#also sorry that flower IS a carnation (idk how to draw flowers)

[thapunqueen]

Hey Hey Hey Lover,,

[fleamontsoleil]

Hello people!

My name's Kordian.

I'm a guy who fell in love with stories at a young age, and decided to make their life about them.

I’m a genderqueer, bisexual mess born on april 15th, which makes me:

an aries

using they/he pronouns,

coming from poland, 

speak polish, english and basic german, spanish, french and danish, which means i can wish you a happy birthday and order coffee, and also talk about the weather and describe my outfit, but i will not get into the depths of quantum physics. 

i’m also autistic.

more info lower!

Other random things about me:

i love writing

lemons, ginger, cinnamon, pears, pasta

i have a sweet tooth

i’m getting back into drawing and watercolour painting

i love flowers, my favourite one being a carnation

i’m basically 24/7 in headphones, music always on

i like learning new languages (if you haven’t figured that out yet)

i enjoy reading, watching movies and tv shows

i can play on ukulele and i’m getting better at guitar and bass

i love stickers and pins

kinda obsessed with angels and religious symbolism while being an atheist, idk how i did that

i can trauma dump without realising, sorry for that

i love sticking things to my walls

and also telling stories

travelling

coffee

chocolate

green

robin williams

On this blog, I reblog/post things related to writing and relatable things I see. Sometimes share a snippet of my writing or freak about an idea I'm having. I’m thinking about separating this side blog into two, one for fanfic (this one), and one for my original work (with my pen name) but idk. Maybe when I have more time.

What do I write?

I write mostly fiction and fantasy, usually gory.

I write things that are inspired by things I know. I have a great imagination, which sometimes is not so fun, but when I write it's really useful. I can sit in any place and make it into a story.

All my works include queer representation.

Some of my works might be graphic, but I will put trigger warnings before any of them.

My current works:

If it comes to longer WIPs, I am used to working on one/two at once, but giving it my whole attention for the time of writing. Even though I can read seven books at once, I can't write them at once.

I also write a lot of short stories, but I will not be listing them here.

"The Tangled Sun" (working title) - a fantasy novel (1st dratf) tag: wip : tts queer, pirates, magic

Fanfiction:

"Darksun" (working title) - a post apocalyptic novel(1st draft) tag: wip : darksun angels, queer, gore, horror

you can find me under cowboymorpheus on ao3

All of Us, Strangers - an AOUS deancas AU 24,095 words “How do you cope?” he asks. “With what?” “Listen?” he says, almost asks, and sticks the hand with the bottle up, one finger pointing at the ceiling. Dean doesn’t hear anything. The silence fills the entire space. “It’s so quiet,” he says, and his voice is slightly broken up, as if he’s mourning the sound that isn’t present. “The city’s out there, but we can’t hear a fucking thing.” Castiel leans even closer, as if he was about to tell Dean his deepest, darkest secret, and Dean backs away. His hand tightens on the doorknob. “I play music, but it’s worse when it ends. I even bought one of those white-noise machines. It’s like someone’s in the corner of the room, whispering about me. We can’t even open the windows, but I guess they don’t want us to jump.” he pauses for a while. “Bad for business. Broken bodies on the concrete. Who’s gonna move in then?” he asks, but he doesn’t expect an answer.

Dean Cas Big Bang fic - estimated word count 27k

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on the road - WHICH IS A WORKING TITLE - estimated word count is 60k After John dies, Dean has no more reasons to be trapped in his hometown. With the encouragement of his friends and family, he hits the road, where he meets new people and learns new things about himself, finally being able to explore himself as much as he always wanted to. Not having to hide, being able to just be his own person is something he didn't know he would ever be able to do. Little does he know, it's only the beginning of the good things to happen.

stained white roses - a darkfic basically

My other account is @cowboymorpheus. you'll probably find out some more on the intro post there. It's where I reblog and sometimes post fandom stuff, here it's just, I don't know. Writing, ao3 and the rest of random stuff like that.

That's pretty much all. Like I said, I'm open to new conversations, so don't hesitate to message me or send asks anytime. And I'm ask/tag game friendly!

Have a nice one!

[mysteriawrites]

Hello :D can I request a romantic matchup with a hsr men?

