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stimsz · 9 months

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end of summer stimboard for my birthday🌼

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bangcakes · 5 months

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#personal #ladies... its lovesickness on the menu again tn NDNNDNDNDMDMDNDMDMDMDM #god help me #i made it like 29 years without this. why now NFNDNDNNDNDNDNDMD #like ok im happy to be experiencing this in the sense that like... now ik what it feels like to really like someone #but man oh man is it... A Lot #and like maybe its this intense at any age. but idk..... it feels like So Much.....#and im freaking out bc i talk to my mom about it ok. and shes like oh ya that reminds me of how i felt with ur dad in the beginning n im #just... like ... o #bc my parents were like friends first and are like in Love love and have a v happy marriage so im just #the... Potential of having that n like oh god idk. i just dont know its all too much......#and im also like what if its all in my head. but then again like why is he waiting around for me n messaging me out of the blue.#i also caught him staring at me n looking away after i caught him. i just..... idk like i wanna Believe so bad but im so scared too........#im all over the place JDJDDMDMDMDMDMDMDNJDND #but i also am just..... i'll be patient .... bc rushing is no good #like idk. i feel like things have been Moving. and its not super fast but its a pace i can handle #bc ok say i Do ask him out or he asks me.... then oh fuck. then all the Scary things happen. like ok not scary #i dint think itd be scary with him #but idk.... physical... things. would start happening n like. id l9ve to hold his hand n like k___ him ok OK. but at the same time i just..#idk !!!!!!! im v shy !!!!!@@@@@ and ya. ....... idk 😭😭😭#like i like him so much that i think id want him to .... i just .. ya idk.#getting kind of ahead of myself here but what else is new

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pettyprocrastination · 10 months

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thinking about a super hero who was once praised by all and treated like an absolute rock star: constant groupies, interviews, sponserships, endless fans every where that is now a washed-up “has been” despite the fact he can still punch through reinforced steel and rip aliens apart with his bare hands. He has a regular human assistant who puts him in his place and is absolutely detrimental to his mental health (he is so fucked up in the head <3)

#very 'the boys' esque but i was never that into homelander #also i can't find anthony starr attractive so. im making my own thats NOT a rapist #tj talks #anyways #in the age of super heroes and brand deals #his baby brother is actually the one that 'replaces' him #he's younger and leaner and 'prettier' by demographic standards: more down-to-earth and approachable but actually a HORRIBLE human being!#but our hero just. lounges around all day while annoying his assistant as she sits in his million dollar house and does menial paperwork #he's unassumingly threatening because he's been 'dormant' for so long people don't really see him as scary #but then one day he gets back into the field for a reason and people are like oh. oh my fucking god he's terrifying #probably has a police scanner he listens to when he's having a bad night so he can find somebody bad he can beat the shit out of #without feeling like he's doing something morally incorrect/still being a hero. he fucked up!

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running-in-the-dark · 2 months

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a super fun thing that my brain is really good at is hearing a random fact and remembering it forever. but only if it's bad :)

#the reason I'm thinking about that right now: I wish I had never read that having a crease on your earlobe means you're more likely to have #heart disease.#scared me so much that I read a whole paper about it #but it's been years now so I don't remember the details #just that that's a thing apparently #and guess what my brain does with that information? oh yeah of course I have to obsessively look at the ears of everyone now! does that #do anything helpful? nope! just makes me very very anxious :)#it's just like when I was a kid and I got nightmares about scurvy every time I didn't eat a potato for a week.#like. wow I could be so smart and everything if my brain wasn't constantly focused on random bullshit that is completely irrelevant 😭#also this thing specifically: I've always been weirdly fascinated by ears and this made that a million times worse and also very scary.#like ooh that's a nice ear :) oh no death exists and this person is going to die and #yeah it sucks.#specifically choosing not to mention any names in this context because my god this shit is on my mind all the time already I really don't #need to say it where anyone can see #it's embarrassing enough #though anyone who has looked at my blog in the past month already knows who I'm talking about.#like. I really shouldn't allow myself to like anyone over the age of like. idk 45.#it's so unbelievably exhausting.#but annnyway I'm totally normal and fine :)#oh yeah I also have creases on my earlobes lol so that definitely added to the scariness (and THEN my mother randomly mentioned recently #that EVERYONE on her side of the family had/has heart disease. bitch WHAT the fuck. anyway so yeah guess we know what's gonna kill me #haha isn't that fun :) )#ALSO the fact that my memory is very very bad means that I remember absolutely none of the details about shit like this. so it could very #well be completely irrelevant and harmless but i wouldn't remember that part.#and I think even if I found out more it wouldn't help. it's been an obsession for so long. I've never had one go away that I've had for #this long. so. guess I'm just fucked.#personal

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akkivee · 11 months

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FACTS HAYAMA-SAN!!!!!!!! SO TRUE YOU ARE SO RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!

