#again I'm fragile rn so it's probably not as bad as it feels like it is

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

I hate getting excited about something and accidentally sharing it with someone when they're in the wrong mood to hear it. Makes me feel like a dog trying to play with their human in an antidepressant commercial and ruins my entire mood

[whump-a-la]

Idk what it is, but rn I have a craving for winged whumpees. I know it's cliche and all, but there's so much to work with.

- Clipped wings in captivity. Especially if we're shown the clipping and it's uncomfortable for the whumpee. Maybe whumper torments them, stroking their hand over the soft feathers/wrinkly skin/whatever the fuck the wings are made of. Just cause they know whumpee hates it so much.

- Broken wings. Another cliche, but I love it. Does it get mended? Will whumpee ever fly again? Well, that's up to you, as the author!

- Restraining/binding wings. Remember Angel/Warren in Last Stand? That. Except, if it's done over very long periods of time with zero release, muscles *can* atrophy. I'm probably in need of more research on the subject, but I'll leave elaboration to people in the notes who are more informed.

- Being shot down. Imagine how it must feel, to essentially be taken down like a massive fucking pheasant. Pretty bad, right? Also, potential mediwhump followup!

- Put your whumpees into too-small birdcages, so that they can't quite fully spread their wings, if they can open them at all.

- Bird bones are hollow, mostly. They have to be in order for flight to happen. So, same principle might apply to winged whumpees? I know I mentioned broken wings earlier, but the idea of *every* bone being so fucking fragile really does something to me.

uhhhh, thats it from me, feel free to add other ideas and shit, idrk

[starbornsoulrider]

once again thinking about the Halo Fucking Dies scene that I made up in my brain where Halo follows in Aideen's footsteps and sacrifices themself to restore life to Jorvik and THIS TIME!! i'm thinking about the dark riders' reaction

in the Halo Canon (TM) the dark riders do get redeemed im not sure how yet. but somehow, Halo managed to make them think that maybe earth wasn't so bad, maybe they could have a life here after all, and maybe they were fucking Tired from fighting for so. so long for a being that doesn't even give a shit about them. either they help in the fight against garnok, or they finally realize they don't want this halfway through and turn sides in the middle of the battle. like i said still not. exactly sure how it plays out and it'll probably be better than how i'm describing it rn but THAT'S NOT THE POINT!!

once the battle concludes, there was just too much damage done to the fragile barrier between Jorvik and Pandoria, and at this rate even with Garnok gone they're both bound to just swallow and destroy each other. everyone thinks they've failed, until- Halo slowly begins to disappear, slowly dissipating into tiny bits of light. Fripp sadly realizes what is happening, and tells everyone that in order to mend the tears and restore both worlds Halo must sacrifice their life-giving light the way Aideen did.

the soul riders, of course, are devastated. they crowd around Halo as they start to fade away, holding their hands and beg them not to go. Halo's accepted it, so they're thanking everyone for everything.

in the background, the dark riders stand, just. watching. not sure of what to do.

Katja feels empty. nothing unusual for her, but somehow this time the emptiness is different. heavier. this feeling she doesn't like settles in her as she watches Halo disappear. she can't put words to it, but she can't make it go away. so she just continues watching.

Jay looks confused, frustrated. this can't be fair. her composure falters. this can't be right, can it? the brat fought so hard for this stupid island, for their annoying little friends, only to die for it? it sparks this anger in here, but she knows she can't do anything about it- so she, too, just watches.

Sabine’s hit the hardest. she doesn’t look like it, but she is. out of all the dark riders Halo’s relationship with Sabine was the most complicated one but also the deepest running one. they went from bitter rivals, to full blown nemesis’s after Sabine tried and almost succeeded in killing Buddy, to mutual respect, to having a sort of “maybe we could’ve been friends in a different life” thing. and then, before all this, it seemed like maybe it wouldn’t have to be a in a different life after all. but that chance has been ripped away, and she’s still processing it. for the first time the full brunt of realizing Halo matters to her is hitting and she doesn’t know what to do about it because it’s too late.

and idk about Elise/whatever the fourth one’s name is now I’m not. super attached to her. I’ll think of smth when we actually get to know her in game ig

anyways I’M INSANE!!! and for the record I’m not allowed to clarify whether this scene is canon or just an idea :)

[bansheeoftheforest]

Uh, is there still an angst break? Ignore this ask until your ready if so 👉😎👉

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What was the au where Jekylls pushed down the stairs and experiences a skull crackening again? Oh well but I've been thinking of a branch of that where Jekyll doesn't know hes dead like all day. I also cant remember if that was already discussed or not

The lodgers patch him up, he complains of a headache, and goes on his merry way! He's confused why all the lodgers are so nervous and being nice to him all of the sudden, why creature is looking at him with a stange mix of empathy and pity. He was told he fell down the stairs, fell unconscious, and obtained a bit of an injury. He cant fathom why Frankenstein is "The only doctor who can treat him" why he has to constantly go to her for checkups. Why Maijabi is suddenly following him practically everywhere.

