#anyway I did do a job interview

[silverserpent]

OK time to overshare

My mental health has taken a little dip last week thanks to unfortunate circumstances. Therefore

Self esteem low.

I fight off thoughts and feelings of worthlessness

standard depression

sucks but will get over it

EXCEPT

job interview enters the stage. It's the thing that grabs you out of depression. it makes you anxious, because you are judged, you need to perform, you need to be your best, your livelihood is on the line

you managed to fight off the anxiety before.

Not now.

FULL FORCE

imposter syndrome. tight stomack and frantic frantic thoughts. Fear through the roof.

throwing up after the interview level of anxiety

you didn't do that for weeks.

if not months.

...

still not over it?

Not still.

Again.

Low self esteem -> no trust in your skills -> add high stakes and wanting to please authority -> fear of failing

because failing looks probable

anxiety

anxiety makes you perform worse.

you are frantic. your hand shakes. you forget everything you thought you knew.

...you performed bad. (?)

You are worthless - says the low self esteem

let's not listen to that.

[femmeidiot]

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[spineless-lobster]

Rip hypnos you would’ve hated sending emails

[fraternum-momentum]

The star method is easier than it looks trust me😭 if they ask what was a problem at work you’ve solved before you basically just think like: the situation was the lightbulb blew out the task was getting it fixed within an hour the action you took was getting a ladder to fix it and the result was you were able to have the lights back on for everyone. It’s just a more concise way to retell a past event! Believe me, I learned it the night before I had my second interview with the regional manager at my job after the first manager recommended I practice it. I believe in u

OHHH THAT MAKES SENSE in my head i thought they were gonna present you a problem that you may confront during the job and then you solve it on the spot or smthn LAMODJQKEHQJ 😭😭😭😭

[guinevereslancelot]

applied to a bunch of jobs! 😅🙏

[aeolianblues]

I'm not an extrovert. At all. In everyday life, I'm a yapper, sure, but I need someone to first assure me I am okay to yap, so I don't start conversations, even when I really want to join in sometimes! It's just the social anxiety acting up. God knows where from and why I lose a lot of my inhibitions when it comes to talking to people about music. I don't know where the confidence has suddenly sprung from. I've made a crazy amount of friends in musical circles, either just talking to people about common music or (since it is after all in music circles) talking to bands about their own music. I let out a sigh of relief any time an interaction goes well, because in truth it's going against my every instinct. I wish I could do that in everyday life

[carcarrot]

do i really want to make individual drinks again

[theflyingfeeling]

yes it's just me whining about the same thing for the billionth time, pls just scroll past nothing new to see here 👋

[fictionalred]

I've been having a real bad day but then ephron came home, we spent some time together, I'm all good again

[the--highlanders]

do you guys KNOW how frustrated this thing makes me. like it's literally from the regiment that jamie would most likely have been in AND the story lines up so well with the plot of the highlanders and I'm just. constantly itching to retcon the episode a little bit in my head and make this the standard

but no!! the serial kind of depends on the standard being prince charles' rather than nust a regimental standard!!!! and it kills me every single day

[broadway-and-books-love]

*stops blaring music/reading/watching TV/doomscrolling for one second*

*the thoughts*

I think I’ll have a breakdown now.

[sodrippy]

guys i miss my job ):

[unproduciblesmackdown]

billions(tm): it's incredible how we just provide a little snippet of material designed to be "guy we all want to push down the stairs immediately somehow" and through this amazing acting alchemy it becomes gold. electric. magnificent. we can't get enough so we will just keep writing this loser character and the actor will somehow keep bringing the dazzling transmutation through his ability

actor will roland: [is aware autistic people are real]

[cupiare]

walking into work tomorrow for the staff training day after i got rejected for the job i was near guaranteed to get and didn’t find out the news from my boss who i was with the whole morning in TUTOR PLANNING DAY FOR NEXT YR FOR TUTORIALS THAT TUTORS WOULD BE DOING THAT I WAS BOOKED INTO WITH THE TUTORS THE ROLE I APPLIED FOR AND HAD A VERY GOOD INTERVIEW FOR i found out from a noreply auto generated email from hr that was sent out as soon as i stepped out of the meeting room :) and then got invited back to the meeting for the rest of the day where my manager repeatedly talked about taking my good ideas from my interview and implementing them into tutorials next yr. after i got rejected via generated email. How we doing guys 😆

[guinevereslancelot]

i sent a job application to a business i really wanted to work at two months ago and never heard back. today i met the owner and he told me to apply and couldn't believe i already had and got no response. turns out no one is checking the email that the website says to send applications to lmao

[carcarrot]

they cant get rid of me that easily