#and i think it's the meds fault

[nexus-nebulae]

do my sleep meds make my fucking time blindness worse

[moonkhao]

hi.

[utilitycaster]

I genuinely believe the fact that so many popular Imogen/Laudna fics are no-powers AU is, if not the main cause, at least a factor in why so many people resist or even are hostile towards any interpretation of Imogen that isn't largely sweet and harmless. Like, write the fic you want, but Imogen in particular is someone so fundamentally shaped by her powers that to write a no powers AU is to write what is essentially a completely original character who happens to share her name.

I think it's made even more obviously a factor because many of those fics try to reconstruct aspects of Imogen's personality by giving her anxiety or agoraphobia (or both) but the problem is that those are purely mental illnesses, rather than something that both gives her powers and penalties (again, the X-Men problem). Some real-world mental illnesses cover the symptoms of Imogen's abilities, but none cover the abilities themselves. It's quite literally a removal of agency: they take away what she can (and frequently does) do with her powers, leaving only the negative effects on her behind while eliminating the negative effects she can have on others. No wonder there's this overwhelming push to woobify her from that corner; they've utterly defanged her and are now crying that other people who can still see her fangs (and even like them) are talking about them.

And the thing is, for all I can be negative about fanon, it is, ultimately, fine - so long one can either keep it separate in one's mind from canon or else remain in a particular fanon sandbox. But unfortunately people leave the sandbox, and when other people respond to the canon Imogen, who as of episode 81 (RIP CRStats) has voluntarily used Detect Thoughts/Open Mind 60 times and has openly stated her intent to use it specifically to know what her party members are doing in advance and theoretically prevent it, the fanfic crowd is utterly unable to react to this intelligently. The idea of Imogen they have is sweet girl with severe anxiety and a goth girlfriend. The problem is this construct exists only in their favorite fanfic writers' domestic fluff modern AU no powers setting. And frankly, I'm not interested in talking about that warped mirror version of her when I could have all the fascination, complexity, glory, and agency of the real thing.

[sweetfirebird]

I know I love old movies and all... but I really cannot describe to you... how much I do not care about Judy Garland. There. I said it. She's fine. She worked hard. She was probably nice in person because other actors seem like pretty devoted friends to her. Meet Me in St Louis is ok. Angela Lansbury stole Harvey Girls. Any child actress probably could have done Wizard of Oz all right. In the Good Old Summertime was adequate (but Shop Around the Corner is better). She's fine. I know she has been decreed an icon and I'm not taking that away from anyone. I just don't get it.

That said, her Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas *is* somehow the saddest Christmas song of all time.

[baconcolacan]

DAWG I JUST CLOCKED OUT FROM WORK AND MY TUMBLR IS STILL GLITCHED BROOOO

[local-limebug]

most people try to live their lives in a god honouring way. i am trying to live it in a spock honouring way (and still failing but it's the thought that counts right)

[llatimeria]

just doing some thinking about the adderall shortage

[papika]

i know i have mentioned the adderall shortage before, but i just gotta say—

i know the adderall shortage is really hard and really frustrating, but please, don't be rude to anyone working in the pharmacies. it's not their fault, and i'm absolutely sure they're frustrated too. (i sure as hell fucking would be.)

[mamawasatesttube]

every day people are wrong about kon on the internet. and i am being SO brave about it

[leafpool-loves-ashfur]

my favorite thing about my Generations ocs is when i start mapping things out and suddenly Poppystar has gone from Bitch-ass Leader who is Mean to the Protagonist for No Reason into Oh My God Give This Woman a Break, Moonpool Christ.

literally all in the span of 3 moons she: has an apprentice, is made deputy, becomes pregnant, goes on a quest to save her dumbass leader while pregnant, leader decides to RETIRE and she becomes leader, GIVES BIRTH, decides "fuck this" and makes her apprentice into a warrior despite him not having finished his apprenticeship

like YEAH no WONDER she's a Bitch(tm), she literally had to train an apprentice WHILE pregnant WHILE being a new leader WHILE the dumbass Main Protagonist pisses StarClan the FUCK off and suddenly its HER problem and she DOESN'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS

AND she had a bad mom

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[miketownsends]

it’s early still and we already know i don’t know ball from the last time i declared i was feeling good about the team and it seemed like they’d turned a corner only to have them turn around and nearly get swept by the Tigers (and then actually get swept by them a week later)

but the Dan Wilson team feels a little different?

it’s an insignificantly small sample size so far obviously (you cannot discern patterns from 4 games in a 162 game season). they’re still not scoring a TON of runs overall. but it feels kind of like they’re gritting out runs in a way they weren’t doing before? feels like they’re stealing a lot more, at the very least. which, if you’re struggling to score runs, makes sense - obviously it doesn’t help with the strikeouts, but if you can get yourself in position to score on a single or a sac fly, you can take better advantage of the hits when they happen. (had a moment of wondering if maybe they were trying to mess with expectations by stealing more often but we ARE 10th overall as a team this year for stolen bases. there’s a bigger gap between the #1 team and us vs. us and the #30 team, but the average overall for the league is 98 SB and we’re at 107.) (honestly what i’m REALLY curious about is Cal going for a bunt last night. it wasn’t even a sac bunt situation! there was no one on base! what was up with that. you’re fast but idk if you’re THAT fast. anyway.)

maybe they’re just getting luckier and chaos ball is breaking their way a little more (that 3-run HR does not happen without a fielding error and a weird little dribbler that hits the bag instead of going foul). maybe they’ve just decided they’ve got nothing to lose and they’re not going to get the division lead back by playing it safe. maybe Dan is actually making different game decisions than Scott would’ve made and they’re making the difference. or maybe this is all just a fluke and they are simply winning games lately thanks to the whims of god and as soon as they have lost divine favor they will go back to losing! who knows.

at the very least, they feel a little more fun to watch, and that’s gotta count for something right? (especially for me, who has been and will continue to be at every game this homestand and cannot just turn off the tv if the games get miserable lmao)

[dylanlila]

can't stop thinking about what arden said about lila and how she is trapped externally and then i realized how the change of environment was the only thing it took for me to be happy

[barley-st-band]

hey does anyone know how we’re supposed to survive it all. asking for a friend

[peri]

i feel like crying and idk why. im just sitting here scrolling tumblr. listening to music. its quiet in the house, most of everyone's still asleep. its peaceful. but i feel like im spiraling.

[vomitcoveredhands]

Sometimes I think I don’t rly have adhd till I realize that I physically cannot carry on with something until a tiny but somehow very important thought gets explored then leaves my brain. I couldn’t remember the lyrics of one of my favorite songs? Drop everything and find that shit out. Like rn I’m watching a criminal minds episode in the middle of cleaning just bc I found out an actor I kinda like is in it