#ahh it's been so long since I've drawn these two

[blackkatdraws2]

Wild stoic scary delinquent everyone finds scary paired with that popular lovely sweetheart that everyone loves.

Lesbians.

[sysig]

BIRTHDAY

Birthday! :D

[voidaress]

Ciel!! Ahh I was excited that a new season is coming out it's been so long!! And its been so long since I've drawn himm

My art got better at least heh

Here are two versions cause I was trying this way of drawing out a bit not gonna lie I really like it but I still wanted to go crazy on rendering on the first one

[tflaw]

Hello!! Hi!! Where do I start? How do I start?? I'm feeling like a reader lining up in a book signing event, a fangirl abt to meet her idol in a fan meeting, I'm all nervous sending this. This is totally off season hehehe it's abt ur wt. Maybe I should share with you my exp just so u can imagine y I'm feeling this way.

-> Sooo, I only got back to Tumblr in Nov, left few years back after done w college and succumbed to modern slavery of the evil corporate world and torture of guilt to be a responsible adult, (oh, it was awful *putting the back of my hand resting on my forehead like a damsel in distress* ok that was dramatic) butt yess I return just for fun. Despite no longer reading fanfic on Tumblr/AO3 I still read original works from time to time.

-> So when I was in Tumblr the first week if, I remembered I saw an illustration and I was like woahhh nice!! I'm always so drawn to historical/period/royal au fics and I thought, oh cool concept for TR and ahh Mikey is always like a King for me. Silly me, I didn't know it was a fanart by one of your readers for ur wt!!! 2 days back I read this terrible fic from elsewhere not here, historical romance and I thought what was that TR fanart abt again? I felt so dumb, I lost the post I didn't even rb it, not sure the name/title/tag used/ until 9h ago. Found it, rb the fanart, read wt on AO3, and I'm blown away. It was 10000000000% wayyyy better than what I read goodness lawd, well for me, for me u wrote better than a published writer my love!! I felt the excitement of reading another Tolkien's and reminds me of asoiaf.

-> Oh but I had another silly episode of finding u back in Tumblr, from one handle to another my silly self did not realize I've already followed you the first week for a Genshin fic tbr and only now I understood that one person sent you some Asks as a knight or something following you. Long shall you reign hehehe. Sumtg like that abt ur handle. This also I was confused I thought it was someone else's acct. 😂

Ok there. That's why I have no idea where to start or how to start. But sweetheart,this is an appreciation msg. I'm so so in love with you and your writing, wicked throne. Gosh I wanted to just sit down w u in a coffee shop/garden and just talk abt this au. Hang on this reminds me of the two besties on IG wearing medieval dresses and walk around in some European gardens in modern day 🤭 lmao. I've read all of your TR on AO3, but I had no acct there to send Kudos so I'm sending from this Ask. I've been missing sooo much since you wrote it.sighhhh

Here you go babe ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ thanks for writing so well!!! Ok this def isn't enough for all the effort, blood, sweat and tears you've put into your babies.

FIRST I DONT RLY KNOW WHAT TO SAY OMG this is such a sweet message i'm honestly so happy!! it's been a while since wicked throne has been mentioned in any of my blogs so it makes me extremely joyous receiving this ask today!!

+ yep omg wicked throne has a lot of talented artist AND I SWOON EVERY TIME SOMEONE DRAWS A FANART FOR THE FIC!! just the effort of sitting down and thinking of wanting to draw fanart for wt makes me want to cry !!

+ thank you so much for reading!! if i could i would sit down in a coffee shop w you too to talk about it!! it's a story i've been cultivating during the last few years and it's forever in my system <33 i'm just rly sad that i haven't the inspiration to continue it but it's gonna be finished one day !! thank u for ur support and rly any kind of interaction is more than enough for me so u don't have to leave kudos or anything! this ask is already a treasure to me. again thank you and i hope you're having a wonderful day!!

[starzyd13]

Chapter 1: The Curiosity

"Anything?"

Ave pants, running up to the two familiar faces. The cold breeze stinging their faces as they stood idle in the courtyard.

"Ahh. Nothing, nothing as always."

The two boys sighing as she paced back and forth.

Ave taps her fingers against her purse nervously.

"Something else going on…?"

The tallest boy in the group muttered, peering up from his drawn hood. Ave stuttered, "Jamie…what if we had something to do with Dessie's disappearance?!" Both of the boys exchanged glances. Shaking their heads sheepishly. Mikey spat, "Well, well, we- y'know actually. How could they know? HOW could they know?! We never said a word!"

Exchanging anxious glances at each other, the three stared in a fearful silence.

Not even seconds after, the three nearly jumped in surprise as they saw the other addition to the group, running towards them, joyously ignorant to their past doings. Stephan, the beloved partner of their missing friend in question, Desmond. The sounds of his chains and piercings jingling could put Christmas bells to shame as he excitedly charged towards his friends. Panting as he kneeled over, catching his breath.

"Guys! I've made a fucking breakthrough. I….I dunno how nobody has thought of it yet!"

The other three looked at one another in confusion. Has he found Desmond? Impossible. How could he sound so elated when his partner was still missing? This had to be big.

Stephan stood with his mouth hanging open, the words barely on his tongue. Jamie shifts over to him. "Well…?" Stephan grabs Ave and Mikey, drawing them closer to Jamie and himself. The three staring at him in anticipation.

"The fucking "Wactory"….!"

"Wactory". A memory long since lost from the friendgroup's childhood. A worn down, abandoned place they'd run to in the dead of the night. None of them fully knowing if it was an old warehouse, or a factory. And so it was named an amalgamation of the two. It was the children's safe haven, albeit a place ripe with various ways of catching tetanus. However, the abandoned building held many good memories, locked away for years.

Raising her hand in awe of his sharp memory, Ave gestures. "That fucking place yeah….! How didn't we get totally screwed up as kids in that shit-heap?!" Jamie perks up. "The police haven't looked there yet have they? There could be a chance…" Mikey, nervously tapping his fingers, chimes in.

"Heyyyy. So yeah, uh-….not to rain on this parade but. Ya know, like…how Desmond is? They could've. You know…."

Stephan shooting Mikey a disappointed glance for even mentioning such an idea.

"What?"

"You know what. It's not funny..."

Mikey turning to the others, hoping they'd speak up in his favor.

"I wasn't joking. Y-you know how they were-"

"Are."

Stephan narrowed his eyes, stepping away from Mikey, shooting down a peircing gaze towards him with accusatory intent.

"Are...yeah. I'm just saying! They are ummm...ya know. A little unstable at times..."

Stephan charging closer, almost violently towards Mikey, causing Ave to let out a frightened yelp.

"What they've gone through isn't a fucking joke. Or a reference. Or whatever the shit you bastardize it as!"

Ave stepped between the two, pushing them both apart anxiously.

"Just stop, okay. Before this turns into something it doesn't need to..."

Jamie shifts over next to Ave, gesturing.

"Maybe we should look there, ourselves? I mean if they've gone full ghost-mode I think a bunch of police and shit could be...overwhelming, ya know?"

Stephan backed up, scratching his chin.

"Yeah, I think we should. But let me take things on, because uh...well. They trust me-"

Ave raises a brow.

"The hell does that mean?!"

"I'm their boyfriend??! Uhhh, duh!"

"Okay....sure."

Stephan scoffs, throwing his hands up.

"All these years I've....NOT been their boyfriend? Hello?!"

"Not what I meant, fuckface-"

Jamie, putting a hand on Ave's shoulder with the intent of comfort, sighed.

"Didn't you say this shouldn't turn into something unnecessary....?"

The walk was silent. Distant.

Almost as if they were all heading to the abandoned building for completely different reasons from one another. They tread carefully through the first few rooms, calling out to Desmond. Illuminating a path before themselves with their phone lights. Nothing but silence accompanied by the stench of mold and long since passed animals.

"Seems all things come here to die..."

Jamie muttered, spinning around to catch a view of his murky surroundings.

The sudden blast of music in the distance startled the group, causing them to scream in surprise. The lot of them spinning around, scanning the area rapidly.

"The fuck was that?!"

Ave shouted, almost swinging herself around, illuminating the area. Jamie peering down the nearest corridor, lighting the way, gestures towards the others. The group now cautiously tip-toeing towards the continous music.

Stephan now taking the lead, pushes the door open. Everyone bracing themselves for all kinds of horrors. Only to find a laptop set upon a rusty workbench, the screen flickering. The music felt familiar, nostalgic. The character on screen was the epitome of nostalgia for the group. A childhood creation of their missing friend. The character shook their finger back and forth, smiling at the viewers with confidence.

Stephan could've exploded at the mere sight of what was on screen. He raced towards the laptop, kneeling until he was eye level with it.

"Holy shit....! Guys! It's Dessie's game!"

The others looked at each other in confusion, seating themselves next to Stephan.

"Remember?! They had this character? They always wanted them to be in an official game until they decided, "fuck it", and started making their own Sonic game! It....was that passion project they always talked about!"

The joy in his eyes began to pool into tears, running down his face, pulling his mounds of black eyeliner down with each tear.

Ave slowly turned away, her face shaded with guilt. Mikey sat closer next to Stephan, peering over his shoulder.

"So uh....Can we play this?"

Stephan started fumbling with the keys until the pinging noise of the game beginning finally sounded off upon the right key being hit. Thrown into a classic level right away, the boys sat up in curiosity. Stephan biting down on his lip to hide his giddy smile.

"I've seen some of this over the years, just the starting levels and shit! Desmond was always so goddamn keen on keeping it spoiler-free for us!"

Ave turned back around to face the screen.

"Yeah....No spoilers. I remember.."

Mikey excitedly pointing at the screen while peering over Stephan's shoulder. No matter how many times he swatted Mikey's hands away from his face, the both of them were fueled with a childish sort of excitement.

"Woah it's all stylized and shit?! And the characters are all different, THIS is what Desmond has been gassing up since we were kids?!"

Stephan chuckled, shaking his head.

"How do you not remember? We used to draw this crew, and play out how everything would be if it was a real game..."

Mikey's eyes lighting up as he inched closer.

"Now it fucking is.....!"

Jamie rested his head on Stephan's shoulder, taking in his lost friend's creation. Each intricate animation and detail, seeing their art again made his chest feel heavy. Cold.

