#and be able to post about it without doxxing myself

[lore-gore]

my dad said if he ever got to produce ride the cyclone, for the ballad of jane doe he'd get his magician friend to set up a trick where Jane's head and body are separated, and her body is being spun on those circus target boards while her head is singing.

[14dayswithyou]

Some long-term followers may have noticed this subtle shift already (especially those who are in the 14DWY Discord server or have read this post), but I figured I'd make it official.

I'm no longer associating myself with the yandere VN community.

The TLDR is that the energy here really fuckin SUCKS!! And I don't want to be part of something so hostile and needlessly competitive.

The constant infighting and epicaricacy between communities is deeply upsetting, and it's very disheartening to see aspiring developers cancel their projects because of the unwarranted backlash and harassment they face.

Some entitled folks on here reeeeally need to understand that constantly harassing others for updates, encouraging developers to belittle others to make themselves/their project look better, complaining about a project not meeting the expectations you specifically put in place, attacking other communities because of the parasocial relationship you share with another developer, getting mad that you chose to ignore important PSAs or warnings and faced the repercussions, or even sending in hate messages on anon because you're bored are not things you should be doing — let alone be proud of.

I try to avoid bringing up these topics as it's not the vibe I want to have on this blog (nor do I want to negatively contribute to the Streisand Effect and blow things out of proportion), but I'm genuinely getting tired of being on the receiving end of all this harassment and negativity, seeing it happen to others, and watching other indie developers encourage such vile behaviour. I'm done.

For those wondering what this means for "14 Days With You": for the most part, everything will still continue like usual. I've said this from the very beginning, but 14DWY is just a passion project I pursue whenever I feel like it. It's something I do for fun as a hobby — not because I want to publish a well-known game or turn it into a career. I've been on Tumblr for over thirteen years now, and it's taught me how to grow thick skin, so everything that I'm yapping and yammering about won't stop me from working on 14DWY.

However, this does mean that I won't be as interactive with other developers or their communities anymore; many ill-natured people have ruined this for me.

Because of them, I'm no longer able to voice my opinion on other games without some opinionated rat whispering in my ear about how the developer is "problematic" or that I could get cancelled for simply following them on Twitter. I can't interact with certain games without its parasocial community becoming hostile or gatekeepy towards anyone they don't like. I've seen communities belittle and devalue promising demos because in their eyes, nothing can compare to their favourite game (or their favourite developer). I have been harassed, bullied, and doxxed by other communities and have seen the same thing happen to others as well. I've heard about the developers who weaponise their community's loyalty to attack and drive out their competition. And I've witnessed more than enough developers expressing how badly they want to take a hiatus due to how much unwarranted negativity they receive, but don't want to disappoint their community by doing so.

By saying all of this, you can understand why I dislike being here so much, as well as why I no longer find any enjoyment in interacting with the yandere VN community.

Many people here — fans and developers alike — are so needlessly pushy about their standards and personal opinions being the norm, and if anyone else goes against them, they'll purposefully try to ostracise and bully them out of the community. This place isn't as laid-back or inclusive as it used to be, and I don't want to be associated with a community that acts so hostile and aggressive towards anyone who shares a differing opinion — nor do I want to be part of a space that caters towards developers who'll tear down others in order to have a moment of relevancy.

We're all doing our own thing and making our own games; it shouldn't be a competition. But if you see it as such, then I urge you to take a moment to stop and rethink your actions — or, at the very least, understand how it's affecting you and others around you.

So until there's a reasonable change and people can go back to being less... demanding, hypercritical, and gatekeepy about who interacts with what, I'll be stepping away and continuing to stay in my own bubble, as I have for the past two years now. I've already unfollowed everyone associated with the yandere community many months ago, but I think I'll just unfollow everyone entirely now for my own peace of mind. I will also no longer be interacting with any yandere VN communities (aside from close friends), nor will I be as public with my interests from this moment on. Everything on this blog will be strictly related to 14DWY like usual, and I will continue to block and report any spiteful "anons"/burner accounts sent my way and delete their messages.

Again, this isn't really much of an announcement — it's more so just paragraphs of me bitchin and moanin 🫶 — but I wanted to get this all out there instead of leaving things unsaid and having people come to their own conclusions as to why I've suddenly become less active, less optimistic, and why I've stopped engaging with a majority of the yandere community in the last two years.

So, yeah... ^^; If there's anything I want y'all to take away from this entire post, it's to be kind, open, and understanding towards everyone — developers and communities alike — and to spread support rather than negativity. It's what I want my own community to be known for, so please be mindful of how you treat others online.

And if you find yourself being surrounded by constant toxicity and negativity (be it from friends, mutuals, or even other developers or communities), please don't feel ashamed to step away or cut them off entirely. Put yourself and your mental health first. I also think it'll be good for me to leave all this negative energy behind and continue to kick off 2025 in a better light, so if y'all need to let out any frustrations of your own, feel free to go ham in the replies (obviously, be kind and civil though jghsjg T_T)

[gb-patch]

GB Patch Games: Sensitivity Reader Update

Okay, well I am able to make another statement before Rose does. I can now explain much more easily why I didn’t fire Rose. There’s been new developments with the leakers. The people behind this have doxed Rose’s discord account (please don’t go looking for it) and also shared a screenshot of an email that was sent to my support address months ago. They believe that incriminates us somehow, but really all it’s done is shown in broad daylight what they were doing and why I was defending Rose so much. If I had brought up that email as a connection to this myself people understandably would’ve thought I was making a conspiracy.

However, it is out now. Here is the story- a few months ago someone who wanted to remain anonymous sent me an email with a screenshot where Rose called me a cracker. And I told them I appreciated the concern but it’s alright, was there evidence of Rose being unkind to players? They had nothing. No response.

As an aside, yes, I have been aware for a long time that Rose uses crude language when talking about me. That doesn’t mean I’ve hidden how evil they were from players. It means I’m allowed to choose what I’m comfortable with. That original “reveal” didn’t shock or upset me in any way. Our Life is a sensitive, wholesome game, but I’m a full-grown adult. I’m not innocent or pure. The game I released before OL is XOXO Blood Droplets. Something I wrote and released to the public is full of crude jokes, curse words, and violence. It’s cartoonish and comical, but edgy. Rose themselves likes to BS with bad words and I’m not accepting abuse because I think getting called a pussy is funny. I know Rose doesn’t hate me or wish me any harm. Rose also isn’t causing “discourse” for me and my games on purpose, they were joking that bringing up serious topics is “discourse” to some people. Ironically, the leakers who did this are trying to make some “discourse” on purpose.

Regardless, I initially thought that email was from someone earnestly worried for me and that they moved on when it was clear I was fine. But that’s not what happened. Them and at least one other person have been waiting for months to bring this up again. They went through almost a year’s worth of Rose’s private posts to collect as many unflattering screenshots as they could, and then they didn’t send them to me. They posted them publicly. I had a suspicion from the get go that it was the same person/people from before who couldn’t prove anything to me in private. And if true, how horrible is it that a bunch of the comments they shared were crude language towards me, something they already knew I’d brush off as nothing. They decided for me that it was wrong and they wanted the rest of the players to do the same. Or even less charitably, those extra posts were simply there to make Rose look as bad and untrustworthy as possible and they didn’t care that I was comfortable with it. I could not explain everything we were thinking/feeling at first, but behind the scenes we were discussing how this was personally motivated and not a knee-jerk act without forethought. And we do know for certain at least the main people involved now, and they do have personal issues with Rose.

Also, if you still believe that they just wanted to help the game at any length because Rose is that huge of a risk, showing that email and framing something innocuous about me (not fainting at the word “cracker” and politely being open to more proof) as serious “evidence of wrongdoing” at GB Patch Games makes me believe they want to smear Rose so bad they’ll try to turn players against me as well. Plus, the post is framed as “this email was anonymously sent to me”, but we know from account details that the people who could’ve gotten those screenshots of the discord and email are the same people who sent that email and started this situation, which is embarrassing. I’ve confirmed the screenshots shared in the email to me and the original public post came from the same private, “venting-safe” discord server. There’s very few people in there. We know it’s still you and not a separate source. I can’t prove they think I’m stupid or in their way, but I can’t see how anything they’re doing is trying to be beneficial to the creation of OL: NF. They told me in the email they’d give me more evidence if I requested it and I was ready to know, but instead they went silent for months and then did this.

I want it to be clear that this doesn’t mean players can’t wonder if Rose has enough experience to be a sensitivity reader right now, or to worry they’re so invested in the game that it’s going to effect how objective they are with their feedback, or to say that Rose is flawless and has never done anything hurtful. However, I hope you can understand why I was on Rose’s side and couldn’t just fire them over this. It felt so incredibly unfair. If another person tries to get their way by doing this in the future, I will not hail them as a hero and immediately fire at the target. And I don't tolerate any racial harassment of any kind to anyone on my team.

