#and instead it fizzles

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Ok fuck it I’m so sleep deprived I am going to parasocialize on main:

Champagne Problems came on my playlist when I was in the car this morning and it struck me that “you told your family for a reason, you couldn’t keep it in” kind of parallels how much wedding/marriage imagery was all over the Lover album with her telling the world she was ready to marry this person and in turn everyone expecting it to happen imminently but then by evermore we started getting all the relationship breakdown stories because no one was celebrating anymore 😵‍💫

[popfizzles]

fuckin had a dream that i streamed me playing The Binding of Isaac from a brand new save file all the way to the Dead God achievement and used this as a facecam model

[trimmedbushproductions]

anyway it's too early to call but I fully believe that what the Hells did back there mattered. Matt made a point to emphasize the ways in which Ludinus' plan was being thrown off. he had to fuck his hand up and give a portion of his lifeforce to accelerate time to the Solstice itself. the machine didn't have nearly as much power as it was supposed to. Ludinus is the kind of cackling villain who likes to claim All According To Plan, but it was obviously... not quite all according to plan

I could be giving Matt too much credit here but I don't think he's the kind of DM to just wave his hand and say "nothing you did mattered lol". I think the party came shy of checking all the boxes needed to avert this (like, say, fully convincing Liliana or finding a way to free Beau and Caleb) but we will see some kind of concession, some sign that Ludinus' plan did not achieve 100% of its goal

[tenthousandyearsx]

Trouble with your tie, Potter? by tenthousandyears

Words: 6.7k Rating: E Category: M/M Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Relationship: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter Additional Tags: Hogwarts Eighth Year, Enemies to Lovers, Getting Together, Semi-Public Sex, Idiots in Love, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Feelings, Top Draco Malfoy, Bottom Harry Potter, Exhibitionism, Sexual Discovery, Gryffindor Tie

The last thing Harry expects when Slughorn partners him up with Zabini is Malfoy shooting them furious looks throughout the whole class and then unceremoniously snogging Harry in the corridor.

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[legionofpotatoes]

been playing bits and pieces of horizon forbidden west! game's pretty as hell

[misspickman]

I dont think kon should ever be superman, that doesn't feel like the positive progression of his story, but there is something morbidly compelling to me about a world where he is the only choice for it and fills that role out of that deep sense of loyalty. Bc yeah its the purpose he was made for and now hes doing it! Wasnt that what he strived for all along! And yes he would be good at it, its been his whole life and hes super competent and powerful bc ttk is insane. And he would never feel good enough, would never be confident that hes doing as well as clark had, and years down the line he'd still feel like a 16yo kid with too big shoes to fill

[sleaterkinnie]

my ass is not making it through these next three days of work

[clambuoyance]

“It’s all right—I understand…You’re like me—didn’t have a normal childhood, spent most of it in a laboratory, no contact with the real world…”

This is catering to me specifically. Something something about serling understanding what it’s like to realize how naive and young you actually are, and thus being able to understand kon more than the others 😔😖💜

[popfizzles]

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[macadam]

Can you make a poll on if orange vs red Ratchet or Deep Fried Rodimus is more better and influential

I would love to. Alas tumblr has not bestowed the gift of poll creation upon me. Perhaps they fear the power I might then hold

[miutonium]

Unrelated to my blog but anyway hi I just found out that I'm probably aromantic lol ✌️😗

[eatsteas]

im glad new people are able to have fun being the new wave of fans for redacted thing but seeing that makes me a bit melancholic bc everything went so downhill so fast for me and my group of buds 😔 but idk at the same time i don't really care that much bc im not 15 years old anymore

[osterby]

A hilarious and not untirely unforeseen problem with having gotten back into writing:

I'm at my most creative and productive when I'm kind of tired, so the best way to get something written is to do the first draft after bedtime, and then edit and polish after a good night's sleep.

Except I get carried away and end up staying awake bashing out words and not sleeping, which is something I haven't actually been able to sustain since I hit my thirties. I can't actually pull 24 hours of creative giddiness out of nowhwere and then just sleep it off in one night anymore. I have to sleep or I'll be miserable for the next week, and whatever youthful vigour used to let me stay awake and active when I was tired is long since fled.

I am going to have to find a way to channel that slighty sleepy creative rush into well rested hours.

