#ae's musings

[the-aerispace]

This is how this stream feels

[the-aerispace]

have a Félix!

I realised after putting the final touches that he looks like he's on the cover of a magazine

Without Argos text & the sketches down below 👇👇

[the-aerispace]

I found this out and about

Would you consider this sufficiently ominous? @ominous-signs

[mephy-doodle-dandy]

(Source)

[imperial-refuse]

YOUR CONSTANT TOXIC SHIT WONT STOP! I DRINK IT ALL UP LIKE POISON POP!

[crownofaloe]

I've never cried to a finale like i have cried for the hour and a half of episode 16 of 'when life gives you tangerines'.

I'm in awe, I'm in awe of the writing, the emotions it's brought up in me.

The love in this show is unbelievable , I feel the love from everyone. It makes me weep for my parents.

I think one of the takeaways is karma. If you have good intentions, love your people, no matter if it takes 50 years and you have 10 wobbles and trips, it'll be okay in the end because of the love of the people around you.

I can't believe this show.

The scope... the breadth of the show, the whole lifetimes of people we see, the good the bad, I'm crying now after finishing the show.

What a beautiful story.

[the-aerispace]

Ladies, gentlemen and other esteemed guests

Behold:

The power of being WHIPPED

[legendforth]

"Oh, it's been quite some time, hasn't it?" Furred digits steeple in front of him, head politely canted to the side as you speak. "Mm? There's something different about me? Don't be silly, I'm just as you left me."

[asha-mage]

Every time I see a hot take that boils down to 'Jordan is CLEARLY a misogynist because he wrote the Aes Sedai as wracked by pettiness, infighting, and short sighted selfishness' I do a double take and have to remind myself that not everyone is familiar enough with medieval history to understand just how much Jordan direct lifted from the Roman Catholic Church in how he writes the Aes Sedai.

[sylacris]

— “say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime.”

alternatively: “save me, lead me from my solitude.” / i finally release the draft that’s been catching cobwebs in my docs since june 2023

phantom of the opera! dazai osamu x gn! reader

cws: possibly ooc, self indulgent.

wc: 1.0k

Track down the murderer! Do not let that animal escape!" The mob screams in rage, a fury directed at the one and only culprit of the chaos in the opera house.

They’ve had enough of this- this phantom. His demands, his actions, and how he acts like he's a being above them—the mob rallies above ground with torches and pitchforks, fueled by absolute despise for such a being.

"Too long has his reign of darkness terrorized this opera!" Shouts of agreement ring in the half-destroyed theater house, debris and glass littered across every surface of the floor, faint smoke wafting in the air as the mob charges underground.

"The phantom resides deep below! This monster cannot be left alive anymore!"

The echoes reverberate in the underground chambers; they are faint and barely audible, but you knew they were looking for him. Yet here he was, holding you like a vice in his arms, and yet his touch is soft, even warm. An arm circled around your waist while the other held your hand, faintly caressing your knuckles as if attempting to soothe you.

He leaned closer to your body, a slight weight piling on your back, burying his face in the crook of your neck, a sigh escaping his lips, his breath tickling your skin. You could only attempt to look at him through your peripherals, his tousled brown hair being the first thing you set your sights on.

The hand that held yours snakes upwards; he places both yours and his hand where your heart is. "May you sing for me, my angel?" he requests, and if you listened closely enough, it was as if he was begging, a tone you’ve only heard from him in jest, or perhaps in your unwaking nights.

"Osamu…" You voiced it out, the response to his words seemingly out of your reach.

He tilts his head. Dazai is not one to plead, however. "Please? For me?" He smiles softly. The traces of ‘the phantom’, the chaos incarnate that runs rampant along the crevices of the opera house, are no longer there; instead, it's the face of a man whose devotion to you—and only you—surpassed that of a thousand men in many lifetimes.

If that viscount could make you royalty, Dazai could make you an angel, he’d burn everything to ashes, meet death, and come back just for you. He’d repent, like the demon that he is, just to see you eye-to-eye, just to be able to hold you in his arms and call you his.

You knew he would do anything for you, and perhaps that was what instilled an odd fondness for such a man. His eyes reflected such solitude, an unwarranted loneliness befitting a shunned child.

Yet in those same eyes lies adoration, his piercing gaze thrilling your soul.

Adhering to his request, you gently hum a tune, one that he wrote for you to sing to. His gaze is fixated on you, a satisfied smile finding a place on his lips. His expression is akin to a child being given candy; you could almost excuse all his crimes with such a look.