If those people want to continue to share Rose’s private posts in retaliation, you can fuck off. If you somehow reveal now that Rose is secretly a murderer, I’m not gonna apologize and say I was so wrong about you. If you had tons of evidence of Rose being horrible to players, you should’ve sent it all to me and with full context to begin with in the email like you offered to do. I just don’t understand.

Any players who like to see someone’s least flattering points portrayed in the worst possible way and continue flocking to the leaks as fandom drama, I don’t want you in this fandom. I don’t want you to enjoy my games.

Anyone who has been truly hurt by this and are left confused and angry, I do completely understand that. I didn’t know how to handle this, and it made a lot of people not know how to keep trusting me. I am still looking into getting a community manager to help me better communicate with players, especially when something serious happens. And I’ll always be around for you to reach out to if you have doubts about anything.

[missmaymeltsmymind]

You are welcome in this place, but be warned, for dangers lay within...

Well met, friends. You enter the lair of Miss May, hypnotist, writer, and Dominant. I'm the horniest, kinkiest asexual you're ever likely to meet, apart from every other grey-ace I know, I have Extensive Opinions on Many Subjects, there's so many disabilities in this fleshy prison of Mine that it's almost easier to list the ones I don't have, and I am extremely interested in hypnosis for both sexual and non-sexual reasons, on account of the fact that it’s bloody witchcraft. In the (paraphrased) words of Sir Pratchett (GNU): just because you know how it works, doesn’t mean it’s not magic. The fact that it’s unbelievably hot doesn’t hurt, mind.

Age: I'm old enough to remember the idea of online privacy. The only thing you need to know about Me is that I am a legal adult. Fun fact: you can dox someone with their name, age, and hometown really easily. Don't tell the entire goddamned internet your personal information. Lie to corporations, for fuck's sake.

If, for some reason, this irritates you, please answer these questions: what's your name? What about your age? Mh-hm. Noted. And what high school did you go to? In what city or town? Okay, thank you. And, one last one, how many people on the entire planet share that exact same set of answers? Two? Three? None? Yeah. And you've brought this up in casual conversation how many times without thinking about it? On the internet, where literally anyone could find records of it? Protect your damned privacy.

Gender: Good question! Answer in progress. There's definitely more girl in there than I originally thought, but who knows if it's enough to win a majority vote in the pronoun elections. For now, please assume I will respond to most things. She/they is preferred, but I've found that there are specific scenarios in which I respond better to he/him or fae/faer. That said, if you have a new and exciting neopronoun I've never heard of before, please tell Me! I love funky genders. I collect them.

Sexuality: Queer. By specific flags, I'm Asexual (grey), Bisexual Lesbian (women by preference, but if you try to ignore My attraction to men and the Funky Options, I'm swapping your knees with your elbows), Aromantic (maybe?), Transgender (DEFINITELY), Nonbinary, and Polyamorous. Just - just go with Queer. It's so much quicker. I also accept Ace, because 1. It’s definitely the most important individual one, and 2. It makes Me sound like a fighter/mech pilot. Which is very cool. (But not a LAM pilot. Those things suck.)

Asks: Send them! I accept your queries and questions with relish! But be warned, pretty thing, if you approach My lair looking all delicious and vulnerable, I may decide to have a bite...

DMs: I will respond to DMs as soon as I'm able, but generally, I'd rather know you before I speak to you on there, with some exceptions. If you're a friend of a friend, or I'm communicating with you for professional reasons (I'm commissioning art from you, or editing some writing, that sort of thing), then speak freely, but do not be surprised if your message receives no reply. I'm a busy lady, I have many things to do.

My tags, of which there are many:

#Miss May's Magic - Inductions, hypnotic language, and other such things I, Myself, have made. Mantras, indoctrination posts, covert triggers… the list goes on. Abandon free will, all ye who enter here.

#How the Magic is Made: Informational posts about hypnosis. Do bear in mind that I love conversational/covert inductions, please. Enter at your own risk…

#Guard your Mind: Safety talks will go here. I have extensive opinions on this subject. Time will tell if they are revealed to you.

#Someone Else's Spellbook - If I see any ideas from someone else that I consider interesting, admirable, or just really goddamn hot, you'll find them here. Consider this a list of My personal favourites from others.

#Dominance as Joy - I'm a Dom. I'm always a Dom. I refuse to not love being a Dom. This involves some wants and needs considered 'violent' or 'distressing'. I want to degrade, hurt, and manipulate people, consensually, on purpose, for our mutual pleasure. I will not apologise for this. Fight Me. And by me I mean My thralls, because one of them has more muscles in their arm than I do in my entire body, and they can lift my ass up. Which is hot. Hi Dear!

That said, I do absolutely understand that you may not wish to see such things‚ so block this tag at your leisure. You are perusing My blog for your own reasons‚ I do not know them. If this is not to your taste, for whatever reason, I actively encourage you to look away.

#Powerful Playthings - Several of my hottest fantasies involve the unique interplay between submission and hypnosis, particularly the idea of having a switch control others for Me. You will find these ideas here. To be clear, I’m not a switch; I just enjoy a good bit of proxy warfare. Who doesn’t?

#Pretty Little Playthings - If I see any cute little subs being especially delectable and vulnerable, I may just have to comment... This may, of course, be to their detriment. Or their advantage; after all, shouldn't they want to serve Me?

#Thralls at All Times - CnC, constant control, unawareness, the unrelenting devotion to My will, anything that reminds My thralls that I command them at all times is found here. CnC is a personal favourite of Mine.

#Fuckery and Fun: Sometimes you just want to be silly. Hypnosis is an excellent tool for that.

#Kind On Purpose: Hypnosis can also be a tool used for immense kindness. Relaxation, de-stressing, massages with phantom touch, the eradication of fear, gender euphoria, hugs, intimacy, closeness. I choose to be kind on purpose.

#Cognitohazard Warning: Any spirals, swinging pendulums, hypnotic foci of all forms, they’ll be found here. I tend to avoid flashy ones by preference, but My standards may differ from yours, so if you’re at risk of eyestrain or worse, this is the tag to block. They should all be under readmores (and if you notice that one isn’t, please tell Me, I have not yet achieved apotheosis and can as such still make mistakes), but still, if you want to avoid those, block this. Or, if you want to be good for Me, have fun staring~

#Hot Shit - Listen, I may be ace, but people can still be hot. Sometimes. I like boobs. Boobs are good. Mmm, tiddy. Need to grow Me some of those…

#Project Masterwork: This one, my friends, I shall be keeping to Myself. Though, there is one person who might figure it out...

#Transgenderism and Faggotry: The gayest most trans shit imaginable. My ultimate goal is to create a post so transgender that it performs gender-reassignment surgery on everyone who reads it. And also causes Joanne Rowling to explode. Love trans people more than you hate transphobes, though. I'll know if you don't.

To be clear: this tag will be a celebration of queerness, never a challenge, or a discussion of, say, transphobia. While I may well discuss that topic, it will be tagged separately, under Masks Off, most likely. This is for joy, not for sorrow.

#The Gallery: I do love a good piece of Art. And art. Paintings, drawings, pixel art, and everything else, you'll find it here.

#Words Words Words - Should I ever feel the need to talk about my writing on this blog, or just writing in general, you'll find it here. Mostly this will relate to…

#The House of Fun - My kinky hypnotic writing universe. No clue if I'm ever going to talk about it here, but it does exist, and I assure you I am pioneering new and gayer forms of sex with every word I write for it. Also demons. Demons are hot.

#Mind Over Metal - Big robots, cybernetics, and mechs are extremely cool. No further information required. Also, yes, I am a robofucker. I see you, C&H Kalisto. I see that tetsubo. The things I would do to you are not covered by the Utopian Pillars.

#Speak of the Devil - I have a very specific kink for demons. Succubi, Tieflings, anything that carries hell in its heart, spells on its lips, and horns. More of my thralls should have horns, I think. The better for me to use as handles.

#Tally Five - Anything relating to my experiences with asexuality and how that affects my gender, kinkiness, and sexuality will end up here. It's a complex one, to be sure...

#Miss May's Meanderings - At some point, I will inevitably begin rambling about a subject partially or completely unrelated to hypnosis or kink. This will go here. Or I might also ramble about kink! That works too!

#Pinned to the Wall - Personal favourites, for whatever reason. Anything that particularly strikes My fancy can be found here. Note, this most certainly does not mean they're better in some way than the other posts - just that they stick with Me in a way others don't.

#Supplicants Speak to Me - A record of any asks I may receive from others, for good or for ill. Come into my parlour! It ended well enough for the spider‚ didn't it? Be at ease, honoured guest; the only dangers you'll find here are very, very enjoyable. I'm sure you'll agree with me on that... and on a great many other things, too.

#All are Welcome - Disability-related posts, specifically in regards to kink. Everyone is welcome here. Everyone. Regardless of how your bodies and minds may betray you, you deserve to be loved how you desire. This includes Me, too, hard as it is to remember some days...

