#and if you message my inbox about it I’m blocking and deleting whatever you have to say

[hawkzeyes]

I’m gonna be so honest if you reblog my Steve Rogers comic book stuff and put stucky content and imply they have a romantic relationship… I’m uncomfy. The comic book relationship is much different from the MCU… so do whatever you want with MCU stuff because it’s a dif universe or whatever and I don’t look at it, but Steve met Bucky as a CHILD in the comics. He was his mentor and his father figure. I will block you and that’s all I’ll be saying about that.

[sporesgalaxy]

Not mad saying this or anything and feel free to ignore me I don’t control you but I just wanted to say as someone who has actually seen Oppenheimer (and trust me it’s a long movie with a heavy subject and a lot of loud noise so it’s not for everyone and I’m not gonna say everyone has to see it) and Barbie I wanted to say Oppenheimer really isn’t military propaganda it is very much about the indifference of the government and military towards death in pursuit of power and the evils of atomic weaponry. Minor spoilers but the movie just straight up ends with saying the invention of the bomb destroyed the world (while showing warheads and military weapons) it’s very much a film that paints the government and war and invention of the bombs in an extremely negative light and of course being about a man who actually existed it isn’t perfectly accurate to how he may have felt but I do think its worthwhile to watch if you can handle the subject matter and a long movie like that because I felt like it was the first movie about a war in a long time that actually doesn’t glorify any of it. Sorry for long ask I’m passionate about film and I feel like people are forming these opinions without any real knowledge of the actual film itself while just deciding since it’s about war it’s bad. It isn’t for everyone and I would never say you HAVE to see it because like I said it’s a heavy subject but it IS a film I actually recommend for those who can handle it.

Also yeah the Barbie movie is definitely gonna sell a lot of dolls Mattel wouldn’t ok it otherwise but by itself it is very worth watching and really a beautiful film about existing as a woman and the intentions behind Barbie vs what she became and a bunch of other important and beautiful things.

Sorry to write an essay in your inbox like I said I’m very passionate about film and I kind of just wanted to like. Share that Oppenheimer is in fact not pro military or war and if someone watches it and thinks it was in favor of any of the events depicted I don’t think they really understood the film or even paid attention to it because it was pretty on the nose about how bad stuff was.

Again feel free to delete or ignore or whatever you do. you don’t have to publish this or do anything other than I hope read it. And again I’m not mad or vindictive towards you I just have strong feelings about movies.

Ah, I knew I was being reductive in those tags calling them "both propaganda" but I had just woken up and considered it close enough. Apologies all the same.

Interesting to know that the film apparently isn't pro-war! I am much more interested in watching it for myself knowing that, although I'll admit my curiosity is not entirely in good faith. I'm interested in the history of WW2 and the Cold War and there are a lot of easy stumbling blocks and common points of oversimplification and misrepresentation, even for anti-war media. I'm curious to know how much nuance the film really manages to take into consideration in this regard.

I have heard from critics of Oppenheimer who did watch the film that it made no mention of the Navajo people who were radiation-poisoned for generations because of the nuclear testing in New Mexico. I think even if the film is anti-war and anti-weaponry, this oversight was a mistake that wastes compelling support for the anti-war argument, and undercuts itself in doing so.

I apologize again for misrepresenting what I expect from the Barbie movie. Interviews with the director and advertisements have made it clear that the movie aims to have a feminist message, which from what I have seen will probably be a strong and philosophically sound argument.

Still, there's a counterargument to be made that this ultimately serves as another example of a brand capitalizing on values-based marketing (i.e. the Gilette razor ad ["short film"] about toxic masculinity bring uncool). I think that addressing it that way is more than a little reductive, but I genuinely assumed that this was the reasoning behind pairing Barbie and Oppenheimer in memes (besides their clear tonal juxtaposition and shared opening day).

[heartlesscorpse]

Dead’s Masterlist & Rules

๋࣭ ⭑💿♱⋆｡°✩🎧✧˖°₊ ⊹

Greetings humans, I have decided to make use of my ask box and take in requests for writing stuff! (Specifically surrounding my fixations with slashers ofc, however this blog will still be personal and I will deviate to posting my own things), and with this new thing in mind, this also comes with rules and a masterlist. So let’s mull over the more important details shall we? — 👁️‍🗨️

Rules. ★!¡

General —

Please do not spam or harass me if I have finished your request! I can get overwhelmed and I will delete your request and post.

I can be pretty slow with writing requests due to school work and irl things so please bear with me. (¯ . ¯٥)

I won’t answer to any repeated requests that have already been done before.

If I am uncomfortable with the request I will delete it from my inbox. (This also goes for lack of motivation to write, but there’s the high possibility I will keep them for the future!)

Don’t have anything nice to say to me? Then stfu, keep it to yourself. Though I am open to whatever constructive criticism you want to give me or any silly jokes for roasts, light teasing, I’m all for that but insults is where I draw the line.

So far I’m only finding comfort to writing for the slashers I’ve stated in my masterlist but more will be posted soon in the future if I find more. :)

Don’t forget to state the type of writing at the bottom along with the requested character you’d like me to write for you.

I try to be inclusive and keep all my works to gn!reader but if there’s any masc/fem traits mentioned on accident please lmk. Though, I may write for male!reader if requested, unfortunately I can’t write fem!reader as it’s not my forte.

Minors or ageless accs dni, I’m only comfortable with those 17+ but you are more than welcome to read my posts. But please don’t try to contact me.

This has been listed in my carrd but I will mention this again: if you are a pro-shipper, anti-shipper, racist/sexist, a homophobe or transphobe, shouta/loli supporter, dream stan, or a gacha kid, etc…. Please don’t interact with me. I will block you.

Hate accs or hate asks will be deleted, reported, and immediately blocked.

I don’t bite, feel free to ask anything in my inbox!

Close moots are more than welcome to message me if they want my discord and/or throw in a request of their own if my inbox is closed. :)

Please don’t repost, translate, or steal my writing. If you happen to see my work on someone else’s page or a different platform, don’t hesitate at all to shoot me a message or ask and I will say whether or not it’s me.

With the general rules laid out, we can now move onto my comfort zones in writing. So let’s get that tossed out. :))

•ᴗ• Will Write:

Bite-sized fics, mini fics, concepts, and head canons

Platonic/romantic relationships

Sfw and nsfw

Angst

Hurt/comfort

Fluff

Other fanfic tropes….

•ᴖ• Won’t Write:

Oc and canon interactions, rape, pedophilia, incest, suicide, pregnancy, weird/creepy fanfic tropes, domestic violence, abuse, etc, etc….

Masterlist. ★!¡

Pyramid Head! ✮⋆˙

Pyramid Head thoughts 1/2/3

Eat You Alive

Sleepy Cuddles w/ Pyramid Head

Ghostface! ✮⋆˙

GHOSTFACE!

Ghostface HCs

You Will Always Be Mine.

Jason Voorhees! ✮⋆˙

JASON VOORHEES

Michael Myers! ✮⋆˙

Requests: Open!

Carrd. // AO3. // About Me. // Masterlist 2. (TBA)

❝ִ ࣪𖤐✞

[heartnagi]

WELCOME TO MY PINK-FILLED ROOM WHERE I TELL YOU EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW BEFORE YOU SETTLE IN MY HOME <3

do read everything till the end! it's very important! i hope you enjoy your stay here. remember to read my FAQ as well!

BYF

do not interact if u fit basic dni criteria, thinspo, biphobic, fatphobic, anti-aging up, terf, character purist.

don’t follow me if you don’t reblog, don’t interact, if you spam like, and have no age/age indicator on your blog. i do not need people like these on my blog.

i like she/they pronouns, he/him are fine as well. masculine and feminine terms are fine with me. tone indicators are helpful for me ! but it is not required, using them is appreciated!

do not call me bitch, slut, etc. if we are not close. also, this blog is not spoiler free, however i will always tag as such.

do not ask me to be mutuals it’ll be so forced and awkward. let me follow you on my own. as for breaking the mutual, please hard block to avoid unnecessary confusion + potential unwanted interactions. no hard feelings.

i block a lot of people mostly because they fit the dni or they’ve made me uncomfortable. i would prefer if you don’t ask me why i’ve blocked you. unless there is an issue or you think i’ve made a mistake please politely tell me.

do not involve me in discourse. asks about discourse or anything rude i will not entertain. do not send me asks about rape, eating disorders, religion, politics, suicide, etc.

if your ask made me uncomfortable i’m deleting. please do not spam my inbox. if i have not answered your asks within a few days, politely let me know. however if i still don’t respond, i have deleted it because i do not want it on my blog. i only allow people i follow to send me messages. if you need to talk to me privately (with context please) about something then send me an ask off anon and i will message you as soon as i can.

but fr i do not bite please send me anything to your hearts content!!! be unhinged n horny and sweet whatever! <3 i just do not like mean people >:( i do not kinkshame and i love it when people talk about their selfships! (and thirsts) <333

ON PLAGIARISM & CONTENT SHARING

reposting, translating, plagiarism, and copying on writings, layouts, & themes are prohibited i also do not allow my writings to be shared or recommended outside tumblr (e.g tiktok, wattpad).

if you have seen someone that has plagiarised my work then quickly send me an ask to my inbox. let me know as well if you would like to dm so i can message you. i would like to deal with these matters myself and keep it private at most!

WRITING

multi-fandom blog : genshin impact, blue lock, obey me, twisted wonderland, jjk, hq, mha, tokyorev & anyone i’m in the mood for tbh — these are just to help you if you’d like to send some thirsts!

i write sfw, nsfw, and dc. but this is predominantly an 18+ blog. people 16+ are allowed to read my sfw works but are not allowed to follow me or you will be blocked.

i accept suggestions and thirsts! but i do not do requests unless i hold an event! do not send me requests as i will delete them. my writing speed is dependent on my motivation. please be patient with me and do not pressure me to finish anything. please send some suggestions & thirsts ! >:

“x reader” content only, fem reader, occasionally gn/afab, sub/dom/switch readers and characters. i do not like to describe my readers too much as i want my blog to be enjoyed by everyone! thus, specific features and descriptions will not be written.

i age up characters to 20+, if you’re not cool with that then leave. they’re lines on paper and actual pixels they do not care. if you cannot distinguish fiction from reality stay away from me.

i write sfw, nsfw, and dark content. anyone 16+ can read my sfw works but please do not follow me. as this space is only for individuals that are 18+.

this blog is dark content friendly, and creates explicit & dark content such as: heavy kinks, breeding, pseudo-cest, stepcest, age gap (legal) cnc, ntr/cheating, etc.

writing no-no’s are: mommy/daddy kink, hard noncon, food play, scat/vomit/piss, incels/femcels, incest, feet kinks, cannibalism, necrophilia, pregnancy (reader being pregnant), suicide, pedophilia, beastiality, raceplay, a/b/o, ddlg.

if you are not sure, then don’t be afraid to ask! and please be respectful as always. know when to respect boundaries as well.

like this post so i know you’ve read all of this. please like my pinned as well, it’s cute ^V^

thank you for reading all my rules! now for your reward, i’ll give you this chocolate chip cookie and a little smooch!

