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it’s Maria Health Problem Time over here; prayers appreciated if you could spare them!
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Aventurine wants you to think his love language is gift giving, considering he's constantly giving you gifts and doing things for you. He's a bold spender, 15,000 on a ring, 100,000 for a new, custom designed coat, and whatever other jaw-dropping amounts of credits he can spend on you, he will. It seems to anyone else that Aventurine really loves giving gifts, he showers you in presents more than anyone else- and he's a pretty big spender for anyone.
But, really, his love language is physical touch and quality time. Just having you near, being in your company, it's enough to make his heart skip a beat. Actually being able to touch you, have a hand against your shoulder- or waist- pulling you close enough that you're practically squished against him, whatever annoyingly couple-y stuff he can do, he will do so.
#dragon queen rambling#♡ character yapping#honkai star rail x reader#hsr x reader#aventurine x reader#writing for Aventurine is so fun#every action he does is based on two things -#what he wants you to think#and what he doesnt want to think about#he wants you to think that hes some cool richboy who would drop a fortune on you#or anyone#he wants his relationships to look surface level#because he cant afford for anyone to try for anything more#but what he doesnt want to think about is how touch starved he is#how youve wormed your way into his heart to the point where just being in your presence has him all#“💞🩷💓❤️💓🩷💕💕💓”#so he doubles down on the gift giving#because its the easiest way to hide his actual feelings#by playing into his stereotype#it also leads into his self-worth issues#nobody has reason to stick around with *him*#hes worth a pathetic 60 tabana#but the things he can buy? people will do anything for a fraction of his fortune#youll stick around if he keeps showering you in gifts#because he doesnt have any worth#but everything he can buy you has a massive price tag that makes up for it
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I've recently seen again a post talking about the Sableye and Dusknoir's relationship so i'd like to put my two cents in the discussion, for I love screaming into the void about PMD. (this isnt meant to discourage any other interpretations btw this is just my take on theirs and Dusknoir's relationship, bc I think they're very fun characters and I am very glad the game actually gives these minions a bit of relevance in se5).
Tbh I don't buy that Dusknoir treats the Sableye nicely, at least not out of kindness. I don't think he's a tyrant or inexplicably mean, of course, and I think his minions ADORE him, but i also believe that doesn't mean he's nice to them, sth that i consider meaningful for their character arcs.
Throughout the entire game he's exclusively giving them orders, in se5 he concocts a plan that involves thrashing them MULTIPLE times (he's lucky Grovyle isn't one to try and kill enemies in battle ig), and the cherry on top is that the first time we see him being fully genuine he does this:
(yes, he is in turmoil in here, but there's not a single thing implying that 1. this is an unusual response towards the sablye, 2. dusknoir feels bad for it at some point or is surprised at himself, 3. this has any impact in the sableye at all. You can argue these reactions happen off screen and we don't see them, they don't happen bc they have pressing matters to attend to or they happen after they return to life, and that's perfectly valid, but i'm sticking with what the game shows us, here.)
I must say, though, the fact that the Sableye, despite having been almost mindless pokémon up to now, STAND UP TO AND ATTACK Primal Dialga for their boss and even try to look after him despite him ordering them to check on Grovyle and Celebi first is SO important to me. they are goons to the bone and they love that scheming ghost so much.
My own view is that Dusknoir is generally polite to them (you wouldn't randomly break your own revolver or weapon without any reason, would you?), but is quicker to get mean with them than with people he doesn't know or he is seeking to manipulate. He doesn't care about their behaviour as long as they get the job done, which is why I think the anime thing of the Sableye climbing onto his shoulder isn't that remarkable, rather it's a very cute moment, one that is showing how they've been working together for long and how their size difference affects their interactions, but it is not necessarily conveying an affectionate bond (this is a bit random, but it reminds me of Disney's Jafar with Iago lmao. throw your pet sableye at your enemies so they mock them and then return to your shoulder). Additionally, Dusknoir letting the Sableye onto his shoulder is probably as close as we are gonna get to a villain turning around in his chair while petting a cat in PMD lol.