#Masks Off - This is My 'serious issues' tag. If I'm putting this in play, I'm making a genuine point, going off on a major rant, or otherwise being far more direct and less hypnohorny than this blog normally is. Imagine Me turning off the spiral on-screen and replacing it with diagrams, or the like.

#Divine Your Fate - The eagle-eyed amongst you may have noticed that I have something of a divinity kink. I will admit, referring to Myself in capital letters is something of an affectation from this part of Me. This will be one part heretical conversation, two parts acts that would get Me banned from the church I used to go to, and one part lusting over the idea of corrupting the divine to My purposes.

#Remember It My Way - Memory play! Unawareness, memory modification, common sense alterations, long-term brainwashing, the occasional bit of gaslighting, induced forgetfulness... The list goes on. In fact, you're sure there's supposed to be more here... aren't you?

#Mesmerising Magecraft: Hypnosis is literal, actual magic, yes, but sometimes fiction creates more magical magics of magicness, and here shall they be found. Enchantments, spells, magical beings both benign and malevolent; this is the place for them.

#Supremely Suggestible: Superpowers! Some of them are interesting to Me! And not just the mind-controlling ones! But seriously, there's a lot of hypnosis and hypnosis-adjacent stuff going on in superhero (and, more importantly, supervillain) fiction that I'd like to talk about sometimes.

[eowynstwin]

Hi everyone. It's been a while—exactly a month since I last posted to this blog. How have you been?

A month isn't really all that long, but it's enough time to be able to look at everything that happened and understand it better. In the end, the whole situation (I've been calling it The Fuckening in my head) really didn't have anything to do with me. I was unlucky enough to run across someone willing to hurt anyone they could for attention, but also lucky enough that everyone who mattered to me in this fandom went to bat for me.

So I’ve decided to come back to this blog. I'll be posting about call of duty again as well as posting my writing. I also plan to blog about other fandoms (I’d already been doing it anyway); I've been getting back into rdr2, for example, and there's some writing I'd like to do for that.

There’s more context which I’ll put below the cut, but that’s the most important part of what I have to say; I often regret how long winded I can be, so the rest is just self indulgence if you can forgive it. I’ve thought a lot about this choice and I’m satisfied with my decision. I hope none of you will mind.

So, lol, things were not great outside of fandom stuff when it all kicked off, though I didn’t mention it publicly because we all know by now that asking for any sympathy when you’re the target of a mob is more likely to just get you raked over the coals harder. I’m still not entirely sure about talking about all of this, but I have a bad tendency to clam up when I really should be asking for support. So:

I mentioned briefly before the accusations started flying that I was dealing with bedbugs—turns out it was actually something else, but leading up to a doctor’s visit I was convinced I had an infestation, and I was stripping my bed every day to look for them. I had alarms set to wake me up twice a night to see if I could catch them, so I was not sleeping all that well. I couldn’t find anything, but I had no other explanation, and it was driving me fucking crazy. Post doctor visit it turns out I had a viral infection. No idea where I caught it, and nothing to do but wait it out. I had a massive, gnarly looking rash all over my body, and to add insult to injury I developed a fever that took me out for a whole weekend. (I’m recovered now but I have a nifty new scar on my hip from getting a biopsy.)

Next to that, I was having some PTSD flareups of my own. This was (mostly) unrelated to The Fuckening. Now, I understand that that might be hard to believe, given “Myka’s” claims, and I can’t make you believe me. Nor will I provide details to convince you, other than to say there were some things going on in my neighborhood that recalled a period of time in my life that was extremely unstable, and I found myself irrationally terrified to go home every day. For those of you who don’t experience the symptoms of PTSD, I think it’s appropriate to note that it isn’t just emotional turmoil; I, personally, experience physical pain in my entire body that lingers for hours, days, or even weeks after being triggered. (Everything regarding this, too, is fine now. I have a great therapist and a supportive family.)

All of this to say, I wasn’t exactly thinking rationally when I decided to leave this blog and fandom. And I regretted the decision almost instantly.

However, I didn’t want to let grief make any decisions for me, and also I was still VERY scared Myka was going to hunt down my personal information and either dox or harass me elsewhere. I think this fear was justified; it has happened to other writers in this fandom before.* So I decided to take some time to cool off and watch the situation develop without me.

I don’t think I need to get into the details—although if you’re interested in them, @fulltacs has been keeping track of the drama. Given the most recent development with the four obviously sock puppet blogs that popped up and immediately began stirring shit up again, I realized Myka probably would have done what she did with or without me. I just so happened to give her the ammunition she needed to do something REALLY big. It was pure bad luck.

(Also—and I’m sorry if this is just stirring the pot, but after everything they did to me I feel I deserve to make the accusation—I’ve suspected for a while that the two loudest blogs leading the witch hunt against me were far more involved in this farce than anyone has assumed. I have no proof and I do not want anyone to do anything about it on my behalf, leave them the fuck alone. But I will not forget the distress they caused me for a long fucking time, and the only way for me to let this go is to say my piece. So there. Done. Let that be the end of it.)

Having this hindsight, I feel comfortable coming back. I’m still very touched by everyone’s support, which in the end was louder than the harassment. I also think it’s important for people who care about fighting racism in any community not to run at the first sign of trouble, which I did, and I feel pretty sorry for.

That’s the gist of things. If you’ve read all of this, thank you for doing so!

*I was going to add a paragraph about halfmoth-halfman’s situation but decided against it. For one thing, she wants to be left alone, and for another, talking about the experiences of fans of color, particularly black fans, deserves its own post separate from my white experience, if I should even post about it at all.

[cherrygummybears]

at last here it is!! the piece i wrote about mash for my final project for my geography class. i originally made this on arcgis and the site is being super annoying. i’m not able to post a link to the piece in its original form without doxxing myself, so i’m just going to put the text and photos directly in the post. (under a cut of course).

essentially, american media has a tendency to depict other countries in a very ignorant and inaccurate way, and while mash does have its own issues with this, I thought it would make a very interesting case study of the larger issue in hollywood because it’s an example where the writers were trying to get things right and trying to be genuinely progressive. based on that i made some conclusions about american individualism and how i think it affects our interactions with the rest of the world.

a few asides: some photos from the original version are removed because i’m unsure about copyright. i also had interactive maps embedded in the original which i unfortunately cannot transfer to a tumblr post. i changed the wording of a few spots to remove unnecessary geography terminology that i included to meet assignment requirements. im also really sorry if the writing is a little janky or if I got anything wrong! I made this entire project from start to finish (including research stages) in the span of probably about 48 hours. and i was very sleep deprived the whole time but I tried very hard to make it the best I could in spite of the time crunch I was under!

(also, i don’t know them and we aren’t mutuals so i feel too awkward to tag them outright, but huge thank you to tumblr user mashhistorian. i would not have been able to pull this piece together without the information i found on their website.)

anyways! full piece below the cut :)

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On February 28, 1983, roughly 106 million Americans tuned in to CBS to watch the finale of the 1970s sitcom M*A*S*H, cementing the 2.5 hour special as the most viewed episode of a television series in American history (a record which still has not been surpassed today). Not only did the show eventually help blueprint the AB plot structure and the dramedy genre, but it also promoted a strong anti-war stance to a large audience. Set in a fictional Mobile Army Surgical Hospital unit in the Korean War, taking place near Uijeongbu, South Korea, and debuting in 1972, M*A*S*H began airing on television at a time when the US military was still directly involved in the Vietnam War. This involvement ended only a year after M*A*S*H began, but the overall unpopularity of the Vietnam War in the years leading up to the show’s debut heavily motivated its anti-war position.

Though this message became the centerpiece far more often in seasons 6 through 11, the writers and cast always had the goal of emphasizing the tragedy and uselessness of war. Given the large audience that M*A*S*H quickly grew, this was a powerful position to take, and a rather unusual one at the time. Other shows that were airing during the same time period as M*A*S*H were usually comedies, and did not make such direct commentary on relevant political issues. However, although this message was very well intentioned, it was not always executed perfectly, and incongruities and inaccuracies sometimes arose. American movies and television shows are not strangers to inaccurate depictions of foreign countries, and in line with this issue, one criticism of M*A*S*H was its general inaccuracy in portrayals of Korean people and Korea itself. Given the way M*A*S*H subverted its own initial comedic structure and consistently made commentary which rebelled against the traditional politics of mainstream American television networks, the show’s depiction of Korea makes for a remarkably unique case study of the shortcomings of American media when portraying foreign countries.