"Look at how cool they made Amy, she's got cool shit with her hammer too, watch!"

Stephan demonstrating how the character functioned in-game. Clacking the keys of the laptop as the character on screen took a running jump, swinging her hammer upwards. Coming down with small shockwaves beneath her hammer.

"Ayyyy, do that shit again!"

Mikey shouted as he bounced up and down repeatedly. Ave sighing at the sight of the boy's joy. Stephan looking so peaceful, reminded of what his loved one has created. Jamie looking concerned, concentrating with deep thought. Suddenly Jamie sat back up, away from Stephan.

"Isn't this odd....?"

Everyone staring at him.

"Like...Where's Desmond? Why was this, only this left here?"

Stephan only halfway concentrating on the game now, beginning to feel worry and fear grow inside of him. Despite that, he wanted to stay hopeful, the game itself was clear hope that his partner was still alive and safe.

Unknowingly, he still was pressing the input to direct the character on screen, making her jump and slam back onto the ground with her hammer. Just before she hit the ground again, the game froze, emitting a loud whirring noise. An ear-piercing tone.

Then it all went black.

Everything.

[feuqueerfire]

Be My Favorite Live Blogging

Haven't been really watching shows and haven't watched anything long since literally August but now that it's nearing the end of the semester and I have big, big projects due that I'm not close to being done, clearly it's the correct time to watch this.

I've been anticipating this for so long, I hope I love it.

Ep 1 (Nov 23)

1-1

hijabi side character

12 years after 1st year, so are they 30 years old now?

not Pisaeng being a liar! lol

1-2

oh yeah, Kawi is a translator!

the time travel has started

1-3

omg him getting a call from his dad and going to see him and hug him T.T because his dad passed away in real life T.T

oh the first time travel iteration, i'm having fun

"Do you like me? [...] What should I think?"

1-4

The way Kawi has already begun to act unlike himself and getting out of his shell like with Pisaeng in the locker room and dancing drunk in the bar, even if it involves first stealing Pisaeng's clothes and next his money

Fun start!

Ep 2 (Nov 24)

2-1

ohh okay so doing that takes you to the same moment as when you twisted it? both in the present and past

2-2

Ahh, his time travel affecting the current timeline, he's now besties with Pisaeng and isn't a recluse

2-3

Kawi's repeatedly using Pisaeng's money and whining is offputting. like i fully know that a large portion of his inferiority complex comes from the lack of money and how he thinks that people think of him poorly because of it but omg it's so ew

2-4

I would hate to be in Pear's situation so much omg she was hoping to get have lunch with the guy she's known for a while + probably has a crush on and now he's left her at this restaurant with some random dude who has definitely been trying to get closer to her... rip but she's being nice about it

ah, the kissing the best man on the day of the wedding

the coming-back-to-win-prize is extremely expected lol

Krist's expressions are too much fr, reminds me why I don't like certain slap-stick cartoonish jBLs. paired with the whining? please I need it to lessen over time

Ep 3 (Nov 24)

3-1

Pear inviting a friend as soon as she realized Pisaeng had ditched and now she's having lunch alone with this guy who could misconstrue this as a date, exactly so true

For all my ehh feelings about Khai's mannerisms, the way he says "Then who do you like? O.O" is so good

3-4

I know the point is that Kawi is unlikeable and doesn't quite know how to navigate people or relationships but he's supposed to grow throughout the show but man he bothers me fr like the way he keeps being cruel to Pisaeng is just. I know it's cuz he doesn't want Pisaeng to fall for him and leave Pear on their wedding day but it's like girl...

actually more than just terating him shitty, it bothers me that every time Kawi acts like he doesn't get why Pisaeng is hurt. "Oh just this hurt you?" "Why are you mad?" etc

loll the lottery ticket thing is so true

I was whatever about Gawin in Not Me and wasn't really someone I wasn't someone I was drawn to in general but I really like him in this role! Hot boy Pisaeng let's go

Ep 4 (Nov 25)

4-1

The way Kawi wears his backpack only on one shoulder bothers me cuz it doesn't look light

4-2

broo Kawi put your fucking backpack on properly like the whole game whatever is dumb and annoying obviously but don't be silly

I hate these confession things so much, fuck Not for real. ofc it's a lot of pressure on Kawi to confess but I also hate these things that definitely pressure the girl into feeling like she has to say yes

4-3

okayy at least they're all leaving the two of them together, rather than witnessing the confession but I kinda thought they were gonna film him get rejected or smth

oh lmfao they're eavesdropping on him knowing he'd get rejected such bastards

I knowww the point is that Kawi has many shortcomings but goddamn being 30 in a freshman's body and still making stupid decisions is so annoying to watch, why are you going to the nightclub rn bffr and he knows Not is an asshold, he almost slipped up when he tried to make Not and Pisaeng go back to being friends so why is he hanging around Not still smh

Not stop trying to get a girl to sleep with a drunk Kawi omg

4-4

annoying, including what Pisaeng is saying

although drunk Kawi jumping past!Pisaeng for the crimes for current Pisaeng is funny though, Pisaeng is confused as hell

ah Pisaeng gay and avoidant

Damn, Kawi really got Pisaeng to confess to Pear that he doesn't like her and never will, good job

wait... Pear asking to sit with Kawi... knowing that she doesn't have a chance with Pisaeng... are we gonna get groom Kawi in the new future?

bro wtf he's not going to go back to the present? how are you not curious enough smh but I guess he doesn't know that Pisaeng said no to Pear

Ep 5 (Nov 25)

5-1

Oh, he wants to accomplish his last goal of dating Pear or whatever before going back...

oh Pisaeng taken with seeing boys kissing at the club he works at

5-2

ahh Pisaeng going to the gay club!

aww him running out as soon as he saw Max and got recognized

ah Max good head

5-3

I don't want Kwan to be nice to Nott, she's too good for him

I don't quite agree with Max because what do you mean people don't care or gossip or talk about where you go and what you do

lol did Kwan being nice to Nott make Nott be nice to Kawi. will it last

not Kawi running to meet Pisaeng and actually apologizing gj

Pisaeng really confessed

5-4

Corny scene of Kawi and Pisaeng but better than the whining

damn singer Kawi

oh the next episode has the drunk scene with Kawi asking why Pisaeng likes him... it's in every edit + trailer I think

Ep 6 (Nov 26)

6-1

lol is a business tycoon that good to watch, Max?

Pear whining to her dad to treat Kawi's father is so... eh? idk it's a serious topic but idk

oh damn the dinner with Pear's father is going really sideways

Pisaeng shouldn't have told Pear but that's one thing, I don't think Pear also shouldn't have just started talking about Kawi's dad to her dad without consulting him

but also was Kawi planning on asking Pear's dad without telling Pear beforehand?

Kawi's little drunk ramble here is pretty good

6-2

wtf why is Nott being cute and smiley to Pear...

oh the drunk Kawi and Pisaeng kissing

what are we doing why are we unbuttoning the drunk guy's shirt bro

okay sorry I think this would've been better if I though Kawi was attractive

not Kawi falling asleep omg pls

6-3

she may be a capitalist businesswoman but at least she supports queer people and her son being queer

oh my bad spoke too soon! she's like keep it quietttt

oh so Nott is there to tell Pear he thinks Kawi isn't straight?

lol not the time-travelling sleep-talking

crying why didn't Pisaeng shut Kawi up quicker

6-4

oh Pisaeng has become bold

Ep 7 (Nov 26)

7-1

ahhh tragic the way Pisaeng

aw, I'm proud of Kawi, mans really accomplishing his goals

girl what kaljdsfkljadsf omg

7-2

so how does memory work here? Does Kawi just know the lyrics even though it's a song he never learned in a life he hasn't lived?

but i'm assuming there's still stuff wrong with his life and him being so happy is out of character?

girl not Nott D: Pear no

oh nooo Pear and Kawi had been dating but he's been putting her through it?

Can they show what actually lead to Kawi and Pear's breakup?

omg ? did Kawi cheat on Pear with Pisaeng or smth?

7-3

omg Nott is suchhh a dickhead, how is he getting both Kwan and Pear smhhh

girl so you're pregnant, get an abortion plsss ik it's not as easy as i'm saying it but T.T tying yourself to Nott for life?

okay at least Kawi didn't cheat on Pear, he just didn't wanna marry her and settle down

7-4

I guess Kawi let Pisaeng be true to himself but leading him to discover him being gay?

ahh Pisaeng giving Kawi gift for his "confession" anniversary even 8 years down the line, how are you so down bad omg Kawi and Pisaeng are both kings of holding onto crushes, though at least Pisaeng has been around Kawi this whole time, unlike Kawi having like no contact with Pear lol

Okay my confession is that Nott and Kwan are both very attractive to me and kinda want to see them play a couple together

Ep 8 (Nov 27)

8-1

tragic reaction to the kiss

so did Kawi often kiss Pisaeng while drunk? and forget or what?

