#and this is why psychologists dont take me seriously when i say i am genuinely struggling

[atomicstarstruck]

one really cool and sexy thing about me is that i base my self worth on what other people think of me and always assume myself to be inherently intolerable unless someone states otherwise. if i am not always providing then my presence takes, regardless of my intentions or efforts. if a room doesnt laugh at my joke i immediately accept that im unloveable and undesirable

[tfw-no-tennis]

mtmte liveblog issues 4&5

its delphi time babey

I'm sorry but drift & co look like such fuckin nerds on their scooter things on the cover lmaooo

oh god. seeing the first page just reminded me of how horribly confused i was for this whole little arc the first time i read it. i was like ok, who are all these new characters, and also why does everyone look so similar

anyways now i now what's going on. i love first aid

love the running continuity of rung being the literal only psychologist on cybertron (except for fr*id but that's later). no wonder everyone's fucked up they all have to share a single therapist 

ok i find it extremely funny that first aid was demoted from doctor to nurse, as if that's a thing that happens EVER - I mean it'd be one thing if first aid was a nurse practitioner (which i doubt is a position that exists here), at least that demotion would make sense, but like...the doctors i work with don't know how to do most nurse stuff (like BP, cathing, vaccinations, hell even using some of the thermometers - that's all stuff nurses/etc do), so demoting one to a nurse would be a disaster (just like promoting a really good nurse to a doctor would be a bad idea). anyways i know I'm being pedantic but it Be like that when you work in the medical field and read something that has medicine-related stuff in it

i love swerve giving ratchet the tiniest free drink ever lmaooo

is that skids being a rowdy drunk in the bg lmaoooo

unironically i love medical statistics. keep it comin

i love magnus’s giant sternal chestpiece thing. its like a bird’s sternum but without the massive pec muscles attached 

i love magnus and rodimus’s dynamic so much

oh pipes....im so sorry but this fun space adventure is going to be not so much fun for you

ratchets ideologies are certainly interesting, and i liked seeing how they changed over the course of the story

drift: why would i be SCARED of the DJD, I've got a SWORD, two swords even,

hvbhajkhfbsdjkf pipes really said ‘oi, you two - what's this, then?’ that's the most british fucking thing, that's literally something i say when I'm doing an overexaggerated british accent, oh my god,

PIPES IS SUCH A TINY DUMBASS. ILY SIR BUT WHAT ARE YOU DOING

aaaand now you're covered in dead bodies, pipes. look at your life, look at your choices

drift epic sword moments

drift confirmed for the kinda weird guy who has katanas that he uses to like, cut up fruit and water bottles in his backyard while rodimus films him

‘i thought i heard...bickering’ lmaooooo

ah, so its covid

this arc is how i feel working in healthcare lmaooo especially now that i probably have covid 

so rewind condensed the entire war into an 11 second long cringe compilation. nice

seeing the mechanical stuff past tailgate’s visor is so cool

poor tailgate, this guy is getting slammed with history from multiple sides. and like, bias is inevitable in ANY sort of recounting of events, especially controversial historical events, so poor tg just kinda has to take it all in and decide who to listen to 

that’s...not really how immunity works, guys. also, you shouldn't be exposed to so much disease with proper ppe usage

is there even such thing as ppe in the transformers universe?? there are fluid- and contact-transmitted illnesses, so there SHOULD be

is there even OSHA in this universe??????? unbelievable 

first aid, holding a giant fucking claw clamp: we haven't tried EVERYTHING............

first aid read a human wikihow article on how to jumpstart a car and took notes 

i love tailgate’s ‘mom says its my turn on the xbox’ pose 

tailgate has a point - he’s from pre-war times, where things weren't as grey so of course he would try to divide the two sides into ‘good guys’ and ‘bad guys’

