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halfdeadwallfly · 1 year

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the only thing getting me through is the thought that i don't have physics lab next week

#i actually enjoy the work honestly #but the time constraint for getting things done is so anxiety inducing #it always makes me feel so inferior to everyone else #it's just always new stuff to me #and i take longer than everyone else to work through stuff #and it's hard for me to get stuff done #especially when it's new material #and because we're always given such broad and confusing directions #it makes me feel so stupid but i just wish that instructors could give more in depth and specific instructions #because otherwise it'll take me like five times as long as everyone else to figure out what we're actually supposed to be doing #and even then i'll be extra worried that i haven't got the right idea #even when i'm listening to or reading instructions i have to go over it several times before i understand #i need time for the words to become more than just symbols and sounds #and then i need time to connect their meaning to the context of what i'm doing #it's incredibly frustrating and demoralizing #and i know i'm smart and capable #i always end up doing well #i'm at an 'academically challenging institution' and i know i got in here on my own merit #hell i graduated as a valedictorian with the highest test scores in my high school #but still somehow every time i sit in a space next to other people #i feel infinitely small and worthless

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chloesimaginationthings · 20 days

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Vanny gets her sleepy FNAF guys mixed up,,

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months

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Not beating the allegations.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #jiang cheng #su she #lan qiren #(I oscillated between writing a funny or a serious final comic for season 2 so hard I did both. Enjoy the funny bonus!)#Woah hey! Two characters we have not seen in a long time!#Su She hasn't been seen in 100 comics! Unfortunately LWJ has a taste for his blood. He has only moments left to live.#I honestly thought LQR died (adaption memory blur) and I did *not* expect him to show up here.#That said it does act as a way more personal blow to LWJ's reputation for LQR to be there.#By staying on WWX's side he's not only throwing his reputation to the wind but also facing familial judgment.#It hits so much harder when the choice isn't an easy one to make.#Choosing to stand at someone's side when they *have* actually messed up - when they do have faults and flaws - that's love.#Love is hard work! Love is not low maintenance and good days every day.#Love is being able to say 'I am choosing to bear your weight when things are heavy.' Love is doing that reciprocally.#Which is 100% a real life lesson I am passing on #And also a plea for why it is so important we give credit to WWX's atrocities.#He *did* do some of that shit. He isn't fully innocent and it gives LWJ's choice so much more weight.

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mossy-paws · 6 months

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they’ve been cooked…. (PHIGHTING!)

Yea Twitter really liked these ones lmao, anyways the first one was for a trend and the second one is just a silly follow up to it LMAO

#I actually had a lot of fun with these #I’m trying out a bit more of a “clean” style (specifically for chibis and such) and I honestly really really like it #It’s much easier to do stuff like gradients plus it’s pretty simple and nice!#I’m also working on a bunch of mermaid au chibis as well so those should be out soon!#I am kind of tied in with comms though so it may be a bit before I get to them #but hopefully they shouldn’t take too long :3!#Anyways enjoy the SFOTH eggrolls and icedagger soup #You can purchase them for 2944838482939 bux at catshots Café :3c #art #artists on tumblr #phighting fanart #phighting!#digital art #roblox phighting #phighting roblox #phighting #phighting art #roblox #PHIGHTING #phighting icedagger #icedagger #icedagger phighting #darkheart phighting #venomshank #illumina #phighting darkheart #illumina phighting #darkheart #ghostwalker phighting #ghostwalker

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swordmaid · 3 days

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early morning ✨☀️

gale x ylqinvrae commission for @/justlookingatstuffandthings over on insta. thank you so much for working with me 🫶💗

#gale x tav #gale dekarios #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #drow tav #commissions.#mine.#my first time drawing gale actually so im kind of 😭🙏 just hoping he looks recognisable lol #I liked working on this one hehe I’ve been enjoying drawing ocs lately #if u remembered my prev posts where I was crying abt patterns this is it lol #I’m happy w how it turned out tho I always have trouble with sleeve detailing looking disjointed #but this one was p seamless 😤 honestly there’s prob easier ways to draw patterns but am I gonna find that? well no! 👨‍🦲

