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the only thing getting me through is the thought that i don't have physics lab next week
#i actually enjoy the work honestly#but the time constraint for getting things done is so anxiety inducing#it always makes me feel so inferior to everyone else#it's just always new stuff to me#and i take longer than everyone else to work through stuff#and it's hard for me to get stuff done#especially when it's new material#and because we're always given such broad and confusing directions#it makes me feel so stupid but i just wish that instructors could give more in depth and specific instructions#because otherwise it'll take me like five times as long as everyone else to figure out what we're actually supposed to be doing#and even then i'll be extra worried that i haven't got the right idea#even when i'm listening to or reading instructions i have to go over it several times before i understand#i need time for the words to become more than just symbols and sounds#and then i need time to connect their meaning to the context of what i'm doing#it's incredibly frustrating and demoralizing#and i know i'm smart and capable#i always end up doing well#i'm at an 'academically challenging institution' and i know i got in here on my own merit#hell i graduated as a valedictorian with the highest test scores in my high school#but still somehow every time i sit in a space next to other people#i feel infinitely small and worthless
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Sarevok's image in Baldur's Gate and how he uses it
Among the numerous misrepresentations of Sarevok's character in BG3, is how he came into power. Of course, properly showing that would also show that the new villain's great master plan is just a rip-off of his, but let's ignore that. Obviously, Sarevok's stunt in Baldur's Gate becomes infamous, and he, rightfully, doesn't have a good rep in the city. That being said, it wasn't always the case, yet all you'll see in BG 3 is a brutish villain that only knows violence and 'mURdEr'. Yes, spelled like that, yes.
More rambling under the cut.
The thing was that, prior to Charname exposing his plan, Sarevok had become truly popular in Baldur's Gate. Let's remember the set-up back then. The Iron Throne is a shady mercantile organisation from Sembia. A new western division is trying to take root in the Sword Coast, led by Rieltar Anchev.
Their plan goes as follow: they aim to create a misinformation campaign to blame the Zhentarim for all the troubles in the region. They worsen tensions between the governments of Baldur's Gate and Amn. With iron being the most important resource in a war, the Baldurian government has to go to them in order to get any. The Iron Throne has disrupted all the iron trade through the region using the Blacktalon mercenaries and the Chill. The only known iron mine in the region is at Nashkel, and the Iron Throne has effectively crippled it. They have their own mine operating in Cloakwood. When the Baldurian government comes to them for iron, they will be able to make exorbitant trading demands, and thus become the preeminent trading power in this region.
(Yes, this is copy-pasted from the dialogue you can get from the charmed Iron Throne leaders, what can I say, it's a good recap)
So, that's Rieltar's plan to settle the Iron Throne in the region, a plan Sarevok will hijack in several ways. He intends to kill Rieltar and the other two leaders, and while the Iron Throne didn't intend to actually start a war, only increase tensions, Sarevok thinks that a massacre on a godlike scale can ascend him to godhood. That plan of Sarevok also requires him being named Grand Duke, and thus becoming sole leader of Baldur's Gate once he's eliminated the others (yes, the more you know, the more it sounds like someone in BG3's act 3 copy-pasted this plan for his own takeover, hush). This part of his plan required Sarevok to build a positive public image in Baldur's Gate, so the nobles would want him to be grand duke (despite being a newcomer from a Sembian trade group). That wasn't an easy task. The Iron Throne has a bad reputation even before Rieltar's iron plot. It's a known fact they're more a criminal organization than a trading organisation, so people are less likely to deal with them, unless, as Rieltar's planned, they don't have a choice anymore. However, Sarevok doesn't wait for his father's plan to be completed before he starts building relations with the ruling class of the city.
When you first get to Baldur's Gate, various npc inform you of the, mostly, positive image Sarevok has built for himself. That's something even Gorion's ward points out in their own journal entries.
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1: "Nobleman: Those Iron Throne fellows are quite the secretive bunch. Sarevok, the foster son of their leader, is quite the charmer, though."