CYCLONUS BE NICE DONT HIT UR FUTURE HUSBAND

go get some character development and then maybe you'll feel better

seeing the word quarantine is making me twitchy w/my possible month-long complete isolation quarantine on the horizon

drift pulling his swords on pipes and ratchet pushing down drift’s arms...lmao

poor pipes...even tho this is completely his fault, its still rough

also jesus, pharma and ratchet look so goddamn similar, reading this was so confusing the first time around 

drifts idea of subduing pipes involves turning into a cool car and also posing with his sword

also. never gonna be over drift’s massive thighs. jesus man

ooof now drift has the rona. ouch 

poor drift, his covid realization is getting overshadowed by pharma being flung around

first aid bustin thru w/the epic medical nipple clamps and some Big Boi Backup

ok that's an epic pre-beatdown speech from fort max right there, daym 

im just gonna continue on w/issue 5 now for continuity’s sake. yay!

the cover of tailgate in magnus’s autobot school is so cute

and we open with an incredible shot of fort max str8 up ripping a guy in half. i mean, to be fair, he DID just give an epic speech about how much he was gonna do that, and he certainly followed thru

yeahhhhh, fort max is not doing so well atm

when he puts that dudes head in his chest vent thing and then snaps it shut....man 

also i fucking LOVE when their faces are shaded all in black w/only the eyes/mouth fully drawn...fantastic stuff

ratchet: phew i am not equipped to deal w/this level of Fucked Up Mental Trauma. u good m8?

ratchet is already writing up a referral to rung for fort max as this is happening

drift is just laying on the ground dying like, oh hey yeahh I'm still here too 

i fucking love when punctuation is drawn in story - like here where first aid has a little ? over his head....fav

ratchet holding drifts hand ;_; 

ok tbh ambulon having switched sides 10 yrs ago is wild bc like, 10 years is barely any time for these guys, especially in a war that lasted 4 million years. that would be like a human switching sides in a war like, 3 months before it ends. probably. i sense some math bs, I'm just extrapolating here

all that mexican standoff shit is going down and first aid is just like But That's None Of My Business

ah so ambulon is an asymptomatic carrier 

and there's first aid with the save! iconic

pharma calling ratchet ‘buddy’ hbvakjdsbfhkasdf

ooooh i love that they figured it out - and i love that twist, that transforming is what triggers the start of symptoms. remember when drift turned into a cool car? yep

s/o to Ambulon Transformers for helping me in my medical terminology courses, bc now ill always remember: Leg(tm)

also this explanation makes a ton more sense (in universe, at least) than the whole ‘i guess we as medical staff have been exposed to enough Germz that we’re more immune to this or something’ theory 

ah, i love the meaningless (to me) alien robot medical jargon 

drift and ratchet hhhhhhhhh

‘I'm too wide’ fort max L O R G E

also once again drift is forgotten in favor of a bunch of other dramatic stuff happening vbhjksdfbjhskdf

godddd i love tailgates little flashbacks where we see how Important and Special he is, complete with his ‘bomb disposal’ arm label...augh its so good! 

and tailgate’s autopedia page even reflects his lies! like, did tailgate go edit that first thing upon waking up??? seriously, I'm fascinated by tailgate’s meticulous dedication to his fake life

also the fact that ultra magnus believes everything he read on autopedia is amazing lmao

ultra magnus: you think somebody would just go on the internet and tell lies? 

fuckgin love magnus’s long ass name/title placard 

tailgate hvbahjkdfbjhaskf i mean, he’s gotten the abridged version of everything else, of course he would assume that’d be the case here too...but not on magnus’s watch

magnus cant even say ‘fun’ hvukdasdbjfkjsadf i love my uptight law dad

love rung implying that upon questioning, he would easily divulge a patient’s name and maybe even information about said patient’s treatment while under him....love the disregard for patient confidentiality and hipaa in general 

not that hipaa seems to exist here, at least not in a fully realized form 

also i mean the above genuinely, i think rung’s tendency towards at least slight malpractice is very interesting 

poor red alert....super bad luck that HE was the guy to get roped up in that overlord business 