I'm an ENFP aries and my pronouns are she/her, also idk if this is relevant but I have alopecia areata and a milk allergy :(

My personality can really vary sometimes: near close friends or loved ones I'm bubbly and cheerful, talking a lot, especially if it's about something I like! but when I'm near strangers I'm pretty shy and can get easily anxious/stressed, worrying a lot about what people think of me. also I can be sarcastic and revengeful when someone pisses me off, to the point where I act first and think later, snapping at people (maybe even loved ones if I'm in a bad mood) and regretting about it later. Anyways, when I'm in a bad mood I want to be left alone for a while, and when I talk it's with a angry tone, it's pretty easy for me to snap/curse when I'm stressed.

I like drawing, reading, listening to music, playing videogames, flowers, plushies and large clothes :)

I dislike crowded spaces, loud noises and being ghosted

my ideal partner would be someone loyal, respectful and who shares some interests with me

anyways, thank you so much and remember to drink water and take a break when needed!

Hello, thank you for the request. Man, people must've really liked the Dan Heng one I did cause I've gotten 3 star rail requests in the same day. Anyway, sorry this took so long now on to the matchup DRUMROLL PLEASE!

🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁

JING YUAN!!!

Idk why I just feel like he's a good match for you I feel it in like my organs.

No one really knows or understands what makes you and Jing Yuan work so well, you guys just kind of mesh and it is the sweetest, softest pairing in all of the Lafu, maybe even all of the Xianzhou, MAYBE THE WHOLE GALAXY.

You and Jing Yuan met purely by chance, maybe even fate. Jing Yuan was just taking a stroll through one of the flower gardens oh the Lafu, a way to escape from his general duties (he may be good at his job, but they don't call him "The Dozing General" for nothing), when he saw a woman tending to the flowers. She was absolutely beautiful, breathtaking even. It was love at first sight.

He decided he wanted to talk to her. As he walked closer to her, he could hear the music blaring from her headphones. He didn't know the song, but he had to admit it had a beautiful melody. The woman's back is turned to him as she watered the flowers, so he gently tapped her shoulder; promptly spooking her.

The startled girl turned around to face him and he could see her beautiful eyes. Your eyes. For a moment he is speechless but is able to regain his composure and ask you about the flowers. Despite being shy at first, as you talk about your passion for flowers Jing Yuan encourages you to go on and seems genuinely fascinated which allows you to gain some confidence as you speak. Soon you two are having a roaring conversation.

You two talk for about an hour about your passions from the flowers to the music you were listening to, to other topics that you're interested in such as books until soon Jing Yuan realizes he has to get back to his office. Jing Yuan bids you farewell before kissing your hand and promising to see you again.

From that day on Jing Yuan during whatever break he can get comes to visit you. You two will talk the whole time from the simplest topics to the deepest philosophies. As the meetings become more frequent the two of you become closer and you fall harder and harder. Eventually Jing Yuan has realized his feelings for you and wished to court you, but how should he go about doing that.

One day you're at your usual meeting spot waiting for Jing Yuan. He's a bit late and you wonder where he is, you're even starting to get slightly worried. Then all of a sudden you feel a tap on your shoulder once more. You turn around to see Jing Yuan on his knees holding a bouquet of flowers, but not just any flowers. The bouquet pink and red camelias, bluebells, pink carnations, and a singular red chrysanthemum right in the middle of them (if you look up flower meanings on almanac.com you'll understand what it means).

And the rest is history. You two are now the happy couple everyone knows and loves. Jing Yuan is an absolute gentleman to you. Pulling out chairs, holding the door open for you, always complimenting you whether you're all dolled up or chilling in sweatpants. Dates between you two really just consists of alone time. Reading books together and taking naps together in a flower field to name a few (he is big warm, and cuddly).

He can also be quite protective of you too; he's always worried you'll get hurt because of his job. That someone will use you to get to him, but you always reassure him that you're right there with him and trust him to protect you. And for those moments where you get worked up, he is there to calm you down (although he has to admit that you're very attractive when you're feisty).

You and Jing Yuan as mentioned above are a very soft couple. You treat each other gently and support each other. You're also somewhat parents around the Lafu (Yanqing is seen as your surrogate son sometimes). You have your fights when stressed but always work it out in the end. You protect his heart and spirit, and he protects you and everything you both love.

Honestly, I had no idea how to write this. I just decided to random bullshit go in the end I hope it doesn't suck.

[cowboymorpheus]

hi people!

Hope you’re having a wonderful day. There’s coffee in the cupboard over the sink, btw.