2: "Journal entry by Charname: Sarevok, son of one of the Iron Throne's leaders, has become increasingly popular in Baldur's Gate."
3: "Noblewoman: From what I've heard, the new man with the Iron Throne, Sarevok, is an unmarried man. I plan to change that."
Love the last one.
So, Sarevok is very popular in the city, even though there are some who disagree, they're not the majority. Most people who aren't as fond of Sarevok are among the commoners, and I would argue that's because they weren't the target audience of his PR campaign. Sarevok needs the nobles' vote to be Grand Duke, so they are the ones he wants on his side. The popular vote is only a bonus.
It's also important to notice he's improving his popularity, not the popularity of the Iron Throne.
He still has popularity among the lower class, and that only increases when you near the game's end.
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4: "Commoner: I think it's about time we took the fight to them [Amn], and Sarevok is the man to lead us."
5: "Commoner: I don't know what them nobles see in that Sarevok fella, but he's something darker, that's for certain."
6: "Commoner: That Sarevok is going to make everything all right again."
7: "Nobleman: An election of sorts has been called because we cannot be without a full governement in these dangerous times. I hear Sarevok is a frontrunner in this matter."
8: "Noblewoman: Entar Silvershield's death was a tragic blow, but with Sarevok stepping in I feel a true sense of hope."
9: "Journal entry by Charname: With the murder of Grand Duke Entar Silvershield, Sarevok is poised to gain control. The people love him."
10: "Noblewoman: Such people would not dare to show their faces in Baldur's Gate, not now that Sarevok and Angelo Dosan control the Flaming Fist. Order will be enforced, more so once Sarevok is appointed as a Grand Duke. I shall have little to fear of the streets once that comes to pass."
11: "Journal entry by Charname: The nobility is especially approving of Sarevok and Angelo Dosan being in control of the Flaming Fist."
12: "Nobleman: He's [Sarevok] making a lot of friends, and I bet he will be nominated to replace poor entar as Grand Duke."
13: "Noblewomen: It is a good time to be of the nobility. Sarevok has ensured us all that order will be restored in this region, whatever the cost."
14: "Journal entry by Charname: The nobility are especially welcoming of Sarevok and his hard stance against Amn."
15: "Nobleman: Sarevok seems like a man who gets things done."
16: "Sir Lothtyran: Personally, I think he'll [Sarevok] do wonderfully."
17: "Brennan Risling: That's why we need Sarevok as Grand Duke, for he'd take the resources from the Iron Throne and' assist us."
18: "Journal entry by Charname: It is good to know that not everyone in this city has fallen in love with the hardliner Sarevok."
Sarevok doesn't have everyone's approval, but he has more than enough to take over the city. Obviously, the mood changes once his plot to drag both governments into war is revealed.
But you know what? Even then, he still has some popularity.
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random commoner woman: if evil, why hot?
In conclusion: Sarevok almost took over Baldur's Gate and the whole Sword Coast with covert force and was almost lawfully elected Grand Duke of Baldur's Gate thanks to the popularity he cultivated within the city. That was possible thanks to two things. One, it's safe to say that Sarevok can be charismatic and charming when he wishes to be, even though, according to Diarmid, another one of the mercenaries working for him, "[...] subtlety is something that doesn't quite comes naturally to him. He doesn't have the patience for it, though his mind is amazingly tactical".
In his BG2 banter, you also learn he's not overly fond of being around people. That means this entire schmooze fest he did to boost his popularity took serious effort on his part, and it paid off. It was a trial of patience for a man who isn't known to be patient, or at least, not patient for niceties. He can prove very patient for the sake of a plan. We're talking about a character who has had to wait years before he got the opportunity to take revenge on his father for his mother's murder, and a way to get away with it. Sarevok may not enjoy being patient, but is definitely familiar with the practice.
The second reason is that, well, he's hot. I'm not the one saying it, the women (and men, you know there had to be men too) thirsting over him are saying it. They're bound to be disappointed, because while he's not married, he's definitely not single. Anyway, being hot, not something to underestimate. He gets pretty privilege.