I'm glad that, at the very least, red alert was able to prove that he was Actually hearing something to rung, rather than get brushed off completely 

god magnus and tailgate’s interactions are golden 

also tg is much more sarcastic/quippy than anyone gives him credit for tbh

‘thought warfare,’ ultra magnus says with complete seriousness. god i fucking love this comic

now i can tell pharma apart from ratchet bc pharma has let his true Petty Bitch nature emerge and you can see it in his expressions

the whole ‘tarn is addicted to transforming’ thing didn't really go anywhere, right? i feel like i noticed that on my second readthru as well 

also pharma is such an interesting character given the context of him like, trying to strike a bargain w/the djd to keep them from destroying delphi, but that arrangement inevitably kinda making him lose it as the situation escalates. he’s also just really entertaining bc i feel like he kins the joker or st and probably gets into really heated arguments w/people on twitter about just abt anything

‘sound bomb’ i love this comic

another important facet of pharma’s character becomes clear around this time as well - how he’s really into ratchet. i also choose to read them as awful exes tbh, it makes their dynamic even more entertaining

‘killmaster, with the wand’ is one of my favorite running remarks lmao

also, was killmaster even a character before mtmte? or, if he was, was he an important one? it would crack me up the most if he literally didn't exist at all, but any way you spin it is still funny 

ratchet’s tiny humansona facing off against pharma is wild

‘I'm miles from anyone i truly care about’ brutal, ratchet, drift is dying like 2 floors away (im p sure)

SUDDENLY DRIFT IS HERE, ACTUALLY 

oh don't worry first aid, that sure isn't the last we’ll be seeing of pharma 

so like, did first aid save everyone by posting that data log to his wreckers fan blog or something? lmao love it 

i love the pretty fucked up reveal of ratchet having stolen pharma’s hands. like, damn dude. 

and that wraps up the delphi arc! our first true ‘arc’ of mtmte, and a fantastic one at that. short and snappy and fresh, with some very clever writing and cool new characters, and a lot of great plot threads to be picked up later. plus, we got to see the beginnings of drift and ratchet’s whole thing (and ratchet and pharmas whole thing). and the lost light gets some much needed extra medical staff, so everyone wins! 

well, we’ll see how fort max feels about this all pretty soon.....

[chrobinrickhen]

shit that happened

tw for child abuse, beating, physical assault, minor transphobia etc ///

my parents have been abusive to me my whole life. from things starting small with my mom treating me as her spouse and talking to be about things a parent shouldnt talk about with their as young as 3 year old child during times she was in fights with my dad, to while i was younger primarily beating me for simply crying at things (mainly in public places), the total and complete gaslighting of my abusive 5th grade teacher (which was somehow far worse than them lol) etc. however, they never seriously beat me before, as in, all out beating me up with continuous punches kicks and thrashing.

my mom would frequently slap me in the face or punch me once in the back at times as of recent during my years in high school where i struggled to my near (literal) hospitalization and death from mere over exhaustion and stress (i averaged less than 4-5 hours of sleep for all 4 years and my senior year i nearly didnt sleep At All) during my senior year my dad even threatened to kill me during one of my parents outbursts against me simply trying to reason (more like beg! lol!) for them to help me drop out of school because it was destroying me and was more and more traumatizing literally every day and they thought they were justified because “i was so close!” “youve already suffered for so long may as well stick it through!” despite my therapist and psychologist doing the best they can to tyr and get me out. my parents have punched a whole in the wall, thrown and broke things, (thankfully not at me) and simply just been physically threatening with destroying things important to me and my belongings.

however, after i graduated. and after i was diagnosed with ptsd. and after they seemed to become more understanding and learning from their mistakes i thought they were genuinely open to becoming better people and challenging themselves to listen to me and others.

this incidence proved that wrong.