Almost.

The arms wrapped around you let go, freeing you of his weight. You continued to vocalize as Dazai grabbed your hand in his and placed his other hand on your waist. Slow steps gradually turned into a waltz led by him.

“Come, embrace the darkness.” He softly sang to your tune, “Forget those earthly fears.”

"I'm here to keep you, to hide you,” he whispers. “Through music, I beguile you.”

He seems to be enjoying himself as you match his tune, with the final duet between a demon and his beloved angel taking turns. A duet only for the two of you to perform and to witness.

“Who appears to me—a friend or phantom?”

The hand on his waist moves to cup his cheek lightly; you could only guess that such an act surprised him as his eyes widened from your touch before leaning into it, savoring your touch.

"Who twines music for my soul to sing?"

A fond smile appears on your face, one that he wouldn't dare miss under the candlelit glow of his chambers.

"Show yourself to me, distorted angel."

“Do you fear the light as I fear for you? "You tilt your head as his eyes trail away from you.

"Are you afraid I'll leave you too?"

The hold on your waist falters ever so slightly as he lifts your hand, placing a chaste kiss on your knuckles. His melancholy so obvious, with a downcast air to him, yet he still manages to smile, that smile still persists; it’s almost disheartening how controlled he is. almost.

“I promise I'll keep you safe; let your fears be no more, my angel.” His honeyed tone tempted you with a promise, one of pure, unadulterated love, just for you.

“Let me be your freedom, your place of solace, a hideaway from the world above. Let us run away together, my angel.”

Dazai tilts your chin up, meeting his gaze—a look filled with hesitation as his eyes drop to your lips.

Yet the moment was fleeting, for the mob seemed to have come closer. Distant shouting, an angry cacophony. Who knows what they’ll do to you and to him once they reach these chambers?

(Kill. They’ll kill him.)

“Do you love me? "You whispered under your breath.

“What kind of question is that? "He raises an eyebrow, as if he has time to tease in this situation. With wholehearted assurance, he replies,

"You know I do."

He leans in to leave a small peck on your forehead, restrained even until now, when everything is high-stakes, yet that kiss alone seems to say everything you needed to know, yet at the same time, everything you already knew.

He hesitates at first before letting go of you. Walking to one of the draperies in the chambers, his hand grasps it before putting it to the side, revealing to you a secret exit. Of course. Of course, he of all people would have an exit strategy.

The downcast gleam in his eyes seems to disappear for just this once, as he’s back to that loveable, cat-like grin. With his other hand, he extends it to you as a final confirmation, a decision that you cannot undo once made.

And just this once, you’ve never been so sure of anything else.

[the-aerispace]

.....guys

nobody understands my craft

[brctherscnce]

MAIN HEADCANON MASTERLIST

i have at least SOME things that might be different from main bayverse canon! thought it would be good to make a list of it here in my personal headcanons! this will be added to the main PINNED post.

note 1: i have not read the comics. while i have seen the movies, some details may've slipped my mind and i am currently basing my bayverse headcanon solely on a mixture of the movies and personal headcanon! note 2: while these are my headcanons, please note that OBVIOUSLY it depends on the mun im writing with on if theyre comfortable with them! i wont force these headcanons or character dynamics on others-- but it's a general idea of events that made him who he is!!

THIS WILL BE VERY LONG, SO IT WILL BE UNDER A READMORE!!

THERE WILL BE THEMES OF DEATH, WAR, TORTURE, BRAINWASHING, MENTAL HEALTH, DISSOCIATIVE DISORDERS, AND SO ON. PLEASE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

first things first-- optimus was a miner. similarly to tfone, his orion days were mainly filled with mining, mining and more mining. it led to a while of yearning for something better-- and it's influenced many of his modern habits such as going for long periods of time without sleeping, an intimate understanding of the many shifting changes of the mines (as Primus's body/Cybertron attempts to heal), how to refine energon and an understanding of rationing said energon. however, if you give him an abundance of food that he can indeed have and does not need to share-- it will be wolfed down. he is not used to eating so much, and is only used to rationing and even then only simple meals.

he was mentored by stormreign, and meets megatron (and some others such as ratchet) through stormreign. during orion's struggles in the mines, he was eventually found and taken in by stormreign (the red knight in the Last Knight movie) to become an aspirant and then a knight of iacon. in order to study important topics such as battling and duels, orion meets megatron, a powerful gladiator who-- at first-- did not like orion and believed him a higher caste bot due to his role as aspirant. however, when orion explained his origins, this led to them bonding, and this is where optimus would have his more brutal fighting style when against several of the decepticons. he ALSO meets ratchet, as knights are expected to have basic medical knowledge, and ratchet was someone suggested due to his amazing medical prowess. this is where optimus has gotten the basic medical equipment that his servo can transform into.