To be a bit more serious, while impatient, Sarevok is described as having an "amazingly tactical" mind. This is something you clearly see in his takeover of Rieltar's plan, and manipulation of public opinion. Yes, Sarevok's plan involves various murders, but it's a tool, not an end in itself. He's even careful to have specific murders look like 'robbery gone wrong' or 'mysterious disease strikes'. He has assassins do the killing for him so he can't be directly linked to it. Sarevok is a strategist, whose plans involve a lot more than just 'killing'.
It is a part of his characterization BG 3 abysmally fails to show.
#bg 1#baldur's gate 1#bg 3 critical#baldur's gate 3 critical#sarevok anchev#observations on sarevok series#we could've had hd sarevok and we were ROBBED#yes my charname spends her time doing vox pop in the streets of baldur's gate#sarevok isn't a dumb brute he's smart he's a strategist#and he's capable of doing things he dislikes for the sake of an end goal which takes discipline#YES g0rt4sh copied sarevok's entire plan#and i don't spell his name right so it doesn't show in his tag you're welcome#i'm not saying bg3 should've made sarevok do another pr campaign#but they just show him as a murder boogeyman#i don't know that anyone will read this but i wanted to do it#yes that's a lot of screenshots i know you don't wanna see my folders#it's folders within folders it's an inception of folders#anyway i have my tools back i'll be making more of those
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Every once in a while there will be a blogger I'm not following, but whose posts I know and whose blog I visit from time to time. They can either be a generally popular user, a fandom-popular user, a mutual-in-law, or simply someone whose posts I've seen reblogged by other blogs I visit. You know how it is on tumblr dot com.
Anyway, impressing me -- and at the same time making me take you for a Cool Person Who Knows Things, And Whose Opinions Are Important And I Should Defer To Them -- is only a little bit harder than biting into an overcooked noodle, or accidentally stepping on an ant. So, I'll often admire these people from afar and feel sad and inadequate if we disagree on something, or of they criticize something I think is fine (especially if they do it without giving a reason, like 'well, it goes without saying that X simply sucks').
However -- sudden salvation -- every once in a while this blogger will have an opinion that's so nonsensical, or they'll behave in a way that's so unnecessary hostile to someone who doesn't really deserve it, that it's honestly both sad and surprisingly relieving to me because ohhhh okay you're just a fucking asshole. You're not a special, sophisticated mini-god, you're just an asshole who's mean for no reason. Phew! Aaaaand block.
#shrimp thoughts#this too is an Incorrect way of thinking. I should not do that. I should work on maybe not putting people on pedestals while burying myself#deeper underground. Other people being smart don't mean you're dumb and pathetic or something! Well I'll have to work on believing this#(as well as 'it's okay for you to exist and be as you are' though this one is more difficult) but like. yeag#this is funny because I do dislike this genre of a person who's acting all cooler than ya and edgy asshole. yknow this 'yes i do believe#men/white people/straights should all die/kill themselves <3' person. I really fucking dislike them AND YET I can't help but feel that#Smart and Capable People are allowed to be judgmental assholes to a degree. like well this opinion was phrased meanly and it made me feel#bad but it's not that they're an asshole! I'm simply just stupid for thinking otherwise. it's REALLY difficult to get rid of this mindset#not that I ever tried it in any way but you know what I mean
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Men who view women as their intellectual equals 😍
#pro tip for the boys: a lot of girls will respond a lot better to a stimulating conversation than to a guy trying to show off#ignore the movies they're lying to you when they tell you you need to be a show off#and if a girl wants that it's maybe not the best sign y'know?#but most girls just want to be treated like we're capable intelligent humans#that's all!! the movies and shit make it way more complicated than it has to be#and yes some girls do make things awkward and complicate everything#but maybe you wanna be careful about that because those girls generally have a lot to unpack#being friends with those girls is fine!! just make sure you have strong boundaries in place#and make sure she's doing some work on herself before considering a romantic relationship#but anyway i've had a lot of men in my life that i feel like wanted to be so much smarter than me#and not to be rude but they weren't?? i was just as smart and sometimes smarter#i didn't care that they were confident in their intelligence but i felt like i needed to dumb myself down#and it. freaking. sucked. i have no idea how i did it for so long#and i would even make jokes about like the guys i dated being smarter than me and nobody ever said anything??