itd been 2 years give or take i genuinely dont even remember what year i graduated lol since he threatened to kill me. i thought they changed and genuinely had formed trust with them that was slowly growing. and then somehow or another the topic of asylum seekers, ice, and the current concentration camps came up, to which my parents responded with some of the genuinely most vile words ive ever heard people say to my face.  i dont even want to try and repeat it here bc im pretty sure you can get the idea. i calmly tried to talk to them, they started to scream, i went up stairs. they continued to shout horrible things to me, that again, im skipping over for my own wellbeing bc it isnt exactly fun to recount. something something “you havent sufferred through shit” she said to me at one point. yes, your child who has been diagnosed with social anxiety disorder, general anxiety disorder, depression, panic disorder, ptsd, ocd, eating disorder general symptoms, a survivor of school abuse spanning my whole life for not being neurotypical and cishet, and a pending diagnosis for adhd, TOTALLY has not suffered.

anyway, i wanted to die. what they said to me, was so horrific i really just, wanted to die, i kind of lied about it on twitter saying im not actually suicidal dont worry but i highkey was and i dont wanna try and cover that up again. i just didnt want anyone to worry (IM OKAY NOW AND NOT SUICIDAL DONT WORRY this if anything was a good lesson for me to learn) anyway, i told them this. i knew it was kind of shitty and guilty but all i asked of them. is that even if they cannot agree with me, if they would at least care to listen to why this is wrong and accept that they dont know everything like they are convinced they do and yet accuse me of claiming i myself am.

i texted them, that long thing, telling them how i would stay in bed and not eat or drink (for context my sleep schedule was fucked the two days prior and i barely had eaten or drinken) my memory is fucked and i would have to check with my therapist if im confusing this with another instance bc im pretty sure the beating happened the day the argument did but i also remember staying in bed for mulitple days? but anyway thats not important fhdiujng so. they came to me and started screaming shit at me. again. horrible shit. their response to their child saying “im suicidal and would rather die than you be my parents any longer if you refuse to listen to why these people deserve to not be put in cages and die” and their reaction was not concern but screaming, insults, calling me a monster, a puppetmaster (the irony) and I DID NOT. SAY. A WORD. TO THEM. I DID NOT MOVE> i was. completely. still. the entire time. i was weak. i was sick. Literally from dehydration and starvation. and because i did not answer them back they jumped ontop of me and my mom beat the shit out of me and chokeheld me, my dad then also did the same even though he did not hit me, he came close to strangling me before leaving the room. i was swollen and bruised all over including my face it was super visible for whatever reason but my body hurt like a motherfucker for over a week since that happened. i just cried when they left

then an hour later after htey beat me they came up and starting their baby uwu act of “i dont want to fight just go shower and come down and eat your dinner blablabla you know we love you rihgt?” and forcing me to apologize to them whenmy mom literally beat me, my dad screamed in my face with his nose to mine to and they helf my neck in their hands with the intent to cause physical harm to me.

proceeding this the aftershock of trying to process what hat happened was just. a lot as you can imagine. i was so paranoid and uncomfortable the week preceeding this just being aorund them hearing their voices literally everything about my house and them living in it was horrifying to me. my therapist helped me a lot and im ok now but like. they proved to me that they really just cannot be helped. theyre a lost cause. at this point to me, the only thing they are are a financial source to cover my transition and im left with no choice but to force myself to play the puppet. i tried to do a mix of both working with and against them before and it blew up in my face. it sucks but thats what it is and as long as obey their shitty asses ill be fine. i dont know where my future will go but i know and pray that it cannot and will not be with them. the moment i am away from them and my belongings are not in their possession they no longer exist to me unless they genuinely will accept the fact theyre the 2nd reason my ptsd exists.

tl;dr my parents suck and im forced to play their child puppet in order to literally survive their love of me is toxic and based on a false perception of what a child is supposed to be and i regret not calling child protective services on them whe n i had the chance

