#and i dont buy rainbow-flag anything for the same reason

[wizardclown]

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[amphibautistic]

today was supposed to be like... not necessarily a good day but a day where I could get shit done and feel good about myself

I had 3 errands- to donate my cat's food he's allergic to, sell old clothes at a thrift shop, and pick up my library book

Instead... I left my house this morning already running late, still sleep deprived, and found that not only had someone stolen another one of my yard signs, but they had also literally broken my flag pole (which had my pride flag) off of my house

At the time I was able to take it in stride and got my first errand done, dropped off the cat food before the shelter closed. And then I started feeling vulnerable and I needed to kill time before the thrift shop opened so I went and spent money on a coffee and treat from the queer owned cafe. I walked around the pet store nearby too

Finally I drive over to the thrift store, which is out of my way enough that it's annoying and I've been putting it off for months. But i have a massive bag of old clothes and I'm determined bc I need to get money for these so I can afford to get new clothes again and it'll feel good to finally have them gone

And... I bring in a massive ikea bag of clothes and they take less than half of them. I get roughly $20 in store credit and use half of it on a single pair of jeans. When I walk out they give me back the remaining clothes they didn't buy, and the bag is still heavy enough to feel disappointing

I go to another thrift shop nearby and have to park out of the way, walking a few extra blocks with this bulky bag of clothes, and wait my turn to sell. They also reject everything and send me off with the same amount I walked in with. I stew in the fact that thrift shops are so much pickier than they used to be (these clothes arent in awful condition or anything- they're just used), and also wtf happened to their prices? I can't find anything under $30 here.

Meanwhile, in the background of my mind, I am aware that both of these shops are in a known queer friendly neighborhood in Minneapolis and the cafe was in a known queer friendly neighborhood in St Paul... I'm currently around more queer people than I've seen in one place than I've been in a year, with the exception of pride.

I have yet to find anyone else in my neighborhood, also in the cities proper, who is queer and I have to deal with people ripping my flagpole off my house bc it has a rainbow flag. I work in the suburbs and I'm the only queer+trans person in my office and I spend my days just choking on cishet old fashioned gender norms and surrounded by the smog of it. The isolation has fucked with my mental health in a big way and here I'm just... reminded that me moving to the city to be around more queer people was functionally a waste bc I can't afford to live in The Right Place for a gayborhood.

I don't buy anything from the thrift shop, and I've accepted I won't get anything for these perfectly reasonable used clothes. So I go to goodwill to donate them. This errand was supposed to have one stop and it turned into three, and I'm feeling fairly low at this point. So I go in to buy some shoes bc I only have like 2 functional pairs, and the point of this whole outing was to make money so I could afford new clothes/shoes. So instead of making anything I buy 2 pairs of shoes and spend like $23.

Old clothes are gone and I'm still feeling sour. The plan is to go to the library and go home, but I figure I'm running low on food and will need to grocery shop anyways. More money spent. Finally get my book and head home.

Still stewing when I get home and I know I need to spend more bc one of my pairs of shoes has no laces, and I need a new bracket for my flagpole. But I'm just about done at this point. This isn't the first time people have fucked with my pride stuff and initially my plan was just to replace it over and over but.... honestly after 30 years and having worked so hard to have my place, I dont have patience for letting other people ruin it.

So I bought some barbed wire to put on my flagpole and yard signs, for the next asshole who thinks they can just grab it.

And like. I stand by this decision. I stand by all my spent money today as a correct decision... but now my budget is entirely thrown off and I won't get a meaningful paycheck for 2 weeks and I'm just sitting here in shame honestly. I need to save money, need to get back to where I was before having to get my car back in April.

But honestly my life is just so full of garbage right now. Like just today's events don't even get into the half of it and I can pay bills but not much more. And ffs I don't feel like a person anymore. I don't feel like I can afford to be a person bc doing anything costs money. And I've been doing this so long and it's all completely by myself with no one to back me up and no additional income in sight and it isn't fucking fair.

There's no actual point to this post but I'm so. So tired of needing to be perfect all the time and life just grinding me to a fine pulp regardless. I'm tired of being punished for trying to take care of myself. I'm tired of being completely alone with no support and a mental health state that I can't remember having since I was closeted in high school.

I still feel like such a failure and I don't know what to do.

