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uncanny-tranny · 1 year

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Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.

#disability #this is a callout post about myself #i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned #turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly #i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack #(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way)#(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle)#anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you...#...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition]#i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn 💀#even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically 😭#it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker #and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller #and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected...#...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)

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stargirl230 · 1 year

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Luke(s)

sketches in which luke looks different every time i try to draw him (different face syndrome???)

(no reposts; reblogs appreciated)

#my art #artists on tumblr #fanart #star wars #sw #luke skywalker #so i finally understand what a blorbo is #and he has me in a death grip #in other good news #i got in touch with an old friend from art class and found out we both went from traditional -> almost completely digital #and now we're going to college together!!!#very exciting to talk art stuff with someone irl #and not feel like a weirdo #you know what's actually weird #spam bot attack #i'm purging my new follower list rn so if you have a blank icon/header/lots of follows but no likes beware

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0m3n-0f-d3ath · 3 months

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🍓Artfight

Bean by tism on artfight 🍓

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viivie · 9 months

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a few days ago when the christmas banner got announced i immediately wanted to sit down and draw the new 3h alts but. im having trouble actually drawing anything serious rn so. have some sillies instead 😔

#might delete this later bc i like keeping my blog neat and tidy but. rn im feeling silly. goofy even. unserious. perchance.#i'll prolly post actual art of the alts eventually art just isn't arting properly rn so #fe3h #feh #fe16 #byleth #i think its so funny bylass is just like. about to absolutely CHUCK that sothis plush in their attack art so #that was the inspo for the first one askdhjfkdj #fe3h dimitri #dimileth #very vaguely but the intention was there #serious art soon i promise LMAOO

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plutosoda · 10 days

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Ok, hammer really sucks, axe is like, the best thing in the game, and dagger is right next to that,

But curse only with Devine protection is literally the best thing in the game, next to the heatseeking bullet one

I had a boss rush run where I beat EVERY GID OF THE OLD FAITH HITTLESS just with like, the sharp dash, and cursed fleece.

Not to mention aym dies in 2 hits with it for some reason, and dashing through boss' with the sharp dash card makes them drop fervor, you end up being sufficiently invincible and dealing a high dps; you can cast Devine protection and have enough time to get in 2 dodge rolls through the boss, and then be at a net positive and you can cast again.

you can also gain access to finding weapons again by transmogrifying the curse only fleece with the goat, and then adding player 2 mid crusade

Sorry I just needed to say this. The strat is unbeatable, and with hounds of fate, you can spam bosses anything and they're dead in less than 10 secconds. It works weirdly well against kallamar last I checked. I haven't played in a bit, so my knowledge isn't up to date

i hauve never used a curse in my life . Gun

#i guess i am a certified cult of the lamb artist now because i have so many asks about it. fandom Speedrunning.#i have 30 hours in this game but ive only had it for three days i Actually feel exhausted and ill rn . so im taking a break from playin.g #but i did get the curses only fleece so i might fuck around with it for funsies...#rn all my fervour goes towards blunderbuss heavy attack and healing soul hearts bc im bad at the game #asks #cotl

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allmyandroids · 1 month

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Body still shaking from the news 'cause it realy made me happy to just hear these Jimmy news tbh

#idk whats wrong with me today this day just had been a whole anxiety attack and these news they almost make me cry even tho it would have #been much cooler to see his actual face or not a marvel thing at least #augh im having so many mixed feelings rn augh #deleting later maybe

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uzi-x33 · 2 months

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i have to go back to school on Thursday I’m gonna pull a dazai i actually can’t chat. i hate school. like, actually hate it so much.