8-2

aw man the dad died right away

i mean... Pisaeng's mom isn't wrong here tbh

dang, Kawi gave Pisaeng his diary

I feel like Kawi should've given Pisaeng some more concrete proof ngl

8-3

forever gotta love a queer ralley or info session or whatever in a BL

plsss not all this dramatics while Pisaeng prlly just dropping his mother off at the airport but i suppose it'll move Kawi along in his feelings bravery journey

8-4

girl not the time travel man almost getting to Pisaeng's car

Ep 9 (Nov 28)

9-1

is the writer or director of this show a child of divorce with a shitty mother who is obsessed with her work and never there for her kid or smth? because pear, kawi, pisaeng all have separated parents, pear and kawi love and are in contact with their fathers while their mothers left for work and a diff family respectively. pisaeng is living with his mom technically but she's also never there and busy with her work. we could've at least examined why women are forced into these scenarios for at least 1 situation instead of having 3 shitty moms for no reason lmao

9-2

agh Not is a problem fr

idk i kinda don't care about Kawi and Pisaeng cuteness negl even though I feel like I should be having fun with it... I'm just kinda bored of this show rip even though it's like objectively not bad and probably not actually boring

9-3

bro Not isn't just calling Pear but discussing it with a group in public, get fucked fr

aw Pear

9-4

Kwan needs to get over Nott and Pear needs to not entertain him either aghhh this fucker

Kwan is so pretty fr I cannot see her like Nott fr T.T and Nott is nicef to look at too, why can't he be a decent guy

ah Pear asking Nott to not tell anybody, she's kind but he's an asshole who's already told everybody so

and at least she's not falling for him, yes a win

At first I was watching this show on 1.25 but I started doing 1.5x because I kinda want it to be done

Ep 10 (Nov 28/29)

10-1

Nott pushing Kwan like that??? die

10-2

hehe making up with friends Pear and Max

awwww this tragic Pisaeng moment with his mother

ohh so the mother approved finally

10-3

Kawi is a 30 year old virgin who figured out he likes guys also like a week ago so I understand why he's shy, its not out of character for him the way it is for many of the other BL characters but it's still so awkward T.T

just gonna ignore Max's response to possibly asexuality but whatever lol

[Linguistics] Oh, then discussing stopping gu/mueng and using Khun or smth instead because they're dating now

10-4

not even gonna lie, skipped the entire intimate scene thing because it's making me uncomfortable idk like it's not giving horniness vibes which is definitely fine, i love tender and sweet but for some reason it's giving me the ick here - maybe cuz I actually wanted it to go a different way of maybe not leading to sex and going in an ace route?

i saw a glimpse of the kissing and yeah not into it

Actually, I wonder if not watching anything risque or sexual in a show for the past few months has made me averse to it again? but idk bout that cuz I've been enjoying the Pit Babe edits lmfao (although the edits don't really show much actual NC content, just convos before or interactions)

Anyway 2 more episodes, I can do this. idk why i'm so meh about this show when I've been hoping to love it while many people who were so apprehensive about it like it way more than me

Ep 11 (Nov 29)

11-1

Aw Pear and her mother making up

having to skip through the continuation of the Kawi and Pisaeng sex scene to get to the interweaved character stories lmfao

11-2

Graduation gift? How fucking long has Kawi been living in the past

the compilation of Kawi and Pisaeng (+friends at Christmas) is cute, aw

11-3

wait Pearmai wedding invitation? Is this still in the past?

the constant Khun is so confusing now

11-4

I'm so confused by the passing of time this episode, ig it's been a few days since Kawi got sick?

ohhhh so the reason nothing happened with Pisaeng the first time is because it was his first time spinning the snowglobe so he's back there on his second try

omg just one more episode left, i'm so tired of this show i want it to be done

Ep 12 (Nov 30)

Last day of the month and I'm finally almost done whooo 1 last episode on 1.5x let's go

12-1

Ohh, nice choice to make Kawi reflect on not wanting to actually become famous

12-2

I don't get the aging thing either

Okay my bad I really skipped through this last ep to get the just of what's going on

Overall:

It is such a tragedy that despite looking forward to this show for so long and enjoying some aspects and moments, ultimately, it fell flat for me. I feel like a lot of this show was objectively done well like the character arcs and acting and stuff but I'm not attached to any of it. The romance didn't make me feel giddy even though I really wish it had like it's strange that I didn't care at all about all those cute moments Kawi and Pisaeng had or the established relationship montages when usually they're some of my favourite aspects of a BL. agh whatever ig at least the show didn't treat Pear terribly.

Rating: 5.5/10

[stardust-static]

After planning a wedding I will never be a bad RSVP-er again. I will be the first one confirming that I'll be there. Like I have been such an asshole when people have asked me to RSVP to things, and now I'm waiting for my RSVP'S and I am so anxious, because no one on Bailey's side has RSVP'd!! It's been almost two weeks since invites were sent out. So now I have to reach out to all these people if they don't do it by the date I put on the invites, and I just don't want to do that, but I'm gonna have to. I should have just done the paper RSVP cards. I should have known it was too complicated to ask people to go to my wedding website to RSVP. There's too many old people on Bailey's side.. they don't know how to use the internet. Then there's the bridal shower, my sister said his side hasn't RSVP'D to that either and ahh!! I'm so stressed..

Anyway... I am proud of myself.

I've been getting wedding stuff done.

All the vendors are booked. I still need an officiant though. I think this one gives me the most anxiety because we have to like meet this person and tell them our love story or whatever, and I don't know.. we are just such awkward people. Bailey and I have a beautiful and loving relationship, but our story is not "romantic". At least not the beginning. Like do I tell them the first night we met we made out in the Food4 Less parking lot? Or that we kept trying to go to different parking lots to make out, but the little security guard kept following us and staring us down, because we decided to meet up at the witching hour because we thought this was a hookup situation and not a forever thing. If I could go back in time I would have made Bailey take me out on a real date for the first time we met, because he would have, and he did the next time he saw me, and the time after that, but that first meet up? That was carnal middle of the night lust and we both know it. So it's so funny whenever anyone asks like " oh how did you two meet?" Or "tell me about when you first met?". Inside I'm dying like "oh.. we hooked up in his old pathfinder. When he pulled up I thought he might murder me, but I went anyway.." like that's what I want to say, but I always just skip to the next time we met, which is when he took me to a casino for the first time and how we just sat in the lobby and talked and laughed for hours and how we were inseparable after that.

But yeah.. it is romantic when I think about how we smiled from ear to ear whenever we were near each other and all those feelings I felt, and all the long conversations we had, and how drawn to one another we were. That was romantic, but detailing this to a stranger is still so bizarre to me and I know Bailey won't be any better at it. In fact Bailey might be so awkward in this situation that whoever will wonder if he even likes me. I don't know. Surely I'm just doing what I do and overthinking this, but yeah... I'm gonna call the place tomorrow and set up the appointment with the person. I'm not looking forward to it, but I'm getting it done! 😬

[dracothedeatheatingcupcake-ao3]

(for the artist ask meme) 2, 4, 15, 23?

Oooh, thanks!!! :-D I just got home from work, so I'll do these now, ha.

This is going to be a long post, since I'm posting my art, so I'll put a read more here. ^-^

Artist Asks

2. 5 favourites of your own work?

Ahh, this is a tricky one! I definitely have a few favorite drawings of mine, though.

This one is a favorite since I put a lot of time and effort into it, and it's also the only art I've ever done that has gotten a lot of attention. I think I got over 30k notes when I posted it on Tumblr a few years ago?? Definitely more than I usually get, ha.

I like this one since it is more recent and I like how the background turned out.

I had to add this one, since it took me HOURS to make. Originally it was just Yondu, Rocket, and Baby Groot, but then I wanted to make a phone case, so I rearranged them and added Drax, Gamora, and Peter. Then, before COVID, my local fair had the theme of super heroes and wanted art work for it, so I added Mantis and was going to submit it for judging. Sadly, that never happened, and I missed the deadline for when the fair was rescheduled two years later. -.- I messed up Mantis's size, unfortunately, and the way that I do my art meant that I couldn't fix it, since with my realistic art, I don't have layers. I just draw, kind of like a traditional drawing, just... digital, ha.

I had to add this one, ha. Of all of my "cartoony" drawings, I think this is my favorite. The jaw shape is off, but I was able to capture what I wanted to capture, I think. ^-^

Now, I wanted to add one of my traditional drawings, and I think this is my favorite of the ones I did. I did this when I was... god, 16??? 17??? It's not perfect, but for the time, I think I did a great job. The details in the background killed me, but I think it turned out good.

Also, here's an honorable mention...

This is a painting I did that I'm pretty proud of. Is it perfect?? No, but for my skill level with paint, I think I did a great job.

4. Favourite things to draw?

I'm a little confused as to what exactly this question is referring to, but I'll answer both ways I see it, just in case. So, my favorite thing to draw, as in a broad category, is realistic drawings of people. I like to draw faces and upper torsos usually, and I prefer it when the subject is facing forward. I've been branching into other styles, but my favorite is realistic bust portraits, I suppose. It's also what I'm best at. If I could find a good reference photo, I'd try to do a realistic drawing of Taka and Mondo, too, ha. But I need a reference photo otherwise it doesn't turn out super realistic.

As for genre, I always draw things that are fandom related, ha. If I'm in the fandom, chances are I've drawn SOMETHING for it at some point. Recently I've not had the chance to draw as much, but for big fandoms, I always try to draw or create at least one thing that relates to the fandom.

15. Biggest artist pet peeve?

Hm... I don't think I have any?? I don't tend to have pet peeves about art, really.

23. Do you listen to music or watch shows while you work? If so, what’s your favourite?

It depends! If my family is watching something on TV while I'm drawing, I will listen to music to drown the noise out. But if they're not home and it's quiet, I tend to prefer to not listen to anything, since it is a little distracting. I never watch shows, though, since I cannot multitask. I put my full attention on whatever I'm doing. If I listened to a show or podcast while I was drawing, I'd realize at the end of the show that I took in nothing from it, ha. As for music, I just put my nearly 2,000 song playlist on shuffle and listen to random music that doesn't need my full attention.

Well, that's all!! Thanks for the questions!! I've not had any time to draw recently, but I still do consider myself an artist. Also, since I'm here, I'll post some of my favorite things I've created that aren't drawings or paintings, ha. Did anyone ask??? No, but I wanted to do it, so there. ;-)

The first one is a faux stained glass thing I made, ha. The last one is a large backdrop I made for my work's holiday party in 2020, since it was virtual but my computer wouldn't let me have a virtual background. It took 10 hours, oof.

These are things I made for this crafting scavenger hunt I was a part of. These are the ones I'm more proud of that don't involve myself or others. Sadly the cake turned out stale and was a bit meh, but I put a lot of effort into the look. I wasn't going to, but I'll put the photo I took with the cake too, I suppose. I was supposed to make the 40 orange cake from Our Flag Means Death and eat it with a snail fork while dressed as a pirate on a traditional sailing ship. I couldn't find a snail fork (it's a two prong fork apparently???) but I got the rest pretty spot on, ha.

These are the stockings I made for my family this year, and a sweater I decorated for my work's virtual holiday party in 2021 (featuring my background I made in 2020, ha.)

And of course, who could forget my biggest project, this jacket and cosplay, ha.

Anyway, sorry for the extra photos, but this post was already long, why not make it longer, huh??? 😅

[this-is-ally-and-im-confused]

hey friend !! could i pls request a jack hughes imagine about the reader meeting him somewhere for the first time and having a completely different personality than him that he almost thinks its weird until he realizes how much he likes it and they hit it off? sorry that was so long ahh but thank u !! <3

when red met blue|| J.Hughes

(part 2 to “for you” out tomorrow)

Summary: What happens when jack falls in love with his opposite?

