#am i crushing? is it a platonic crush? i have no fucking clue but idk how to tall to people and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[the---hermit]

I am experiencing queer panic irl for the first time and I don't like it.

[no-vamos]

So

Last night this morning I had a really strange dream that woke me up and basically

Also this is the second time I’ve had a dream about CB like I actually can’t this never happens I never dream about my crushes

So it’s hard to explain the basic plot of said dream but at one point I “run” into him and we start a conversation and for some fucking reason his dad is also there??? For context his dad is a teacher at our school and his family goes to my church

Anyways so his dad is there like hi mr b and he’s kinda watching our conversation and like c and I are going back and forth about something and this is when my dream gets kinda lucid bc I distinctly remember being able to control my dream expression but I also remember being able to tell what Mr b was thinking and c not hearing it or something??

Regardless so we’re going back and forth and Mr b starts making this face/thinking “oh you definitely like my son” and I’m like forcing my dream expression to stay neutral/positive and continue carrying on the conversation with c but like dear god

Why do I have a crush on him and why is it so strong lmao

Anywayssss

I’m also like super deprived of interactions with him it’s really sad

But during choir

I was trying to walk to my seat and he was trying to get across the room and we were in each others ways and so we kinda just ended up staring at each other like waiting for the other to move and I’m like “sorry” and I can’t remember if he said “oh it’s fine” or “sorry” but I’m gonna go with the first one bc that’s more his style ngl

But like

There was room

For him to go around me

We did not need to have that stare off

And I’m like exaggerating this a bit but it genuinely did not last more than 10 seconds but just the pause… it felt a lot longer than that. Especially bc he could’ve just gone around me

Idk if it’s like a habitual thing for him to go on that exact path orrrr if he was waiting for me to metaphorically make the first move

Idk but I’m still thinking about it now

OH and yesterday, I got out of school late and while I was driving home I was driving next to the xc team and one of my friends is an absolutely amazing runner her form is incredible I just have to like pause and comment on that

But it was funny bc for some reason running is kinda a turnoff for me? Like running is so awkward imo

But for some reason, when I was watching him run, the very first thought I had was “oh his children will have a good build” like wtf??!? Why did I think that??? I mean he’s tall (do I like him or is he just tall) and his hair is like super fucking pretty I like desperately wanna ask him what he does with it bc tbh he probably has no clue what a hair routine is and yet his curls??? Are so nice??? And defined?? Confusion??? It’s probably bc he’s always wearing a baseball hat to keep his hair out of his face

THATS ANOTHER THING if he doesn’t like his hair in his face why doesn’t he cut it. There has to be a reason. It can’t be maintenance bc maintaining short hair is much easier than the shoulder length curls he currently has

Anyways I could ramble about his hair quite a lot (it’s also a really nice dirty blonde kinda wheatish idk I think it’s pretty)

But he’s tall and skinny and when he runs he really uses his height and dear god there was a part of me that found it attractive and another part that wishes I didn’t bc there’s literally nothing attractive besides the fact he has good genes

Like why am I suddenly a post plague eldest daughter wishing to marry a man with good physical genes for survival. Why am I evaluating a potential suitor based on their physical attributes

Like not to hate on main but if he wasn’t tall he’d be built like a sickly Victorian child lmao

He’s a stereotypical xc runner - tall and lean

Very aerodynamic lmao

But somehow that’s attractive but also not idk

I just wish

We could interact more

I want his attention I want to ask what he thinks of me platonically or not

I’ve had brief not actual interactions with him pre choir. Like talking in his general vicinity but to another person

Idk I’m desperate highkey

Argh until another day

[crybabyddl]

I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE TO REITERATE SOMETHING

Yes, let’s circle back to the beautiful performance of Edge of Great. More specifically the BODY LANGUAGE, particularly Julie and Luke’s, which I will be analyzing with gifs.

Exhibit A

Jealous Luke looks over at Julie and Reggie vibing

Julie is aware that she’s avoiding Luke, which she is doing so bc she realized her feelings for him thanks to Flynn earlier in the episode.

Since Julie has put the task of ignoring Luke upon herself even though she has no obligation to, she ends up failing her own mission. She sees Luke’s reaction to the lack of her attention.

She literally FREEZES. She’s emotionally worried to confront what she’s feeling and it’s beginning to manifest physically.

Exhibit B

It gets better y’all. After Luke finally has even a crumb of Julie’s attention, he beckons her over with his signature head tilt. This is important bc he did this with his longtime bandmate during the soundcheck of what would’ve been their biggest performance. If he feels comfortable enough using that body language with a girl he’s only known for, what, a week and a half(?) then you know this puppy boy’s got it BAD.

Julie is well aware that Luke is getting jealous. But in classic Julie fashion, she will try to tune it out instead of addressing it. Our wicked beauty doesn’t like confrontation and would rather just deny and avoid than potentially make things awkward, especially when she knows Luke would ask her about it at a later time.

The look on Julie’s face. Her eyes widen and the classic tight-lipped awkward smile is present. She’s literally saying “ok enough of that let’s get back to work doo doo doo” with her face. The way her body SWINGS back into performance mode as she faces the audience again. It may have been a split second, but when you’re deliberately trying to avoid looking into the dreamy (dead) eyes of someone you shouldn’t be crushing on, any amount of time feels too long. Plus, she knows Flynn is watching and doesn’t want her to lecture her (but she does anyway bc Flynn is observant and knows her bestie too well to let any action slip past her).

Exhibit C

Keep in mind; NONE OF THE GUYS KNOW WHY JULIE IS AVOIDING LUKE. Flynn, Alex, and Reggie have noticed the Juke chemistry, but it’s still too soon for them to get past the “we like each other but we’re too clueless to notice that we reciprocate” phase, so even though their respective besties know, they are still denying. Besides, Reg, Alex, and Flynn know better than to keep pestering if they want to keep their kneecaps. In reality they’re both smart enough to tell by this point, but for the sake of the plot and to make everything more adorably frustrating, Flynn has the collective brain cell under lock and key, leaving Juke to be like *dog tilting its head and making that “a-roo?” noise*

Anyway, Reggie notices Luke being snubbed after realizing that his extra dose of Julie time was slightly out of the ordinary. Luke is clearly concerned (look at his eyebrows and how his eyes travel from Reggie, to Julie, then to the audience to trying and get his mind off it and bring his focus back to the main goal; the performance.) If he can’t have the moment of connection with Julie that he so desperately craves, he’s gonna fill that void as best he can by connecting with the audience. >:’)

But Reggie’s trying to help Luke brush it off by conveying his reaction as ‘look at julie coming into her own! i told you she was a star! and you thought you were the lead singer? think again buddy this girl’s got you beat!’

But since Reggie isnt a master at hiding his feelings yet, especially around Luke, —who was able to get under his skin earlier (“girls, am i right?”)—Luke was easily able to see through that and interpreted what Reggie was saying as “look at julie go, she all in the zone. you’re literally making heart eyes at her get a grip you’re slacking lmao” (hence luke’s right eyebrow quirking at reggie like ‘dude seriously gimme a break u know i need attention like tinkerbell’) even though Reggie’s true message was a bit less harsh and more lovingly teasing, but it’s Luke, he sees things through his eyes and at his intensity, regardless of who it’s coming from. (This is one of the reasons why Luke comes off as selfish at times.)