[tennant]

How do you deal with people online who don’t like you, mock you, talk shit, hate your gifs, make accusations, etc? When you reblog/make fandom content, engage with LGBT+ content or adult content, etc., people have STRONG opinions and project those onto others. For example, there’s a popular meme going around dragging a text post I once made years ago. Even now, it’s a reference some people recognise, and every time I see it reblogged, I think about thousands of people laughing at me. Being on this site and engaging with “problematic” content — like most TV shows, celebrities, corn, and so on inevitably are — often feels like you’re just opening yourself up to be a target of other people’s standards and expectations. It’s hard. You’re someone with a decent amount of followers who engages in lots of different content backed by passionate people. How do you feel? Have you been trolled, received horrible anons, etc.? How do you handle it? Is it just easy to delete and brush off? I’m feeling kinda down these days about it all, so I wanted to get your perspective on…just surviving online, I guees (even more so if you’re sensitive).

hey! i'd like to apologise if it took me long to answer your message.

ugh i'm sorry that you have to deal with those bastards! people who likes trolling and bullying people online need to go outside, touch some grass, breath some fresh air, instead of sitting down scrolling through the internet (especially this hellsite), and taking the joy out of other people who wants to enjoy their fandom. the internet isn't healthy.

i think everyone deals with online bullying differently because everyone have different personality? in my case i found there are people who accused me things that i've never done, i was like "i don't even know y'all, all i do here is to dump my gifs, reblog stuff and leave." there's people who used to gaslight my inbox but then i blocked them, now my dash is more peaceful than before.

so at the end of the day, all i do is block those annoying people, hide annoying tags whenever they reblog my posts, filter them out, and post whatever that makes me happy and joyous (but with few considerations like "oh i wonder if this post gonna annoy some ppl? maybe i won't post it").

i hope you have a lovely day. sending u warm hugs <3

[sacrificialblackdragon]

Hello everyone and thank you for following and / or lurking !   I am REKI, I am a 29 year old female, with two jobs and three cats, who has been roleplaying for a few years. This is an INDEPENDENT & SELECTIVE blog and is meant for a 21+ AUDIENCE. TRIGGER THEMES ARE PRESENT AND WILL BE TAGGED !   I used to have a Hak blog but have long since forgotten the URL. ; A; My best friend actually got me into the series and I collect the manga. Sadly, I am missing a few of the beginning volumes. Please hit that like, follow or reblog button if you would like to interact with Hak!! Rules Below:

RULES, LAWS, IMPORTANT STUFFS.FIRST AND FORMOST! I love ALL pairings. I will not tolerate any hatred towards any character.

1) These rules are subject to change.

2) There will be no hate messages on this blog. Meaning if I get sent a hate message it will just get deleted. I will not waste my time brooding over your message so you are just wasting your time typing it up.

3) No god modding. Understandably my characters can’t win EVERY single battle and will not win everything. I usually like taking a few and then your character takes a few. I will always, ALWAYS, come to you and ask how the end of the fight will turn out that way I can write accordingly.

4) Writing. I don’t expect a novel back if I write a novel, and sometimes I do. However, I do expect something to work with, please do not respond back to me if I leave you with a detailed post only for you to give me a one liner, it just kills the mood. – In addition! If you would like to respond to an ask please link the ask on a fresh new post, and tag me just in case, that way it looks more appealing. I do that with other roleplayers. C:

5) Original Characters. I love original characters, I personally suck at writing and developing them so for all of you original characters out there I applaud you. However, please don’t use me to come up for ideas of your original character, that’s not my job. If you like for a starter please understand that I will be staring at your character about page for a long, long, long time. It’s a little difficult for me to write for an original character so please be patient!

6) Ships. Here we go … This is a huge one for a lot of people. I am a Multi-shipper or trash – I’ll accept either lol. You are free to jump in my inbox or IM me and be like “Hey baby. You and my muse * suggestive eyebrow wiggle*”. I will most likely be like “FUCK YES LETS GO!” and bam! We ship. But here is my problem with most people: I have a lot of ships that I absolutely adore however, if you don’t like the ship me and my roleplay partner are doing you can either unfollow or shut the fuck up and ignore it, black list it – whatever. I’m saying that in the nicest way possible. I’m tired of people complaining that they “Hate this ship but I saw it and read it so now I’ll bitch on my blog about it.” Calm down, grow up and again, unfollow that person or ignore the post. Plain and simple or else you’ll probably be hearing about it from me. I have been in too many fandoms where this goes on.

7) Exclusives/Relationships. I am a-ok and more than happy to exclusively ship when it comes to main ideas and plot, but please remember that I am only one person and I do like interacting with other people. Exclusives doesn’t mean you own me in anyway. Exclusives to me normally mean that you are a close friend and most likely already have my discord. The more was talk IC or OOC the more likely I will pick you as an exclusive for main plots.

8) Reblogging when you have no permission. During my time of roleplaying on many sites tumblr is probably the worst for this rule. Anyone who reblogs threads, asks or any other communication between my partners that they are not tagged in will be kindly asked to delete the post. If not deleted within 24 hours you will be blocked from my page and I will not remove it.

9) Nsfw. Is only available for people who are of age and adults. I am 29 and I do not take light of being tricked when it comes to age. I will be asking your age if it is not in your mun section or anywhere visible, I will not be held liable if you are lying to me. You MUST be of legal age, please ask if you are interested in rping nsfw.

10) Personal Tags & Passwords. I don’t do personal tags or passwords. Final answer, if you follow me then it means you understand that I will NOT be tagging any personal tags.

11) Triggers. I don’t expect people to tag my trigger mainly because it only happens around Halloween time. I understand people are in the spirit but I absolutely hate seeing scary things pop out at me. It leads me to paranoia and I just can’t sleep at night. Anything paranormal I can’t handle, which is why I can’t watch scary movies. If I do see this on my dash it does lead to an unfollow, but not a block.

12) Icons. These icons have been created by me, but I do not claim that the art is mine. Anything from the managa or fanart I do not claim to be mine.

13) Other. Other than all of this “Don’t do this, and don’t do that” I really just want to have fun with each and every one of you. Thank you so much for either reading or skimming over my rules.

[sallysetoncore]

open letter to @spn-newsletter​,

i want you to fucking ban me. this is me trying to get banned. you don’t like creators who spread hate? i fucking hate wincest. i fucking hate hate hate hate hate hate hate wincest. not enough? i hate rpf. i think it’s fucking weird.

“stevie, you’re being rude, why don’t you just say no?” well, funny, you should say that, because i already did:

i said no. i was cordial. i was told i was put on your DNI list.

twice, i was promised this. (i dmed the twitter account before i saw that i had a response on my ao3 comment, which is the above screenshot).

and that was on 'dear brother’, a fic that i am pouring my fucking heart into by updating almost DAILY about two brothers. and you made sure it was going directly to people who have clicked a box that says “yes, i want wincest fic directly in my inbox”.

but i thought it was all over.

then, for my 20th birthday, june 4th, i write a little  fic of dean sitting in a motel room. that’s the whole fic. literally nothing happens for 1,400 words. he just sits there. and it’s deeply personal and i wrote down that it was personal:

besides, i thought i was on a DNI list. and then:

and i didn’t see this comment until 1am my time on the night of the 6th, because sometimes i do have a life, particularly on the weekend of my  birthday, and i got a little angrier.

and ya know. i was scrolling today through comments and realized i never got a response on this like i did on the other.

but, that’s fine, right? because i’m on the DNI list?

well, here i am on the june 5th newsletter. #5,021

so this is my final call.

put me on a goddamn fucking DNI list and actually do not fucking interact with me. is this enough? have i broken your hate policy enough? am i a villain yet?

and i will not dignify “but you posted it on a public forum!!!” with a response because this is about human courtesy and doing what you said you would do. every time i open my email and see that instead of a comment about how much they loved my characterization or whatever, i have another message from y’all, my heart breaks a little.

i don’t care if you’re a “staple of this fandom” or whatever. i don’t want you on my fics.

do not interact with me.

period.

- Stevie / alan-j-corbett / gracelessbeliever on ao3

p.s. it says ‘account deleted’ so i can’t even block you if i wanted to (i want to)

[mydarling-suggestions]

I’m not sure of the scope of questions you answer but I need some help and I’m not sure who else I could turn to.

So I’m in a moderately popular fandom on this site and I’d say for about a year, I’ve been bullied by someone I had a nasty falling out with. They go on anon but I know it’s them based on the language and context used—they don’t seem to be too stealthy honestly. Anyway, I’m not sure what to do about it because I find myself getting paranoid whenever I get an ask or a message, because this person has managed to taint a lot of my relationships with people on here that I engage with. I’ve since been blocked, harassed, had death threats received and it’s all very overwhelming. Turning off anon only works for a short amount of time, but my blog is meant to be a safe space, so I don’t like to keep anon restricted all the time.

This fandom I’m in is wonderful in so many ways, but this has been such a sore spot for me, because I just want this person to go away and live their life, though sad it may very well be, and leave me alone. I’m not sure how to manage this mentally. I’ve found myself fighting quite a bit with the anons I get, and I think because of that, I’ve found my engagement with others disappearing. Idk, it’s been a mess. This person btw has caused someone to leave the fandom and the website because they were being harassed too, and all of the mutuals were sad about that, because they were lovely. I’ve tried reporting this user to Tumblr countless times, to no avail.

I don’t know what to do anymore. They are ruining this entire fandom, and they have quite a fierce following of people behind them, supporting them. If they only knew how ghastly this person acted towards me and continued to harass me…

*sigh* I’ve properly talked your ear off. Any help would be appreciated. If not, I understand.

Hi nonnie, gosh this situation sounds horrible I can’t imagine how draining it would be on you mentally and emotionally 😞

I haven’t checked the inbox here for a while so not sure when this was submitted, but this is really disappointing and immature behaviour from this individual. It seems you’ve tried a fair few things to try and combat their bullying already, and it sucks that your attempts to report this user has yielded no results.

There aren’t many other solutions I can think of except for two. My first suggestion is to make a post informing your followers that you’ll be inactive for a short period of time, however long you feel you need, for a mental health break. Hopefully by doing this you can improve your mental health and perhaps come to a solution in the meantime, or even better, this bully decides to move on. My second suggestion is rather drastic and likely not something you’d want to do, but I would suggest making a new tumblr where you can engage with everyone in the fandom that you’re currently engaging with, although under the guise of someone else so you wont be targeted by this bully anymore.

My main hope however, would be that this bully moves on eventually, but preferably soon. I would also add that this is entirely a reflection on them and not you, and try to not take anything they say to heart. Nasty people like them normally know exactly what to say to hurt people and their words can cut deep I know, but don’t believe whatever they may be telling you or calling you. I know this is all far easier said than done, but if you notice you get another nasty anon message from this person, delete it as soon as you realise what it is, please don’t go on to read the whole thing, you don’t deserve to be tormented by this person.