Taglist: @snugglyducklingbrewhouse @hugheshugs @boeswhore @oowenspower @nucksgal03 join the taglist!

Masterlist!

Warnings: like one second of mentioning getting hurt but mostly just fluff!

Jack’s pov:

It’s about two hours before the game tonight. So I decided to break my regular pregame routine and visit the little vintage clothing store on the street of downtown New Jersey. I can say with confidence that I’m not the flashiest fashion icon but I don’t do too bad.

At this point, I'd do anything to clear my head from the upcoming game against my brother. The Canucks are more than an even match for my team. I have confidence in my boys. We’ve been working hard, partying harder, and overall leaving our hearts out on the ice.

I mean, that’s where I leave my heart.

The boys have been quick to chirp me on my lack of partners. It sounds stupid– I know, but I think that I haven’t had a partner since before draft day. Plus, it’s safe to say that hockey can get a little lonely at times. See I have had this big reputation that often perceives me. I’m loud, cocky, and focused on my game. None of those are fatal flaws.

Somehow, they still certainly make it hard to date.

So as I stepped into the entrance of the dainty shop. I was surprised to see the most stunning girl I had ever seen. The only issue is the vintage Canucks jersey wrapped around her delicate frame. She’s adorable with her bulky glasses, her messy hair, her huge paint-covered jeans, and bright yellow doc martens.

“Hey! welcome to NJ vintage boutique…not a very original store name I know, but it’s ours! I'm y/n! How can I help you today?” the beautiful girl meekly squeals out. She doesn’t even make eye contact.

I can't help but internally “aww” at her. She’s tiny. So tiny that I have inches in height on her. I’m so busy looking her over that I almost forget to respond.

“Oh, I’m just looking around town. I had a few hours to kill.” I stammer out. My hand reaches up to rub the back of my neck. That’s a nervous habit.

Y/n looks me over. Her eyes narrow. I hold my breath as I wait for her to recognize me. Yet, she doesn’t. All she does is smile and turn back to folding t-shirts.

“Do you like hockey?” I can't help but ask her.

She finishes up her folding and walks behind a counter beside me.

“uhhhh if I’m honest, no. My friend invited me to a hockey game tonight. This was the only jersey I own! if you're interested, behind that rack there’s some vintage jerseys and stuff.” She shyly admits.

My heart was pounding at the speed of sound. I walked over and pretended to look over the jerseys. I spotted a New Jersey Devils retro. It’s perfectly her size. I wonder if I can convince her to trade teams.

“Have you worked here for long?” I am desperately trying to make small talk.

Which is apparently not my strong suit.

“I mean sorta, I'm only in Newark for art school.” She shared.

Wow, art school. I've never been so drawn in by the creative types. That explained the paint stains on her pants. My god, I must seem like a creep. The nagging inside me told me that I should ask her to look out for me at the game.

“Are you excited about the game?” I sheepishly ask.

She smiled and nodded. When I looked at her I saw the peppering of freckles across her cheeks. I saw the frog earrings dangling from her ears and how gorgeous her eyes were. She was electrifying.

In a nerdy and cute kind of way. Something about her made me want to know her more.

your pov:

You try not to freak out at the gorgeous customer in front of you. His shaggy blonde hair was so fluffy. He had stunning blue eyes. It took every urge inside of you not to pull out your sketchbook and draw the goofy look on his face.

“Ummm, I don’t know much about hockey but based on your Devil’s hoodie– I take it you do?” You don't know where you got the confidence to say that.

He nods eagerly. It’s adorable how his hair flops around as he does.

“You could say that,” he replies. He is not my type. Jocks had never been the ones you're into dating. Nevertheless, he was gorgeous. You couldn’t help but feel drawn to him.

“My shift ends in fifteen minutes…do you maybe want to go grab a coffee and explain what the hell I’ll be watching tonight?” You nervously tuck your hair behind your ear. You’re not ever the one to ask boys out like this. You had crossed your finger as you waited for his response.

“Sure, I'll even explain what I do for a living to you.” he smiled and walked over to the jersey you had seen him look at earlier.

He handed me a gorgeous bright red jersey. You couldn't help the blush across my face. As well as the feeling that you would be changing from a Canuck fan to a Jersey Devil fan in no time.

Only if I'm lucky, that is.

~ after the game~

Jacks pov:

Once I get off the ice–I shoot y/n a text with our newly exchanged numbers telling her where to come to wait for me.

I hope that she let me take her out for something to eat. Or maybe I could find a way to convince her to see me again.

Her smiling face greets me as she waits outside with her friend. She’s gorgeous. I can tell she’s excited based on how she was bouncing on her toes. The best part of seeing her now was how I noticed her Canucks jersey from earlier had been replaced with a bright NJ devil's jersey. When I dropped my bag, she jumped towards me with a hug. I was overzealous to hug her back.

Her hug was dream-like. She fit perfectly into my arms. She smelt like cinnamon and oil paints. I thought about how that was a smell I could enjoy for the rest of my life.

I couldn’t wait to take her out.

I didn’t even care about standing my brother up for this girl. That’s how much she means.

your pov:

“OMG Jack! You played so well! How do you skate like that? Did it hurt to get pushed into the boards like that? How do you know when you should shoot?” you're rambling out excitement and fascination.

You couldn’t help but worry that you were annoying this likely exhausted boy. He just grabbed your hand and his bag. Jack insisted that you let him take you out for an after-game snack.

You agreed to say goodbye to the friend that drove you here. She just laughed and called you a “lucky girl.”

You sure do feel lucky. This handsome, athletic, and sweetheart of a man took an interest in you. You are the tiny, quiet, and artsy girl. It was something out of Romeo and Juliet.

You two were completely different.

Yet, it feels right. From the moment you asked Jack out earlier today, you knew just how giddy he made you feel inside.

Thankfully, Jack took over most of the talking. He explained how he knew when to shoot or pass. He told you about his first time on skates. Jack blushed as he remembered how his older brother Quinn and his mom would help him around the rink every day until he could do it skate on his own.

You melt.

Jack, the cocky loudmouth, is a momma’s boy and a family man. You saw him pout when he said he doesn’t get to see his family nearly enough. You chimed in with how you felt the same. Your family was far away. You hadn’t settled into life here yet.

Just like that, another topic where you two click.

The two of you drive to a 24/7 diner to grab a snack and a drink. Also, to spend time with your new crush.

When you sit down, he orders a black coffee. You order an Italian soda. Those are easily the most opposite drinks on the menu.

You two or opposites. Not in a discouraging way.

Maybe you two are opposites, but in the way puzzle pieces are opposites. Or the way colors that are opposites mix into new prettier colors.

“I’ve always liked purple more than red.” Jack pulls you out of your rom-com like thoughts.

Can he read minds?

He must be able to. Every movement you make or joke you tell–jack can respond in harmony.

It feels like the two of you exist in your shared little bubble. It’s A world where the two of you are complete opposites living in harmony.

You pull your sketchbook out of your canvas tote bag. Ready to show Jack what you made while at the game.

His eyes are filled with wonder and excitement as you flip the page. The center of your mixed media drawing book shows an image. The picture was drawn out in pencil, pastels, and ink. Who is the center of this drawing? None other than The #86 himself. The image of him smiling with his hand outstretched in celebration. The colors surrounding the art piece were the hues of red, blue, and purple clashing around the beautiful boy.

Jack now knew that he had met his opposite. However, you were meant to be his.

“Will you go out with me, y/n?” Jack said softly.

Under the lighting of the soft diner lights, you just leaned over the table and kissed him. It felt right. You were both two perfect colors mixing on a page.

[hoe-doroki]

hello! thank you for all your fics <3 may i please ask why you no longer write x reader fics? You don't have to answer, I've just been seeing so much negativity and entitlement from anons making writers stop doing what they love, I hope that's not the reason for you.

Ahh, sorry I don't know when this was sent in; I hope you haven't been waiting long. Don't worry, it's nothing negative. I'm really lucky never to have received any hate or been a part of any drama. I've made lovely reader insert friends and it's been a great community to be a part of. I so appreciate your concern, tho. And I'm glad you've enjoyed my stories. <3

Longer answer beneath the cut.

It's kind of a long story, so I'll start off with the tl;dr. Reader insert was always going to be transient for me. I'm a shipper and always have been, and I kind of knew that from the beginning. If you dig reeeeally deep into this blog, you'll see MONTHS of tags where I say "once I find a ship, it's all over here" and "this ship is calling me over, I swear" etc. Tbh, the breadcrumbs have been laid since near the beginning.

I've been reading fic since I was 12, and it was always shipfic. I never liked OC-centered stories, and was only ever drawn to reading and writing canonverse and stuff that felt similar. I don't enjoy deviating from canon. I talk to reader insert friends who have been into fic as long as I have and they talk about making OCs or pairing their faves with characters they could project onto and that was just...never my game. Idk if it's my demisexuality or my lack of imagination, but it's always given me butterflies to read about two characters who I see as really, truly in love. Whereas with reading and writing reader insert, I never cared about reader-chan. Even when I was modeling her exactly after me. I tried to give her depth and make her a good match for her bnha boy, but it was just that. A match to the boy. She was a stand-in, but not for me. For a character that whoever I was writing for would actually love.

I fell into reader insert by accident. I liked Todoroki upon my first watch of the series, and I wanted to read fics with him, but I wasn't jazzed by his ships. I'm usually pretty easy and get into whichever ships are pushed in canon. Like, if they tried harder with IzuOcha, I'd probably be an IzuOcha shipper, lol. But bnha isn't really committed to its, like, 4 or 5 het ships, so I wasn't either. So I clicked around random stories with Shou, stumbled upon reader insert, and I was like eh, that'll do. If there had been a ship I liked, I never would have read a single reader insert fic ever.

And then I got pulled in. Not by reader insert, exactly, but by the community. The blogs, and the friends I started making quickly, which was crazy to me, because I've never been in a fandom as active as this. In other fandoms, I would make a friend or two, but stuff like discord and tumblr friends and groupchats were new. And exciting, especially in the loneliness of covid.