(A modern photo of Uijeongbu, South Korea)

Today, as a result of significant urbanization, the city of Uijeongbu has become a satellite community of Seoul with a population of roughly 460,000 people. Information on the size of the city at the time of the Korean War is very limited, but it seems that during those years Uijeongbu was likely a small village. However, M*A*S*H was not actually filmed anywhere near Korea, or even southeast Asia. Rather, it was filmed entirely in Southern California. The show had an indoor set at 20th Century Fox Studios, and an outdoor set located in Fox Ranch, now called Malibu Creek State Park. The producers actually chose the location for the outdoor set because they felt that it bore a resemblance to Korea. In some ways, this choice worked in the show’s favor when it comes to the physical geography of its canon location. Uijeongbu is surrounded on multiple sides by a mountainous landscape, and Malibu Creek State Park also boasts a mountainous backdrop.

(A modern photo of Malibu Creek State Park. It has noticeably more yellow tones in its greenery than the modern photo of Uijeongbu.)

At the same time, however, the southern California filming location does not align quite so well with the setting of Uijeongbu. Southern California is warmer than northern South Korea, and has far less variance in temperature, with the Malibu area rarely having temperatures outside the range of 40-90 degrees Fahrenheit at any time during the year. In contrast to this, Korea has significantly more differentiation in the weather between seasons, with Uijeongbu sitting in the 20 and 30 degree range in winter and the 70 and 80 degree range in the summer. It is difficult to find information on how the Korean climate may have been different at the time of the Korean war, but based on the accounts of some former soldiers, it seems the winter weather could reach far below this range. While this would align with the numerous M*A*S*H winter episodes which emphasized the biting, windy cold, current information about Uijeongbu’s climate matches up less well.

In terms of greenery, the two locations seem relatively similar, though Uijeongbu is greener today than Malibu Creek State Park. It is hard to find photos of what Uijeongbu’s landscape looked like during the Korean War, but based on the photos available, along with photos of nearby Seoul at the time, it was likely less green than it looks today, partly because of the destruction caused by the war. If anything, this probably would have made it more similar in greenery to Malibu Creek State Park because of the combined greenery and desert-like landscapes that make up many areas of southern California.

The camera and television quality that was available at the time of the show’s production also likely plays into things, as the same locations within Malibu Creek State Park look different when photographed with less grainy cameras, and the show itself likely looked different when broadcasted onto the much smaller television screens of the 1970s. Overall, based on this information, the climate differences between Korea and California did not seem to cause major issues with M*A*S*H’s portrayal of Korea. Most likely, any noticeable discrepancies in the landscape and weather are attributable to older technology and mild dramatization typical of American television (although the fact that domestic landscapes are not treated with this same dramatization is still something which should be discussed).

(A comparison of the M*A*S*H filming location from the time of filming to now. The grainier camera quality of the 1970s causes the colors to appear more brown than they are in reality.)

M*A*S*H’s biggest issue in its depiction of Korea lies in its portrayal of Korean people. There were no regular Korean characters, and a limited number of recurring ones. The majority of Korean characters on the show were one time characters, and were also rarely played by Korean actors (rather, they were frequently played by Japanese or Chinese actors instead). There was also the supposed issue of the language and accent being spoken inaccurately, and the one dimensional and cultureless way with which Koreans on the show were portrayed. Although M*A*S*H’s producers Larry Gelbart and Gene Reynolds actually went to South Korea to ensure greater accuracy in the show, their visit focused very heavily on the experiences of American doctors and nurses in the former 8055th MASH unit, a real MASH unit which existed during and after the Korean war and was instrumental in inspiring the show. In documentation of a 1974 news article on this topic, there is nothing indicating that Gelbart or Reynolds spent any of their interviewing and touring time with any Korean people (instead indicating they spent the entirety of the trip at the 8055th MASH).

(Korean actor Soon-Tek Oh playing Mr. Kwang in an episode of M*A*S*H. He was one of only three Korean actors involved with the show (the other two being Philip Anh and Richard Lee-Sung. Each of these actors played a number of different Korean characters.))

Interestingly, this article also notes that Gelbart went to Korea once before in 1951. It is highly likely that this previous visit influenced the writing of Korean characters. At the time of Gelbart’s apparent visit in 1951, the Korean War would have been underway, which means that he likely saw a disaster-struck version of the country due to the destructive effects of the war. This is supported by a 1997 article in Las Vegas Sun which discusses M*A*S*H’s less than accurate depiction of Korean people from a more Korean-focused perspective. In the article, Gelbart says that he saw significant wreckage and destruction during his first visit to Korea, likely referring to his trip in 1951. It seems that the suffering and damage Gelbart witnessed upon his first visit to Korea informed the way he wrote Korean characters. But by focusing on the disasters Korean civilians faced, the rich culture they carried with them was neglected in M*A*S*H’s characterizations. The lack of dimension given to Korean characters leaves them with little in the way of individuality, so they end up defined largely by the tragedies they go through rather than by their culture or personality, an issue which the main cast of American characters on the show notably did not experience in the same way.

(A photo of Seoul in 1950, damaged as a result of the war. This is the sort of destruction Gelbart would have seen on his trip in 1951, and given that he visited a year into the war, it's possible the destruction had worsened from what this image shows.)

Ultimately, M*A*S*H targeted an American audience, and the intent was to present this audience with a very anti-war message. It is clear that a lot of effort went into accurately portraying life in a MASH unit for American doctors and soldiers. However, the show’s extremely heavy focus on American experiences in the war, while effective for advocating the futility of war to an American audience, neglected the experiences and lives of Korean people. The fact that the show began as a thinly veiled allegory for the war in Vietnam likely only amplified the problem. It is clear that the unpopularity of the Vietnam war among the American population helped drive the desire to speak out against the war in the show, but because of the political volatility of the issue at the time, the Korean War made for a backdrop that CBS would find more acceptable. This was particularly because it allowed for the anti-war stance to be phrased in a more generalized manner, which slightly softened the blow of its political intentions.

However, the intense focus on this stance centered the experiences of Americans, and its broader generalization only further pushed Korean experiences to the wayside. In a very unfortunate way, this effect in itself is somewhat of an unintentional commentary on American involvement in wars. M*A*S*H, with its American writers, characters, and audience, aimed to send a message about the useless tragedy of war, using Korea as a means. But because the goal of the show was so centered in American politics, the events of the show centered American experiences as well. This often left Korean people misrepresented to the American population in the process, the same way foreign countries are frequently misrepresented to the American public when America enters a war in order to further some political or economic doctrine.

(Nurses from the 8055th MASH unit in the Korean War. A surgeon from this unit wrote the original book which inspired the M*A*S*H movie and later also the TV series. On their trip to South Korea, Larry Gelbart and Gene Reynolds visited the unit and spoke with its members. They also spoke with some former members of the unit in the US to use their experiences as inspiration for episode plot lines.)

Furthermore, while M*A*S*H does have a number of episodes which tackle the issue of racism, they generally feature a domestically American brand of it. This was remarkably progressive for its time and place, but it was also American-centric, focusing on America’s issues with racism domestically while forgetting how those issues impact America’s interactions with other countries. Overall, M*A*S*H was remarkably progressive in the context of domestic American politics, but outside of that context, it was noticeably less so. The way the show’s characterization is frequently brilliant with American characters while falling short with Korean ones, as well as the American-centric political motivations that influenced the show, are indicative of a larger pattern of self-centeredness which has long permeated American society.

As globalization and cultural exchange become increasingly widespread in our world, it is important to recognize that historically this exchange has not happened in an equitable or balanced fashion. As Americans, we often expect people in foreign countries to have a certain level of knowledge about our culture while insisting that it should be acceptable for us to have a far more limited knowledge of theirs. The performatively individualized nature of our society causes us to lack community and fall into traps of self absorbed thinking, and as a result we do not hold ourselves to the same expectations for cultural understanding that we frequently level at others. Even when we try to have progressive political discussions, our focus on domestic political issues often blinds us to the impact our political problems can have on the rest of the world. Even if American pop culture was not as widespread as it is, it would still be important to make sure we put the same effort into depicting other people around the world as we do into depicting ourselves, for the sake of being respectful and building a more open minded world. But particularly because of the influence that American pop culture often has, it is not only disrespectful but irresponsible to misrepresent other cultures in our media.

In the case of M*A*S*H, Korean culture was relatively unknown in America at the time the show was on air. Today, because of the Korean Wave and the rise in popularity of K-pop music in America, awareness of Korean culture among the American public has likely increased from what it was when M*A*S*H was airing on television. Of course the offensiveness of poorly done depictions of other cultures are reason enough that we need to correct these mistakes, and of course we should not rely on television and movies to inform our perspectives. But the influence American media has on our mental mapping of other countries makes it even more important to get things right. In a world where cultures are being shared with increasing frequency and openness, giving foreign characters the same effort and accuracy we give American ones is the least we can do to start making this exchange more balanced.

[mel-hath-no-fury]

So I've been having a rough time writing my dissertation ever since I started it. I can throw out 1000 words of fanfic in one sitting no problem, but academic writing feels much more high stakes. I'll sometimes go days without getting more than 100 words on the page. It's like pulling teeth.

Anyways, after I started vagueposting about my current chapter on rusalky, a few people seemed interested in hearing more, so I started drafting a post explaining more of what my research was about.