[akakeiiji]

this is kind of a weird request so sorry in advance and you don't have to write it if you don't want to of course!!! but could i get hcs for atsumu, oikawa, and terushima with a lesbian best friend? i feel like lesbian + flirty boy is such a power duo because she can give girl advice and they don't have to worry about feelings making things awkward dhkshdkdh sorry again!!

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS REQUEST FBWBBDSF I love the dynamic these three would have with a lesbian best friend, it would be so chaotic, I love it. I based some of these with how I am with my guy friends, I’m not a lesbian but I’m close enough HAHAHA

Also, happy pride you guys 🥺💕  from your local chaotic bi

✂︎・・・masterlist

-`,✎ Atsumu, Oikawa and Terushima with a lesbian best friend

Miya Atsumu

You guys are like the ultimate power couple except you aren’t a couple

Everyone thinks you guys are dating at first because Atsumu isn’t the type who’s openly close and touchy with a girl but when he’s with you, you two are basically attached by the hip, even more so than he is with his brother

But surprise!! You’re gay as gay can be

When you first told him, he didn’t even bat an eye

“I already knew.”

“What?? How?”

“I’VE KNOWN YOU FOR YEARS, YOU THINK I WOULDN’T NOTICE!?”

But he’s so genuinely happy you trusted him enough to tell him, also he was beginning to worry you were going to tell Osamu first

He’s surprisingly the most supportive best friend ever

If anyone ever tries to give you shit for your sexuality then they will have to face the wrath of an angered Atsumu (+Osamu ofc)

He was already pretty blunt with his words to begin with, just imagine him angry

You two do this thing where you sit somewhere in public, usually munching on snacks from the convenience store, people watching

When I say people watching, I mean checking girls out

“Look over there, she’s cute.”

“Ew, she’s way out of your league.”

“What do you mean?!”

He’d smack your ice cream to the ground when you say this and he’d have to buy you a new one after you started smacking him with your bag

He’ll never admit it to anyone except you but he sucks with girls

THEY FALL FOR HIM LEFT AND RIGHT AND HE CAN DEAL WITH FANGIRLS BUT WHEN HE ACTUALLY LIKES SOMEONE HE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO

Basically: He’s a dork

He goes to you for love advice, mostly because he trusts you and because he knows there’ll be less teasing (Osamu would never let him hear the end of it)

Plus you have more experience than Osamu hehe

He’d drape himself over your lap as you’re working and tell you about all his woes

“Why do I keep scaring her off?”

“Listen, Tsumu, you just gotta cut the sarcasm and try not to sound condescending all the time.”

“I don’t sound condescending all the time!”

“Are you deaf??”

Not gonna lie, people are lowkey intimidated by you two

He’s pretty protective of you, like in an older brother type of way

Listen he knows that guys are trash but he knows how ruthless girls can be, he doesn’t want to see you get hurt

He ends up unintentionally scaring away other girls from you which you def weren’t happy about

Oikawa Tooru

His fangirls hate you with a burning passion

You’re the one girl he’s completely let into his life, you were one of his closest friends

He was just drawn to you, you know? You two just clicked immediately

Mostly because you both radiated the same crackhead energy

But also because you weren’t the same as the other girls in his school, you didn’t look at him with this starstruck look in your eyes like he was some idol, you saw him for who he really was

That sounds so sappy, he would never tell you any of this, you’d tease him too much

He’s so cute though, he calls you his platonic soulmate

He’s a super affectionate person

He always has his arm around your shoulder or linked with your own, another reason why his fangirls have it out for you

WHAT THEY DIDN’T KNOW WAS THAT YOU WERE MORE INTO THE THEM THAN YOU WERE INTO OIKAWA

Subconsciously, Oikawa knew that you would never fall for him and he loved that about your relationship, he didn’t worry about you becoming a fangirl or losing the bond you two shared because of awkwardness

But he just thought it was because you really only saw Oikawa as a friend and not because you were gay

When you did tell him, he was so surprised and he internally slapped himself because “I should have known!!” He knows you better than anyone, why didn’t he see the signs??

He’s so great about it though, he immediately takes you in his arms and tells you that you’re amazing and thanks you for telling him

“(Y/N) this is so great, it means we have more in common!”