Then I entered a feedback loop. I started reading bkdk as early as November 2020, and I only started reading reader insert in August, writing it in September. But November was also when I joined my first reader insert discord. All my friends were talking about reader insert, and we were all promoting our stories, reading each other's and so my brain kept on being flooded with fic ideas, headcanons, requests. Especially since I was writing all oneshots, mostly nsfw ones which, for me, didn't take a whole lot of effort or time. I started writing for a more (read: the most) popular character, Bakugou, and my fics were becoming popular, in January 2021 I hit 1k followers, I had decent interax, everything was going well.

By this point, I said at least to friends, if not hidden in tags somewhere on this blog, that I was ready to leave reader insert as soon as I had an idea for a bkdk fic. Cold turkey. I was one foot out the door for months before I actually started writing bkdk. But because of that feedback loop, I kept on having reader insert ideas and I wasn't in the same way talking about bkdk, thinking about it, taking the time to try and conjure up a fic idea. I still had wips for reader insert and I wanted to fulfill those promises as well.

Just some discord screenshots with dates, so you can see that the descent is much earlier than you'd think. Plus, past!me says some of this better than I'm managing to here.

The truth is, that I feel nothing towards reader insert now. I kind of want to delete my fics for it all the time because, like, I don't even know who that person was who wrote them. Who was Ana? Not me, and that's why I go by my real name now. I'm not a person who goes through phases, usually. I'm a pretty consistent person, and when I latch onto something, I tend to stick with it for life. Bkdk will be with me for life, I am 100% sure. This was a very strange, out of character blip for me.

And I know that sounds kind of disparaging towards the genre, and I don't mean that at ALL. Reader insert holds so much value as a genre, and it did for me too. You can see from my chat above that it was holding the entirety of my mental health for months. And I'll always value the friends I made. I love that these fics are still enjoyed, so I never will delete them. But I wish that I could fully detach them from myself too. I don't want to give up being able to read the lovely comments and reply back, though. Still, I wish with all my heart that I'd been with bkdk during all that time instead. Bkdk gives me butterflies. It makes me feel warm, makes me feel something like love. Reader insert just doesn't.

There's also a similar story in here about how I got caught in a feedback loop of writing smut too, and I never wanted to be a smut writer. I've written 50 fics or so for bnha, and none of them are my favorites (even the bkdks). My favorite fics, now, are all sfw, shipfic ones I wrote years ago. I don't like that. I want to like my current stuff more. This is why, in addition to retiring from reader insert, I've retired from smut. Smut is also a genre that I love and have mad respect for, but it needs to be as a reader, not a writer. I want to be proud of my fics again, for me, not because they've gotten popular because they're kinky.

So yeah. I left because I never liked reader insert in the first place, but it was a ton of fun to be able to write so prolifically in such a lively community. I'm terribly sorry if this taints my fics in any way to you, like I was flippant while writing them. I wasn't. I always cared about writing them, there was just something big missing for me, and I stayed longer than I should have. That's all. I do appreciate you asking the question; it wasn't an intrusion at all. I give all my love to this community, because it was truly meaningful to me during, as we all know, a terrible, terrible time. But I'm much happier now, and hopefully my next fic will be one I'm truly proud of again.

I hope this answers the question adequately <3

[blackhakumen]

Mini Fanfic #987: Picnic with Momma Peach (Super Smash Bros Ultimate)

5:45 p.m. at the Smash Park......

Sonic: (Enjoying the Chili Dogs He's Eating) Ahhh Yeah!~ Mom, these Chili Dogs you made are so heavenly!~

Peach: (Giggles Softly) Don't talk with your mouth full, honey. And I'm so glad you like them~ It's my first time making them, so I really wasn't sure if they would turn out good or not.

Sonic: You kidding? (Swallows his Food Before Presenting a Bright Smile on his Face) You knocked all of these right out of the park!

Sonic let's out soundful burp before sighing and patting his stomach in a very relaxed fashion.

Hat Kid: (Giggles Softly at her Brother's Carefree Attitude)

Shadow: (Rolls his Eyes) Charming. (Turns to Peach With a Small Smile) So what do you think of your Mother's Day present so far.

Peach: (Happily Hugs the new Pink, Leopold Print Purse Shadow Gave Her) Oh Shadow, I live my new purse so muuuuuuuch!~ It's so stylish and cute....(Looks Up at Shadow With a Bright Smile on her Face) How did you know Pink was my favorite color?~

Shadow immediately gives Peach a deadpinned stare for a few seconds before the princess herself starts snickering her way into a wholeheartedly laugh.

Peach: I'm only messing with you, sweetie!~ (Wipe a Tear From her Eyes) Please don't be mad at me~

Shadow: ('Sigh') It's fine, mother. I'm just glad you like your gift.

Peach: Thank you~ (Turns to Hat Kid While Showing her the Crayon Drawing of the Two of Them, She Drawn fir Her) And I can't express how lovely this piece is. You're such an artist, sweetheart~

Hat Kid: (Turns Away While Fliling her Hand Up and Down While Smiling Bashfully by the Compliment)

Peach: (Turns Back to Sonic) And what kind of gift did you get for this year, Sonic?

Sonic: Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........(Immediately Rushes Over to Peach Hugs Her With an Awkward Smile) My undying love and appericate?

Peach: (Giggles Softly) Oho, you~ (Hugs her Blue Blur Back) As sweet and generous as always.

Shadow: (Raises an Eyebrow at Sonic Along With his Arms Crossed Along With Hat Kid) You forget to give her a gift, didn't you?

Sonic: (Turns to the Duo With a Glare) Hey, I've been helping out with the wedding lately. Sue me!

Peach: (Eyes Suddenly Begins to Widened) Oh, that reminds me! (Looks Down at Sonic) Has Mrs. Rabbit and Mr. Crocnstein seen the picture of their wedding cake I've sent to them?

Shadow: (Raises an Eyebrow in Confusion Along with Hat Kid) Wait. "Crocinstein"?

Sonic: (Already Starts Snickering) Ahh man! You didn't know? Vector used to be a DJ growing up. (Smirks Very Teasingly) Apparently he thought having the name "DJ Crocinstein" would make him the talk of the school. Too bad that only lasted for a half a day though.

Hat Kid: (Giggles Softly) Dr. Crocnstein~

Shadow: I mean.....It's not the worst stage name I've ever heard. But it's nothing to write home about either.

Peach: (Gives Three of her Kids a Soft, Motherly Glare While Having her Hands on her Hips) Now, kids, there's no need to poke fun at Mr. Crocnstein like that. I think it's a lovely stage name.

Sonic and Hat Kid starts laughing a little more louder.

Shadow: Just call him Mr. Crocodile, mother. It's his actual last name after all.

Peach: (Eyes Widened a Bit in Genuine Surprise) It is? Then why did Mrs. Rabbit told me otherwise?

Shadow: (Simply Shrugs) Your guess is as good mines......But mother, can I ask you something?

Peach: Of course, sweetie. What's wrong?

Shadow: This might come out of nowhere, but.....What were your parents like growing up?

Sonic: (Immediately Stops Laughing as He Starts Widening his Eyes in Genuine Surprise Along With his Little Sister) Wait, we have grandparents?

Peach: (Happily Nodded) That's right. It's been so long since I've lasted seen them, but I can guarantee all of you that they were one of the most loving, caring parents a girl like me could ever asked for growing up.

Sonic: Sweet- (Eyes Starts Widening Again) Wait...."Were"?

Shadow: And you....... haven't seen them in years?

Peach: ('Sighs a Bit Sadly') Unfortunately, when I was very little at time, my......parents....(Slowly Rubbing her Arms While Looking Down on the Ground Somberly) both...... passed away from an unknown illness.

Hat Kid: (Starts Feeling Bad For Peach with a Very Sad Frown) Oh no......

Shadow: (Frowns Sadly as Well) Mother, I'm.....so sorry.....

Sonic: Yeah.....

Peach: (Immediately Gives the Trio a Reassuring Smile) I-It's okay, kids. Really! That was years ago and Toadsworth was able raise me afterwards. So.....it wasn't all bad. I mean, sure, I still miss them from time to time and I wish they lived longer enough.....to meet you three, your father and.... all of our friends and family we've made along the way, but....i-It's fine. ('Sniff') Everything is fine......

Sonic: Mom, your......

Peach: (Eyes Starts Widening Once She Notices Her Tears Has Already Fallen From her Eyes) No......(Sniffs While Quickly Wiping her Tears Away) Nononono.....I can't start crying about them now! The years have already passed!

Hat Kid: Mommy....

Peach: I've made it this far without doing so, I HAVE to keep being strong! For you, for them, for everyon-

Before she could even finish that sentence, Shadow rushes in and gives Peach a tight, loving hug. Causing the princess in question, to get nearly speechless.

Peach: S-S-Shadow?

Shadow: Mother, I.....('Sigh') You don't have to keep holding this in any longer. Not for ours or anyone else's sake.

Peach: ('Sniff') B-B-But-

Sonic: (Joins in on the Hug as Well) Shadow's right, mom. We may not know much about your parents up until now, but we do know how important they were to you. So.....if you really feel to let this let this all out of your system in front of us, then....I think you should go for it.

Hat Kid: (Joins Along the Group Hug) We won't go anywhere.

Peach: ('Sniff') But kids, I....('Sniff') I-I-I-I ..... (Looks Up at the Sun and Let the Biggest Cry She Ever Made in her Life) WAHHHHHHHHHHHAHHH!

Sonic: (Gently Rubs the Top of Peach's Back) It's okay, Mom. Just keep letting it all out just like that. You're doing great.

Peach: (Takes a Look Around at her Children in Front of her With Every Teary Eyes) I'm so sorrrryyyyy!

Sonic: Don't be. This was bound to happen sooner or later and you have every right to cry about it as much as you want. So I don't wanna hear another apology out of you, got it?

Peach: I- ('Sniff') I was so young when they left. ('Sniff') I miss them so muuuch.....

Shadow: We know you do, mother. And we understand how you feel completely. But given what you've told us about them, I speak for all of us when I say that they would be very proud of what you've accomplished thus far.

Sonic: (Nodded in Agreement) Exactly.

Hat Kid: (Nodded in Agreement as Well) Mmhmm.

Peach: (Heart Begins to Melt as She Continues to Cry her Eyes Out) Oh kids.....('Sniff') (Hugs All of Her Babies Back) I'm so glad and thankful to have you all in my life right now...('Sniff') I love you so much!~

Hat Kid: We love you too, mommy.

Sonic: Always.

Shadow: And thank you so much for everything.