as a knight-aspirant, he becomes an archivist/librarian. this was to encourage his studying, and help him understand not just more of Cybertron's history, but the concepts of art, literature, and many fine arts.

optimus meets MANY of his eventual old friends through the knights as an aspirant, save for Kup, whom he meets as a Prime. obviously, Optimus had a lot of old friends during the war. as a basic explanation: orion meets elita, who helps him with learning how to conduct his job as a new archivist/historian once he becomes a knight-aspirant. orion meets megatron to ask for his tutelage in one-on-one or one-on-group combat. orion meets ratchet in order to study basic medical treatment-- this is to allow for in-the-moment and emergency medical procedures to save someone's life on the battlefield, or to allow for quick tendings so as to heal for a time (however, quick tendings cannot replace proper medical care). orion, once becoming the leader of the Knights of Iacon, had personally requested for the assistance of Ultra Magnus (once requesting for the possibility of tutors) to learn how to properly lead a force as important as the Knights of Iacon. optimus (once made a prime) would eventually meet ironhide and kup in order to learn actual war tactics-- optimus was someone who wanted to understand what was happening on the battlefield, not being a leader that would sit back and watch things happen. he was determined to help his fellow soldiers and as such, he needed to learn how to PROPERLY fight on the field. kup and ironhide were his best choices.

megatron is a fellow knight!! yes indeed! obviously, he did not stay in the knights of iacon for very long-- but, with orion's many pleas to stormreign during the time he'd been training with megatron to understand battle and duels, stormreign eventually allows megatron to join the knights of iacon-- orion wanted megatron to have the chance at a new life, for them to truly be friends and to go on journeys together. obviously, that... didn't last too long.

optimus isnt just a knight-- hes the LEADER of the knights. orion didn't only just become a leader when he became prime. after the death of Stormreign (which happens in my canon and at a much earlier time), orion is deemed his successor and is expected to lead the knights. this catches Sentinel Prime's attention, and leads to Sentinel eventually choosing to take him under his wing and make orion into optimus.

sentinel makes orion into optimus. after orion is made into the leader of the knights of iacon, Sentinel catches notice of orion and, in order to make a political move of keeping the Knights of Iacon in his pocket, takes in a very emotionally-distraught orion that recently lost his mentor/sire-figure. this would be around the time of a rebellion being led by a newly-formed group called the Decepticons... and this would lead to Sentinel making Orion into Optimus, to make him the face of the Primacy and thus gets to leave Optimus to do his work while Sentinel leaves with the Pillars.

sentinel didn't betray optimus once, but THRICE. with stormreign's death-- it wasn't just a matter of sentinel waiting for the right time 'til stormreign eventually died. in order to have power over the knights of iacon through using a grieving orion, sentinel killed stormreign... very similarly to that of how ironhide was killed. with his back turned, and with his familiar blaster that'd turn poor mechs into rust-dust. it was nothing personal for sentinel. it was simply an advantageous move for him. and THEN, when optimus DID become prime? sentinel had used it as a way to make optimus the figurehead of the war that was beginning between Sentinel and the Decepticons, thus allowing optimus to take the fall while Sentinel left with the Pillars.

during the war, optimus was called 'nemesis prime'. yes! i have it to where nemesis always has been an active part of optimus, and not something that he was just named out of the blue. during the war, when it got worse and worse optimus began to take a more cold approach towards his foes over time, acting more like a gladiator than a knight due to his feelings of a need to survive as well as to protect the others around him-- this led to him becoming far more ruthless, brutal, yet efficient on the battlefield. thus, this led to the Decepticons giving him the name of Nemesis Prime, originally out of propaganda against the Autobots. THIS is what is eventually used by Quintessa, who is actively using his past traumas to control him more. this will be talked about more later.

this is a lot for the pre and mid-cybertron war eras! here's some mid-series and post-war!

just like in the Transformers (2007) game, Optimus does not ask for the Allspark to be pushed into his own sparkcore. Instead, he does THIS with it to Megatron while saying 'you left me no choice, brother'.