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #dazai osamu #vent below #Istg if my cousin fucking sees this (don’t look at my vent you little rat /srs)#I actually hate school. It’s not even a joke I hate it so much. The amount of fights I’ve had with my mom over my grades is ridiculous #the amount of fucking genuine panic attacks #It always gets worse when school starts back up. I can’t deal with it.#it stresses me out sm I hate it #I don’t want to do this.#It’s not even like I have bad grades. The worse I’ve had was a d for a time. It got bumped to a c tho that’s not even that bad.#i hate math.#I hate everything AHHHH #Dazai kinnie:3 #This post looks very bipolar uhhh #sorry for the vent #I might vent more later. Idk.#I might just draw. Who knows.#I urge to post all my vents that have been in my CapCut drafts is strong rn #but I’d feel bad.

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unexpectedbrickattack · 1 year

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#chattin #nothing bad or spicy i just feel like peep peeping rn #📢🐀!#but there is talk of panic attacks and Bad Stims up ahead (not related to me dw) ->#i was thinking of autistic peppino bc i am planning out the vigilante comic in my head #and like the quick premise is that vigilante comes into the pizzeria and shoots a blank into the ceiling to get everyone to shut up #and quiet down so he can go ask for (demand really) to see peppino bc this fuckerhas a bounty FOR A REASON and hes here to find out why #bc u know; cowboy yeehaw shenanigans #only its like 5am and no one is there jdkdndjdndk he just saw the lights one and went BANGBANG #anyway peppino is in the back cowering bc someone came into his fucking shop and started shooting UNPROMPTED #and hes so fucking scared and unwilling to move and when he sees someone actually come through the back door he starts having a legitimate-#-panic attack and he starts doing the stimmy hands thing over his ducked head #and vigilante is like whoa whoa WHOA WHOA HOL UP WHATS HAPPENIN #like i dont think peppino has ‘happy stims’ he has ‘extremely self soothing’ stims #that include flapping but only if hes so unbelievably stressed that he cant think #or he has more violent ones like pulling at his hair and biting his hands #that on top of like a genuine panic attack where he cant breathe and he thinks his heart is stopping is 😵‍💫#vigilante is like christ almighty what the fucks got you so damned spooked?? like he doesnt even think of the blank he shot #he assumed someone came in before him or something #and hes like oh shit wait thats mE I DID THAT I SCARED HIM #i am still planning it out but yes. autistic peppino is on my mind 😊#in a more positive light hes very earnest; and good at his job bc cooking in an interest of his #and his responses in social situations are bizarre enough sometimes to wrap back around to endearing #also its an excuse to draw peppino looking very confused but happy and gustavo somewhere in the shot going-#‘the bad bitch i pulled in by being autistic’#swag #ALSO THE TAG IS BACK so i guess i can doodle again heehee

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florida3exclamationpoints · 3 months

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I'm gonna post this hopefully quickly and then go make bracelets to distract myself bc I wanna get it out but not have to come back to it later . And I will be whining about this on main a lot so I might as well give yall some context first

#i got soft fired.#they said it was bc summertime is slow and they dont have the hours for me #but they also said smth about my 3 month evaluation ? which i was not involved in but i felt like it implied something about my performance #but they didn't say it was about my performance not being good enough #and they also didn't say its just bc of the hours but you're a good employee so don't worry about that #they said they still might call me at some point if they have hours for me again #the words fired and let you go were not used #but. i stg they just hired a new froster. idk for sure but i thought they did #and one of the cashiers (the girl i know actually 😐) said she might get trained in frosting this summer #even tho by company policy youre not supposed to work in the kitchen if youre under 18. shes 16 #but there was no warning or critiques or anything #there was when i first started #but not for a long time now #the manager gave me one note like 2 or 3 weeks ago and not since and that was the first time in a while #i had a panic attack when i got home #idk what im gonna do and idk what to think or feel about it rn #i just . yea #thats whats going on in my life lol anyway

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keeps-ache · 3 months

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in a cafe rn. this place is nice :>