Exhibit D

Poor Lukey boi can’t seem to catch a break today! Not only does Julie ignore him, then has a cute lil (platonic but it’s luke so it still makes him jealous >:P) moment, but now she has the AUDACITY to interact with Alex? The guy who was out learning Ghost 101 with this Willie guy instead of rehearsing with the band? What gives?! What’s he got that your moody ghost bf doesn’t? >:’(

He literally just watches, and even glances back in a way that, to me, screams ‘did i see that right? did i just see what i just saw with my own dreamy (but dead) eyes? say sike rn.’ \_(*_*)_/

Meanwhile, Alex pays no mind. I like to think that Alex is fully aware that Luke is an angry boy rn, but has learned to ignore it, especially this bc literally NOTHING happened. Either that or Alex has no clue and just truly thinks nothing of it and is having too much fun to think about Luke’s moody and childish behavior. Either way, Alex is just straight chilling and we love to see it *^_^*

Notice how Reggie is right there vibing with Julie and Alex. Luke feels a bit betrayed like ‘not you too! i know you were the first to turn on me but i figured since you’re such a golden retriever you’d be loyal and come back to my side!😠🥲’

Also; Luke approaches the rest of the group, wanting to be included in at least SOME of the vibing, but when Julie starts dancing and smiling with her buddy Alex, he backs up like

“you know what? nope. nevermind. not doin’ it.”

and the group’s like “i mean hey it’s your loss, but luke we want you to-”

“no, bc you chose to piss me off right in front of my face so no luke time for any of you! no cuddles, no hugs, no nothing! you made your bed, now lie in it and perish.”

Exhibit E & F: This is where it gets a bit interesting and theorized hehe...

Now we all know that this moment is just fucking ICONIC

WEOWH NEOW NEOW!!! WEOW NEHR NEHR NER-NER-NER NEHR NEHR NEOWHR!!! (wer nehr-nehr-ner-ner-nehr-nehr!!) WUEHNER-NEUHNER-NEHR-NEEOW-NEOWH! DLOOLOODDUH-DOODLAH-HOOBLUEH-NEOWHR-NEUEHR-NEEEEEEUOWRH!!!!

But hear me out– HEAR ME OUT!

What if... now don’t shoot the messenger who just so happens to also be the theorist... but what if...

WHAT IF!!! Luke didn’t!! plan this?!!!

Listen i know you’re probably thinking:

“Well uh Nicole, isn’t that kinda the whole point? It literally wasn’t planned until Charlie realized Madi was gonna be standing on the piano so he suggested the idea for the guitar solo to Kenny.”

And you’re right! But here’s the kicker:

What if Luke THE CHARACTER, just decided to do this as an “Alright that’s it! You wanna be like that? Well what if I just hit you with my super awesome radical totally cool wowza guitar skills & make a moment between us? Huh? What do you think about that? Hmm? HMMM???!!!”

He licks his lips & that to me read** like he was nervous (**read rhyming with bed just to clarify) so that means it could’ve been a spontaneous, spur-of-the-moment thing.

In the second gif, you can see that Julie’s head is tilted, as if she’s a bit confused, but she’s also delightfully surprised.

Julie is quick to smile and scrunch her nose at Luke, something she does often. It tells Luke his impulsive action garnered a positive response from his favorite girl. Julie also starts to shake her head, but doesn’t go through the motion in full, which means she’s still a bit nervous to let her guard down. This is probably because she doesn’t know what he’s thinking or what he will do next. The lopsided smile mixed with the suave, gliding steps towards her probably brought her back to her daydream lol.

Luke’s happy bc Julie’s no longer ignoring him. He smiles like a GOOBER bc this chump is simping HARD for our Julie. So cute! :’)

Exhibit G

And hear me when I offer this:

What if Luke poofed the guys out???

I know, I know. It’s a bold claim to make. But the boys are special, considering they are a threat to Caleb (3 gay-variant himbos vs. a gay magician that could’ve been on broadway but decided to make some sort of deal with a devil so he just entertains capitalists who most likely sold their souls to get into the hgc which i will probably elaborate on in a future theory so dont do that bc im gonna lmao idc we all have big brains) So it’s not too crazy to think that they could share some ghost powers.

We know Caleb transported the guys during You Got Nothing to Lose. And the guys have left a place at the exact same time on more than one occasion.

And you may be thinking “well what if the guys poofed out to give juke a moment alone together?” And to that I say...

Look at Reggie. He isn’t looking back at Alex like “dude let’s give them some space.”

The timing of him turning around, at least to me, makes me think Reggie was surprised by Luke approaching the piano. (But also he lowkey was waiting for Luke to prove him wrong by doing something to get Julie’s attention so Reggie isn’t mad. Neither is Alex but he doesn’t like being told how or WHEN to ghost) Luke doesn’t even give his bandmates a warning eyebrow quirk, a hand signal, nothing. Reggie turns to Alex like ‘dude what is he DOING?’ And before he can even really convey that, they go *POOF*

This man had a plan and he was gonna do it, so he did. Whether it’s the power of love, they stopped performing, or Reggie and Alex actually poofed out, the odds worked in Luke’s favor so he and Julie could have a super special moment, a moment special enough to make an actual living person (Nick) wonder if a “hologram” has a better chance at connecting with Julie than he does.

Again, regardless of who made them poof or how they poofed, they mf poofed so Luke’s a happy hamster. (Idk it just sounded fitting instead of happy camper lol wait what if someone had 3 pet hamsters and named them alex reggie and luke🥺 someone buy some hamsters and let me be their godmother or their aunt and i’ll love them from afar.) Anyway, Luke’s thriving, flourishing, his crops are going to grow in time for the harvest.

You can see Julie lean back as she turns to see Luke. It’s... almost as if... She. Wasn’t. Expecting. Him. To. Be. There..??

Honey badger Luke bc he DGAF <|:) Bitch, it’s Luke mf Patterson and he’s gonna,, GET! IN! YOUR! FAAAACE!!!

You CANNOT tell me he’s not doing the absolute MOST to try and seduce Miss Juliana Mariposa Rose Molina.

Yes I’m making a headcanon that Julie has TWO middle names and that one of them is the spanish word for butterfly and that the other is her mother’s name. Also yes, I believe (i believe that we’re just one dream away from who we’re– oh, that’s not what we’re doing? okay, sorry!) that Juliana is Julie’s full name.