I would also highly recommend talking to a friend about this if you haven’t already, even if you just vent it should do you some good to have someone to talk to and receive support from. Perhaps a friend of yours might even have a solution to all this, and even if they don’t they can keep you happy and distracted! And finally, speaking of distractions, stay as distracted as possible! If worse comes to worst and theres no way for you to really avoid the bullying, spend time with friends and do the things that make you happy and try your best to not dwell on the actions and words of this person.

Keep reporting them to tumblr in the meantime and hopefully something finally gets done about them because bullying should never be tolerated, anon or not. I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this nonnie and I really really hope that the bullying stops or is dealt with 💛 And you can always come for a visit to all of us here because this is a safe space and there’s plenty of love and support for you here 💛💛

[mistresspandora-archive]

Tossing Trolls Back Under the Bridge (Comprehensive Information about Blocking Options on Tumblr and Reporting Harassment on AO3)

Since Tumblr clearly doesn't take hate speech and harassment seriously, I thought I would put together what I know about blocking users even when they send their harassment through anon asks.

Since internet trolls are generally histrionic annoyances that thrive on attention, the best thing in my experience is for the entire fandom to close ranks and slam the door in their face. (I’m also a fan of getting the last word, so I tend to lead with expletives and THEN block to my heart’s content). This isn't me expecting anything of anyone of course, just a possible strategy for when this happens again. Always take care of yourselves and do what is best for YOU ❤.

All of this is based on my experience as a user, I’m not actually affiliated with either tumblr or AO3.

First of all, block judiciously and without remorse. You can do that from mobile or desktop by going to the user's blog, clicking the little person icon:

And then clicking Block.

Click report too if you need to report harassment or hate speech or something. Blocking will prevent this user from interacting with you while they are logged in under this account.

It looks like they can still interact with your posts via side blogs (or via the main blog if you haven’t slapped that one), so in cases like our sock puppeting pain in the ass, you'll have to play whack-a-troll for a while. (Why yes I did just link to a list of the sock puppets that Tumblr refused to take action on.)

But even when you block them, they can log out and send you anonymous asks (unless you have that feature turned off). Personally, I think we shouldn't have to turn off anon to avoid death threats and homophobic slurs (are you listening yet @staff ???) But that’s just me.

So what about these nasty anonymous asks? Well, when you go to report them, Tumblr gives you a total runaround, don’t actually let you report the message, and then they send you an automated email that basically says, "aw too bad we can't do anything about it." Don't waste your time, @staff have proven they don't care about anonymous hate speech and death threats.

But! You CAN block the IP address! First of all, do NOT answer the ask. Because then you give the troll attention and more importantly lose your chance to block them.

From your inbox, click the three dots, then click block. Yes, you will probably get an error message. For whatever reason, it takes a few minutes for the block to go through. Then the message will disappear.

The catch is, if you block the IP address via anonymous asks, the troll can still interact with you when they're signed in (unless you have also blocked their account).

The final point: the troll can still get to your posts via other people's reblogs, unless that other person has also blocked the troll. You'll see that there are notes, but Tumblr will hide the specific activity from you.

AO3 is another story. 

You can't block users. You can delete comments and freeze threads. Or you can disable comments or turn on moderation (again, I personally don’t think we should have to do that). You can reply to the comment with whatever you like. As long as you include a clear statement not to comment on your work, if the same person continues to comment on your work, it constitutes harassment per the AO3 terms of service. Ergo, it is reportable and they can take action.

AO3, in my experience, is very responsive. Small but mighty, that's them. Please do not spam the abuse team (see the last sentence re: small). This is a comprehensive post I made last year about reporting abuse/harassment on AO3. 

I know the troll did some squawking on Twitter too. But I don’t use Twitter, I hate Twitter, I refuse to sign up for Twitter. Feel free to reblog with your relevant knowledge for other platforms as well. 

My inbox is still open if you’re feeling isolated. 

Always be generous with your love 💖

[parrrty-animal]

🎃Request Rules

🍕Requesting Etiquette:

First and foremost, be polite. When you request something from me. It’s just that, a request. It isn’t a paid commission or a demand. Don't blow up my DMs or inbox because I didn’t take your request.

Going off of that, don’t try arguing with me over my rules. You typing out an entire essay won’t make me rewrite them.

Do not vent to me in either inbox or DMs.

Do not use pet names for me, unless you are a mutual, I don’t know you.

Don’t push your weird ass kinks on me, you’ll just get blocked. Also, don’t try to sneak your kinks into a request, I can tell.

Feel free to ask questions or just chat about anything in my inbox, I’m always happy to talk. Just please be respectful of my time and don’t think I’m ignoring you on purpose if I don’t answer you immediately. My memory is unbelievably bad.

When requesting, please put as much detail as you can into the request, The chances of me getting inspired and motivated to write for it will be increased if you do.

Send request through my inbox, please! It’s easier for me to have them all in one place. [+ tumblr loves to not send me notifications when I get messaged through the replies.]

If you need to send a series of questions before your request, do it in my DMs. It’s easier for me and it won’t clog my page for other readers.

If I don’t accept a request, for whatever reason, I’ll make a notice of it so you can resend it to someone else. If I don’t make a notice of it, I either didn’t get your request or it made me uncomfortable and I deleted it.

If you want to make sure I got your request, feel free to ask.

That’s pretty much it, thank you for requesting!

🍕I Will Not Write:

NSFW

Female / Fem-Aligned Readers [If you request this anyway, you’re getting blocked.]

“Motherly” Readers

Body Type Specific Readers

Race / Nationality Specific Readers

Disabled Readers

Mentally Ill Readers

Religious Readers

Yandere Readers

Supernatural / Superhuman Readers [Only exception is ghost!reader, even then I’m not entirely sure.]

Readers Who Enjoy Having A Yandere

Human Versions of Animatronics

Pregnancy

Self Harm [Past or present.]

Suicide

Sexualized Gore / Goru [If you have a gore kink, unkindly fuck off.]

Heavy Dark Content [I’ll write this on my own terms.]

A/B/O

Agere

Soulmate AU

Song Fic

Comfort Fic

OCs

Genderbent Characters

Out Of Character Requests

Requests That Contradict Cannon

Requests That Romanticize Any Of The Characters Bad Actions

Requests That Are Insensitive / Bigoted

🍕I Will Write:

Character X Reader

Yandere Character X Reader

Human Readers

Animatronic Readers

Asexual Readers

Aromantic Readers

Trans Readers [This includes non-binary and gender nonconforming people.]  

Teen Readers [16-19 & platonic only.]

Angst

Fluff

Horror

Platonic Relationships

Familial Relationships

Romantic Relationships

Rival Relationships

Enemy Relationships

Queer Relationships

Requests Based Off A Specific Lore Event

No Afton’s AU

Paranormal Investigator AU

Sleepaway Camp AU

Gemini AU [Origin post.]

[Note: I will not be writing for possessed animatronics, except for Springtrap. All of the other animatronics will be based on their coded persona.]

🍕FNAF 1:

Freddy Fazbear

Chica Chicken

Bonnie Bunny

Foxy The Pirate

Carl The Cupcake [Platonic Only]

🍕FNAF 2:

Toy Freddy

Toy Chica

Toy Bonnie

Toy Foxy [Pre-Mangle]

The Mangle

The Marionette

Toy Carl The Cupcake [Platonic Only]

Balloon Boy [Platonic Only]

Withered Freddy Fazbear

Withered Chica Chicken

Withered Bonnie Bunny

Withered Foxy The Pirate

🍕FNAF 3:

Springtrap

🍕FNAF 4:

Nightmare Freddy

Nightmare Chica

Nightmare Bonnie

Nightmare Foxy

Nightmare Carl [Platonic Only]

Nightmare Balloon Boy [Platonic Only]

Nightmarionne

🍕FNAF Sister Location:

Circus Baby [Platonic Only]

Ballora

Funtime Freddy

Bon Bon [Platonic Only]

Funtime Foxy

Lolbit

🍕FNAF Pizzeria Simulator:

Rockstar Freddy

Rockstar Chica

Rockstar Bonnie

Rockstar Foxy

Orville Elephant

Happy Frog

Nedd Bear

Mr. Hippo

Pigpatch

🍕FNAF Help Wanted:

Mal-Hare / Glitchtrap

Dreadbear

Grim Foxy

🍕FNAF Special Delivery:

[Note: I’ll write for all of these characters alt skins]

Freddy Fazbear

Bonnie

Chica

Foxy

Toy Freddy

Toy Bonnie

Toy Chica

Mangle

Balloon Boy [Platonic Only]

Springtrap

Circus Baby [Platonic Only]

Ballora

Funtime Freddy

Bon Bon [Platonic Only]

🍕FNAF Security Breach:

Glamrock Freddy

Glamrock Chica

Montgomery Gator

Roxanne Wolf

Daycare Attendant

D.J. Music Man

🍕Human Characters:

William Afton

Michael Afton [Adult & Teen | Platonic Only For Teen Ver.]

Evan Afton [Platonic Only]

Elizabeth Afton [Platonic Only]

Henry Emily

Vanessa [Not Vanny]

Phone Guy

Phone Dude

Tape Girl

🍕Formats:

Imagines [Long fic, usually 1K+ words, 1-2 characters per request.]

Headcannons [Can vary in length and word count, usually on the longer side, 4 characters per request.]

[jamaisjoons]

hello whores 😍😍🤪🤪

HELLO ALL IT HAS BEEN A H O T MINUTE!!! Anyway this notice is to let you know that I will soon be coming back to tumblr!!! I’ve had the urge to write again recently after a while of not wanting to because I kinda burned out along with other stuff like health + home life + depression in general. I recently (yesterday) went to the aquarium and I just missed my man in intro her/lavender skies so much that I rly wanted to start writing it again isdiekdowkekr so hopefully by the coming weekend (no promises) I will have the first chapter up, so I hope u look forward to it!!