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dinoserious · 5 months

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is hold

#tiberius the manfish #bazal the birdman #sketch #anthro #baz looks like hes annoyed but hes fine his face is just like that and honestly kinda enjoying the contact. tiber is a bit heavy tho #i need to do more actual physical interaction work w them. put them in the space

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b4kuch1n · 8 months

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digital ink comm round 2 done! for @trucbiduleschouettes, Alis, Sygdom, A. MG, @bakugames , F. Thorell, and Grumo.

With this round I've gotten to a decent place buffer-wise and with lunar new year prep, thank you very much to everyone who's commissioned me so far! I want to figure out something for the global strike however, so I won't be reopening digital ink comms until after this week. please stay tuned for that!

#bakuspecial #commission art #honestly my idea is straight up just aping the cartoonist coop's model. since I'm not with them yet #but yeah that will basically be how it works. but I'll limit the available type of art so I can actually finish all of it. and I'll stream #I just need to make the assets and write the post. and organize stuff #thank you once again to everyone who commissioned! cannot overstate how honored I am to be trusted with ur little guys #even if just for this one time. I hope ur having a good day wherever u are #have a good night! I wont be going to bed yet. but I will be enjoying myself. I take a hammer to it

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papabay · 6 months

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haven't been on tumblr in 5 years and you still have the same pfp, drawing nejiten and just the way you were... I absolutely love it and totally has taken me back to my naruto era in tumblr ;_;

Welcome back home anon ❤️

#but really #this actually really made me feel some type of way #It always makes me feel so happy to hear people can continue to enjoy my work after all these years #i sometimes feel like my content is stale but your kind words always mean so much #and honestly i dont think i can ever give up drawing my first real OTP anyway <3

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 4 days

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when I want to write something self indulgent to give me all the angsty and cuddly hurt/comfort feels but I can't because I end up feeling guilty because I'm seeking after feels that I feel in an inappropriate place because my mom told me one time when I was 15 that I shouldn't search that out or it's probably sexual sin but it confuses me because ALL the feels happen that way for me even if it's entirely platonic and nonsexual and so I don't know if it's okay to want to write to that because apparently all pleasure of any sort, even over platonic stories, is sexual or comes with a possibly probably sexual feeling and I also am having a hard time figuring out what's genuine conviction from God and what's just my anxiety/OCD/perfectionism/fear of failure

#like I feel like it's conviction. but also when I analyze it... I'm not doing anything sexual??? the stories I'm writing are #ENTIRELY platonic #it's like. found family feels.#but then why do I feel so guilty/convicted over it and feel better/less guilty when I stop writing anything feelsy #like... I guess I'm only allowed to write plot and can't ever write hugs and hurt/comfort anymore #my mom keeps saying I should journal all this instead of venting it at everybody and honestly maybe she's right #idk how to handle this but also I feel like if I just find a holding pattern where I can strike a healthy balance of lile #like* what is correct and healthy for me to enjoy #then the anxiety over it might pass? I don't want to avoid conviction though but like. why am I convicted over #writing a story where someone who's been treated like a monster finds a family who loves them #like.. is it because I'm seeking out whatever that feeling in my lower belly/groin is????#but that's like... so tied up in enjoyment and hurt/comfort to me that idk if I'm ACTUALLY looking for that #or if this is just what I write #and idk if that even is sinful in any way at all!!!#and why can't I just get over this? like I keep going in circles with it and it's so frustrating #idk this is totally tmi I just got hit with this awful feeling after work today and the only thing I can pinpoint it to #is this specific thing I've been writing. but even though yeah I've been getting feelsy with it... it's PLATONIC #ENTIRELY COMPLETELY NONSEXUAL. so like... is it that pleasure feeling that's the thing I'm being convicted over??#probably. bc that's the only thing that eases the feeling of conviction/anxiety/guilt #and also probably no one is reading all these tags lol sorry guys I'll go away now