#and again these guys weren't smarter than me. that's not an insult to them just acknowledging i'm smarter than i was gave myself credit for#i'm outgrowing the notion that i have to dumb myself down for men and it's so freeing#and you know what really helps me actually? being in college#and especially being in college with so many intelligent men who know they're smart#these guys KNOW they're smart. and not in an arrogant way in a secure and confident way#them knowing they're smart makes them the OPPOSITE of arrogant actually#it's weird but i stand by my observation and it makes sense when you think about it#if you're secure in yourself and your intelligence you don't need to proce yourself by making other people look dumb#these guys are secure in their self-image and masculinity. they don't need women to be dumb and weak to feel strong and intelligent.#and it's so freaking endearing. i love that for these guys so much.#i am just so thankful for people in my life who are taking me seriously and who are helping me to understand i'm worth taking seriously.#wow these tags are long but anyway#guys you don't have to prove anything girls you should never have to dumb yourselves down live long and prosper
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Ooof
Looking at old posts, sometimes you just ask yourself what was I thinking 😅
#only then you realize maybe i did change a bit#i'm feeling embarassed about some of the things i said#maybe i really was an insufferable person at times 😅#but maybe that retrospective opinion is also normal#i really really should have worded some things better#altough i still stand with some of my opinions but i definetly would argue in a different way#like god was i overdramatic i know i might still be sometimes today but not as much#i feel like now i'm much more logical and level headed in comparisson also in how i try to get my point accross#and i got so worked up over things i got no control over like yeah sure some things may be very unfair but you have to move on#like i still feel my rants about gregor's treatment from ösv and it makes me very upset when i think about how it ended#but at the end of the day there's no way you could influence such decisions in any way altough ranting helps yes#but like now in football if i get worked up over some coaches decisions which harm my team in my opinion ... yeah frustrating but ...#i can't change it#or some athlete who is hard done by their club or whatever no matter how unfair it might be i can do nothing#can only hope they make the best of their situation but ultimately no things i have no controll over are sth i should think abt all day#doesn't mean i never get upset ... i still do sometimes very much but i'm much better at distancing myself from these things after some time#tbf it does help gregor my alltime favourite isn't involved anymore but i still believe i would act differently#like yeah some things sucked but he was a more than capable and great athlete and smart person who had to deal with all that stuff -#and i could do nothing about all the things i felt were unfair#also not just related to these things i remember in school i blamed my teachers sooo much for bad grades#i had some really bad teachers one who i am sure disliked me but i underestimated the hand i played in this#like sure she was all that but i completely put all blame on her and convinced myself there was nothing i could have done better#when now i know SURELY i could have studied more bc i really didn't know what studying a lot even meant in school#i was so lazy and also instead of trying to make an effort to get on my teachers good side like hers i just thought it's pointless anyway#... thinking to myself she won't ever like me no matter what i do ... not that i'm the person now to kiss up to others but just be polite#and put in your best effort it does wonders ... like if your uni professors like you makes life sm easier and getting better grades as well#or extensions on papers lol#i almost did the opposite in school i was not outright rude or smth but i don't think i was very good at hiding my dislike for here#well anyways#besides also so many of things i liked and hobbies i had i really couldn't imagine having this life anymore 😅
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Nothing pisses off a man more than when you, a woman, refuse to participate in your own dehumanisation
#“women are bad drivers” “ women are too emotional” “ a woman cannot be a good leader”#Literally shut the fuck up#“no but you're different” ?????#Literally fuck off#I am woman and *gasp* I am smart I am just and I am at least moral in my own right#I am not a perfect person#Hell I'm not even a perfect woman#But I know I know exactly what I am and I know exactly how amazing and capable the women I know are#At least I don't make sweeping generalisations about a specific gender dumbass#If you're a woman reading this: stop listening to every moron you encounter#They have nothing better to do and will drag you down to their level#And I know you are better than that#Rant over
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I get using no specific iteration of the TMNT in a crossover and just making yet another new version. After all, the franchise has had many, many different versions at this point, so it's easy to accept that this is simply one more to add to the pile.