In this house we love and respect Juliana Mariposa (Dahlia)** Rose Molina

**I’m just putting Dahlia there for fun bc I can. :) Whether I’d consider it a possible middle name of hers depends. Anyway I just thought it was a cute thing to add bc it goes along with the other middle names I gave her *^_^* Also, I feel like I made a post giving a bunch of the characters middle names lemme see if I can find it later)

Ok i’m done this took me basically all day from like 10am until 4:08. I obviously took breaks in between, but not long ones...😶

[spcncershybrid]

Past Pleasures

GIFS ARE NOT MINE

KAI PARKER X FEM!WITCH!READER (PAST RELATIONSHIP)

BAU TEAM X READER (PLATONIC)

SPENCER REID X READER (BRIEF AT END)

Request: Ohh I'm anxious for misunderstanding part 2! It's sooo good 💚 idk if you're taking requests (sorry if you're not) but i thought it'd be pretty cool if reader works at the bau and is someone from kai parker's past (a childhood friend/crush/whatever) and when the team's called for help in mystic falls, kai's the unsub.. thanks in advance and, again, sorry if you're not taking requests! Take care :)

(Summary: Never in a million years did you think your ex boyfriend would be on the BAU’s radar.)

(A/N: I'm altering the Prison World storyline from TVD for this imagine! Also I’m altering Kai’s storyline to fit this. Lastly some stuff in this story involving the hospital may be inaccurate. Also sorry this took so long to post. I hope you still enjoy it!)

REQUEST ARE OPEN (+ Harry Potter has been added to the list recently!)

“Hotch I’m going to be a bit late this traffic is a pain in the-” I start before I get cut off. “Y/L/N take all the time you need just make sure you get here in one piece.” Hotch’s stern voice says. “Yes sir I will be speeding there right now. Not literally Hotch.” I say before hanging up the phone. I steadily drive over to work and park my car. I enter the building and head up to the unit area. “Hey Y/N/N.” I hear Penelope’s happy voice greet me as I step out of the elevator. “Hey Pen.” I say smiling as I swing open the doors of the bullpen. I head over to my desk and sit down. “Ah don’t get too comfortable my BAU baby. We have a case.” Penelope says strolling past me and up the stairs.I haven’t had coffee yet.I follow her into the room. “Here I heard your commute was very long.” Emily says, handing me a cup of coffee. “Oh what did I do to be blessed with Emily freaking Prentiss.” I say smiling as I take a sip. “Here you go babes.” Penelope says handing us our files. “Okay Mystic Falls Virginia just outside our room. Multiple bodies were sent to the hospital all banged and bloody.” Penelope says shivering at her words.I look at the file pictures and these seem vaguely familiar.“So why are we being called in?” Derek asks. “Because they all identified that it was the same man.” Penelope says.Great it’s serial.“They all said it was a blue eyed, dark brown haired guy.” Penelope says. Oh shit Kai. “Do you have a name yet?” I ask Penelope. “No but, like major but a similar thing was done by a guy named Malachai Parker.” Penelope says shivering slightly. “So why haven’t they caught him yet?” JJ asks, confused. “No one has been able to find him.”  I look down to the floor remembering the prison world escape. 

“Kai you and I both know she won’t get us both out.” I say snuggling up to him. “Babe have a little faith.” He says kissing the top of my head. “Kai what if we don’t get out?” I ask sadly, remembering my life outside of this world. “We’ve dealt with each other for this long and plus we can kill our way to the top. I’ll consider sharing my coven with you.” He says smiling at me. I smile back at him. “As fun as the killing game sounds Kai I don’t want to hurt people. I want to do what I planned before I got in here.” I say fiddling with my fingers. “The FBI thing?” Kai asks quirking an eyebrow. “Yeah Kai I would’ve been perfect for that.” I sigh sadly. “If you became an agent would you put me away?” Kai asks, grabbing my hands. “I don’t think I can run a coven on my own.” I say smiling up at him. “Good now let’s find our ticket out.” He says clapping his hands together.

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“Y/N?” I hear Spencer whisper beside me catching my attention. “Hmm?” I ask looking up at him. “We’re headed to the jet now.” He says shyly, handing me my go bag. “Thanks Spence.” I say smiling as I stand up. We head towards the elevator elaborating on ideas for the case and catching Kai. We step onto the jet and take our seats. “Okay so his M.O is very bloody.” Emily says twisting her pen between her fingers. “He could be sadistic.” JJ suggests turning a page to look at crime scene photos. “Or he can be a sociopath. Or at least showing the signs.” I say as I shrug leaning back. “Why do you think that?” Rossi asks. “It was just a suggestion Rossi I honestly have no clue on how to approach this case.” I say closing the file and stare out the window.

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Kai and I enter the back seat of a taxi. “We‘re free baby.” I say laughing giving him a kiss on the cheek. “Where are you guys off to?” The driver asks. “Mystic Falls.” Kai says quickly. “Why are headed back to that trashy town Kai.” I say rolling my eyes. “Old friends.” He says grabbing my chin so I turn to face him. “What kind?” I say smiling at him. “Family kind.” He says placing his hands over my shoulder. “Why are we going to visit your family? They have caused you nothing but trouble. For fucks sake Kai they treated you like shit.” I say shifting to look at his face. “Relax it isn't going to be a fun reunion.” Kai says shrugging. I sigh lightly this most likely won’t end good.

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“Tell us baby girl.” Derek says as he puts Penelope on speaker. “Okay so this Malachai guy has a rough history. He was born in 1972 in Portland Oregon. He has multiple siblings which he, oh my gosh, murdered. He has a twin sister named Josette Laughlin and two younger siblings Lucas and Olivia Parker who are still alive.” Penelope says. “Is that all Penelope?” Hotch asks walking over to the phone. “Actually no this is weird. Malachai went off the grid in 1994, like disappeared. Then he reappeared in 2012.” She says, sounding confused. “Isn’t your hometown Portland Oregon?” JJ whispers beside me. “Sadly.” I say. “There’s been a series of bodies that are injured in the local hospital. Malachai was also admitted there but he isn’t seen on the cameras. They suspect he’s still in the hospital. ” The sheriff says quickly entering and exiting the room. We all scramble and put on our vests. Half of us enter one van and the rest in another as we speed off into the hospital.

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We enter the hospital with our guns drawn low. “Reid, Y/L/N, Prentiss take the upper area of the hospital. The rest follow me.” Hotch instructs. We all nod in unison and head up the stairs with our weapons still out. We make it to the floor with the victims and the lights go out. “What the hell.” I hear Emily say. “Welcome to Mystic Falls’ Hospital BAU agents. I am Kai Parker, nice to be acquainted with you guys seeing as my ex-girlfriend is on your team. Hello Y/N.” Kai’s voice booms through the hospital speakers. I groan internally at his words so much for being lowkey. I turn on the flashlight on my gun and look around. Great Emily and Spencer are nowhere to be seen. I surprisingly make my way down the steps and head towards the speaker room. No ones in here. “Of course you're the first to be here.” I hear Kai say from behind me. “Don’t make this difficult Kai.” I say turning to him. “Or what you’ll arrest me. Last time I checked you hurt people too. Before this whole FBI thing that is.” Kai says, stepping towards me. “Actually that’ll be kind of hot so I won’t oppose it happening.” He says, smirking at me. I lay my hand out to start inflicting pain on him. “Immobilis.” He says halting my movements. I freeze completely and stare at him as he walks around me.