[this isn't meant to be a one-to-one comparison, it's just a detail i find cute and shows that this gesture can have multiple interpretations, with none being the only right one]
Leaving that aside, I hesitate to claim Dusknoir trusts his Sableye as allies, as Grovyle makes a point in the main story of how the Sableye (your Sableye, he says, as if objectifying them; not friends, but tools, weapons at Dusknoir's disposal) are lacking compared to the way hero/partner/grovyle support one another (power of friendship and hidden information babyyyy). The Sableye are used to Dusknoir's way of doing things, though, I'm sure. They know what happens when he's displeased, after all.
I think, most of all, the Sableye are meant to look disposable: they are 6 identical pokémon that almost act like a hivemind, and we are not supposed to think at all about how we may hurt them in battle any more than we do with the angry Manectric pack or random dungeon pokémon. This, I believe, is why the game has them stand up against Dialga and gives them unique dialogue at the end of se5. They're meant to show their inner shine, just as Dusknoir managed to do. They suddenly gain an individuality they had never shown while they were working to maintain the dark future.
Where they abandoned Dusknoir in the Old Ruins, now Grovyle has motivated them to look for their dignity and fight for a better world, and that starts with protecting their leader from Primal Dialga's rampage, and supporting his new objective and allies in their quest to save the future. In their own small way, they've also grown as characters throughout SE5.
I believe that, overall, Dusknoir saw the Sableye as tools, but thanks to their growth and clear care for him, there's a possibility he might start to see them (and by extension other pokémon) in a more genuine, less pragmatic / objectifying way in the future. Now that Dusknoir has the chance to live a fulfilling life, he may learn to care for others without surrounding himself by so many walls. If anything, I think their future is quite bright. Not that the Sableye would mind if he still thrashed them around, though lol, they're clearly not bothered much by it (special episode 0 had a great depiction of the sableye imo, you can check that romhack if you haven't yet).
In conclusion, look at these little guys who adore their can-get-mean-but-is-mostly-polite boss and probably have a body count but now are good, they're so cute:
#tldr: i think dusknoir not being nice and them being cowards is what makes their se5 actions more significant. they both have an arc#this is all surface level analysis i know but thats how i read them#i didnt bother to talk about grov saying the sableye do 'all the dirty work' around the future bc i didnt know where to put it but. uh.#add that to the prepared execution room and i think these guys have killed people lmao#i must reiterate this isnt throwing shade to any headcanons this is just what i got from the game. people are free to have fun.#also. dusknoir in the middle of his se5 panic attack and existential crisis: get the fuck out of my way this is my moment#HE GETS OUT OF HIS CRISIS ANIMATION SO FAST TOO. HE REALLY SAYS 'not now sweaty. daddy's having some him time' and slaps them#so he can go back to his drama queen pose#hes so awesome. gay toxic uncle behavior#his nemesis is in agony the entire time while this happens. se5 is truly peak fiction#the height difference is so funny too#like no wonder dusknoir didnt have any issue trying to kill the mcs. the sableye are tinier than some starter options ewionfwojfewo#highly throwable imps they are#him beign a bit jerk and him letting the sableye climb him up to give him rocks like in the anime special are not mutually exclusive. to me#this is pokemon. these magic creatures constantly beat up each other#the sableye get climbing privileges if they are good boys and it is useful to give him what he's looking for. and also it's very cute#this was gonna be just a textpost but then it got long and i strted looking for game moments that seemed relevant to the sableye oops#i like to babble about this game and dusknoir especially#sableye#dusknoir#pmd2#'scribz isnt it cringe to write 500 words retelling the events of a children's game' look if 90% of eos video essays can do it then so can#this is the closest thing my lacking understanding can manage to a meta/analysis post ig
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So some of y’all saw Luke throw away his lightsaber, defying the Emperor and Dark Side’s near-irresistible pull by preventing himself the means by which to realize that temptation, in a callback to Yoda and the cave’s warning that his final confrontation with Vader would attempt to twist every part of himself against himself, including his face, family, and yes, saber, and concluded that the lightsaber was the problem? Embarrassing fr
#bro if that was the issue he WOULDN’T HAVE KEPT IT#like everyone can have their interpretations but some are embarrassing#that is the most surface level reading of the scene IMAGINABLE#ooooh he threw away the saber to win clearly meaning the saber was Actually Bad!!!#bros. sisses. sibs. throwing away the saber DIDNT EVEN LET HIM WIN#star wars#is this the original post tag#star wars return of the jedi#return of the jedi#star wars rotj#rotj#sw rotj#luke skywalker#lightsabers#i guess this can be meta but honestly it’s more shade than anything#meta#jedi meta#star wars meta#help idk how to tag meta here
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Are true riverdale fans of the opinion it is a very good and nearly flawless show or does being a true riverdale fan mean being able to mock writing choices
it's long-running serial television plotted a season/half at a time so definitely not even "nearly" flawless.
BUT. i'm not doing combat with the writing team. i'm not actively reading against the text the way i have to in order to enjoy something like supernatural or the 90s robin comics or the fucking sopranos, which are patriarchal christiancore copworld rapeworld white supremacist horrorshows that hate their minority audiences, with like 2 good creatives involved and martyring themselves to fight the good fight on sparse rare installments if you try to approach them sincerely.
riverdale writing staff are like a favorite smart problematic tumblr mutual to me. I don't always like what's on their blog or who they're referencing. but we're in the same community and i'm interested and inspired and i trust their agenda overall, even when i see shit i wouldn't have fucking posted. but bc i'm not being condescended to or actively spited i'm not gonna condescend to or spite them, you know?
i expect rvd to age like twin peaks (another very uneven, highly referential serial juggling a couple of intensely cool metanarratives on top of its core story). and twin peaks fandom mocks twin peaks all the time. twin peaks includes some CLUNKY shit. it's kitsch. it's camp. it has a second season that is largely ASS. james is there. and on top of that it also includes some genuinely offputting-to-me stuff that just bothers me to sit through, even though i feel like i understand and respect what they're going for with it. i just don't want to watch someone sweep the fucking bar for minutes and minutes as entertainment. OK!!?
...so yeah. mock riverdale but in the right spirit. is that an answer? do i sound like i'm chugging the flavoraid koolaid fresh-aid? probably.
#i like the way people mock the flop parts of twin peaks and i enjoy it when people mock the flop parts of riverdale in the same tone#but rvd NOT one of those shows where the fandom is the thing that makes it good by appropriating and rearranging it. like some listed above#riverdale isn't dumb. it's not thoughtless. it's a lowbrow postmodern love letter to trash media and it takes a lot of big risky swings.#and its juggling act does NOT always work in practice. i don't always agree with the tradeoffs it takes to balance like.#the mainline text AND the queer subtext AND the fanfictiony iterative media riffs AND the genre meta AND the actual canonical metaplot#but it really does reward curiosity and close-reading. it's like a little puzzle cube you have to turn over a few times sometimes to solve#i feel judgmental about people who hit 'post' on what's obviously like a very surface level reaction without much thought put into it#ohhh the show challenged you? the show folded continuity over on itself and you can't hang anymore? you didn't get what you expected?#and now you're being dismissive instead of sitting with it? ok. dork.#riverdale#(it's not really that serious. but you asked and i'm feeling so so very earnest about Posting today. love you thanks for asking)#(would love to know what parts you most want to mock. i have my own list. eNdGaMe is at the top of it. jughead's mommy issues era too)
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This 4th of July I’m stealing the patriotism euphoria that’s usually associated with assholes idolizing the worst attributes of this country because fuck ‘em I live here too and remembering the things this country actually got Right is an important exercise when trying to rally anyone to want to defend it in November SO putting my money where my mouth is I’ll start easy and say I really like National Parks!! It’s rad how many of them there are and how they’re actual set up to preserve some of the most beautiful wild areas in our country while still letting people visit to enjoy and experience nature!! (Less important but I love how they put national parks on the quarters I think that’s real fun)

Feel free to add on if something speaks to ya!
#The hypothesis I’m testing here is that remembering there are good things now and then can combat apathy a little bit#and this is the one day of the year where everyone has a free pass to say nice things about the US so!#some other fun freebies:#public libraries are really cool!! Love visiting them and I should do that way more#bit of a funnier one but I think our interstate highways are really nice#like I’d love trains too but it’s really cool how you can travel the whole country relatively easily like it’s all pretty connected#I love how women have equal rights! We’re backsliding a little right now which is why it’s so important to latch onto this now!#I love how we don’t have a draft- this one might point to some other issues in the country#but at least from a surface level it’s great that military service isn’t mandatory#If you aren’t in the US and still want to play go for it!#today I’m encouraging everyone to pick at least one little positive thing they like#and then down the line if you’re wondering why voting matters at all#maybe remember that little thing y’know#Do it for the national parks and the libraries and gay marriage and stuff#humming-rambles#anyways that’s my social experiment for the day hope y’all get to see some fun fireworks later!
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If you are still taking requests... any papyrus with a stuffed animal? (my first thought was Edge, or Dusk, because both deserve soft comfy things)

I have the biggest soft spot for fell papyri w/ plush you are SO correct
#they do!!! whoag#another slightly less messy one. I really gotta stop trying so hard and relax#computer how do you ‘relax’#I don’t think I’m gunna get very far. this isn’t even a computer it’s an ipad#anyway. ty <333#snow and hail#clear sky sunset#anonymous#hf dusk#horrorfell papyrus#secret tag hc no one asked for: I love to hc all Papyri like plush bc of having sensitive bones and sensory issues. they feel nice.#and everyone probably has different types of faves (like some like them w/ beads or firm or squishy or like memory foam; diff fabrics etc)#but they all love plush just the same. even tho the fell boys probably all have some weird complex abt it </3#I feel like none of them would even know what stimming or sensory overload is until well after surfacing. probably just think they’re other#’weird papyrus things’ and then it’s like. nah man ur just autistic#I mean they’re super weird bc of [REDACTED]. but also autistic#okay sorry for hijacking the post. byeee
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"It's normal for siblings to fight" Okay well it's not normal to be extremely classist and look down on your sister for being non-conforming. Or to go to the woman who ordered the death of your pet to tell her about your father's plans, when he specifically warned you against doing so, because you want to marry the boy you saw attack your sister and her friend (contributing partially to said father's death and your sister being unable to escape on the ship he chartered). Or to think of your sibling as unsatisfactory in comparison to another when you believe her to be dead. I notice that none of the "Sansa and Arya are going to reunite and instantly have no issues" crowd ever acknowledge any of this, which makes it seem like they don't actually believe what they say about their relationship being normal and easily reconciled. People wanting them to have no issues simply because they're siblings is another example of how fandom likes to flatten complex characters and relationships. They get reduced to being bickering siblings when their conflict runs deeper than that. If the author is telling you that they have "deep issues" to work out [X], I don't understand being so adamant about ignoring said issues. I also get the sense it's about ignoring the capacity for a certain character to be flawed, but that isn't going to change the fact that her "slip of the tongue" is very likely to be revealed and a source of further conflict 🤷🏾♀️
#arya stark#sansa stark#house stark#asoiaf#also if it's so normal for siblings to fight then why are you guys losing your minds over us theorizing they won't get along??#the amount of condescending /that's just how siblings act/ takes I see 🙄#sorry I guess? that we read the book and don't just delete parts of the story because we find it convenient?#it's not even like takes about them being enemies is widespread the most I see is that they aren't instantly bffs when they reunite 😭#some people theorize they'll never be close but guess what? that's a completely fair and valid assumption based on their relationship!#personally I think they'll have a sweet reunion before the issues they have inevitably surface again because while they've been through#a lot they haven't fundamentally changed as people or the values they hold#and I think that's going to be very interesting to read about!#I can't figure out why people always take the most boring bland route for how things will play out#mostly because people seem to be unable to swallow the concept that Sansa is a flawed character who isn't perfectly sweet all the time#and the fact that their conflict is instigated by Sansa's classism#which is funny cause in the grand scheme of things her being mean to Arya is such a mild thing that opens the door to a ton of growth#never seen anybody but stansas equating her being a bully to her sister to her being evil/a villain#all we do is point out that it exists in the story...people in this fandom have no concept of nuance I stg 😭#anyways they're both complex characters and their conflict is interesting and I hope we get to see how it plays out#cause it's definitely going to be better then that trash d&d came up with 🙏🏾
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I've previously joked about Fan Xian's daddy issues wrt the emperor, but on a rewatch, they surprisingly seem to surface for the first time in s2 episode 6. Or at least, that's the best way I can explain Fan Xian's approach to accusing the Second Prince of treason at family brunch.
I mean, it goes without saying that he wanted to reveal the Second Prince's crimes and bring him to justice. That's a given. But frankly, there were better ways to do that if that was the only thing on his mind. No, imo his other goal here was to test the emperor—the emperor's feelings about justice, and also about Fan Xian himself. He wanted to get a read on his importance to the emperor after finding out that he was secretly one of the emperor's kids.
The emperor has blown hot and cold to Fan Xian over time! He's given him a lot of leeway and indulgence, but on the other hand also sent him to Northern Qi and put him in danger, and also got properly furious at the whole fake death act. It's hard to figure him out. Fan Xian has reason to believe the emperor might value him; even right before the confrontation, the emperor summons him to family brunch with the princes (point 1 in the 'favour' column) and fakes his punishment for deceiving the ruler (point 2 in the 'favour' column). But ultimately Fan Xian doesn't know whom to trust at the moment, and he wants to see where the emperor stands on everything. And how Fan Xian measures up against the real princes in his estimation.
So he takes a gamble. And loses.
"Who do you think you are?" the emperor thunders at him, after he accuses the Second Prince.
And Fan Xian's mouth twists, like: also your kid, actually. But apparently my words don't weigh anything with you when an actual prince is here.
And he says as much to Chen Pingping later, while angrily cleaning the monument with his mother's words: "The emperor protected his own son. It's only natural." With the heavy implication of—he's chosen the son he wants to protect, and that's not me. And he's mad about everything that's happening—that the emperor chooses to shield the Second Prince even when he's committing crimes—but also a little about the fact that the emperor sided with the Second Prince over him.
(And then Chen Pingping says that the emperor didn't actually take Fan Xian's bureau position away, and does want him to investigate the Second Prince after all. And in so doing, he gets Fan Xian to calm down. Much of Fan Xian's new equilibrium is, of course, down to how he now sees a way to fight against the Second Prince! But he does stand up a little straighter once he realises the emperor wasn't actually against him that whole time. And imo that means something.)
#we're just not used to this emotional vulnerability from fan xian and so it's a look on him that's hard to recognise#he doesn't normally have issues about other people like that. he doesn't care what anyone thinks of him normally#but the parentage reveal did hit him hard in northern qi. he’s been very chill about all family things but he’s not made of stone either.#though. girl. this is a bad dad to have issues about. probably the worst dad you could've chosen. and you have OPTIONS#joy of life spoilers#joy of life#joy of life 2#(though just to be clear--i don't mean to say that fan xian likes the emperor or generally seeks his approval. it's not about that really#but there are some complex bitter feelings that surface from time to time towards the emperor specifically. and none of the other dads)
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Felt like making some relationship thingies with my agent ocs <3
#keese draws#oc art#oc#splatoon#splatoon oc#inkling oc#octoling oc#salmonid oc#some of the icons are actually a bit old but eternity and grit’s were drawn today 👍#oh I just realized that I forgot to mention eternity by name in his section on sash’s page. he’s the other salmonid#eh yknow what I’ll put agent tags on this#agent 3#agent 4#agent 8#neo agent 3#yknow I used to say off all my agents jim probably comes closest to their ‘canon’ counterpart but now idk#not that the competition is stiff enough for jim to not be on the table either way but yknow#sash may have the internal drama going on but they rly don’t act much different from captain 3#well from a surface level anyways#jim is kind of similar but she just also has a deep violent rage inside her#and by that I mean during splatoon 2 she was Incredibly violent and not in a hee hoo chaos kind of way#more in a. oh there’s smth wrong with this kid sort of way.#they’re doing a lot better mentally and physically nowadays but back then shit was Rough.#and even nowadays jim has plenty of hashtag issues that do make themselves very apparent#basically they’re too much of a lil edgelord (affectionate) for me to wanna give them that title anymore lol#anyways ignore me having a favorite child I love all my children equally <3#also sorry that check and grits relationships are kinda boring the two just don’t rly interact with others much#they’re both autistic 14 year olds who are completely nonverbal 90% of the time#and one of them has a anxiety disorder and that’s the one who plays sports so they don’t make friends much in general#grit mostly hangs out at home making music on their laptop when check is out splatting those zones or whatever
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Me: I'm not sure if my health can withstand a commute. Should I try to go in tomorrow?
Apollo: no
Me: should I plan to work from home?
Apollo: no
Me: ...
Apollo:
Me: migraine?
Apollo: migraine.
#(cue it starting immediately afterwards)#i managed to take some painkillers in time to stave the migraine off but i still felt like shit the next day#so i couldnt have worked regardless#this was monday night (and tbf sunday & monday were *extremely* tiring days. i was falling asleep while crocheting & playing ac#which is rare even considering my fatigue issues)#yes/no divination has been great as a way to consult apollo without pulling out the tarot deck (which is more time consuming and takes#a *lot* more spoons)#the only issue is that when i do the stones or tarot i tend to get on a Divination Kick tm which is. not helpful b/c what am i going to do??#i've already finished asking what i needed to ask???#i should probably funnel that burst of dopamine/hyperfixation into researching different methods actually#gonna add that to the routine#also! working out the kinks with the yes/no method. doing it on my floor? no good. inconsistent results. Feels Bad. Loud#doing it on my bed? wonderful 10/10. very consistent results. Feels Good. not loud#i still do tarot on the floor though b/c having a flat sturdy surface is nice#for reference: my commute is 2-2.5 hrs each way via public transit. the sensory experience drains me *very* fast if im not careful and#we're in Purgatory Weather season where it's *juuust* warm & humid enough to maybe be a problem but isnt one For Sure#*and* the state fair is on so the trains are gonna be packed when im trying to get home#coriander says#helpol#hellenic pagan#hellenic polytheism#apollo#theoi#pagans of tumblr#hellenic community#paganblr
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Shigeo still doesn’t know how to answer. He hasn’t answered, and he knows that’s weird, and maybe a bit creepy, but it’s also characteristic of him, so maybe he doesn’t need to stress over it. He simply sits there in the heavy rain instead and watches Reigen’s pink tie get dragged by the gales. And then Serizawa crouches down, lowers his hand out, and shelters Shigeo’s head with the draped fabric of a clear umbrella. In Shigeo’s world, the rain stops.
scene from my wip fic recondite :]
#qkdraws#id in alt#jay you've GOTTA stop jumping into projects u don't know how to do . rainwater on Any surface is not ur specialty#actually ykw scratch that. that's how u learn#follow ur dreams kids#im so happy i can finish big pieces in one day now. started this just earlier today#i've always wanted to do that and now i can. success <3#also i've realized over the years that sometimes u jump into a project and expect one part to be hard#but that part is actually the easiest bit and some other trivial bullshit is the issue. yeah the umbrella#doing the umbrella was fine. doing the rainwater ? uhm i did my best#ALSO also sorry that this is the same snippet i posted a while ago i just think this scene means a lot to the both of them#and i think abt it a good bit#mob psycho 100#mp100#mob psycho#shigeo kageyama#mp100 shigeo#mp100 mob#serizawa katsuya#mp100 serizawa#ayyyee two for two on actual backgrounds in art for this fic. wowie
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I know it’s due to my bias considering I never played early access, but I honestly love Wyll the way he is in-game? It makes me sad how many people find him boring compared to his EA self.
I mean certain aspects of EA Wyll have piqued my interest even if I only know a limited amount of things from that version of the character. But imo there's a lot of conflict and duality built into a genuinely lawful/neutral good guy who's also a fiend pact warlock. Like that is already more compelling to me than a morally gray fake hero overall.
I think I feel this way because I'm comparing him to the rest of the companions too. I'd argue that most of them lean toward neutral morality, so the fact that Wyll has sturdy, unyielding principles makes him stand out, at least in that way specifically.
It is a bummer that some of his original flavor got stripped away, but I guess hearing people act like ALL of Wyll's characterization disappeared feels wrong as well.
#so many of the companions start out as kinda cliche and then you get to learn their backstories and find out they're subversions#it feels like some fans conveniently leave out parts of wyll's character and act like he's this surface level hero and that's it#and yes larian is at fault here but it feels like the bigger issue is the lack of content and not wyll's entire character?#wyll ravengard#bg3
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at the end of son of neptune hazel thinks to herself that she would make any sacrifice to keep frank safe, including dying, and she thinks in mark of athena about how she owes nico her life. they're the two people hazel cares about most, but that being said, hazel also expresses in son of neptune that there are worse things than death. i think the only person she ever would have done all of the horrible things that stemmed from her curse for is her mother. she'd die for her loved ones or to save the world or to fix her mistakes, but she unwillingly killed for her mother. there's no one else in the world she would have been exploited for, have helped gaea for. and because of that, hazel's never going to put herself in that vulnerable position again or let someone else have that kind of power over her again, but she'll still be afraid that somehow history could repeat itself.
#asterisk unless or until she has children of her own#which frankly would dredge many of her issues up to the surface#idk this is kind of straying into headcanon territory bc the word “unwillingly” is doing some heavy lifting there lol#like how much agency hazel had in all that (very little) is up for debate#its important vital actually that frank and nico believe in her and can't see anything but the best in her#but something about you and only one other person knowing exactly what you are capable of#bc she created you in every sense#hazel levesque
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thinking about going to church again, not for any religious reasons i just wanna sit in a room and experience what it's like as a nonbeliever because i haven't been in a church service ever since leaving the faith
kinda fascinated by religion as a whole so it seems like it could be interesting but i also know that i will most likely get weird looks for being so obviously queer. i will also be bored out of my mind and annoyed at the manipulative sad piano
but sometimes they have free snacks so
#yapposting#even while i was a believer the manipulative sad piano made me so mad like. why are u stooping to that is this really necessary#fuck you manipulative sad piano i will hate you 4ever#also worried that being in that building will surface up some.... not great memories of the people i went with (mommy issues amiright chat)#i could always go to a different one tho! maybe to the one thats just a few minutes away from my house i bet that one is different enough#......hopefully not in a horrible way......#i can bring a lil notepad and write notes about things and maybe doodle gay lawyers in the middle of the sermon#it WOULD be a good way to gain knowledge for my nrmt jesus au. so really it would be practical#for the gay lawyers!!!
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2024 reads / storygraph
Song of the Huntress
historical fantasy set in 8th century Britain
follows three characters:
a woman who has spent centuries leading the wild hunt & reaping souls after being tricked into it, who disguises herself as a human to enter the kingdom
the queen of Wessex who never lives up to the demands of the court, despite leading their people in battle - and after a battlefield defeat they turn against her
and her husband, the king, deals with magic and political upheaval as his brother tries to usurp him and conflict arises between new and old religions
bi woman MC, lesbian MC, ace man MC
#Song of the Huntress#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#This is - okay? some very interesting and complex characters#i liked the women of the wild hunt and I liked how aethelburg as a warrior queen is just sort of normal not some kind of girlboss thing#it’s very slow paced - I doubt I would have gotten through it if not for the audiobook#the historical setting and details and complexity of the plot is interesting#I did read it for the ace character so:#unsure how i feel about how his asexuality's the reason for the problem in their relationship. like the book tries to make it the issue tha#he didn't TELL her about it but.....but ultimately it is just his asexuality as the issue. idk. not that I don't think that this kind of#ace narrative shouldn’t be explored I guess. it was just a smidge too portrayed as him being the problem#I feel like if he were aroace at least it’d be like okay; she finds in someone else what he doesn’t want to give her#but he literally does love her romantically lol. which makes the subplot of the romance between the women like......ok she's cheating#bc her husband won't fuck her? not to minimise complex characters down to surface level ships but also….#the sapphic relationship is kinda undeveloped/insta attraction and not much else -the book is conscious of this &#I don't think it tries that much to convince us it's something more than that (other than how it affects the character's personal journeys)#but still. idk. I guess I do like that it doesn't conform to perfect-narrative-romances but evidently unsure about how it did so#this makes it sound like I hated the asexuality and the sapphic relationship - I didn't hate either I just didn't love them lol#also his sister is also aroace and becomes a nun and otherwise she's offscreen - lost opportunity imo!
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