If anyone, I mean anyone, whether it be fangirl or classmate or stranger on the street, says anything bad about you he will not hesitate to throw some hands

Listen, Oikawa may have a reputation to uphold but if anyone talks shit about his best friend then he’s going to go feral

You were definitely Oikawa’s go-to for girl advice

When he had a crush, when he didn’t know how to deal with his fangirls, when his girlfriend dumped him, you were the first one he went to

“I can’t believe she broke up with me.”

“Pfft, you could do better. I told you not to date her.”

“Would you have dated her?”

“I mean she was hot but come on, she was a bitch.”

sorry i just hate his ex-girlfriend even tho we dont even know her

Okay but you two are like this ultra attractive chick magnet when you’re together

You’re probably popular at school if you have Oikawa by your side 24/7, you probably have your own fangirls too

Terushima Yuuji

Funny story, you and Terushima first became friends after he hit on you during your first year

“Hey, couldn’t help noticing you earlier, I’m Terushima but you can call me babe.”

“Okay, first of all, I’m gay. Second, what the hell was that pick up line? You’re never going to get anyone’s attention if that’s the best you’ve got.”

You two immediately became best friends

Your friendship mainly consisted of you teaching Terushima how to actually pick up girls at first but you two still stuck with each other even after he mastered the art that is being a fuckboy

i love him so much but come on, he’s a total fuckboy

Now your relationship mainly consists of vine references and you trying to revoke your knowledge of picking up girls from him

You regret teaching him those things all those years ago

In all seriousness though, you two are basically family to one another, he trusts you completely

And yeah, needless to say, he is totally supportive of you and loves you unconditionally

At first glance, you two look like an overly touchy couple, he always has his arm draped around you and isn’t afraid to kiss you on the cheek and forehead

He’s constantly surrounded by a whole number of girls but he always tells people that you’re his #1

You two constantly have these moments where you’re both out and a pretty girl walks by and you both just halt to a stop and check her out

Afterward, you both turn towards each other and freak out over how attractive she was

“Holy shit, (Y/N) she’s wearing a bi flag bracelet, go get her number.”

He always tries to set you up with other girls, you don’t even ask him to but he does anyways

“Are you free tomorrow?”

“Yeah, why?”

“Perfect, you have a date at 2, she'll pick you up at your place.”

“Wait, what—”

However, if you ever like someone then your boi Terushima will be your ultimate wingman

He just wants to see you happy okay?

So he will do absolutely anything to help you get your girl, no doubt about it

WILL FIGHT ANYONE FOR YOU

If anyone tries to hurt you then he’s gonna call the bois and beat them up, he will not let them slide

He will definitely go to pride with you, he’ll arrive clad in full rainbow attire

“What do you mean you won’t wear the matching rainbow cape, (Y/N) I paid good money for this.”

[plagg-wants-cheese]

i want you guys to know the reason of why I can't get doc martens. ✨Not living in America✨

"Where are you from?"

"UGH, America"

Yeah politically if you will but thinking that America is the only place in the world with shitty politics is why I should say, ugh America.

Im not here to talk about politics just that Americans talk shit about America like I talk shit about my country but don't realize how much stuff you guys have that we dont. I started this because of doc martens but like this country is shit in such a deep level that there are not fucking art schools in my country even if I had jeff bezos money to pay for the tuition I couldn't because the nearest thing I have to an art school is graphic design and that is shit, but like what about people who want to study arts, theater, making fucking props for theater, designing clothes? you can cry yourself to sleep because your only escape is leaving the country which is so fucking difficult. AND THE FACT THAT MY DAD KEEPS TELLING ME SHIT LIKE "YOU HAVE TO GROW UP YOU ARE NEVER GOING TO ART SCHOOL" IS NOT FUCKING HELPING