“You still look the same. You even still have that scar from when we escaped the prison world.” Kai says as he drags a finger onto my cheek outlining the scar. “Does your team even know about me? Do they know you could’ve found me so easily with your magic?” He asks, gripping my arm. He siphons some magic from me causing pain but I can’t scream out. He lets go of me and drops the spell. “Motus.” I say immediately sending him flying out the room. He groans and gets up off the floor. He speeds over to me and grabs me by the neck pinning me to the wall. He grips my neck tightly as I gasp for air. “I won’t kill you because well we dated and you're hot.” He says dropping me. I fall to my knees holding my throat. “Malachai Parker. Put your hands in the air.” Emily says as she appears behind Kai. Kai smirks to me and puts his hands up. “Remember your house in the prison world. I hope you remember what I told you.” Kai says to me. “I love you and always win.” I say looking at him confused. “Ad somnum.” He says, turning to Emily making her drop to the floor. He turns back to me and grabs me by the chin. “I always win baby.” He says kissing me before speeding out of the room. The lights on the floor immediately go back on as he runs away and Emily stands up rubbing her head. “Where did he go?” Emily asked, looking around. “He’s gone.” I sigh sadly. “Guys!” We hear Spencer exclaim. Emily and I scramble out the room towards his voice with our guns drawn. “Oh my gosh.” Emily gasps as we see Kai holding Spencer up by the neck. I place my hand forwards and feel the gust of wind moving around me from the vents. I focus my energy on Kai and think of pain. Kai immediately drops to the floor, dropping Spencer in the process. I step closer to Kai as Emily grabs Spencer moving him to the side. I twist my fingers making the pain intensify as Kai screams out in agony. 

I drop my hand and Kai stands up glaring at me. “Mittite.” I say flinging him into the wall. He stays pinned tightly into the wall and I twist my hand snapping his neck. His body drops to the ground lifeless. “Cuff him and put him in the car before he wakes up.” I say to Spencer who nods back at me.

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We head back to the station and Kai gets put into one of the cells. “Make sure you call Bonnie and Damon quickly. Kai is dangerous.” I say quietly to Sheriff Forbes who nods in understanding. I nod over to her and walk off to the room where we all set up. “Where is everyone?” I ask, noticing only Spencer in the room. “Back at the hotel.” He says holding his bag tightly. “Oh um well I’ll be right back.” I say opening the door. “Hey Y/N would you maybe want to go out sometime?” I hear Spencer says. I turn to him blushing profusely and nod not trusting my mouth to say actual words. He smiles widely as I exit the room. I walk over to Kai’s spelled  cell and look at him tilting my head to the side. “Goodbye Kai. I hope you enjoy the new and improved prison world you'll most likely be sent to.” I say waving him off. I head back to the set up room and grab my bag. I lace my hands with Spencer and we walk out of the station.

[st4r-c0d3]

Me explaining my mha kins to the best of my ability-?

uhh idk

I honestly had started ranting about my kins out loud earlier so I thought 'why not make it into a tumblr post?'

so this is me doing that lol

Bakugo: I'm an insecure bitch. That's it. (I also have the mouth of a sailor.) Ok but really? I've been told that I'm aggressive, intimidating, and most of the time people tell me they were scared of me when they first met me. Also I've been told countless times that I look scary but people talk to me because my clothing choices say the opposite. I also think I'm worse than everyone. Like all the time. But if there are things I know I'm better at I flex it like a million bucks because holy shit the validation to know that I'm not that useless. Plus I cover up all my insecurities with a blanket of false confidence 95% of the time. I'm also blind to anything relationship wise and can hardly tell the difference between platonic and romantic which I highly hc him as also being blind too bc it just makes sense (also makes me feel better but we aren't talking about that right now.)

Kirishima: I'm the mom friend. Totally doesn't seem like it? Considering I'm the most irresponsible of all the people I associate myself with. But I'm the one people come to first when they need help. Including my parents which is kinda scary cause if I need help I'm more than likely fucked. Anyways, I'm energetic even when I don't wanna be. That's where the blanket of false confidence comes into play y'all. Sometimes I act overly confident like Bakugo, but there are also times where I just declare I'm gonna do my best and end up failing like Kirishima. I also voice my insecurities quite often around the people I know I can get validation from. I also always end up becoming friends with the people everyone hates unless I have a reason to also hate said person.

Sero: I'm plain and overlooked like Sero. It hurts? But tis true. Also gifted kid burn-out. I tend to be chill in situations where the majority of people would be freaked out but I freak out in chill situations. I'm also the person everyone either forgets about or straight up doesn't know I'm there unless I make my presence known. I am perfectly fine with it though even though I'm insecure about it. I'm also a nervous talker (as this could be seen as a Deku kinnie thing I refuse to label myself as a Deku kinnie no matter how much I relate to the fucker.)

Shinsou: I have no clue what a sleep schedule is. I don't sleep unless I absolutely can't fight it. I also have insomnia. I mentioned this earlier but gifted kid burnout. I feel the need to work twice as hard as everyone else does even if I don't need to. I'm an ambivert but I prefer to be alone when I have the chance. Originally didn't want friends but now I'm emotionally attached to people :,)

Denki: I constantly fidget and hate being called stupid/dumb. I'm also a very touchy person even though I hate being touched if I'm not the one to instigate it. I am in fact touch-starved. I'm loud even though I hate it. I'm told I'm social and charismatic even though I'm also socially awkward and dislike social situations. I do know how to talk to people though. I'm not that good in most subjects (even though I had straight A's all the time before the whole burnout thing) but I've never had a grade lower than an A in literature and english/grammar. Typically seen as the most annoying person to be around (especially if I'm talking about things I'm passionate about. Also when I'm being aggressive cause it mixes and it's weird.) I also wear chokers all the time and finger gun my way out of every awkward situation I put myself in.

Toga: If I get passionate about something it becomes an obsession. Like an unhealthy obsession. I tend to whine a lot? I also have a weird fascination and whether this makes me more of a Toga kinnie or just a creep is still to be determined. I like knives (I can't explain this at all and I'm sorry for that.) I'm very jumpy whether it's from excitement or just me being bubbly depends on the situation. I like talking about death for some reason. People that I end up having romantic feelings become all that I think about (not in a romantic or cheesy way I've been told its lowkey annoying and creepy.) Also gender envy? Like with her whole "wanting to become the people she loves" thing? I suffer from that but in the form of gender envy and wishing I was that person because their cool and I'm a loser.

I REFUSE TO ADMIT I'M A DEKU KINNIE BUT

Deku: If I really care about something I'd die for it. I'm ok with risking my life for pretty much anything as long as it makes sense to me. I talk to myself in a very similar fashion to the way he mutters to himself. If I get emotionally invested I will risk everything to make someone feel better (I mean how he handle Todoroki's trauma.) I tend to rant on things I hyper fixate on/am really passionate about. I guess I work hard? In passing conversations I've heard multiple times that people are jealous of me? Also it scares me the amount of times people have confessed that they had a crush on me. But like never when they do?? Like I get confessions a year or so later. Or from other people they tell me that someone else used to/still likes me. I'm also known as a problem child when it comes to pretty much any adult in my life.