I'm really smart and understand tumblr to its core so that's why the blog on which i re-blog fandom stuff is the main one and the more personal ones are the side ones. sorry for all the misunderstandings it may cause

my name is kordian, and i’m a genderqueer, bisexual mess born on april 15th, which makes me:

an aries

using they/he pronouns,

coming from poland, 

speak polish, english and basic german, spanish, french and danish, which means i can wish you a happy birthday and order coffee, and also talk about the weather and describe my outfit, but i will not get into the depths of quantum physics. 

i’m also autistic.

more things lower!

Other random things about me:

i love writing

lemons, ginger, cinnamon, pears, pasta

i have a sweet tooth

i’m getting back into drawing and watercolour painting

i love flowers, my favourite one being a carnation

i’m basically 24/7 in headphones, music always on

i like learning new languages (if you haven’t figured that out yet)

i enjoy reading, watching movies and tv shows

i can play on ukulele and i’m getting better at guitar and bass

i love stickers and pins

kinda obsessed with angels and religious symbolism while being an atheist, idk how i did that

i can trauma dump without realising, sorry for that

i love sticking things to my walls

and also telling stories

travelling

coffee

chocolate

green and yellow

robin williams

On this blog, I reblog/post fandom related things, so there’s a list of fandoms I’m in, in the current (for may1st 2024) order of how much i post/reblog about it:

supernatural

malevolent

hannibal

x men

the sandman

good omens

angels before man

911

leigh bardugo’s books

marvel

Things that can appear, although not so much:

dead boy detectives

jujutsu kaisen

sherlock

the boys

gotham knights

hazbin hotel

Other movies/series I love:

fleabag

aftersun

all of us strangers

like minds

mamma mia

bridget jones

dear evan hansen

anatomy of a fall

Music I listen to:

imagine dragons

queen

noah kahan

hozier

twenty one pilots

we three

the velvet underground

fall out boy

elton john

frank sinatra

and many, may more, although I can’t name them endlessly so here’s my spotify

feel free to dm/tag me and send asks!

cowboymorpheus on ao3!

Other blogs:

@fleamontsoleill (writing blog, kind of, just a bit active, dying really)

[sunflowerspecter]

flowers (a.h.)

summary: you don’t expect his request, but it immediately draws you to him. unfortunately, you’ll probably never meet him again. 

warnings: kinda gross fluff ngl 

pairing: aaron hotchner x reader

words: 1248

note: okay this is loosely based off of this post. might do a follow-up to this one, but idk. 

It was a normal day at the shop. You were putting together an arrangement of sunflowers and humming along to the classical song that played when he walked in, a stern look on his face, in full business attire. He stepped up to you, and you could tell he was on the verge of snapping, but you could also tell he didn’t want to snap at you. You tilted your head at him. 

“How can I help you, sir?” you asked, and he bit his lip. 

“This sounds awful, but how do I give flowers to someone who I don’t like but have to give flowers to out of politeness?” 

You almost giggled at his rambled words. “Um,” you said, then you glanced around at the flowers around you, “okay. Geraniums symbolized foolishness and stupidity in Victorian times, if that’s what you’re going for,” you said, beginning a slow pace around the shop. The stranger followed you. “Oh, and there’s basil, which symbolizes hatred. Meadowsweet symbolizes uselessness, and yellow carnations can symbolize disappointment. Black roses symbolize death, which is a little bit more aggressive, but honestly, they’re my favorite.” 

He nodded, then shook his head. “If you were trying to tell your boss that she’s an idiot and needs to leave your team alone, what would you do?” 

You moved around and picked a few flowers, then moved over to the counter, and began arranging them. “May I ask what happened?” 

“I work for the BAU,” he said, then shook his head. “That’s FBI.” He paused, looking down at his hands, then sighed. “My boss has my team under watch because we make the hard choices.” 

You nodded, biting your lip. FBI explained the suit. “What does BAU stand for?” 

“Behavioral analysis unit.” 

“What’s your name?” 

He glanced up at you, seemingly surprised at the question, which made you smile. “Aaron Hotchner. What’s yours?” 

“Y/n. Y/n Y/ln.” 

“Do you own this place?” he asked, and you nodded. 

“Yes. It was my father’s, before he passed.” 

“I’m sorry,” he said instantly. 

“It was years ago,” you said. “My mother always says that he lives in these flowers, and this shop, now. I think that’s special.” 

He smiled at you, and his smile was absolutely the cutest thing you’d ever seen. “That’s beautiful, I think,” he said, and you could tell he wanted to say more, but he didn’t. 

