

And humanity could have defeated this illness 3 years ago. Except because selfish people wanted their 'normal' back... we didn't. PSA? Your 'normal' sucked a lot for disabled people already. It's worse now.

I do the best I can, but it has robbed me of so much. My scientific career, my ability to make a living that doesn't mean just scraping by well under the poverty line.

I can't hike anymore, or bike, the brain knowledge of my decades in martial arts and dance is still there, but I probably couldn't take a hit anymore. Being around horses again is an impossible dream.

Hell, just getting out of bed some days is an impossible dream.

I have nightmares of being without a mask, and people walk around bare faced.

I fucking guarantee there isn't a 'fun' thing on this planet that is worth living like I do.

The worst isn't when the virus kills you, it's when you survive it and have so little ability left.

And more people survive SC19 than die from it. They survive, but millions of people are already disabled from it and the numbers rise every day.

How are people not fucking terrified? How?

[littledreamling]

tag 9 people you want to get to know better!

doing this again because it’s payback for mentally devastating my pocket friends, tagged by @virgo-dream !

three ships: thank you Virgo for unlocking some of my deep-seated memories, I’m stealing some of your ships. I have to go with Hannigram (Hannibal, obviously), Andreil (AFTG), and Destiel (I’m a veteran tumblr user, don’t come for my throat)

first ever ship: I think I said johnlock for this one last time? that was the first ship I remember reading fics for but I have to say Destiel started around the same time so who knows which one was the real first ship

last song: uhhh… *opens spotify, hoping it’s nothing too embarrassing* thank god, it’s Achilles Come Down by Gang of Youths

last movie: Glass Onion, for the second time

currently reading: the hate-filled screaming of all of my pocket friends and also the Neil Gaiman Reader

currently consuming: the hate-filled screaming of all of my pocket friends and also coffee

currently craving: the sweet embrace of the Dreaming (and possibly Death, because I feel like she gives good hugs) (and also the hate-filled screaming of all of my pocket friends, please feed my angst demon 🤭)

I’m not sure who has done this yet, so I’m leaving it open for anyone who wants to do it!

[yourhighness6]

Ugh I will always love the concept of Katara using blood bending to revive Zuko after the last agni kai, mostly because it makes no sense to me that Zuko was able to bounce back so easily after being struck by lightning, but also because the way the show treats bloodbending is just odd to me. It was a defense mechanism created by a traumatized victim of some of the most devastating parts of colonization, and although I understand that Hama was supposed to symbolize the "bad parts" of waterbending and was important for Katara's growth in realizing that the world isn't entirely black and white, its still disappointing to me that the show never explored the gray areas of blood bending, especially since that episode was, as I stated above, about understanding the gray areas of the war. Katara using blood bending to revive Zuko would add so much to the last agni kai in demonstrating that she has truly realized that "good" and "evil" are relative concepts, and Zuko being saved by both a defense mechanism of a survivor of colonialism and a type of bending used to terrorize his people would have even added to his arc, as the narrative required him to save and subsequently be saved by the physical embodiment of everything his family sought to annihilate.

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

so in an attempt to actually use positive thinking, anytime i fuck up and my brain reacts as if ive cause a minor apocalyptic event, i compare my fuck up to the 4 minute fuck up committed by the crew of the uss william d porter.

and only today, as i was having to explain what happened to my mom when i was explaining the whole comparison thing, did i realise that most people dont know about it and ive decided that needs to change because its objectively hilarious.

...which is a weird thing to say about an event that occured on a warship in 1943, specifically november 14th.

see the uss william d porter was a fletcher-class destroyer but you dont need to know what that means, just that she had guns that went bang bang and that she was escorting another ship, the uss iowa, to cairo.

while they were on their way there, they performed some gun trials like testing the anti-aircraft guns or the torpedos. and while they were running a torpedo drill, the crew of the porter managed to fire a live torpedo straight at the iowa which you know, in terms of a list of things to do while escorting a ship, shooting a torpedo at them is not on that list.

especially if the president of the united states is on board.

yeah so fdr was on board and the gun trials were actually his idea, and part of the trials was that they were conducted under radio silence.

and that means the crew of the porter couldnt just call the iowa to be like "move out the way, we accidentally shot a torpedo at you."

but they did have signal lamps and you know, the signalman on board was trained to signal this exact kind of message.

...and uh never mind, the signalman did manage to successfully tell the iowa that a torpedo was coming toward them but wasnt as successful when it came to the direction the torpedo was coming from.

not all hope is lost though because the signalman could still use the signal lamp to correct his previous mistake and-, never mind, he announced that the porter was reversing, which she wasnt.

yeah so at catastrophic mistake number 3, they broke radio silence to warn the iowa and she managed to turn out of the way just in time which meant no one got hurt. and even though the inquiry into the incident led to chief torpedoman (fantastic job title btw) lawton dawson being sentences to hard labour, fdr intervened and waved away his sentence, saying it was all an accident.

but yeah, so thats my new measure for "how much did i really fuck up?" and when i compared accidentally picking up a pencil case without a tag on it in wilko, turns out it was a very minor fuck-up. yes, the cashier had to ask another worker to grab a duplicate so they could scan the barcode, but i didnt nearly kill the president during wartime via accidental friendly fire

[cryptid-loverboi]

𝕀𝕟𝕥𝕣𝕠𝕕𝕦𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟

💙 Hi! My name is Kai, I'm 19, and this is my self-shipping blog! 💙

Disclaimer

About Me

🌊 Kai - 19

🌊 Autistic creature with ADHD

🌊 Puppy regressor; crow/cockatoo/wolf/dog/ferret/cryptid kin; miscecanis omega

🌊 Polyamorous; genderfluid; genderfaun; transmasc; pansexual/romantic; demisexual and demiromantic

🌊 Very very punk (amatopunk, cringepunk, voidpunk, hopepunk,...)