But Naruto has... one. Just the one. So when all of a sudden characters are written/shown to have expertise that they shouldn't have at the age they're being depicted, it just ends up feeling weird.
I get that fitting things into the Naruto timeline can be a chore. Do it too early, and Sakura is kinda useless. Do it too late, and Sasuke's off murdering people. And if you try to set it after the series, the power levels are seriously gonna be out of whack.
But breaking the only canon that has ever existed for these characters makes them feel like... not the same characters. I might be the only one who cares about this, but it really took me out of the story, to the point where I couldn't help but focus on it. I don't want to be distracted from page one of a silly ninja crossover comic.
#almost as distracting as the weird dialogue given to all the naruto characters i mean wut lol#unsurprisingly i didn't care for how the naruto characters were handled#i went into this issue knowing this would most likely be the case#i am admittedly very harsh on how i judge naruto characterizations pre time jump#ah well#who knows maybe in the end the story will be worth it but at just 4 issues i'm not gonna hold my breath#more specific spoilers below...#i feel like they really should have just left sakura her normal self#if you know her character well enough you could totally pull off a fight between her and raph#he is a brawler and very straightforward but sakura is smart and has excellent chakra control#honestly just use her zaku fight tactics - substitution until you can get a surprise attack#or have her tree climb to get away and attack from range using paper bombs#i'd say she could use clones as a distraction but obviously that's too close to naruto's thing#like you can still make a fight with her work it's not like any of the tmnt were using anything other than taijutsu#but we've already seen covers with naruto using rasengan so i'm guessing she won't be the only one with extra powers#(i know the anime stuck some filler eps in between sasuke waking from his itachi induced coma and his fight with naruto on the roof)#(but those are non-canon and frankly really ruin the flow so i've always hated that they existed even if the kakashi mask one is amusing)#(but if you go by the anime's canon i guess you could technically have naruto knowing rasengan if this story is set then)#also uh sasuke you know you have the sharingan right#why weren't you using it you basically always use it post chuunin exams#though admittedly what the two tomoe sharingan is capable of isn't always clear as sometimes he can see attacks coming#(avoiding gaara's sand ball spikes or seeing haku's fast movement)#and sometimes he can't (like kyuubi naruto at the valley of the end until he gets his third tomoe)#ANYWAY i just really wanted to rant a bit about this thing so uh yeah i ranted XD#not tagging but i suppose it might still come up in searches... ehhhhhh i'll delete the post if i start getting hate or something lol
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My brain is resorting to escapism more and more automatically. Things are stressful. Had it not been for this mechanism I probably would have had a nervous breakdown tonight.