#this is vee speaking #when the merch dropped for this event i thought the wall scrolls were nice because wow takeuchi-san in pink!!!!!!! stupendous!!!!!!!#but what would i do with a takeuchi wall scroll lol #and then hayama-san graced us with his infinite wisdom 😌 and wore the wall scroll 😌 talented 😌 brilliant 😌 incredible 😌 amazing 😌 sho—#lol takeuchi-san’s program cost a little bit so i haven’t watched the part with ishiya-san yet #but the part with hayama-san was very entertaining lol they are on the same wavelength in the strangest ways lmao #i need to rewatch it again since i let it play while i was working but takeuchi-san’s opening video lol #had him listing 30 things he liked about hayama-san (spoiler he did not do 30 LOL)#for number two he said that hayama-san was cute (✔️) and it’s a little unfair he’s cute because he’s also a bully (✔️)#but he’s cute so he winds up not minding at all i think was the rather long reason and the commenters went ‘so he’s an M senpai………..’#‘hayama is his S kouhai huh’ also said the commenters and were proven right when hayama-san forced him to march around the perimeter LOL #i shouldn’t have made this a tag vomit post there’s actually a lot i wish to say lol #one part i thought was interesting was hayama-san’s first impressions of takeuchi-san #he said he thought he looked really cool…………… and then the highball happened lmao (takeuchi-san is bad with alcohol lol)#what i thought was interesting tho was apparently ishiya-san thought he looked scary when he first saw him #and i am of a similar mindset actually lol like i look back at bat’s debut pics from the 4th live and think ‘DAMN he looks intense’ lmao #he’s softening with age and it’s delightful to see lmao 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰#like i’m apologising in advance for this statement but take-san now has a fun very handsome guy next door vibe #take-san 4 years ago looked like the bro that would have you faded in his lap from drinks he hand fed you slow and called you ‘good’ LOL #hayama-san and sakakihara-san were calling him papa from the beginning for a REASON LOL #c: seiyuu stuff

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snowflop · 4 months

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Happy new year from me and my beastie 🎉

#wishing you all a safe and happy 2024.#i know everything is kinda... horrible forever but we all gotta persevere okay? lets do our best to find joy in the little things.#last year was. okay for me i think #like. i really didn't get up to much but i enjoyed myself immensely #and i did a few little hobby things i've wanted to for ages. made an itabag that was awesome #got a pin press. did some embroidery. did some painting. started collecting everything i need for my bjd #next year... i want to get into sewing doll clothes (both for my bjd and for plushies) and knitting (i'd like to make my own leg warmers)#it'd be nice to do more painting to. like traditional stuff. it's gonna be so bad but its fun so i keep trying #hobby stuff aside i'd like to attend 1 (one) convention. it's scary and expensive but... ahh i really really want to #we'll see if i can budget it in -w-)#i don't think i have any particular resolutions... ah wait. gonna draw AT LEAST 1 thing a month #was diseased or something last October and fell into a slump. not this year. 2024 is MY year. for art at least #i've lost the plot with the tags because i'm typing it between reading subtitles but you get the idea. i lived. you lived. we'll be fine #WAIT!!! i forgot the cats. wah.#the cats are hands down THE best thing that happened to me last year I love them.#Haru and Christopher (pictured above) are my brightest light in this cold dark world they make me so so happy every day #snow blogging

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iero · 8 months

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To semi go along with that last poll I reblogged, my twin brother and sister, who are the babies of the family, just turned 23 yesterday and fuck, if it did not make me feel old because they are kids to me... Like, I actually watched these two grow up in front of my very eyes.

#personal #Aging? Scary to me.#Feel bad because all I was able to do was send them both a HBD text because I was sick. :(#So crazy to me that all of us as in my mom's kids are in our 20's... I'm about to be 30 in two months. Like wow.#We all have our own jobs our own apartments/houses our own cars... I have a niece and a nephew. We grew up so fast.#And if anyone is wondering my twin brother and sister look literally nothing alike at ALL but they are twins nonetheless LMAO.#Anyway ignore me. I'm reminiscing...

