#and that is the untapped potential of devastating angst >:)

[razables]

this is how it’s going to be

[hikarry]

So, back during my writing hiatus years, I got really into angst. Not just your run-of-the-mill "my character is sad" angst, but the deep, soul-crushing kind that makes you stare into the abyss and wonder if you even know happiness. I’m talking existential crisis, doomed love, betrayal that scars you for life, your beloved dying in your arms, the whole shebang. If a story didn’t leave me on the verge of tears or questioning the meaning of existence, was it even worth writing?

Fast forward to now, and somehow, all that brooding intensity has funneled itself into my obsession with “Good Omens.” I mean, Crowley and Aziraphale are practically a walking, talking embodiment of untapped angst potential. Two celestial beings who've been through millennia of cosmic bureaucracy, moral quandaries, and yes, each other’s endless company. And yet, here I am, more invested in their ineffable romance and ready to make them suffer and bleed into my hands.

I mean, think about it: Crowley’s got that “I’m a demon but also a little soft” thing going on, with 6,000 years of pent-up feelings hidden behind those dark shades. He’s the king of internal torment, practically bursting with “I might just be the baddie, but also maybe I don’t want to be?” vibes. And then there’s Aziraphale, who’s like a bundle of suppressed emotions, clinging to his moral high ground while quietly yearning for something more (Crowley, obviously). The potential for angst is off the charts.

How is it that their entire relationship isn’t just one long, drawn-out Shakespearean tragedy? Centuries of unspoken words, repressed desires, and unfulfilled longing—it's enough to make any angst lover's heart ache.

But I guess that’s the magic of “Good Omens.” It’s taken my love for soul-wrenching angst and wrapped it in a package that’s as charming as it is devastating. Crowley and Aziraphale are like a tragic sonnet just waiting to be written, where every line is a blend of heartache and hope. So now I’m still living my best angst-filled life through a demon and an angel who are just one apocalypse away from their happily ever after, hopefully

[rosecarr67]

Ciaoooooo

Thoughts on Soulless Sam? 🤔💭 (OG version ofcourse)

And since your project SaD (lmao the acronym fits 🥴) has reached the end of ss5. What is your next approach? Will young Sam 🌱 be soulless again or will Cas do his job this time 👀🔨

Thanks for writing rosie🌹

Hi hi hi! And oh myyyy Soulless!Sam has so much going on. In canon, I would've liked to see more of Dean trying to keep Soulless!Sam out of Situations, maybe Sam starts shoplifting or keeps punching people who bump into him on the street so Dean is constantly on edge. (We the viewers would also have enjoyed watching Sam do some more sweaty exercising, but that's another topic) There was so much untapped funny potential for Dean to be forced into the role of the fussy brother.

I'm also firmly on the side of Dean was right to put Sam's soul back. I think it might be an unpopular opinion, but Sam's soul is the part of him that damned himself trying to do good. His lovely soul is the reason he jumped into the Cage and stopped the apocalypse in the first place, so it's only right to rescue it from Hell. Leaving the essence of Sam in the Cage because his mortal body and brain wanted to avoid pain makes no sense to me.

In my story, well, I don't want to give too much away but I'm going with Sam loses his soul because the angst is Just Too Good. I cannot help myself. Dean is going to be so overwrought and tortured about it. I am all for the devastation, drama, and despair. I'm gonna make that boy so sad and pathetic, wet cat in a ditch vibes. Dean is about to check into the Heartbreak Motel and Diner with a bad case of regret thinking it's all his fault this happened to his baby, etc.

Thank YOU for sending this lovely ask 💜

[star-girl69]

i am literally OBSESSED with your writing but “I can fight too. Not as good as you, but I can. I-I don’t want to be weak, I don’t want to rely on your for everything, it’s- it’s embarrassing.” made me physically react. like that one meme holding you by the shoulder as you bleed from the pressure of my nails while staring into my soulless eyes type of spiritual reaction because i feel like not enough people talk about the absolute STRAYS that aphrodite and her kids catch daily.

like can you imagine being surrounded by all of these talented demigods who all inherited ‘useful’ skills from their parents like inhuman intelligence and exceptional archery skills and knowing that everyone looks down on you because you’re seen as weaker for being the child of the vain goddess of beauty. the other campers dont even try to hide it which make it so much worse 💀 like everyone openly thinks that you and your siblings are weaker and self obsessed because of your mother when she literally was a leading figure in the trojan war.

aphrodite cabin is better than me because one comment and i’d set someone on fire i’m not going to lie. they are stronger than i.

the meme in question

THE MEME IM GIGGLING

first of all thank you so much omg

THATS WHY I LOVE WRITING APHRODITE READER BC THERE IS A WHOLE UNTAPPED VAULT OF ANGST TO EXPLORE

i got at it a little more in i can see you and just like aphrodite kids!!!!! i love them!!!!! and they hurt me!!!!!they hurt me bc like you said can YOU IMAGINE????? it must be so devastating to know that you have all this potential to be a good fighter to be useful and all that but it’s 10 TIMES HARDER and it’s NOT EVEN YOUR FAULT

i can see you was so important to me on a level just beyond clarisse fanfiction bc it was showing not only is love more powerful and everyone has to get their heads out of their asses

(didn’t percy say once he was more scared of aphrodite than any other god or goddess??????)

but it also showed that you don’t necessarily need to be traditionally strong or a good fighter to survive as a demigod and i think that’s kind of what people think.

