#and i cant talk about it much with my friends at school

[queenboimler]

i am a firm believer that grades dont actually matter

but there is something so goddamn validating about consistently getting better than average grades in law school

[dirt-grub]

Smiling friends hc basically canon tho that pim is one of those people who had a lot of really bad shit happen to him but tries his hardest to keep everyone around him happy almost to his detriment. I mean in the first episode u saw his family lol

YESSSSS YESSS and thats why im so obsessed with him i can't think of another character that's like that off the top of my head and its so fucking relatable TWT like the message a lot of people got from the first episode is that pim is naive and i dont think thats the case at all, i think he just realized over time how to keep himself stable as long as he doesnt dwell on shit until he spirals and he started spiraling, i dont believe for a second hes never once thought the same shit desmond was talking about

[dykrophone]

life went forward and the world moved on but I never got over among us (2018)

[cerealmonster15]

haikaveh... save me haikaveh...

i KNOW it's been talked about to death but. the haikaveh research project. it literally haunts my mind. i cannot get over the implications. alhaitham going through his school life as someone that most people dont even really know about because he keeps to himself and doesn't socialize, with kaveh being the one exception to that, finding his way into his life as his Best Friend, and then leading to alhaithams one and only time he participated in a research topic. his bio says he only ever did ONE joint project!!! one!!! the one with kaveh his best friend and i think also his only friend at the time!!!! and then it ended in not only the project falling apart but also alhaithams only friendship. kavehs best friendship. they were each others closest person. they had no family around - alhaithams parents having died when he was young and his grandmother dying before he joined the akademiya, and kaveh's dad dying when he was young and his mom having moved to fontaine. like even if you dont look at it through a romantic lens it's still undeniable how important they were [and are] to each other..........

i'm getting off track but my point is very specifically for alhaitham, the one time he got close to someone, made a friend, even agreed to join one(1) group project ever, it ended in disaster. it led him into a fight so bad that his one and only friend said he regretted that friendship!!!! it was so bad alhaitham left the project and he and kaveh didnt speak for ages until they just happened to run into each other again at the tavern!!!!! like obviously it has to be incredibly awful for both of them but i just think how this probably had alhaitham in the cynical mindset that friendships and collaborations like that might just never work out for him because the one time he let someone into his life, it blew up on him and he was all alone again. even though alhaitham never seems to care much if people dont like him, that clearly cant still apply to someone he was exceptionally close to. like if he didnt care he woudlnt have been the one to take his name off the project and mutually not speak to kaveh...... kavehs words are the ones that hit the most significantly to alhaitham.......... kaveh is said/implied to have had at least some other friends while at school / people knew who he was, but not so much alhaitham. people didnt know him and the ones that did just knew he didnt socialize/he was not easy to get along with. he only had kaveh and then, for a while, he lost him too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ducktollers]

got a sortof interview for a research assistant job tomorrow and sooooooooo scareds :D

[bangcakes]

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[mushed-kid]

gonna sound dumb for a minute.

actually,,,, i dont think i want to do biology💀😭

[a-dash-in-the-middle]

what if i-

best friend clears her whole schedule before she even reads where

-Love is your second nature, love is your language. Love! or whatever that one uquiz said about me

[sage-is-in-fact-very-tired]

ask game asks for u :D

13, 17, 80 /nf

ask game asks for me :DD!!!

[13 - Do you believe in reincarnation?]

mmmmmm. honestly. no idea. its definitely a cool concept, but the thought of it definitely makes me get to far into my own head and i dont particularly enjoy that. thinking to much about existance and stuff like that (actually words ive definitely said at least once "why do we see through our eyes") always gives me anxiety honestly :// - cool concept and thought sage just thinks to much

[17 - Did you have imaginary friends? Do you still have them?]

yeah. i did for a period of time. elementary school sage was. very fuckin lonely, so i made some guys up. we had conversations. could not tell you their names. they were fun honestly; i never talked to them outloud unless it was funny, so all the conversations had were in my little brain and-

nope! no longer got those cause i got real real friends now :DDD

[80 - Is your music organised by mood or sensation or do you just listen to everything at any time?]

bold of you to assume my music is organized *at all* /lh /silly ; its honestly just whatever i wanna listen too, with the cavat of "i usually listen to a song on loop if im doing anything and only turn it off once that thing is over so i dont really bother organizing playlists-"

[thebigqueer]

maybe the reason im so upset about it isnt cuz she broke up wme but because all that waiting over the summer just feels so worthelss now. like i know we couldnt talk as much or be around each other as much but i was waitingall summer like when we get back all we'll do is be together!!!! all of the 'new relationship syndrome especially now that its long distance' stuff will be fixed when we get back!! but were over and theres no chanec of fixing it because were over and its just like what if we waited what if we just figured it out for another few weeksand see where it went form there

[spaghett-onaplate]

ok im aware this is a very unoriginal and uninspiring metaphor but talking to my mum about her experiences with my father and slowly unpacking decades of abuse she was entirely unaware of feels like. wandering down a deep dark tunnel with a torch and working to get a better light. but instead of illuminating the path and showing the end, it just shows how the tunnel stretches on further and further and further and does not end

[obnoxiousarcade]

I have a longing to be understood more than anything else i think

[bangcakes]

.

[absolutelyzoned]

i desperately need a therapist but my parents have been putting it off for literal years because none of them work for our insurance. grrrrr

[iknaenmal]

Man id love to have a penpal

Id love to write letters to someone who lives far away in the world, but its as if they were with me as i read the letters they send me.

To wait for weeks until i get a letter from them but thats okay because i know thats because theyre so far away.

To not understand ther handwriting completely at first, but understanding it and their writing style as time passes.

[fullmetalhearts]

I need to make responsible financial decisions but the concert I'm at has really cute hoodie..................