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mishkakagehishka · 1 year

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The rank A outfit is beautiful and all but i can't get over the incongruity of putting Mika in a white princely-type outfit. He looks great!! But "princely" is hardly the adjective I'd use to describe him

#it reminds me of that one AU i once threw at Neo #that was essentially medieval-ish fantasy au wherein mika was orphaned as a child bc heterochromia is seen as bad luck or whatever #but as it turns out his actual parents were royalty. and have one foot in the grave without any heir except for the one they abandoned.#go figure! so what happens is mika gets whisked away into royal life after spending about two decades (idk i want him to still be young and #stupid so imagine the parents were 30-40 when he was born and give him like . an age of 25)#living in squalor and poverty and having to fend for himself. no manners no knowledge of politics and economy nothing royal about him #of course tutors and advisors can now teach him but it's still Mika he doesn't and will never fit in in royal circles #just little Mika angst of him being forced into a role by people he knows think of him as an omen #a role he is not cut out for. and then being ''taught'' by people he has heard talking badly of him behind his back #people who hate him because he's a child of the streets who doesn't deserve so much power just because of his blood #and someone who will only embarrass and debase the kingdom. just some Mika angst about him being suddenly thrust into the unknown and scary #all the while having to be hyperaware that all the people around him either are embarrassed by him or actively hate him and wish him harm #yknow fun stuff

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milo-is-rambling · 10 months

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Me when I want to be wanted more than anything else

#I think I’d be more normal if I had more friends but every friend I lose makes me isolate more and more and now it’s like I can only trust #people I’ve interacted with for years already #and then every time I try to make friends I either don’t respond (anxiety. not feeling a vibe. whatever) or they stop responding when I #actually like them (someone who talked to me for like four days in an row and then randomly blocked me no explanation)#I think if I made more friends or even talked to more people I’d understand how to do it successfully but I don’t have enough experience and #no one wants to be friends with me (and it’s scary when they do!!!) wahhhhhhhhhh #I need to move somewhere new and talk to strangers I’m good at that #I made more friends a a concert age 14 than I have from me the ages of 16-19 and i think that’s ridiculous #how do I explain to everyone ever that nothing bad happened to me I’m just mentally ill bc my hormones are fucked and it’s let me to spiral #and ruin my own life and then slowly painfully build my life back up and then crush it all again over and over again for years and years #to the point where I’m afraid I’ll never amount to anything so the idea of ever truly having people who find any value for me in their lives #feels like it’s fake and then when I do finally trust people I end up loving too hard and fucking it up and then I isolate for even longer #it’s takes me twice as long to find a new friend and trust them again and then it happens all over again #it feels like I’m destined to be alone bc I can’t tell the difference between platonic shit and flirting so I have a wall between me and #everyone else bc I’m afraid to like someone too much and confuse my brain bc I don’t ever want to like someone who doesn’t like me even if #it’s as friends bc I’ve put more effort in than other ppl always but it’s bc I put too much effort in and expect too much and no one else #is as weirdly obsessive and clingy and dedicated as I am bc I’m not normal and that’s why no one likes me bc I try too hard or not at all #and it makes everyone in my life family friends crushes whatever hate me bc I’m all or nothing forever I can’t just be normal #I think a lifetime of living with my mother has permanently damaged the way I see myself #who are all these normal ideal people in my brain why did my mother put them there and why will I always be worse than a hypothetical person #designed to shame me for struggling which gets louder the more I struggle #spirals cycles etc etc etc #ugh. I want my brain to turn off I’m gonna go take a dab and maybe delete this later

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mrfoox · 11 months

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I keep being annoying I know but it is so so soooooo amazing to have 90% good or decent days instead of 70% bad and 30% manageable days

I can't stop talking about it bc ive never known anything else. Of course I struggle to even take care of myself when my mind has been telling me to off myself or hurt myself or just bad shit about me

Who has energy to do anything when someone you can't get rid of keeps screaming at you you're worthless?

And now... I still have bad self image ofc, I still have my asd/add and the difficulties tied to that... But. My mind is in a different place. I can focus of the things I appreciate. I see the world so... Differently. The world hasn't changed but my eyes and views on it has

#miranda talking shit #Im scared to ask people if ive changed bc it sounds scary but also im like.... I have #In the sense i can be more of my positive self. Ive always had this side... But havent had the mental energy to have it out #I cabt express this sentiment enough im sorry for spamming about it but like....#My world has been.... So bad since i was a child . Reading my diary back made me start seeing #Child me mentioning ... Wanting to die. Wishing i was dead by the age of 9-10....#And i had active bad bullying by my brothers at home til i was 6-7... The years between was me being #Constantly anxious and scared they'd go back to hurting me and then the damaged started to show?#So im not excatly exaggerating when i say i have been deppressed almost all my life. That has been my normal #I havent felt much other than fear despair self loathing etc etc so #And having been trying all sorts of antidepressants and anxiety meds since i was 15....?#Ive tried more than 10. Best effects ive had is i feel kinda numb or.... Indiffrent. Like stable but not GOOD #I had accepted that was the best i could get. There was no amazing medication for me that would work great #And then im here and it's like.... Im not numb i am still emotional as hell but its more good now #Im still me but mkre of the version of me thats good...?