And not to finish there because I know not everyone is like that but at what age did you guys learn the word gay? I'm not saying everyone is the same but my little cousin who lives in America and is 7 knows what gay means and that he should never say the f slur. I found out what gay means, like the fucking dictionary meaning at the age 13 and not because people would discuss gay marriage, no, no, but because of fucking wattpad and I don't wanna hear any joke about it really, my friend found out she could like girls through anime and nobody taught her anything so she thought her sexuality was "Yuri", huh. Some of you yell a lot about brands being full on rainbow only June and I am part of that because I believe it's harmful but I would have liked to go to the mall with my mom after I found out I liked girls and see rainbows there and like not feeling COMPLETELY alone. I really want you guys to understand that there are people, sixteen years olds that would look at someone dressed in the rainbow flag and would say cute rainbow because there are people that don't know anything really and I'm not here telling you that latinos are like sooo un developed we live like animals or whatever but yeah that's just something. And going back to the fucking doc martens what about merch I am lucky that I can go the us and I know if you go to any mall you find fucking Taylor swift merch anywhere, I know because I bought stuff for my friends and even if I didn't find it I could have bought it online and get free shipping or pay like maximum 5 dollars for the shipping, in this fucking country I couldn't find one single item related to Taylor swift in the only mall we have or tiktok or Facebook shops. Nothing. So I basically can't get my friends Christmas gifts of that type.

And now, the doc martens, I had already convinced myself that getting docs was completely impossible, just a dream, but I saw my friend wearing not docs but ones that looked kinda alike and was like, let's not lose hope so I told my mom "can I get these shoes? I will pay for them" and she said she could buy me those I didn't have to pay for them, so I love my mom, so we spent like a whole WEEK looking for doc martens, I went to every single shoe store my mom knows and listen, my mom knows every single shop in this city because she loves fashion and, good for her but we didn't find anything, I asked my friend where she got hers and she told me the store and turns out they didn't have my size, just my size, anything else they had, and there was just one type of martens boots. I WASN'T SO disappointed because they weren't really doc martens. You give my mom a job and she shows results and nothing else so after we went to every store, we started looking up in online stores that have to be from the country if you dont want to pay 50 dollars for shipping and EVENTUALLY like after HOURS we found a girl that sells shoes and they looked like docs, I, because I've spent a lot, LOT, of time (crying) looking at the doc martens website would easily realize that those are not really docs but they looked so alike that I was already gonna pay and I was three seconds away from crying because we couldn't find fucking shoes and voila TURNS OUT THEY HAD EVERY SIZE EXCEPT MINE so I cried and you'd say it's stupid to cry for shoes (but Vanessa I am a material gurl-) but at this point it wasn't really about the shoes??? It was because there IS NOTHING in my country. Like how fucking undeveloped you have to be to not HAVE S H O E S. So I told myself to forget about it, we were better when I didn't even tried so hm. But then I saw three fucking videos about my tiktok mutuals getting new docs. I didn't wanna see it so I scrolled, the next video? A guy opening his package and bam, doc martens, I scroll and bam my other mutual talking about atyd Remus lupin wearing doc martens and I was so close to crying so I commented something like "omg you look so happy!! Where did you buy them? Because I have looked up everywhere and still can't find docs" and what the fuck did I even expect, they where super nice I'm not saying anything against them but it was the same thing "the doc martens website, the doc martens local shop in your mall, Amazon, and most shoe stores have them <3" I was three seconds away from throwing my phone. The doc martens website is bookmarked in my phone, my laptop, my iPad, my everything okay and I would order them, that's the best option but the SHIPPING costs MORE than the DOCS. WHAT'S THE FUCK. so no. The doc martens local shop, I looked that one up and the nearest one is in colombia, that's not gonna help. Amazon's shipping costs more than my life, I should have started with the fact that we don't have Amazon, home depot, targets or wallmarts here, so Amazon is a no. Most shoe stores have them, i would know bitch, i would know. So that's it, I have the money and enough patience to not have a breakdown in every shop I go but no doc martens for me I guess.

Sorry if like, you decided to read that, that was just me venting about fucking shoes and sorry for burning your corneas with my bad grammar or anything and I also am super sleepy so hope something makes sense in those paragraphs

[namuneulbo]

week twenty-one

*insert twenty one pilots reference here*

this week was gorg mentally. i havent had this good of a week mental health-wise in agessss. also, ive realized im more emotional than usual. its not just this week but all the time. its a permanent thing now? i cry easily when im by myself. like ill cry multiple times watching queendom for some reason? also finished heartstopper and i was SOBBING. full blown cry sesh. i cried so hard. i would show u a pic but i have more self-respect than that. im so glad its getting two more seasons bc its easily become one of my fav shows. im still watching saiki k but im on season 3 now.