“every camper has to participate in capture the flag” I HATE IT I DO

THERE ARE OTHER WAYS TO BE USEFUL MY POOR APHRODITE BABIES I PROMISE

the stigmas and the stereotypes the aphrodite kids have to deal with are like so important to me and they need to be acknowledged more and i am HAPPY to be a service 🫡

[stepswowdsen]

【KagePro】 Haruka from the Daze reacts to KuroEne's relationship

Summary:

Haruka can see and hear what Konoha's body experiences

Haruka can "see" Saeru's actions and witnesses KuroEne's relationship as a "spectator" from the Daze (HC)

Haruka reacts to Saeru from the Daze

Shintaro relapses when he realizes that Kuroha/Saeru looks like Haruka

Yuukei Quartet reacts to KuroEne's relationship

Rambles originally from September 2024

(Also some shitpost rambles too)

Adding an extra layer of angst to KuroEne and KonoEne:

Canonically, according to the LNs, Haruka (who is trapped in the Kagerou Daze), can view and hear what Konoha experiences.

So… Does that mean Haruka see and hear through Saeru’s vision? Or is his connection completely cut off when Kuroha/Saeru steals Konoha’s body?

If Haruka can see Ene through Saeru’s vision……

Can he see all of that? Can he see through his body's vision, even if Saeru is possessing Konoha?

CUZ IF HE DOES…

That adds sooo much angst to my KuroEne AU if Haruka is able to "see" Saeru’s actions from the Daze.

Witnessing it as a spectator/audience member, without being able to stop any of it.

(Though I’m not sure if Haruka still keeps this connection when Kuroha/Saeru steals and possesses Konoha’s body. I’d have to reread the LNs sometime as a refresher)

Imagine seeing the person you love (Takane/Ene) project their feelings for you onto motherfucking Snake of Clearing Eyes (Kuroha/Saeru), the evil big bad, the guy that killed everyone and caused all of this in the first place, just because he has your face, body, and voice...

And then Kuroha/Saeru gives Ene the companionship she longed for (since Ene wanted a friend...)

But this adds an extra layer of angst to every single KonoEne scene (and KuroEne in my KuroEne AU)

Ene looks exactly like Takane except with blue hair. Ene was the name of her game avatar/persona... Haruka DEFINITELY would've recognized her.

Haruka could draw Takane without reference and imagine her perfectly, and also gets mildly jealous about her.

But like OUCH, I can't imagine how hurt Haruka would've been when he recognized Ene (by seeing and hearing him through Konoha)

And how devastated Ene looked when Konoha didn't recognize her.

BUT IMAGINE IF HE /CAN/ SEE THROUGH SAERU’S VISION CUZ IT’S KONOHA’S BODY…

Anyways, Haruka being able to "see" Saeru's actions through Konoha's body is just my fan-HC/speculation.

I would need to reread the LNs again to confirm.

But if it’s true…

If it’s true, then this info would recontextualize every single Konoha scene and Kuroha/Saeru scene (where Kuroha/Saeru possesses Konoha's body)

Oh man... But god I wish KagePro canon used this untapped angst potential of Haruka reacting to Kuroha/Saeru killing Ene and Shintaro in MR1 and Ene confusing Konoha for him in MR2

Because Iirc Haruka did say in LN 6 that Shintaro was killed by him, while referring to Black Konoha

Haruka: ......You died because I killed you?

遥：･･････だって僕に×されて、君は死んだんだよ?

遥：･･････だって僕に殺されて、君は死んだんだよ?

Haruka reacts to Saeru

Me: Imagine a scenario where Haruka is the spectator to KuroEne AU Route where MaryEne team-up and infiltrate Saeru's lab...

Omfg...

F: Haruka in the Daze rn: 🧍

Me: HELP ME

I’M SO SORRY HARUKA 😭 😭 😭

Ngl it sounds like a nightmare scenario being forced to watch the love of your life (Takane/Ene) and her only companion left (Mary) wrack their brains for options to try and fight back against an inhuman serial killer monster (Kuroha/Saeru) using your body

F: At first Haruka would be a little relieved that, in his vision, it looks like Konoha/Kuroha is helping out the Dan and giving Ene affection, then boom boom kachow 💥

Me: But then since Haruka can see through his body, he could probably see things like all the things Kuroha/Saeru did while out of the house (him working in the lab and his notes on Ene's android body)

So yeah he probably is suspicious of him

But at first, he would at least be relieved that Kuroha/Saeru is giving her affection in his place.

Me: Ok so I just realized.

If we’re proceeding with this HC that Haruka can “see” what Saeru does through his/Konoha’s body

Then in Routes where Saeru doesn’t meet with the rest of the MekaDan, he would quickly become suspicious of Saeru once he sees his lab (and detailed notes on Ene’s android body) through his vision.

And the fact that Saeru has Takane’s body in his lab too???

Like with that, he’d be able to piece together that he (Saeru) is indeed the one that killed them (Haruka and Takane)

But wouldn't be able to do anything about it.

OOOF 😭

Yuukei Quartet react to Kuroha/Saeru being with Ene

(Rambles with Feila)

Me: Oh Feila are you suggesting the potential of a KuroEne AU Route that takes place post-MR2 where Saeru is Ene's lover and pretends to be apart of the MekaDan, and Shintaro relapses when he realizes that Saeru looks like Haruka…

And Ayano can see through Shintaro's vision and recognizes Takane/Ene and that she's with a Haruka lookalike...

And then when Shintaro finally starts to catch onto Kuroha/Saeru's identity (on August 15th - far too late), she realizes that Ene is in a relationship with Snake of Clearing Eyes………………….

Oml 😭

Me: I FEEL SO BAD THEN...

F: I FORGOT ABOUT THAT

Haruka, I'm sorry you had to witness some shit

Me: OH you mean the KuroEne AU: MaryEne team-up Route where Ene stalls Saeru on purpose by baiting him into intimacy???