A few things about me coming back from my impromptu hiatus:

I have a LOT of asks in my inbox (800 or so last time I checked) and it’s honestly overwhelming. there’s honestly no plausible way I could answer everything in there and a lot of it is months old. Therefore, I’m gonna take some time to rift through my inbox and delete EVERYTHING. If I find something I want to answer I probably will but for the majority of it, I’m just gonna delete. I know this sucks and I do appreciate the time everyone spent sending me all the wonderful asks but I just want to be realistic. After I clear out my inbox, if you have sent me anything that I haven’t answered but you wanna send again, please feel free to!! Though I’m sure most of you have forgotten 𝘺𝘪𝘬𝘦𝘴 diendowkrkr

I also have a LOT of direct messages. Thank you to everyone who sent me something while I was gone. I promise I’m not ignoring you it’s just I have so much and I just wasn’t around. I’m gonna try my hardest to respond to you all as soon as possible but I also wanna be wary of how much time I give this app because honestly sometimes it feels like a chore/job. So please by patient with me I’m only one person running this blog 😭

Once I’m done clearing out my asks I will be turning on anon once again. I recently turned it off because. honestly. it’s exhausting arguing with white people over racism on the daily. especially when they don’t even have the balls to say it off anon. every time a matter of racism is brought up on here some white person wants to argue and I’m honestly done with it. I don’t care what your opinions are or if you disagree with anything I post or not. tbh you don’t even get to have an opinion or a voice on these matters but that’s another story. either way feel free to unfollow but I’m not gonna sit here and argue with you about what constitutes racism and how you personally feel victimised by a post created by a poc because you are ‘trying your hardest’ and ‘aren’t racist’ or how you ‘make positive changes’ or whatever the fuck you wanna say. anyone who wants to argue hence forth will just be blocked like I’m so tired of y’all I rly am.

once again pls don’t ask me about updates. it’ll come out when I feel like writing/updating. the only update you really need to know about right now is: I will be working on lavender skies whenever I can this week in hopes to get it up by next weekend hehe

[prof-zooms-lab]

|| REQUESTS...

🔴Requesting Etiquette:

First and foremost, be polite. When you request something from me. It’s just that, a request. It isn’t a paid commission or a demand. Don't blow up my DMs or inbox because I didn’t take your request.

Going off of that, don’t try arguing with me over my rules. You typing out an entire essay won’t make me rewrite them.

Do not use pet names for me, unless you are a mutual, I don’t know you.

Don’t push your weird ass kinks on me, you’ll just get blocked. Also, don’t try to sneak your kinks into a request, I can tell.

Feel free to ask questions or just chat about anything in my inbox, I’m always happy to talk. Just please be respectful of my time and don’t think I’m ignoring you on purpose if I don’t answer you immediately. My memory is unbelievably bad.

When requesting, please put as much detail as you can into the request, The chances of me getting inspired and motivated to write for it will be increased if you do.

Send request through my inbox, please! It’s easier for me to have them all in one place. [+ tumblr loves to not send me notifications when I get messaged through the replies.]

If you need to send a series of questions before your request, do it in my DMs. It’s easier for me and it won’t clog my page for other readers.

If I don’t accept a request, for whatever reason, I’ll make a notice of it so you can resend it to someone else. If I don’t make a notice of it, I either didn’t get your request or it made me uncomfortable and I deleted it.

If you want to make sure I got your request, feel free to ask.

That’s pretty much it, thank you for requesting!

🔴I Will Not Write:

NSFW [I’ll write it on my own time but not for a request.]

Female / Fem-Aligned Readers [If you request this anyway, you’re getting blocked.]

“Motherly” Readers

Poly Readers

Body Type Specific Readers

Race / Nationality Specific Readers

Disabled / Mentally Ill Readers

Religious Readers

Yandere Readers

Readers Who Enjoy Having A Yandere

Pregnancy

Self Harm [Past or present.]

Suicide

Sexualized Gore / Goru

Heavy Dark Content [I’ll write this on my own terms.]

A/B/O

Soulmate AU

Song Fic

Comfort Fic

OCs

Genderbent Characters

Out Of Character Requests

Requests That Contradict Cannon

Requests That Go Against A Characters Sexuality

Requests That Romanticize Any Of The Characters Bad Actions

🔴I Will Write:

Character X Reader

Yandere Character X Reader

Asexual Readers

Aromantic Readers

Trans Readers [This includes non-binary and gender nonconforming people.]  

Teen Readers [18-19 & platonic only.]

Angst

Fluff

Horror

Platonic Relationships

Familial Relationships

Romantic Relationships

Rival Relationships

Enemy Relationships

Queer Relationships

Requests Based Off A Specific Episode / Scene

🔴Formats:

Imagines [Long fic, usually 1K+ words, 1 character per request.]

Headcannons [Can vary in length and word count, usually on the longer side, 4 characters per request.]

|| Character List ||

[black-paraphernalia]

Hello Black Paraphernalia followers and blogger who have supported this blog with likes and reblogs, First and for most we would like to say, thank you to everyone that followers, likes and support. Everyone have shown good support and love for the short time Black Paraphernalia have been on the scene.

 We encourage all to have open and honest and intelligent discourse on the matters we post. We have stated in past post to feel free to state your stance/ position on our posts in the likes or open message forum on Black Paraphernalia Tumblr. What we are hoping for is intelligent and respectful conveying thoughtful conscience of one’s mind.

The staff at Black Paraphernalia strive to share the Black history of truth about our Black race as a people in American past and present so in the future we will not repeat the same horrors in the worst way. We also like to share informative information and narratives on what is happening now that will affect our community. 

We welcome respectful intelligent discourse of one’s opinion. We do agree that not always someone will agree with what we post. However, in keeping with our above mission statement your opinion if not adding to the mission should be keep to yourself or blog. Because........  what we at Black Paraphernalia AIN’T going to do is ......( yes I said ain’t ) is accept......

People who write excuses for racism

People who say senseless things about the reality that black people live with.

 We don't have time to waste with people who simply don't want to understand what's going on. 

People who try to reblog our posts on explicit or pornographic Tumblrs. You will be blocked and reported so STAY AWAY!

People who reblog and write distracting messages underneath our posts that don't relate to the subject we wrote about. 

People who say foolish statements that deny the reality of black people's lives in America.

 At BP, we don't accept: People who send in notes in the inbox just to start an argument.  We don't have time for that, either. 

People who can't respectfully disagree with what we have to say.

People who have not read any part of our blog to get a understanding of what BP is about but want to criticize a particular post.

WHY ARE WE POSTING A BLACK PARAPHERNALIA PSA

1. The other day one of the Black Paraphernalia post was reblogged (which was not a problem in it’s self) However the blogger did not reblogged it properly and posted a long list of RHETORIC That had nothing to to with the Black Paraphernalia blog and made it look as the complete post was of Black Paraphernalia with at the end saying the source was that of BP.

THIS IS A LINK TO THE ACTURAL POST bit2tumble, or whatever the name is, did

https://bilt2tumble.tumblr.com/post/658358372941316096/black-paraphernalia-garcia-navarro-critical

Black Paraphernalia post stopped and CRT and this person and the GOP and other rhetoric onto Black Paraphernalia post without the proper reblog, making it look at it all was part of BP post. not cool and refuse to change or delete it when they were called to task on it.

We vet each blog that is like, reblog or followed by Black Paraphernalia staff. After see our reblog with the additional rhetoric post added to our CRT post, we messaged bit2tumble asking to correct or delete this misleading reblog post. We were disconcerted when we did not get any response. This one of the reason for this PSA. 

Black Paraphernalia post with integrity to the message of facts for the black community. We do not post opinions as facts, slander or spew hate toward other race, community or gender. Black Paraphernalia post clear and concise messages with a point and purpose not stupid rambles that offend. 

2. The other day we receive a message in our inbox from a person stating their opinion on one of our post or the blog in general ( who knows ) The initial response prompted was indignation but after prayer, consultation, consideration (of the source) and deliberation with the other staff we have decided to address this and other issues we have found bothersome during our time on Tumblr.

THIS IS THE INBOX MESSAGE FROM jerseyee  (copied and pasted)

“I'm for all lives matter but what I don't understand is that when a person gets shot from being pulled over by a cop why is it always the guy screaming waving his arms running back to the car why can't he just get pulled over put his hands on the wheel and stay calm buy them acting nervous you make the cop nervous they want to go home to but nobody says that I've been driving for 30 years and I got pulled over three dozen four dozen times and I've never gotten a ticket because I always shut off my car I put on my interior lights if it's night time and I act cool and I make them feel okay not threatened but these assholes get pulled over and right away they were waving their arms screaming going underneath the seat what the f*** do you expect the police officer to do regardless if these black white or anything else if you stay calm you'll make them come if you act like a nut job you're going to make them nervous”

WE WANT TO THANK JERSEYEE FOR THE INBOX BECAUSE THIS IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF THE STINKING THINKING ON RACISIM THAT HAS PERPETUATED THE STEROTICAL IMAGE OF THE BLACKS IN AMERICA. 

ALSO IT HAS GIVEN US AN OPPORTUNITY TO DISSIMULATE THE TYPE OF INFORMATION THAT COME TO OUR INBOX AND ALLOWS FOR A DIDACTIC OCCASION FOR TRUTH AND UNDERSTANDING.

We at BP purposely posted Jerseyee post and put black highlights we intend to address in what we will call this series 

THE BLACK PARAPHERNALIA PSA SERIES

This part 1 of the Black Paraphernalia PSA - PLEASE CONTINUE TO CHECK BACK FOR THE REST OF THE PARTS

PART 2 WILL BE ON WHEN PEOPLE SAY 

ALL LIVES MATTER 

AND WHY IT IS AN INSULT TO THE BLACK COMMUNITY

BLACK PARAPHERNALIA DISCLAIMER- IMAGES FROM GOOGLE IMAGE

BELOW ARE SOME LINKS OF OUR MENU SECTIONS, MISSION STATEMENT, DISCLAIMER AND HOME PAGE 

https://black-paraphernalia.tumblr.com/redirect_to/settings/blog/black-paraphernalia

https://black-paraphernalia.tumblr.com/tagged/WHILE-BLACK

https://black-paraphernalia.tumblr.com/tagged/THIS%20IS%20AMERICA

https://black-paraphernalia.tumblr

COMING SOME PART 2 PLEASE STOP SAYING ALL LIVES MATTER

[djarrex]

Hi everyone, just wanted to address what happened last night along with some other things from before that all tie in together.

There’s multiple parts to the following post - please make sure you read all of it if you’re gonna take the time to even start.

It was midnight and y'all were still jumping in on anon and telling me how I'm awful for not commenting, owning up, or taking responsibility - I should have been in bed. I have a life and job outside this app; and with the several of you in my inbox and it being too late at night to address each, I’m gonna do it now. I can’t not say something about all of this. I just can’t keep quiet and ignore the problem - it’s not fair to you all. Deleting one post already has you guys even more riled up and all I wanted to do was offer something better than a “half-hearted apology” (it was very late at night when I wrote that very short apology, and wanted a redo tbh). 

I really didn't want to make a long post like this. I reached out to a select few on here because I care about them (there's more of you, but like I said, it was at the time after midnight and I was fucking exhausted). but I was being demanded for accountability. So here I am.