[fairycosmos]

hi, im 18 and i am about to start the uni on five moths, i feel like i can’t handle school anymore and i am so afraid to fail, i am not good at maths and i am afraid of not getting good grades for uni plus i’m scared cause i don’t have experience with working, i’m living my life without being planned because i never imagined myself reaching this age and i want to die i’m afraid of not being someone and i feel like crying all the time

hey dude. i’m really sorry to hear that. it must be so hard for you at the moment, and i understand where you’re coming from a lot. take a deep breath. it’s going to be okay, even if that feels impossible to believe right now. this is the exact time in your life that you’re supposed to be afraid and uncertain and upset, it’s completely natural. a lot of people our age are dealing with the exact same thing, which doesn’t make it any less painful, but knowing it’s not something you should be ashamed of can really help. fear of failure, of the future, of change - it’s to be expected. it’d be weird if you didn’t feel that way, to be honest. so begin with processing those emotions as healthily as you can. you dont have to try to push them away, you can let them wash over you instead. allow yourself to cry about it, to talk about it, to write about it. trying your best to cope with your emotions like that will stop them from overwhelming you. accept the anxieties, but dont let them trick you. just let everything be what it is, for a while. and then look for tangible, realistic ways to calm yourself down. you’re only afraid of everything because it hasn’t happened yet. life only makes sense backwards, right? so give yourself a chance to live all of the solutions to your problems before you make any permanent decisions/choices. you’re supposed to be confused, to have no idea what to do. that’s a part of become an adult. 

for every scared, irrational thought you experience there is always a rational, more accurate counter argument. these are the ideas that are actually based in reality, the ones you can actually trust. for example, i’m not good at maths either, and i know it’s annoying because it seems like it’s going to hold you back a lot in life (i’ve been trying to get a better grade since i left school two years ago lmao and i’ve only marginally succeeded), but there are steps you can take to ensure that your skills gradually improve over time. even if you dont get the grade you need immediately, the opportunity to keep trying will always be there. every day is a new chance. i know people who are 40 years old and they’re just getting their maths GCSE now. it’s not a race, and you don’t have to achieve everything on a linear timeline, okay? but try to control what you can - try to get into the routine of studying every night, or look into hiring a tutor/taking extra maths classes. if you’re trying, you are doing more than good enough.  i promise. your brain will often try to make you feel otherwise, will try to convince you that you’re a failure or whatever, but that’s just the panic talking - it’s not the truth. no matter how certain your self hatred feels, it’s a liar. it’s trying to sabotage you, and you don’t have to lean into it. you’re doing what you can with what you’ve been given, and that’s more than most people manage to achieve. and of course you don’t have any working experience, you’re 18. it’s the exact same for me. and i know it makes it harder to get a job, but employers understand and eventually there will be somewhere that will give you a chance. it just takes a moment, and that’s alright. building up your resume takes time, basically your entire early adult life. so slow down, you’re fine. focus on one moment and one thing at a time. 