@keyenuta

@ma-lemons

@caleb13frede

@cyber-wildcat

@rechicken-and-waffles

@26shann

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[fortune-maiden]

For the extremely specific ship rankings....Nielan, chengyao, and xisang back at you. :3

Ahh! So many ships!! Thank you!! :D

Nielan

Squick / Just nope / A trainwreck you can’t look away from / Mehh but they are bloody everywhere / Not interested but no negative feelings / I need to see how I could make it work / BroTP / Cute / I love them / They rented a room in my mind and are here to stay

Chengyao

Squick / Just nope / A trainwreck you can’t look away from / Mehh but they are bloody everywhere / Not interested but no negative feelings / I need to see how I could make it work / BroTP / Cute / I love them / They rented a room in my mind and are here to stay

Xisang

Squick / Just nope / A trainwreck you can’t look away from / Mehh but they are bloody everywhere / Not interested but no negative feelings / I need to see how I could make it work / BroTP / Cute / I love them / They rented a room in my mind and are here to stay

Individual ship ramblings under the cut

Nielan - So... this one is interesting to me because I LOVE IT as a BroTP, and I loved it as a ship early on into my foray into the fandom.... but I've become a bit more lukewarm to it over time. I love messy relationships (a trend that will emerge in the other two ships), but I don't really like that for NMJ. Da-ge deserves only good things!

I mostly like canonverse, which makes it a bit hard to overlook LXC's involvement in NMJ's downfall. Even beyond teaching JGY the song, in NMJ's Empathy session (which is biased to what NMJ thought and felt), LXC came off as someone who repeatedly dismissed him which is...not a good look (though now I wonder what an Empathy session from LXC's perspective would look like... I feel like it would a mess too. Lots of communication problems and failed implicit understandings)

I love their tragic friendship, and it was probably a very good solid decade-old friendship before the cracks showed... but I just don't really think LXC is a good match for NMJ.

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Chengyao - COPARENTS! :D Admittedly I only really ship them as coparents, but this is one of those ships where the more I think about it, the more I really love it a lot. There was a meta I read a while back about how JC & JGY would get along even outside of raising Jin Ling, having a mutual respect for each other and a pretty solid alliance. JGY may be the Chief Cultivator, and JC may be a young newly minted sect leader of a clan he rebuilt from scratch, but JC would have been the more politically stable of the two, having his Legitimate Great Sect Pedigree and credit for killing WWX.

JC may not be JGY's best friend (LXC) or best ally (SMS), but I like to imagine JC really did like the guy as more than just Jin Ling's Xiao Shushu, and genuinely supported him and his policies. JGY was probably the adult who most there for him after he lost everyone else.

Sadly, JGY being JGY, there probably wasn't much mutual affection TwT

...I made myself sad.

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Xisang - My Disasters Sons! My Beloveds! My OTP!

I'm not really sure what to say about this ship, other than I love it a lot xD Based on my preferences in tgcf, I can only guess that I have some sort of weakness for Best Friend/Younger Sibling dynamics.

I feel like I am drawn to ships where the characters involved have a long history together, and that's how we meet Xisang! NHS is close enough to LXC in Gusu to call him 'Xichen-gege' and in the present day, LXC is one of his two babysitters older brother surrogates. But they have also known each other since childhood most likely and went through a lot together, and especially so if NHS spent most of his teen years in Gusu.

I like to imagine them having a very cute relationship pre-Sunshot, where NHS has a crush on his brother's best friend, but LXC just sees him a cute little brother that he can openly spoil (notice him, wangji ;w;). Then Sunshot becomes the turning point for their relationship where NHS has to mature and step up as the heir to his sect (especially once NMJ is captured) and LXC realizes that he's more than just NMJ's spoiled kid brother... but at that point NHS has outgrown his crush.

And then of course, LXC is unwittingly complicit in NMJ's murder, and NHS takes no prisoners. How do you even begin to move past that? They've both hurt each other, and NHS has put on a facade for years (and maybe, just maybe, LXC had liked that facade and feeling needed) and there is just of a messy painful Drama left between them. It's great!

(Also I have been toying with an AU in which they do get married young and innocent and happy, and it's still a mess because NHS does not actually like Gusu and will not just roll over and be an ideal Lan-furen and this is not something that they seriously considered at the time... LXC thought he would understand his responsibilities and accept them and NHS thought LXC would defend him)

basically an Elisabeth AU

[palettepainter]

For someone who never watch mha before. Can you explain to me why hate deku x bakugo so much

Oh boy here we go

Spoilers to MHA and the movie Hereos Rising

So I personally have never had an experience with the fandom but from what I've heard the fandom has...very strong opinions on Bakudeku. Apparently some people where sending threats to the creator to make it cannon, take that with a grain of salt I myself just heard about it through posts, but I have no idea if it's true (but with how passionate some fandoms can be, I wouldn't put it past the realm of possibility)

With that in mind lemme say this before I state my opinions: You ship Bakudeku? Good for you! Have fun with that! Your choice to ship what you want

Okay moving on: So Bakugo essentially bullied Deku both when they were kids and when they where in Middle School. Bakugo and his two friends at the time even bullied Deku with the use of their quirks in the middle of a playground. And I don't mean bully as in they name call him in (which Bakugo kinda DOES since he calls him Deku which I believe means useless??) they used their quirks to kick his butt. In Middle School he basically told Deku to unalive himself, but that was only after he called Deku out in the middle of class and had everyone laugh at him, oh and he also threw his notebook out of a window just to add salt to injury. Then when they got to UA during the exam where the students had to work in pairs (Deku and Uraraka vs Bakugo and Iida) Bakugo I wanna say was basically prepared to kill Deku or at least severely injure him. And even when All Might - his teacher - told him to NOT use his new attack Bakugo replied "He'll be fine as long as he dodges" (how the fuck has this kid not been expelled. Like seriously Aizawa quote on quote expelled a whole class at one point Aizawa are you not seeing the problem that needs to be addressed with this kids temper?)

There are probably more parts in the series I can mention but these where the ones that have stuck with me. Now I will say that in the anime, especially in the movie Hereos Rising, Bakugo has gotten better. His development is very drawn out in the series and honestly I can appreciate that from a character perspective, having the development be slow instead of it being spread out over two or three episodes does make the characters more human, as development irl doesn't happen overnight.

That being said...Personally this ship just isn't for me. I see people online constantly saying stuff like "UwU they're in love!" or "Ahh Bakugo is so gay for him!" and Bakugo could literally be screaming in Deku's face, for no reason. Deku just has to exist in his presence and he'll be angry. I dunno at times it just feels like Bakugo is angry at Deku for the sake of being angry, we get it you yell a lot, now shut up. I just don't think I can ever ship this purely for the reason that Bakugo has overstepped MANY lines, there is a line you shouldn't cross, and I feel like Bakugo has crossed that line MULTIPLE times. Oh did I mention he told Deku to unalive himself in Middle School? Did I mention that?? Did I mention it's literally NEVER brought up again??

Sorry I'm still salty over that one

I repeat again: If you ship this, then cool. Good for you. I don't get it, I don't understand it, but I respect it's the internet and regardless of what I think people won't stop shipping it. So..have fun with that I guess

[girlwithshipsshitshow]

Part 11

Misaki: (Runs hands through his hair) Sorry Takahiro, I was going to call you, but i've been a little preoccupied with my fiance here..

Takahiro: I had to hear it from this guy (Taps Isaka's chest) Luckily he didn't sound worried so...

Takahiro, Isaka: Wait did you just say Fiance?

Misaki: Oh yeah, we got engaged saturday.

Isaka: (Walks over to Usagi, salps usagi on the shoulder who groans in pain) Congrats man, you finally asked him!

Usagi: (Raspy voice) Uh, actually Misaki asked me, and please don't hit me I just has surgery.

Takahiro: Are you okay Usagi-san?

Usagi: I'm fine

Takahiro: (Walks over to Misaki and Usagi) So, you guys are getting married?

Misaki: Yes, Yeah we are.

Takahiro: We'll congrats.

Misaki: Yeah, you don't seem so happy about it.

Takahiro: I haven't even gotten used to the idea of you guys dating and now you're engaged?

Misaki: Yeah, we'll my plan was to propose after we told you and before I graduated, so I don't really care if you've gotten used to it, we've been dating for years without you knowing and now that you know we can fully be happy, and if i'm sorry if you can't get on board.

Takahiro: I can, I just need time to processes all this.

Misaki: We'll right now, we need to focus on Usagi, so this conversation isn't happening right now.

Takahiro: (Nods walks over to the sofa and sits down beside Aikawa).

Isaka: Well I'm happy for you. (Smiles awkwardly, and goes to sit on the sofa).

(Nurse Rose walks in and smiles at Aikawa causing her to blush, she sits on the arm of the sofa causing her to blush more, her heart was beating out of her chest, hopefully no one could hear it.)

Nurse rose: Looks like we have a full house.

Misaki: Yeah, my brother Takahiro is beside Aikawa, and beside him is the senior manager at the publishing company where Usagi's work is published, his name is Isaka.

Takahiro, Isaka: Hello.

Nurse Rose: So how is everyone doing? Usagi the cafe is about to close so if you want anything to eat you should place and order now, otherwise I can get you some liquid broth and tea from up here.

Usagi: I'll just take whatever's up here.

Nurse Rose: Sure, the four of you should probably go grab some food.

Misaki: I want to stay here

Usagi: No, you need to eat.

Misaki: (Sighs)

Usagi: I'll be fine for an hour, I promise.

Isaka: (Stands up, walks over to Misaki, Placing a comforting hand on his shoulder), Come on Misaki, he'll be okay.

Misaki: (Stands up) Okay (Softly places hand on Usagi's cheek and and leans down to kiss him, he softly whispers "I love you" against his lips, before giving him another kiss.

Nurse Rose: Okay, so I can take you guys up to the cafe, (confused look) It's on the fivthteen floor for some reason, never understood that, shall we go everyone?

Misaki, Isaka, Takahiro, and Aikawa: (All follow Nurse rose out of the room, and onto the elevator).

Nurse Rose: Alright fun ride! I'm on my break before going into my night shift, do you guys mind if I eat with you?

Misaki: (gently nudges Aikawa)

Aikawa: (Slants eyebrows and mouths "what")

Misaki: (Nods at her)

Aikawa: Um, Nurse Rose?