Allow me to be real with you all, if that's ok. If it's not, well, idk. First I wanna address all you anons, who, instead of speaking to me one on one about all this, want to criticize me and shame me and my writing when truthfully it feels like you haven't even read more than a handful of my work. I didn’t realize that I write the clones all the same way? That I always make them super aggressive and uncaring and dom? “you write every single clone as so dominant instead as unique individual men with their own personalities” Interesting. See, that right there tells me you haven't read nearly enough of my stuff for me to believe that's true. That's one accusation I absolutely will not back you on because I know it’s inaccurate - saying how I group the clones into some overly-aggressive, and uncaring category - that I always write all of them as mean in bed because they're men of color. And hey, if I do write rough smut - which yeah, it's out there and I write it, as do a lot of you - there are warnings at the beginning, aftercare, dialogue, reader sharing their feelings, and most importantly... consent between the two. That’s what warnings are for, so that you know what you’re going to be reading. That’s why I, as we all do, appreciate warnings listed at the tops of fics; honestly, write them sub or dom or switch or however you want but don’t come at me like that. I’m sorry if I'm coming across as rude because I'm usually not, I’m one of the nicest people you’ll meet, but I will not stand idly by while you chastise my writing (writing that is pretty much the same type of stuff a lot of you write & rb with the same characters) that you haven’t read enough of to back such claims.

Next: Sincerely, from the bottom of my heart,

I get it. Really, I do. I fully understand the problem of whitewashing in SW along with almost everywhere else, and I do not agree with it. It's a huge problem, and it needs to be rectified. Now just because I don't speak publicly about it and opt out of publicly shaming TBB, doesn't mean that I agree with what’s going on. Not everyone is comfortable with sharing their opinions on a subject, no matter what that subject is or which side they're on. You live and you learn when it comes to that. 

It has never been my intention to fetishize POC in my writing, which btw, the same people who are saying that it is my intention are the ones claiming I portray all of the clones as the same, aggressive men, lacking their individuality. It’s a claim that is simply not true, and I know I have followers on here to back me up on that. I know what I've written; how about you check it out and tell me that you don't see the words "soft" or "fluff" or "cuddling" or “gentle” or “tender” within my work linked in my ML. Clone character being a good partner and father? Tender love making? Holding each others faces in their hands? “We/you survived” sex? Taking care of their partner? Saying “I love you” to one another? Confirming the safe word and going slow at first? Oh my - riveting and harsh stuff - totally unacceptable.  

Now: My admittedly problematic writings of Rex + Zygerria,

I went into writing that rp fic totally unaware and unknowing of the true implications. For that, I sincerely apologize. When I posted the NSFW alphabet, that’s when I was called out on that rp fic - not when I first posted it. Which the timeline doesn’t matter, I know that, but it concerns me a little bit that no one spoke up about it sooner - letting me dig myself deeper into a hole that I didn’t realize I was inside of in the first place. I've apologized once, and I know that doesn't negate what happened; I acknowledged my mistake back then, but I suppose that wasn’t good enough. I had asked you, anon, to message me to give me guidance, to teach me on what to do about the fic - you stayed hidden. Well, respectfully, what the fuck? I know we're all adults but don't lecture me and avoid me when I’d literally reached out for guidance on how to properly rectify the issue. I fixed my wording in some of my fics (the things I’ve caught upon rereading them) because I recognized and more importantly learned about and from my mistakes along with the unintentional negative implications of how I wrote those characters. Some of y'all wanna tell me that I "haven't learned"? Who are you, my personal blog police? My professor? My life coach? Are you even my friend? If I'm wrong and haven't learned, then fucking educate me. I worked hard on that rp fic, just like I do with a majority of what I write, but it doesn’t matter because I will delete it knowing that it’s harmful to others and I apologize for inadvertently romanticizing slavery with what I wrote - it was unintentional, and I’m truly sorry to those who have been hurt by it. I know it’s wrong, and there’s no proper excuse for it. Can’t go back in time, but consider it gone now.

Since that first wakeup call, I’ve been working hard to ensure I avoid using certain words and ideas when describing the clones in my fics. If there’s still something you see that isn’t correct or is inappropriate, please tell me! Don’t hold it in but then jump on the “attack M” bandwagon. Private message me, or come peacefully off or on anon, there will be no hard feelings. I don’t mind being corrected when I make a mistake - that’s just part of life, we all make mistakes and we live and learn from them. Making mistakes doesn’t = scumbag human. When you hold your breath and choose not to take the time to guide me, and if I appear to still be making the same mistakes, well, idk. I’m telling you right now that I do not mind if you message me with the good intention of pushing me in the right direction. When you come at me with hostility on anon, well, no thank you. To the anons that came without rage: thank you! I read what you wrote, and I have a better understanding as to how my writing had hurt the lovely followers of mine, and tried to address as much as possible in this post. See, angry mob anons? It costs zero credits to be kind and offer up your thoughts and advice with a good heart. I’m not going to hate you or block you if you try to correct me. I don’t block unless you’re a snoopin’ minor. Just don’t hold a knife to my throat.

Now: Why did I delete the tags and then my response to that anon ask? 

Simply put: I felt awful. Deleting it doesn’t immediately mean I’m hiding from it and ignoring the issue. I wanted to come up with a better apology, explanation, whatever you wanna call it, because my followers deserve that. The ones who enjoy my work, the ones who interact, the ones who I call my friends, the ones who know that I’m a good person. Didn’t want to leave the tags/post floating around all night, giving more people time to sharpen their pitchforks and join the mob while I attempted to sleep. Trust me, I know saying that I had no ill intentions when tagging that post doesn’t make it better nor does it make it go away. I’m just trying to show you my point of view, that I knew immediately how I should not have tagged it that way, so that’s why I deleted them. I corrected my mistake. But y’all are too fucking quick I swear.

One more thing:

I know some of you who had called me out with the passive-aggressive inbox messages are still following me, and for what? You don’t like what I post, which is why one would follow another in the first place, so why bother sticking around? Do you feel like you need to police my blog? You want to be there the literal minute I make a mistake? I’m gonna turn off anon for a bit, so if you wanna discuss, message me. Just know that if you’re going to come at me with knives out, I probably won’t reply to you. 

To conclude:

I’m sorry. Truly sorry for the entire Rex + Zygerria outfit + slaver ordeal with both the fic from a while ago and then the tags from last night. We can’t go back in time; the only option is to correct past mistakes that are able to be corrected, and then move on with new knowledge that’ll aid in me working even harder to ensure my writing isn’t inappropriate or offensive, and doesn’t hurt my followers nor the characters I write for. I’m still going to write self-indulgent filth and fluff, post-order 66 Rex, and other misc shit. I enjoy writing fanfic, as I know a lot of you enjoy reading what I write and love to talk to me about it. I hope that this didn’t come off as me being a bitch, because I’m really not. I enjoy interacting with the handful of people on here that I’d call my friends, and I love reading your reactions and tags to my fics when you’re excited and/or horny (LOL). It’s just after lunch time where I’m at, so I hope you have a great rest of the day/night/morning whatever for wherever you are.  

<3 

M

[bratkook]

queen of broken hearts. jjk (m) part three.

“Tell me i’m the worst, make you cry and make you hurt, i’m the queen bow down to me, I will leave you out to bleed.”

part one. part two.

pairing: jungkook x reader genre: angst but theres a happy ending yay word count: 7.4k warnings: nothing crazy this time, just mentions of the explicit polaroid photo, an attempt at infidelity, oc is still a liar who doesn’t deserve anything author’s note: ok i couldn’t not write a third part of this to tie it all up and give you guys the happy ending jk deserves so here it is, i hate this oc and love that all of you hate her too lmaooo

Jungkook glances down at his phone, seeing the text he had just sent. A simple string of letters that spelled ‘i’m outside’, a familiar pattern his fingers had memorized. Except for the first time in a very long time the text wasn’t being sent to you.

The device pings with a response from Taehyung, stating he was on his way down, so he locks it once more and sets it underneath his radio in his car. Jungkook grunts as he catches on to the lyrics ringing in his car and skips the song currently playing, it was one of your favorite songs and once he listened to the lyrics he felt like it was a direct jab at him, especially when you had asked him to download it with that same smile that lead to heartbreak. That didn’t stop him doing as you asked, just because you liked it so much.

The amount of times the song I Feel Bad by Blackbear had played in his car as he left your place had nudged it up the algorithm, making his phone constantly play it when he shuffled all of his songs. He needed to fully delete it from his library.

Jungkook had to admit he was doing pretty good, it was going on 6 weeks and you were still blocked from his instagram. He had even gone as far as making his page private to prevent you from lurking, he doubted you’d go to that extent though, not as desperate to see Jungkook’s life play out without you in it. Surely you had moved on to the next shiny toy.

The only thing he had yet to do was block your number, the small no dignity having part of him hoped that maybe you’d reach out, maybe you’d apologize for anything and everything, maybe you’d wake up and realize how you truly felt for him.

That never happened.

Your thread of messages was bone dry, taunting him in his inbox so much he had to delete it all to stop himself from typing out a message at 3am in sheer desperation. He wouldn’t be reaching out and it was clear you wouldn’t be either.

“Hey man.” Taehyung greets him as he pulls the passenger door open, sliding in with ease and slamming it shut behind him. Jungkook blinks back to reality, giving his friend a small smile as they shake their hands in the playful way they always did.

“Jimin’s not with you?” He wonders, expecting the other boy to have come down with him since they all had plans together.

Taehyung shakes his head as he settles into the seat, adjusting his messy hair in the visor and buckling up just as Jungkook pulls out of the parking spot. “Nah, he’s at his apartment. He told you he’s bringing someone with him right?”

Jungkook frowns at that because no, Jimin hadn’t mentioned bringing anyone along with him and he really hoped it wasn’t a girl. The last thing he wanted was to be subjected to seeing them swap spit when they were meant to be having a guys day. It seemed a little stupid for Jungkook to hope for that but he had grown to appreciate spending more time with his friends lately, once again realizing just how much of his time you had consumed, always ditching the plans he had with his friends to go get his dick wet and his heart shredded.

“It’s some guy that just started working with him.” Taehyung fills in, taking the initiative to be in charge of the music because Jungkook’s current mix was sort of depressing. He frowns as he scrolls through the artists, choosing to type someone in to play music that wasn’t in his library.

When the beginning sounds of a hit Bad Bunny song fill the car Jungkook nearly swerves as he whips his head to stare at Taehyung bobbing along, “Since when the fuck do you know spanish?”

“I don’t, you just gotta vibe along.” He proves his statement by proceeding to horribly sing along in broken spanish, but his energy is contagious, spreading to Jungkook until he was eventually dancing along with him. The two of them making up their own moves on the short drive to Jimin’s and Taehyung can’t help but feel successful at making his friend have a good time. It had been a while since Jungkook behaved like his usual self.

Him and Jimin still didn’t know about you but after he had decided to block you he had fallen into a tiny pit of despair, returning to the shell of himself that they had seen during the weeks you had ghosted him. It took a lot of coaxing before they were able to pull him out, not asking any questions about anything no matter how much their curiosity itched.

They knew their best friend was hurting so they tried their best to do whatever they could to make it better, constantly reaching out to drag him out of his one bedroom apartment, making plans he couldn’t say no to, being the best wing men they could whenever they hit up bars. It had worked though, they had managed to fill up the small you shaped void inside of him enough for him to be able to ignore.