HDAHDHSHDSH

F: Like they're on a near death experience and still found a way, it's shocking 😭

Me: If he really can see through his vision, then that'd just be so awkward

F: HARUKA WATCHING FROM THE DAZE 😭

LET'S PRETEND HE IS ASLEEP INSTEAD 😭👏

Me: Hopefully he can have a nice nap instead during all of this

I'd be looking away if I were him!

Hope he can get a nice nap in the meantime 💤

That piece of info seriously escaped me while writing my KuroEne AU scenes 😭

F:

Ene -> Saeru: "Can't let the gang know I fw you (in a literal sense)"

Me: ASDSKLKLKLDSKLDSKLDKLS

Shintaro relapses when he realizes that Kuroha/Saeru looks like Haruka

Me: KuroEne AU Routes where Saeru pretends to join the MekaDan...

I just realized the realization probably hits Shintaro later that Kuroha/Saeru looks like Haruka

He’s the only other person other than Ene that would realize (except maybe the MekaTrio)

F:

He (Shintaro) was trying to forget the past too...

Are you trying to re-torture this guy but with a KuroEne love/hate-sex twist onto it???

Me: I’M— 😭

HELPPPP

Me:

Breaking News: Yuukei Quartet (Shintaro, Ayano, Haruka) gets tortured by being forced to witness KuroEne Love/Hate sex

Me: It’s actually not intentional LOL

Me:

Literally me: I wanna explore the dynamic between my wife and my fave cat

Everyone else reacting to their r/s are just the consequences of that LMAO

Though it’s fun to think of everyone’s emotional baggage and conflicted feelings over Ene being with Saeru

Me: Micchan was like “Holy shit Sen I love your KuroEne AU this is so angst fuel ⚰️ 🔥 I’m so sorry Haruka who’s in the Daze watching this unfold”

Oh god yeah I just realized the KuroEne AU routes where Kuroha joins the Mekakushi Dan ends up putting the others through the wringer emotionally

Especially since Shintaro is worried for Ene as her friend

F: I feel like making him notice that Ene looks like Takane and then realizing that she IS Takane

And witnessing her GETTING FUCKED BEFORE HE DOES is uh Idk cool plot but poor guy

Me: AHDSHDHSHSD

Bitchless /lh 😔

F: His digital malware is getting laid before him 😔

Me: Yeah like he'd eventually put two and two together.

Then Shintaro starts to think to himself that this explains Ene’s infatuation with the Haruka lookalike guy (Kuroha/Saeru)

F: You're making him relapse wow 😭

Me: Honestly sad for him cuz Ene wanted to avoid reminding him of the past but he ends up relapsing as a direct consequence of Saeru’s actions

F: So do I say fuck you, Author, or fuck you, Saeru???

Me: ✌️

It’s interesting to think about from a writing standpoint about the emotional baggage the others would carry at this.

F: It does make it interesting from Shintaro's perspective, but my man just wanna stay inside

Yuukei Quartet react to KuroEne's Relationship

Me: According to the LNs, Haruka can see and hear whatever Konoha's body feels.

Can… Haruka still see through Konoha’s vision if Saeru is possessing his body??? Or does his connection get cut off completely when Saeru possesses Konoha?

CUZ IF SO…

So if Haruka can see and hear what Konoha's body experiences...

Then... When KuroEne get intimate with each other...

Yeah…

F: SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT

SHIT

Me: Saeru’s actions end up causing everyone the worst kind of slow eating heartbreak in this AU.

Wow.

I just mainly thought about and focused on the two of them (KuroEne) but then I realized the routes where Kuroha/Saeru joins the MekaDan ends up causing the others so much heartbreak.

F:

Yuukei Quartet @ KuroEne’s “games/trysts”

Me: DAKLKLDKLSKLDSKL

This is kinda funny to think about but holy shit LMAO

F: Haru and Shin are a victim here bro

F: WELL UH… That was awkward 😨

Me: YEAH I'M MOSTLY JUST GONNA... LOOK AWAY FROM THAT LITTLE TIDBIT...

F: ALSO CAN'T AYANO AS AYAKI SEE TROUGH SHINTARO'S VISION??? CMIIW

Me: HELPPPPPPPPPPP

F: 4 VICTIMS IF WE INCLUDE MARY WTF

Ngl 5 victims if we include Haruka and Konoha.

Aren't they basically forced to just be a spectator to Kuroha/Saeru's actions (including Kuroha/Saeru killing everyone, and KuroEne's intimacy)

Though for Ayaki, Ig it depends on the Route (like if it's post MR2 or not)

Cuz Saeru suppresses Konoha's consciousness while he possesses him, but Konoha isn't fully gone.

Misc Rambles

My wife or son (with a bright sunny disposition and good-hearted empathetic nature) paired with a black/white themed meow meow mf (who's a deranged freak with bloodthirsty/sadistic tendencies) 🐈‍⬛☀️

And I go insane 🤸

My fave ship trope ever 💗

Freak x freak who freaks them out (or human that tames them) 🥰

Me when my fave KagePro chara is Kurohoe like my character taste is always so predictable LMAO

Me being into Takane/Ene is predictable too since I clearly have fave chara types for femme charas.