You looked down at the arrangement in your hands, then sighed. “Well, here’s your flowers for your boss.” 

He stepped back (just a little bit), then said, “Oh, right.” He pulled out his wallet but you shook your head. 

“These are on me.” 

He almost refused, but you insisted, and you waved at him as he walked (into) out the door and out of your life. 

It was a few days later and you couldn’t stop thinking about him, when a very pretty group of women walked into the shop. 

“Are you Y/n?” one of them asked, blonde hair and purple lipstick. You nodded, and the other two (one with short dark hair and the other with longer, blonde hair) shared a look. 

“I’m JJ,” the other blonde said. “This is Emily and Penelope.” 

“We’re sorry to barge in on you,” Emily said, and you suddenly felt very exposed, “but Hotch got flowers from you the other day, right?”

“Hotch,” you muttered under your breath. “That Aaron fellow? From the BAU?” 

The girls all nodded. “He hasn’t been able to shut up about you, and he’s been so much happier than he normally is,” Penelope said. 

“He’s a grouch most of the time,” Emily said, and JJ elbowed her. 

“He’s too shy to actually come back and talk to you, but we figured we could come scope out the situation,” JJ said. 

You smiled, trying to fight the blush crawling up your neck and across your cheeks. You opened your mouth to say something, but all that came out was a nervous laugh. 

“I told you Emily would scare her,” JJ said to Penelope, who just shrugged, and Emily looked offended before throwing an arm over JJ. 

“No, no,” you said, then laughed again. “No, I really liked him.” 

The three of them all broke out into grins. 