the matrix is optimus's life support. with optimus having been killed at the hands of megatron and the other decepticons, this obviously led to a... lack of life. lack of spark. you know the deal. however, with the matrix being granted to him and as something that is possibly connected to the allspark/well of sparks/primus himself, it's given optimus a new chance at life, though his spark has a wispy 'cracked' or 'shattered' look to it due to the matrix being plunged into his very sparkcore by sam. depending on his physical state-- if he is left without the matrix, he will die within a few months or weeks if he's lucky, or within a few days if not.

optimus still has his jetwings! hell yeah he does! when revived and given the extra parts through Jetfire's sacrifice, some of this had permanently altered the way optimus would transform, allowing for the possibility of transforming to have wings on his back and thrusters to help him fly through the air. however, as most of these parts had fallen, Optimus couldn't really get them again until he'd rescanned a truck during Age of Extinction and had gotten a fresh glow-up. he does not use them often, and they are TECHNICALLY 'detachable'. he still has the mechanisms for supporting wings within his back, but the 'wing' plates themselves will come from the hauler he sometimes has. the hauler can transform (it is more 'sectioned' with how the plating is than it may look to the human eye, due to it also needing to be disguised). this can form the mighty wings optimus has.

optimus and megatron form a rather rocky truce to take down sentinel together. this is the ONLY thing i know about the comics due to the fact michael bay got pissy mad at it DFKSLDH but... optimus, at megatron's offer of a truce, accepted it without fail. things were getting rough on earth by this point, and optimus could tell that sentinel's shit was gonna make things worse... if they wanted to take down a more wiser fella like Sentinel, they had to work together. so, like old times during their knighthood together, they fight to take on sentinel and kill him once and for all. and while obviously the two would separate after this, it wouldn't be for long, as around this time the CIA would force NEST to become Cemetery Wind/the TRF, and thus begin to hunt down Cybertronians. megatron would be nearly killed in his weakened state by lockdown, who would take him to KSI in order to let them experiment and create their own transformers

sam is dead. you heard that right. for most interactions mid-AOE and onward as well as post-series (obviously save for exceptions based on interactions with other muns), sam was killed. this was during one of optimus's attempts to escape along with some of the remaining Autobots (bumblebee) to reach a place where they could hide. however, as they were attacked, sam was killed in the crossfire by Cemetery Wind. he had his body gently prepared and returned to his family.

optimus doesn't kill attinger. i imagine that optimus, despite EVERYTHING, would not have attinger killed. it was no doubt that cade was in danger, but i imagine optimus certainly could've managed another way to distract attinger or knocking him out through the use of a blast nearby him to send him flying instead of killing him, or using other tricks like his optics that made it look like he could have the goddamn ground crumble beneath people's feet. as seen in the previous movie(s), he could INDEED take on multiple opponents at once.

ALSO, optimus does not instantly leave earth when the battles are over. optimus sees it as HIS fault that cade and tessa lost their homes, despite cade willingly bringing him in and offering to tend to him. so, optimus takes this time to find them new homes (and help tessa into college somehow) while also ensuring their safety. this is when he eventually gets to help cade with reaching the junkyard and having it be a safe place for bots. he does everything he can to at least make sure everyone is safe enough before he leaves. and even THEN, optimus communicates what he plans on doing: finding their creator, the one who killed so many just to get Optimus back. and deal with whoever this creator might be. and while he does know bumblebee may struggle with the leadership role due to the behavior Drift showed with him-- optimus will do EVERYTHING to give him the confidence to lead, and shows him that he really can be an amazing leader.

due to different timezones and orbital cycles on planets, Optimus was tortured for far longer than what was seen on-screen. cybertron and earth have different orbital cycles, different timezones, and different ways of measuring time. this means that optimus was tortured for longer than what was possibly seen in the movie by Quintessa-- he could've arrived to Cybertron far earlier than expected, and thus tortured for longer than expected. and she certainly did a lot if OPTIMUS PRIME had his will broken and thus forcibly controlled by Quintessa. this has left Optimus deeply traumatized, afraid of intimacy if it is not with someone he's known for ages (i.e, Kup, Ratchet, Ironhide, or any others, as well as Cade), and often has night terrors.

NEMESIS PART I: despite Nemesis being rather cruel, he is still Optimus at spark. obviously, there's major differences, like Nemesis actively threatening to kill humans, going out of his way to get the Staff to let earth be harvested, and striking down his fellow knights (as well as fighting Bumblebee). HOWEVER, i imagine Nemesis is someone who will not actively fight if people do not get in his way. he is not actively hostile to fellow Cybertronians-- after all, his goal is to revitalize Cybertron and kill Unicron. if humans are not actively trying to attack him, kill him, or get in his way with retrieving the staff, they are spared.