He never really thought of you until he was completely alone, usually when the sky was the darkest and he had trouble sleeping, remembering the countless nights you’d text him to come over when you were also restless. On nights like that he’d force himself to take a sleeping aid, not wanting flashbacks of you underneath him to wear down his strength when he had been doing so well.

So far so good.

“Is this Bad Bunny?” Jimin instantly asks when he enters the car, having already been waiting outside of his complex with his friend beside him.

“Yeah!” Taehyung laughs, turning the volume up slightly.

Jimin just shakes his head as he slides over in his seat, giving Jungkook a similar greeting before his friend follows suit. He’s a silver haired guy with sharp eyes, a small smile being sent Jungkook’s way as Jimin introduces him. “Oh, this is Yoongi, he just became Jamba Juice’s newest bitch.”

Taehyung shoots him a sympathetic look, he had worked along side Jimin a few months ago before quitting in a fit of rage so he knew how unpleasant the job was. “My condolences.”

Yoongi just chuckles, nodding in acceptance, not attempting to deny that the job was hell on earth but it paid alright so he’d just suck it up. “Jimin never shuts up about the two of you at work.”

Jungkook laughs at that as he starts to drive once more, wondering just what Jimin said about them while on the clock, they had all been friends for years so he really had an infinite amount of stories to bring up.

Whatever he had said about them must have been good enough because Yoongi fits right in, balancing out Taehyung’s crude sense of humor with his own, being made aware of some of the inside jokes they all had together and continuing them with ease.

Jungkook begins thinking that he wouldn’t mind Yoongi becoming a part of their group, he had a pretty easy going personality and didn’t protest when Taehyung ended up dragging all of them to some random flea market near by.

Unfortunately it all slowly starts to crumble on the drive towards the restaurant Jimin wanted to try.

“Hey Jungkook, do you have a phone charger?” Jimin asks from the back seat, glaring at the dwindling percentage on his phone due to him now being in charge of the music selection because Taehyung was adamant on playing reggaeton and they were all sick of it.

Jungkook hums in confirmation, too busy staring at his own phone screen for the directions to notice that Jimin was already opening up his center console to grab the cord that he knew was always there.

The photo that greets him as he opens it up definitely isn’t always there though, the shiny polaroid of you looking directly into the lens stares right at Jimin and he immediately recognizes you as the girl from the diner.

“Woah, this is dirty Kook.” He laughs out, trying his best to avert his eyes from the salacious photo and pull out the charger he was originally searching for.

“What?” Taehyung asks, peeking over and gasping obnoxiously when he spots the photo too. He’s not as caring as Jimin is, grabbing the photo from the edges and bringing it up close and personal to his face for a better view.

“Who the fuck is this?” He asks as he stares at the picture with a goofy smile on his face. He tilts the polaroid side to side to look through the glare the sun provides but the raunchy act caught on film is clear as day. Jungkook carries a photo of some girl sucking his dick in his car, what a perv.

Jungkook finally looks up and when he sees the polaroid in Taehyung’s hand he feels his heart drop, reaching across and trying to snatch it but he falls short. Taehyung scoots further in his seat, holding the photo higher up and screaming when the car swerves as Jungkook lurches across his seat and tries to reach for it once more.

“It’s just some girl.” Jungkook grunts as he steadies the car again, his face burning hot as he hears Jimin laughing along in the backseat. Leave it to his friends to act like they’ve never seen more explicit photos, parading it around like it’s the first x-rated polaroid they’ve ever seen as if they didn’t have a collection of ridiculous porn bookmarked onto their phones.

The way Taehyung’s currently holding the photo up gives Yoongi a clear view of it and as his eyes lock onto yours he tilts his head slightly. What was Jungkook doing with a photo of you, covered in cum with his dick in your mouth.

“Is she your girlfriend?” Jimin teases, placing his hands on his shoulders and laughing louder when Jungkook finally snatches the photo from his friends grasp, swatting the side of his head for good measure before stuffing it back into the center console and slamming it shut.

“No, she’s mine.” Yoongi finally speaks up, leaning back into his seat and staring at the back of Jungkook’s head as he drove. A small smile is on his face as he crosses his arms over his chest, the entire car falling into a dead silence, no one wanting to break it until they knew how serious this was. 

Taehyung is half expecting this to become a world star beat down whereas Jimin can’t tell if he’s joking or not, his eyes bouncing back and forth between Yoongi and Jungkook. He sort of wishes he had never asked for a charger now.

Jungkook can’t get himself to say anything, his fingers gripping his steering wheel tighter as his mind starts to spin, desperately waiting for the joking laughter to ensue but it never comes.

Could he really be your boyfriend? Had you been with Yoongi even when you were going on dates with Namjoon or was Yoongi new. Then came the twist of the knife when he realizes that if Yoongi was new, filling in Jungkook’s shoes now that he was gone, you had seen him in a better light than you’d ever see Jungkook in, making him your boyfriend in a few weeks when Jungkook’s known you for years.

“Why do you have a photo of Y/N giving you head?” Yoongi asks, a little caught off guard by the situation. The two of you weren’t officially dating yet but considering he had met your family it felt a little unnerving to see a photo of you like that with someone that wasn’t him.

He’s not upset at Jungkook, he can see how flustered he is, but he needed some form of explanation before he filed you under cheater in his mind.

“It’s an old photo.” Jungkook can barely get out, wanting to shrivel up at the awkward tension filling up the car.

“How old?”

“Over a month ago.” That admittedly wasn’t that old and it doesn’t do much to settle Yoongi’s uncertainty but he decides not to push it, the only person who needed to explain was you.

“I can toss the photo if you want me to.” Jungkook suggests, he had forgotten about the photo after he stuffed it into the center console when he left your house and although he would like to keep it, now that the cat was out of the bag and your new boy of interest had seen it, he felt a little wrong holding on to it. What were the fucking odds.

Yoongi shakes his head, it was a photo taken from your camera and you obviously knew it was being taken, if Jungkook wanted to keep it for whatever weird reason that was his call, for all he knew Jungkook was one of your exes. 

“Just maybe don’t keep it in your car man.” Yoongi suggests, his fingers itching by his side with the want to text you for an explanation but he knows he needs to play his cards right to get an actual answer from you.

Jungkook takes Yoongi’s suggestion as a demand, the second he gets back home after they finished hanging out he pockets the photo once more and decides to shove the photo deep into his underwear drawer. Hopefully it’s something he’ll forget about and stumble upon in a few years and not feel the same gutted emotions he does now.

Jungkook knows he’s only hurting himself further by allowing a fragile string to continue to tie the two of you together but its the small tinge of hope that maybe one day he’d feel a tug from the string in your direction that prevents him from snipping it.

As he lays in bed he feels a similar dark shadow start to fall over him, reminiscent to the one that had nearly swallowed him whole weeks ago. The only plus side to this was that he now knew that you had moved on, something that should help him think straight, not let his memories get warped until you’re seen as this sweet angel that never did him any wrong.

The other plus side was that he didn’t get his ass beat by Yoongi, the boy had swept it under the rug and went about the rest of the day as if nothing had happened. He was unaware that Yoongi was at your place now with Jungkook being the topic of discussion.

Yoongi was currently trying his best to not burn a hole in your floor as he paced back and forth on your carpet with you staring at him looking as comfortable as ever on your bed. How you looked like that when he had just interrogated you on your relationship with the other boy was beyond him.

He wasn’t even sure if you were lying to him or not, your answers seemed too practiced to be truthful, too thought out for him to fully believe. The second he had brought Jungkook up it was like your brain went into autopilot and the perfect answers he was looking for just spilled out.

But somewhere along the line you said something that rubbed him the wrong way, a phrase that made him double take when you implied that Jungkook meant absolutely nothing to you, how it was all fun and games and Yoongi didn’t buy that for a second. The defeated look on Jungkook’s face throughout the rest of the day showed Yoongi how he felt and it sure as hell didn’t look like absolutely nothing.

Even if you and Jungkook weren’t serious, the way you were speaking about him, with no sympathy or regard to how he felt it made Yoongi a little uncomfortable. Had you said that Jungkook was horrible, treated you like garbage or anything that warranted this sort of reaction he could understand but you just seemed so emotionless.

“You don’t care about him?” Theres been an evil glint in your eye ever since Yoongi mentioned Jungkook, the slight anger you felt at him treating you how you treated him resurfacing at his name. You don’t even know why he’s asking you this, did he want you to say you didn’t care about him to boost his own ego or did he want you to say you did to see if your feelings lied deeper?

“Why should I?” Your tone is cold and Yoongi is a little caught off guard at how quickly you’re able to turn off the bubbly personality he had been drawn to in the beginning.

“I mean considering you let him photograph you sucking his dick I’m not really buying this whole facade you have going on right now.”

A small laugh fills the room and Yoongi can only stare at you, briefly wondering if this was some sort of joke because the way you’re acting now is the polar opposite to the you he’s known for the past month. You just found the situation laughable, you always covered your tracks, careful enough to not trip over your own lies but your edge must be wearing off.

“There’s no facade.” You reply calmly, hoping the soft look in your eyes is convincing enough for him but it’s not. Yoongi knows he must be on to something, the minute he brought Jungkook up he saw the way your demeanor changed and now he wasn’t sure if you were just down right heartless or playing it off.

“You honestly don’t have any empathy for other people do you?” He shoots out, looking directly at you and seeing the way your eyes lose their sweetness, narrowing in size as you try your best not to glare at him but he can see right through it. He can tell he’s digging a little too close to uncharted territory but he was sick of the mystery that was you, never knowing where anything stood because you were too selfish to think of other people’s emotions due to your actions.

“Is that really what you’re focused on.”

“Yeah, a little.” He scoffs in disbelief, “I don’t really want to find out my girlfriend’s a fucking sociopath years down the line.”

You laugh again at that, leaning back on your arms as you sit on your bed, “Girlfriend?” The look you give him makes him stumble over his words for the first time, realizing that you hadn’t ever put a label on what you were and now feeling a little embarrassed by your condescending tone.

You honestly don’t even know why you react the way you do, you actually liked Yoongi, could see this becoming something serious, but the way he was exposing your faults, making you see the parts of you that desperately needed work, it rubbed you the wrong way so you needed to knock him down a few pegs. A classic self sabotaging move you always did, not being able to bite down the hurtful words you knew you’d throw his way.

“You think I’m your girlfriend?” You ask, only rubbing salt onto the slowly opening wound and he almost winces but he can see that this is your defense mechanism so he doesn’t let it burn as much as he knows it should.

“Is that what you’re gonna turn this into?” He counters, a displeased look on his face, “Trying to hurt my feelings because I’m asking you pretty justified questions is a low blow Y/N.”

That shuts you up, the next batch of spiteful words you were ready to shoot his way dissolving on your tongue when you see the way he looks at you. You’d expect him to be angry, visibly upset at what you had said but instead he just looks tired.

“Look, I obviously struck a nerve bringing him up because this–“ he motions to you, making you realize how tense your body had become, “isn’t the you I know, so whenever you decide to put your fangs away and talk about your buried emotions let me know.”