#people think me smart but i could have been so much more than that#i could have completed school#i could have been kind and capable#i could have actually helped society in some way#this is...probably what they want#isn't it#i grew up like this#it's a wonder i'm still alive#i know i'm probably dissociated but i feel like i'm a zombie
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The constant quiet fight with my mom to not let her dump all of her mental load on me and none of the men of the family because I'm afab
#they're leaving on vacation today and she's saying stuff like “you will have to take care of this when I'm gone”#and I'm like “no my brothers are coming we've divided the days between ourselves I will take care of it when it's my day”#And she says “but you know how it works more than them”#And I'm just “they're 33 and they're smart they are capable of following instructions they will figure it out”#I once told her avoid this type of shit is why I don't want to have a traditional family with children etc so why burden me with yours#I know it's not get fault she gets all the mental burden but it's not mine either the solution isn't to pass it on to me#The solution is to hold the men responsible#that's life
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my old methods that made me concentrate have stopped working + they were extremely unhealthy and made me stress too much (recently i literally got so sick that my whole body hurt and i couldn't walk for a couple of days because it was too painful)
and i'm trying to take better care of myself now but idk how the hell do i make myself concentrate when i'm bored as hell without consuming an unhealthy amount of energy drinks and chewing gum :(
#once i graduate i'm going to jupiter to get more stupider#i never want to experience this again#like i know i'm actually really smart and capable of wonderful things#too bad that when i get bored my brain turns into hot garbage <3#it's like my brain is a really really old car and i'm trying to use it to move to another country#and get really angry and upset when it breaks again and again and again#anyway i'm hungry and my head hurtssss#if you're reading this thanks for your time and hope you'll have a wonderful day or evening <3#a lot of people here have been really kind to me and i really appreciate that
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#my brother is one of the best people ever#he's funny and creative and smart and sensitive and thoughtful and generous#and I love him so FRICKIN much#and people being mean to him makes me want to PUNCH THINGS#the frickin bus monitor for the bus he drives made him cry yesterday#she's such a MISERABLE HUSK of a woman#and I hate how she treats him#and I know he's capable of a lot more than I sometimes think#I know he's a grown adult and he can handle himself#but GAH this fricking WOMAN#he tried to do the right thing he tried to be a mature responsible person and talk to her directly but she was just MEAN#I'm just glad that he didn't get to say everything he'd been planning to (even though he was upset about that)#bc he'd been planning to tell her that he's autistic#I guess to try and help her understand where he's coming from#(also related to the fact that he drives a special needs bus and one time a few weeks ago she screamed at one of the kids)#(which obviously made my brother uncomfortable)#(but he was scared to say anything bc he said 'if she has no problem yelling at an autistic 5-year-old#she'd probably have no problem yelling at an autistic adult')#but yeah I can't see her being respectful about it if she knew he's on the spectrum#would probably try to use it against him since she's already been complaining about him to their boss#(which is why my brother finally tried talking to her yesterday)#(bc he's acting like an ADULT and trying to discuss with her directly instead of going behind her back like she's doing)#and gaaaaahhh I just HATE this for him#can't vent about this on the discord since we're both in there and I don't want him to know just how upset I am about this#I know he worries sometimes about burdening people#but he's just so GOOD and wonderful and I HATE that there are people who don't see that#I hate it I hate it I hate it#this fricking woman#personal
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woof im feeling bad about all my stuff. feels like my story sucks and my version of lucien isnt one that anyone else likes and my art is bad i'm not good enough :(
#vent#sowwyy#it will go over it's just#i feel like an autistic loser i guess!#and i want to talk with people about things i enjoy but i feel like i'm not capable#and it's lonely!!!#and makes me stagnate#its february again everyone!!! woo!!!!#got to the point where i just think about lucien and yarcha like i always do and i just feel embarrassed#everyone out there with their good looking smart strong silencers and im sitting here with a dumb pathetic little cat guy#making lucien dumb and pathetic to fit with him i guess#sorry i dont know why im saying all this#hope you're all doing well
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The cognitive function is not functioning, I think
#ramblings of a lunatic#feels like i make a million posts like this in a week but I can't. help it there's sand in my brain#idk if it's. brain fog??? can i claim brainfog. i saw someone say it's a chronic illness + adhd term#that's been misused by the general public so idk if i even have the right impression of it. also i feel like I'm going insane#I'm fully functional but everytime I'm left alone with my thoughts (which is most of the day) i feel like I'm rotting by overthinking#that sentence i said above about not knowing who's able to claim brainfog feels like it should be deranged on some level#but I'm overthinking and that's the kind of thing I'm overthinking.#im also thinking about how my overthinking isn't even the worst overthinking I've witnessed so really it's not overthinking#that's also a deranged sentence i feel#just. I'm tired all of the time. and i have no way 2 fix that. and i think it's all getting to my brain and I'm not. feeling awesome bout it#it's makin me anxious about my ability to Think and Be Smart and Capable and it's freaking me#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#i might make a sandwich soon. it won't fix everything and im not long after dinner but like. it might help
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Anyone have advice for dealing with job application burnout?