NEMESIS PART II: Nemesis Prime is a result of an identity disorder for protecting himself from his trauma. nemesis is not some 'evil part' of Optimus Prime, but is actually Optimus mentally and emotionally retreating to a point in time during the War on Cybertron, where he took a far more cold and ruthless approach against his enemies and became far more distant and brutal-- it is a separate identity formed from his experiences during the war. he is intense. he is determined to push people away. it is a means of protecting himself and focusing solely on survival. it could be something akin to some sort of dissociative identity disorder. he threatens because he is afraid... but does not actually want to hurt anyone. it is simply because when Nemesis usually fronts, it is to protect Optimus's psyche-- if you are kind to him, he is confused by it (but will, inevitably, return the kindness... in his own way). Optimus will not remember what he did as Nemesis Prime unless he is told.

as of current, Optimus blames himself for EVERYTHING that happened on Cybertron. it does not matter if Megatron himself started the war or if Sentinel Prime forcibly put Optimus into the role of Prime to make him the face of said war. Optimus blames himself for the actions taken-- for the Allspark, for fighting against the Fallen, for fighting and killing Sentinel, for 'allowing himself' (being tortured and broken) to be brainwashed by Quintessa, and for ultimately stopping Earth from being harvested multiple times... as well as for what happened to the Autobots.

he is also attempting to rebuild the commandeered knight ship from Age of Extinction. yes, the ship that Lockdown himself commandeered-- Optimus has retaken it (somehow, probably through a BUNCH of work). considering it held Optimus's very sword within it (as well as his reaction to seeing what Lockdown had done to it, AND Lockdown mentioning his fellow knights), it is safe to say it was once a ship used by the Knights of Iacon. Optimus is attempting to have it fixed in order to eventually leave Earth to try to somehow revitalize Cybertron or find a new planet to call home, all to protect his fellow Autobots. however... that doesn't mean he'll just leave forever. ESPECIALLY considering Cybertron is in place of Earth's moon now.

[imperial-refuse]

Smells like car oil and polished steel out here...

just vyrgyl doing mechanic stuff coz i wanted to draw something showing off some of his scars.

[spkyscry]

"Oh, hey guys, sorry I'm late! You would not believe what happened to me!" Here is Scott, for the Con. Entirely bare to the world at large. At large being the key words here. He has no bags. No anything, on his person. At the very least that can be seen, there is at least one pocket at any given time, clothes or no.

[the-aerispace]

I DID IT :))

I made the silly little guy!!!!! I gave contrarian a design finally!!!

Tumblr ate all my pixels, click for better quality

[asha-mage]

I think the reason I don't buy the argument that the show is framing Siuan as a villain/antagonist is that, while some of her actions are morally questionable (as are the actions of many of the characters in the show and books- including Moiraine and Rand in this episode) the merits of what she is saying are completely reasonable.

Cause the thing is, Siuan is right: Moiraine has lost control of the situation, and she no longer has the ability to be a check on Rand if he goes mad or becomes a threat to the world, much less protect him from the Forsaken. Meanwhile Rand, who should be out fulfilling prophecies, gathering nations and peoples behind him, fighting the Forsaken and rallying the world, has spent six months doing fuck all in Cairhien. He certainly has not been working to learn to control the One Power, which is the reason Moiraine lured him to Cairhien in the first place. Instead he's crept closer to either the One Power killing him from his failure to control it, or else going mad from using it.

Is taking him into custody and putting the Tower's leash on him the right move, morally? Maybe or maybe not, it depends on what you believe. Is it something that makes a disturbing amount of sense to an increasingly desperate Siuan? Well she says it herself in The Shadow Rising: Rand will full fill no prophecies dead. At least in the Tower he will be safe from the Forsaken and at least shielded the possibility of him killing himself on accident with the One Power is eliminated.

Is calling Lanfear for a save a morally right response for Moiraine and RAnd? Maybe and maybe not- the Foregaters and other innocents slaughtered by Lanfear's rampage would probably argue no, not moral, but Moiraine would likely argue yes, because it was necessary in order to free Rand so he could save the world. Was it in character for both of them? Definitely yes, given how desperate they are, and how rapidly the stakes are rising for Rand personally, and the world more generally.

Is Siuan using the Oath to force Moiraine to seal the Waygate a morally right thing? Probably not. Does it make sense when one of the Forsaken has attacked the city conveniently giving Rand the chance to escape right as Moiraine has abruptly and mysteriously regained her ability to channel? Absolutely.