it was either on monday or tuesday but after school i went to the thrift store to look for cds for ms bday. i didnt find anything she listens to but theyve said they wanted a varied collection in their car so ppl can find something they like no matter what genre they like. i got a hole cd and a jimi hendrix cd, both bc the packaging was cute.

i met up w l on wednesday. culture club has ended for now and itll be back next fall (i think??). l came to my place and we did,,,, nothing? both our social batteries were low.

on thursday i had a class in the studio and it was more doable than usual and afterwards i went to buy snacks for fridays sleepover. since our friend group consists of six ppl (me, a, e, l, m, t) we had a rainbow themed (like a pride flag) thingy so i had to buy green snacks. i got a cucumber, chips and some dips and apparently chips were not as unique as i though since three others had chips as well TT

friday! sleepover! i thought id get drunk for the first time but i didnt. i didnt like any of the alcoholic drinks we had TT i suppose its good that i dont like the taste of alcohol? i got to try some from t though and i like that drink quite a lot but it tasted just like a less sweet soda lol

it was a fun sleepover though, at least most parts of it and i was surprisingly unbothered by them being there when i woke up. i tend to just wanna be alone after a sleepover but i was fine w them being there in the morning. i also think i felt more relaxed since we slept at my place. i slept w l, t slept on the couch and e and m slept together ofc. a didnt stay for the night.

l was the last to leave on saturday and they helped me clean up and we listened to some rnb/indie and it was all good. i did hw and then took a ,,,,,, 3 hour break. i made myself a frozen mozzarella pizza and watched the latest ep of queendom. it was the fantastic queendom stages and omg... theyre all so good and i might be biased but WJSNS STAGE!!!!!! pantomime???? omg?????? we got pantomime???? also the stage was insane!1!!!1!!!!

sunday. i woke up at 6.50 am. me and l were meeting up at the studio at 10 am although l was the time optimist she always is and arrived 20 mins late anyways xx i was supposed to record vocals for my school project and we were just about to do so when some thingy stopped working and the music wouldnt stop playing for the speakers... bc u know obviously i cant have the track playing from the speakers when im recording vocals in the same room but for some reason it just wouldnt just go to my headphones? so i ended up showing l wjsns pantomime stage and then we played around w autotune just for funsies. after our booked time was over we went to town and they bought us fries w ketchup and béarnaise <2 ty l! we also saw ls idol sitting on a bench so we sneakily sat a few benches away so we could watch him and his friends.

it was a good week.

sotw: lm.c - ghost heart

[chickenstuffedwithmozzarella]

Hii love!! How are you?? Hope you had a great time at yesterday's dinner. Yes, i still have a month of exams. And a lot of essays and assigments that i dont want to do. But hopefully i'll be free soon. Nop. I didnt see that. Which one was it? Crying in the club? I remember seeing that song in the track list at the beginning of the tour. But i havent seen anything else. (1)

Hi, love!! Finally I get to answer you. I’ll try to make it “short”, jajja, but I talk too much, so, no promises here, jajjaja.Yeah, we had a good time. We bought some pizzas 🍕 (lol, Honey 🍯 senses when I’m writing you, and he comes to lay on my 😌). I told them if they wanted to watch Dunkirk, they told me they rather no, jajajaj. But, well 🤷🏻‍♀️, their lost. A day more, is a day less. Soon you’ll be free, and will forget about the stress.Oh, I think it’s that song, yes. I didn’t knew he was covering it on his tour. He also sang a Sting one, too. 😩😩 I didn’t know it, what a fake fan 😅.

Yes. I think i started wearing them when i was 7. I’ve been wearing glasses for more than half of my life now. They are part of me and people dont recognise me without them. Kind of sad if you ask me. But it is what it is. Is the surgery that expensive? I havent even looked that up bcs getting surgery it’s just a dream at this moment, i dont need reality to discourage me (2)

Well, if it’s of some relief, I’ve wearing them for almost three years, only, and even my family see something weird in my face when I don’t have them on, so 🤷🏻‍♀️. Well, when my mom look it up, it was around 3000€. But I think my friend told me last year that it was around 1800€, I think. So, yes, it’s very expensive, but all the people I know who have had it are very happy with it.