This turned out to be an excellent writing exercise, and I now have a so far seven-page document (and counting) covering a bunch of stuff I haven't been able to write into the dissertation itself. Like, I wrote nearly 2000 words in ONE DAY of writing. This is unprecedented. Apparently, writing with tumblr in mind just works better for me?

I'm still debating over whether or not I want to post any of it, because my specific topic (which isn't just rusalky but something else) is kind of niche and I don't want to dox myself (or have my dissertation flagged for plagiarism when it gets deposited, since I'm probably going to recycle a lot of that text), but at the very least writing with a general audience in mind is helping me get words on the page.

Anyways, if there's any interest maybe I'll make a side blog just for gabbing about research? That way if it does get traced back to me, at least I won't have to explain...everything else on my blog.

[tommyssupercoolblog]

Hello, I'm the factive who asked your husband how he was able to find peace in being open as a factive in a relationship with you. His confidence and insight really helped me feel validated and less ashamed of my existence. I also wanted to ask your POV being out as factive? And does it bring you peace and comfort to be where you are with your husband now than before? You don't necessarily have to share everything, only bits you're comfortable to share are ok by me.

I think, after all this, I wanted to be close or connected to other factives wherever I could find one. Just like you and your husband, me and my in-sys husband wishes to be ourselves and gush about each other without feeling too scared to speak our names out loud. If you find this ask relevant, thank you so much for taking your time in answering.

AAAA HELLO!!! OMG I totally forgor about this lol okayokayokay

YES I AM VERY HAPPY AND SECURE AND STUFF I am feeling very pog!!! 👍🏻 I do not have anxiety or anything anymore I am feel peace. And I am SO GLAD we are out? Literally best decision of my life. We r seen and we can be ourselves and it's so much better than hiding FORREAL FORREAL

So about the fear thing, I'm a tommyinnit factive so like.... There was a lot of fear when I first started doing my thing. Because the interactions I'd had with the DSMP community previously were...uh....bad!!!

Very bad!!! Like, doxxing people over shipping c!Tubbo/c!ranboo in a romantic way even though they were literally married bad !!!!!! Suicide baiting and shit bad!!!! And they also seemed to think that things like special interests and introjects were things you can control (even though they aren't) and would harass neurodivergent people who had connections to problematic cc's in that way, so the ableism was also spooky.

So I got it in my head that if I came out, especially as an alter in a relationship with someone else, it would be a BIG problem even if I wasn't vocally pro-rpf and anti-censorship because like. They would see my existence as offensive to source and also as "shipping" and then I would literally be hunted for sport and die. Like that's not an exaggeration that's literally what I thought, I had nightmares about people showing up to our house with guns because they found my Tumblr blog?? Which is.....very overdramatic like that is NAWT going to happen. HELLO???? My Tumblr blog with like 300 followers??? As if someone's going to purchase and learn to use a gun, find our real world address, travel all the way to it, and somehow manage to get to our house with a gun in their hands without being stopped, and then manage to get INTO the house without being stopped or spotted or bitten by the dogs, and then find us, somehow know which one of the people living here is us, and successfully both shoot and kill us??? GIRL NO. GIRL THAT WAS NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN.

But I was SCARED. So what I did, right, was that when I first made my blog and started posting? I took a page out of poppytwt's book and wrote everything with numbers and symbols and shit, (like this: "T0mm√1nn1+") And I didn't interact with any DSMP posts at all. I would see fanart and fun posts about my source or the characters and I wouldn't like or reblog because I was paranoid that OP would be mad at me, so I would scroll sadly by.

But I was still myself. I was still "Tommy" and I still explained that I was an introject, and in a relationship with Seán. And that was a big step!!! -even if I had to put a space between Tommy and Innit when talking about my source, and also spell it like I was a Homestuck character.

Eventually I dropped the censored letters because it was MAD annoying but I still used spaces liberally, and avoided referring to my source as anything other than "source" unless I like, HAD to. I also didn't make "Innit" jokes about myself, even tho I REALLY wanted to.

Then I started making the Innit jokes too, but only with spaces, and I started timidly reblogging fanart from people who seemed chill- I would read DNIs and intros first, but if I got the vibe they were chill with me, I would reblog. This was a BIG BIG step for me, and I remember at first obsessively checking for DNIs and if someone didn't have one at all, like my blog, I would either scroll through their blog to get a feel for their opinions or I would just leave- because I didn't want to risk interacting with someone who was weird about introjects or RPF or both.

And then people from the fandom...started talking to me. I made friends and acquaintances. And they all told me that basically, as long as I knew who to block, I was fine; and that the fandom overall had MASSIVELY calmed down since 2020 anyway, so the things I was worried about weren't even normal anymore here on Tumblr- only on twitter. And they sort of reassured me.

I stopped feeling the need to put spaces between "Tommy" and "Innit", and started using Tommyinnit casually, both in reference to myself and source. I went back to all our AO3 fanfics, which at the time had no character tags to avoid popping up in DSMP circles, and added the character tags.

Then I started actually making fanart just for source, not septicinnit, and even- gasp- TAGGING IT with tommyinnit. Same with liveblogging and posts about him.

And then I made even MORE friends as people realized my blog like. Existed?

It was a very gradual process for me, and if you need to go slow too, that's okay. But what I've found is that the things I was worried about weren't even really things I had to worry about at all. I didn't get much Anon hate, in fact over the last two years I think I've only gotten it three times.

once from someone who said I was faking DID because I had no friends and was mentally ill and depressed which. Hurt but also was kinda funny because they were being so ableist and mean to me? Girl you clearly don't care about systems.

once from a confused anti-endo who thought WE were endogenic because we have endo friends (and literally all they wrote was "traumas fuck endos suck" with nothing else??? LMAOOO?????? So thankfully that one didn't even hurt my feelings)

And once from a person who spammed a few poorly written asks because I was talking to my friend Kency and someone who didn't like Kency was going through their interactions and anon-hating people. They did have alt accounts that they came back with when I blocked the first ones but they only had like four so after I blocked the anons the fourth time, it stopped.

I was mostly able to laugh it off, and when I was sad, Seán and our friends/family were there to support me.

I ended up on r/system cringe, too, and I had a meltdown about that, but then quickly realized it didn't really matter? Again, no one was coming to my house. None of these people would actually hurt me, especially not when they do this all day and have no special malice for me specifically. If anyone showed up I'd just block them- and even weeks after the post, no one did.

Once someone posted a screenshot of one of our fics to twitter, and then people dogpiled us and we got some hate comments, but all it took was a friend pointing out that ao3 is a pro-rpf and proship/anti-censorship website for op to delete the screenshot, and everyone else stopped after that.

Like, what I've discovered is that as awful as cyberbullying is, it's only as bad as your fear lets it be. If you block them and if you remember to stay calm and that you're not in any physical danger, then it's not a big deal. It only hits hard when you panic, and even then you can find support from the people who love you.

Doxxing is of course another story but it's usually rare and also usually easily solved (delete the information) and also ... doesn't always lead to action. In order to have a hate mob swarm at your house your address can't just be posted, you also have to have a bunch of people decide, independently, to actually get off their ass and show up; and unless you're taylor swift that's probably not going to happen.

I can't keep a cool head under pressure, but Seàn can, and I've found that when we talk things out and work as a team, the threats usually aren't as bad as they look. And again, I've never been doxxed and my harassment has been very minor.

I'd recommend having one or more people in your life who are able to talk things through calmly with you and think clearly when things are a little hectic, to block anyone who bothers you or who looks like they might (because of their DNIs or past activity or whatever), and then to just...take the plunge. Because once you experience being out you're forced to realize that the negatives aren't nearly as harsh as they looked. The water looks colder than it is; you won't truly realize how warm and welcoming it can actually be until you're swimming :) I wouldn't trade this for the world 🌍💓 and that's FACTS, forreal forreal.

[arcielee]

I hope you're doing fine amidst all this drama. It's no surprise that my intuitions were proven right once again, and here we have Ange, crying on her blog about being doxxed while conveniently ignoring her own complicity in Bel’s racism. It's sickening that some people still support her behaviour. However I wanted to bring up this post:

https://www.tumblr.com/arcielee/748496384896958464/hey-everyone-i-know-its-been-a-dark-time-in-the?source=share

Weren't you also doxxed in Ange and Em’s groupchat? And now they only come to you when the dust settles after their mess with Bel. I'm tired of these women always playing the victim and never taking responsibility for their actions. We're all over it!

Hey anon. You are referring to this post that I made. I thought it best to respond to this before we return to some much needed healing and hydrating.

I mentioned that I was not going to speak on the subject again, but more information has come to light and there is something that has been weighing on me.

As I posted before, I found out that I had been doxxed. This was something that happened in the same groupchat that included Bel, Fae, Ange, and Em where screenshots had been shared. I learned about this prior to the post when Em reached out to me through a mutual we shared. She was very remorseful and apologetic for what happened, and she provided me with the unedited versions I needed so I could handle this at my local police department.