“Okay,” Penelope said, “I have a plan.” 

~~~oOo~~~

You were a giggling mess the entire time. You had flower baskets scattered all over the BAU, which you decided you were going to keep doing, even after this whole scheme—they all saw enough darkness on their desks, they should be surrounded by pretty things, too. Your favorite part was the part that was the most suspicious. One of the other members of the team had a ‘spare’ key to Aaron’s office and let you in. 

You stared at his desk for a while, then put your vase of flowers and your note on top of it. And, all was going well, and you turned to leave, but there was someone standing in the doorway. 

“Aaron!” you gasped. “I, I was just.” You pointed to the flowers on his desk, but he was grinning, his cheeks pink. 

“Did Penelope put you up to this?” he said, his voice light as he moved into the office and picked up your note. 

“And Emily and JJ. And another man let me into your office. Emily called him Rossi.” You bit your lip, hoping that he wouldn’t read the note while you were in the room. And then, he did. 

White irises, for hope 

Sunflowers, for warmth and happiness

Pink asters, for charm 

Ranunculus, aka buttercups, for  attraction 

Peonies, for bashfulness 

In other words, I haven’t stopped thinking about you, and I’d love to see you sometime, if you like. 

He looked up and smiled at you. He opened his mouth, and then closed it, and then said, “I’d love to take you out. I’d say a specific time, but with my schedule, I don’t know when I’m going to be free.” 

You nodded. “That’s okay. Mine is very flexible.” He smiled at you. 

“I’m free right now.” 

“You just got to work,” you laughed. 

With a shrug, he said, “I’m not technically supposed to be here for another hour.” You looked down at your watch, which read 7:30 am. 

“Then why are you here now?” you laughed. 

He hesitated, then said, “My son’s school starts at nine, so I dropped him off at his aunt’s so that he doesn’t have to go too early.” 

You could practically feel the anticipation radiating off of him, so you smiled at him. “What’s his name?” 

“Jack,” he said. “He’s nine.” There were questions you wanted to ask, questions that didn’t seem appropriate, questions that made your stomach turn, a slight unease at the thought, but you decided not to, not then, at least. Aaron sighed, however. “I was married. She died.” 

A beat. 

“Oh,” you said at last. You shook your head, taking a breath, before saying, “I’m so, so sorry.” 

“If you don’t want—” 

“No,” you interrupted. “I know what you’re going to say,” you said, stepping forward, “but I want to get to know you. I want to see where this takes us.” 

At first, you weren’t sure what his face was telling you, but then, you recognized surprise. And then he smiled at you. “Do you want to go get coffee before we have to be anywhere?” 

You nodded. “I know a great place a few blocks from here.” 

“Then let’s go.”

tag list: (lemme know if you wanna be added or removed)

@quillvine​ @winterscaptain​ @agenthotchner​

last thing— 

hi y’all! i recently saw the episode with maeve for the first time and HELLO MY HEART? so am i writing  a fix-it for that? yes. that’s in the works and also i’m currently working on a really fun au and also i defintely wanna do some folklore fics so there that. however i wanted to write something in the meantime so i have a few one shots lined up for the next few days so yeah! much love, baby 

[jadedadultritsu]

(hope am not bothering) So like I looked up Birth flowers for January and October (wangxian's bday months) and idk if mxtx did it on purpose but the symbolisms of their birth flowers describes their personalities v accurately and if mxtx did assigned their birthday months like that on purpose they are an absolute genius (sorry if my words don't make sense I'm not very articulate but I need to infodump on some1 so am sorry)

You're not bothering me at all! Why would you think that. 😟😖😭

If anything, this is an opportunity for me to put my research skills into practice and I’m gonna go grab whatever. Also, this is actually an interesting question! :O I will do my best to answer this. So first off, I’ve consulted google if there is a similar ask from before bc 1) we don’t want a duplicate work 2) in case there’s already an existing ask, cross-referencing would be pretty nice :D 3) my memory fails me if I did see interpretations of WangXian birth flowers before, I think I did but I guess it got lost in the v. depths of the internet lmao. So if we looked up at the same site, there isn’t much to interpret actually. But I can def connect it to some events all across adaptions with a few takes haha. 

Ok ok, so here it goes:

For Lan Wangji: January - Carnations & Snowdrops

DUDE, both flowers can bloom in the cold winter months?! And this characteristic is RARE? HELL YES! These flowers are insane, they are to be envied by other flowers they should start shedding off their own petals by now lol (lemme at least personify them). You know who else could withstand such unbearable cold weather?

Him and HIM.

Carnations are also easy to spot bc of its bright color (pretty pretty boy Hanguang-jun in the crowd isn’t smth you see everyday).