The first KagePro song I ever listened to was Headphone Actor about Takane's Kagerou Daze (her experiences in the Kagerou Daze), while she tries to reach Haruka 🎧

And my birthday is 6 days away from 9/6 (HaruTaka/KonoEne/KuroEne Day) 🎉

6... The same as Ene's MekaDan number... 6️⃣

We were made for each other, wifey!!! 💙

And the second KagePro song that I listened to that got me into KagePro was Outer Science. Cuz I got into KagePro immediately after I saw Kuroha/Saeru, so it was my gateway into the series 🖤💛🐍

Outer Science is the song of my KagePro fave, and my fave KagePro song and MV, so it's very special to me 💞

[snekkyfics]

oo i want to touch on the wing clipping thing but also jut be aware that "10 years birb experience" does not equal "expert in the ways of clipping bird wings." Especially since we never clipped our own bird's wings (there's hardly ever a good reason to and it's kinda like declawing a cat)

So yes, clipping different areas of the wings WILL have different results because different groups of feathers do different things. When you want to stop a bird from simply keeping lift, you clip the primary feathers.

However, if you were to clip the alula feathers, a bird would be able to fly, but would have significant trouble landing. So useful if you want to risk a bird crashing ig. Other groups of feathers being clipped would effect steering, etc.

I think it also could become relevant (depending on how your avian worldbuilding works) to acknowledge how different types of avians would be effected differently. Birds like parrots are very feet-based for birds, and the reason parrots tend do okay with clipped wings is because they would be spending a great deal of their time climbing with their feet anyway. In this way, a parrot avian would probably have a much easier time without wing use than, say, a sparrow avian. And ground and water fowl avians might be able to live almost normal lives.

I will say, if there's one thing that the fanfics absolutely get right is the fact that birds love to fly. For literal, IRL birds their wings do as much for them as our arms and legs combined. I would imagine avians would be very much the same.

And actually you could angst this farther with the fact that birds are very susceptible to neurosis. Clipped wings 4 lyfe + social pressure could have potentially devastating mental repercussions for avians. And stress in birds manifests itself in the form of picking and overpreening, "zoocosis" symptoms, and even - quite literally - death. It could also explain how avians have managed to be manipulated so far, as their biological need for family and safety would have driven them to fit in whatever the costs.

In particular, fun little angsty details to include in Tommy's behaviors (considering he had to run away from his flock and is stuck in a den of snakes) would be constantly picking at hair and nails to the point of bleeding, repeating behaviors that don't make logical sense (not in a tic way, but more of a "pace for hours and will 'blow off' other things to pace even tho it adds nothing to your life and stressed you out" kind of way), and even tachycarida/renal problems (<- althought i don't think this idea will get that medical)

but yeah. there's a lot of (actually accurate) angst for Birbs. Which isn't to say the fanfic stuff is bad (i enjoy it), but i feel like there's so much untapped potential.

Graceeee HI :D

Okay so I had this idea the other day for an original story that I might write, and I was looking at it and realized: it could very easily be turned into a SBI au and now I am Tempted.

So anyways my first reaction was "I need to go tell Grace and Bia/Snekky" (I know you a lot better and am a coward therefore I am in your askbox).

Anyways, if you'd like I can tell ya about it 👉👈

OH HELLO?? HELLO???

YES YES PLEASE TELL ME YES I AM SO CURIOUS OH MY GOSH AKSGAJSGKAGSJAGSISG

[musingsofanunorgainizedmind]

Top 10 Things I Love About Supernatural

It’s been almost half a year since the show ended and now that the dust has settlIed, I just want to list ten reasons I love this show. Despite it’s flaws, it’s been quite the ride.

1. Team Free Will

When I first got the idea to make this list, I originally planned on doing entirely separate entries for “Sam & Dean” and “Destiel”. Except then I wanted to pay tribute to “Sastiel”. And then I wanted to do an entry for “Team Free Dads”. By that point, I was already halfway through the list and I hadn’t even moved on from the main characters. A few months ago, I made a post about why I love every single pairing in this group. Obviously, Sam and Dean are a legendary duo. Obviously, Dean and Cas have an unparalleled story. Obviously, Sam and Cas are an underrated team. As for Team Free Dads, I’ve always had a soft spot for father/mentor figure characters and and all three tackle the role in different ways. I love Jack, too. I love how everyone in this bizarro family is “broken” in some way. We’ve got the Allistair’s prized pupil, the spawn of satan, the boy with demon blood, and the angel who nearly obliterated all of heaven. But they help each other heal by being supportive and seeing the good in each other. They all love each other so deeply and when together, nothing can stand in their way. Not Michael, not Lucifer, and not God himself. They tore up the book and wrote their own story. And it was a pleasure to watch it all unfold.

2. The Suppporting Characters

To list every single supporting character I have loved and lost in this show would take way too long. I don’t know if it’s the writing or acting performances, but I love pretty much every single supporting character on this show. Even villains like Azazel or Allistair are top-notch villains. Hell, I even like characters like Metatron, Lucifer, Mary, and John! Characters like Rufus, Charlie, Crowley, Rowena, Kevin, Ellen, Jo, Bobby, Gabriel, Balthazar, Mick...how am I not supposed to love them??? All of their stories were cut so short. I’d watch a show about any of these characters. The Wayward Sisters were robbed. So many ships were gone too soon (Sam/Rowena, Dean/Jo, Cas/Meg, Etc.). So many heartbreaking deaths. I want to be best friends with all these characters. Why be a “dean-girl” or a “sam-girl” when you can be a garth-girl? A kevin-girl? A claire-girl? A bela-girl? There are so many great characters with interesting and compelling backstories and so much untapped potential. I could go on forever on this, but I digress.This show has one of the best supporting casts I have ever had the pleasure of watching.