Doxxing is frightening. When I returned to Tumblr back in 2022, I enjoyed the anonymity of it all, how I was able to blatantly be some dork who swooned over silver haired fictional characters with my kindred spirits. Seeing myself tagged in the post mentioned above, seeing those original screenshots with my legal name and my private, personal IG on display rattled me to my core.

In this chat I learned that not only had I been doxxed, but it was also mentioned about the animosity that stemmed from lies being shared without being validated. The TL;DR of the situation is that Bel and I shared a small server together. I was warned about her behavior by Ange and others, but at the time Bel had been nothing but kind to me, so I ignored it. Then Bel left our server and went to Ange and Em with some false narrative about me and some others. Despite how I was warned me in the beginning, she accepted what was said without thought. This resulted in me being blacklisted and harassed within the HotD fandom.

This was and continues to be an ugly ordeal. We are finally seeing that worst things happened in that same chat, which is why I was wary to even bring this up again.

But I do feel I should remind everyone that doxxing is the act of providing personally identifiable information about an individual or organization, usually via the Internet and without their consent. [x]

And this is what happened to me.

I did not want to do a super detailed post about it; I understand the insanity of it all since we literally came to this hellsite for a show about some incestual family that rides dragons. But the only way for us as a fandom to move on is to acknowledge what happened and those who were affected by it before we can move forward to create a safer environment for everyone who is a part of it.

I truly believe that we can and will do better. 💜

[arainydancer]

i know this sounds quite harsh, but sometimes you really do just put dogshit on the internet. and if you put something like that to be seen publicly on the internet, you will get critique out of it too.

being insistent on some aspects that were outright wrong, like assuming a character is suicidal even though a note literally says that she doesn't want to die, just so that you could fit the narrative to your perspective, you are not even engaging with it. but we engaged with your review. how could you ever accuse that i did not engage with the argument while you yourself never tried to?

i know it's a huge shocker. the response i received from the author was a bewildered reaction that someone of "my high profile status" was trying to dogpile on them and incite harassment, even though i responded to the one thing about the article that i found an issue with. i actually do not give a shit if the author thinks that the two pair in a video game is akin to a master and slave or if they think a game is better than that. whatever.

i don't care if they think it's not as good as a game they liked. i don't! i'm a game developer, and i know that these things aren't for everyone. i only took issue about how the outlook towards the portrayed culture in the game is systemically racist. do i think the author is racist? no. it's possible to say offensive things without intent, and intent has absolutely jackshit to do with any of it. and so i wanted to correct them on that, and potentially everyone else who might think the same way.

back on the "dogpile" argument:

i apologize for being rude but you really can make something awful, and poorly thought, and poorly written. it's really possible, and i know it's insane. even me- if i wrote something like that, do you not think the thousands of people who know me won't also criticize me for it? do you think i am not afraid of making something terrible? not only that but i actually wouldn't even hear about the post if i hadn't heard of others who talked about it. it was already being negatively received. i didn't suddenly conjure people out of fucking thin air to hate on the post. it was ALREADY bad. is it my fault that i spoke up against it publicly? why am i suddenly not allowed to? i am one person, not an organization, and i do not present myself professionally. my presence is a hobby. just like yours. and never have i said "please demolish this person."

i have had my fair share of being doxxed and being called out as "cheap outsource" due to my nationality. i've read hundreds of negative steam reviews about my game. i've watched dozens of youtubers with an even bigger audience interact with my game, and me as a developer, in bad faith. i am not invincible to this sort of treatment. and me criticizing a singular aspect of a critic is so goddamn tame. i don't understand why you have to run away. i have seen nobody genuinely harass you as an individual after i posted my reaction- only criticize the work you posted.

you posted in under the tag where everyone could see it. so you have to be able to handle the heat if it's not going the way you want.

this is my final word, but as the responsibility was assigned to me by the author's friends, i want to clarify.

[simplepotatofarmer]

Blog Update:

Hi, it's me, Loyal.

I just want to say first and foremost, I really do love (parts of) the fandom and I'm not going anywhere.

I will, however, not be around as much. One, I'm about to enter an all day intensive treatment plan so I'll literally just be on in the evening. Two, as much as I'm going to keep writing and creating, I have no intention of interacting publicly with fandom as much as I have.

I can't. It's actually fucking insane that it's gotten to this point. I made tribute post and because I used lyrics from Dream's song, I got harassed. The people doing this, acting like this, thinking this way are insane.

So in case it's not clear: Based on my personal lived experience and some information that's come to light, I still enjoy Dream's content. You can approach me personally, off anon, if you want to know my reasoning. If you dislike me for this, that's fine. But I'm done trying to walk this fine line just so I don't get people threatening me, my kids, and my pets. Just so people stop sending me the city I live in, so they stop digging up twelve year old tweets, so they stop calling me slurs and suicide baiting me.

That's absolutely insane. It's horrible. It's disgusting and I was honestly just sitting here, taking it, because I'm terrified of upsetting people and losing friends if I say 'yeah, I'm excited for a new manhunt and I also this song helped me and my kids process my grief'. And the worst part is, it's not an unfounded fear. People have done the most vile shit to me. People I thought were friends jumped on me instead of those harassing me.

I just want to post about Techno and c!Rivals duo and not worry about whether or not this post is going to get me hate. I don't want to worry about how random discord servers are talking about me.

Because that's fucking batshit. Not the worrying, but what these people are doing and I'm tired of letting this effect me. I have enough going on in my personal life. My partner of 15 years almost died. We almost lost our house. I should be able to come online and post about the silly minecraft guys I like and their RP and lore without censoring myself out of fear of literally being doxxed and cyber stalked. I should be able to talk about the racism that effects me without being afraid people will make it about cc drama or calling me slurs or erasing my identity as an Ojibwe person.

The people doing this are the problem. It hurts that so many people are part of this, it really does. But I can't keep letting it get to me. I've always done my best to be kind. I haven't been perfect, especially not lately, because all this hate and stress has gotten to me. I've lashed out. I shouldn't have.

And I shouldn't have had to deal with all that shit in the first place. I hope no one else does. It's terrifying and draining and I'm done.

So I intend to post the things I enjoy, I intend to reblog my friends' art, write the Emerald duo and Rivals duo fics I want to. I want to post about the Syndicate and the new manhunt when it comes out. That's what I'm going to do.

Asks are staying off for the moment because people are too happy to make burner blogs but I'll probably turn them back on at some point as I love answering lore and headcanon questions and, again, it's fucked up I can't enjoy an aspect of the site and fandom because people can't just leave me alone.

To those people: Get help. You're harassing someone because you think they deserve it and that's the most fucked up thing.

To everyone else: So so many of you have been amazing. You've been supportive, you've been kind. That kindness and support speaks volumes and I love you all. I genuinely love you. Dreblr, you've been here for me for over a year at this point and I cannot thank you enough. You are the best part of fandom as far as I'm concerned. And to Dtblr, y'all have come to support me countless times and that means the world to me, it really does. As for all my fellow Rivals duo fans, you people are worth your weight in gold for the joy you bring. A special shout-out to @vpofcookies because you've been here since the beginning, practically, and I love you. There's more but you know who you are.

Anyway, I've been carrying this for awhile and I'm tired. I'm no longer going to give any amount of thought to the people determined to drag me down and harass me constantly.

My best advice is stop focusing on the things and people you hate and instead focus on what you love. That's what I plan to do, from here on out.

[littlegreenfag-apology-archive]

Hey, it's Dean/littlegreenfag. I don't really know how to open this, honestly, and don't really want to spend much time on that-- I kind of want this to be as succinct but comprehensive as possible. This is a sort of one-time, one-off account-- its as complete as an apology I can really give you guys. This account is going to do that; be as complete as a collection of addresses as I can really make, because I honestly want to be able to continue to, well.. exist on the internet. I am going to be making a new account (pretty obviously not this one) and I ask that you guys please don't just go and harass it without cause, if you find it. I'd really appreciate that. I do not want to be ran off of every platform I go to with pitchforks. I've sorted this into a bulleted list for efficiency's sake. When I read through my callout post, and the callout blog, i noticed a lot of, like.. fluff words. I'm trying to cut down on that here. It is completely and totally true that I’m not Romani. I have confessed to this, both on the account I deleted and many times afterwards, and am incredibly sorry for telling that lie. I first told it nearly a decade ago, when I wasn't even a teenager yet, and didn’t fully consider or understand the severity of the lie, and how disgusting it was. I know that’s no excuse, and that even as an eleven year-old I should have known better. I just want you to know the context-- this is not an excuse, or a justification, or even me trying to provide a reason-- it's just wrong. I should have absolutely confessed earlier, but I was too afraid to admit it. It spiraled out of control, and I’m sorry that I let it get to that level. I completely understand and accept if some people will not forgive me for this, and I am deeply, extremely sorry to all the people i hurt with that lie. I have no expectation of forgiveness, nor expectation of 'total understanding.' I'm just really sorry for this lie i told.