You don’t even know how to respond to the way he shut you down with ease, your eyes only showing more of your confusion when he steps forward and kisses the top of your head, “Goodnight.” Is all he says before turning around to leave your room and apartment altogether.

“Goodnight.” You weakly mumble out as he shuts the door behind him, completely throwing you off the course of events you were sure were about to transpire.

The anger you felt inside slowly starts to fizzle out until all you feel is sick, a pit of disgust brewing inside of you at the way you had behaved. Not just with him but with Jungkook.

This had become a regular feeling for you ever since Jungkook decided to throw you aside, being the main reason you had decided to hold on to Yoongi when you had met him by chance, needing something to distract you so the guilt you felt wouldn’t drive you into doing something you knew you’d regret.

The amount of times you wanted to reach out to him during these last few weeks was concerning for you, never really realizing just how much you relied on him when you needed to get out of your head. The slow clarity that he had always been quick to come to you and offer help in any way he could while you always shut him down, diverting questions when he’d ask what was wrong because you were scared of him getting too close, all it had done was burn him.

You had left him scarred and wounded as he laid on his bed, contemplating smothering himself with his pillow as he regretted his life choices that landed him in this situation. It’s the selfish side of you that has you opening up your phone and calling his number without a second thought, you keep it on speaker and toss it on the bed, half expecting it to go directly to voicemail since you were sure he had blocked your number too, but it continues to ring.

Jungkook nearly bolts up in shock when the phone by his head starts to vibrate and light up, his squinting eyes staring at the screen and freezing when he sees your name displayed on it. He feels like he stops breathing as his phone buzzes on his comforter, it was now clear that Yoongi had in fact brought him up to you and he was pretty sure if he answered the phone it would not go in his favor.

He lets it ring until it eventually goes to voicemail, his phone dimming down once more and he finally relaxes. It only lasts a brief moment, his phone buzzing once more with a text this time and he doesn’t want to open it.

Instead he grabs the device and stuffs it in between his mattress and box spring, shutting his eyes and taking a deep breath before sliding back into bed and forcing himself to sleep.

It doesn’t come easy for either of you, he’s constantly tossing and turning on his bed, having to shove his hands under his butt to get them to stop creeping toward the side his phone was tucked under. You on the other hand are constantly checking your phone when you wake up every few minutes, phantom rings pulling you from your slumber and hoping Jungkook responded to your text but every time you blindly stare at the brightness of your screen you’re met with nothing, not even the read display that usually appeared.

It’s not until the sun peaks over the horizon, the soft orange illuminating the inside of Jungkook’s room and waking him up, that he feels his resolve cracking. He tries to blame it on his half asleep state, not being awake enough to know right from wrong but he’s way too aware of the way his fingers move and latch on to his device as he pulls it from its hiding spot.

It takes him a moment to build up the courage to open up your message, half expecting a massive paragraph with you telling him off for whatever reason but the only thing that greets him is a short ‘can we talk please’.

He’s not sure what makes him wary, the fact that you want to talk or you using the word please. Jungkook’s fingers hover over the keyboard, not sure if he should even respond to you. This was what he wanted though isn’t it? The main reason he had decided not to block your number, hoping you’d reach out and explain yourself. But now that you had done the first half he wasn’t sure he wanted to see it through.

Still, his fingers take over and type out a quick response.

jungkook 7:49am : talk about what

The buzzing wakes you up instantly, your phone clutched to your chest in the same position you had fallen asleep in with the hope that he’d respond.

It’s a little surprising to see that he doesn’t immediately agree like he normally does, dropping whatever he was doing to come to your place like he used to but you guess it was called for.

y/n 7:50am : i just want to clear the air

y/n 7:50am : do you wanna have breakfast?

He hates that he feels the tiniest spark of excitement inside of him at you asking him out for breakfast, something he had been wanting forever, but his fingers shake too much as he holds the device, his body reminding him of the withdraws he had already gone through once before. He couldn’t do this again.

jungkook 7:54am : i don’t think thats a good idea

You can only stare at your screen, not knowing how to respond to his message. It was your own selfish desire to fix things, to help ease the guilt off your chest, that made you want to persuade him to do what you asked but when your phone vibrates a second time you know his mind is set and it’s best to leave it alone.

jungkook 7:57am : please don’t message me again, it’s better this way.

You once again feel the familiar twist in your chest, more so when you respond with a simple okay and your bubble turns green before a notification pops up stating the message could no longer be delivered. Jungkook had been the one to weld the chest shut this time, blocking your number to finalize it before locking his phone once more and begging himself to go about his day as if the curiosity of what you wanted to tell him wasn’t eating him alive.

“Jungkook you need oyster sauce and soy sauce, they’re not interchangeable!” Jimin scolds when Jungkook places the oyster sauce back onto the self, his hand once again swiping it off and placing it into the basket he was currently holding.

“Damn sorry, I told you I don’t know what I’m doing.” Jungkook groans, giving his friend a pout that goes ignored because he’s too focused on running through the list he had on his phone to ensure nothing was forgotten.

Jimin was in charge of helping Jungkook out today on his date, it was Valentines day and Jungkook had been dating his girlfriend for a few months now and wanted to make this date a little more special than just eating out. However, he wasn’t blessed with culinary skills so Jimin would be helping him out throughout it all and making a swift exit before his girlfriend would arrive for dinner.

Jungkook wanders off when he notices Jimin is still hyper focused on the array of sauces lined up in this aisle, ending up in the makeshift Valentines day aisle set up, the plush toys in pink and red all holding candies with cute sayings sewn on to the heart on their chests. It seemed too easy to just pick one up and settle with that so he gives himself a mission to do while Jimin finishes up the essentials.

He roams the entire store, grabbing a lavender wired bucket with enough of his girlfriend’s favorite candies to fill the bottom of it, along with that comes an elephant plushie that happened to be her favorite animal. Jungkook had spotted a bouquet of sunflowers by the front of the store so he makes his way in that direction once more, passing by Jimin who was looking for him but continuing on in his trek.

Just as he grabs the bouquet he wanted he hears his name being called and for a moment he thinks he imagined it, not being able to place the voice it belonged to but when it repeats itself much closer he turns around.

Jungkook is even more caught off guard when he spots your brother, looking nothing like the shy and awkward 13 year old he was back then. He hadn’t seen him since he stopped tutoring him nearly four years ago but he recognized the eyes that he shared with you.

“Jihoon?” He questions, smiling when the younger boy nods. He had always looked up to Jungkook, practically idolized him when he was tutoring him, wanting to be him in every aspect. Jungkook had been everything a nerdy 13 year old boy would want to be, adopting a similar clothing style to him that had managed to still stick around with age.

“I saw you and just had to come say hey.” Jihoon says, pulling him in for a typical bro hug.

Jimin huffs as he reaches Jungkook, having chased him down the aisles and finally catching up to him. He gives the younger boy a wave, a little confused as to who he is but when he hears your voice and spots you, it all clicks in his mind.

“Jihoon c’mon, we need to grab what dad wants!” You shout from the end of the aisle, not wanting to approach Jungkook to save yourself the embarrassment. You were still completely blocked off of everything, no form of communication happening between the two of you since that night. The town you lived in was small so it was kind of inevitable that you’d run in to him eventually but having it be today of all days, with him holding up Valentine’s day items just made it all a little more sour.

He looks up at the sound of your voice and gives you a faint smile because thats just who he is, it doesn’t pain him to look at you now though, the small void you had left inside of him nearly patched all the way up with time and distance.

“I know, but look who it is.” Your brother announces, completely unaware that you and Jungkook had very much stayed in contact after he finished tutoring him. You knew who it was, you were very familiar with Jungkook’s face and could probably spot the back of his head in a crowd.

“Hi Jungkook.” You muster out, slowly making your way down the aisle towards them because you knew your brother wouldn’t back off unless you came over and greeted his old tutor.

“How are things with Yoongi?” Jimin speaks up, a knife slicing through the tension and a knowing look on his face as he stares you down. He knew that you and Yoongi were no longer together, having to be the ear Yoongi vented to with all of your problems while at work and while hanging out, knowing that Yoongi had tried his best to make it work but you had been too stubborn, too stuck in your ways to even budge. Jimin knew enough about you now to be able to connect the dots to the way Jungkook had been so torn months prior. You were a bitch and he didn’t like you.

“Oh, we broke up.” You utter out, an odd look on your face because you had no idea who Jimin was or how he knew both Yoongi and Jungkook but you figure thats irrelevant now, staring back at Jungkook and seeing a neutral expression on his face.

Jihoon, not being able to read the room, asks Jungkook if hes buying groceries for a Valentines date tonight and Jungkook shyly confirms it, teasingly asking Jihoon if he had a date tonight as well. “Nah, haven’t hooked anyone onto me yet. Y/N and I are just helping our dad make something for our mom tonight.”

“Yeah speaking of that, we need to get going Jihoon.” You hope your brother can sense your tone, your fingers tempted to grab onto his hair and yank him away, needing him to move along and let you get as far from Jungkook as possible. That sinking feeling in your stomach had returned, only worsening when you realized how good he was doing, how unaffected he was at seeing you.

“Right, anyways, have a nice night with your girlfriend.” He sings with a playful wave as he retreats from the aisle to go back to shopping. You linger a little at the end of the aisle and stare at him for a moment longer, a small wave being sent his way that he reciprocates with a smile.

“Isn’t she polaroid girl?” Jimin grunts out as he readjusts the basket he was holding, already knowing the answer.

“Yeah.” Jungkook mumbles out, continuing to stare at the end of the aisle where you had disappeared, the polaroid being a distant memory in his mind after he had burned it.

“Babe,” Jungkook laughs into the receiver of his phone, resting against the cool exterior of the bar all of his friends were in, “I promise there wont be a repeat of last time.”

“That laugh means trouble Jungkook,” Sooyoung giggles back, already mentally preparing to baby Jungkook back to health when he undoubtably arrives home absolutely hammered, “If I have to hold your hand while you barf up everything and refuse water again I’m filing for divorce!”

Jungkook gasps dramatically, his hand placed over his heart as he hears the way his wife snickers, “Less than a month after and you’re already calling it quits?”

Sooyoung just hums along, sat on the couch of their house and flicking through the channels to find something to watch while their dog laid snuggled up by her feet, “Thats just how to cookie crumbles, unless,” she pauses, mentally picturing the way Jungkook raises his eyebrows as he waits, “you hold my hand while I barf next week when I go out with the girls.”

“You run a tough bargain, but I’ll even hold your hair back hows that?”

“Sounds perfect, be safe Kookie. I love you.” She smiles as the words leave her mouth, the fluttering affect he had on her never fading even after all this time.

“Always, I love you too.” He blushes as he makes a kissy noise, smiling wide when he hears one back before ending the call and and makes his way back inside, instantly spotting his friends gathered around the booth they had managed to snag.

When he makes his way over to them he slides in beside Taehyung, squishing him and Hobi into the booth and hearing them groan in protest.