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monsterbisexual · 1 year

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things have been scary n hard n a lot but i do feel good sometimes..theres good things too they might not seem like big things or as meaningful but it still matters n makes a difference! things might get scarier n harder etc overall n probs will at least sometimes.. even when it feels like things shld be easy theyre usually not but im trying ! n thats smth i suppose

#p #work was so bad today had to socialize w family which went ok but not ideal situation for me after #might see a friend tomorrow n walk my dog n thats makin me anxious for a few reasons but mostly cuz idk how to talk to my friends anymore #for reasons that arent even only just me being a freak #the next day im having cavities fixed n itll take hrs #i rly to set up a dr appointment n its been ages cuz even for a normal appointment its v stressful n scary n bad for me #for a variety of reasons but i also just fuckin hate it #n this is cuz i think there coulddd be smth more serious goin on that ive been trying to ignore n avoid bringing up #cuz what if it is actually smth #n i cant even go on abt that rn (tired) but ive been..thinkin abt it #aaaand i need to try n get an appointment w a psychiatrist so i can maybe get back on meds again cuz i think itd be a good idea #like i think on em i didnt think they made a big difference but i feel like im way worse now off em so #n i hope i dont have to go thru the regular dr abt that cuz i got my refills thru them but i guess ill be seein her anyway n overwhelmed!!!#oh n the friend thing is scary cuz my lil group is all broken up now n i feel like im choosing sides when i hang out w some of em now #which sucks so thats the main thing abt that. ok enough bye <3 #idk what the original post not the tags even meant im tryin to be . positive! or smth jeez :/#dlt ltr !

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fleuraward · 1 year

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bats eyelashes. can we normalize the concept of aging not being bad. can we acknowledge that beauty standards suck and that wrinkles are not ugly and that ageing is in fact very beautiful thing in itself. can we stop pushing the whole "anti wrinkle cream" "do 500 steps to not get wrinkles" can we just enjoy life and embrace laughter lines and wrinkles and gray hairs because there is something so beautiful about living long enough to see the world take a different shape.

#juneposting #i had a thought #also when people (usually minors) see people in their like 20s n go “wow theyre so old” like #theyre only a few years older than you #there is nothing bad with aging #god forbid people of any and all ages use the internet #aging isnt scary and is instead a beauty we should embrace

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arthur-r · 1 year

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hi how is everybody doing??

#im ok im a little bit terrified about how i’m graduating in a couple seconds #by which i mean months but it feels that way #and like hooray i get to move away and be transgender and study history and help people and everything i’ve always wanted to do #but also. the kids in my graduating class. i dont know all of them. a lot of them hate me. but at least they’ve been familiar faces #and the idea of going away to a college where nobody knows my name is kind of terrifying #like i know the entire point is to reinvent myself. but isn’t that scary?? i’m going to become somebody new and that terrifies me #anyway i’m so normal regular. in other news i’m about to have a cranberry orange muffin. so wish me luck with that #anyway there’s this girl i kind of like and i kind of wanted to say something but now it’s kind of pointless #she’s going to the u of m. i’m going to wisconsin. that’s just the end of the road isn’t it??#nothing is strong enough to say anything. but the problem is it’s like this in high school and i go to college and reinvent myself #then what?? i leave college and reinvent myself again!!!! get a masters reinvent myself again!! move towns reinvent myself again!!#struck by the realization that nothing in life is ever permanent except for death. how terrifying is that #anyway i am so normal and regular and cool and good feeling. everything will really truly be okay it’s just #idk. it’s weird being at this stage in my life. didn’t mean to ramble on like that though #so anyway i hope you all are well and would love to know how you are doing. other than this stuff i’m just hanging out #sending all the love to my senior friends who are in this predicament. and my junior friends who aren’t here yet. and whoever else shdhdf #but especially my friends who are my age or like a year older who are in this same kind of soon-to-be-overwritten high school experience #wish you the best of luck finishing and starting over. and try not to take it as seriously as i’m doing its probably not that bad rationally #and so anyway i hope you are doing well and let me know how you’ve been!! hope everybody is okay #ask to tag idk if this was vent territory but it was like. kinda nearly. i can tag with whatever #me. my post. mine.#college talk #(sorry!!)#delete later