Snowdrops symbolizes hope and rebirth. LWJ had hoped countless times already for different things but it’s not like it’s all directed solely for himself. LWJ isn’t a one-dimensional character who exists just to complement (or contrast) WWX’s chara. Remember the line Hanguang-jun being “wherever the chaos is”. I believe some ppl rlly wondered why LWJ didn’t take his own life if he truly loved WWX? (wtf is that even). Who wants another vers. of Romeo and Juliet? He wished to carry on bc of their oaths (paper lantern scene in CQL) and to ward off evil. Plus, WWX’s promise aligns to that of LWJ’s moral values so he HOPED to get them fulfilled as much as possible, prolly 'til his last breath. Ppl keep forgetting that LWJ is an individual too, while I could understand and relate when ppl see them as a single unit mostly. Song Lan still carried on with night-hunting with XXC and AQ’s souls HOPING he could mend them along the way. I'd say that "if he dies, I die too" death trope is so boring now, I could dieeee myself, sir. JC didn't dismiss the possibility of WWX reincarnating. So LWJ must've his fair share of hope that WWX would reincarnate anytime in his lifetime. He's not gonna pursue love anywhere else. It can only be WWX. LWJ's rule-abiding nature loosened significantly during the Nightless City incident. Post-burial mounds siege, he didn't completely cut himself off from the sect affairs, but he did engage with them minimally. That, my friend, is his own vers. of rebirth (a.k.a. character dev't)

Snowdrops are well-known for being droopy-shaped flowers. I interpret this as, although esteemed and ppl have high regards for him, HGJ could still humble himself inspite of the facts.

For Wei Wuxian: October - Marigold & Cosmos

Marigolds’ vibrant color says a lot abt October babies huh. Marigolds symbolize fierce love, passion and creativity. Fierce love for family? Burning passion for knowledge? Need I say more? Creativity idk why but the first thing that popped up in my mind is paper man Wuxian since he’s the only one shown to use that ability. WWX also strives to think outside of the box by thinking of a fourth method in LQR’s quest abt dealing with the resentful executioner’s ghost. I recall a tumblr user saying how WWX is a nerd locking himself up in the Demon-Slaughtering Cave performing experiments, inventing demonic tools, and whatnot. So he wasn’t merely a mischief-maker all along lmao. "Marigolds also have a long tradition of being used medicinally to heal inflammation and skin problems” - sure, if transferring the cursed mark from JL’s leg to your own leg would count lol.

Cosmos flowers represent peace and tranquility. Although loud most of the time, he can read and sense any f up situation and can appreciate peace at times and as needed. “They also attract bees, so are a great flower to grow to draw pollinators to your garden!” dkdnfkdnfdk LWJ is the bee. <3

So you’ve finally reached the end, I applaud you. Congrats and thank you for keeping up with me this far. Now let’s get to the real quest, did MXTX assign the birth months to her chara’s on purpose with that basis in mind? Was it purely coincidence? I vote for the latter. If I were a Danmei author and I wanted to assign a birth month for the stoic-faced and icy personality chara, I’d conveniently assign a winter month. Same goes for WWX. Since WWX shifted to the heretic and wicked path, I, too, would conveniently assign him a birthday near Halloween. Surely, the birth flowers interpreters have also given this a lot of thought associating the corresponding flowers accordingly to the seasons while meticulously considering the characteristics of these flowers.

[thedeadwritinggod]

Heartbreak hotel

Part 3 bitches. Let’s get it

Warning: Hints toward Cursing/Cussing, Suicide, Self harm, abusive relationships, Polyamory(idk if there’s a need for this one tbh-) but ye a h- Hope you enjoy!

Special warning: This chapter has an almost non-con kiss! (The kiss almost happens but does not.)

Just maybe, Skylar was worried for nothing. I mean, getting third wheeled with someone else is never as bad right?

It had started as a group but Kara isn’t the greatest with loud environments so they stayed seated with Ben there in case anything set them off. Annie was off dancing on her own while Vi and Star decide to be dumb together on the dance floor, they still manage to make it look cute though.

And somehow, someway Kasper and Skylar ended up dancing together.

Their hand felt cold on her belt as her hips shift and sway-she really is a great dancer.

She places a hand on their neck and swings her hips, pulling them closer together in the same moment.

Their eyes lock, hers are half closed and she smiles lazily-humming along to the music and there’s are wide and unblinking hypnotized almost.

She giggles lazily, drunk on the music and colors surrounding her. Their look softens, eyes falling to her lips where her lazy, soft smile rests.

‘Pretty lips...’ they bring their other hand to her side, rubbing her skin gently. Warm. Small streams of light escapes between their fingers.

“Say my name~ Say my name~” And she pulls them closer again, as she sings along.

“If you love me, let me hear you~” Pressing their foreheads together, eyes peacefully closing.

They lean in, still staring at her lips as they sway and dance together. Their eyes fall closed and-

They shoot back open and they pull away from her quickly, leaving her confused- “S-Skylar I....” their voice trembles, along with their body. They grip onto their arms-cold. Cold leather where they used to have her body, ‘breathe. Just breathe.’ But that hurts,like there’s this miasma, this blackness crawling up their throat and killing any breath they can try to draw in.

Their grip tightens as they back into something-someone? They can’t really tell- it’s hard to focus when it feels like there’s a pressure- a weight, on your chest...it makes it hard to breath-