I hate how long the Deku one is

IM NOT A DEKU KINNIE I SWEAR WTF

I feel like I kin to many people from mha but it might be that it's my current hyper fixation

I think the only other animes/form of medias that I know I kin someone from are Sk8 (I'm a Miya kinnie), Magnus Chase (I kin Alex and honestly it's the kin I'm most proud of), Monster High (this was years ago and im just now thinking about it but probably Clawdeen) and probably HoO cause like Nico.

[notevenclosebaby]

i. have no fucking clue. how to tell romantic and platonic attraction apart. like are you wanting to friends or do you want to date me?????? and then just to make sure i half-flirt with my friends through typically romantic nicknames and now idk if i have crushes on half of my friends or if i just want to be closer friends with them. To sum it up, I have no idea what the difference between romantic and plantonic attraction is and at this point i am too afraid to ask.

dude sameeeee. like i get attracted to sumone, and now i have no fukin clue if tht was either platonic or romantic and tht just fuks wit my mind. so i just have like a default behavior where i flirt with everyone?? idk it kinda helps me to cope wit my confusion

[sibillascribbles08]

You know it’s dumb as heck cause I get crushes and I know I have romantic feelings but sometimes the actual concept of a romantic relationship just never pans out right and idk what is going on.

I never really dated someone for more than a year which sounds long but on the same note isn’t that much when all those relationships keep you from physically seeing each other a lot. I’m still super in love with one of my exes but distance is still a factor. I mean, it’s not at a point where I’d bother her by asking to try again, and maybe I’ll get past it one day, or not, oh well.

Sometimes I feel like one of the problems I run into is that because I have such a fake it till you make it mentality with everything else I come off as confident and smart but when it comes to relationships I have NO fucking clue what I’m doing.

I have a long ass history of friendships that fell through, relationship paranoia, and I still have NO goddamn clue what makes me comfortable or not with physical contact. Like smh in some cases I’ve known someone for two days and I’m cool with snuggling and other times it just makes me restless. Also I just can’t sit the fuck still so that just adds to the problems.

I might be observant about how people are feeling but I’m not good at helping, and I feel like this might be frustrating for a lot of people but I don’t ??? know. idk what would make you feel better, idk what helps, what helps for some people doesn’t help for others. Some people want advice, others just want to vent, I wanna be supportive but 98% of the time I just don’t know how.

Idk why people in the past have gotten crushes on me but I can only assume after a while they realized what a mistake that was.

I ain’t even saying this cause I feel bad, I know it’s all a learning process n shit, but if people  crush on me with the assumption that I know what to do then uh, I gotta stop giving that impression. I don’t. The only relationship rule I know and follow as close as I can is, you know, communicate.

Like fuck bro idk if I even WANT a romantic relationship per se. I mean smooching doesn’t interest me that much, at least not any kind you couldn’t just do with ur friends anyway (cheeks, foreheads, etc) As I get older I have more and more trouble telling the difference between platonic and romantic love. There’s a person in my life, or people, I love them, and the only hecking reason I wanna have a wedding is an excuse to dress pretty and have a party till 2 AM while rocking out to all the shit on my music playlist.

I want to have a house with like 8 other people, and pets, and maybe adopt two kids depending on what everyone else is comfortable with. Idc if I’m dating any of these people or not. We just live together cause it’s better. Big house. We have a fancy bathtub, or two. Huge yard with a garden. I get up early almost every morning to make breakfast and save some in case some of my roomies like to get up later in the day.

Guess the summary version of it is, I’m tired of dealing with my head often talking like it wants a romantic relationship but decides to bugger out when I actually get one or have a chance at one. Especially because the reality is that everything I want I can have without getting married.

Don’t even have to get married we’ll just have a big ass party till 2AM and I’ll wear my wedding dress just because.

[adoredykelano]

all the evens (on the LGBTQ asks) c:

2. At what age did you first realize that you like girls?

probably like 17/18 was when i first realized

4. At what age did you first come out?

18

6. Has coming out lost you any friends?

not any important ones

8. How many gay friends do you have?

idk a lot. most of my friends aren’t straight i might have like two straight friends

10. Have you ever cut your hair super short?

the shortest i ever cut my hair was chin length and i Hated It so never ever again

12. How much do you like cats?

i don’t

14. Do you like high heels?

they’re alright but i’m not a huge fan

16. How accurate is your gaydar?

idk gaydar isn’t really something i think i’ve ever used because i just. don’t care. so i have no clue

18. How do you feel when platonic female friends refer to each other as girlfriends?

i hate it, i hate it so bad

20. Ellen or Portia?

ellen?

22. Would you ever want to get married?

i sure would

24. Would you ever want to give birth?

i am fairly certain i would not

26. Have you ever dated a guy?

yeah

28. How many rainbow items do you own?

i honestly don’t know if i own any

30. Have you ever celebrated National Coming Out Day (October 11)?

nope

32. Have you ever worn a woman’s suit?

nope

34. Do you eat meat?

sometimes

36. Who is your favorite LGBT celebrity?

uhhh mary lambert i think

38. How often do you find yourself trying to sneak a peak or staring at a cute female?

not very often but mostly because when i leave my house i’m too anxious to stare at anyone much less cute girls

40. Are you comfortable with terms such as lezzie, lesbo, or dyke?

i don’t identify as a lesbian so they’re not my terms to be comfortable or uncomfortable with. 

42. In general, has being out affected your relationships with other females?

not really

44. Have you ever been in a long distance relationship?

yep

46. How long is the longest relationship you’ve been in? Are you still with that person?

nearly 9 months. no.

48. Do you think it is possible for someone to truly be a 50/50 bisexual, or is the percentage always skewed in favor of one gender?

it’s possible i guess but i don’t really agree with the whole “percentage” thing like i’m not partially gay and partially straight i’m just pansexual u feel

50. Do you watch any lesbian YouTubers?

just hannah hart i think

52. Have you ever been hit on by another female?

yeah

54. How many girlfriends have you had?

two

56. What does equality mean to you?

everyone has the same opportunities and respect as a human being

58. Have you ever shared clothes with a girlfriend?

not really

60. How flirty are you?

not very

62. Do you listen to any LGBT musicians such as Tegan and Sara, Melissa Etheridge, or Chely Wright?

mary lambert, halsey, kesha, probably a bunch of other ones i can’t remember off the top of my head

64. Have you ever been discriminated against because of your sexuality? If so, please explain. 

not to my knowledge

66. Are you or have you ever been a tomboy?

Big Ol’ No

68. What personality trait are you most attracted to?

compassion

70. Beer or wine?

wine if i have to pick from the two

72. From 1-10, how attractive are muscular women?

7, they’re not really My Type but they’re beautiful

74. From 1-10, how attractive are women who are covered with tattoos?

8, i literally don’t care if they do or don’t have tattoos so either way right on

76. From 1-10, how attractive are women with short hair?

idk 7? i’d like to take a moment to discuss how much i hate rating people on a scale of 1-10 based on factors that have very little to do with how much i like them or how attractive i find them

78. From 1-10, how attractive are highly intelligent women?

8

80. Have you ever been on your period the same time as a girlfriend?

yeah

82. Do you carry a purse?

i do

84. Have you ever pretended to be completely straight?

yes lol

86. How well do you think LGBT women are portrayed in television?

Not Very Well, Brenda

88. Do you have any celebrity crushes?

kesha and harry styles

90. Do you believe in love at first sight?

no

92. Where do you think is the best place to meet a potential lover?

idk it depends on the type of person you’re looking for

94. Have you ever had a one night stand?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i guess so

96. Have you ever been part of a softball team?

no

98. What stereotype about LGBT women do you disagree with the most?

idk probably that there has to be one butch girl and one femme girl in a relationship?? like the entire fucking point of a same sex wlw relationship is that the two people are both women stop trying to push your heterosexual gender role bullshit off onto us 

100. What advice would you give a girl who is struggling to come out?

wait until you’re in a situation where it’s safe for you to do so, and don’t feel bad about having been closeted. being in the closet isn’t lying, it’s protecting yourself and there is no shame or deceit in that.