3. The Themes

It’s no accident that I got addicted to this show at the time that I did. Namely, my Senior Year of College and 2020. Graduating college and entering the “real world” felt like it’s own sort of apocalypse. 2020 definitely exacerbated my worst tendencies. Messages like “family don’t end in blood”, “you can write your own story”, and “always keep fighting” really resonated with me. I could definitely relate to the feelings of insecurity these character’s felt and the ways they suppressed/repressed their issues instead of facing them. I could relate to the feelings of not fitting in and I could definitely relate to the loneliness. This show helped remind me that I’m not alone. That it’s okay if my values and identity don’t line up with the what I envisioned for myself. And, most importantly, that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and that I should never give up. If Dean, Sam, and Cas can keep moving forward despite their demons and despite how bad it gets, so can I. Regardless of how the story ended, these themes resonated with me and I’ll still hold them with me. A single episode can’t take that away.

4. The Fun Episodes

This show has so many legendary standalone episodes. Changing Channels. Ghostfacers. The French Mistake. Fan Fiction. Tall Tales. Bad Day at Black Rock. When this show goes for the absurd, it goes all-in. It takes the risks it needs to take, it gets completely insane, and it pulls it off. So many of these episodes could have easily been the moment that the show “jumped the shark”. Yet, time after time, the show delivered on it’s potential. I don’t know how much I can say about these episodes except that they made me laugh out loud, made me fall even harder for these characters, and that they’re the episodes I remember best. If I were to rewatch any episode, it would be one of the fun ones. This show knew how to not take itself too seriously and how to poke fun at itself. I’ve always had a soft spot for shows that can make me laugh and cry (X-Files, Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Angel, Doctor Who, etc.), and this show definitely nails the fun part. 

5. The Sad Episodes

Death’s Door. Hammer of the Gods. Despair. Carry On. Abandon All Hope. In My Time of Dying. Swan Song. When this show wants you to cry, it doesn’t pull the punches. It gets downright devastating. No character is safe. Literally every character you love will either be forgotten or will die. Or both. The amount of trauma Sam and Dean have to go through is insane. Both have literally been to hell and back. Both have killed countless people, including innocents. When this show decides it wants to wreck you, it’s overwhelming. I sobbed when Bobby died. I sobbed when every single member of Team Free Will died for the final time (I still can’t watch any of those scenes). I still wish Jo, Ellen, Charlie, Kevin, Mick, and Gabriel had been given more time to tell their stories. Being a hunter means a life of endless angst. Being an angel or demon doesn’t get you off the hook, either. I remember going into this show thinking it couldn’t hurt me. My favorite character type is “mentor/father figure”. But holy hell...I don’t think every single sad moment was necessarily good writing, but when it was? Damn. 

6. The Biblical Themes

I’m not a relgious person. But, despite this show being steeped in Christian mythology, it really touched on my feelings about the Old Testament in a profound way. Well, really just Ben Edlund and Robbie Thompson did. I’ve never seen a show really hit the overall feel of the bible the way this show does. The idea of Angels as mystical and terrifying creatures. The idea of God as a flawed father figure with a penchant for wrath. The sheer epicness of the biblical stories. The idea of family members constantly being turned on each other. Cain and Abel. Jacob and Essau. Moses and Ramses. Moses and Aaron. Abraham and Isaac. The bible is full of stories of family drama. This show doesn’t always give angels and demons weight. Sometimes it’s silly and stupid and cheesy. But when it hits right? It’s epic. This is more of a personal thing I love about the show, but definitely a plus!

7. The Music

The early seasons music is so good. I really miss the classic rock of the golden era of the show. I mean, there are still some great musical moments later on, but damn. I loved hearing songs I recognized and I loved learning new songs. I loved when the song and the scene hit perfectly in time (Death’s intro. Cas’s return in Season 13.). Also Supernatural wouldn’t be Supernatural without the ‘Carry On My Wayward Son’ song at the end of every season. Even at the end of a season I didn’t love, that recap would always get me pumped. Also Chuck singing Fare Thee Well? Dean and Lee singing together? Fan Fiction? All great. 

8. The Cast & Crew

I never care about the actors or actresses in a show. I definitely don’t bother with the names of specific writers and directors or their styles of writing/directing. They’re just random people who happen to write for or play these characters I love. They’re not actually the characters. But these guys? Well, for one, I’m pretty sure half this cast actually is their character. At least to some degree. They’re also just...really cool people? Who are all friends? They make a point to do community service, to interact with fans, and to promote positive ideas. Jared’s Always Keep Fighting campaign. Misha and GISH. The fact that they all participate in fundraising opportunities and encourage fan engagement. Do they all have issues? Definitely. Have they said stupid things? Yes. But the good far outweighs the bad. They’re an entertaining bunch whether onscreen or not and I hope they all do well in whatever their future endeavors may be.  

9. The Fandom

I joined this fandom late. To be honest, I thought this fandom was obnoxious before I found myself a part of it. Now that I’ve been in the trenches? It’s got it’s ups and downs like any fandom. There are some parts that are more toxic than others. A lot of people yelling that their opinion is the only opinion. But overall? The good outweighs the bad. And the good? The good is great. Some fanfictions I’ve read are better than actual books I’ve read and just as moving. The fanart? Incredible. I love reading all the metas about random aspects of the show I never would have noticed. I love the music videos and I love the analytical videos. In real life, I’ve made many friends through our mutual love of this show. Hell, even getting sucked into GISH once or twice has given me some solid memories and brought me closer to friends. I wish all fandoms were this much like family. I’m so glad I got to be a part of this fandom and I can’t wait to continue being a fan. After all, nothing ever stays dead in Supernatural.