Nurse Rose: (Smiles) I'm on break, you can just call me Rose.

Aikawa: (Blushes). Um you can join us for dinner.

Nurse Rose: Oh, that's cool! Thanks. I want to get to know you more.

Aikawa: (Clears throat) Uh, a- all- all of us.

(Elevator dings, they all get off following nurse rose to the cafe, They all get a large plate of shrimp tempura to share, and chicken broth, options were limited, since it was late and the cafe would be closing soon. Isaka, and Takahiro followed Nurse Rose to a table in the far corner of the restaurant, while Misaki and Aikawa trailed behind.

Aikawa: When she said she wants to get to know you, she meant all of us right?

Misaki: (Laughs) No, she wants to get to know YOU.

Aikawa: What does that mean?

Misaki: It means she likes you.

Aikawa: So you're engaged and suddenly you're the relationships expert? Isn't Usagi your first relationship?

Misaki: (Scuffs) And how many relationships have you been in?

(They approach the table, Nurse rose grins at Aikawa)

Misaki: See she's smiling at you.

Aikawa: No, she's Being friendly

Nurse Rose: Aikawa, I saved you a seat. (Pats the seat)

Misaki: See, (Walks over and sits beside Isaka.

Isaka: CHIBI!! (Throws arms around Misaki)

Misaki: What!?

Isaka: What's happening, how are you handling this?

Misaki: (Takes a bite of the shrimp). As well as I can be

Isaka: Good, so tell me , what's going on with those two?

(Across the table)

Rose: So how long have you known Akihiko?

Aikawa: Oh many years, he's a pain in the ass, but he's a good guys, he's like my brother.

Rose: So you've never had any sort of feelings for him?

Aikawa: (Snorts) Oh god no! He's never been into girls and the one person he's "loved" before Misaki didn't feel that way about him. Misaki's the love of his life.

Rose: (Touches Aikawa's hand) And what about you?

Aikawa: (Blushes) What about me?

Rose: (Chuckles) You ever been in love.

Aikawa: I'm in love with my Job.

Rose: Ah, one of those people.

Aikawa: One of what people?

Rose: Your life is your job and you never dedicate anytime to yourself, or anything else.

Aikawa: That-

Rose: Not true?

Aikwawa: (blushes) I need to make some time for myself?

Rose: How about tomorrow?

Aikawa: Tomorrow?

Rose: I get off at 5, we can get dinner?

Aikawa: I-

Isaka, Misaki: SAY YES!

Rose: (laughs)

Aikawa: Um, Yes!

Rose: Okay, cool. Um can I get your number?

Aikawa: Oh, um sure. (takes phone out of pocket, the two exchange numbers), Um you can call me Eri.

Isaka: Whoa! You never let anyone call you by your first name.

Aikawa: Isaka, hush.

Rose: (Laughs, we should probably head back, Im sure Akihiko is hungry, and it's almost seven so visiting hours are almost over, everyone has to head home. Except you Misaki, legally you can stay.

Isaka: What, why does he get to stay.

Rose: (Raises eyebrows),Misaki's his fiance.Don't worry the rest of you can come back at six am. Anyway we should get going, you have thirty minutes to say goodnight to your friend, and Misaki I can bring some sheets and a warm cover up so you can fix up the sofa, it pulls out into a bed.

Misaki: Thank you Nurse Rose.

(Misaki sat with his arms crossed and a foot up in the chair,he watched as Nurse rose fixed the sofa for him,she was smiling and humming, apparently she was happy about her date with Aikaw,it was around seven-thirty and everyone had already left, Usagi flipped through the tv channels and sipped on a third cup of tea, his seaced IV bag had been replaced when they came back upstairs and he had his second round of antibiotics, his vitals were still looking good, and he would have labs drawn around three in the morning, his bandages had been replaced and his surgery area looked good, other than the labs, and nurse rose checking on them throughout the night they should be good).

Misaki: You didn't have to make up the sofa, I could've done it by myself.

Nurse Rose: That's okay. It's my job.

Usagi: Misaki, relax let someone do something for you for once, plus don't you have an exam to study for? maybe do that for an hour huh?

Misaki: Fine. (Walks over to table near the window, grabs laptop, walks back over to Usagi and starts to work on study guide.

Usagi: Is this for German?

Misaki: Uh, Yeah.

Usagi: How do you feel about that?

Misaki: Good.

Usagi: Your grades are still passing?

Misaki: Ugh, yes Usagi, god you're in the hospital and you're still nagging me?

Usagi: (Reaches hand out) I just want you to graduate, you've worked so hard.

Misaki: (Smiles, takes his hand) I know, thank you.

Nurse rose: (Sits on the armchair of the sofa, she smiles at them). Do you Guys always banter like this?

Misaki: (Chuckles) Yeah kinda our thing.

Nurse Rose: So how long have you guys been together?

Usagi: (Moves bed up): Um, almost five years.

Nurse rose: How did you meet.

Misaki: He used to be my tutor, and was in love with my brother.

Nurse Rose: Really?

Usagi: Yeah, Kinda a long story.

Nurse Rose: And that doesn't make it weird.

Misaki: Um, there were times early in our relationship when I was worried he was still in love with him but-

Usagi: His brother means a lot to me, but Misaki's the love of my life, I love him so fucking much, I'll never love anyone as much as Misaki, he's my everything.

Nurse Rose: Wow, That's so sweet.

Misaki: (Sobbing) Usagi, stop saying stuff like that, I need to study.

Usagi: (Smirks) You already know that's how i feel about you, I say it to you all the time.

Misaki: Yeah, but i'm studyyinngggg.

Usagi: (Laughs). Get back to studying.

Misaki: You know i feel the same way about you right baby?

Usagi: Ahh, did you just call me baby? Do it again.

Misaki: Mmmhm, can't studying, watch tv or somthing.

Nurse Rose: Well (stands).If You need anything, you know how to get ahold of me.

Usagi: Yes, thank you.

Nurse Rose: (Exits).

(Misaki slams laptop and places it on the table in front of Usagi before pushing it out of the way, surprising him).

Usagi: Misaki, what are you doing? because we can't have sex if that's what you're trying to do. I mean I really want to, but we can't.

Misaki: No, I know that, but I have news.

Usagi: What news makes you act like THAT.

Misaki: Nurse Rose and Aikawa have a date tomorrow!

Usagi: Awe good for them.

Misaki: Why aren't you more Excited!

Usagi: I'll be more excited once you pass the test!

Misaki: (Grabs laptop) You're no fun.

Usagi: I-

Misaki: You just want me to graduate BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH!

Usagi: Misaki

Misaki: I'm studying, I'm studying.

Misaki: Done, are you happy? (he looked beside him, it was ten, Usagi was out cold, he placed his laptop on the table, turned the lights off, and changed the channel to some dumb sitcom that would give him a good laugh and walked back over to Usagi, he softly ran his fingers through his soft grey hair, and leaned down softy giving him a kiss on the lips). Goodnight my love (He walked over the the sofa and sighed as he crawled under the covers, it felt weird not cuddling next to Usagi, they've been doing it a lot more recently and he knew he would have a hard time sleeping not wrapped in Usagi's arms, he drifted off into an uneasy sleep.

[imseriousirius]

@ethereal-wishes Happy Secret Santa!!! No sure what time zone you're in but hopefully this dosen't come too late for you

 ​Summer breeze brushed passed her dress as she walked down the dusty lane. Belle breathed deely, glad to finally be alone. After reading, spinning was her thing, her escape. Sitting behind the wheel, listening to the whir of the bobbin she could almost forget. She knew her father meant well, he loved her really.He genuinely believed that marrying Gaston was her only chance for a marginally better life. But if she heard one more speech about ‘oblgation’ and 'womanly responsibilities’ she’d scream, or cry. Or both.

She reached the market square just before midday. She made her way to her usual spot beside the fountain and began to empty the contents of her market bag onto the rickety stand. By the time she was finished, she had worked up a fine sweat and sat back, the square was,full, she saw all sorts of people. Wealthy ladies shopping for fine silks that they didn’t need, to pennyless peasants selling whatever the could to get by another day. It wasn’t long before people started to form a queue in front of her stall, her wool was in demand across the land. The next few hours sped by in a flurry of orders, crowds and coins She decided to close up for a few hours and wander around, maybe find a place to read for a while. 

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After a few minutes of aimless wandering, she decided on an old, wooden bench, hidden by a cluster of trees, barely 10 minutes had passed when she heard footsteps approaching. What she didn’t realise was that her hiding spot was not as effective as she had originally thought.

'Hello?’

She jumped about a foot, and dropped her book. Bending down quickly, she scooped it up and shoved it back into her sachel. She was about to give the mystery visitant  a piece of her mind. But he beat her to it

'I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to frighten you’,

He spoke with a strong accent, she wasn’t sure how but she thought it sounded somewhat familiar. He was rather well dressed for this part of the forest, complete with waistcoat and cravats. Suddenly, she was very consious of her torn dress, she hadn't had tme to mend it last nigt. He hadn’t noticed, as he was currently struggling to tear his eyes away from her face. She was remarkably beautiful. Thick, chessnut brown hair fell gently about her face, her eyes held an uncommon astuteness and he seemed to loose himself in seas of azure blue.

'Are you lost?'

'Ahh-umm' he could feel himself turning red, even her voice was lovely.

'Would you like me to fetch someone to bring you home?'

'Ahh(pull yourself together man!)no, no thank you, I'm not lost'

He wasn't sure she believed him, 

'I'm Belle by the way' she said  'Belle French'

He had to be careful here, if he said his real name, there was a chance she'd recognise him, and he wanted to avoid that, just once he wanted to be called somthing besides 'Your Majesty'

''Gideon Gold'' 

She began to stroll back towards the market, he knew that he should probably avoid any public areas, but he felt strangely drawn towards this woman and found himself following her.

''I saw a book in your bag earlier he'd noticed her hurridly shoving in into the satchel and he was intrigued, it was unusual for to be able to read I hope you don't mind me asking what you were reading?'

She gave him a sidelong look, narrowing her eyes as though to weigh him up, see if she could trst him. Apparantly he passed the test because she reached into the satchel and pulled out a beautiful leather bound book. The cover was beautiful, complete with gold lettering and guilded edges.