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ocpdzim · 1 year

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another party member came to filonyn’s house so they could explain to him how to do divination, but they explained it so badly that he just made up a completely new method on the spot instead using his cell phone, and although it DID work he may perhaps have gotten a little electrocuted

#the reason their outfit is Like This is because they've just had a miserable night in which they survived an assassination attempt and then #had to go to a mandatory rave which they hate going to bc they get overstimulated and everyone asks too many questions there #and the reason their explanation was so bad is bc they learned all this stuff in the middle ages and still mainly talk about it using jargon #that is outdated by literally hundreds of years and was never widely known even in its heyday.#idk where the original 'i dont know thats scary' comic came from but its that. obviously #i just replaced the drawings #filonyn

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eats-the-stars · 2 months

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my 4yo nephew is honestly such a character. love kids at this age. right now he has three favorite things. Cars. Dinosaurs...and Zombies. heard from school today that he has a select group of friends who he plays Zombies with. By which they mean that he pretends to be a zombie, and they all happily scramble to hide under a table and clutch each other and scream. He does this every day. Honestly do think this kid is going to keep his horror interest possibly long-term because he also loves to play lots of "hide/run from the zombies/ghosts" games at home. Including turning off the lights and having the both of us hide in a blanket fort huddled together while he insists that we both fake cry in fear. Most other kids he interacts with at this age are firmly in the "afraid of the dark" stage, and can only play the lights off version, or include the "pretend to bite your friend and now they are also a zombie" bit in very small doses. He has a night light in his room, but regularly chooses to sleep on the couch in the pitch black living room instead. To be fair, I had very little fear of the dark as a little kid, so maybe that part just runs in the family.

#love kids at this age #my nephew is also my favorite person so i might be biased #my sister was ill when he came home and my nephew needed constant supervision around the clock due to medical issues #so i ended up being his primary caretaker for a very long period of time #left my job that was moving out of the area anyway #stayed up with him during the nights. managed all the medical equipment and feedings and so on #so i ended up bonding w/him pretty hard. which was unexpected for me bc i've never wanted kids #or felt a strong attachment to babies until i was taking care of one 24/7 for months #when he was in the NICU i felt pretty neutral towards him. but actually caring for him...yeah i got attached real fast #anyway he is so creative w/his play style #and i love all the scary little stuff he sprinkles in there #Zombies is honestly just a tag/hide and seek combo game #it is very humorous but he also decided that if a ghost catches you...you become a ghost which...i mean technically...#but then we were playing with a toy snake as the bad guy in car city #and he decided that if the snake bites a car...it becomes a snake car and starts hissing and chasing other cars #he just really loves this concept and it's fun to see him transfer it to different 'villains' during playtime

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cherrysnax · 3 months

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I don’t fear getting older, but I sure as hell don’t want to grow up

#not in the anti aging way #more in the oh my god I’ve lost so much of my life to trauma trauma trauma and my childhood ended prematurely #and now I feel like a tall child #way #I hope that makes sense #idc abt looking young or even really feeling young #I’m disabled in my early 20s I’m never gonna feel young #but #growing up is different #when I’m stressed I go back to like. middle school high school mindset of survive and intake comfort media #no one can hurt u if ur brain is in like. fucking ponyville or something #and it’s bad. I shouldn’t have had to do that as a kid and I can’t do that as an adult #especially because I don’t know if I’ll be here for long genuinely #like two years ago we were so out of it at all times #it was like we were 200000 miles away from real life at all times #we are much more attached to reality now ofc #but that was. scary and familiar #for most of our childhood I didn’t front #mostly because I wasn’t even the one who was supposed to be the main guy #I forget all terminology rn because I’m sleepy sorry #host. wasn’t always the host but took over around like. 5 and it’s been my life ever since #but it was also jays. because I was too scared #but jays gone now and while I’m not all alone in here it sometimes feels that way #but Jay was a micromanager and literally would ruin friendships because he’d thought I’d be better on my own #something I’m still unlearning.#can’t even blame it on him. I’m a mess. I’m sick im lazy i have no skills #and yet people still try and help me. help us really. but it’s because I’m somewhat young. I’m still a baby in so many peoples eyes #but that’s a bad thing. I want to be set sufficient but it’s hard when you can’t get out of bed most days. When you can’t be alone without #having horrific intrusive thoughts about hurting urself. when ur eyes start to go out on you. when you black out if u try and wash ur hair #a part of me wants to be coddled and cradled and have the childhood I was robbed of. but I know I need to grow up.

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