10. The Chaos & Insanity

Season 16 has been a time. First, Destiel went canon. Then suddenly Sherlock was having a 5th season, Putin was retiring, and Georgia was going blue. Destiel going “canon” and Joe Biden winning the presidency will always be correlated in my mind now. Things in the fandom went from quiet to blaringly loud real fast. Carry On happened. The fandom went into a civil war. I can’t even remember half of what happened in Season 16, but it’s been a wild ride. There’s been ups (my personal favorite being the french dub and the Saileen wedding). There’s been downs (Jared’s controversial statements and the original scripts being leaked). At one point Misha Collins had sex with Bill Clinton???? It’s been a wild time. It’s honestly gotten me through the end of this pandemic. At least it’s entertaining. I would say that at least all the craziness is over, but is it ever really over? Every time I say that something else completely insane happens. But it’s been fun. I’m glad I started watching this show despite my reservations and here’s to whatever happens next. 

[prett-ybird]

Ethan Willis or Roxane Valenzuela? Roxane Valenzuela or Leanne Rorish? Noa or Malaya?

Ughhhh you're really testing me here!!

I'll have to go with Rox over Ethan because my girl just had so much untapped potential and I love her the most. I mean you know my feelings about Ethan but he had a couple seasons to grow on me, whereas Rox was introduced then taken from me so quickly and I just miss her a ton lol.

But then I'm Leanne over Rox because of the pure angst that Leanne has. like as much as I l love Rox's clearly angsty but not explored background, Leanne's pain is just quiet and her love for her family is so devastating. and her newfound relationship with Ariel reminds me of my tentative relationship with my mom so I love that about them obviously. and also Leanne and Jesse are the ultimate pairing they just crack me up lol.

and i plead the fifth on the last one (i will also be honest and say i have no idea how american courts work i just know that pleading the fifth prevents self insemination incrimination maybe?) but i just love both my girls and i think they both deserved more screen time and more time together, like their lesbian/whatever noa's sexuality was solidarity reminded me of me and one of my closest hs friends so i loved that lol

[bigskydreaming]

For the fic ask meme, 4, 16, 24, or 28

I will answer 16 now, because No Reason, Just Whimsy, but stay tuned as I’ll probably end up answering 4, 24 and 28 at some point anyway, because like. No Reason, Just Whimsy. *Shrugs*

16.  If you only could write one pairing for the rest of your life, which pairing would it be?

I can’t tell you, see, because I would simply make that one pairing endgame and everything else leading up to it like, contain all the other ships I could not bear to be without. (Hahahaha this is why I could never be a romance author, I can not abide by the rules of HEA or HFN in relationship stories to save my LIFE). So, y’know, SPOILERS.

No but also I’m completely aware that this is cheating and not the point of the question. But I can not choose though, that is the point, like, have you met me? I am the original poster child for ADHD. I’m THAT old.

So instead I will simply say that in the realm of Teen Wolf, Scanny is very very very important to me, which like, surprises no one. But also I would still fight someone who tried to take either Scira or Scallison from me, I remain obnoxiously fond of Scackson’s potential, and I’m still out here being like, the sole Scosh (Scott/Josh Diaz) shipper in all the land, I’m pretty sure, lmfao. 

And I mean, also there’s Scyle, of course. I could never give up the Scyle.

As far as Marvel goes, like, I am going to be riding the high of Bobby/Christian being canon for quite some time, as anyone who has known me long knows that I have been shipping this ship since Christian was first introduced and then written offstage like two issues later….seventeen years ago.

(I have a lot of issues with straight writers making gay characters’ gay-specific tragedies and traumas like….someone ELSE’S angsty back story, while they themselves are just shuffled off the page and considered irrelevant. For those who don’t know, Christian is Emma Frost’s gay older brother who she adored and when their father had Christian institutionalized against his will because he was gay, this was what made Emma break away from the rest of her family for good and set her on the road to becoming the White Queen of the Hellfire Club. 

And then, despite like, this being life-defining for her, not a single writer in the next fifteen damn years ever thought to ask themselves…..hmmm, why would Emma Frost, one of the most powerful telepaths in the world and someone whose personal morality in no way makes her above using those powers, her wealth or Hellfire resources however she damn well pleases in the name of protecting herself, those she cares about, and advancing her agendas…..why would this woman who has never let anything stand in the way of what she cares about before like….simply just…never once in all the years since she was a teenager think to herself….hmm, what if I simply go to the institution where my beloved brother is kept against his will, and just…..made them release him?)

So, aside from always thinking Bobby/Christian would be a great ship with amazing potential given Bobby’s unique history and dynamic with Christian’s sister and the fact that Christian shares a lot of the same traits, backstory and other elements that make Emma an amazing and multi-faceted character and he’s just been sitting there in Limbo for fifteen years with all this untapped potential just waiting to be mined….

I’m always going to be gleeful about this ship and with a special fondness for Sina Grace for bringing Christian back from comic book Limbo and laying the foundation for this ship, like, just because like……I feel its long overdue and the only way to ACTUALLY make anything decent out of the bullshit that was mining his oppression for the sake of another character’s angst: by finally giving HIM the chance to be a character who is affected by all that, developed and moved forward from all of that, is the FOCUS of all that…..and even more importantly, now after being left offscreen for fifteen years by writers who considered his narrative nothing more than tragic filler….he finally has a chance to be an example of a gay character who gets to come BACK from all of that and move FORWARD from it, and like…find healing and happiness with another character, like Bobby.

So Bobby/Christian is actually hugely important to me for a variety of reasons, especially right now since this is all just happening recently, and I will love them forever and in defiance of the inevitable bullshit some future writer pulls that will piss me the hell off. Y’know, just going off of Vegas odds or whatever.