Yes. I know. I get that it’s easier to give them the ipad and all of that, but i dont think that’s really good for them mainly bcs they dont get the attention they need. But well, parenting is something very personal, and technology also has its perks. Maybe nowadays kids learn in a different way, but it’s still learning. I guess it’s the same as when Game Boy and so came out. That was supposed to “pervert” us all, but i think we ended up being just fine. Mostly. (3)

Oh, yeah, well used, technology is the best. But sometimes parents just give their children their phones so they don’t bother them, and that’s not good for kids. Like when they’re waiting at the doctor. I actually hear a psychologist saying that that teaches kids that to be relaxed they need a phone. And it’s a way to conditioning them. Like when a dog does something well and you give it a treat. And then the dog does that thing, so you have to give it another treat. But, yes, like you said, parenting is something very personal, and I think it parents reflects what they had/hadn’t from their parents on their kids.

Ohh! I havent thought about that. Yes yes. I hope they are not recognisable then. Do you know if there'a any project for Nialls show? Like the rainbow flag they did for Fire Away in Amsterdam (was it Amsterdam?). I havent heard about one. JAJAJAJAJA. Of course buying a bigger house is the easy option. Of course😂. I’d take a pic of the door, but then i dont know how i would send it?? An anti or a het? Please no. Never. I have eyes and i know how to use them. And so does she (4)

Oh, I haven’t looked for projects yet. I always remember to look it up when I’m driving, bc is when I’m hearing Niall’s album, lol, but then I get home or work and I forget 🙄. I’ll look it up, and let you know. I’ve thought on bringing those big balloons that have a cord at one end? (I’ll try to find a pic, so you see them) and throw them to the crowd at some point and people can play hitting them, you know (we did that at my sister wedding and we had a lot of fun, I think here it would be funnier). But I’ll see. I’m very shy, so, even if I bring them, I’ll probably keep them in my bag, lmao.I think you can submit pics on anon. Just log off, search my blog, and submit it. You have to put an email, that can be anónimo@anonimo.com, jajja.

Your dad also knows their names? My parents barely know that One Direction exist. They only remember it as the opposite to good music. “This is music, not like that direction you like"😤😒 Jajajajajaja. Dont be so hard on you all. I’m sure there will be a lot of people of your age. You are not old!! (Yes, they are young babies. But mostly, they are lucky babies. Only 16 and already living their best life). (5)

Well, it would be too hard for my family to not know them, lol. All the people that has any contact with me, knows that I like them, lmao. My dad doesn’t like English music in general, so he isn’t a big fan (of me, listening their music 24/7, oops). Well, I’ll let you know after the concert, jajajajaj, of how much old people I see. The good thing is that it’s a small crowd, so less people judging 😅. And yes, they’re very lucky!! but if they can, good for them. I got to see Andy&Lucas when I was 16, 🤣🤣🤣🤣, almost the same, jajaja.

Only two weeks!! It’s around the corner!!! 😱😱😱😱😱 Yes. I should have bought a ticket for myself. But i’m not that sad. I’ll go another time. And also, the timing of the concert id disastrous because i start exams that week and going there + the show would mean 2 days less to study. And less time to study = more stress and crying. I’ve resigned myself to the idea. Next time. (6)

Yeah, I always look for the good point on everything too,jajaja. Also, that you have to see them next time they come, is the perfect excuse for them to come back again,jajajajaj. But you’re right. And it’s not just those two days you wouldn’t study. It’s the week before and after, thinking about the concert and getting distracted. Thinks come the way they do for a reason. So just think that studios are first. 🤷🏻‍♀️.

He tried to catch a duck? 😂😂😂 Nooo. Videos for cats? What are those? I know about cats’ videos (i love them. They are so cute), but not about videos for cats. What do they show? Oh, dont worry!! Notifications dont bother me. They dont make any sound. They are just there. And i only get one, no matter how many posts you reblog. (7)

Yes!! Cats are so funny. I laugh so much with them. If you search on YouTube “videos para Gatos” you’ll a lot, jajajaja. They’re just a cartoon mouse running and hiding, and cats try to catch it. Boring for humans, funny for cats.Ah, that’s good then,jajaja, because I was afraid you’d get 1837453 notfs, jajajaja.