#just me hi #they have a lot of random old stuff in here it's fun :D #tons of books too; though most of them seem to be romance and unfortunately i've come to terms w/ the fact i'm a hater gfhsfh </3 #oh and not that the old stuff is random in a new place; it's an old-looking place with a lot of old stuff that doesn't match anything else #lol ! there are some spots that are Almost uhh- the word is not coherent but it's something like it hfhvs #i've had a bisquit sanmich and a lemonade which was pretty fine. i liked the sandwich though it was a bit greasy bfsh :>#idk i'm just comfortable here. the guy running the counter might be gay and there's a bathroom sign that jokes abt gender n creatures for #them lol - it's relatively quiet too n i have a chair that's pressed against the wall w/ no windows so i don't feel like i can be snuck up #on ghfhsv. i like it here so far :D #//anywho i think i'm gonna get on my ar.ft attacks now hfhsvh #i didn't bother posting my first one this year but i'll get to that rn!! :3 #i have 1 + 1/2 i gotta do - i say a half because it doesn't Technically count as an attack due to the System but ehe :33 #//btw this place has a thing going on where it's Nearly symmetrical #every table is missing at least 1 chair that would make it so and if there Is an even amount of chairs they aren't the same kind #though they Are matching in colour if they aren't the same type! i like that. dunno why hfbvs #also i like how oddly everything has been placed. tables placed in a diamond form compared to the room and then others are situated like #regular tables ; i just think it's interesting lol :33 #//oh and i've finished another chapter of my book ; it's taking me forever because i actually came to like it a lot n i don't want it to en #a common habit of mine hfhfsh <3 #though ik it's hard to tell from the outside if i'm not doing it cuz i hate it or cuz i love it. fun for Me though hfhbshvs #//yea anyway. i like this place lol :>#gonna wander around prolly. n work on stuff hopefully :>>#i have a ~+~root beer~+~ so here i go !! toodles :D

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moe-broey · 5 months

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HUGE difference between "I never finished Three Houses" (🏘️ wait hold on. Wh. Why is there a Three Houses emoji. That is so specific.

Anyway HUGE difference between "I never finished Three Houses" (the story is probably good but my fuckinh god the calendar based gameplay wants my head on a pike. Missing important events/interactions due to the time based nature wants me DEAD. The general inflexibility when it comes to whatever cast of characters you're stuck with for what run like YEAH you can recruit dif students school arc but. The options still feel soooooo limited and if there's a house of characters you just don't vibe with but that's the run ypu have to do. Fuck your entire life. And then there's the time basedness of it all. The arc basedness of it all. The structure of it all IS DESIGNED VERY SPECIFICALLY to fucking Kill Me. You can't even fuck around and give yourself little side quests. The Fucking Time and Structure.) vs "I haven't finished Engage yet" (I have commitment issues 😔 I don't wanna let go.... 😟 I don't want it to be over 😢😢😭💔💔💔)

#fire emblem #this isn't me saying one is objectively better than the other this is just me voicing JUST how fucking hostile #the gameplay of 3h is to me. specifically. like it is a personal attack. if you wanted to torture me start from there.#i do really love engage though rn it's sitting exactly in the state awakening was for A Long Time in my playthrough #where it just. took me forever. to actually play the final map. hold on grima i'm busy. yeah. yeah the risen. again.#i'll be back. just give me maybe a few more days. i know i know. this is really important though.#i don't think i'm at the Final final map but i can feel i'm close. enough to make me so scareds LMFAO #just recruited veyle/unlocked the pact ring paralogue (i'm almost certain it's that)#AND LIKE. THAT'S ANOTHER THING. I CAN'T FINISH THE GAME NOW I NEED TO HANG OUT W MY LONG LOST LITTLE SISTER.#I NEED TO MAKE UP FOR LOST TIME.#i should pick it up again .... but the.... commitment.........