‘D-did I just almost kiss her-‘

Meanwhile still on the dance floor Skylar blinks to herself, brought out of her previous state. She spots them. The flowers blue and white flowers that litter the ground, she starts to pick them up, following the trail.

Nearby, Annie blinks having seen everything

“Bitch. Did anyone else see that besides me?”

“Hell no- Annie. My dear bitch. I believe we have a new ship.” Star calls, having also seen that.

“Believe? You believe?!-“Annie says storming up to them “They almost kissed!”

“Kasper doesn’t seem to happy about it though.” Vi mentions, glancing at them.

“Yeah they really don’t...”

“Should we try an help?”

“Well sky’s already over there so-“

“K-kasper?” Skylar had kept follow the trail, ending up with arms full of flowers white and blue flowers though with all the lights they didn’t exactly look white and blue.

They look up, tears lining their eyes and eyelashes. “Di-did I-“ they get up and speed walk away....

A thick trail of Carnations and Acacia flowers lead back to the hotel after Skylar’s trudge home.

Rejection is never fun and well since they left...why should she stay and get third wheeled? It’s not like they’d actually notice anyway...

Well in reality of course they knew. They saw them.

The next day she almost doesn’t come to the window-she does though, guilt having struck all at once.

“Kara!”

“Hey sky!”

“Did your sound sensitivity go off at all while we were out?”

They shake their head “Benny was there in case, but it really wasn’t bad.”

“Okay! Sorry I wasn’t there, won’t happen again.”

“It’s fine! Also-We won’t be around too much for the next couple weeks..We’re going on a bunch a dates since Annie’s been bursting with ideas!”

“Oh, hope you guys have fun! See ya-“

‘Guess I better prepare...least they told me.’ She shrugs

And the next day. Nobody came.

One day turned into two, two to three, three days to a week and...

She closes the calendar.

Weather she tried to prepare or not it was never enough.

It’d never be enough would it? She sits up in bed and pulls her headphones off, even in death you can’t escape sore ears I guess…

‘Pool being used..game room wouldn’t work...I could try ...No-‘

So she wanders the halls of the hotel. Empty as her mind.

Maybe they’d stopped now?

‘And maybe they’ve finally forgotten?’

Of course not….

‘Finally they forgot me...it was a long time coming I guess..’

‘They haven’t forgotten you dumbass. You’re just blowing this out proportion. Just like your “abuse”’ how the mind itself scoffs? She’s not sure...

‘Home was a hellscape though.’

‘You forget what Kara and Robin went through.’

“no..” Skylar mumbles aloud

‘I’m right then. Your mother put a hand on you sparsely, your father and siblings never. You’re fine.’

‘That doesn’t fix the fact you’re getting left..’

“Wow...thought the brain died when you did.” She rolls her eyes.

Yeah this was fine. She could deal with these two bickering incessantly. Yeah she could deal with that.

What she knew she couldn’t handle was the little voices- the tiny hands that grab and pulls at your psyche- begging, screaming for the pain to stop. That pain that your active mind is numb too at this point.

‘What did I ever do?’

‘Why won’t it stop?’

‘What’s wrong with me-‘

After dealing with those for four hallways already she sighs “I thought this would stop with my damn heart.”

“What would?”

She threw a glance behind her to see a familiar black haired person.. “Nothing ghosty.”

Kasper jogs up in front of her “That’s a bad lie.”

“Really it’s nothing.” She starts trying to walk away

“Still a bad lie.” Kasper walks backward in front of her

“Look can we just not..?”

“Not what?”

“Talk about this.”

“Talk about what?”

“Look Kasper I’d rather not lash out at you-“

“And why would you be lashing out at me?”

“That can happen when people feel lonely-“ she switches directions and Kasper follows her.

“Why ya feelin lonely?”

“Don’t know. Have been since way before I died and at this point I couldn’t care less why.”

“But you have friends here..?”

Skylar stops and sighs, sounding exasperated “over half of them aren’t my friends and that’s not how loneliness works.”

“Then how does it work?”

“Google it ya fuckin genius.”

Kasper stops, letting her walk away now. She’s talking to people. Good.

He knows enough about loneliness, just not enough about Skylar to see the effects. He pulls out his phone, staring at the small amount of contacts he has-then he puts it away. She probably won’t want him to tell anyone.

His attention is derailed by a soft sound and he strains to listen-Small, quiet, mutterings of words. Singing. Something about snow..?

He follows the voice-but can never seem to catch it, the he glances down at his feet..he doesn’t need to catch it anymore.

Tiny white flowers and larger yellow ones. Skylar.

// @the-lavender-creator

[shisanchi]

I was tagged by @reminnii!! idk why it took me this long sorry sldkfjslk also i talk too much so i put a read more here!

Rules:

Answer the 11 questions you’ve been asked

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Ask your nominees 11 questions

Let them know you’ve nominated them!

1. If you could live in any video game world, which world would it be?

World 5-5 in New Super Mario Bros Wii because of the cute penguin suit you can wear... 🐧

or if I think about it more, maybe the 1bitheart universe bc that game has a friend making mechanic so I’d like to make friends...and the town is nice...lovely places there, would want to go to CocoAlley and go to that cafe there!!

2. What’s your favorite kind of aesthetic?