[multiple-nerdery]

all asks

1. Are looks important in a relationship? i mean, if i like someone i’m going to like how they look. that’s how it works. cuteness is a function of if people are nice to me to me.2. Are relationships ever worth it? i mean, i should hope so, seeing as how i want to be in them much more than i ever have the chance too. no one loves me. but like yeah i’ve had fulfilling one3. Are you a virgin? no? no. i mean. i guesthey woulds not4. Are you in a relationship? no. i mean i’d like to be but i have a terminal fear of asking people out an the terror that the person would say no. 5. Are you in love? besides love for my friends, i mean ya but i’m not sure how (if) that’s going to do anything6. Are you single this year? so far, yes7. Can you commit to one person? i mean, i managed it for more than 2 years. my guess is that two people could not like me at the same time bc im unlovable8. Describe your crush they’re nice they’re nice to me i wish that they would talk to me more so we can just at least be friends but (edit: they talked to me)9. Describe your perfect mate cute, pays positive attention to me once or so10. Do you believe in love at first sight? nah. love takes time and love takes work11. Do you ever want to get married? if i ever find someone who would like to and i’d like to maybe but no12. Do you forgive betrayal? apparently i forgave christina v easily so yes13. Do you get jealous easily? yayayayayayayayayayaya14. Do you have a crush on anyone? i mean, i think i admitted that above so like yes15. Do you have any piercings? nah but i want at least ears probably something else16. Do you have any tattoos? nah but also i want one17. Do you like kissing in public? if i like the person enough i will forget that we’re in public probably but generally i don’t want to kiss in public and i’d rather most other people not kiss as loudly and grossly in public too20. Do you shower every day? of frieakin course21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? i’d hope so but i don’t know or think so. maybe one person but the person i’m thinking of is not the person i have a crush on22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? i wish23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? i managed it once, and haven’t had a second relationship that long but i doubt i’d ever cheat24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? oh god hopefully no25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? i have a crush so... maybe? honestly i just want kisses and cuddles from the situation right now heck not even commitment just affection26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? yeah. then he left27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? i guess? but also. then he left.28. Have you ever been cheated on? if I do, shealyn has some exsplaining to do (i’m sure she didn’t though)29. Have you ever cheated on someone? i have never, although one time i was being close with my friend and my girlfriend thought it wasn’t okay but that was platonic she just wasn’t comfortable.30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? nah fam31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? i’ve cried for multpile reasons32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? i have... always had this experience33. Have you ever had sex with a man? no34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? i mean technically no but like... actually i think even have never even kind of had anything close to a sexual experience with anyone who wasn’t non-binary. or, rather, at least for a long while35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? somehow, only one out of eight36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? all my romantic emotions stem from platonic ones.37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? shealyn. YEAH that’s right I know a majority of my friends hated her and you know what, I still don’t bear her any ill will38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? everyone ever.39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? most of them40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? i’ve tried41. Have you had sex so far this year? zero this year42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? depends on how the person i’m kissing responds to the kissing. if they’re okay with it and i want to it takes not a lot of time but like... that’s happened very few times43. How long was your longest relationship? 2+ years44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 345. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013? none46. How many times did you have sex last year? 2? depends on the definition47. How old are you? i’m 18 my dude48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? makes sense why would anyone like me49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? no tengo unx novix50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents,  would you accept? apologize for what he did nothing wrong.51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? all my friends52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? ????????????53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? someone would be mad if he found out i like the person i like54. Is there someone you will never forget? lots of people55. Share a relationship story. one time i got my ex a slurpee at 11:30 because she wanted it and i am a hopeless romantic56. State 8 facts about your body it’s quite tall, it can run far, it can speak fast, some people like how it looks, some people don’t like how it looks, it can’t dance, it isvery white for a slightly hispanic, it can cook if i want it too57. Things you want to say to an ex 1: thanks for still being my friend, 2: thanks for forgiving me, 3: stop flirting with a frshman god58. What are five ways to win your heart? be cute, give me positive attention, those are the only ones59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!) nonononononononono60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? 1 year 2 months 4 years exactly.61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? their existence62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? be nice to me63. What is your definition of “having sex”? you... you do the frick,,, then the frack (fuck idk)64. What is your definition of cheating? doing romantic things outside the bounds of your relationships65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? 5 hour miraculous ladybug marathon66. What is your favourite roleplay? i roleplay as a successful adult. you roleplay as a successful adult. we lift ourselves and each other up. there’s no sex involved necessarily.67. What is your idea of the perfect date? five hour miraculous ladybug marathon68. What is your sexual orientation? asexual but like... i’m very sex positive apparently69. What turns you off? meanness70. What turns you on? niceness71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? success72. What words do you like to hear during sex? i mean. “that feels good” is nice to hear. there are some other ones but those are inapropros73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? hugs74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? they have to have skin75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? no clue i can’t rank or remember76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? no.77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? shouldn’t be too big, the big part about it is emotional experience. pedophilia is gross78. What’s your dirtiest secret? one time... im gay79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? always, everyone’s better than me80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? last calendar year. They... well they reacted alright81. Who are five people you find attractive? two people from a FIRST chairman’s video, thomas sanders, several of my friends82. Who is the last person you hugged? ma.83. Who was your first kiss with? my first relationship.84. Why did your last relationship fail? we weren’t compatible and she was dealing with some stuff™85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? maybe someone who i knew who i talked to mostly from the internet but like i’d like to meet them

[chychy0825]

entry 1, sept.14

basically there a girl that i love very, very much and i don’t have anyone to rant to about her so i made a tumblr blog

so, the beginning.

in eighth grade, i move to korea, where my parents grew up. i grew up all around america and at this point i knew almost nothing about korea. i start as a second year in middle school, when all friendships are already established.