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rosekasa · 1 year

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following up from My Body Is Being Concerning, today i learned that i am in fact capable of experiencing a panic attack so severe that i faint

#sorry for talking about this im just. Processing. bc wtf was that #but also when u think about it... pretty metal right #i know this sounds very sucky but like. there are other good things happening in my life so it kinda offsets This #im upset and a bit shaken that this happened as an Isolated Incident #but like. im drawing lots right now! and feeling good about that. so it's okay. but wtf #maybe will delete this later? my brain still feels fuzzy #hopefully the last post of this genre for a while i dont like the vibe it's been bringing to ladynoir brainrot blog #i think it's weird because there's like a LOT of pressure im experiencing in most parts of my life rn which clearly seem to be taking a toll #but the one thing im actually consciously spending time on (art and writing) has been going well. so i feel like. i at least have This #idk why i feel like this is necessary to post #i guess it just helps to know that y'all know that there r weird things afoot behind the url because it feels less like i have to be alone #with it #♡alizeh talks♡#vent #panic attack mention

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magpigment · 1 year

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finally got to episode 52 of jrwi and it’s good to see it’s taken a break from our regularly scheduled comedy podcast for an incredibly lengthy period of blatant psychological torture!! tune in next time to see what our poor motherfuckers are going to be Put Through Next!!!

#dandy talks #LIKE #JESUS CHRIST #IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THE PSYCHOLOGICAL HORROR BUT I WASNT EXPECTING **THIS**#like holy shit #i just got to the point chip stabbed himself in the chest w his swords while hallucinating his friends were attacking him both physically #and verbally. WHILE THEYRE ALSO IN A DESERT WHILE ALSO IN PRISON #and also the reveal of how jay and chip found gill and specifically how he ended up coming to the surface???#GOOD GOD MAN #THESE BAD BOYS CAN FIT SO MUCH TRAUMA LMAO #i’m honestly so actually hyped tho this is so so so so cool #i love psychological horror and i love emotionally inept characters being put in Situations that require them to confront their feelings #gotta be one of my favorite genders #but this is so so well done and the players are all doing great roleplaying this and grizzly is doing great running this #like i am enraptured rn #jrwi spoilers #jrwi riptide #jrwi gillion #jrwi chip #jrwi jay

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elegantartisanperson · 1 month

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4 shots of espresso and I'm feeling like a new person, full of energy focus and hope and dreams and so good god I haven't felt this good in so long. Is this how addictions start? because I feel so good rn, like life is finally liveable

#coffee #tbh there was an hour between first 2 and the second 2 shots #Might actually start to answer the asks I've gotten and even send some #I feel like I can do stuff #so far no signs of possible heart attack so that's cool!#I'm probably not gonna sleep well tonight though #I don't really sleep well anyways #not like I'm losing much #it's midnight though and that's not fortunate #but I'm not taking and loses rn I'm winning I'm feeling alive

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itstimeforstarwars · 8 months

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I have written only 300 words in the last month and it was for cody day. This job is ruining my life.

#chit chat #like obviously this is why i went on break clearly the break was necessary #but augh #i can barely even look at my writing much less work on it #because im just so angry all of the time and if i do anything that is frustrating but also *matters* to me i am going to damage it #i read over the next chapter of galidraan the other day and just wanted to fucking delete the whole thing #so #it may be closer to march before we get another chapter lol #this is why I've been playing the harmonica so much #hard to be frustrated when you're making train noises to teach yourself breathing techniques #actually does anyone remember that post that was like 'add a harmonica to spice up your next panic attack'?#that's what my life feels like rn lol

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hffhifjou · 1 year

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You are aware you are not God right? It is only normal for your interpretation of already existing fictional characters to look similar to other already existing fictional characters. Openly shaming your followers for not being on your blog 24/7 and know every single thing you approve or don't approve is not cute. "How dare you not compliment my art the way I want you to compliment it?!!??!!" And your reasoning doesn't even make any sense. Simon is not even your OC.

my first hater ‼️‼️‼️

#my first internet drama #the first sentence is crazy #lemur’s stuff #so idk if you want an actual response to this or if you’re just venting..but uhhh #hey if you’re one of the people that has compared my art to others pls don’t feel this attacked by it #its not that serious i promise #if you’re uncomfortable with my preferences…leave?#idk how to say that in a nice way..?#if you’re having a bad day rn and my post made you tip its fine but like.. i don’t think i demanded anything from anyone #and honestly i was just complaining to my mutuals #lets take a breather ok ?? 😐#squash the beef ‼️😔✊

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