Aside from Bobby/Christian I’ve also always had a weakness for Bobby/Johnny Storm because they are the most iconic ice and fire characters out there and I am basically twelve. I also have blogged at length in the past about all the reasons I’m a huge fan of Bobby/Bishop and not just because their ship name would make them a literal bop. Again, I refer you to the thing where I’m basically twelve. But yeah, there’s a whole history there where when Bishop first came back into the past and met the X-Men who’d all been legends in his time, he kinda fanboyed a little over Bobby because of Bobby’s future legend, and then was kinda like….oh, that’s it? about him once he got to know Bobby and Bishop became like, the physical embodiment of underwhelmed. 

And ever since then Bobby’s always low key been like, a hyper-active puppy around Bishop, like, trying not to SEEM like he cares an awful lot about whether or not he’s managed to impress Bishop but because he can’t be subtle to save his life, mostly just coming across as “am I living up to the hype now? how about now? am I legendary NOW? What about now?” and I dunno. Its just kinda cute and a fairly unique dynamic, and Bishop has this deliberately bland, blink and you miss it sense of humor with the right writers and that I’ve always thought has a ton of potential for him to be privately amused by this tendency of Bobby’s, enough that he’s unwilling to confess to him that Bobby actually earned his respect years ago by this point, and he just doesn’t want to let Bobby know because then he’d stop. 

And then in terms of DC, I’ve posted a lot a lot a loooooooooot about my love for Dick/Kory in canon, and how they - and by extension we - were robbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbed, and if DC doesn’t give me my canon Mar’i and Jake Grayson one of these days, I don’t care if they have to import them from another universe and then have this universe’s Dick and Kory awkwardly try to co-parent them while living their own lives separately before finally coming back together and falling in love all over again and then becoming a single united family unit forever and ever in the most ridiculously complicated comic book version of the Parent Trap ever, like…..

I can’t even think of an over-exaggerated threat creative enough to convey just how badly I want and need this, DC, give it to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

And then also, I’ve actually posted a lot a lot a loooooooooooot (though not in a few years, probably, so those posts are all super old, lol) about how I think Kyle and Donna are a criminally under-rated canon couple and were actually really really good together because they went through so much together and Kyle literally grew so much as a character specifically on the things Donna called him out for the first time they dated, like, literally so he could be BETTER, and then with how anticlimactically they ended...because the thing is, they never actually even broke up! It was this thing where like, when Donna went to LA with Kyle for his high school reunion and to literally MEET HIS MOM, like HELLO, that is not a basic relationship step, that is Advanced Dating, like…..that is where they were at in their relationship when Donna literally got the call then and there that her ex-husband and her son had just died in a car accident. 

And Donna was devastated of course, and Kyle was devastated too - for her, and also in his own way, because he’d adored Robert and like, there were these issues where they were super cute and took him to the zoo together and Kyle was bonding with him and just like, melting over this kid, and Robert and Terry were killed by a drunk driver, and like, there was a later story where Kyle just went apeshit on this drunk driver he encountered because he had all these repressed feelings about Robert’s death and how it had hurt Donna and he’d made sure not to show any of that to her or even let on that he hurt for Robert’s loss in his own way, because he didn’t want to make it about him, he KNEW better…

And anyway, the point is…they never actually broke up in the sense of either of them at any point being all, oh we no longer love each other or think this can work, we need to end it. Instead, Donna said that she needed to take some time away from Kyle and everyone else and just…come to terms with what she’d lost and figure out who she even was now in the wake of that….and Kyle totally understood, didn’t argue or try and change her mind, he just said take as much time as you need, I’ll be here when you’re ready, and oh btw, here’s this lantern construct of a locket that I want you to keep because as long as it exists you’ll know that a part of me is still thinking about you and wanting you to be happy, wherever that is.

And then like…..less than a year later, DC did their super weird Dark Angel story where Donna was erased from reality and then had to be ‘recreated’ from Wally’s memories, and for awhile just existed in the form and identity she’d been recreated from, which was based entirely on what Wally knew of her and thought and felt about her, and so there were huge gaps in her identity where she was missing stuff she should have known but didn’t now because WALLY didn’t know about it.

Such as how when Donna met Kyle’s subsequent sorta-girlfriend Jade some time later - I say sorta because she and Kyle were still figuring things out at that stage, and Jenny-Lynn in part didn’t know if she wanted to actually get into a relationship with him because she thought he was still in love with Donna - well anyway, when Donna and Jenny-Lynn met in a later issue and she said all this to Donna, Donna reassured her not to worry about it, she was reading more into it than actually existed because she and Kyle had never been that serious anyway. 

Which. SCREECH! Brakes please. HOLD UP. 

Like, I’m sorry JAY FAERBER YES I REMEMBER IT WAS YOU WHO WROTE THAT ISSUE UGGGGGH, but like, in what UNIVERSE is “dated, broke up, then got back together later because she thought Kyle had matured a ton since they first tried dating and now they were so much stronger as a couple that she oh I dunno, introduced him to her son and they went on playdates together, went with him to meet his mom, had a never-vanishing lantern locket construct that signified just how much he would always love her” uh…..’never been that serious anyway’? I’m. What? Does not compute.

BUT WHATEVER.

LOL. Anyway, point is, so things like that actually make sense when you factor in the role Wally’s memories and perspective played in who Donna literally WAS for awhile (and the understandable existential crises she went through as a result). But like, at the point in time when Kyle and Donna were most serious, Kyle was still fairly removed from a lot of the rest of the DC universe, he wasn’t a core member of the JLA yet and usually operated independently, and he and Wally were NOT close at all yet, let alone friends….in fact, for as long as Donna and Kyle dated, Wally pretty much still actively hated and resented Kyle for just existing, since he’d always been close with Hal since he was a kid and Hal was his Uncle Barry’s BFF-and-homosexual-life-partner-in-all-but-name. 