(quick background info, in korean middle schools, we dont have separate classes, we always stay in our homeroom and sometimes as a class, switch to other classrooms for special occasions, ie the science lab, library, but we don’t change classes so your’e stuck with your homeroom classmates for a year)

at this point in life i’m a huge weeb, socially awkward and i didn’t know if korean kids liked the same stuff as i did, and it made me so, so scared and anxious. and then i meet this girl. we are kinda forced to sit together when we move classrooms for english and the teacher doesn’t assign seats, since everyone else already has a friend/partner to sit with. since its like the second day of the new year and our first eng class (in korea, schedules differ every day since we have more subjects) , the teacher gives us a free period as long as we stayed in the classroom. the girl next to me starts doodling and whatdya know, shes drawing touka from tokyo ghoul (also at this point in life, i was a huge, huge tokyo ghoul fan) and also being an artist, i knew how anxious it was when someone stared at you drawing, but i was so desperate to be friends with her. so i start this huge debate of whether or not i should ask her if she knows tokyo ghoul. btw, im the most introverted introvert ever, and i never initiate conversations first.

but this one time, i did.

and it has been one of the best decisions that i made in my life.

she said yes, it was tokyo ghoul, and it turns out she’s also an artist, she also likes anime, she gets western humor/memes/culture since she had also grown up in canada for a short period of time. she has the exact same taste in music, books, manga, animals, art and so on.

we click together immediately.

until, then, i used to be more of an emotionally distant person, even with my friends. it might have been the byproduct of moving around a lot. when i made friends, there was this line i wouldn’t cross with them. friends i made in school, stayed in school; they weren’t a part of my personal life. they were there for me to have fun with at lunch breaks, maybe whisper to each other during a boring class, but not for an emotional, deeper bond.

but this time it was so much more.

within one year of knowing her, she manages to make me forget about the line i had always kept when it came to friends. i let her overstep into my personal life, into my very being. i got so emotionally attached. she’s also the first friend that i was able to feel comfortable with when it came to physical contact.

(little more background info, korean girls tend to be more touchy with platonic friends than western girls. holding hands, walking arm in arm is common) (yeah that means i nearly had a heart attack when she casually grabbed my hand as a platonic gesture)

fast forward to the winter break of eight grade.

at this point in life, i was fairly sure i was het, with high standards. i had never had a crush on a guy other than like, “celebrity crushes” (which was actually the incorrect term, i was more attracted to their aesthetic that the actual person in a romantic way) and mostly i assumed it was because there weren’t many decent guys in my life (also worth mentioning that the middle school i went to was an all-girls christian middle school). but until then, i kind of didn’t know being lgbt was a thing (despite growing up near sf, my parents (remember, they were raised in korea and in christian families) never let me get exposed to the lgbt community (but not in a homophobic way, it was new to them as well and they hadn’t understood it perfectly at the time). also at this point in life, i start to use the internet for more than googling. i start going on tumblr, twitter etc., reading blogs and posts from people around the world, and got educated on social issues, feminism, politics, and the modern perceptions of gender and sexuality.

and that opens up an entirely new world.

so the whole “wow i might not be het” incident occurs at school, actually. my friend casually mentions that she’s bi, she doesn’t care about the gender of the person she would love.

and that made me go, hey, maybe me too?

and then, wait, do i like her?

and then i proceeded to put those feelings on hold, because now, it’s the end of the school year, there’s spring break and we’re both busy so we didn’t see each other much and i kind of forgot the whole thing.

fast forward and the new school year begins. we ended up in different classes, but we still spent lunch breaks together, still hung out a lot. i did make friends in my new class, but still kept the line drawn, and kept them as “school friends.” but she made new friends, too. and honestly, they’re cool people, i actually became friends with them, too. but it was kind of bugging me that she spent more time with them, since they were in the same class. and i realized i was jealous.

and that realization hit me like, what the fuck?

and then i remembered, oh yeah, i kind of liked her.

you know the super cliche saying where it’s like you don’t know how much you really love someone until they’re gone? this was exactly that.

so i came to the dramatic realization that i was “bi” (spoiler alert, i’m not) and that i liked my best friend. but ok, that’s cool and all, it’s a crush.

but then, just as she always has, she proved me wrong.

on my birthday, i slept over at her house. we celebrated with just the two of us, without other friends. we had cake, watched some bbc sherlock, did a little gaming, etc., then she gave me my present. she actually gave me a lot of presents, like until then all my birthday presents were like One Cool Thing From Target But Giftwrapped, but she literally gave me a heck ton of really thoughtful gifts. the most memorable one was a branch(stalk? idk) of cotton, and said she wanted to get me dried hydrangeas but they were too expensive. i asked her why dried, she said because then, they wouldn’t wilt.  like ok, that’s really cool and thoughtful of her. then she gave me a letter and told me to open it when i got home, since if i read it in front of her she would be embarrassed.

and i went what the actual fuck???? so while she was washing and getting ready for bed, i opened the letter.

and oh my fucking god.

it was actually the first “genuine” letter that i had gotten in my life (excluding the ones from my parents). basically, (i’m paraphrasing and translating) what it said was “i don’t know what you think about me, but i’m trying to take care of you well and i treasure you greatly, thank you for being born.” which kinda. yeets my heart out of my mouth. she had also written a japanese poem on the letter but like in japanese. and i had no fucking clue how to read it, who wrote it, or what it was about. i went home later and i tried to figure out the poem, but google translate and my limited japanese kanji weren’t really helping. so i reached out for help from one of my american friends (who was half japanese). she couldn’t figure out who the poem was by, or where it was from, but she was able to give me a rough english translation (unfortunately, she said she wasn’t very good at jap, so she couldn’t convey the poetic-ness of it) so i then searched for the korean translation of the poem using the rough english translation.

and finally, finally, i found it.

it was part of the short story/poem “Osan” (おさん, 1947_) _by Dazai Osamu (an inside joke kind of, since we were both into bungo stray dogs at the time)

(i actually couldn’t find the official translation since it’s not a very well known work of his and googling anything with dazai’s name on it only gets me anime dazai jashdkahdkahd)

so here, a rough translation by me:

“I’m trying to cherish you

Shield you from the wind, and take care of you.

You, you are a great person.

Do not focus on mundande things, have self-confidence and stay calm.

I am always only filled with thoughts about you.

About which, you can have sky-high pride in.”

_ _

and i couldn’t figure out if she meant it in a platonic way or not (the japanese friend who translated it for me said it sounded like a love confession)

but at this point i realized that i might actually have fallen in love with her?

so that’s part one, the beginning.

(i’ll continue after exams are over and i have more energy and will to live in general)

[gatorfruit-moved]

for the send numbers ask... i literally wanna know everything about you. just do all the ones you're ok with doing 💜

scghumaeca oh my god

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

I honestly have no idea, probably Mack

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Outgoing but anxious lmao

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Probably Denny, I haven’t seen him for awhile and I think he’s going to be at our environmental conference. I need to talk to him about internships.