''Her Handsome Hero''

''It was my mothers, she was the one who taught me how to read. My father's always said that it was a waste of time, that good men would never be interested if I always had my head in a book, she always said we just had to wait for the right one to come along.''

He had to say that he agreed with her mother. There was an air of intellegence and understanding that he had never before seen.

They chatted on for several minutes, until they reached the edge of the forest, he knew that going any further would be too dangerous, what if he was recognised?

''I'm afraid, this is where I have to bid you farewell.

She grinned cheekily  '' Oh! And I've so enjoyed talking to you, I don't tink I've  ever met anyone with the same interest in books as I have before''

''I could say the same to you, I think that you, quite possibly  th stangest, most interesting person I have ever had the pleasure of talking to''

He smiled and bowed deeply.  She looked down at this, trying to hide her burning cheeks. She couldn't believe that he, obvoiusly a man of great prestige and wealth(she wasn't exactly sure what he did for a living. She had asked, but he'd seemed rather vague and uncomfortable)   She wasn't sure why she was so pleased at this, she really shouldn't get so attached to a man she met less than an hour earlier, but, all of a sudden she felt a lot better than he had that morning.

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Belle felt unusually lighthearted as she closed up the stall that evening. Usually, a day of relentless bartering and arguing with customers, thawarting rouge teenagers from stealing her goods and enduring sanctimonious glares from snooty rich folk would have dampened her spirits, but scenes from earlier kept replaying in her mind, and she found it quite impossible to remain unhappy for long. She decided to take a longer route home, she knew the minute she arrived, all daydreams and encounters with strange men would be left at the door, and her father would once again be nagging her, Gaston would be plaguing her, and, once again, she would be trapped in a life she didn't want.

She stepped aside to let a carrige by, but instead of passing by, it screeched to a halt. The door swung open to reveal two young men. They were leather cad, tall, and they looked like trouble. Without meaning to, she caught the eye of one.

''Ello love, on your way back from the market?''

''And what if am?''

''Well, I was just going to offer you a lift''

''Well, that's very kind of you, but I'd really rather walk''

He began to walk closer,

''Oh come on love, it's been ages since us lads have had a pretty girl like you''

Closer

She began to panic, she'd heard stories from girls who'd been in similar situations and she did not like the way this was going at all.

Her stomach turned, he seemed to sense her discomfort, and sneered. Now less then a foot away, he began to eye her unpleasantly. She was assaulted by the smell of stale sweat and alcohol. She had nowhere to run, they were both at least a full foot taller her than her, and there was no way she could outrun them both.

''I'd step away if I were you'

The man spun around so fast he almost fell over. Standing there sword face contorted with rage, was the man she had met in he forest earlier. Gideon?

''You.....you're''

''I said, step away''

''You're the bloody king''

''Yes, and you're Killian Jones pirate, thief, general scum. And that lady is my friend, so I'd advise you and your friend to get back in your carrige and drive very far away.''

Jones paused for a minute, seemingly weighing up his options. Apparantly e thought the better of it and he reluctantly began making his way back to hsi friend.

''And Jones?''

''Hmm?''

''If I ever hear of you behaving like this towards any woman, I will personally hunt you down, and carry out your execution myself.''

He didn't lower his sword until the carrige was out of sight. He began to make his wa towards her,

''Are you alright?''

Belle wasn't so sure, it was less to do with what had happened and more to do with the fact that the man she had been talking to was the KING, the king had held her mothers book. The king had bowed to HER.

It wasn't until she looked up and saw a very concerned face that she realised she hadn't actually answered him

''I'm okay, thank you very much..your majesty?''

He winced,

''Yes I, ah, may have forgotten to mention some of the details surounding my occupation.''

She tittered ''Yes, just a few''

''Can you forgive me for being unthruhful?''

She laughed for real this time ''Of course, you just saved me

They stood in silence for a few moments, he was really starting to like her he wanted to see her again, but he didn't want to seem innapropriate or forward.

''Well, I'd better make my way home, I have to start my spinning work for next weeks market besides, my father will worry if I'm not home soon.

 ''You spin?''

''Yes, thats what I sell at the market''

How had he not realised, this was perfect,

''Well, it seems I'm in luck, just last week I was notified that we were in desparate need of a decent spinner. Our regular gentleman has left to help run his fathers businss I don't suppose you'd be interested. Unfortunatley, you would be required to see me quite often, fittings, meetings......'' he grinned

She chuckled ''Just when I thought I'd be rid of you. I'd love to''

He smiled. It was a good day

[jimlingss]

I'm literally crying-- I HAVE A C IN CALCULUS!! I got a 90% on my last test and i have a C now!!!!! I had a D before cuz i got 53% on my first test and i am so so happy i am /passing/ i usually get straight A's and some B's and this is the first time i've been this stressed about just trying to pass a class and i am just, so so happy i burst into tears wow. And you came off hiatus-- this is like, a sign! Your presence blessed my grade :')

*applause* you go girl! It may not be the perfect mark but as long as you’re satisfied and you know it’s the best you can do then that’s great! I know the pain of math all too well ._. but honestly it’s so satisfying to get good marks. sometimes when I see a row of 90′s or 100′s…man that does things to me. (and there’s my nerdy side)

honestly as a kid I really loved receiving report cards loooool

myjeansareonfire said:I’M CRYING AND YOU’VE JUST POSTED CH3 OF BEYOND REACH AGSHXFDJSKX OHMYGOD I FEEL REWARDED I’M SO HAPPY 😭😭💖 (why am i like this lol)

YES! IT’S A REWARD. (*shifting eyes) I totally planned it this way with my psychic abilities…ha…haha….

myjeansareonfire said:Ohmygod i’m a sobbing disgusting MESS 😭😭 i was finally able to lay down and read this in piece and that was probably the second or 3rd most painful think i’ve ever read. First of all, i’m personally someone who really craves physical affection. I honestly start feeling kind of depressed if i go too long without seeing my friends or my significant other because they’re the only people who i feel comfortable receiving physical affection from. It relaxes me, makes me feel safe and happy (1/5)

every time i you mention the way hoseok wants to be able to reach out and touch y/n, comfort her, ruffle her hair, help taehyung off of the ledge of the bridge, it honestly really makes my chest ache. And then.. The way jimin wanted to get taehyung off of the roof ledge, ohmygod, that hurt so much. Just imagining how hard he was trying, how hard he was crying, the tears streaming down his face, his voice going horse from yelling at him to get down.. It was honestly so freaking painful (2/5)

I’m curious as to what’s the most painful thing you’ve read. but yeah honestly I didn’t mean to make the chapter that painful…it just ended up turning out that way. It’s honestly up there with my top angst written pieces.

And I’m really glad you understand the severity of the ghosts unable to touch. Sometimes I wonder if I did enough but it seems like you understand so that relieves me.

Personally, I’m not a touchy person at all. Last time I received a kiss was probably a decade ago by some relative on the cheek and it’s been about a decade too since I’ve actually hugged someone hahaha I’m one of those ppl who cringe away, do that weird half hug thing and say they don’t like hugs but honestly…..it’s hard to admit but sometimes I crave some sort of physical affection too - I’d feel weird to ask for it though. Like it’s awkward with family members and me and my friends don’t ever touch each other hahaha maybe someday when I date or something. plus, pshh…I can give myself a hug. (this just got real deep and personal but if you’re talking about your own experiences, I will too haha.)

i think my tears freely started flowing when i realized tae was going to try to kill himself. And just imagining how painful it was for tae to deal with the fact that jimin killed himself after he told him too… Ahh this was just such a difficult thing to read 😭 also i 100% agree with hoseok on that wall between him and y/n… The way you describe it, it’s almost palpable. Y/n is just so closed off and distanced, i personally feel closed off from her 😂 (3/5)

i feel like she just has this ‘don’t fuck with me’ aura but not for the reason people would think. She already has to deal with dead people, i can’t imagine the hell her life would be if she had to deal with annoying /living/ people too. I really hope that y/n will slowly open up.. Or at least to hoseok. (also i just feel like i really cannot express how damn sad it made me to picture jimin being that torn, lol.. :’( i don’t think i’ve read a fic that devastating for jimin before this) (4/5)

I’m sorry it’s difficult to read, I know it’s very emotionally draining. That’s why I’m not very surprised at the low amount of notes and feedback. I’d rather people not read if they’re uncomfortable. At the end of the day, I write for myself so I’m not dwelling on the “results” much. 

But yes! No spoilers but we’ll definitely find out more about Y/N’s character. There’s 3 chapters left!! Originally actually, Y/N was a very happy person and ready to help everyone and everything but after I edited the second chapter I didn’t like her character at all and thought it was extremely unrealistic so I did a complete 180 which I became more satisfied with. The OC is a very interesting character.

As always, a beautifully crafted chapter 💖 i adored it all, and i’m sorry i didn’t send the asks while i was actually reading it this time.. I just didn’t want to interrupt the flow of the story at all. I just felt so drawn in to what what was happening. I’m dying to know more about hoseok tho!! *sends moral support to hobi* you can do this!! Remember!! I believe in youuu! 💖 (can’t wait for ch 4! :3) (5/5)

No! It’s really fine if you send a message after or during. You don’t know how much I appreciate receiving these, any of them, regardless of length or time and I read each word carefully with a huge grin. I’m truly honoured to have you as a reader, don’t worry about messages, thank you! I’m even happier to hear that you were so invested, you couldn’t pull yourself away. 

Overall, my thoughts on the chapter….I’m a person who values family HIGHLY above friends. I don’t have that many friends, really only have one true close friend while the rest I’m not so close to. But while I was writing this, I truly began to assess the relationships I have in real life, with my own friends and man….I cried really hard editing the chapter. I did two edits in total and cried in each one. These people that I often take for granted, I’m now actively trying to value them and…*sigh, I’m getting too deep into this.

Secondly, usually in fics, it’s all about romantic relationships. There are friendships but typically not the main focus. I’m also responsible for writing weak friendships, throwing them in for the sake of just throwing them in. But I realized writing this how powerful friendships can be. With romantic relationships and family relationships, there’s almost an obligation there, either strong feelings binding you to the person or through blood relations, all the history. But with friendships, there are no obligations…you’re there because you simply want to be. AM I MAKING ANY SENSE? I dunno, just trying to say friendships are really powerful, this chapter hit me hard too….glad you enjoyed :’))))