🌊 Pronouns: ⛲️he/him/himself ⛲️they/them/themselves ⛲️pup/pups/pupself ⛲️mush/mushes/mushself ⛲️bone/bones/boneself ⛲️void/voids/voidself

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I'll update this as I go <3

🫧 Romantic F/Os 🫧 🐳 Daycare Attendant Sun, Moon & Eclipse (Fnaf:sb) 🐳 Sanji (One Piece) 🐳 Cole Cassidy (Overwatch)

🫧 Platonic F/Os 🫧 🐳 Niran (Overwatch) 🐳 Papyrus (Undertale)

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🐬 My main blog: @kaigweny

🐬 My immersive daydreaming blog: @kailutopia

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🐬 Writing reblogs: @gremlin-journal

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[biscuithoney]

The sillies!

They know Zane, they know...

Based on an interaction between me and my friends.

[circus-borealis]

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Hi there! This is a fandom blog!

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Main Blog: @kaigweny

Daydreaming and recovering from MADD: @kailutopia

Self-shipping reblogs: @cryptid-loverboi

Petre and kin reblogs: @klutzy-silly-gremlin-den

Art reblogs: @gremlin-journal

Punk & genderfuckery reblogs: @cringepunkdoggo

I'm on Wattpad & AO3

A Discord server for Tumblr blogger and fanfic/headcanons writers

A Guilded server for everyone! Regressors, kins and alterhumans, punk folks, alternative fashion, queer, neurodiverse, spiritual people, and much more!

My Fiverr: I write custom fiction and fanfiction!

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About Me

He/they/it + neos (pup, mush, bone)

Queer af (demiromantic and demisexual, polyamorous, pan, genderqueer, transmasc)

Disabled and neurodivergent (audhd)

Bard and druid with a zest of rogue

Pirate in spirit

Witch

Punk (cringepunk, hopepunk, voidpunk, amatopunk,...)

Kin (crow, cockatoo, wold/dog, ferret, cryptid)

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Fandoms

FNAF

Undertale/Deltarune

One Piece

Kingdom Hearts

Overwatch

Good Omens

TMNT (2012, 2014/16, rottmnt)

MCYT (hermitcraft, life series, empires, X life serie)

Gravity Falls

Over the Garden Wall

Rick Riordanverse

Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children (the books)

Probably more that I'm forgetting rn, I'll update this list-

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[kai-sh1]

theyre complaining buddies

[leeeeeeef]

big fan of her

[dreamweave01]

I had to create a part two to answer this haha-

[kaija-rayne-author]

Ugh. I feel like absolute crap. Had to shop yesterday even though I was already flaring from the shopping trip with the kids.

I've rebounded my damned headcold or caught another when the other was just going away.

Why can't people mask ffs!

Why do all y'all want to share germs anyway, it's gross. Icky.

And dear gods it takes my immunocompromised ass forever to kick even a headcold. Give us chronically ill people a break and please mask!

The winter of 2020 I didn't even get the flu. And the flu floors me for 6 weeks every year because I'm allergic to one of the ingredients in the vaccines so I can't get it. Two way masking absolutely works.

Why wouldn't people want to avoid getting sick? It makes no logical sense. Even a headcold is miserable.

And yes, I religiously mask. It's on my face before I leave the house and it doesn't come off except in a closed vehicle or when I get home.

But there's only so much one way masking can do when you're surrounded by selfish jerks who can't bother to care about their fellow humans.

And uh, if you're one of those people who wish they could get sick just so you have an excuse to rest, you're likely already chronically ill and overextending yourself. It's a trauma reaction.

[dilfcult]

𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐔𝐃𝐄

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𝐊𝐀𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐔𝐑𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐚𝐬 𝐊𝐀𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐔𝐑𝐃𝐄𝐍

— Ciao Amore *ੈ✩‧₊˚ Welcome to my blog! My name is Kai or Kailer and my pronouns are he/her. I'm 21 years old, African-American and Chamorro, and addicted to older men. I'm an Aries and my birthday is March 27th. I'm also a proud aunt to a turtle.

I'm always opened to making new friends/moots! I'm actually really shy depending on the situation, but once I get comfortable I can't shut up. Please don't be afraid to reach out and dm me! I suck at texting lately, but in my defense I always get distracted with work. I made this blog because I had the sudden urge to write about shy!bf!steve. I've written before, but nothing too serious.

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Any negativity will be blocked. If you are a minor, please do not interact with me or my blog. I mostly write fanfiction for Chris Evans and his characters. I will not be writing for anyone else or their characters any time soon. All dividers, moodboards, visuals, and others are made by me unless stated otherwise. They are made to my specific works/blog, please do not steal them.

[sillykittyz]

a lot more of these because it's fun

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[bookalicent]

yeah so this was insane

[al-luviec]

Making a list of Kai / Zane quotes that sound like they're out of a fanfiction.

[kamitsure-cykes]

low effort post because I WANT to post art but the carpal tunnel demons ate my hand bones

this is poorly edited together but have this thing i spammed into the other mod's dms at like 3 am one night a few days ago because I couldn't sleep hsjsushdbsnsj

ignore my shit handwriting please yeaaa (sorry Sunflower)

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