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I guess, I’m kinda cold outwardly sometimes and bad at conversations

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Probably yeah, I’d get yelled at though

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

I usually like bigger guys but I think that’s the dyspohria talking. With girls I tend to like short sweet girls.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

God probably not

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

A girl I like

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Kinda??? I make dirty jokes but sometimes I get super dysphoric cuz my bottom dysphoria is BAD

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Mack last night, sad shit oof

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“Will you both be home at normal times?”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Oof I don’t really keep favorite songs lmao. I like Hurt, Splash Mountain, (Fuck A) Silver Lining, This Is Home, and I Am Shit

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

God yeah

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Not really

15. What good thing happened this summer?

Last summer I became friends with the boys lmao

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

I haven’t kissed anyone

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

Of course, it’s unrealistic for there to be nothing

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

No, I haven’t seen him for like 6 years

19. Do you like bubble baths?

Eh, I’m not a fan of baths in general

20. Do you like your neighbors?

I don’t know my new ones but my old ones were the worst

21. What are you bad habits?

Over and undereating, biting nails, drinking too much caffeine, self deprecation, there’s a lot

22. Where would you like to travel?

The Netherlands, Mexico, basically everywhere

23. Do you have trust issues?

Oh god yeah I do

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Seeing the dove in the morning I guess

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

Hips, chest, groin basically

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Lie there for awhile and scroll through tumblr

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

Darker tbh

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

Mack

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

I don’t have any ex’s

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Hell yeah, I wanna get married so bad

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

For a lil tiny one lmao, I need a haircut

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

gchueirmqo idk, I don’t get celebrity crushes

33. Spell your name with your chin.

I am on my laptop rip. Zscxott paeris aretghur kajhor. Hey pretty close.

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

I’m in marching band, I’m joining a men’s roller derby team, I would play hockey if I could, I might be joining wrestling but I’m afraid of getting shit from people

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

I mean music is in tv shows??? I listen to more music than I do watch tv but there’s the stories I get invested in on tv. But I also play music. I have no clue.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Uh, yeah. ofc

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

Wow, riveting.

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

I don’t really have one??? Idk I like people who make me feel safe cuz I never do.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

I like some of the newer GAP clothes, Market District is a good hangout place

40. What do you want to do after high school?

Go to Harvard and major in Biology.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Usually but one person did fuck me over that I don’t fuck with anymore

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

Probably pissed off

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Not often, I zone out easily

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Outer space, the ocean kinda freaks me out

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Mostly just Mack

46. What are you paranoid about?

Everything in the world

47. Have you ever been high?

No I’ve smoked like twice and it just gave me anxiety

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Another no, I don’t like the taste of alcohol but I had like half a mike’s

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Eh, not really

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Black and white

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Yeah, often

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

I wanna be cis dude

53. Favourite makeup brand?

I don’t wear makeup but Lush has nice foundation

54. Favourite store?

No idea, Market District and GAP like the other question but it’s really not a thing for me

55. Favourite blog?

Oh lord idk

56. Favourite colour?

Violet, rust red

57. Favourite food?

Wedding soup

58. Last thing you ate?

I just ate a bunch of walnuts

59. First thing you ate this morning?

Uh, lunch, spicy chicken strips

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

I’ve won a ton of academic ones because I’m super competitive. There’s a band one I won, there’s hockey intramurals I destroyed in, pickleball during gym too.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

I haven’t even had a detention

62. Been arrested? For what?

No but I’ve gotten yelled at by cops for no reason

63. Ever been in love?

I don’t really know. Platonically yeah

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

Haven’t had one

65. Are you hungry right now?

No, I just ate

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

I don’t really talk to anyone on tumblr

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Twitter

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?

Yeah, King of the Hill

70. Names of your bestfriends?

Mack

71. Craving something? What?

Mmmmmmmmmm t. And steak.

72. What colour are your towels?

Blue, tan, white, they’re all covered in hair dye too

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Like three full sized ones, a few smaller ones

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

A ton

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

^^^

75. Favourite animal?

Hyena

76. What colour is your underwear?

The ones I’m wearing rn are greeeeen

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Vanilla

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Cookie dough or cake batter. Any sorta baked good flavors

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Black, it’s my annie cast shirt

80. What colour pants?

I’m not wearing pants

81. Favourite tv show?

King of the Hill and almost any old cartoon.

82. Favourite movie?

COCO BOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Mean Girls

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

Mean Girls

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

Either Regina or Gretchen

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Any of the sharks probably, I haven’t seen the movie for awhile

87. First person you talked to today?

Ms. Meyer

88. Last person you talked to today?

Dustin I think

89. Name a person you hate?

Alexa

90. Name a person you love?

Platonically, Mack

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

MMMMMMMM ALEXA

92. In a fight with someone?

Yeah

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

Like two pairs

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

Six or seven I think

95. Last movie you watched?

Infinity War

96. Favourite actress?

I don’t really keep track of actors/actresses, probably Meryl Streep

97. Favourite actor?

Tom Holland cuz fuck man he didn’t have to kill me but he did

98. Do you tan a lot?

Not like going out to tan but whenever I’m in the sun, which is often, I tan really easily

99. Have any pets?

Yeah four dogs and a uromastyx

100. How are you feeling?

Eh, ok. I lost my voice so it’s deeper than usual which is nice.

101. Do you type fast?

I guess? I just took a test and I’m 67 WPM.

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

Yeah a lot

103. Can you spell well?

Not out loud. I tend to skip some words since I’m better at math than language arts, I’ve got a numerical and art brain

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Opa, Cadmium, friends from shows

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Yeah I host one every year

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Uh I highly fucking doubt it

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Yeah it was fun, I miss it

108. What should you be doing?

Probably working on my finals

109. Is something irritating you right now?

My mom

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Oof yeah

111. Do you have trust issues?

Yeah really bad

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Probably Mack

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Boogie, pietje, there’s a lot

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Yeah I’m from PA.

115. Do you play the Wii?

Not often

116. Are you listening to music right now?

No

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Hell yeah

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Another hell yeah

119. Favourite book?

I really like When the Moon Was Ours but I’m not done with it yet, I haven’t gotten many chances to read it

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Not at all

121. Are you mean?

I mean jokingly yeah

122. Is cheating ever okay?

No

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Oh god no, I’m a dirty nature boy

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

No

125. Do you believe in true love?

Honestly I have no idea

126. Are you currently bored?

Kinda, it’s the depression lmao

127. What makes you happy?

Animals, people I get along with, tea

128. Would you change your name?

Legally yeah lmao

129. What your zodiac sign?

Aquarius sun, sagittarius moon, gemini rising, aquarius venus, aries mars, and capricorn mercury.

130. Do you like subway?

Yeah, meatball subs boi

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Idk honestly

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Mack

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

“Often I am upset that I cannot fall in love but I guess this avoids the stress of falling out of it.”

134. Can you count to one million?

Yeah

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

Idk man, I don’t usually tell lies and when I do I honestly forget about them

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Closed

137. How tall are you?

A little over 5’6”

138. Curly or Straight hair?

I’ve got wavy hair

139. Brunette or Blonde?

Dirty blonde

140. Summer or Winter?

Winter

141. Night or Day?

Night

142. Favourite month?

September or October

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Not at all

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Dark

145. Tea or Coffee?

Tea

146. Was today a good day?

I felt accepted by some people I usually don’t, but there was some other stressful shit so it’s kind of a neutral day

147. Mars or Snickers?

Snickers

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“Shoot for the moon; if you miss you will die in outer space, which is cool” - Katya Zamolodchikova

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

Eh, idk. I’m not a huge believer in the supernatural.

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“It must make you sad,” Lian said, in a way that wasn’t warm enough to sound kind or sharp enough to sounds mean. “What happened with your mother

I included the whole paragraph cuz continuity. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Thanks, this was a fucking adventure