Like, it was only after Kyle became one of the core JLA alongside Wally that the two of them finally worked out their mutual antagonism and became friends, but before that, Wally was NOT shy about expressing he hated this new GL guy and wanted nothing to do with him, even though it was for unfair reasons, sooooo……like, its not really that shocking that even though Wally and Donna are two of each other’s oldest friends and super tight, like, he was never going to be the friend she called up to let him know how great things were going with her and Kyle these days, lol, y’know?

So it makes sense that when Donna was first magically reconstituted thanks to Wally’s memories/view of her (btw, this was because Wally was out of phase with reality and was in the Speed Force at the precise moment that Donna was erased from reality by the Dark Angel’s magic, and that’s why he alone remembered her and was the template for undoing what the Dark Angel had done). But anyway, it makes sense that she would for a time have had very little memory or even knowledge of her and Kyle’s prior relationship, and basically just know/remember what little Wally actually knew of it. So from her perspective then, it could very well have seemed that they were never that serious, and everyone but Kyle like….kinda just nodded and figured okay, you would know after all, and just…..everyone ended up walking away with the idea that they were just this brief fling and neither had ever had strong feelings for each other, let alone love.

The problem I’ve always had is that eventually Donna DID regain her full memories and her own sense of self, and like….she was Donna again, through and through, existing as she always had without being limited to just Wally’s view or memory of her.

Soooo, at THAT point, she should have been perfectly aware of what her and Kyle’s relationship had ACTUALLY looked like, in its entirety, and I mean, I can understand them not getting back together at that point. It’d been years, they both were in very different places, Kyle had eventually gotten together with Jade after it was expressed by Donna herself that there was no reason not to, given that its not like they were ever that serious….so by the time Donna herself would have realized otherwise, I can totally understand her feeling that the moment had passed for them, that Kyle had moved on (just as Kyle had only ‘moved on’ once he felt there was no longer a chance of them returning to what they were). Like, all of that is super weird and complicated even by ridiculous comic book soap opera standards, so I mean….lol, how do you even BEGIN that conversation, y’know?

Buuuuuut, it just kinda sucks that at no point after that Faerber issue has any later writer ever had either Donna or Kyle discuss their previous relationship(s) in terms of what it ACTUALLY was, for BOTH of them, rather than just this trivial, ancient history fling that neither had ever been super invested in….even though for several years in the nineties they were one of THE major hero couples in comic books.

So. Yeah. As evidenced, I have a lot of unresolved Donna and Kyle feelings lol.

And then of course, there are and always will be my epic “OMG DICK AND KYLE COULD BE THE GREATEST SHIP AND END ALL THE SHIPS LIKE COULD YOU EVEN IMAGINE” feelings, but like. That’s a thirty pound tome in and of itself, so. Like. Just picture the two of them standing staring soulfully into each other’s eyes and then me, creepily fixated on them twenty feet away, chin propped up on my hands and going awwwwwwww while my own eyes like, sparkle anime style but also are the heart-eyes motherfucker meme at the same time.

[karamelthirst]

Okay so I just got home from work, and all I can say is that I’m devastated. I haven’t even watched the ep yet, and I’m even tempted to not watch it altogether because I’m actually gutted...

From what I hear the send off wasn’t even close to living up to what we all deserved, and everything seemed rushed and like an afterthought which could only mean Chris’ decision came late and didn’t give the writers enough time to adjust.

I’m truly happy for him to be doing his thing, but my god is it cruel to not just the Karamel angst we’ve all had to go through this season but his f***ing unfulfilled superhero journey!!!

Mon-El had the most untapped arc of all the characters that a lot of us were invested in and have enjoyed watching. His season 3 storyline was only a sliver of what Mon-El and his superhero abilities can offer and is one that was for the most part, appeasing to both comic book fans and regular fans. For it to have been dangled in front of our faces only to be taken away without fully delving into his character’s full potential is an injustice.

I know for me, was more invested in his storyline than any other character on the show this season. But with his late arrival, I knew that his story would take a backseat for the time being, foolishly thinking this was a purposeful and tactful way to shape season 5 only for it to end like this. 

There was so much depth to Mon-El they could’ve explored next season, with questions about what went on in the future begging to be answered, how alone he was in that pod and just how badly that affected him... the battles he fought with the Legion, his struggles... more details on Brainy/Imra and how that all came about... how he missed Earth, his friends... and Kara. I just can’t believe it’s ended this way. 

I feel the way they built up Kara and Mon-El all season to me, screams that it was 100% a last minute decision on Chris’ behalf because there’s no way the writers are that cruel to portray them in such a way, planting the foundations of endgame status and teasing their reunion only to have a change of heart and give us a shitty 5 minute goodbye... 

It just doesn’t make sense to have even brought him back this season if this was their “intention all along”... how can you introduce a fan-favourite comic book hero/icon only to have him leave less than half a season after suiting up?! You’re telling me you can fully encapsulate a hero’s journey over a span of 17 episodes??? There wasn’t even enough time to give him his damn superhero name! Come on, that article is an absolute cop out!

I’m not saying any of this out of anger, just pure disappointment. I was so excited to watch the team and their dynamic develop and grow, permanently adding another super/alien to the mix and going on to kick some ass the next coming seasons... just like Team Flash. However that dream for now, doesn’t look like it’s to be and to be quite frank, I’m not too sure how the show is going to cope after this.

None of what I’m saying is trying to mininise Melissa and her ability to carry her own show, but I just know that Mon-El was a huge part of not only the Karamel fandom but he was what also what enticed the male fan demographic, and those who watched as comic book fans. It’ll be interesting to see how this all pans out... I’m hoping it survives another season, in the hopes that Chris will be done with his feature film/directing and come back and finish the open-ended-ness of the finale.