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slavhew · 2 months

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FINALLY DONE WITH THE FIC I REFERENCED HERE

Just shy of 14k of platonic oc and Dirk hurt/comfort. We get down to brass tacks of why this guy is the way he is (One of the reasons at least)

Read it HERE:

#homestuck #hom3stuck #home24uck #home2t4ck #dirk strider #self #platonic selfship #admin draws #fanart #i locked in on editing finally and fkn spent the entire day doing it #my LEG hurts #but at least its done #i hope u enjoy. its not quite what i may have lead people to believe #but if you can get past the OC thing i would really like u to read it. i worked hard.#especially if you liked my drawings of these goobers before #ive been working on this since mid-april which honestly. this. is a funny milestone #longest ive worked on a fic (ACTUALLY WORKED not just let it collect dust)#the only multichapter fic i ever finished (in 12 years on-off writing)#and the only one ive proofread went through and changed sm that i lost track of HOW MUCH ive done it #it is. a labor of love. and it still might not be that good. but i did my best salute #TTAC

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flammelikeshookdust · 8 months

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The face of a man who didn't expect his gf to be into that sort of things, but who's trying to keep an open mind.

#i wanted this to be silly but honestly i think that #1. his first reaction would probably be to assume that she's asking that only because the sight of the bare scar grosses her out too much #(definitely not projecting my own insecurities onto this guy again haha)#and 2. even if she managed to convince him she's legit into this and they'd give it a try he'd be too afraid to actually hurt her #to really enjoy the experience #maybe some part of him would also be afraid that he might actually like this #i could say more about the suject but let's just keep it at 'this probably wouldn't work out very well'#idk why i'm overthinking this this was supposed to be just a silly comic about my blorbos 😓#hookdust #my art #the pirate fairy #zarina #james hook #captain hook

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naranjapetrificada · 9 months

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Random OFMD fan: *is sad about OFMD getting canceled, ends their subscription to Max and signs a petition that takes less than 20 seconds to sign*

Tumblr rando: "where was this energy for Palestine? why aren't you boycotting McDonald's? why do you care more about woobified slavers???

Same OFMD fan: *hasn't been to McDonald's in over a decade; has the capacity to care about more than one thing*

#you should honestly be expecting people to summon more energy than that for actual politics #also anyone who uses the slavery argument should make sure they're not using it against fans who literally are slave-descended #*raises hand*#I can literally drive to botanical garden in Virginia that my enslaved ancestors worked on but okau #tell me more about how I apparently shouldn't enjoy a show giving its non-white cast the kind of space they have #or how I apparently need to double boycott a company I already don't give money to #because I had the audacity to stop giving money to another one #ofmd #our flag means death

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mossy-paws · 4 months

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Art dump (PHIGHTING)

Starting strong with this. Thing that a friend requested I saw, do I have regrets? No. Will it forever haunt me because apparently she has a shrine that she will not tell me about? Yes (ROSA I SWEAR TO GOD PLEAAAAaaaaSE WHAT IS THE SHRINE)

ANNND these things! These were style experience at and I honestly had a lot of fun with them LMAO, I was wanting to play with a more anime/manga-esc art style and it was pretty much so win :3

There’s also sword, this may or may not be a draft for mermaid au sword idk just maybe

(It was for a Twitter thing by the way! Just a small simple doodle I did for fun)