[cultivatingyourfuture]

grinning emoji. you know which guy im thinking abkut rn. how well does he deal with being a catch and release

ok originally i had paragraphs upon paragraphs about why vallen is what he is but it got too complicated and far away from the og question so. sorry it took me a while 2 answer this LOL !!!

anyways. pretty well actually? like of course the nature of what they are BOTHERS him, why wouldn't it, but it's not like its their fault what happened happened. being made into what they were for the reasons they were is on the people who did it. vallen, at least by the end, knows what he wants and that the only persons whims he's to be beholden to are their own. he's not going to feel guilt on behalf of what another person used them to do, and they sure as hell aren't going to spend the rest of their life questioning why they are where they are because he knows why-- because he wants to be. and that's all that matters

vallens kind of ended up being a bit of a narrative foil for cherry (gay as fuck in my opinion) the more i focus on him because you know how i love my parallels and contrasting personalities , and one big way this manifests is how they regard their memories. obviously cherrys very attached to and fixated on what little they can gleam from the vaguest hints of whatever they lost and is very bothered by this lack of answers for where they came from or why. vallen, meanwhile, is characterized by a need to forget-- to bury their memories, not think about it, distract himself or erase it through any means necessary. it's only when that lack of memory becomes a problem that it starts to bother them-- when he starts noticing that something is very, very different and they cant pinpoint what happened or why, only a terrible sense of dread and a vague idea that something awful has happened. the one time hes spared the burden of remembering is the one time he, you know, **needs** to remember what happened-- to figure out whats going on with themself and, later, to help someone he does actually end up really caring about. (i also, sometimes, wonder if there's some resentment to be gained from knowing someone who got the chance to leave it all behind and start over in the exact way you'd want to. food for thought.) it's a wake up call to how he's been living-- do they really want to live their whole life pushing these things down, not confronting it on a meaningful level, just letting what happens to them happen and praying they'll black out before the worst of it? probably not. it obviously doesn't fix everything but it does get them asking some difficult questions that they've been ignoring for a long while now.

anyways when they're first confronted with this stuff he pretty much wants nothing to do with it-- he doesn't know anything about why theyre like this and wouldn't be able to help otherwise, and besides that he's not getting involved in something that seems like someone else's problem to deal with. he does kind of come around but it's less out of a desire to find out what's wrong with him and more of a desire to figure out why it's such a big deal for cherry because they just. Dont get it. she's lucky not to remember anything, after all, and why waste your time on something that's probably going to hurt you in the end when you can live your damn life and move on with it. and learning those answers does kind of actually endear them to each other and whoops they're friends now toooooo fucking bad

fizzle does find that vallen has technology within him that suggests remote piloting and this does IMMENSELY bother them and he does get it deactivated as soon as he can. the idea that he's been used in a way that negates any part of his will or wants makes him feel sick and angry and does motivate him to be involved with the story but he comes to make peace with it because. whatever he was used for, it. wasnt him. and they are not going to let someone give them the guilt that THEYRE supposed to possess. (more parallels. being made into something for the purpose of what someone else wants. continuation of the themes of "you are not responsible for the shit other people do to you" etc) which also baffles cherry bc if it was him she'd have a crisis of conscious . vallens good for making them calm the hell down sometimes i think but that's another post

the literal concrete reasoning for why vallen is what he is only comes out during that stretch of time where cherry is dead and that reasoning does initially throw him for a loop-- the idea you were made to find someone else and that not only did it work but it's the pretext for Why you came to care about them is unnerving-- but those people are gone now, and he's not controlled by them or anyone else anymore, and he still stays up at night to watch diagnostics flicker and to see if anything at all comes back online outside of their input, and he's sick of other people defining what he's supposed to feel or want and god damn it, they're the closest they've been to being happy in a while, and he refuses to let that be defined by anything else. he cares about people because he chose to and that's all that matters, and anyone who thinks that's a weakness to be utilized is not only wrong but fucking stupid. they're here because they want to be; if they didn't then they wouldn't. he's not going to let that define what he feels or thinks because that's up to them and not someone else.

anyway he's still not quite to the point where i want them, obviously, but i am trying to take the initial idea of their character-- someone who isn't impacted the way others were by this singular event partly because theyve already been through so much that this just. doesn't faze them the way it probably should-- and trying to extend it in new ways. vallens really bad about fitting into the molds other people make for them and letting other people tell them what they feel or what they are and i do like the idea that they end deciding to prioritize their wants and needs and feelings after Not Doing That.

there's some interesting themes here about the nature of autonomy and how that feeds into things like addiction and objectification but ill spare you the analysis on that. blows the fuck up

[amethyst-noir]

I'm sick again. It's been almost two weeks since the last time, yay. So, before going to sleep I wanted to take some medicine. I also wanted to take it before I go and brush my teeth so I took the glass with me to the computer while the tablet was dissolving because that always takes an age and I'm easily bored.

Of course I turned over the glass while setting it down on the coaster on my desk.

The casualties include:

A Book (Erha, Vol. 2, if it dries badly I can buy another copy),

A Zine (Word of Honor, irreplacable, might be salvagable),

A notepad (MDZS, included in a zine and so very cute and also very irreplacable, totally drenched. When it dries it will be wavy mess and probably not something I can ever write on again. I haven't dared to look at it too closely if the printing is ruined because I don't want to cry right now),

I also drenched a pencilcase but that's fabric so it should dry without marks.

I'm my own biggest fan right now. Yes, my desk is in order. I just have the stuff I'm currently reading and my planner/notepad right next to my computer because it's the only damn place in the apartment where I have enough light to read. The water avoided the computer (thankfully) but drenched everything else, including the floor.

(How can half of a not-very-big glass do so much damage?!)