Hyde squeezes back control for a moment and tries the potion but it doesn't work. Maybe a bit of pain but certainly no transformation. Jekyll assumes his injury or whatever medication they're giving him to treat it somehow negated the effects

Jekyll complains about "suddenly blacking out" the lodgers know its because his soul is slippery. They tell him it must just be a side effect of the injury and not to worry

How long can they keep it secret from him? When does he find out? Does he? Does it get to be years only for him to realize that he hasn't aged? That he still needs checkups from Frankenstein? Does he learn sooner? Does a lodger crack and say it? Does he rot? Does he notice how so very cold he is. How animals act around him? It's all very interesting,,

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I actually did think a bit of Jekyll's kidnappers for the amnesia kidnapping au! When drawing that lil sketch of Henry and O'Leary meeting Robert I had considered making it so O'Leary was suspicious of Lanyon like "Oh theres no news anywhere of someone matching Thomas' description who's missing. But some random people walk up claiming to know him? Begging to take him back with them?" And he'd think they were the kidnappers. But ultimately I decided against it as I felt Lanyon and Rachel were pretty clearly, genuinely concerned for "Thomas" :p

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I tried playing assassins creed once, the first(?) one. But the controls were confusing and everything was sorta thrown all at me at once, and I got bored of it quickly

But! I went to the store the other day and just so happened to notice Syndicate was being sold for 15 dollars 👀 So I bought it because funky Victorian assassins and your influence! It's a bit less confusing then the first ac game I tried but why is going down or dropping so hard bdksnks. I'm having quite a bit of fun! If you dont count my rage and annoyance-, the B button refuses to cooperate with me unless I'm looting corpses >:(

The b button being the bane of my existence aside, I AM having fun! I like the funky outfits and I want to play as the girl twin (evie?) forever because her clothes are good and shes better at attacking than jacob(?) For some reason. Probably the stun her weapon has? Oh well! I have not unlocked any new outfits yet, nonetheless I wish there were more.

Also! I was thimking, and my current quests are taking place at 1868? Did I get that right? And Jekyll is like 35 in 1885. So in game he'd be 18! An au like I believe you mentioned sounds very interesting 👀 but I must play more to know what's going on and daydream about it

That would be the resurrection au <3

But god, I really like that branch! Especially combined with the hc that he can't feel pain bc the HJ7 and the transformations made him immune. Frankenstein patched him up and made fleshweaver to heal the crack in his skull but it still has to be bandaged, he surely broke a few bones, yet all he has to do is to be careful because it doesn't even hurt. He doesn't even realize how severe the injuries are because it doesn't hurt, it very well might just have been that he accidentally slipped at the bottom of the staircase and accidentally hit his head on the railing during his fall, rather than getting physically pushed and flying down the stairs, shattering his skull upon impact with the marble floor. Y'know what would be extra fun? If he only starts getting a bit suspicious about how severe the injury was once he realizes his lungs stop breathing for minutes at a time when he gets distracted, or his heartbeat stops dead in his chest. I know that that's not how biology or even creature works but lets say the HJ7 is funky, Zombie Jekyll my beloved. Perhaps he would only fully grasp what had happened once he blacked out too much and 'passed out', but his soul slipped out enough to leave his body unconscious on the floor while his soul/ghost was just... Watching. And it's not until Maijabi (who, as you said, follows him everywhere) immediately calls for more Lodgers saying that Henry's soul is getting unstable and Frankenstein's lousy job is starting to shine through that he fully understands that it was not a mere hit to the head. Or maybe it is when days, weeks, maybe months has passed and the headache never goes away, he only feels how his body starts feeling so much more... Fragile and delicate, that the guilt has eaten Helsby up alive and he corners him and spills everything, knowing he is going directly against what the group agreed to but not being able to keep it a secret much longer-- or maybe Creature would tell him immediately, once Henry is, for once, alone perhaps days after the initial accident. He cannot see Henry struggle to understand what is going on when he already knows what's happening to Henry, his mind, and his body. He doesn't listen to the plan that Frankenstein and the Lodgers has set up and immediately tells Henry the first moment they are alone. That would certainly be horrifying, I can only imagine how the Lodgers would find Henry after that, once he actually knows and manages to process everything. He would be so mad, not only to have been killed in the first place, but also because he was robbed of an afterlife because the Lodgers were selfish and could not accept the consequences of their actions. He would be mad, he would be so pissed and I have no doubt he might actually be mad at Maijabi too for even agreeing to help Frankenstein and the rest of the Lodgers. That anger would not stay long, though. That anger would soon turn into misery and sadness and paranoia so even as Henry has tried to push Maijabi away, Henry still ends up on his doorstep begging him to help him make sure he is not rotting, because no matter what anyone says, he is sure he can see rotten spots and patches on his skin and he is just so scared and jdhfjsdfdsfsfs... <3