I am Jewish, and I will continue to say I am Jewish, but there seems to be quite literally no way for me to prove that to anyone short of doxxing myself. The people claiming I was lying about being Jewish (and even going so far as to call my dead relatives “Holocaust OCs”) are one of the things that hurt the most. Due to the nature of my situation, I can no longer practice my religion. I am going to a college in Michigan next fall, and there’s a nearby synagogue. I plan to once again become a fully observant Jew at that point. I have seen people and heard of people claiming that I am a polish catholic pretending to be jewish for pity points, and going so far as to release entire videos of scrolling through "my" dms with the account where I claim to be 'soon converting' to judaism. this account has not, and HAD not, ever reached out to me when they released the callout post-- even before I had deleted my old account. I have quite literally NEVER dmed them before, and it is disgusting that people would go so far to continue to make new posts and dedicate entire accounts to claiming new and increasingly absurd things about my past out of nowhere besides a callout post. I, pretty frankly and politely as possible, don't really care if you guys believe if I'm jewish or not, but my 'true jewishness' is not and will never be something for people to make judgements about.

-I understand that I have hurt a lot of people with the lie that I told, and they have every right to be mad. However, it has escalated to a sort of harassment that I find unacceptable. Complete strangers, people who didn’t even know me before I deactivated, were calling me a bitch and a cunt and saying that my parents “should knock some sense into me” and that I should put a gun in my mouth and pull the trigger. Your anger is completely valid, but that level of insults and harassment I was receiving was a genuinely terrifying margin. Again-- nobody is under any obligation to forgive me, but threats against my life and the life of my pets is not something I ever want to receive.-The “littlegreenfag-archive” blog has threatened to dox me many times, both directly on anon on my account and indirectly through their posts. They, allegedly, know my address and the contact information of both of my parents. They have also released my deadnames and childhood nicknames in a post, another behavior that I find unacceptable and extremely creepy. Their claims to have been 'suggesting multiple times in anon for me to come clean' are completely false-- I only received a few messages from them in my inbox, all of which were threats. I do not know how this person got my information and I do not know where this person got my information, but I do not think it is solely for their care about romani or jewish people that they did this. -All I want is privacy. I am an adult, and would like to have that wish respected. Claiming I should be 'stuck in a psych ward', that I'm a narcissist, that somebody should 'contact my parents' are all incredibly invasive and infantilizing things for people to do. Alongside all of this, some of the things that people claim I was lying about were things that I have no ethical way of proving. I am autistic, I have spent time in a psychiatric ward, I am currently being abused by my parents, and I was raped as a child— and I should not have to prove that to you people. Those are disgusting things to have to prove to people. Just for the fact that I discuss them on my blog does not make any of you entitled to that information, nor entitled to be able to speculate and degrade. People used my admitting to not being romani (once again, an incredibly disgusting thing that I did. I am not diminishing that.) to claim that almost every single thing I've said about myself is a lie– going so far as to claim I am, apparently, a trust fund kid? These are all weird and, again, invasive things to just go and make up. I am not going to prove to you that I grew up poor, or fat, or anything like that. None of you are entitled to that information.

All I want is to continue to exist on the internet without being harassed. As I stated before, I am incredibly, extremely, sorry. If there’s anything I can do to make it up to the people that I hurt, I will do it– but I understand if many of my previous mutuals and friends never want contact with me again, and accept that. I am not entitled to that and am under no presumption that I am. I know that many of my friendships have ended over this, but I don’t want this to completely ruin any chance I have at making new friends. People called me a coward when I deleted my blog, but those same people told me to delete my blog. It’s paradoxical and confusing to me, and I’ve realized that there really is no end to this campaign besides to continue to harass me and slander me for their own personal enjoyment and feeling of justice with renewed ‘callout’ campaigns– the end goal achieves literally nothing besides me getting harassed. I have a job, I’m getting out of the personal situation I am in, and, again I am a person who wants to be able to just exist on the internet. This isn’t me asking for pity, or for complete and total forgiveness- it's just an apology. No expectation attached. I am incredibly and deeply sorry for all the harm I’ve caused.

For tags; I'd like to clarify this is not a plea for attention- this isn't for 'reach' or 'distance' either, nor am i trying to be performative in @ing you all. I just genuinely want some of you to see this post to be able to apologize more directly, because many of you were former friends who i never got a chance to apologize to and i care deeply about. I have no expectation for any of you to forgive me, and I wish you all the best. @puzzlekinq @dykeredhood @dykeseesgod @official-saul-goodman @bocceclub @ivankaramazovsgf @rootlessneopolitan @murderballadeer @storm-of-feathers @pitbolshevik @sheburnedlikeabride @professionalpansy @manicpixieginger @pillow-princeps @lilacgueerr @mortalityplays @jinnazah @saturniidace @strangeauthor @shirleyjacksonesque @piratesofthecarabiner @helloitsbee @lafemmemacabre @egirlgarak

edit: @'s spoofed on me. sorry, this looks kinda goofy. I'm going to leave them, though.

[likeadog]

making a copy of this bc op disabled reblogs and i just got reminded it existed and would like to not lose it

ok so . im outing myself to the world but thats fine this is too funny to not share

so. ive run a roleplay blog for a few years. i keep it separate from my main, yknow, its just a side hobby and ive been doing it since i was like, 12. its cringe but hey yknow at least im not 30 and writing ya novels

now its pretty common for rp blogs these days to have rules. right? you dont want to just bag any weirdo on this website, and as you can imagine bnha roleplayers are batshit crazy (see: conversion therapy todoroki) so mine are pretty strict and detailed. because ive been doing it long enough to be exposed to what counts as carbon monoxide poison from a screen. one of those rules is "if youre mutuals with people who write porn of the kids even aged up im blocking you we're keeping a ten foot pole on this". because as a 20 year old man i have a healthy disinterest in seeing paragraphs of teenagers fucking

so the dash is astir with talk of a guy writing age up bakugou porn and im like ok whatever. make a post bitching about it . mutual likes those posts but then the mutual is turning around and being buddy buddy with this guy so i dm the mutual like hey whats going on here . mutual is like "well why dont you talk it out with him hes not as mean as he seems i prommy" and im like sure whatever i can have civil conversation and if it ends with One Less Person writing weirdo porn then i might be able to get into heaven

so i dm him and he loses his fucking mind. it lasted all of 10 minutes because he was sending paragraphs like this and i was too tired to give a shit

(take note of my icon thats a special tool thatll help us later)

(also he goes by the name rxgelord. WITH the x. thats also important just because its funny as fuck)

so the guys clearly bothered by the idea that people might possibly talk about him without his permission and im a little miffed after being misgendered (which hed do again later) so i just post our dms. swing first and hey batter batter lets play ball i dont give a shit this is bnha roleplay

once again: loses his damn mind. he makes a psa post about me talking about how im just some pussy infant and hes too HARD for me and shit and also they do bakudeku muffin roleplay in the comments of that post which is fucking insane

anyway. at one point while joking about the whole thing i called him a "wannabe bakugou kinnie" as a joke and apparently he felt a very serious need to address this

and im like holllllllllllllly fucking shit

you may have noticed that his posts are incredibly over-formatted. this goes for everything he does he is pouring a LOT of time and energy into typing his 9 paragraphs about how im an insane bitch or whatever. (if theres literally one thing i can give him credit on its that his graphic editing skills are kinda good. i will be honest) his rules document is also just as insane and features gems such as:

(this dude thinks hes pulling bitches on a bnha roleplay blog)

so we're just full on ragging on him at this point and hes getting MADDDDDDD MAD. he misgenders me again and when i point it out he has the following excuse:

(art by @/pcktknife. anyways)

after a certain point i get dmd an old copy of a 130+ page callout he had a year prior and im like WHAT and it included his yugioh rp blog career and various allegations like having been involved in gang violence, doxxing, etc. also a picture of the hickies he bragged about leaving on his uwu pink glitter gf which looked more like he was trying to go for the killing bite but hey. yknow. apparently im a toddler idk how that works

along in this we also find his twitch account, which was under the name rxgelord, and it featured edited graphics of his real life face with bakugou. he posts selfies a lot too i wont share them even if theyre public but he has knuckle tats and a goatee and uses the greyscale filter. if this gives you an idea. he also had 5 twitch followers and detailed his desire to be a rapper/dj and im like holllllly fucking shit this guy cant be a real person. holy fuck.

anyways. skipping a lot of unnecessary bullshit and paragraphs of text with gifs from 2013 attached hes constantly going on about how we wont just "say it to his face" which i think is hilarious bc i was, the entire time. but im like ok fine you want me so bad

so i send him this. he posts about how "he won when he got all might" (for some reason hes calling my ex mutual by the character name. i dont know) and then hasnt posted in 4 days. he deleted his twitch. im a little worried bakugou. dont say that. may have actually chased this man off the internet . to go have real life sex with his real life girlfriend so he isnt so mad

anyway we ended up turning one of his posts into an eminem uberduck

im honestly probably forgetting something this was so much and it was so fucking funny and honestly im glad to have been there

update: he has not in fact posted since last summer. god bless.