the bottom line is that you’re worrying about your future to this extent because you care about it so much, and that’s a really good thing. it means that even if you often feeling like giving up, some part of you wants to shape your life, wants to stick around because it knows that it’ll be worth it. look, when you’re depressed or anxious or just generally afraid, it’s easy to believe very overgeneralized statements such as ‘i want to die’ or ‘i’m not going to be anyone’ - those thoughts are, once again, likely produced by stress or maybe a chemical imbalance or low self esteem. but please believe me when i say that they’re not tangible or real or trustworthy. they’re just fleeting feelings/impulses, and they will pass if you give them the chance to. it sounds like bullshit, and i dont blame you for not buying it at the moment, but once you’re able to think about it all objectively - without being blinded by emotional turmoil or low self confidence - then you’ll see what i mean. above all, the most important thing to take away from the situation, is the knowledge that you don’t have to deal with this all on your own. if you take anything i say seriously, please make sure it’s this: there are LOT of resources and services available to help you learn how to deal with this sort of thing. whatever it is, whatever the cause of your sadness is - whether it’s just because you’re under a lot of pressure right now, or because of something deeper than that - there are people out there who will support you through it. where you’re at right now is definitely not where you’ll always be, please keep that in mind. i really think it could be a good idea for you to talk to someone about what’s going on in your head - whether it’s your parents, a hotline, a doctor, or even a counselor at the uni once you start. please, please don’t allow your brain to simply brush the idea off. because getting it all off your chest, and listening to a professionals advice/using their recommended coping mechanisms, could really change your perspective. talking through your worries and actively working with a trained professional to find realistic solutions will make a difference. they may even refer you to a psychologist who will be able to actually explain to you why you’re feeling this way, whether or not there’s any sort of official diagnosis that needs to be made. suicidal thoughts are somewhat common but they’re not normal, not something you should just have to put up with. your mental health is honestly just as important as your physical health, and there’s nothing wrong with seeking medical guidance. it’s actually very necessary. look, i’m not saying it’ll be a quick or easy process, i’m not saying some days wont be completely exhausting, but i’m saying that reaching out if the first step towards learning how to control those negative feelings/thoughts when they do arise. it’s ok to be scared, and to not want to open up, but just cause you dont want to doesn’t mean you don’t need to.

if i’m being straight up, the truth is that the rest of your life doesn’t depend on how well you do in school. your future happiness isn’t dictated by ‘being someone’ in the eyes of the world, it’s dictated by taking care of yourself and allowing yourself to experience this lifetime for what it is, and finding fulfillment through love and curiosity. that’s all. you’re doing so much better than you think you are, and i’m genuinely very proud of you, man. this is just a blip in the very long and very happy story of your life. you’re still young as hell. well, you’re the same age as me, and i totally get how stressful it is to turn 18, but you have so much time. theres so much for you to see, so many people for you to meet, and just because it’s daunting doesn’t mean it’s a burden. everythings going to work out the way it was always supposed to. for now, just take it one day at a time. focus on what’s in your control in the present moment/foreseeable future - such as studying and talking to someone about what’s going on - instead of fixating on things that are completely out of your hands. the future doesn’t even exist yet. you’ve got this. i’ll be rooting for you. sending all my love your way. let me know if you need a friend or if you need to talk about this properly, i’ll be here. you’re not alone. 

[bloojayoolie]

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You start abusing people when you dont get what you want its no wonder youre being called out njesus take the help mate rf you still have the cats then 100% you need the helpm is no worse than the other

[they-hold-their-breath]

Girlfriend tag

Me answering the girlfriend tag with my gf @mx-oublieux 

My answers are bold, my gf’s comments are italicized

Where and when did we first meet? 

We first met-

Outside your house! 

I'm answering it! 

Oops! 

Actually we first met over the phone 

That doesn't count! 

Why not? 

Doesn't count cause it's not meeting not if you have bpd 

But I was already starting to develop feelings for you because of that 

Really? 

Yeah 

Wow 

You were so drunk and cute and also I was realizing at that point that Mary- 

 Was being a huge Bitch? 

Right? 

Yeah I don't actually feel that way but it's true. But I don't actually feel that way. I guess I should say I don't hold it against her? 

Where was our first date? 

Our first was at the observatory in la 

Yeah that's true 

And then we went to the pride parade but I asked to go out with me in the car before the pride parade so I guess technically the pride parade was our first date 

No because we were at the observatory still when we started dating 

That's true because we made out in the care 

Heehee yeahhh 

What was your first impression of me? 

Umm I thought you were an asshole 

Yeaaahh!! 

And also truscum 

What??? Oh. Yeah. Wait what does that mean? 

It means you're a trans person who doesn't think nonbinary people exist 

God how stupid do I have to be to project that. Especially since I found out that day you were nonbinary and I was like okay! Not gonna mess this up! 