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Ooooooohhh, I was actually daydreaming about this just this morning! Granted, I woke up at 5 and began to daydream to fall asleep quicker but I still like the thought of O'Leary being suspicious of Robert/Rachel/Jasper/the Lodgers bc he is protective of 'Thomas' and doesn't want anything bad to happen to him and especially with the idea that Henry still has hallucinations and they both think he was abandoned by his family, left to rot at a mental asylum. O'Leary might very well think that it might be Henry's friends and family that dumped him that Henry had 'escaped' the hospital and that's why they knew he was missing since the Asylum itself obviously wouldn't have posted the news... I really liked Jeks idea, okay? Like a lot, I absolutely love it <3

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Oh, the oldest AC game I played was Unity bc it was free after the Notre Dame fire, and I can confirm, I played 15 min and could not get through it even if i would have wanted to, it absolutely sucks so i have no doubt the older games are just as frustrating <3

BUT!!!! I'M SO GLAD MY CORRUPTION IS SPREADING AND YOU BOUGHT AND PLAYED IT AND ARE ENJOYING IT SO FAR!!! Trust me, Syndicate truly is an absolutely amazing game and is definitely one of my top 3 games of all time. I sometimes play it w my friend watching me play and trust me, I know that rage of trying to do smt but the character does smt else... or you try to do smt but the game doesn't react and you miss your chance... Oh well, still a wonderful game <3

My friend loves to play as Evie as well but I'm definitely playing Jacob every chance I get and I honestly get a lil pissy when I have to play as Evie bc I always prefer to play male characters, plus, I just like Jacob better bc he is a sweetheart. He is also canonically bisexual as hell!!! Have you met Abberline yet? The police officer? Him and Jacob together is one of my fave ships for the game. I also bought the ultimate/golden/whatever name it was edition so I had a bunch of extra outfits, I love the sherlock holmes outfit for Jacob but my friend keeps bullying me for it </3

Honestly? The time difference is the bane of my entire idea for the au bc if it's during their time Henry hasn't even graduated yet, and definitely not well-known enough for them to actively meet for whatever reason, and if you use the timeline for the jack the ripper dlc (in 1888) a lot of... Less than pleasant things happen so it wouldn't really make a lot of sense for a crossover to happen at that point but maybe it's just bc im a pussy and refuse to play the dlc. Rn, while imagining the au, I just imagine the 1868 timeline to be the same as the TGS timeline. I like to imagine the Frye Twins hearing about Henry and the Society and promptly breaking into his office to ask him to make poison and stuff for them. I also have a feeling that Jacob would flirt wildly with Henry and that Henry would be less-than-amused. It would also be a very fun thing with the fact that there would be two Henrys, with TGS Henry Jekyll and AC Syndicate Henry Green, soo... XD

[violentviolette]

How do u cope with perceived rejection? I'm at the point rn where I don't want to leave the house bc I don't want to interact with anyone anymore.

oof, that sucks. im sorry anon.

honestly for me its a combo of a lot of little things and techniques but also its still hard sometimes. I also don't have any issue when it comes to strangers. I dont care if random people don't like or reject me or think negatively of me I only care if the people I care about and want to like me don't like me. if that makes sense? so sorry if some of this isnt as helpful for those kinds of situations

but okay so my main steps are usually firstly reminding myself that I'm not that important in peoples lives. and I dont mean that in a self depreciating way so just stay with me. most people are self centered in that were all the most important person to ourselves, we live in our own brains and with our own thoughts 24/7 and so were constantly thinking about ourselves and our behavior and our life and all the things going on in it that are important to us. and like thats a good normal thing but that also means that so is everyone else. no one is paying as much attention to me and what im doing as I am, because theyre paying attention to themselves.