Aaaargh. I’m trying to think something because I dont want to give you my name. It’s nothing personal. I swear. I’m just a very private person. That’s why i dont have SM and that stuff. But also, i cant think of a nickname bcs i dont have many, and i think my sister follows your blog and if she sees it there, that would be strange😂🤷. I dont knooow. I know names are not a big deal, but. I’m just shy. I’ll think about something and then i’ll tell, if you dont mind. (8)

WHAT??? Your sister follows me?? Oh my god!! This is so weird!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣I hope she isn’t reading this then, so you don’t get discovered. Now more than ever I have to try to put everything under the cut,jajajajja. Don’t worry about the name, that’s why I didn’t want to ask you. I was thinking something like flower anon (I don’t know why I call you flower i my head,jajja), or something like that. Or just smiley anon. I didn’t mean your actual name, of course. I’m very shy like that too (I know, hard to believe), and  I always talk on anon to people. Don’t worry. Ah!! And don’t worry about thinking a name at all. If you’re comfortable with the notifications, keep with it. I just thought that if you were searching in my blog that tag anon, it would be easier for you to have your own tag, with your own things,jejejeje. But whatever you think is better, seriously.

8 months? So young!! She just discovered her hands?😂 Glasses are the first target, but i bet she’s going to go after your hair next. All did was laugh? I would have cried for sure. Omg you are brave! I love kids, but i wouldnt have known what to do. “Well, if you could tell me what is a girl/boy toy” 📢 📢📢📢 Say it louder Soraya!! I love saying remarks like that. Some people get so angry and i’m like ???? Chill and think about what i just said pls, it’s all true.(9)

Aaaawwwww, I was with her today too, she’s so cuteeeee. And yes, she goes for my hair too, but that’s my fault, really, because I tickle her with it, so she just plays with it. And I was with my cousin yesterday too!!! You’d have to see him. He has a “problem” in his brain, so he doesn’t develop normally. Doctors even thought he had autism (I don’t know the correct way to say it in English, bc I think they use a different verb, but you get it) for some time, because he behaved like that. Anyway, he has photographic memory, and also when he learns something, he doesn’t forget (he’s just 4). Well, yesterday, he just taught me in English the weeks days, months of the year, numbers till 20 and the weather. All of that singing it and pointing to his black board (the tv) like he was a teacher. He’s just amazing. He has learn how to read some words all on his own… and he can recognize written words since he was 2. He learn my car plaque before than me… I love him so much. ☺️. (Did I have a point with this story???? I just love to talk about him, sorry, jajaja)Hey, look, I do t usually say good things about me, but I’ll say one. I think I’m good on how I treat people at work. Like I know how to read them, and if I can joke with them or not. And I talk a lot with people, even if I don’t know them,jajaja. Well, when someone says something like that (a toy for a girl; can you make a candy cake, but it’s for a boy so nothing pink, please…) soy la persona más seca que te puedas imaginar 😒 (I don’t know how to say that in English). Like, no, lol, what will it do to him to it something pink? It’s just mean it taste like strawberry 🙄🙄🙄. I can’t I can’t.

Today i did a survey for a friend who is studying to be a teacher, and it was… wrong The aim of the survey was good, but the ways… the first question was “¿Q opinas al respecto de que existan orientaciones sexuales distintas a la heterosexual?” & also “¿como d normal t resulta q un niño juegue con muñecas?”. That’s wrongly put. Like, u are not asking what people thinks about sexuality. U are assuming that hetero is cool, and then u are asking about the nonhetero ones. And that annoyed me. 10

Yeah, that way of asking is wrong. Even more because is a written question, so you can’t catalogue the way the person asked is answering. But I sometimes ask question the wrong way so people shows they true colors, y'know? Like I ask in a way that it looks like I’m thinking the wrong way (gay things are wrong) and when they answer as if I were right… bye. But, again, that can be done in s face to face conversations. That survey was wrong yes, because they didn’t ask how you see that a boy play with a gun (which is worst that playing with a doll or a kitchenette…). But also, who wrote that survey? Your friend? Did you tell them what you thought about the way it was written? Did they listen to you??