“Are you done confessing your profound love for Sooyoung?” Jimin teases before throwing back a shot of vodka, he was already very loosened up, this being the second bar they visited due to celebrating Jimin’s wedding in a week.

“Shut up, as if I didn’t catch you literally on the verge of tears in the bathroom as you talked to Daehyun earlier.” Jungkook smiles when Jimin zips his mouth and locks it with an imaginary key, not denying any but of information Jungkook just spilled out. The rest of his friends howl in laughter at the secret, riling him up further and Jungkook decides his job here is done, getting up to order another drink and another round of shots for everyone else.

He leans over the counter and grabs the bar tenders attention with a soft wave of his hand, “Can I get a whiskey sour and another round of shots of tequila.” The woman nods, already having his card on a tab and begins making the drinks for him.

Jungkook settles into one of the stools there, getting comfortable as he waits, not yet sensing the eyes currently staring a hole through his temple from a few seats away.

You had spotted Jungkook walking in with his friends earlier, watching him step out for a phone call before coming back in again. He looked a little different from the last time you saw him, his hair a little longer now with a slight wave to it as it reached his cheekbones. The last time you had seen him was in passing at the same grocery store a few months ago, you had managed to duck into an aisle before he spotted you, being none the wiser that you were hiding from him.

Jungkook starts to feel the burning from his side of someone staring, slowly turning his head until his eyes meet your stunned ones. You expect him to look away, pretend he doesn’t know you and try to hide like you always do but instead he smiles at you, waving you over like you were an old friend of his.

It takes a few moments of building up courage before you get up from your spot and move across the three stools that separated you two with your drink in your hand.

“Hey, how have you been?” He asks with a soft grin, thanking the bar tender as she places his drink and the line of shots in front of him.

“I’ve been alright, Jihoon just moved out of state for work so my parents have been extra needy without someone to baby.” You force a smile back at him, your finger tracing the rim of your glass as you beg the awkwardness to leave, not used to having the underhand in situations like this.

“He’s gonna do great things I’m sure.” Jungkook sighs, taking a sip of his drink and humming at the taste. Looking at him now was like looking at an entirely different person, sure he had the same face but the way he carried himself was a stark contrast to the Jungkook you were accustomed to from three years ago, no longer second guessing himself, instead speaking with an aura of confidence and ease surrounding him.

“You know he never shut up about you once you stopped tutoring him?” You laugh, seeing the smile spreading on Jungkook’s face, “I remember that one time he begged my parents to buy him that one yellow jacket you own, he had to get straight A’s all semester before they got it for him and he never took it off.”

A genuine smile spreads across your lips as you reminisce on the times before, how you had taken them for granted and now seemed to grasp at anything that reminded you of it.

“We had something good going before, I’m sorry for ruining it.”

That catches Jungkook off guard, setting his drink down with a soft thud as he looks over at you fully, “I guess that depends what you consider good.” He jokes, proud that he can make light of a situation that used to leave him feeling wounded.

“You’re right, I’m sorry.” You cringe, not yet having the luxury of the past not affecting you. He watches on as you take a big gulp of your drink, wiping the excess that drips down your lip with your fingers.

“Don’t be, it’s water under the bridge.” He reassures you, reaching across the small gap between you two and placing his hand over yours when he notices the small trembles of nerves making them shake.

Your hand turns in his grasp, your fingers wrapping around his large ones in a search for comfort. The intentions you originally had when you first spot him leave you as your thumb traces the black band around his ring finger, a clear sign that he was off the market for good, making the words spoil in your mouth as you hold them back.

“Oh, when did this happen?” You ask softly, letting his hand go as he brings it up to spread his fingers out with a proud look on his face.

“About a month ago, I managed to trick someone into marrying me.” He jokes, a glimmer in his eyes as he recalls the day of his wedding, the happiness swelling his heart when he thinks of coming home to Sooyoung after the night is over.

“You never needed to trick someone into marrying you Kookie.” The sound of his nickname doesn’t feel right coming out of your mouth now, like nails to a chalkboard, no longer making his stomach flutter the way it used to.

“It felt like I did.” He admits with a shrug, remembering the years of him pining over you, making a fool of himself for the off chance that’d you one day see him for what he was worth. But like he said, it was all water under the bridge and seeing you here was a welcomed surprise to him now.

You want to say more to him but your tongue gets tied up, no longer having the list of phrases you were going to use when you spotted him. Jungkook catches on to the discomfort growing within you so he downs the rest of his drink to free his hands to be able to carry the shots to his thirsty friends.

“It was good seeing you.” His eyes are sincere as he stares at you for the last time, “I’ll see you around.” You know thats the truth, no doubt would you two run in to each other once more but you know this will be the closest interaction you’ll have. He still had you blocked on everything even years later, not knowing a single piece of information on you and leaving you in the dark about his. But this was just the way things were meant to be.

“Yeah, good seeing you too Jungkook.” You whisper out, watching him as he grasps the shot glasses and makes his way back to his friends, hollers and cheers filling up the bar at the sight of alcohol.

Jungkook slips back into his seat, passing the glasses around to everyone and raising them up to cheer for the end Jimin as an unmarried man. As he throws back the shot, nearly having it come out through his nose when he laughs as he sees the disgusted look Taehyung makes at the taste, he can’t stop himself from looking back in your direction.

You’re still sat on the stool, finishing up the rest of your drink and signing off your tab with a grin on your face. He eyes you curiously when you put your card away, your fingers sorting through your bag before pulling out a shiny diamond ring and slipping it back onto your ring finger.

He can’t help but feel a little disappointed at his realization, having almost fallen into the same web of lies you had intricately set up for him. Staring at him and knowing he’d catch you in the act, hoping to rope him in to bed one last time but the black band on his finger had been what broke the spell, making that same pit of disgust brew inside you and fill you with guilt at what you almost did.

As you walk out, eyes landing on Jungkook’s and noticing that he had spotted your own wedding band you give him that same shamless smile he had burned into his memory before slipping out of the bar altogether, returning home to your husband who would be none the wiser.

Jungkook just shakes his head as he reaches for another shot in the center of the table and throws it back, joining in with the laughter of his friends. Taehyung jostles him around as he recalls a story from the last time they were here but Jungkook’s mind is still focused on you.

Old habits died hard and it seemed like you never had any intention of changing. You may have left him shredded in a thousand parts but he took pride in being able to say that he put himself back together on his own, and when his phone lights up with a goofy selfie of his wife and their dog he realizes he had dodged a bullet, no longer hating the string of events that lead him to where he was now.

[discoursecatharsis]

Indefinite hiatus & archiving this account

I’m going to be taking an indefinite hiatus from this account. I’m not sure for how long, and I may or may not return in the future. But for now, I need a break from fandom discourse.

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I initially got involved in fandom “discourse” because I wanted to complain about self-named anti-Otayuris spamming the ship tag and generally being annoying and harassing shippers who were minding their own business. So I made a side account on Tumblr to vent about that. There were other accounts talking about these recent developments in fandom too, and I wanted an account to interact with them on. People started reblogging my posts, and others started to share their experiences of being harassed over ships or fanart or fanfic in their fandoms too in my replies and inbox. I made a Twitter account at some point also. I always just wanted a place to vent with others. I never imagined or expected that my accounts would garner this much attention or would blow up to the level that they’re at now.

As a result, honestly, as my follower numbers have grown and as I’ve gotten more involved in fandom discourse, it’s made me more and more anxious. This account has been making me feel like a nervous wreck the past year or so.

I also just don't have the spoons for much of it anymore. Some days, discourse makes me feel stressed or anxious. Most days, I'm apathetic to it, like it's the same old recycled nonsense. I've done this for a long while now and I feel like I need a nice, long break from it, probably a permanent break.

I believe that the topics involved in fandom discourse, the issue of fantis harassing people and making fandom toxic, etc. are still important to talk about and bring awareness to. But at the same time, I feel like I've done and said all that I can, and I'm feeling burnt out. I’m also feeling like I’m repeating myself at this point. There are only so many times that I can say some variation of “don’t harass people over fanart or fanfic, block artists/writers and leave them alone.” And I know many others are saying this as well. The harassers in fandom definitely do seem like a majority with how loud they are and how they so often get away with what they do. And while it may not seem like it, I do believe that more and more people in fandom are fed up with the harassment and starting to push back, starting to voice their annoyance with fandom harassers, and starting to stand up against it and support each other.

There are definitely more topics related to fandom discourse too, beyond this, of course. Some very serious and important topics to discuss, such as when there is bigotry in fandom spaces. Genuine criticism of various media (minus the harassment) is always good and healthy to have too. And I hope people will continue to talk about these topics and have these meaningful discussions.

I will no longer be active on Twitter or Tumblr, but I may continue making videos on my Youtube channel. I don’t make videos often but I’ve been enjoying it, and I think it’s a better outlet for me to focus my energy on. Creating videos on these topics at my own pace is definitely less stressful than being an active participant on Twitter.

My Twitter DMs will remain closed to new messages, just so if/when I do return, I won’t have a ton of new DMs. But I will leave my Tumblr inbox and curiouscat open for anonymous venting if you need it! Anonymous venting is one reason why I initially made my tumblr account after all, so I want to leave it like that.

I’ve kind of been using my second Twitter account (catharsiscourse) as a makeshift personal account, so if you would like to keep in touch with me, you can follow me there! I’ll only be somewhat active there but that’s where I retweet fanart and such.

You can find links to all of these accounts in my carrd here: https://lizcourserants.carrd.co/#links

Lastly, thank you all so much for the support over the years. I know I’m not perfect and I’ve made some mistakes. My intentions have always been good but I know I would sometimes get caught up in the discourse and miss the mark. So if I’ve ever hurt you in any way or said or did anything wrong, I’m sorry. My goal has always been to vent about and bring awareness to the toxicity that’s been rearing its ugly head in fandom spaces as of late. And even though I’ve messed up at times, I hope I brought more good than bad to the table.

I know fandom’s been a bit hellish to navigate lately and things seem grim at times. But if we keep speaking up like we have been and continue supporting each other and keeping to our groups of trusted fandom friends, I think we’ll be okay.

Remember to be kind and support your friends in fandom. Take care, everyone 🤍

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Also I'm not deactivating. I've worked too hard on my Tumblr blog and Twitter account and such and I couldn't bring myself to delete them lol. So I’ll leave my accounts up as an archive of sorts. But please feel free to bookmark, screenshot, or archive whatever you want or need, just in case my accounts get suspended or something.

Thank you all so much for the support throughout the years! I’m grateful for all of the lovely people I’ve met because of this. I hope you all continue to look out for yourselves and for each other both inside and outside of fandom. Stay safe and take care.❤️

I want to end this with something productive and helpful, so here are links to two organizations dedicated to eliminating child sexual abuse: ECPAT and Thorn. Please help however you can, whether that’s by donating or just sharing these organizations’ donation pages:

https://www.ecpat.org/donate/

https://www.thorn.org/donate/