so I remind myself of that and remind myself that most people have a lot going on that has nothing to do with me and so their bad mood or their quietness or their weird vibe isnt them hating and rejecting me, it just means theyre upset and theres a millions reasons why that could be that are more important to them than some little thing i did.

next up is that whatever the most mundane and casual explination that exists is, is probably the truth. and even if i truly think it isnt, i act as if it is until someone directly tells me otherwise. is someone not talking to me today or hasnt replied in hours? theyre probably really busy at work or eating or showering or maybe their phone is dead, and it helps me to ask myself “well when are some times ive taken 2 hours to respond and why was that” and if im being actually honest with myself i will find times when i have behaved the same but wasnt mad at someone or rejecting them. so i always force myself to believe the mundane solution, which helps me not act on any of my feelings.

because even if i really cant believe it in the moment, i can act like i do. so say someone hasnt talked to me and i feel like theyre rejecting me, i tell myself its just because theyre busy and not because theyre mad and force myself to act accodingly. i message them a normal amount and i dont mention my feelings or suspicions and then eventually they always talk to me again like normal and then i can be like “see, eveyrthing was fine and we were just being crazy. glad i didnt do anything about it”

only act on direct information, never assumptions. i act like nothing is wrong until someone directly tells me it is, because i dont live in their head and i cant read their thoughts. i dont truly know how they’re thinking and feeling until they tell me. (and for all u other aspd and npd assholes out there NO U DONT. genuinly and honestly. people are always capable of surprising us and even when we think we have them nailed and know exactly what their thinking, even if were right, u cannot just assume someones thoughts and take it as fact. its disordered and unhealthy and u need to stop doing it if u want better relationships with others) and if they haven’t directly told me something is wrong, then they haven’t communicated properly and that is on them. i dont read into vagueposts or status updates or tweets or level of activity or anything. i notice all of it because my brain is crazy but i force myself to ignore everything except the direct words someone says to me.

is their discord status something super upset that i think vaguely relates to me? that means nothing what was the last thing they said to me? oh that they love me and then we had a totally normal interaction. thats whats the truth, and if they were lying and they actually are mad at me, then thats on them for literally communicating the exact opposite of their feelings.

and lastly, if its people who ur close with, u can also ask for reassurance or validation in a way that doesnt accuse them of doing anything wrong. i will often go to my wife and instead of being like “are u mad at me?” or something i’ll say “im feeling really fragile today can u help reassure me that u love me and that im good?” or “I know u love me but can u tell me again i need to hear it extra today” or if its a friend sometimes i’ll say “hey im feeling kind of insecure and anixious today, when u get a chance could u reassure me that we’re still friends?” or literally just coming in the chat like “hello friends i require validation today” and then people will repsond with emojis and “god mood” and i will feel better

these are good ways to ask for support because they dont put any blame or onus on the other person, its about u and ur feelings, and usually if its people who care about u they’ll have no problem doing that. my friends and i tell eachother very often that we love and care about and genuinly like one another because reassurance and validation is Good and it should be a normal part of ur relationships. (no one insert a screenshot of that time ryo said he was feeling paranoid we hated him so i instantly sent him screenshots of my dms about my crush on him i will skin u)

but yea. those are the main things i do and tell myself and sorry this got so long but i dont know how to explain things like this without a million words lol i hope that made sense and that some of it was helpfull for u

[sophsicle]

hi !!!!!! i just spent that last 20 hours reading the entirety of choices and oh my god! i've never had a better excuse to ignore schoolwork and all other responsibilities.

you have no idea how badly i wish choices was a real paperback book that i could hold in my hands because i could seriously go through 8 pens trying to annotate every lingering thought i have about each page you write. it's brilliant i love it (even though i know you've heard this all before!!) the way you write the characters with such detail and relatability gets me every time. and more so to see how with each chapter and stage of the story (especially the time skip) they grow, they change, they learn. it truly feels like i'm seeing my friends grow up and start their lives together and it's so meaningful!! seeing the shift in relationship of lily and james going from friends to not friends to friends to lovers, the turmoil of sirius and remus forgiving eachother for keeping secrets and then just keeping more secrets , regulas having to make choices he doesn't want to make but has to time and time again never being able to break the cycle. the way that regulas and sirius both have a different relationship with speaking french. the way regulas speaks about an unborn draco. james trying to balance his feelings of lily and regulas. sirius and remus walking on eggshells with eachother because they both want eachother so badly, but they're so so so fragile. it's gut wrenching

i hate u for being canon compliant, i know it will hurt and nothing will soften the blow of the upcoming chapters. i'll probably make a million alternative endings in my head. always wondering what could've been if regulas had just run away to the potters house one summer during his years at hogwarts and never looked back. but i am at least a little excited to see how much your ending will break me. i've only cried over two fics in my entirely life and yours is one of them (important detail: i cried more at yours) and i hope u feel bad about it!!! thank you!!!