Oh um....hm.... I guess cute soft pink stuff? But my tastes are scattered, I like all kinds of looks!

3. What is your favorite memory?

Haha, it’s a childish one, but I was like 7 or so when it happened so fair enough

I was playing around with my two friends at the time and we were pretending we had super powers! And one of my friends shouted “wind poweeeeer!!” While aiming her hands at this huge pile of leaves and!!! A whirlwind came at that instant and blew the leaves everywhere!!! Everyone including me thought it was so cool we spent the rest of the days practicing our powers and hyping each other up like “did it just get hot really fast?? Your sun power is working!!” And stuff like that, it was a fun time!!

4. What’s your favorite oc? Tell me a bit about them!!

Dkdjsksj i have multiple favorites... i fixate on one for a bit....... then it switches........... she’s only my favorite bc she’s fun to draw lsdfks

it’s my girl, maybelline… or just may skjdksj. she’s a senior in high school who loves ribbons. One of the popular kids. Notice how there’s like 5 on her right now. That’s the minimum requirement of ribbons/bows necessary for her to leave the house 🎀

Skdjks she seems super sweet but in a nutshell, she’s a bully who uses her looks to manipulate weak-willed people to do her bidding. she has a story but i don’t want to type too much haha;;

5. If you’re upset, what’s a good way to cheer you up?

Any animal memes are great! I am a simple fruit.

6. What’s your favorite flower?

Carnations!! Too many beautiful flowers in this world skjflsdjals.... tulips are pretty nice too...

7. Current favorite song/one you’re playing nonstop on repeat?

this one... but also this one (they’re both covers dlsfkdj) oh also “mellow at 3 a.m.” by keisei is such a good song!!! i would replay that song over and over, it has so much replay value to me... but i don’t want to get sick of it if that makes sense? so i take breaks from it haha but also please stan keisei i love his music...

8. What’s the last thing you googled?

“triangle alignment”... i wanted to find the mcdonalds one (and i did) among others 

9. What’s a character (from any media!) that makes you happy when you see them?

Aoki Lapis... she’s so adorable. I don’t see her much around here but when I do I go “!!!” (Ooka Miko too) (and also literally any character from 1bitheart)

10. Favorite quote?

“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.” - a wise person

had to search through some bc the only one that popped up in my mind was that “...I will face God and walk backwards into hell” excerpt from that one dril tweet h

11. Do you know that I love you so much and you mean the world to me? 

aksldjflska I love you too!!!!! And I do, hope you know I feel the same! (sparkle emoji)

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Wait now I gotta make questions up sljfslj apologies if they are lame!

What’s your favorite snack?

Opinion on penguins?

Do you have a favorite reaction image? feel like sharing if you do? 

Would you ever go hang gliding if given the opportunity?

What is your lucky charm?

What topic gets you really excited to talk about?

What do you think is your best quality? 

Morning person or night owl?

City or countryside?

What image is stuck in your head forever?

Movies or TV?

I tag: @tomatetoro @otoma-chi @yourlocallosernamedgreenookie @thinkanamelater @bash-the-molegirl @echovoice713 ( y’all don’t have to do this if you don’t wanna btw <3 )

[funky-lover-blog]

phew! it's finally done! it took me 9 hours to complete this drawing!  This is also the first time I draw 5 whole characters in just one drawing! (this is the most difficult drawing I have done in my entire life) also I wanted to make my top 5 fav characters to interact with each other instead of just plain standing so, I though of making an interactive pic  where all of then are on a train ride with Choo-Choo Train. the numbers represents which number a character is in the top 5 list of mine. Now, here is the list with explanations. #5. Hilda Berg: Well, I really like how she was designed and all the transformations she keeps doing throughout the level, she is challenging and really fun to play with, I also like how she does that "HA" thing to attack us #4. Choo-Choo Train: Again, liked his design and I like trains so yeah :3 also I like how he at last completely leaves the carts behind and starts to chase the player, that one gave me a good laugh! XD #3. Goopy Le Grande: I know he looks simple, but for some reason his simplistic design is what makes me like him....also his constant bragging about his looks is funny (I kind of feel bad that Goopy got killed  ) #2. Blind Specter: Another character design I like! especially how is eyeballs are placed in his hands rather then in his eye. #1. CAGNEY CARNATION!!! (sorry for the caps): I JUST LOVE THIS FLOWER LIKE HELL! (I̵ ̵a̵m̵ ̵m̵e̵n̵t̵a̵l̵l̵y̵ ̵d̵a̵t̵i̵n̵g̵ ̵h̵i̵m̵) now let me tell you something.....one reason I liked Cuphead game was because of it's awesomely drawn 1930s drawing style and the second reason was due to Cagney! yeah.... in a gameplay I saw him and instantly felt some huge attachment towards him, idk why but it just happened....I couldn't stop thinking about that beautiful flower and really now wanted to play Cuphead and see all the other characters as well (I was really sad to see how Cagney looses his eye balls or something like that once we defeat him) I couldn't believe that I destroyed that lovely creature (I know if I didn't fight him, he would have killed me) but still.....