#i'm capable and smart#i really don't know what to do sometimes#but become a batman villain#bc this is so insanity-inducing
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If anybody were to ask me why I'm a combat medic in a game I like but also hate (total 50/50 love hate for this game there's no compromise to either side) as matchmade players expect me to resurrect them with ease every time knowing that the game's mechanics of how my ult works to it's humanly possible maximum efficiency, still cannot keep up with nearly ANY player being in the area of Only Gonks And Showboats go to die (where enemies spawn, which is opposite/adjacent of wherever the builder is)
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#irrelevant babble#listen I'm not immune to doing dumb shit in the game i play#but holy shit have I had to pull some of the most dumbass moves to keep people alive and NO IT'S NOT GOOD#the only way that I know I'm doing my job properly is if I'm not making MVP every goddamned wave...#why? because everyone else while in their class role actually following said class role stays alive#which...*sighs* [sadly] 51% of the time isn't their fault when they can't stay alive#the game literally provokes and pushes players to be not just aggressive...but BADLY aggressive...#I've lasted longer as a lone wolf on the difficulties I'm capable of than I've lasted in matchmade sessions...#and the thing is...I pay attention to how my mistakes look in a matchmade session when playing solo...#so I won't make those same mistakes at a frequency that fails the team#like I said: I ain't immune to dumb shit. but that significantly goes down if others just...play smart...#and ignore how the game encourages to be stupidly aggressive
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i've said it before and i'll say it again
the most head-empty dog in the entire world?
the [cavalier] king charles spaniel
i do not mean this as an insult, and i am not evaluating their so-called "intelligence"
i truly, truly mean that when you look a dog in the face, you can kinda "see" what they might be thinking. sometimes it's "PLAY PLAY PLAY" or "FOOD" or extreme judgment and skepticism or just "love you :)". lol
but when you look at a [cavalier] king charles spaniel.
there is simply nothing. nothing is going on behind that face or those eyes.
they're sweet, capable, lovely dogs. but every single one i've ever met has had absolutely No Thoughts in that head of theirs. they respond to everything as it comes and their baseline is True Mental Silence. absolutely hilarious and incredible. i love their little faces and head empty expressions.
every photo on the AKC website confirms this. their eyes are warm, due to being large and brown and soft and round. but they are empty as fuck. lolol
#i have cavalier in brackets bc technically there are 2 spaniels that i'm talking abt#the only difference is the body size and the shape of their face#otherwise they're basically the same#and fundamentally they are basically the same bc of Head Emptiness lol#also i'm sure ppl who have these dogs would refute my claim#my refutation to their refutation would be: you know the dog personally and live with them#you're an EXPERT at their microexpressions and behaviors#and to repeat: I AM NOT SAYING THEY ARE ~STUPID~#what i AM saying is the way they operate is Head Empty#like i said perfectly smart capable and sweet dogs#but they'll only have an Expression when directly responding to specific stimuli#is there food? they have Food Face. is there a toy? Play Face. is there walkies? Walk Face.#at every other moment of their life it is Head Empty Face#and since they're generally so lowkey and chill that is THE VAST MAJORITY OF THE TIME LOL#anyway when looking this up to make sure i got the breed name right i found out abt irish water spaniels!#they're adorable and awesome! why? bc they look like poodles :)#then i went looking at poodles For Obvious Reasons#but IWS are indeed hypoallergenic for the same reasons#and also i appreciate the AKC website for telling you how much certain dog breeds drool lol#(i'm allergic to their spit so it's not just the gross out factor it's a practical consideration)#compare this to my beloved bb mini poodle who was Judging You at ALL times lol i love & miss her#poodles in general communicate SO HEAVILY w their faces IN ADDITION to their body language it's so funny#poodles have So Many Thoughts going on at all times esp when dreaming lol
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