i do honestly hope one day someone finds a way to print this (on lulu or smth?? no idea) or finds a way to annotate on ao3 because i really really do have so many emotions running through my head on every paragraph that i have to find a way to express, either in ur ask box, a 3 hour long video essay on youtube or filling up my notes app until the app crashes.

it's 11:55pm rn, i started at chapter one yesterday morning and just finished chapter 46. im debating starting a spotify playlist for james and reg, making a pinterest board for the story, or just saying fuck it and rereading it from the beginning bc i am!! not going to be able to sleep after what you've done to me. thank you thank you i hate this thank you

Hello lovely! Thank you so much for taking the time to write this all out! The only thing I really care about in stories is the characters so it really means a lot to me when people say that they feel like the characters in this fic are well developed and have depth and flaws and arcs etc. (honestly I also hope someone finds a way to print this and then tells me how because I am a lover of a well warn paperback book full of notes and highlights and I think it would be cool to get to hold this story in my hands y'know?) Sorry for the tears!!! But thank you again, I hope you like the rest of the fic! :) :)

[that-bajan-kid]

BNHA CHAPTER 271 SPOILERS

I'm having a crisis over my essay, that I already submitted, not have a works cited page so I'm gonna make this instead as a distraction. Enjoy, but also be gentle I'm fragile

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I really like Hawks. He's one of my favourite characters. He doesn't fit into any particular mould and that's one of the main reasons why I like. The other two being he's funny and hot but we ain't here to talk about that.

I think the idea of having Hawks permanently loosing his wings is great. I don't necessarily think what Hawks did is wrong, but it's definitely not good either. I believe Hawks was justified in his actions no matter how painful it was to read. He tried to reason with Twice, Twice didn't listen, blah blah blah, Twice is dead. Again completely justifiable, but that doesn't make it good.

I believe that if you do good things good things will happen to you. Like karma I guess. Twice did some really bad things in his life so he got stabbed in the back by a friend, literally. Hawks did a murder. A justifiable murder backed by good intentions but a murder none the less and because of this Hawks has bad karma. And how shall the universe rectify this? By taking away the one thing Hawks can actually rely on. The one thing that brings him. The defines him as a person. His quirk.

Hawks permanatly losing his quirk, I think, is a petty suitable punishment because his entire life after the HC started training him was about his quirk. His self-worth is probably based on his quirk because of this. Shit, his whole career revolves around how versatile and flashy his quirk is. It's the soul reason the HC went after him in the first place. Without it he's got nothing. Hawks is only 23 yrs old. That's his entire future gone. And that's not even counting the lasting effect being almost burnt to death has on your body.

So yeah. Hawks losing his quirk would be interesting.

Anyway I got a little side tracked from what I really wanted to discuss.

Tokoyami Fumikage. I can understand why he would feel this way. His opinion of the situation is very biased. Fumi only knows as the guy who crashed his training camp resulting in: him losing control of his very dangerous quirk and endangering the lives of his friends and classmates, him being almost kidnapped, his classmate being actually kidnapped, and several of his classmates and friends needing to be hospitalised. So I think it's safe to say he doesn't have a very high opinion of Twice.

There's also the fact that he can't trust what Dabi says is true. He could be lying about what really went down. Yeah we know that Dabi is telling the truth but Fumi doesn't have a reason to believe anything Dabi says to him. After all, Dabi set the entire forest on fire during the training camp arc and was the one who dragged Bakugou into the portal. That doesn't exactly scream trust worthy.

Then there's that fact that Hawks is slowly dying in Fumi's arms and the adrenaline from his fight-or-flight response is pumping through his body rn. He doesn't have the mental capacity to fully acknowledge the gravity of the situation. Also he's 16. Teenagers tend to not think about how actions done in the past effect things in the future.

On the other hand, I don't want Fumi thinking what Hawks did was okay. Was it the right call to make? Considering the situation, yes. Does that make it any less wrong? No. I hope Fumi acknowledges this later and doesn't go around thinking he can kill any villain he deems to dangerous.

When Hawks wakes up he and Fumi need to have a long conversation about this.

So yeah that's all. Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk.