#and tbh we aren't really doing anything at this point we basically just chill

[druidicity]

god i hate that i’m a horny young queer man freshly moved to a big city but there is a covid pandemic + a monkeypox pandemic + i am extremely cautious and care about public health + i’m trans and anxious about birth control/getting killed. i genuinely do not know what the appropriate way to go about this is and so for now i am just not having any sex or going to any clubs or being exciting at all and i have sooooo much fomo about it but i also don’t want to get covid/monkeypox or be a superspreader but also since i am not currently having sex i feel like getting the monkeypox vax would be somehow stupid of me or taking it away from people who need it more, but since i don’t have the vax i’m deterred from going out, and so the cycle continues god i hate it

[trashfangirlsworld]

Hello! I've been inactive due to the current events in the mcyt community, but I've been keeping up with the qsmp admin situation and I thought I'd share some opinions because the amount of doomposting I've seen the last few weeks has been more than I've seen in any fandom in a while and I feel like it's reached the point where people really need to chill the fuck out because they're not thinking straight and actively not helping. Everything I'm gonna say is based on stuff I've seen on both tumblr and twitter.

they should not promote/release merch! : one of the things that baffles me the most tbh; how do you expect any employee to be payed then? Merch is so far the only big source of income for the server besides q's own cc salary or whatever income they get through the official qsmp channel on twitch and youtube (which I don't think is a lot). "I get that they said they have no funds, but still it doesn't feel right"... sorry but at this point I don't know what to tell you, do you expect them to pull money out of their asses? You can't demand that they stop making merch and then complain that they can't afford the twitter admins at the same time. If you don't feel comfortable buying anything from them it's fine obviously, but if your reason for it is that you're helping the admins then I have bad news for you. I have seen people propose that quackity sets up a patreon, and while I think it would be a good idea, I understand why he's not doing it, since with the merch he can at least give something back to the people that choose to support his project instead of people just giving him money for free, especially with what's happening now. Also with how much hate he's been receiving simply for the merch I can't imagine that a patreon would be recieved well.

we don't know if the money is going to the admins/ they should not use pomme's likeness! : the money is definitely going to go to the employees and admins because otherwise the server would not last. And as much as I understand people feeling protective over pomme's admin, quackity studios is very much allowed to sell merch of the character because it is not the likeness of the admin, it's a minecraft model made by the people that work there. Would you have rathered they skip her character entirely? Do you really think that would have been okay?. Also correct me if I'm wrong, but I've seen posts and tweets saying that pomme's admin has been confirmed to come back with the other eggs whenever it happens by pierre, who talked with her admin.

the admins of the update accounts got fired, it means they want to fire everyone, they aren't making things better! : it sucks that the updates accounts had to end and I feel bad for every twitter admin that clearly cared a lot about the project, but unfortunately it had to happen if there simply isn't enough money to pay them adequately like they deserved and ultimately the update accounts were not essential to keep the project going, so it makes sense that they were let go unfortunately. This is not gonna be the case for the egg admins because if they got fired (which they didn't), the server would basically end. Just because a cc does not know when they will be back does not mean it's not gonna happen. Just because tubbo randomly said that he's not sure if they will be back does not mean they were fired; tubbo is normally not a reliable source of information, even less so when he's been live nonstop for the past 20 days, which is prior to everything happening. If you genuinely didn't expect a reduction in non essential staff considering everything, then you have unreasonable expectations on how this stuff goes. As I write this, I'm seeing people saying that "they would understand this decision if q had set up a patreon to pay the admins", and once again I don't understand how people don't realize why quackity might not be keen on the idea of having his fans pay his own employees for his own project instead of, you know, doing it himself; and, again, do not fool yourself into thinking it would be recieved well. That being said, it's fair to criticize how everything was communicated to the admins, but I'll get to this in more detail later.

quackity should not have uninstalled social media, he's trying to avoid everything! : he's not avoiding anything, he's been off social media for a while now, which is why it took him that long to remove wilbur from the server. He has every right to not want to look at social media, as his focus should be on restructuring his server instead of doomscrolling on twitter because people think he needs to see how much people dislike him. The only people that he should talk to are those that have important information to tell him, like josè with the document. He explicitly said on stream where to contact him if you have helpful information and I'm sure that despite multiple well liked posts saying not to spam his email, people are definitely doing it anyway, which is probably gonna slow the whole thing down even more. I hope josè's document is able to be seen with pierre's help as well.

quackity studios is not communicating with their employees and leaving them in the dark and that's not okay : I agree with this. i think a huge chunk of doomposting lately has been due the lack of communication not with the audience, but with the admins, and they deserve to know what is happening behind the scenes more then us since this is about their current or future job.... that being said, I do kind of understand why they're being so secretive and shutting everyone out, and that's due to all the "leaks" that have been spread online. I understand the anger but I really wish some people would realize that discussing leaked bts lore stuff in ccs discord servers does not help the situation at all and instead makes it seem like they're only doing this to rile up the fandom against quackity studios by using the lore of people's fav characters.

At the end of the day, I think people just aren't used to dealing with a situation that does not have a clear cut solution and someone to clearly hate, so the result is this doomposting and the over aggressiveness toward anything related to the project. Personally, I haven't witnessed anything that made me lose faith in the qsmp like some people have been saying, as every change that we've seen so far coincides with what quackity said on stream a while ago. I only wish things were communicated properly to the admins clearly, as they're the ones most affected, so I hope that's resolved soon. Ultimately quackity is singlehandedly restructuring the server from basically zero, has had to fire people that were misusing money and power and, depending on what josè's document said, is probably gonna have to fire some more. This is not an easy process, nor a quick one, you're not gonna hear about sunshine and rainbows for a while and doomposting about everything you hear because you expected quick change is useless. Think before you speak, have a clear head and most importantly have empathy.

[002yb]

Oh, Dick taking Jason to rooftop dates and romantic trips

A trope I adore with Dick and Jason is their flirting/dating including a lot of playfulness. Which directly translates into games of chase, ahhhhhhhh. Just an easy, lighthearted competitiveness - equal parts taunting and teasing until one or the other is able to close that distance. Hands catching each other, arms around waists, grabbing one another straight out of the sky. Then it's just tumbling across rooftops, or sitting on high ledges as they catch their breath. Cackling because it's young and dumb and wonderful.

And Jason being all enamored because Dick is especially handsome when his hair is all wind swept. And Dick being just as taken because there's nothing more striking than the flush on Jason's cheeks, the breadth of his smile, the heave of his chest. ˉ̞̭(′͈∨‵͈♡)˄̻ ̊

Their 'dates' aren't anything over-the-top, usually. It's always more private; a mundanely intimate affair (because really? it's what they can manage with what time they can manage and it's not nearly enough, but they make it work; they always have). It's meals stolen between over-full schedules, hidden away on the corner of rooftops, legs dangling over high ledges - sun warming their skin. It's them catching naps when they can, tucked in close to one another with any suitable structure at their backs to hide them from view.

It never fails that anything more gets interrupted, but they try. Rooftop picnics at any time of day to watch the sun rise, the sun set; to watch clouds pass or airplanes flying overhead in the night sky. Calling one another to weird vantage points to overlook all manner of things: dumb, comedic, sweet, saucy. It's them watching a screening at a drive-in theater from an awkward angle. It's them watching the pure romance of a couple dancing in the privacy of their apartment - blinds open wide and warm in the yellow light and Jason swooning in the most quiet of ways because they're lost in each other; it's him getting embarrassed when Dick sweeps Jason into a slow dance of their own to match (only there's no music, just the wind rushing through the air, whistling in their ears and pulling at their clothes) and Jason ducks his head because his heart is beating overtime and Dick just leans his head against Jason's and slows them to a sway and ahhhhhhhh.

This is already so chunky and I haven't even gotten into romantic trips ffffffffff. But okay here we go the romantic trip!Dickjay portion!!

(Side note: I vaguely remember plotting a whole WtMBU/N&R verse short on Dick planning a trip to the EU for Jason's bday and them being on that flight together and ahhhhhhh airport!fluff is so sweet but focus focus focus).

❣╰(⸝⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝⸝)╯❣ Dickjay Trips ❣╰(⸝⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝⸝)╯❣

Immediate digression because ahahahaha probably on family vacations these two do the most to be so over-the-top embarrassing. Just anything to shame poor Tim and Damian (and Bruce). Flashy outfits, socks and slides, coordinating; millennial bops and vibes amplified. Joking about the mile-high club (out of ear shot of Bruce because Jason would die. Again). Just being absolute menaces, as big brothers do lol.

Okay digression done. On their own, these two are a lot more chill and endlessly more covert hahaha. Regardless of where they go, they would enjoy each other's company though. Neither of them really care to stay still, so they have a good time with a strong mix of more physically demanding activities mixed with more educational (historic, cultural, etc) experiences.

(Basically: hiking to see nature's wonders or a stunning view of the city!! Museum viewings where Jason is enthralled and Dick appreciates it all, sure, but his attention is stolen entirely by Jason tbh. If wherever they are is known for some craft, taking a class together and making xyz and ahhhhahahaha both turn out crappy so they agree that's Bruce's souvenir.)

Just these two doing all sorts of new things together. And being able to (generally, depending) express themselves as boyfriends which isn't always an option back home. Because no one knows them this far away. It's just them and who they want to be. It's not that the affection comes easier, but there's no deadline to it; nothing to pull them away, or take their time. It's just Dick and Jason and ahhhhhh.

Though lbr these two would work remotely to an extent undoubtedly and they'd gripe at each other about it, only some time later they'd be called a hypocrite for doing the same damn thing lol.

(Photos!! The both of them take great candids of each other but anything that goes to the family is downright moronic lol).

Another semi-digression. But Dick actually knowing a lot of languages (conversationally) from his time with his circus trope. And Jason getting a little blushy about it because hot damn. He's not used to his competency kink showing up in this sort of fashion - how far is their hotel from here hello???

What they'd enjoy most is wandering off the beaten path together though. Be that the countryside, tall brush golden and up to their thighs, tickling their fingertips or even just within the city - empty streets, tripping over cobblestone and swinging around lampposts into one another's space.

Extra: Dick and Jason souvenir shopping towards the end of their stay. Them buying thoughtful and beautiful things for Alfred and Cass and Duke, but Tim and Damian? Ahahahaha, they make it a game of who can find the tackiest thing, or what would make their two brothers cringe the most.

[jellyleijournals]

Hi! Would you mind listening to the album dc snuff film / waste yourself by teen suicide and let me know what you think in as much or as little amount of detail? I get if that is so much but I have a smaller opinion you could choose if you want to do it all. Would you mind listening to the song we found two dead swans and filled their bodies with flowers by teen suicide and let me know what you think in as much to as little amount people? Thank you so much and please take care of yourself. <3

Hello!! Yes ofc, I've never listened to this artist or done this type of thing before so it was REALLY fun n interesting to do, I really enjoyed it :D (prepare urself for a LONG post)

I just now finished listening to "we found two dead swans and filled their bodies with flowers" and I acc really liked it!! I'm a sucker for indie/acoustic/bedroom pop/whatever else it's called music (basically cavetown n dodie, my beloveds <3) so I really vibed with it! It was short but very much to the point with the lyrics. It's hard to explain but they're kinda abstract yet so clear in the story/message?? Idk but I LOVEEE lyrics like that so tysm for that song rec :))) I love the overall simplicity of the song too- it's just a guy, his acoustic guitar, and a few short but sweet lyrics. No fancy autotune or vocal effects, just pure vibes (no hate to artists who do use those effects tho) It's very comforting and I would def listen to it again :D (8/10)

Here's my opinion on the rest of the album too :) (I didn't listen to the whole album just half so I might be wrong but yeh :>)

Overall, the rest of the songs I listened to were kinda rock-ish (hopefully that's the right word) with a sprinkling of calm/acoustic songs which I really love. I don't really listen to this genre of music but I really enjoyed it!! I noticed that the songs are all REALLY short too- like I think around 2-3 mins on average- which is really interesting to me and I acc kinda like it bc it kinda makes listening to the whole album a big cohesive experience if ykwim?? Instead of like a bunch of different 3-4 minute songs that kinda have similar vibes but not really and are more just a collection of individual pieces rather than a big music collage like this album (in my experience ofc). I feel like the whole album could be like a really chill background music to read, draw, write, or anything in general!! At first I wasn't sure I liked it bc I wasn't used to the whole loud bg music, soft vocal thing, but after a while it really grew on me tbh :> Personally I feel that the lyrics aren't really the central focus of most the songs, it's really more geared towards the music/instruments, which again, even tho it got some getting used to, I acc really liked bc it's like you can appreciate the artist's musical abilities first and then their lyric-writing abilities; which is really what music is ab now that I think ab it. Overall, I think I'd rate the whole album an 8/10- it truly was a really fun, interesting, and cool experience!! :)

And this is my opinion of each individual song I listened to~

[Btw some of them were written while I was listening to the song but others were written slightly after, and I listened to the first 5 in the order that they appeared in the album]

Everything is fine: The loud bg music and sorta muffled vocals are really new and interesting to me since, yk, it's usually the other way around. It's almost unnerving in a way, but I think that's almost the point, since the lyrics seem to be ab feelings of dread and unease, but ur trying to convince urself (or maybe others) that everything's fine (the title lol). It was fun and interesting to listen to but idrt I'd listen to it again bc it kinda made me feel uncomfy for some reason lol (7/10 tho bc it was still really good c:)

Don't like me: This had very similar vibes to the 1st song- loud music and soft/muffled vocals, but it wasn't unnerving at all. Perhaps bc of the lyrics, but it came off as more angry/upset than uneasy or panicky. It's also really cool how he was basically able to repeat the same lyrics/melody for 3 minutes but it was still really vibey- I didn't get bored at all!! I would prob listen to this again tbh, I see myself having a private dance party or doing chaotic things to this song sdfghjk (8.5/10)

Bad news: This one also had loud bg music and soft/muffled vocals (I wonder if that's just how his music is?), but the vocals were def slightly louder. It's really similar to "Everything is fine" in the meaning, but it's more confident kinda imo. Like the 1st one sounded very panicked in its dread, but this one is kinda like "yeah. I hate it here and I feel dread. What's new?" ykwim? It was way less unnerving than the 1st one too, but idk if that's just bc I've gotten used to the effect or bc it's just not as much as an panicky song. There also seems to be a pattern of using ghosts as a way to express unease or anxiety which is really cool :) (7.5/10)

Serfs up: I think we know the drill already by now- loud bg music, muffled vocals (which isn't bad ofc), but for some reason I was more drawn to the bg music than usual- I really like the upbeat kinda fast tempo it has! The vocals were VERY muffled (more than the other songs I think), sm so that I couldn't really understand the lyrics (I don't mean this in a bad way I promise 😭) but I searched them up and I think that's the point. My bro is (in the storyline and not irl btw) high af (whether off drugs or off excitement from being w the love interest or both we'll never know~)- he's very much disoriented so the music shows that. It's a really cool concept that I haven't seen before and I really like it!! (8/10)

Skate witches: Ok this is new :0 It starts off with an audio clip of some sort- apparently it's from a movie from 1986 that goes by the same name- skate witches- (Yes I did research after listening to it lmao)- which I found very cool! Also different from the other songs is that the bg music is much calmer, not as much rock/punk vibes as the other songs. It was very relaxing. Again the vocals were muffled/soft- but it was SOOO much more relaxing than the other songs- no unease, anger, etc. I love love LOVEEE the vibes from this song. I also noticed that the electric guitar was also singing along with the singer (idk how to describe it, I'll ask my guitar geek brother later) and even echoed his words. Very cute imo :> It's kinda like a spin-off of "don't like me;" they have very simillar messages, the speaker/singer is obv quite upset, but while "don't like me" is very angry, "skate witches" seems to be more accepting ab it. Like "yeah. You don't like me and that makes me sad, but ur not worth it so I'll get over you soon w my own time." At least that's what I think ofc :) I totally see myself listening to this again!! :D (8.5/10- I am very much in love w calm vibes and have bias towards them if you couldn't tell lol) [After this I listened to the album on shuffle bc I was getting a bit bored and I wanted some ✨spice✨ (NOT IN A BAD WAY I PROMISE DFGHJKL)]

Lonely boy goes to a rave: This one also started with an audio clip ab school, and I must say, MOOD. My boy is speaking straight facts fghjkjhgfdfghj (my first day at my new school is tmrw pls pray 4 me). This one again had pretty loud bgm like the other ones, but it had VERY different vibes tbh. It wasn't like ANGRY angry like some of the other ones, more like dark and fed up. I acc quite liked it! It really fits the theme/story of the song- a sad lonely boy needing to do smth exciting, or to be surrounded by new ppl bc life just don't hit right (honestly same) but it seems like he can't reach the same level of excitement/happiness that he sees other ppl having. (again. same). I really liked it! Even tho it wasn't as short as some of the other songs, I felt like it was over too soon fghjkghjk (8/10- another vibe)

Doing all the things I used to do with people- part 2 (acoustic): This one also starts with an audio clip- I think it's of the singer himself but I'm not sure- but it's SOOO VIBEY!!! The wind/thunder REALLY elevated the coziness/vibes of this song too!! It's just so comforting in general omg. Again, a sweet song of a guy and his guitar, just singing his heart out and vibing w his friend. I LOVE it!! It's so relaxing yet kinda sad at the same time. The lyrics are really sad and depressing- it's very clearly ab a troubled person goin through some shit- but the little snippets of the singer randomly talking plus the wind/thunder just makes it so cozy and comforting I just want to hug this song tbh 😭💞 I AM IN LOVE (10/10- this is going in my comfort playlist now ty)

Swimming: This one was also quite chill too! This time the vocals were more echoey than muffled if ykwim? But I really liked that tbh! I feel like it really captured how it can feel while ur underwater, everything's all muffly and slightly blurry, but sometimes you just don't know if you like it or not. I didn't understand the lyrics again, but I think that's the point. Ur swimming underwater. Everything around you is blurry. You don't really know what's going on, and for some ppl that might be relaxing, but for others, it can be scary. I listened to this twice and the first time I thought it was a relaxing song, but after listening to it again, it sounds like the speaker/singer is drowning or overwhelmed. It's really interesting!! I really like this song! It's so vibey and majestic :) (8.5/10- I lowkey feel like I'm floating away fr)

I'm so fucking bored: This one had VERY similar vibes to "Swimming", but the lyrics are much more pronounced/clear and I can def understand them better than a lot of the other songs I listened to. But while the other song was quite quiet and kinda panicky, this one is a bit more confident I would say. It reminds me of a choir kinda, like ur walking into an abandoned/haunted church of some sorts and it's dark and lonely and scary, maybe there's a few ghosts- who knows, and you hear this. It's almost ominous, but more on the sad side too. Esp the lyrics- the story/song is def ab someone who's again, goin thru some shit, they've lost EVERYTHING, and maybe they're trying to be optimistic ("I'll bet heaven it's ok"), but they're mostly resigned since it's really only just 1 optimistic lyric and in the context of the rest it really isn't too good. They've given up and now see their horrible situation as smth like "oh well. can't do anything ab it can I" ykwim? Like the contrast between "I don't have a future anymore" and "I'm so fucking bored" kinda shows how normalized it is for ppl to go into ruin kinda?? Like they should be panicking, upset, angry, but they're just bored. Very deep lyrics fr. And then the piano too- CHILLS. Idk how to explain it, it's just wow. AND THE END THING. Idk if it's just drum sticks hitting smth or smth but it REALLY gave me the haunted church vibes. (9/10- it really hits different idk why)

I ran out of space and this is like really long, plus my mum keeps telling me to study for my placement test for school but YEAH! I hope you liked reading this and TYSMMM @sweetwarmcookies16 for the recommendation! I really enjoyed the experience and it opened me up to a whole new genre of music I probs never would've listened to before :D (I am a kpop and indie fiend so I usually never even would've THOUGHT ab listening to this artist)

THIS WAS SOOO MUCH FUN OMG (also I am def listening to the rest of the album in my own time- there are some MAJOR bops there)

[Pls note that this is all just my opinion and I don't mean to offend anyone and I'm really sorry if I did, ty <3]

Have an amazing day/night! Stay safe!! <333

~Jellylei💜✨

[rainbownixie]

i just remembered that ur in the south park fandom too, so,,,, st x sp au?

(i know they technically alr did that special episode but yk what i mean lol)

i love this like- they're such huge hyperfixations for me i- thanks. just thanks.

this isn't exactly an au??? more like who's who in both universes i guess!!!

-

stan is definitely mike. there is no doubt. it's obvious. their families and lives are basically the same and their personality is pretty much alike! they're both paladins too??? like??? they're both seen as selfish at some point but they're just struggling! they hate feeling vulnerable and are really really stubborn when it comes to arguments. they have this inferiority complex they try to hide with their savior complex and both of them have this extreme fear of not being enough and losing the people they love!

kyle has to be will because he's super best friends in a definitely not gay way with stan (i had to make byler and style happen okay). they're both smart, sweet, love their families, they're done with literally everyone and follow morals and righteousness! maybe will isn't exactly like kyle because he loses his temper over nothing (it often is because of cartman, really) and is able to go to extremes sometimes. but i do think that when they get mad at stan/mike they're pretty much the same! and they fight for what's right and tbh they've been through a lot and they're trying so hard give them a breaaaak

butters is obviously el because he often doesn't understand what's going on and had a pretty shitty life (specifically because of his dad). just like el! they're both kindhearted but they aren't dumb and would do anything for their friends. plus, butters is pretty much bald already so- plus he became a main character only to cover up the fact that kenny was dead (cof cof el appearing when will's missing/dead cof cof)

kenny is max and i KNOW it probably doesn't make sense but hear me out! kenny is the only one who treats butters like he deserves and actually sees him as a person and not some guy they can just use. the way kenny/max act around butters/el is basically the same thing and they both help them get out of their codependent relationships! and kenny is like in a huge coma in between death and life?? hello??? max in S4/5???? and kenny would be the one getting vecna'd and dying duh! tbh their personalities are alike too! they are the cool ones of their group and have strong opinions on people! they have a shitty life too and abuse never stopped them from being heroes.

hear me out do not judge before reading this: cartman is dustin. AND I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE THINKING BUT HEAR ME OUT- please forget about everything awful eric does (i know it's hard but please do) and focus on the good stuff! they're both highly intelligent and always make the best plans. they're definitely the brain of the group and can get sarcastic and mean and low-key manipulative if they want. but they're actually sweethearts??? like obviously dustin is kind and sweet but eric is too! sometimes! not too many times tho--- but i swear he is sometimes! and avoiding the fact that the cartman/butters dynamic is toxic af, if you only see the good moments they have and the fact that they're canon bffs it could be similar to dustin/el. i don't agree with most of the things eric does but we gotta admit that when he is on the good team he has awesome ideas but!!! no one!!! hears him!! just like dustin.

tolkien is lucas it's so damn obvious- they have they same arguments with stan/mike because they just don't get to understand their struggles and they never seem to listen to them when they're the voice of the reason most of the time. both tolkien and lucas are pretty logical and goal-oriented and have awesome ideas! they just want to have fun and chill and they're both really really sweet and hilarious! i don't think tolkien is as chaotic as lucas tho?? he's more on the calm side. but i think they're both similar in a lot of other stuff!!

clyde is soooo steve coded! they're both seen as dumb and superficial and cool and everyone thinks they're just the "popular guy" when actually they're so so sweet! they care so much about their friends and they try so hard to make everyone happy!!! even if they focus a lot on dating and image. girls don't really want them for their true selves (they only want steve for his looks and money and clyde because of his dad's job). and they cry and whine for EVERYTHING they're so done give them a break-

craig is so so so so much like robin! they're seen as sarcastic and serious at first but then when they open up they can't shut up. they have the same issue with social cues and they use sarcasm as a coping mechanism A LOT. plus they're clyde/steve's bffs and their dynamic is basically the same. they're highly intelligent and always have the best plans, although they didn't even intend to be there in the first place.

tweek is vickie because i said so and because vickie gives me the adhd/anxious energy tweek has. and because tweek is dating craig and i really really wanted creek to happen in this au.

please forget for a moment that i said mike is stan and just focus on personality here! wendy is so much like nancy! both girlbosses, love journalism, i don't have any proof but nancy was def class president, and both would gladly use a gun if needed. they're so strong and smart and always fight for what's right!! literally the same character. when everyone seems to be against them and their ideas they always fight for their stories! i admire them so much for that

idk who jonathan could be??? maybe jimmy! i love them both a lot and they're both so sweet and funny! idk they just give me the same vibe but maybe it's just that i don't have more main characters to use-

[khaleesiofalicante]

Привіт! Отже, вгадайте, хто вчора був хворий на біса? я!! Не знаю чому, але мені байдуже, бо тепер мені краще 😂

Anyway, after some pills and a home remedy that hurted like hell and left me with back pain (long story) I'm back💙 so here we are:

Alec you almost got killed!! Chill!!

"A guardian. For fuck’s sake, bapak has done more for the nephilim than Raziel himself." Yes to both of this!!

Ok, we all agree that what Magnus did was shitty and wrong right? Like cool motive, still bad...

“I know you,” Bapak stood up then. “And I know your heart like I know my own.” (OMG THE PAIN)

"Magnus Bane. That’s who he was." We love our self-sacrificial idiot, but please dont...

"The shadow world needed Magnus Bane." yeah, the whole world would be dead if not by that man. Quite literally if you think about it.

Omg that shower flashback!! 🥺🥺 And the “Then why don’t you come make it better?” Bdkdblsns help I'm feeling too much.

Ok, so I was going to do the laundry... But this is better :) also I'm still kinda recovering so tomorrow without delay I will😂

Mina is so fucking hilarous😂😂

"Selena took her Poison Ivy cosplay a little too seriously" last chapter: a summary

Same questions as Max....

The park!! Max is a sentimental bastard

Oh shit, there comes a destructive, simp boy again... I love it💙💙

Everyday my worry for Selena just grows

Elyaas!!

Leviathan!!! WHY AM I GASPING? I ALREADY KNEW THAT!! Hsjsbjsbslsb

Same feelings as Max. My dude is a mood!!!

"So are you. You are the purest of the eldest curses, and thus, the most powerful.” The power that that has, the potential that that has, the-

The prince has manners.... Respect that

The dots are connecting!! Hunger, water... Makes sense...

"He probably looked like Jesus on the cross." Sorry but that image is😂😂

"And the ocean parted." HOLY SHIT!!!

“You can control anything that has water in it,” Leviathan grinned, slow and easy. “And you know what has water in it, sugar?” Max gulped.The prince of hell grinned. “Almost everything.” (wow. Many thought. What? Wow. Like percy!! Boy really has power!!)

“Aw,” Max deadpanned. “You had baby fever.” (The way this is basically the explanation of Max's birth 😂😂)

He is the reason Alec and Magnus found him??

"Being a Lightwood-Bane, that was the real blessing." Blessed💙💙

He has a point in the power thing tho...

“I was saving you for a rainy day. And Max, it’s about to fucking pour.” The chills bro!!!

He actually makes sense in the Asmodeus thing

“Do what you were born to do,” Leviathan said. “Unleash chaos.” “Upon whom?” Max asked. Leviathan chuckled. “That’s up to you, sugar.” (I mean... I would like to see it...)

I feel the seashell will be important

No, but honestly he is a good father in the "Prince of hell" scale. He didn’t try to posees Max, trick him, played with his mind, take his inmortality... Boy is an example. And he let him choose what he is going to do and accept Magnus as his father!! Bro, better teach your brothers...

MALEC>>>>

Now its not the time to cover the fear with flirting you two!! Still cute 🥺

"He didn’t get into trouble. He was the trouble." You got a big storm coming 🙂

Their kisses heal my soul💙💙

Ragnor and Magnus please dont. Fucking. Blame. Yourselves. I beg you

I love that Alec said "sorry" and "thank you" tho...

Alec honey, please!! Conect the dots!! Those aren't random questions!!

Alec is a great father, he has grown so much and its just a amazing and in this eesay I will-

I want to stab Kingsley....

Gabriel!!! Love them for existing 💙

Yeah dude, stan your ground!! They wouldnt do it!!

Thats it babe, call them out!!! <33

My feels for Gabriel are like: Would I trust them with my life? Absolutely. Would that be a mistake? Most likely. Do I care? No💙

That plan sucks tbh

Emma always spilling facts. Alec is the real MVP

Lmaoo Julian is a mood

Gigi is a godness 💙💙

Now that was low Max!! Really low!!

You could still warn them Raziel!!

“It do be like that,” 😂😂 no shit

He got a point with downworlders. It feels kinda unfair?? But as Lexi said its an Alliance so they support each other

Lexi (being done) 🤝 Me (being done)

Okayyy, I like where this is going... Do continue speaking!!

“He forgot Selena has a twin.” Ha! Take that Belial!!

She was drowning?? Thats great bro! Give them dreams about falling forever and of drowning. You are doing great :)

"What she saw in her dream were not stars, Lexi. There were souls.” OMG. THAT. That was unexpected

I keep saying this. The amount of trauma Selena will have.... Ugh I want to protect her!!

Lexi's back must hurt from carring her humor around everywhere😂😂

No, wait. What? I didnt understand!! Please explain!! I'm not that smart!! Dots aren't connecting!!

"The person she needed to complete everything in her life." MY HERONSTAIRS FEELINGS!!!

Olivia is amazing, tallented, smart, beautiful, funny, gorgeous-

Please let them comunicate!! After all this, yeah, sure. Aparently saving all nephilim is more important than my OTP smh

Wow. I dont know the plan but hell yeah!!!

Clary, Simon and Magnus are an underrated group!! 💙💙💙

Them>>>>>>>

I love Magnus and Simon's dinamic!! 😂💙

Clary🥺🥺

Yup. Gigi is superior and we should all workship her

OMG I hadnt thought of something happening to Magnus if Asmodeus dies!!! This cant happen. Why do you want my man dead one way of another??

"Because if killing Asmodeus might harm Magnus, none of them would go through with it." Yeah they are all loving idiots

"So, Magnus spoke. For Clary. For the first child he had loved and watched grow up." THEY ARE UNDERATED!!

“She was fighting demons. She was holding the Mortal Sword,” Magnus managed a smile. “She looked glorious.” (OMG WHAT?)

Wait, who wasnt there?? IM STRESS!! Is it Alec? Or Max??

Lightwood be like: Sooo, we agree our spouses are basically perfect? Yeah? Ok, we are done :)

Max!! Yess, please talk!!

The parallel of  “I’m not just a warlock. I'm Magnus Bane's son” to “I’m Leviathan’s son,”... Here, have a knife. Stab me. It would hurt less

“No!” Magnus said. “It's me. Magnus. I’m your father.” 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

Magnys asking if Max is okay rather than making it harder 🥺🥺

The thing about boundaries is sooo important tho..

Nooo. Dude. Man. No. I thought you had learned of mistakes!!! You cant do it again!!

OMG it was Max!!! I knew it!!

"What Max didn’t know was that things we loved can get us killed sometimes." I think he kinda does....

I understand he is worried but thats no way of dealing with this! Hdhsisjis too much

"The look on the boy’s face…Magnus would never, ever forget it. The look of utter betrayal and hurt." Yeah, I mean you are threatening to take his magic again!!!

"He had always been able to sense the boy’s heart. And now he heard it break." Pain. I'm crying wtf?

"There was no love in those blue eyes. And Magnus knew he had lost all love and respect Max ever had for him." Its just too much. It hurts too much😭😭💔

What??? So he is going to...?? What?? I have a lot of questions and a lot of feelings...

До побачення!! Мені потрібно лягати спати, а потім напружуватися для всіх моїх завдань, тому не соромтеся кричати на мене, якщо побачите мене тут протягом наступних 10 годин💙

okay at this point I am like "but didn't noah use this language before huh????"

Ukrainian looks so cool btw. Also why is everyone getting sick? I am concerned :(

I love it when you identify parallels and do throwbacks. Tis very sexy of you 💙💙💙

Hope you finish all your tasks! Get well soon 💙

[punkscowardschampions]

Jac & Amelia

Jac: How was your first day? Amelia: 🥱😴 Amelia: What about you? Jac: Oh dear, it was a lot more observing rather than doing I suppose, but I kind of expected that, if you want to get experience somewhere that isn't willing to just let anyone come in and do a shift so Jac: You'll never guess who was on my placement too though Amelia: Connor following you there wouldn't surprise me Amelia: he can't take a hint Jac: Thankfully not Jac: Swerving him during school is basically an extra-curricular Jac: I suppose it isn't all that surprising when you think about it, but I still was taken aback by the turn of events Amelia: thrill me Amelia: who is it? Jac: Savannah Moore Amelia: oh god, that sucks Amelia: if you don't wanna change placements, we'll make her Amelia: it'll be okay Jac: That's the surprising thing Jac: she was like, a different person Amelia: like really fake, you mean? Jac: No, like, a normal person Jac: maybe because she was away from her friends, her audience, or I don't know Jac: but she was just getting on with her work too, being chill about the whole thing Amelia: 🤔 suspicious Jac: Well, you can't say anything Jac: but why would you Jac: she's having like, a really hard time at home right now, she was a bit upset at one point Jac: it just broke the ice, and it makes a lot of things make sense Amelia: did it or did she throw you off with a convincing 😥💔 story? Jac: She was having a breakdown in the toilets basically Jac: I don't think she wanted anyone to see that, least of all me Jac: we knew her dad was like A LOT anyway, it tracks Amelia: it's Savannah, she wants everyone to see everything, especially you Jac: Come on, what would she even get out of tricking me with a sobstory Jac: bar work experience not being a total drama, which surely she'd love more, by that logic? Amelia: your attention Jac: 🤔🤔 I just don't see it this time Jac: I can't explain how sincere it was, what she said Jac: it definitely wasn't made up, at any rate Amelia: if you believe her, I believe you Jac: Like, I'm not saying we were wrong Jac: but too harsh, maybe Jac: we don't need to waste any energy on being her enemy or whatever Jac: not that we were ever THAT childish but, she really isn't that bad Amelia: I can be a bit harsh Jac: You're a softie, really Jac: but I'm not going to spill all your secrets to her Amelia: it's not a secret that I missed you today Jac: Was it seriously that boring? 😞 Jac: Who are you with again, anyone not awful? Amelia: yeah Amelia: my 🧠 has turned to mush Amelia: they put with with Valentina Hernández, I've had detention with her before Jac: You poor thing Jac: we'll have to do something fun when this is over, if you're going to hate it so much Jac: and I'll keep to a minimum how much I'm enjoying getting some industry experience 🤐 Jac: Oh yeah, she's cute Jac: I don't have many classes with her, but I know who you mean Amelia: she said I look like her ex, do you think that means she hates me or I'm her eye candy of choice for the next week? Amelia: can't we do something fun tonight!? Jac: How weird Jac: sounds like a really bad pickup-line a 40-year-old man would use Jac: Guess you'll see what she meant Jac: That's not going to make your early start tomorrow any easier, is it Amelia: I'm already planning to sleep through my alarm Amelia: and Is is up for it Jac: I'm totally wiped Jac: and trying to save you from yourself 😉 Jac: Is can make her own poor choices Amelia: vodka redbulls were invented to change wiped to wired Amelia: you know she'll get drunk and throw herself at some boy, that's what you'll be saving me from Amelia: dark corners are no fun when I'm being left in them on my own Jac: so I can be hungover tomorrow Jac: if she is tricking me, I'm going to need ALL my wits about me Jac: maybe Val will come and keep you company Amelia: and if she's as nice as you say, she can pick up the slack Amelia: please come Jac: Are we talking about a house party or a club or what, you've not even told me 😅 Jac: also, you know I don't want to drop anything, I need to ace this Amelia: it's a club you'll love Amelia: so you won't have to drink loads to have fun anyway Jac: If Is or any of her conquests have picked it I SO doubt that 😏 Amelia: I picked it in case you needed cheering up but it works for a pat on the back too Jac: Okay, I'll see what the parents say Amelia: if they look like they're leaning towards no, it could've been me having a breakdown in the toilets Jac: I'll tell them you'll be heartbroken Amelia: the truth works too Jac: they're not that understanding so I wouldn't hold your breath Jac: I'll corner one of them when they get in though Amelia: more understanding than mine, not to be Savannah-ish about it Jac: I assume you will be sneaking out, as per Jac: or staying over one of ours to catch up with your work Amelia: 😏 Jac: 🙄 how you ever get away with it when your mother knows everything about everyone is beyond me Jac: if you applied yourself, you could be seriously impressive Amelia: could be? Amelia: you just said I am Amelia: she knows everything about me that I want her to know Jac: duh Jac: gotta give you something to aim for though Amelia: oooh a challenge Jac: I know how you feel about them Amelia: unless it's going to be something about applying myself this week Jac: am I a teacher? Amelia: you've taught me loads like why would I waste my energy buckling down with Valentina 📠 when I could spend it doing something that isn't 🥱😴 with you Jac: You have a point Jac: or, I do? 😂 Jac: and I can come out for a while, but I need to be home to get at least 5 hours sleep minimum Amelia: can I stay or does Jude still need 15 hours minimum? Jac: if you keep the noise down and promise to talk less than her Amelia: I'll be so 🤫🤐 Jac: another person at mine in the AM makes no odds Jac: but I will be leaving extra early, FYI Amelia: why? Jac: Mainly because I want to get there on time Jac: but also because Savannah said she'd bring breakfast, as I listened to her when she was upset today so Amelia: bribery is her style 🤑 Jac: I guess so Jac: but it'd be rude of me not to accept any coffee or pastries she wants to throw my way Amelia: what if they're toxic Jac: You're giving her too much credit now Jac: she isn't going to have the time to poison them AND not be late Amelia: she's probably baking them right now, what else are her and her invisible mum going to do to bond? Jac: You're the one that takes home ec 🍳 Amelia: yeah and if you wanted me to kill her, all you had to do was ask Jac: Feel free to note my silence any time you like 😏 Jac: What are you wearing, how smart/casual is this place? Amelia: [pictures of potential outfits on the bed so she can see the vibe] Amelia: which one will you break your vow of silence for? Jac: You know I love that colour [hi khaki moment] Amelia: 😉 Amelia: if you want to know what Is is wearing, the group chat is full of her maybes Jac: I am purposely ignoring that notification 🙄😑 Jac: like yeah, I'm probably going to wear my black tank dress again but the difference is, I'm not pretending it's getting any crazier Amelia: it got her to shut up about all the 'hotties' at the sports centre that she got to 'service' today Amelia: 😣 Jac: Ew Jac: she's so graphic sometimes Jac: it's a good thing she has her reputation tbh if those are her lines Amelia: this is before a drink too Amelia: I need you, I wasn't even laying it on thick Jac: God, she is a lot Jac: hopefully one of them asks her out, she's at least less gross when she's in a relationship Amelia: 🤞 Jac: I do need to plan my outfits for the rest of work experience though Amelia: god, I can imagine what Savannah looked like today Jac: Right? Jac: She was so on point Amelia: for a stepford wife Amelia: it's unsettling Amelia: her mum probably stays invisible because she takes the clothes off her back Jac: Come on, she looks good Amelia: so would I in head to toe chanel Jac: Exactly Jac: so I need to keep up so I don't look like a scrub Amelia: you don't have to try as hard as her, that's the difference Amelia: you actually look good Amelia: not just expensive Jac: You're biased but I love you for it Amelia: you could ask anyone in our year and they'd tell you the same thing Amelia: even her boyfriend would probably want to agree with me Jac: I doubt his eyes ever leave her, they're totally inseparable aren't they Amelia: it sounds like you'll be getting all the gossip Amelia: you'll be able to tell me everything by Friday Jac: not that that has any real use now Amelia: maybe or maybe not Jac: ?? Amelia: we've got loads of school left, you can't say never Amelia: today could've been a weird fluke Jac: Nah, it was a total ceasefire if nothing else Jac: it's not like a feud Jac: Oh my God, what is that skirt she just posted Amelia: okay Amelia: 😳 on her behalf Jac: should I tell her to wear it? Amelia: yeah 😂 Jac: 😏 Amelia: what are you wearing though? Jac: my lbd 😂 Jac: I don't know if it's classic or predictable but if nothing else, I can say this was short notice Amelia: if I couldn't predict you I'd be worried Jac: but you love a challenge 🤔 Amelia: but I love the way things are Jac: see, so soft and soppy Jac: nothing has changed yet Jac: still think transition year is pointless 🤷 Amelia: your 🧠 didn't turn to mush Jac: it might Jac: I just wanna pick all our new classes and get started Jac: but it is cool we get to do stuff like this, I suppose Amelia: you just want to find out if Savannah will be in every single class again Jac: 🙄 Amelia: [like I'm gonna say she was joking then but now the posts have appeared so it's like oh you actually do and she leaves her on read which I cannot overstate how much that would NEVER happen because she always answers immediately no matter what] Jac: Hello? Jac: are you picking me up? Amelia: are you ready? Jac: you aren't talking to Isabelle Jac: of course I am Amelia: nothing she's saying needs a reply Jac: 'Fashionably' late is her vibe Amelia: yeah I know, Is hasn't changed since I met her Jac: Like that's a good thing? Amelia: I wouldn't go as far as to call her perfect or anything Amelia: but at least I get her Jac: Funny, Meels Amelia: like totally weird, that kind of funny Jac: You are being weird Amelia: that isn't even a worthy deflection Jac: What do you wanna say? Jac: It's just a post Amelia: I've never heard you describe anything as perfect, what are you saying? Jac: Did you see her post? Amelia: yeah, it's obvious why you're tired Amelia: I was exhausted reading it Jac: Well I couldn't just say nothing in return, could I Amelia: I never caption anything, it's easy Jac: you're a girl of few words Amelia: why does she think she knows you on such a 'deep level' now? Amelia: you said she was the one who overshared Jac: You know her friends Jac: Paige G and Becca Jac: I doubt they do 'deep' Jac: it's just in comparison Amelia: I know you, there's things you aren't telling me Jac: like what, I told her all my secrets Jac: if you know me then you know there's no way that's true Amelia: then you're keeping hers Jac: No I'm not, I told you, it's her home life Jac: and I'm sure she doesn't want everyone to know so I shouldn't but I did Amelia: okay Jac: You don't like her, you don't have to Jac: but don't be off with me Amelia: neither did you yesterday Amelia: but now you're going to [whatever that market location was] together Jac: She needed cheering up Jac: and I was going to go anyway, my last bouquet was dead Jac: it's not a big deal Amelia: it was so chill you weren't going to say anything before she outted you with a post Amelia: obviously Jac: I didn't say anything 'cos I didn't think you'd be bothered Jac: it's not your thing Amelia: right, why would it be news that you've changed your entire POV on Savannah Moore Jac: Well I told you about that Jac: scroll up Amelia: it's one thing putting up with someone during work experience, which is what you said Amelia: do you see me taking Valentina out when we're allowed to leave? No, because it'd be totally weird Jac: Why would that be weird? Amelia: we're not friends, I barely know her Jac: you're free to get to know her Jac: you may as well Jac: like I said, it's totally childish having some kind of grudge against her Amelia: it's too late to invite them both Jac: so you want to? Amelia: no, but you think I'm being childish Jac: I think it would be childish for me to decline this peace offering Jac: if it makes life easier, it'd be stupid not to Amelia: I don't see how it'll make anything easier if she's going to be that extra Amelia: Is is already a lot Jac: I can deal with them both Amelia: okay Jac: You don't need to be jealous Amelia: of her? oh please Jac: right Amelia: she's not the only one who has had a bad day, that's all Jac: what's wrong? Amelia: I got in trouble, they might not even have me back tomorrow Jac: What did you do? Amelia: nothing! It wasn't my fault Jac: Alright, what happened then Amelia: I didn't think it would crash the whole system, I was just trying to get done quicker Jac: Oh God Meels Amelia: it would've been impressive if it had worked Jac: they can't get rid of you for a mistake Jac: just be really, really sorry, yeah Amelia: I am sorry, it was really 😳 Jac: I bet Jac: you won't do it again Jac: did she tell you to Amelia: who would tell me to do that Jac: You said she was your detention buddy Amelia: no I didn't, I said I've seen her there before Amelia: everyone gets detention except you and Savannah Jac: Hardly Jac: well, you could say it was her idea Amelia: you've been having a go at me for being childish Jac: you'll be in so much shit if they refuse to have you back Amelia: I'll go work with my dad or something, it'll be even more boring but it's only a week anyway Jac: it'll still reflect really badly on you Jac: it's not childish, it's practical Amelia: it was an accident, I won't be the only one who's done something stupid Jac: Yeah, but you said they were arsey about it so Jac: just saying Amelia: maybe I was a bit defensive Amelia: don't worry about it Jac: Hmm Amelia: I'll smooth it over Jac: Good luck then Amelia: trust me Jac: You always end up alright Amelia: you're my lucky charm Amelia: I just ask myself wwjd Jac: You're such a loser 😏 Amelia: you're so cruel to me 💔 Jac: You love it Amelia: I love you Jac: I love you too Amelia: are you coming out or am I coming in? Jac: You'll just get waylaid by dogs and siblings Jac: be right out Amelia: the hair isn't an accessory I should wear to the club Jac: I've not done anything with mine, don't judge Amelia: it always looks perfect whatever you do or don't do Jac: 😘 Amelia: if you're going to use that word, at least throw it in the right direction Jac: oh yeah, that's a caption I wanna write 😂 Amelia: I'll write it for you, if anything's worth breaking the rules for Jac: You want to compete with Savannah's word count? Amelia: I don't want to, but I will if I have to Jac: I'm not that desperate for validation, you're okay Amelia: Isabelle meanwhile Amelia: has NOT shut up Jac: It's a wonder anyone is getting past her on reception Amelia: 😂 Jac: maybe she should ask if she can work the door when she finally shows Jac: [you go out now though gal, don't need to be messing about] Amelia: [go forth and be messy gays at this club instead] Jac: [no wonder, the tension henny] Amelia: [all the useless lesbian awards to amelia for not making a move tonight] Jac: [blink and you miss it babe] Amelia: [literally does not think she's running out of time, soz gal] Jac: [oh it's sad[ Amelia: [it is, we've been doing this dance for years ladies, obvs we think we'll just keep doing it until uni forces us to stop and do something else and at that point that's years away still] Jac: [when you think you got another three years to have gay angst and drama, nay nay] Amelia: [mhmm] Jac: [well, a different kind of angst and drama will be happening but nobody is loving that Amelia: [except me haha]

[dolphin-enthusiast]

hello there fragolina!! 💌🍓✨ mamma mia, today was very hard, exhausting really 😞 it does get very tiring trying to fight off physical pain and keep my mind in check,, oh well, i just have to hold on until better things come!! that being said, i hope you are healthy both physically and mentally, and if you aren't, remember that it's okay to not be okay love 💗 (1/8?)

"i've been alone for most of the day, since everyone else in my house have been so busy,, especially since i have to rest because of the illness stuff,, it sucks not being around people, even if i'm an introvert! i did eventually find ways to keep myself occupied, like embroidery and cooking and music!! 🌺 (2/8)

i also finally ate a proper meal today!! it was really good and i felt good about myself afterwards!! i also got to watch a show during it,, one my older brother introduced me to, it's called the Walking Dead and it's a very well-done apocalyptic show,, which also tends to get super gory so i flinch at parts hehe 😅 (3/8)

i got to play some minecraft again today, but it was a little unnerving since some random stranger kept blowing up my phone while trying to flirt with me,, needless to say, waifu bro threatened him i think, and then i could play in peace!! 💫 (4/8)

sadly my night is ending on a sour note, and for a dumb reason too, my mom fixed me some dessert, but i felt very guilty eating it since all these thoughts popped in my mind about insecurities and such,, being in such a low point feels horrible, but i know i can get through it since i get to come back here everyday and cheer myself up ❤❤❤ and quinn seems to have revealed my torture dancing abilities, no? well then, of course i'll torture dance with you at the wedding darling 💞 (5/8)

ahhhh, i really have no clue what this writing even is, i guess i just wanted to share some small achievements of mine,, i know it's quite stupid, but i'm a little proud of myself for being able to get simple tasks done haha,, i hope things do perk up soon so i can provide more happiness for everyone!! that is my goal after all! (6/8)

so goodnight deary, i'll see you tomorrow 💕 and hey, try and get at least a tiny bit of sleep for me,, it can be really difficult, bit if i've learned anything through the rare bouts of sleepless nights, every bit counts! (7/8)

(to those who are struggling like i am currently, remember that i love you so much 💓) - love always and forever, waifu anon xoxo 🌹🌙 ps: don't worry my lovely morgy, i like to listen to some more aggressive music too!! my taste is all over the place,, from the classics to punk rock (and even, very rarely, certain rap) but if it means laying down and relaxing to hardcore music, then i'll enjoy it with you either way hehe 💘 (8/8)"

Darling its such a shame ur feeling like this but just remember none of it is real, all the anxieties are in ur head and whilst it succs majorly none of it is acc true and ur body is fine just the way it is. Once more i have no idea how to advice even though im no stranger to this type of problems but try to properly eat and if there is some dessert then eat just a little if u feel like thats better

U need not be embaraased about sharing these with us since we very much also are proud of u and ur little victories. May u get well soon from the physical pain as well smh

But i should mention im gonna fly over to america and kick everyone that tries flirting with u like that (and if he aint in america imma track him down too) aha luckily ur brother took care of that for me🤡👊 also i havent seen walking dead properly, only bits and pieces and tbh it doesnt interest me too much simply bc the apocalyptic genre doesnt appeal to me but hey maybe i could watch it with u someday nonetheless haha jk u n l e s s 👁️😳

Also introvert gang gang although im used to loneliness and dont mind it at all giving that im basically alone 25/8 but hopefully the clown army will remove that feeling for u shdhd im also not surprised that u can do emboridery too like what can this girl NOT do lets b real 🤪🤪🤪

And one more thing i couldnt b more happy to hear that u listen to the same music i do too...it really do b THE goal to just chill together whilst listening to aggressive rock music hfbdbduduhsjd

[qforqazaq]

Black Dial: The Drama

You've probably heard the latest news from the Q-pop world: L and Teddy are no longer in Black Dial.

Hmm, where shall I start?

***Disclaimer: For the convenience of the foreign fans who aren't sure what has actually happened, I tried to recreate the sequence of events to get some exposition first. I've missed some details here and there, because this was already getting too long.***

It all began when the producers of YB Entertainment posted the announcement saying that the official Instagram accounts of L, Teddy, Ray and Black Dial were hacked, so from now on everything that's going to be posted on those pages has nothing to do with YB. "Okay, the pages got hacked, whatever, it happens, no big deal", I thought. BUT! After awhile I've noticed (first ever) IG stories posted on L's and Teddy's accounts with the actual L and Teddy recording each other while giddily saying something like "Did you know that we were hacked?" - "Lol, no, did we?" - "Yeah, they say we were hacked. I am hacked, you are hacked, comeback is hacked too, hahaha".

Obviously, everyone got even more confused, like, why the hell would the producers call the accounts hacked if they were obviously not. I mean those were real L and Teddy, right?

Meanwhile, I started to read some comments about L and Teddy and something about leaving the group, which got me a huge "Wait WHAT. WTF??? Are you bloody kidding me??" moment.

I obviously couldn't believe my eyes, because, what the hell, first Newton, now Black Dial, are you for real?? When I was about to start doubting these rumours while frantically looking for more info, there came interviews from the official press conference by YB Entertainment.

There, Yesbolat Bedelkhan with Bayan and Bota Yerimbet have formally announced that Yeskeldi Quandyq, formerly known as L, and Samat Kazmaganbet, formerly known as Teddy, were no longer the members of Black Dial, that the company had terminated their contracts, the main reason being consistent violation of the contractual terms by the former members. Moreover, according to the producers, the stage names "L" and "Teddy" and all the social media accounts belong to YB Entertainment and they cannot be used by the members should the contract be terminated.

To say I was shocked is to say nothing. Because, apparently, L and Teddy have not just left the group - they were kicked out. Not only that, they basically kicked themselves out by consistently showing insubordination, disobedience, and violation of terms in many occasions. Without feeling much remorse about it too, it seems, as they didn't look very sad on those Instagram stories - that's for sure.

To make the matter worse, they had no rights to use those Instagram accounts anymore, which explained the earlier announcement about "hacking".

Frankly, that was a lot to take in, and while I was desperately trying to make sense out of whatever was happening out there, all hell let loose. Interestingly - on the producers. Because a horde or rather a flock of angry fangirls or "Ravens" started to shout accusations at the producers, blaming them in all deadly sins. According to them, it was all producers' fault, because they intentionally kicked their "biases" out; how did they dare to be so unfairly strict with them; they were shitty producers in the first place; they should have made their comeback sooner instead of postponing it; the whole "hacking" incident was made to sabotage the members' reputations, and their beloved L and Teddy did the right thing leaving this horrible company.

As for me, these accusations sounded too heated and not very convincing especially when I took a step back and started to actually think about it.

Well, let's break it down, shall we?

First of all, the question of fairness seems super childish, because we're talking about actual legal binding contracts, not some sandbox tantrums that can be resolved by shoving lollipops in kids' mouths. If one signed a contract, it is assumed that both of the parties were aware of and agreed to all of the terms in the first place. In other words, if you in a sober mind signed a legal document, complaining about stuff that you can't eventually commit to afterwards won't work. Why the hell one would even sign a contract in the first place then?

Secondly, do you really think the contract was that strict? Okay, stricter than, idk, a contract signed by the guys from 91? I do very much doubt it. I'm more than sure Yerbolat isn't that chill and understanding compared to his younger brother.

Thirdly, Black Dial is the only active project of YB Entertainment (Darrem doesn't really count) aka literally the company's only flagship product that was supposed to get its long-awaited comeback. Think about it: who the hell in their right minds, in such a crucial moment, would kick out members from the only existing group without a legitimate reason? No one. And there was one reason, a few actually, wasn't there? Moreover, according to Yesbolat Bedelkhan, they've tried very hard to keep the group intact, to smooth out those cases of disobedience and insubordination, closing their eyes to most of them. But I guess, the situation got completely out of control, so terminating the contracts was the last resort.

Fourthly, haven't you thought that the comeback was being postponed over the course of, what, 9 months? exactly because of the internal problems and conflicts inside BD and YB? What if the producers weren't sure if they could proceed should have the said members continued to "misbehave". Which they apparently did, so better cut ties earlier than later, with only one MV, and one more released song.

Next, the "hacking" incident. According to Yesbolat Bedelkhan, sometime around February 14, when BD was supposed to record a video to mark the date, L and Teddy have completely disappeared from radar, not answering anyone's calls and/or messages. The producers even tried to reach their parents at some point, to ask if everything was alright with the boys. Strangely, the parents were not reachable as well, because apparently they have changed their contacts too. Later, the producers discovered that they couldn't access official IG accounts of L, Teddy, Ray and Black Dial, because someone changed their passwords. I suppose it was then they guessed it was L and Teddy's doings, which I assume was the final blow.

Finally, Yesbolat believes that someone from outside have persuaded the boys to sabotage their own places at YB Entertainment. A certain someone with a personal grudge against YB producers. I have my guesses and I won't be surprised if this someone will collaborate with those two at some point in the future too.

Show business sucks, doesn't it.

_________________________________

Don't get me wrong, by making a case for YB Entertainment, I don't want to imply that Yeskeldi and Samat are inherently bad people or anything. Okay, I must admit I had my problems with Teddy and tbh wasn't very sad to know he has left the group (yeah, I'm crude), but I did respect L very much, coming to admire his capacity for songwriting when I took on that challenge at translating their songs (Bul Soni Yemes is a lyrical masterpiece. Period.), regarding him as a very thoughtful young man. Despite personal preferences, I didn't want anyone to leave the group in any circumstances, always hoping and betting on them to settle at least on the second place in Q-pop.

In other words, waking up to a news like this has brought me no pleasure. Further unfolding only left a bitter taste in the mouth and the feeling that you were viciously played.

However, I do still think that it was, pardon my French, totally a dick move to leave everyone and everything just like that, without a decent explanation, a formal apology to the fans at the very least. Leaving by making a public drama out of it, while openly gloating in the social media, abandoning the company, the producers and the other members who counted on them so much.

Was it fair? I think not.

I do wish them luck in whatever they're planning to do though, just to see if it was actually worth the drama, huh.

And I do certainly wish the best of luck to YB Entertainment, to the producers and the remaining vocalists in remedying the whole situation, so to speak.

And what now? Yes, YB is having their casting in search for their new rappers and everything, but what does it tell about the whole "Q-pop movement"?

It's impaled, sick and haven't even grown out legs to stand upright and move properly. People are leaving the groups whenever they want, groups changing the label companies however they want, the entertainment centres are opening and closing at flick of the fingers, and we only have about eh.. 3.5 groups who are actually doing something now? With Black Dial on the resting bed, those would be Ninety One, Mad Men, Moonlight and sort of Newton~. Considering that I'm already very cautious with the latter, skeptical with the second, and Moonlight just doesn't excite me very much, we're coming to the default settings of just clinging to the founders for now while just observing everyone else from the distance.

Nice.

What do you think though? What was the reason for BD having so many problems with its former rappers?

Is Q-pop actually going to crumble to pieces even before it becomes anything substantial?

Feel free to comment and share, and please do leave a like at least. I've been writing this for ages after all.

[wingedkiwisblog-blog]

Feels Bad Man

So I guess I just needed a blog or something to rant about the shit in my life. But basically this is the situation, I am at a school where people are above averagely difficult to deal with. This being because the school basically deals with a lot of children with study or behavioural problems. I'm a bit of an introvert and I have a hard time getting along with people who I don't feel comfortable with. Basically l have no friends.

This usually doesn't bother me too much because I can keep busy with my phone and I still have friends at home (I'm in boarding school so I'm here all week basically) so I'm not totally disconnected from society either.

Now due to the combined effect of the difficult people and my introversion I am having a hard time with bullying and just generally not fitting in. At the start of every week we have to choose a place in the dining hall and sit at that table for the rest of the week. This always is a huge issue for me because nobody keeps place for me and I end up having to sit with people who's feelings about me range from don't like to despise.

I was sick on Monday so when I came to school on Tuesday the only place that was left was basically at the table of one of my bullies. I had no other choice but to sit there. However, that experience of having to sit there for 45 minutes was so horrible and uncomfortable that I started skipping some of the meals just to not have to sit in the dining hall with people.

This and a few other things related to bullying that have happened in the past have caused the teachers to generally feel sorry for me and to look out for me slightly more than for other kids, because they see that I'm really not having a good time.

Skip foreward to today. There was a situation where one of my bullies was about to sit next to me with what looked to me like a slightly malicious facial expression. I started being uncomfortable and the teacher seemed to see it too so she sold him to go sit somewhere else. The bully then got mad and said they give me a privileged treatment because I have good grades. (This of course being utter bullshit, if anything they are just nice to me because I'm not disrespectful and if I do something wrong it's usually self defence mechanism kicking in)

Either way. Day ends and I go to my room and suddenly my roommate (who's usually pretty chill and whom I decently get along with) starts being mad at me because she feels like a privileged treatment. I really wanted to tell her at that point that if I could I'd let her switch with me, she could have my privileges but also have to live with my problems. I didn't end up saying it but probably she should've thought of that instead of attacking me. Now, I do have to admit, teachers usually aren't so hard on some of my behaviours because they see that I'm just introverted and not rebellious.

For example, I don't get too many remarks if I keep on my headphones in the first 5 minutes of class when the teacher is still talking about random stuff. But on the other hand, I'm usually still more attentive and I'm done with my assigned tasks than the other students because I don't spend talking and being annoying. So even with headphones I don't cause disturbance to anyone or myself.

Her second big peeve was that if I get this so called privileged treatment that I don't argue against getting it. But... realistically nobody would do that... And it's not like I get such big privileges either... So Idk...

She continued on with saying that nobody at school likes me and that basically that I'm a terrible person. I know I shouldn't listen to it but my self esteem plunged once again and I feel like I wanna cry tbh.

I'm only here for a few more months before I can go to uni but life sucks atm. And it makes me even more introverted and depressed. Like a vicious circle.

I kinda want to become more social and outgoing and friendly to people but I really have a hard time with it and it's ruining my life. It doesn't help that many people don't understand it and think it's a choice to not have social anxiety anymore and that I should try harder. But I'm not convinced that I even can.

Anyways... that's basically it. Just had to get it off my heart

[sinesalvatorem]

Do you think that people who are insecure will naturally become monogamous and people who aren't will become polyamorous?

I’m not sure how to interpret this, tbh. I think “insecurity” is a vague enough concept that I don’t know what would count as a person who lacks insecurity.

Is it insecure to be worried about your partner leaving you if they literally just told you they would? Or is this just “having preferences over whether your partner dates you”? Do they need to be irrational (and how is “irrational” to be defined)? And are we only counting people with irrational fears about relationships or about anything? Is a person who feels scared when they stand on a glass roof insecure?

So I’ll instead try to define a specific value - how regularly and intensely one experiences fears about one’s relationship(s) - and call people who have more of this (holding the behaviour of their partner(s) constant) “more insecure”. This gives us “insecurity” as a personality trait. How much fear one feels can obviously go up and down depending on what one’s partner does, but people who will respond with more fear than others in identical situations can be thought of as more insecure for this purpose.

So, does being more insecure cause you to be more monogamous. It probably does for a lot of people! And, for others, the reverse might be true!

“Wait, what?” you may ask. “How can that be?” Well, I’ll give the example of my own case:

I have been a pretty insecure person (in the general, not relationship-specific sense) for a very long time, which is not too surprising given my backstory. However, until I first started dating (two years ago), I didn’t know what it would be like to be in a relationship.

I had a major advantage out the gate in understanding how to build good relationships, due to reading a lot and knowing people with good relationships that I could model. Nonetheless, I had no idea what being in a relationship felt like. Turns out it felt extremely tenuous.

I had a whole suite of insecurities; most of which were related to the newness of relationships. I felt as unlovable as back when no one would date me and was terrified that, if I let any opportunity pass me by, I’d never find a girlfriend again. I continued to have the suspicion that everyone secretly hated me that I’d held since primary school, which made it hard to trust that any given person would stick around, and made me want to distribute my risk. I was afraid that the rules around what others considered “cheating” were obscure and unknowable. And also, like, my own jealousy was a thing.

Given the particular cluster of insecurities, polyamory was the obvious choice. Three soul-crushing anxieties pushing me one way beat the one pushing me the other. For over a year, being polyamorous was clearly the best way I could satisfice my preferences. But, over time, most of my insecurities faded, leaving behind almost nothing besides the jealousy. So now I’m way less insecure and have a way stronger natural leaning toward monogamy. Funny how that works.

(Note that I continue to date polyamorously, because the switching costs to becoming monogamous would not be worth it. This is just to say that the type of person I am is better suited to monogamy than polyamory now. My actually love life is poly.)

Why did my anti-mono insecurities go away while my anti-poly insecurity didn’t? Honestly, I really don’t know. To some extent, the jealousy did go away, as it’s now something like 30%-50% as bad as it used to be. On the other hand, everything else is less than 5% as bad as it originally was, so that’s a pretty big gap. It’s also a pretty annoying order in which to self-improve, given that my life continues to be poly. But I do have some guesses about why it happened in that particular order:

Experience: Most of my insecurities were about things that were gradually proven by my own experiences to not be that important. After a year of it happening very consistently, I stopped being completely shocked that I attracted romantic interest from other girls. I found that the people around me probably didn’t hate me, because they had too much ADHD to play a con this long. (It didn’t hurt that I could see other people having fears of being hated and notice that theirs were irrational.)

Somewhat more surprising to me was that I picked up a model of cheating. Or, more accurately, several models, such that I could predict how several different types of jealous people might feel about things. It was actually somewhat like learning to read faces, which I originally thought would be impossible. Then I started picking up the cues of a raised eyebrow here and an upraised mouth-corner there, until eventually I could do it. Similarly, navigating relationships with different types of people, and listening to the thoughts of people I wasn’t dating, helped me get a new sense, so the problem no longer seemed scary.

Meanwhile, this didn’t really happen with jealousy. The lessons experience taught were that yes, my partner sometimes starts dating someone cooler than me and then dumps me; and yes, my metamours sometimes interfere in my relationships in ways that sabotage them; and yes, my poly friends tend to (on average) have less secure primary relationships than my mono friends. None of these were universal, obviously, but common enough to sting.

I’d certainly rather I was weighing risks like these with system 2 than with system 1, but if my system 1 was exposure therapied out of most of its problems, that isn’t going to work for a problem where system 1 is sometimes correct.

Environment: A while back, a Tumblr post went around where someone talked about why the casual suicidality of Tumblr culture was unhealthy. That suicidality must always be taken Extremely Seriously because it is a Real Adult Problem that you need to Seek Help for. Almost everyone who responded said that this was actually very valuable to their mental health and that they wouldn’t be able to express their feelings in a different environment.

This is basically what I’m like with my insecurities. Being in a social environment where people were like “lol, of course we’re all afraid that everyone in the world hates us” helped me work through that.

Meanwhile, I’ve mostly been surrounded by people who think jealousy must always be taken Extremely Seriously because it is a Real Adult Problem that you need to Seek Help for, who of course make me not want to admit to such Serious Defects. Plus, of course, the people who think monogamy is evil and that violating monogamous people’s boundaries is always justified, who doubly make me never want to talk about jealousy in public.

The combined chilling effect probably leads to me working through my problems less well than if I could talk about them, which may contribute to why my fear that everyone hates me faded at a much faster rate than my jealousy has.

Self-Deception: Probably related to environment is the fact that, while I could admit most of my problems to myself, I was convinced I didn’t experience jealousy. After all: jealous people are Bad; I am not Bad; therefore, I am not jealous. This lasted me through quite intense levels of doublethink and reams of excuses that are embarrassingly invented in retrospect.

This, of course, also meant I wasn’t working on the problem directly, because I couldn’t admit to myself that I had it. Thus, I may also be behind on subduing jealousy just because I’ve been consciously working on it for a much shorter period of time.

Regression To The Mean: As far as I’m aware, most people tend not to be incredibly scrupulous and convinced that they’re inherently unlovable and universally hated. However, they do tend to experience jealousy. They do at high enough rates that the default dating system is built around an assumption of jealousy.

This means that, of my listed insecurities, the ones that were obstructions to monogamy were uncommon. Thus, just due to the random ways people change, there’d probably be a higher chance of them going away than of jealousy going away. One might expect jealousy to be more firmly fixed in place just because it’s very common. (This is also my handwaviest and least endorsed guess.)

In the end, it was probably several of these, plus maybe other things I haven’t yet thought of. Whatever the case, I can at least say that I’m better off now than where I started. On basically every metric, I’m a more self-assured and less insecure person.

While I’d rather have vanquished my insecurities in a different order, I am still immensely grateful that they’re going away at all. If I had but gained some more trust, but had still been just as jealous, Dayenu.

Honestly, I’m just shocked anyone put up with my insanely insecure ass long enough for this much improvement to take place. The fact that anyone could stand me this long, when I can’t stand myself, is the best evidence I have that I might actually be pretty or something.

(Though I still have the insecurity that I’m bad for the people around me, even if not the one that everyone else realises this and hates me. This is part of why I’m way more reluctant to date new people, now that I no longer have the automatic urge to accept every opportunity I get. However, if you want to try anyway, I’d be immensely flattered.)

Anyway, sorry to give you a long story about my personal life. The point was that insecurities can pull you in any of several directions, so you can’t be sure that one set of people is more or less insecure than another without finding out why they’re doing what they’re doing.

[blackrupee]

Wow your life sounds complicated right now I'm sorry for that. So you aren't gonna have any managers what the fuck? And OH MY GOD I hate when people come in to eat so close to close!!!! ( I work @ zaxbys) if someone is acting passive aggressive I would act even more passive aggressive- make that bitch regret it- regarding the 2 guys: 2 guys is better than no guys:))) wish the first one didn't pressure you though. How did the 2nd one hurt you? - and I care so don't worry about boring me

hi hello would you like to read a novel on my life thanks i talk too much (tldrs at end)

nah like.. we had been managing with a general manager and 3 assistant managers even though we really need 4 so as not to overwork anyone. we recently hired a new one from a corporate arbys (we’re franchised) and two just quit. like i mentioned, theyre not coming back even though the original plan was that their new jobs would be only temporary (6 weeks). sooooo now we have a general manager who only works weekday day shifts, one assistant manager who is relatively new (she had been working at this place for a while but was promoted to manager 6ish months ago) and another who is brand new but still has some experience. they said theyre looking to promote from within initially, but they might have to hire outside people if no suitable potential manager is picked. id love to get manager pay and its not like managers do anything hard so id be WILLING to be a manager..like the whole reason why i got trained on backline was because we have such a big turnover rate with backline people since it fucking SUCKS and i was wanting to be helpful and flexible. so like. thats what i offerred. but one assistant manager was like “lmao all youd do is swear at the customers” and im like bitch when have i ever?? i talk shit about them all the time but ive only sworn IN FRONT OF a customer twice and neither time was it directed at them. but i mean im sitting on a small handful of customer complaints so its not like the gm would even consider me probably. idk dude. i can be nice if you pay me to be nice. but i get paid to do food and do it fast……….so

but yeah literallyyyyyyyyy i have no idea how people can be so??? inconsiderate???? and they dont??? care??? im learning that my contant frustration with people in my personal interactions is due to a disconnect between what i value in  expectations and what actually happens. like. when i go somewhere i already KNOW what i want, so i say it quickly and competently. i preface a lot of my interactions with people im requesting food or services from with “i’m sorry but…”. i phrase things as “could i get” as opposed to “get me” or “i want” which sound HELLA rude tbh. id always have my money ready at the window or the register, im always trying to pay attention and not miss anything or just….be rude in any way bc i know fast food fucking sucks. i know some of the people i interact with probably hate their job as much as i do and i want to be the smallest burden i can be. and it seems like nearly no one else has these same values???? and i dont understand how people can just??? be? so? inconsiderate?

also yes bitch im the queen of passive aggression. literally the night before i was working a short shift and my friend was closing frontline and this bitch was closing drivethrough. i just got the okay to clock out and i was like “bye! have a beautiful night! just know that i love you so much and ive everything ive ever said has always been fake until this point! never meant anything ive ever said until now especially if your name starts with k or ends with ristin (drivethrough girl/the one whos being so difficult is named kristin) but just know that i love you!” and basically being really dramatic and extra as satire.

i guess for context the whole reason she decided to be mad at me was the other night when she was drunk and was like “do you even likeeeeeee meeee i feel like you hateeeee meeee wahh wahh wahhhh” even though im like…..yes bitch i enjoy your company? i joke/use hyperbole/satire/irony/whatever a lot but like occasionally id be like “ey yo you know its all jokes right u know i love u right” just to ensure that she knows but she fucking. ignores it all. i feel like she so desperately WANTS me to hate her and tbh i got fucking sick and tired of hearing her complain all the time about this shit! i fucking hate repeating myself! so sure. if you want me to hate you so fucking much there. i hate you. i fucking hate you so fucking much. like is that what you want to hear? is that validating? are you fucking happy?

its so fucking frustrating

but i will not be held accountable for her decision to be upset. because thats what it is. she wants to be upset, and she wants me to be responsible for it when its literally not my responsibility. i am absolutely not going to stand for this shit like i kind of want to say its emotional abuse lmaooo but im just so fucking sick of it. 

everyone knows that i take chicken tenders and turnovers that would be thrown out at the end of the night and she was closing frontline yesterday and made a point to throw out the turnovers right next to me without asking if i wanted any/leaving any for me. i mean i completely expected her to be that petty of a bitch so it was kind of funny tbhonestly. also im p sure she unfollowed me here lmaoo

with regards to the guys and this paragraph could get a bit tmi/nsfw: yeah the first one kind of sucked but i feel like a little bit of the New Person Nerves have worn down so id do better if we were to hookup again. because like i totally would love to have fucked him but…..anxiety. he was hot tho. like 10/10 body and ass holy shit. plus he complimented me on my ass eating so (assuming that was genuine and not a vapid ego boost haha paranoia am i right) hopefully he comes back for seconds. 

second guy ive had a longish history with. started talking to him at the beginning of last fall semester and we hooked up kinda regularly for about a month. things fell apart, we both understood that we wouldn’t be good dating wise but still enjoyed meaningless cuddles. whatever. it got to a point where he would only hit me up like once every month and a half or so and towards like january-ish he hits me up again. so im like nice cool lets chill. im getting ready for this but my phone is in the other room. while im doing this he drove by my place to pick me up (since he was on his way back from nashville), didnt get a response to an “im here” text (bc i was busy and tbh not expecting him to do that), and left. he lives within like walking distance tho so im like “?? sorry i was busy are you still out or should i walk over?“ and he texts me like “sorry hold up a thing just happened” and im like…….okay. so im just.. waiting around for him. periodically texting like “hey are we good for tonight and whats going on?” because like there was some drama with his friend? hes like.. apologizing and shit but this goes on for an hour. BUT. the ENTIRE time he’s dealing with this friend problem or whatever he’s literally on grindr. and at the end of this hour im like in full blown paranoia panic mode and i literally text him something mentioning this and he BLOCKS ME ON GRINDR so im like ??????!!!!??? and i text him (all while saying “not to be crazy or paranoid bc im probably coming off that way but like could i get an answer or something??”) AND HE LITERALLY SAYS HE DELETED HIS GRINDR. but thats a LIE because i have a secondary account to see like……if guys are still on grindr/if a thing with a guy might turn into something more like if i see he’s not on grindr as much?? thats prob incredibly stalkerish and probably really creepy but hey. thats me. so i KNOW he lied to me but i cant really say “hey ur a liar” without disclosing this weird creepy stalker part of me (funnily enough this isnt the first time a guy has lied to me and i caught it with my secondary account! so it proves to have some function use in the end. not totally crazy). so. yeah. that was the incident. after this i dont trust him at all, and i still dont, but i had it in my mind to like somehow get him to fall in love with me just so i could break his heart for doing this? never really worked out. so now im at the point where im like….eh he’s a piece of shit and i hate him but ill cuddle with him bc it feels good

back to nsfw/tmi: the sex was okay. he’s weird about people being near his like….dick and stuff because he was raped and i totally get it bc i was too but he was comfortable enough for me to finger him and my finger still hurts from where he clenched when he came lmaoooooo. was totally hot tho. and i got to east his ass so im like eyyyyyyyy. its been so long since ive eaten ass so having it two consecutive nights in a row has been cathartic.

tldr; we have 2 assisant managers and a gm rn. looking for more

tldr; bitch. same.

tldr; bitch. same.

tldr; he’s a liar