Well, I reached the end!! Jajajja, I had to put my iPad to charge. Why do I talk so much??? We have this joke at the shop, with a woman (she’s also my sister neighbor), and she talks a lot A LOT!! So much, that my sister sometimes has to close the shop and walk with her to their flats… jajajaa. Well, I always say: ja! yo la doy conversación. Cuando se cansa de hablar, la saco otro tema!! That’s how much I talk,🤣🤣🤣🤣. I think is because I spend so much time alone at home, without opening my mouth (only to talk to my cats), that when I start talking with someone, I don’t know how to stop,jajajja. But I’ll stop… NOW! Bye!! 😚😚

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Buuuut, if we educated people right in the first place, deconstruction  wouldnt be necessary. I'm sorry for my future kids, if i ever have them, bcs they are going to have a very special and specific education, and they'll probably end uo hating me for being so annyoing. But its necessary. (i said you were the rainbow queen bcs you family associated you with rainbow flags. Take the title pls). (10)

Yeah. I think the same about my future children, if I ever have them, lol. Sometimes I see the way some parents teach their kids, and I think “what a waste…” Did you ever hear about that bus that some conservative/religious association had running around Madrid and other cities? The one which was against trans people? Well, I heard some parents saying that they have their own right to rise their kids how they want. If they don’t want to teach their kids that a girl can have a pennis, or a boy can have a vagina at home, the kids shouldn’t be teaches that at school either. And, uffffffff, it infuriated me so much hearing that in tv!! And they were proud of thinking like that!!! And all I could think was: “isn’t that mistreating your kids?? Shouldn’t those kids go with a better family?  TAKE AWAY THEIR CUSTODY!” WkdbcajsnksdnnjckdjAnyway… okay, I’ll embrace my rainbow queen title!! Jajjajaja

😂😂😂😂 Me as you telling everybody, “i like X. Yeah, btw, he is gay”. I have a list of people that im👀👀👀. I would not be surprised if they ended up being gay/bi. Yes, yes. Believing the press and the news is cool, but have you heard about not listening to the narrative and forming a cult full of crazy theories? 10/10. 😂 Oh!! My bestfriend is also studying esthetic(?). Some times I’m the guinea pig😅 (11)

The only thing I regret in my life (lol, not there a lot of things I guess,jajja) is not have had a tumblr earlier. Or being in a fandom when I was younger. In my defense I’ll say that I didn’t have access to a lot of things, because of were I love and all that 😅😅😅. But, seriously, this is so funny and entertaining, jajaja. And don’t call it cult!! Jajajajajaj (or the leaders will find you, and make you disappear discreetly 🤣🤣🤣)Ah!! You’re friend is studying it too??? Cool!!! jajaaj. Hey, but if you’re the guinea pig for things like wax, I’m guessing, tell her you’ll be it too for the massages 😉. One of my cousins came once to be waxed at my school. Well, for some reasons, we only could wax half legs. It was 7 years ago. She hasn’t been waxed ever again since then, jajajajjajajaja. We traumatized her!!! 😱😱

Jajajajaja. Good good. You can star buying merch in about 5746 years. Nop. I think H likes watching us suffer, and he wont release the sings yet. You like the songs? Officially? You’re welcome!! He licks your shirt? JAJAJAJA. Honeeey, pls😂. Hey, I asked my sister and as i thoughtn they have no plan yet. And probably they arent going to know anything until that same day so… sorry, thats not helpful. (13)

For real, I really hope that he releases the songs at some point in some way. Even if a think Oh Anna, won’t sound as good as it does live. In my opinion, songs sound better live. Yes!! I like them. I have to listen them more, an d also add It Isn’t In my blood (this is a reminder to myself,jaja).Yeah, he licks my shirt… he has a trauma… they took him away from his mom too soon, I think, jejejeje. But, it’s okay, I let him. He isn’t perfect, but I wouldn’t change a thing about him. 😌Don’t worry about your sister’s no-plans, jajaja. Hope she and her friends have the time of their lives!!

My last 3 asks (num 10, 11, 12 [although i think i named it 13? Sorry]) got lost again, so i’ve sent them once more. I hope they reach you! Also, you did get the ask 7. It was the one you answered yesterday, about “woman”, Kiwi, Medicine… so dont worry about that one. Aaand, your under the cut worked this time!! 👏🎈🎊🎉🍾 Yay!!!

FINALLY I got to answers you to all this!!!! 😅😅 ufff, what a busy week I’ve had,jajaja. I’ll try to answer the rest later. And if you want, answer this and the other asks together, s will be back to one ☝️ conversation, jajajajjaja.