#Honestly had a lot of fun with the style experiment bits #I think Grav is kind of my least favorite but she still looks nice so it works!#Rendering hair in that style is SOOOOOOOO tedious but I definitely like the result :3 #I’ve been a little meh on what to draw lately so I’ve kind of just been doodling up random things just for fun #The medkit thing is from a few weeks ago by the way! I just forgot to post it until now #I find it funny how I used to avoid drawing Phighters with ears completely and now here I am drawing all of them with silly little ears #Teehee #anywahs enjoy this #I’m going back into my hole in the everglades #For once I’m not actually posting something at 2am #art #artists on tumblr #phighting!#phighting fanart #phighting #roblox phighting #phighting roblox #phighting art #digital art #roblox #roblox fanart #roblox art #roblox game #fan art #pixel art #artist #my art #illustration #artwork #art process

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jazzzzzzhands · 1 year

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If I must suffer during Inktober, then so must Wally 😔

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kacievvbbbb · 26 days

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Truly from the depths of my struggling heart. Viva La Vida by Coldplay belongs to one Toshinori Yagi aka the one and only All Might.

Coldplay should just sign over the rights of the song at this point promptly too.

#the song just works on so many levels #cause yeah there’s the grander theme off glory days gone past #but there’s another layer of was; I really effective or good if the minute I left everything that I had built crumbled around me #because Toshinori was the symbol of peace but any peace that can’t survive without one man isn’t true peace at all #it’s a stalemate #hero society #should never have been so easy to collapse without all might #and honestly even though it was never really fully explored that was always a layer of the story I enjoyed #the ways in which a complete dominance in a field especially one as important as heroing can hurt just as much as it can help.#because if yagi had actually let people stand beside him if he hadn’t helped to create a space where other heroes could grow complacent #because all night was there. hero society would never have collapsed so easily without him.#it’s touched on but not a lot not dope if icalry about all nights dominance #it’s why I feel like if you watched the show and your geniune conclusion was that Deku should have become the new symbol of peace #then I just think we didn’t watch the same show #And don't get me wrong I'm not saying that yagi was wrong for saving people or using his powers to the max but it was touched on repeatedly #this kind of deep fear/belief that he had. That only he could save these people and if something happened to them it was on him.#Like every case could only be solved by him and it wasnt a pride thing if anything it was a trauma response same with Izuku #the tags for this got so long i swear i don't mean to do this😭#the symbolism #symbol of peace #all might #yagi toshinori #mha toshinori #mha #bnha #boku no hero acedamia #my hero acedamia #mha analysis #music #coldplay

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solei-eclipse · 25 days

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okay. hello guys. my bad for not responding to stuff or being as active recently, had a lot of work to be done and other stuff to focus on that took a lot of my time. I wanted to make more art, but I unfortunately had to put that energy into other things (which got to the point where I could not put them off any longer and had to stay working on it). I know I missed a lot of stuff and I'm sorry for it

#unfortunately there are moments where i am forced back into reality #and i remember that i cannot actually spend my life creating and hiding away forever!!! crazy #honestly a lot of it has also been the fact that i am just tired everytime i get home #and my health issues that have been steadily building up #they're really catching up on me and ive been having to visit the clinic more than im happy with #theres just a constant sense of fatigue nowadays #also uh #admittedly my interesting in Alien Stage has been waning #not replaced by any other media in particular. just started focusing on irl life stuff more often #which is why i barely post on shakingparadigm anymore/dont really post anything of substance #its really mostly this alnst oc thing that makes me want to stay because i genuinely enjoy and adore what we've created here #im pretty invested in this even though im not as invested in the source material anymore #not to say i dont like alnst anymore! i still do. i just don't dedicate all my attention to it anymore #which is for the best actually. because admittedly the things and time i have sacrificed for alnst did create a few consequences #sometimes i forget how bad a hyperfixation can fuck me up #again I'm really sorry for everything I've missed #and for being late to apris birthday #and the solauri round #and more #amazing stuff that you guys have made #me bones just dont work like they used to i fear. please give me time #im.sorry again #sorry this post might seem kind of depressing #just dont mind it if you want #thanks for your time #misc #rant #(?)#vent

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