[eruditetyro]

@iowadream tagged me to post my top 5 songs lately. "lately" is a term i am taking to mean "in this moment" so these aren't what i've necessarily been listening to nonstop but it's what i'm thinking about today. i'm also going to do a tap dance called repping at least somewhat niche bands without doxxing myself. i've seen all of these groups live. i could go nicher but then it's all people i actually know personally and then you'll be able to tell where i live and my favorite local brewery and my favorite small town to go buy sandwiches in, and that's too much, you don't need all that. ok ready? ok!

1.

i've actually seen them twice in two different venues. excellent performances, i can't overstate how hard this group goes. tank's a spectacular vocalist.

2.

contra dance band for spice. east coast contra dancers where are we at! (on the east coast i guess)

3.

a band i know opened for her once. i think she's fun. i don't listen to this type of pop often but i like it when it's a live show. sydney was engaging and her music is a fun type of gritty sad girl thing. there were 3 bands that night and i really didn't like the middle one and she was the headliner so i felt kind of relieved when she started singing and i was like oh ok i can vibe with this.

4.

i put like three different groups in this spot before i decided on Indigo. who doesn't like indigo. de souza!

5.

i got my neighbors one of the special edition clear vinyls of this album. they were so impressed. B). my favorite song on this album is The Giver.

i tag @unloneliest @yarrow-heather-and-hollyhock @joculine @adhdnarut0 @premiumgelato B)

[moonsmaxxing]

☆★ pinned ★☆

☆★ about me ★☆

hi! i'm moon/maya/maddox and this is my kin blog (my main is @new--moons). my kin identity is a little bit complex as i'm technically a fictive, but for all intents and purposes i'm kin with moon from wings of fire, and kind of clearsight in a weird confusing way i try not to think too hard about because it has absolutely fried my brain in the past. i also have a few warriors kins, and i may end up posting about that here occasionally, but for the foreseeable future it's a wings of fire kin blog. (you can read my full kin list here.)

i have two different timelines as moon, both of which are very canon-divergent. the important thing about both is that i was raised for the most part on the volcano. while on the volcano, because of my powers, i participated in a lot of things i'm not proud of, interrogations and torture and the like. it wasn't really my choice, and i didn't do everything that was asked of me, but i did do a lot of it. i feel that it's important to mention that here, both as context for my posts going forward and so anyone who might feel uncomfortable with nightwings because of what they did knows i'm not an exception just because my source character was. (there's a longer post sort of roughly outlining both timelines here, if you're curious.)

currently, i plan on mostly posting general thoughts and recollections and maybe a few jokes and memes here and there. i may post more personal memories in the future, but i'm a kind of private person by nature. that said, the point of this blog is partially to force myself to open up some, so i don't mind questions or anything, i just might not want to answer.

i'm not sure where else to put this, but: i write image descriptions any time i post pictures online to make them more accessible, and i'll try to make sure there's a description for any image i reblog. that said, any post with undescribed images will be tagged as "no id". please let me know if there's a better tag, by the way, i've been on and off tumblr for so long that i lose track.

☆★ boundaries ★☆

i do more or less consider myself a nightwing, and am comfortable being referred to as such on this blog. i am not comfortable being referred to with moon's full name under any circumstances. i am definitely not comfortable being referred to as clearsight without explicit permission. you can call me a fictive if it's relevant, but otherwise, i'd prefer to be referred to as kin. (more boundary info here, with a tl;dr if you need it.)

i'm not actively seeking sourcemates, but haven't ruled it out, and would be open to chatting with anyone who comes from a similar timeline, both out of curiosity and because frankly i owe a few dragons apologies for being, just, the hugest bitch. truly unparalleled.

i'm totally okay with doubles, but would prefer that you not joke too much about us being doubles unless i know you well. i don't feel the need to block anyone from interacting based on their kins, but i'd appreciate if any morrowseer keeps their distance- you can interact, just don't get too familiar.

i don't have a specific dni, but i will block people who i catch being bigots or assholes. this includes being racist, islamophobic, antisemitic, zionist, homophobic, transphobic, ableist, and so on. i'll also block anyone i see promoting things like pedophilia or zoophilia, participating in harrassment or doxxing campaigns, or outright evangelizing.

i'll also block people who try to dictate who can and can't call themselves queer, plural, or kin without a very compelling reason (see above), but i'm not planning on scouring the blog of everyone who even likes one of my posts because i know i wouldn't be able to catch everything even if i did have the time or energy. (to be as clear as possible, this is an endogenic-safe blog.)

if you aren't kin, a fictive, or similar (it's up to you how you define that), it's okay to interact with my posts, but please be mindful of the fact that they're not really for you. for my part, i'll try to tag properly to avoid breaching containment, but this isn't a fan blog and i'd prefer you not treat it as such.

i don't plan on posting anything nsfw, and would say this is generally a 13+ blog in keeping with tumblr's terms of service, but i would also urge minors to use discretion when it comes to any blog they interact with, especially kin blogs. i was very young on the internet once and i did a lot of very stupid things, and i get it, but seriously why are you people trying to find canonmates at like 14-15 years old, i don't think you grasp the potential consequences of putting incredibly personal details about your canons on the internet. please take a moment to consider how this information can be used against you, especially if it's a part of your spiritual beliefs. be safe !

☆★ content warning ★☆

i don't plan on posting about anything super sensitive in detail at all, but i'll likely mention torture, death, child abuse, and injury in my posts. i'll update this section if anything changes and add content warnings to the beginnings of any posts that will be under a readmore and add a tag to any that won't.

(note: i think it's important to talk about death, and as such i typically don't use euphemisms, aside from sometimes using "passed away" when it feels appropriate. this is non-negotiable.)

i also might post about drugs or while high because i use marijuana both recreationally and medically (it's complicated) and occasionally have weird kin breakthroughs while i'm high off my ass. i'll tag "drug mention" if you want to block out these posts.

anything that stands out to me will be tagged as "cw topic mention" or "cw topic," and please let me know if you think i've missed something!

☆★ credits ★☆

header image - nasa's james webb space telescope

profile picture - pinterest user tallstick

blog title - sin eater by penelope scott

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[sleepymccoy]

Since this post is the only thing in my activity feed right now, I thought I'd draw a (slightly abstracted so I don't fully dox myself) little map of all the libraries I can get to without having to think about where to go!

The city has quite a few libraries, I expect if I walked around a bit I'd find three more lol.

The one near my home is like a ten min walk.The tram line is the line I grew up near, so I know it fairly well. The further library is my childhood one, and the one in the middle of the tram line I know I can see when we pass it, although I've never been in. So I'd be able to get off in time

The train line, I've lived in two other suburbs along and have worked along, so I know the areas well. The tram line going south off the train I went to uni there for a year and spent a lot of time poking around the streets so I can find the libraries. The other place I went to uni I don't know the libraries

The bus is just a fluke that I happen to know that suburb's library (it's by the beach) and that bus goes everywhere. If I caught it and paid attention I'm sure I'd see a dozen, but I'm not counting that for this poll. Only places I know!

And the city has so many. State library of course, and I went to the top one in the city just last week. The bottom one I've been in before but I only know it's location vaguely, so it'd take some walking around. However, it's a touristy area and it's signposted. The middle left one is the court library, which I happen to know is public access

So that's thirteen I'm extremely confident about. I'm new to driving lol so I wouldn't use my car for any of it, way easier to navigate by train and tram, they definitely go where they say theyre going to go

If I wanted to max out my library number tho, I know how to get onto the main highways out of town. Just hit the highway and pull off in every small town and find the main strip and then the library! But while I know that'd work, I don't actually know those libraries so I'm not counting it. Also didn't count uni libraries because I don't have a uni card right now, so I couldn't get in. These are all public libraries

Also to mutuals and followed and so on, if you're trying to get in touch for any reason my activity is buggered right now. I posted this last night and it's got thousands of reblogs all saying something in the tags, I can't update my feed fast enough. Please DM me if there's anything you'd usually tag or mention me in ❤️

You can use any travel method you like, walking, public transport, so on. You can get an uber but their map has failed so you'll have to give directions. You can travel to other countries and count those libraries but you have to be able to completely navigate from your home without assistance. So you can catch a plane but must be able to travel to and from the airport. No limit on how long it takes. If you know which block it's on or which tram line but aren't sure precisely, but you feel sure you'd find it once you got there, count that as a yes (if you're not sure maybe google it now and see if your plan would work). You cannot rely on asking for directions though, this must be all your knowledge