When did you meet my family? 

I met your parents when I was picking you up to hospitalize you and it was awkward as fuck 

Oh yeah that's right! Wow how exciting goodness 

And then I met you brother on the phone and he thanked me for dating you haha 

Sick 

He said he never saw you so happy 

Aw that's my bro 

And I met him in person in Seattle when he paid for my plane ticket to get away from my dad 

Yeah to get away from the old garbage dad. Trash dad. 

What dressing do I always wear? 

That's a really weird way to word this question 

Raspberry vinaigrette 

That you wear? 

Yes. 

Recently it's been the baseball cap. Do earrings count? 

Do I have earrings in? 

Yes 

No i don't 

Oh 

I never have earrings in. I had them in for a couple of days because I was dressed up but that's it 

Oh 

GUESS YOU DONT KNOW ME AS WELL AS YOU THOUGHT 

>:l

Weird habit I have? 

I don't feel like you have any weird habits 

What about how I handcuff my wrist to the ceiling fan and let it spin me while I do office work 

Oh yeah that is a little weird 

Oh my god are you writing that? I don't think that would work I don't think it could support my weight 

What about the "sounds like my ex wife" jokes 

Is that a weird habit? 

It's the closest thing I can think of 

I think my weird habit IS my ex wife 

Alright. Also, I mean it's not a habit, but that one time you made spaghetti like ramen by pouring boiling water over dry spaghetti 

What?? I don't remember doing that! 

You did 

I need to corroborate with Mary on this 

What I often do in my free times? 

Get stoned 

Sick. 

How long have we been together? 

Almost a year! Next week it's a year!! 

Oh it's so soon!!! 

What was our first road trip? 

To hang out with my parents. It was horrible and my aunt kicked us out because you're trans. 

Woo! 

And then she called us both freaks 

Hey you know I'll own it 

And she threw things at us 

Oh god yeah. That was kind of terrifying 

We both cried a lot 

First thing you noticed about me? 

That you're super hot 

Hehehe 

Especially since you were sprawled out in your trunk 

Sounds like me 

You were like posed 

What about you pisses me off? 

I'm condescending 

Hm 

Is that right? 

Um, hm, I don't know 

Is it that I'm judgmental? Of you? 

Uh, it's hard to say if I should count something that pisses me off because of bpd or something that genuinely pisses me off. I can't really think of anything. Yeah I guess it is you being condescending but it's not something I hold against you 

Yeah 

What I’m not good at? 

Stating your needs 

Yeah 

Especially to psychologists 

:p 

What I’m good at? 

Listening, being supportive, you're very receptive, you're good at makeup that's for sure, you're really creative 

Oh thanks 

You're welcome 

Favorite feature about each other? 

My favorite feature about you is your confidence how personable you are and that you always stand by me and treat me with respect and take me seriously. That's not one thing but whatever. And then I guess your favorite feature about me is that I am really responsible? Or that I listen to you and take your needs and feelings seriously? 

Um, I'd say the second one 

You don't think I'm responsible? 

I do!!! Noo! 

What do we argue about the most? 

Responsibility? I feel like? Do you agree? 

Do we? 

That's what I feel like. Or maybe financial stuff 

Hm 

What do you think? 

I guess so 

Do I have any weird obsessions? 

Maybe coffee, maybe weed 

I was gonna say weed as a joke but I feel like weed is so mainstream it couldn't possibly be weird 

 Nicknames for each other? 

Um babe? 

I feel like I call you babe most of the time 

Me too. I've also been calling you lovey recently 

Aww so cute 

What is my favorite restaurant? 

I don't know jack in the box? 

God 

Just because you go there the most 

That's true 

But that's just because we're broke 

Complete this sentence “You’re my……..”

Boyfriend 

Heehee 

I feel like usually when you say "you're my ____" you're saying "you're my boyfriend" 

Yeah